#i'm crying he really did it all for him

[samanthamulder]

Whatever you and I may differ on, I'll find him, Agent Scully. THE X-FILES — 8.02 "Without"

#txf #tv #txf8 #john doggett #dana scully #txfedit #the x files #tvedit #thexfilesnet #.gif #found this in my drafts under all my sets for the event that have been sitting there and collecting dust. and now I'm crying 😭 #he really saw her pain here and immediately said I will do WHATEVER IT TAKES* and then he did. guy of all time truly <3 #(*everything except dig up the body. which he was very against. but thats ok he's just such a normie. I forgive him)

[daydreamalley]

The fact that there’s only one time in Chuuya’s life that Corruption was activated (outside of the lab) where Dazai wasn’t there in the aftermath and that was when Chuuya was just 7 years old and left in the crater of the explosion he created, in so much pain and with gravity probably still fluctuating around him. Nothing but complete destruction, hell on earth, and suffering for a seven-year-old child.

Chuuya is never in good shape after he uses Corruption, and I imagine he wasn’t in good shape after he used the full force of Arahabaki (and by used I mean when it was forced out of him due to Rimbaud). And like, we’ve seen Chuuya close Verlaine’s gate when he defeated the Beast of Guivre, and it left Verlaine close to death (though I also imagine that’s in part due to the fact Verlaine isn’t really human), and we also saw earlier on in Storm Bringer when Verlaine opened Corruption for only a second and then closed the gate that Chuuya was in agony, left to suffer in the hell of what was left of the street he’d been on. 

That scene of Chuuya lying on the ground in what used to be an alleyway in excruciating pain is already hard to read, and he’s 16 then (still so young) but at least Dazai still comes (even though he doesn’t technically have to) and nullifies the aftershocks of Chuuya’s ability that are causing him so much pain. Causing him to suffer.

But imagine Chuuya at 7 years old, imagine how small that is, probably in nothing more than a hospital gown, lying in the rubble of the giant crater that will one day become Suribachi city, experiencing all that suffering and probably more. He’s completely alone in the hell of his own ability’s destruction, in unimaginable pain. His frail body that’s been in a lab for so long probably spasming with the pain as he feels the sun for the first time in who knows how long. And there was no one to hold him or catch him or for him to fall into. No one’s lap to rest his head on. No one to hoist him onto their shoulders and carry him away from the carnage. No one to nullify the pain he was in. No one to comfort him or remind him who he was.

What did he probably have to do when he woke up? Wait until he had enough strength to sit up, wait until the dizziness abated enough for him to stand, and through the disorientation walk on his own two feet despite the pain. He’d been through plenty of it after all, even if he couldn’t remember why, his body remembered.

He’d have to piece together any scraps of memory he had. His name probably came first. Then the horrific feeling of the power inside him and that he was probably responsible for the hellscape he was trying to navigate, cutting and scraping his bare feet in the crater of what was.  

Find the corpse of some military personnel that’d been killed in the explosion Arahabaki had caused, far enough away he hadn’t been completely obliterated, and at least steal some of his uniform to wear, though it was much too big for his skinny 7-year-old frame. And the shoes wouldn’t do him any good, they’d just fall off, the jacket already kept slipping off his shoulder.

And then, in that moment, he was perhaps the loneliest person in the world. Not later, when he was 16 and had someone to catch him and someone had just attempted to sacrifice himself for Chuuya. No, then he had a semblance of a family. But when he was 7, that was when he was just alone, and in pain, with no one to reassure him that everything was alright, that nothing was his fault. That his destructive power didn’t make him less human. If anything, he was probably lucky no one with bad intentions found him. 

And then who knows how long later, he’d wandered far enough away from the wreckage, under a bridge where a couple of other kids around his age found him. Still without shoes and in a military uniform far too large for him. Filthy and starving, but having the strength, having the courage to ask a kid “what’s that square thing?” “Tell me what that square thing is in your hand. Right now.” Last ditch effort of demanding, because somehow he still had a strong will. And the kid was just holding a slice of bread. Chuuya just wanted to know if he could eat it. 

Like, can we just talk about the tragedy of that? How truly sad it is that when Chuuya asked “what’s that square thing” and the answer was just bread. Shirase just explaining“I was holding a slice of bread,” and then having to show him that it was edible. Like, my god. And then Chuuya just… faints, on the spot “like he was out of batteries,” as Shirase describes. Finally all his energy and willpower to survive depleted in this moment of hopeful safety. Shirase also says Chuuya looked half dead he was so skinny.

But at least Chuuya had finally found some people who’d given him some food and water. At least Shirase decided to take him to some shelter, even if it was in the sewers. He finally had people, even if they weren’t well off, they had something. Finally he wasn’t alone. And when he learned he had something to offer them in return in the form of his ability? Well, of course he was going to use it to help them.

Also, just, his first memory was of being alone and in pain. Where he is now may not be perfect, but thank god he’s come such a long way and has people and a home and food and luxuries. But like, he just has to live with that every day.

Oh, and mind you, all this was happening to Chuuya close to the end/in the aftermath of the war, which was already a bad time for people, as Murase talks about. He says “But it was the end of the war, and there were supply shortages everywhere you went. Some kids from the Settlement appeared out of nowhere and tried to sneak inside to steal some food.” So on top of Chuuya’s personal struggles, there were shortages of supplies everywhere, bad enough that kids were trying to sneak into military facilities for food. 

So, yeah, this actually massively got away from me, into the territory of hcs and back out again. But like, every time we see Chuuya use Corruption Dazai is around, because he really has to be. And I love that. But just thinking about the one time where Dazai wasn’t around after the full effects of Chuuya’s ability and how that was probably the worst time and Chuuya was only 7 and alone and woke up in the middle of essentially hell on earth with like no memories. It makes me want to scream, and that’s why I wrote this. And then I reread the part in SB where Shirase explains how he met Chuuya and just got even sadder. Fun times fun times.

#Asagiri really sat down and wrote SB like “okay how much more trauma can I give this kid?” and the answer was all of it. #if you're wondering if I'm fine the answer is fuck no I just wrote this #And now you've just read it so I bet we're both wondering why we do this to ourselves #but like Chuuya #he's my baby boy and I love him so much and I could cry forever #bsd #my ramblings #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bsd chuuya #chuuya #bsd spoilers #chuuya nakahara #stormbringer spoilers #bsd stormbringer #bsd stormbringer spoilers #bsd headcanons #to some extent #chuuya headcanons #but like I wish more of this was just headcanons when so much of it did in fact happen #bsd analysis #kinda #bsd shirase #character analysis #I guess

[shannonsketches]

he's so important to me

#i guess i need to watch the anime but super's manga has just been a self-indulgent fever dream for me from start to finish #100000/10 absolutely perfect so validating so extremely catered to my tastes and headcanons and analyses and humor #so fucking funny and emotional and intense and goofy and beautifully drawn #my beautiful son getting to finally fucking see his HARD won character growth fucking shine and choose love and choose to be loved!!!!!! #Goku just being Goku Vegeta being Team Dad Piccolo being Team Grandpa Bulma being a fucking superstar keeping everybody organized and fed #god i love this squad i love this series i love these dumbasses and their struggles and their triumphs and their stupid childish bonding #I love that Toriyama just spent the last several years reminding the class that DB as a whole has always been an ACTION-COMEDY about LOVE #and I'm SO sad that the z anime really never did it justice in that sense because of having to fill time with dramatic tension but god. GOD #THE MANGA HAS ALWAYS BEEN SO CLEAR ON THAT THESIS. #Just all about Restorative Justice and Community and CARING even when you wish SO MUCH that you didn't care but yoU DO GODDAMMIT!!! #SUCH a great series I'm so sad it took losing mr t for me to finally read it but my god I needed to read it now and I'm so glad he wrote it #and i'm SO glad he wrote it Exactly Like This #once again rip to a legend i'm caught up and crying it's so perfect it's SO everything I've wanted to see onscreen and embedded in canon #and canon isn't everything but it still feels gREAT to be SO 1:1 on the same page with an author re: how you interpret your blorbo yknow??? #been rotating this man in my head for 25 years and Mr Toriyama just mWAH kissed me on the forehead about it #anyway enough tag rambles I'm off again aklsjla #bonus for that kenpachi shit and letting him say 'sorry dude I can't be cold and numb anymore but this is still cathartic as fuck lol' like #mr t i hope you see the HIGHEST tier of heaven for that (and obviously for like everything all of it the whole life you led)

[delyth88]

Loki - season 2, episode 6 series finale -immediate reaction

Okay, so this time I’m gonna have to split this into two posts.  This one is my reaction after just watching the finale, but this time it’s going to be mostly my emotional response, and the more considered post with images will have to wait till later.  I don’t have the heart for it right now.

So yeah, spoilers ahead.

Well that tore out my heart and stamped on it!

I mean it was an utterly perfect story for a character like Loki, but I’m still devastated. I love it. And I hate it.

I love it on a story level.  The whole season was beautifully done! Loki developed so much over the six episodes, and really won my heart back. I fell in love with the gang from the TVA, particularly OB and Mobius, and I warmed to Sylvie and just wanted her to be able to live the quiet life she’s wanted for so long.

I loved that they really went into the depth I had assumed I’d only get in a fic about the different attempts Loki made to fix things by going back in time. They didn’t just gloss over things, they really showed him trying.  I was shocked when after he asked OB how long it would take him to learn everything, he went and spent CENTURIES doing it!  My stomach dropped.  Because can you imagine what that means for someone?  Even someone as long lived as Loki?  What that has to do to your mind? And that should have been the first clue things weren’t going to turn up roses.

Then he finally succeeds! But they don’t show it to us like we’re experiencing that moment, but more as though we’re an observer, rushing through it because it’s yet another repeat. And for one brief moment Loki is happy because he thinks they’ve done it. But no, it turns out to have been an impossible task!

And then he finds out that HWR basically gave him his newfound powers, and that he still had a lot to learn, and then we see THAT HE ALREADY HAD LEARNED! The way they kept dropping the sense of time on us, that sense of dread and urgency. And inevitability. *shivers*

How he tries, and tries, and tries to convince Sylvie, but can’t get through to her, and how he has to contemplate whether he’s the sort of man who could kill her. I loved how he visited Mobius to ask for his advice. My god. What a horrible conversation to have to have.  But what trust he places in Mobius! 

And I loved how he kept refusing to take the easy path. How he decided he couldn’t kill Sylvie, and how he realised there was another way. But OMG at what price!? I can’t….

But I hated how much this hurt Loki, what this took from him.  When the gold from the rock trickles upwards to create a mockery of a throne, which is more a prison… just…. 😭 The look on his face once he knows what he has to do. He had to make the impossible choice, and he chose the impossible.

I love that it kept the tone of tragedy that has haunted Loki all through the MCU.  I love how they were true to his character in that way, but AT THE SAME TIME allowed him to retain his new sense of self, all that growth we’ve shared through this series but also the change that he’s experienced while he’s been isolated during centuries trying to find a way to defeat HWR and keep the people on the branched timelines safe. His desperate act to do the right thing.  And finally it is the right thing in the eyes of the universe and the audience, and yet he still loses. My heart just can’t bear it!

It’s perfect and it hurts.

Tagging @woodelf68 @pinkpondofasgard @projectprotectloki @scintillatingshortgirl19 @juliabohemian @galaxythreads @makerofrunevests @ladyofthestayingpower @thelightofthingshopedfor @sparklegemstone @iamanartichoke

#I just want Loki to be okay #that did not look like the face of someone who thought they'd be okay #and those were not the shoes of someone who expects to be walking around much #my poor boy #will they ever let you be? #*wails* #I'm heartbroken #its not as bad as Infinity War but its still going to take me some time to get over this #but I'm so glad they allowed him to be the serious character this season and for his actions to really matter #his intent to really matter #he did it all for those he loves #and i have to assume he was also thinking about his family and all the people he ever knew on Asgard #gah! #I'm gonna go cry some more now #loki #loki series #loki season 2 #loki spoilers #loki s2 ep6 #loki s2 finale #loki season 2 finale #loki series reaction #loki s2 #loki review #also I know nothing of the comics #so I have no idea if this is what happens in them

[sysig]

It started with a whisper ♥ (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Crackship #Xigbar #Of all the crackships that I didn't expect I probably wouldn't have expected these two the most lol #I super wasn't expecting to feel So strongly about them this is like multi-tier Big Feelings in varying directions #One - ZEX - obvious (lol) | Two - Xigbar (hehe II hehehe) - I think I mentioned it like maaaybe once over here but I was Huge into KH #Specifically Org XIII specifically-specifically 358/2 it is the only game in the Kingdom Hearts line that I've beaten and probably ever will #Oh no wait that's not true I did play through all of the DS release of Re:Coded but like......does that count lol I think no #I played the intro of Kingdom Hearts II and shut it off after the bit with Roxas and Sora like - the egg scene how do I non-spoilers this #I own it and I will never beat it I am too sad I want only my Nobodies lol <3 #Kingdom Hearts had a big influence on me - that and Magic Knight Rayearth are a big explanation as to Why I'm Like This lol #Cough cough casting away the dark parts of your heart only for it to come back and bite you later and also The Gay™ lol #But AnyWay lol - Xigbar! #He wasn't my favourite-favourite - aside from Main Characters that'd probably go to Marluxia - but I still hold him very fondly!! #Definitely doodled him a good bit he's very handsome ♪ #And just - ah ♥ An old fave and a new(er) fave interacting and making each other happy and feel nice and play well I just fsalkfdf #As well as that being Max's body! There's something heightening about all these different aspects that was just overwhelming to me haha <3 #If it's not already obvious - yes this was the happy cries lol this is the only explanation I have haha #I feel very strongly about Them and Interactions and Feeling Nice and fjdslafsdf #Anyway! This isn't Just them! Just a lot haha ♪ #I have started a playlist lol - so far it's just this song - Everybody Talks - but some of the others from SCII playlist fit well too :) #The rest is just ZEX being cute hehe <3 ZEX not understanding what crying is is very interesting to me :3c No VUX equivalent? #Seems like they don't have the same kinds of chemicals like adrenaline et al so I guess a flushing system isn't as necessary! Interesting :D #ZEX fumbliness leading to him being a bit on the back foot is so cute hehe <3 He wants so loudly and openly but actually accomplishing it- #I also really like how he holds himself - all the tension through him to fight against new muscles and bone everything too alien! #I imagine his hands as being very rigid and all the fingers pulled together straight but that could just be how he describes bones hehe #Alien in there <3 Plenty to read into :3c

[gregoftom]

where do i even start

#tomgreg #stay tuned for a special thing at the end #FIRST OFF CAN I JUST SAY. thinking about my own various skills and abilities tom says as he MOVES CROTCH FIRST TOWARDS GREG. #and he's just told greg his skills. he's got a big dick and fucks fast and hard. so like. there's that. #i'm either to assume he's already showed said skills off to greg and referring to it or he's literally being suggestive #either unconsciously or consciously. #also he wiggles his crotch a little. like. we get it you wanna fuck greg so bad it makes you look stupid. #ok so we've got the tom not tiptoeing around this like he did with shiv and straight up saying i'm not fucking happy #with you going off with somebody else. i don't like it. why are you happy and i'm not that's not fair. #you're mine. i'm not jealous tho haha #we've got them going through what looks like a wedding arch. #we've got them full on acting like a married couple with greg making excuses for tom and holding him back a little. acting like his wife. #we've got tom switching chiding greg for saying something and the ''don't say that!!'' and then greg agreeing #and saying that actually no tom is a lovely man. oh don't mind my husband he's just grouchy! #and then the WAY tom says you've ruined it like he's about to throw up or cry. or both. #and then greg being like ?? how i have ruined it?? and tom ''idk you just HAVE'' all petulant like #and you know what i'm gonna say. a schoolboy. #he's like thanks i hate it #it really is so much this episode. so much. #i have an idea from it of what fic i could write so there's something at least. a

[existencebringsonlypain]

god fuckin damn it man that video got me

#game theory #matpat #i didn't watch his theory videos all too often. a bit too high energy for me #but i watched his gtlive videos ALLLLLLL the time. #i can quote a good chunk of the ddlc videos #man. some people really don't like him but tbh from the impression i got of him he's just a passionate n kind guy #and i'm gonna miss him. to be totally frank. #ik it's a thing for utdr fans to dislike him but i don't think i can #i'm gonna miss him. #i'm full on crying right now. jsyk #i'll probably still go rewatch some of the gtlive videos i particularly liked #when i first saw the thumbnail i thought it was. like. a fnaf theory but framed oddly. no he's retiring #other ppl are gonna run the shows now #i hope he has a great life free from the shackles of content creation #i love this guy. he's a sweet dude and knows what he likes and i'm gonna miss him. #and slightly off topic but i'm glad toby fox wasn't still angry about whatever marketing thing the game theory channel did #or gtlive i think #and they're both willing to joke about the whole sans is ness theory. there's an entire segment in his video joking about it #matpat is playing the role of ness in earthbound kinda. he's also ness in the fnaf movie. which means he's sans too. it's a whole joke #a mock thumbnail n everything #i'm getting off topic. sayonara man. you did great. hoping you have a good life out there #existenceunrelateds

[maddy-ferguson]

Ngl, I really think that these bylers that are crying 24/7 about "purity culture" or whatever, are playing dumb when they start with their "but Nancy and Steve were 16 and 17 in that scene of s1!!!1" like... We got introduced to these characters at that age and the people playing them were already adults. So yeah, sorry but I think it's easy to see why most viewers would be uncomfortable with a more sexual scene of Mike and Will and it's not automatically homophobia, I think that would be the case with any of the kids since we got introduced to these characters when they were 12 and the actors were babies as well. We literally saw those kids grow. And I'm not saying byler should only get to peck or hold hands, It'd be cool if they have their epic kiss or whatever, but Will hasn't even had his first kiss yet and some of these people are already talking about sex scenes, like... Be for real 😭

funny you should say that...because i've used the nancy was 15-16 in season one argument (last tag) before while also saying that i understand why people find the sex part of their sexualities uncomfortable to discuss. and i wanna reiterate that, again, i totally understand that people feel like they've seen them grow up etc etc and that they still think of the actors themselves as children even thought they're not anymore.

i don't think it's all homophobia because like you said, people would probably feel the same about lucas and max and discussions of sex (i don't know if anyone is discussing that because there's much less discourse to have there and you can't argue that people are homophobic if they disagree with you) but i don't think it would be justified either. the "but we knew the characters when they were little" argument makes me think me of an ancient disney channel/abc show that old people and girl meets world fans who watched it for the first time in the 2010s will know, boy meets world (1993-2000). classic comic of age show, look at these kids. and eric in the back (he's fifteen).

they're eleven at the start of the show and then, what happens in any coming of age story happens, you guessed it...

they grow up. this is them in the later seasons, when the main characters are still in high school i think. they grow up, they talk about sex and about having sex at prom in season five and then they don't have sex right away because they figure it's not the right time yet or something like that, and then they have sex later and get married, the details don't matter. but my point is, who watches a show for five seasons, over years and years and gets upset at the main characters having sex because "this is crazy they used to be children"? isn't that the point of coming of age stories that cover multiple years or that focus on the latter years of adolescence, that they're not children forever and that at one point the characters "come of age" which usually includes their first sexual experiences?

i don't think the having sex part is particularly important in stranger things but also it doesn't have to be for it to be portrayed (see jonathan and nancy), teenagers have sex, it's just the way the world works. i'm not advocating for sex scenes of any kind especially because stranger things isn't a show that features a lot of sex in general, the only "explicit" sex scene being nancy and steve in season one with cuts to barb dying, but i genuinely don't think the duffers would have any qualms about portraying teenage sexuality in general with the party. if they did, they wouldn't have included erica threatening lucas to tell dustin what she found under his bed (it wasn't the communist manifesto) and they wouldn't have had max looking at a shirtless steve for an amount of time that's supposed to make the audience laugh. it's been 7 years. if they do a time jump, the babies will be about 17, played by actors who will all be around 20, the age natalia was when filming season one. the characters are teenagers, babies grow up. it happens to the best of us. i get why people would find it uncomfortable and maybe i would find it uncomfortable too but i wouldn't be scandalized. the duffers had no problem having a child actor portray everything will goes through in seasons one and especially two, i really feel like sex is fine and...not traumatizing or hard to watch compared to every single thing will's gone through lol. and again, i'm not even expecting them to have sex lmao, but i wouldn't cry myself to sleep if they revealed that everyone in the party actually knows what sex is.

last question: do we have any indication that jonathan had talked to more than one other girl (the girl at the halloween party being the one girl i'm counting for him) before he got together with nancy. i'm just asking because of your last sentence, because if we don't he should have slowed down also😭

#yes i'm back to calling people old for no reason. <3 #saying that they will all be around 20 isn't a stretch because noah's turning 19 in 4 months and they haven't begun filming yet. thank you #i'm not mad at you anon sorry for not really agreeing with you and again i get where you're coming from and i don't even expect them to #have sex and if they did i would expect it to be implied like jonathan and nancy but yeah #what i mean when i say it's not particularly important in st is that i don't think they need to have sex for will's arc to be complete or #anything😭 #i would've been happy with jonathan and nancy only kissing in s2 like idc yk it's a detail #i'm not advocating for sex scenes means HERE in this case i'm not anti-sex scenes in general lmao #i didn't watch bmw over years and years i watched it in like. a month and a half maybe i really was not crying when cory started wanting to #have sex and i was 15...an impressionnable kid who knew what sex was...disheartening i know💔 #<- that wasn't me making fun of you anon lmao again i get where you're coming from i just respectfully disagree #i looked up the episode where they have sex and (spoiler alert lol) cory and topanga end up only having sex on their wedding night i think? #and that's not the episode in s5 i'm talking about but they consider having sex and talk about it so still bringing that one up #i found an article about something rider strong (shawn) said about not liking this episode because while they talk about sex at length they #never talk about safe sex and he even talked about his concerns to the showrunner because he thought it was irresponsible since yk young #viewers and all that and he was like maybe you don't get it different generations mine grew up with aids and everything this is really #important and he brushed him off! i thought that was interesting. this has nothing to do with st #ask

[running-in-the-dark]

and I'm having thoughts again

so I've been watching that John Larroquette interview that I reblogged on repeat for half an hour now and I'm just. man I am so very....... okay I'm trying not to say that I'm stupid anymore but god what else is there to say. it's making me feel like my brain just turns off and all there is is static and [insert very high frequency screaming sound].

like I would love to be able to have actual thoughts about this shit but I am not. I just love love love people who think about shit and face their issues and work on getting better. and talk about it. like it's just a thing that happened. because it is. it's not 'oh you did bad shit in your past so you're fucked forever now'. it's 'bad shit happened, I did bad things, I confronted it, I made different choices' and that's it. I just. man I'm feeling really emotional and am probably gonna have a good long cry about this now.

#one thought that I had when my brain stopped just loudly screaming at me was #oh I totally always think I wouldn't ever end up in a cult. because it's not something that would appeal to me and shit. I'm suspicious of #anything like that. one person claiming to know everything and all that #and it just hit me like. DUDE. you would absolutely 100% end up in a cult if the right guy was leading it #like if he had a cult that I could join right now? oh dude I'd be so in. kinda joking but also like. come on I am so fucking obsessive I #would absolutely fall for that #(and lets not even get into the whole thing of actually getting attention from the person I'd be obsessed with. oh it'd be bad. it'd fuck #me up. I'd be so easy to convince if we're being honest....) #but anyway I just. I don't know #honestly though? I just love studying one person at a time from afar like. hi I would immediately explode if I ever met this man I could not #handle it. but I can absolutely find out everything I can about him and study him like. something that normal people would study idk I'm #insane. #anyway man that was a weird tangent #true tho. #I don't want to make light of actual addictions like alcoholism. I'm not. addicted I guess. but I'm absolutely fucking obsessive about shit #and I absolutely know it cannot be healthy to keep doing this #like dude you have no life because all you do is watch other people live theirs. why am I studying this man's life like it matters. it's not #making anything better. knowing every damn thing he did in the 80s will not make up for the fact that I don't have. anything. #fuck now I'm really crying oh well this really took a weird turn #fuuuuck. #personal

[liketheletter-l]

mq s3e8 spoilers

y'know what really hurts?

i think poppy has been fearing this (ian not actually wanting to work on her game) for a long time. i think ever since they started grimpop, she's been wondering if they'll still work together when the roles are reversed.

i think poppy's always tried to comfort herself with the idea that their imbalanced relationship was okay, because one day she'd be in charge. she'd be the one with the vision. one day the game would be hers. and poppy told herself that when that day came, ian would listen to her. ian would be the one trailing her, hanging onto her every word, like she did to him at mythic quest's start.

poppy daydreamed of just being in charge for once. to be the one that could shoot down his ideas. the one who could go on insane ego trips because she had the vision. being respected and appreciated and valued and praised the way ian is, not only by the public but by ian himself.

and it would make all of it worth it.

i think poppy was really really hoping that when the day came, ian would respect her. that he'd accept the role, and everything would be fine, and they would be them again, but it would be her turn in the spotlight, and ian's turn to actually listen to her.

and now she's finding out that it was never going to work both ways.

ian doesn't respect her. ian doesn't want to listen to her. ian doesn't care about her vision.

i don't really see them coming back from that.

#mythic quest spoilers #i'm so fucking emotional about them #never been this invested in grimpop but throw poppy li crying like she did at the end up on the screen i'm there. i'm there #also this isn't necessarily ian neg?? i don't even know if that applies #is there really discourse in the mythic quest tag #are all 5 mythic quest fans gonna duke it out #anyway i'm trying to say i don't hate him he is FASCINATING #i love their fucked up relationship #poppy li #ian grimm #mythic quest #not ship btw #mq

[inthecarpets]

I'm not sure if i have anyone to ask so i got a question regarding Good Omens season 2 here

i'm asking pretty much:

Does the second season of Good Omens get better?

Like: i watched the first episode and felt disappointed given how well written and throughrough the first season was. And the second season in the very first episode felt as if it was lacking.

Dad, who i was watching it with, thought it wasn't good. And he's one of those people who can actually tell if a production is well done, bad or just mid. (and He thought the first season was good and enjoyed it even tho he dislikes when authors play around religions in fiction as he finds it mocking toward religions.)

Maybe it was a mistake to re/watch the first season hours before watching the second one, but honestly i'm unsure whether i should watch it further, i might simply skip it? In this case for me the fandom fun is not important, i just want it to be actually good and as thought through as the first season, and i fear it is not the case.

#i cannot let conservative dad sit through a queering of a mid tv show #and 'representation time uwuuuwu!!' #'fandom/shipping pandering uwuuwuwu' #like idk. it's something i fear #sibling said second season mcs are gay and dad did not react to that at all #but if it's only mid but queer then i'd rather not watch further with him at all #carpet talks #Good Omens 2 #Good Omens second season #Good omens opinions #Good Omens criticism #also like: One thing is Crowley in the first season crying out that he didn't really want to fall. but if in second season they are going #to make religion look bad then my dad is going to be displeased #so it'd be another reason not to watch #(someone reading this might think my dad only thinks like that about christian stuff and i'm just going to cut it short: siblings offered #him watching a mockery movie on some small country and culture and he wasn't pleased either. :/ He said he really dislikes mocking of any #religion country or culture within popculture

[starkcontrasts]

genuinely s2 of fate the winx saga left so much shit up in the air/unadressed that i don't even think andreas knew that silva built him up as this mythical hero figure in sky's head.

*spoilers ahead for the season obviously*

like. genuinely they never discuss it so i feel like we're just led to believe andreas?? doesn't fucking know?? that saul told his son only the best parts of him?? that silva carefully curated sky's image of his father to be someone worthy of admiration and love?? that silva omitted andreas's anger issues and jealousy and brutality?? that he made sure sky never found out abt his father's bad reputation from anyone else at the school? that saul raised sky to love andreas??

truly did andreas just think silva stole sky from him in every aspect, physical and emotional? did this misconception contribute to his asshole attitude towards sky? is that why he was constantly hounding on him and insulting silva and also why he was so upset abt the sword thing? was andreas, out of spite, intentionally proving all the bad things he believed silva said abt him but actually never mentioned? these are the kinds of questions i have that will never be answered now that he's dead again, i'm traumatized babes

#was his very cursory look at sky's bedroom filled with andreas's medals enough to tell him saul built his image favorably?? #you'd think he'd have that revelation right bc sky literally described the room as a shrine to andreas #but the show never acknowledges it #in his anger towards saul andreas still has the house burnt down #granted he takes a baby picture of sky first but that's it. that's as far as the show goes with andreas getting a peak #into sky and silva's life together #and god knows this man never talked to silva abt it seemingly? #so like. did he really die not knowing silva built his image in honor and love? i'm crying #ftws s2 #fate the winx saga spoilers #andreas of eraklyon #saul silva #sky of eraklyon #fate the winx reaction #ftws andreas #ftws sky #ftws spoilers #andreas x silva #HE FUCKING LOVED YOU ANDREAS AND HE TAUGHT YOUR SON HOW TO DO THE SAME #SCREAMING INTO THE VOID THIS COULD'VE ALL BEEN AVOIDED IF THEY'D JUST TALKED LIKE ADULTS

[kazeofthemagun]

"If you must weep, Do it right here in my bed as I sleep If you must mourn, my love Mourn with the moon and the stars up above If you must mourn, Don't do it alone"

#final fantasy unlimited #ffu #ff:u #kuroki kaze #kaze kuroki #my art #I was watching Vin/land Saga and the whole arc with mourning the damage caused got to me #I already said that the MC gave me much inspo when writing young Wind Warrior Kaze but here I am again comparing the two and it comes out #subconsciously in artwork xD #Kaze can still cry but it takes so much that he repeatedly says he thinks he can't anymore. Or when he does it's over something he #considers not good enough a reason. Mostly he just thinks he has no right to mourn personal things anymore since he's committed to an #impersonal task and worldview that will inevitably have him kill again and again #So the Weapon mindset of 'I'm not a person only a tool' helps relieve some guilt over all that #But he still spends most of his time mourning others rather than himself #And Storm's mantra did not help obviously #Young Kaze would fight and cry frequently. Go berserk with tears of rage faced with Lahriktaar's injustice in making literal children fight #their wars for 'honor' and a promise of Paradise #A Paradise which did not exist since it was only really a deified Pillar of Darkness and it consumed them all in the end #blargh

[theinfinitedivides]

to every single cast and crew member who conspired and came together to convince Shah Rukh to open his f*cking shirt for that glorious, glorious shot in JJP that is permanently burned into my brain. bc he is a Shy Boi ™ and Smol ™ and must be coaxed into doing so very carefully or else he will refuse altogether. tysm truly you are out here doing God's work even though they did not ask you to and i am kissing you on your hand on the forehead on the cheek on the mouth with tongue for those of you who are into that sh*t (like me *cough*)

#film: pathaan #pathaan #shah rukh khan #srk #bollywood #local gay watches Bollywood.txt #all the shots of staff holding the end of his green ensemble so he can do pushups and not trip (therefore giving us a glimpse #of waist [!!!] for us to drool over like some repressed Victorians). 10/10 #he held himself up by his forearms when rehearsing for the window shot and Deepika was like 'this is an opportunity i cannot miss' #and stood straight between his legs. 10/10 #yes i'm going feral over the JJP look(s) again bc YRF made me by posting more BTS footage. what of it #i was going to out myself as a thigh admirer and say something to the effect of the cake is in the legs up in the post #but i decided against it and just kept that in the tags sfjsfdnkjsdnj #look he has abs!!! and thighs!!! we are under full on hoe alert for this look in this house!!! #him complaining over FaceTime to Gauri(? i'm assuming although it could be one of the children) afterwards #'they're making me eat too much and he's [Siddharth] making me take my clothes off' crying #bby if we wanted you naked we'd ask for more than that chest shot OK rn we are settling for what we can get #but seriously tho what mode was his brain on in Besharam Rang and Dard-e-Disco. where was the switch #bc he was completely shirtless in both songs and in BR's BTS i did not see him looking at all shy #then again no one else was really dressed either so he had company??? ig??? #idk idk #also Arijit cameo!!! it was only for like a second at the beginning but he is notoriously camera shy so that was a treat #and everyone vibing around the lamppost at the end #i love them so much

[lightasthesun]

I cooked for my grandparents tonight and could've cried happy tears. I'm still grinning as I'm writing this almost an hour after dinner. My grandpa is a fantastic cook, he taught my mum and my mum taught me (although I cooked with him on a few occasions as a child as well) and so I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a bit nervous while cooking for them tonight. I wanted him to like it so bad because he is such a good cook and I wanted him to realise I picked that up as well. Lo and behold, he couldn't stop praising the dish I made. He called it excellent and delicious and he praised my choice of side dishes and the general way everything complimented each other. He went for seconds and I couldn't believe my ears when he said he was going to get a little more because my grandpa doesn't really eat that much anymore so not only did he like it enough to continue praising the taste and always somehow circle back to it throughout the evening even when we'd already moved on to a different conversation, as if he just remembered how great it was and had to voice it once more, no! He went back to get another plating!!! And afterwards he turned to me and said, "you know when I first saw the amount of pasta you'd made I thought we'll still be having this tomorrow but now it's all gone", and "this is the best pasta dish I've ever had", and "this is so much better than Bolognese why don't they have this in Italian restaurants", and turning to my grandma "we need to make this ourselves some time, we absolutely need to make this ourselves", "we don't have to pair it with any side dishes either I'm happy just to eat pasta", and "this would go very well with salmon as well" and I could not wipe the grin of my face. I still can't. Usually he doesn't like pasta too much because he finds it 'boring' but this dish made him say he doesn't need anything but this and he'll be satisfied and happy.

God I love him.

#grandparents #family love #and I'm just so happy i could make him that happy #like you don't understand hes a calm gentleman #he only really wakes up when he gets to tell a story or something #and he was practically falling all over himself #and he didn't even necessarily complain me to my face although he did that at first #no he just kept talking to himself about how great it was #this will be part of the 7 minute memory reel I'll see in my brain before i die #I've learned so much from him #all my best traits i have from him #crying