#i'm excited and sad at the same time

[deoidesign]

important distinction.

Testing a few different things with this one

#I spent straight up 5 hours testing out and trying to use different animation programs and you know what #they all suck all the fun out of it for me. frame by fram 4 ever yaaa #anyways I'm thinking about trying to make like an animated short or something. might get some voice actors and everything #extremely excited thinking about it #however I fucked up super hard and I accidentally overwrote my original file with my reduced size version. so #I only have this like 500px version of this now #so if I were to use this clip I'd have to redo it anyways #but I think I wouldnt? idk. maybe I would. but either way I was just doing this as a test I dont think I'd want the same composition anyway #this is what I am telling myself so I dont get sad losing that file WHWLJGLJGLKSJG I am extremely sad about it but. its okay. #ok anyways #animated gif #2d animation #my art #digital art #ocs #my ocs #time and time again #animated #animation #gif #rough animation #adam #ttawebcomic

[inloveanddepth]

so soul fighter looks fun

#going to update this when the splash arts are out 😁 #anyways the skin team chose violence this round wow #evelynn was such a pleasant surprise i'm so excited to see my girl #i love it when the league of legends character tortures & murders people <3 that is my favourite type of league of legends character #if these three don't get into some serious shenanigans i'm going to be SO sad :( #did not include viego shaco or naafiri here because 1. not enough room & 2. naafiri's splash isn't out yet #so bizarre that they decided to have jhin lux & pyke in the same skinline twice in a row. empyrean was just 8 months ago #rito on their way to give pyke the most skull-shattering trauma for the seventh time 🤠 #according to the lore each soul fighter has a unique superpower & i'm just curious what jhin's is going to be #league of legends #soul fighter

[b4kuch1n]

Your swsh art always makes me want to replay the game because i love it and its my favorite pokemon game and every time i play another pokemon game i think of it how i miss certain elements from swsh. Then i boot up the game and im once again caught in the 1 hour 40 minutes hand held intro and im like ah- now i remember why i have been playing other pokemon games instead of this one. Happy (late?) birthday!

you don't want to listen to hop? you don't want to hear him teach you about type matchups? you don't wanna let him cheer u on...? 🥺 waa....?

#ask #bakuspeech #I am joking to be clear lmao #thank u happy bday to me !! #tbh I got real used to pokemon overexpositioning since sumo lol. it's kind of a boon for me #cause I'm not a Gamer™ and my brain takes stuff on Very slowly #so the tutorial stuff and the cutscenes give me time to catch up. also it's still fun to see these guys run around #I am in fact here for these guys lol. weird thing to say about the game built on and with an essential focus on the pokemon I know #I just like humans! I just like watching hop running circles around my player character all excited #and leon being a dick to his hometown people when they're expecting 'leon' back and they get the champion instead #and you get to see sonia used to dealing with it but the frustration never fully fades and how close she is to hop and that picture's bleak #listen this is my bread&butter lol. leon really doesn't show up That much himself around the game he's a shadow casted over the story #it's always interesting to me! does Not mean it's not sluggish to other people who want to play the game lmao #but I like it. also the tutorial at least the first time around was necessary to me bc the difficulty scales way up later on lol #it's a very good first pokemon game I maintain this. sumo never managed to teach me the same way swsh did #I still care drampa tho thank u drampa for being real I love u #lmao it feels like saying I'm not a Gamer™ violates some tenets of having adhd somehow. but its just the case here #the main genres I play are 'itch games tangential to the haunted ps1 people' and 'popcap-style casual games' #my sport's figuring out shapes n movin my stylus sadly. well not sadly why would that be sad

[genderqueerpond]

amyeleven fivenyssa crossover

#the three people who would like to read this get excited and then get disappointed because i never finish anything #but the thing about fivenyssa is that she's his daughter #and it's supremely fucked up #and the thing about amyeleven is that she's his Everything and it's supremely fucked up #and also she's the one who asked the doctor if he's a father and well. she'd get it the second she saw nyssa #i know that line was SUPPOSED to be about susan and susan's hypothetical parents but in my heart it's about nyssa of traken #and the thing about eleven and nyssa is that they'd have extremely deep and intimate conversation about being the last of their kind #she's probably the only person in the universe that he could talk about it truly openly with and it'd be like. #nyssa I'm so sorry i never fully understood you. i couldn't. i do now #and she'd be so SAD about it because she never ever wanted that for him #she never WANTED him to understand her like that because the only way he ever could was to go through the same thing #and nyssa would never consider that price to be worth it #but now she knows it's going to happen and she can never tell her own doctor #and it's devastating devastating but also deeply healing for them both but especially eleven #.... #and the thing about amy & five is that she'd know him. of course she would. she'd Believe he's the doctor and Understand about regeneration #and immediately tell him about the first time she met Her raggedy Doctor and he'd be like. you shouldn't be telling me this but #he'd be stunned and captivated by the amount of love and also possesiveness in her voice and wouldn't be able to bring himself to stop her #and she'd see straight through him and make him feel naked and raw and at the end she'd hug him goodbye and kiss him on the forehead #the way eleven does her because he's a CHILD to amy compared to eleven and he can't hide that #and the thing about eleven and five is that they'd each be deeply ashamed of the other #and finally #the thing about amy and nyssa is that they'd make out sloppy style #..... #............ #voices offscreen: #'i can't believe you called her my daughter and then made out with her' #'yeah and how many times have you made out with my daughter what's your point' #lavender thoughts #dw

[not-poignant]

Hi Pia!

You’ve probably had to explain this a hundred times already, but I’m new to your fandom so I’ve likely missed previous explanations. I was just wondering when will you be posting Underline the Silver?

I haven't needed to explain this much at all! But you also might not like the answer I'm afraid, because it's: 'I have no idea' but also 'really not very soon at all.'

It will likely start around the time that Underline the Blue or Underline the Gold come close to finishing, or Underline the Black finishes, which almost certainly puts it into early or mid 2024 at the earliest.

Underline the Red and Underline the Silver will both kick back off around the same time.

I currently have an extremely full slate which is nuts even by my standards. I wrote it out for a friend tonight and:

Underline the Black - 4-5 chapters a month (every Thursday) A Stain that Won't Dissolve - 2-3 chapters a month (every second Sunday) The Nascent Diplomat - 1 chapter a month Constellations - 1 chapter a month (will eventually replace The Nascent Diplomat) Palmarosa - (god help me) 3-4 chapters a month (this is so unsustainable, this is my fault for wanting to write a BG3 fic) Underline the Blue - 2 chapters every few months Underline the Red - as above (but on hiatus for my sanity) Underline the Gold - as above (they all just cycle with each other)

I don't know how to tell you how incredibly nuts this is, but I think I can sum it up as '2-3 stories at the same time used to be where I was most comfortable.'

And this is not 2-3 stories.

I am really really just not going to be able to write anything outside of this, at least until some of these stories finish (and some of THESE stories are on hiatus or minimalistic schedules already), because like...

as much as I like to treat myself like a words machine, I am unfortunately a human person, and I've reached the point of thinking about crying when it comes to keeping even this up.

So yeah Underline the Silver can wait for when I'm excited about new stories again and not dreading them because my current writing slate is 'oh god oh god WHY IS EVERYTHING BURNING' dsakljfdsa

#asks and answers #pia on writing #it was sustainable until it suddenly wasn't #underline the silver #palmarosa has a lot to answer for but i also genuinely love writing it so i'm not going to stop #the tl;dr here is 'i don't know and i will be excited for it when it's time' #'but it almost won't be soon enough by anyone else's standards' #'because they're not seeing the bigger picture probably in the same way' #most serials take me 1-3 years to complete #i cannot start those commitments lightly #and i hate - i HATE - putting things on hiatus once i've started #the fact that i've already had to do it with like two stories #(smoke in autumn and underline the red) #fills me with tiny and sad noises #asklfjdsfdsa i'm sorry anon #i both don't know and know enough to know it might not be for a good long while #i would say *at least* two of Black / Blue / Gold have to be *completely finished*

[vreemd]

holy fuck they accepted our offer on. what is now probably our future house?

#we went quite a bit under the asking price which is nice #there's still an inspection that needs to be done. but. I think it should be okay?? hopefully? #I'm also having some. well quite possibly the worst news possible in the family so I'm just #experiencing grief and disbelief and just. idk existential sadness. #and extreme joy and excitement at the same time so I'm a bit scrambled but. house? #m

[torgawl]

link click is that show that has me constantly on the edge of my seat (figuratively of course i love laying down) there isn't a single boring moment

#i'm feeling so many emotions at the same time #very excited very happy it's back but also very emotional damaged after the officer's death.... i am so sad #if they show his wife receiving the news i will break #he was so excited to be a father 😭😭😭😭 #i hope the bad guys don't have a good justification for doing evil things because i don't want to feel guilty for wanting to explode them #with my mind 😤😤😤 #literally what the fuck #the one dude was supposedly friends with the officer too for years.... did he just like fake everything?? SCUMBAG #anyways qiao ling fighting <333 I LOVE HER #she's awesome i love women #i am so happy the trio is back #hopefully forever 😤😤😤 #link click spoilers

[ceruleanfuckup]

So I had a fantastic date tonight.

#it was a gym date and the first time we were meeting each other so i was nervous about it but it turned out to be really really nice #he's new to the poly stuff and the way that he spoke about it told of an emotional and intellectual intelligence that was so fuckin hot #he's really cute and we have a kind of shocking amounts of crazy passions that are exactly the same #he can quote scott pilgrim as much as me #he has dice tattoos #he got really excited when i gave him the origami ball i made while bored in a meeting today and wouldn't stop fidgeting with it #we got dinner afterwards and talked a lot about a lot of different things about each other and it was just really nice #and he told me i have the prettiest brown eyes 🥺 #he also said that he showed his husband my pictures and he was like 'damn he looks like he has a strong stomach.not abs but like a strongmn #and i got SO EXCITED #i pointed out my gym crushes to him because i wanted to test the jealousy waters and he reacted very well #he answered my questions with a level of thoughtfulness and contemplation that i felt deeply attracted to #i just think I'm going to fall for him really hard and I'm very very excited about it #my love life has been... lackluster recently for a lot of different reasons #and I'm so fucking excited to have someone that i can be excited about who is just as excited about me #I've been craving that for so long #I'm just thrilled and looking forward to the next date #we're going to be talking a lot #I'm gonna be a little sad for a second. the person who i thought was my stream of consciousness has shown me that he doesn't really care #and that's been hard for me to come to terms with. we haven't even had a conversation about it #but he's been the only person that I can tell things to when i get excited about something #and i don't feel like i have that. so I'm writing in a Tumblr post about this because I don't feel like i have anyone #to get excited with me about things #hopefully that will change soon. I'm very hopeful about him. #just please. whatever deity is out there. please let me find some happiness here. i have been craving and wishing for way too long #personal #edit: another very very good sign is that he's much smaller than me and a trans man who is getting back into the gym #but he didn't seem intimidated by my size and was even comfortable taking flexing selfies with me after. #if existing around me or in that setting triggered any physical insecurities #he didn't show it. which was a big change from the ball of anxiety i saw when walking into the gym. I'm just impressed in a few ways

[thosetwofirefighters]

find the word challenge

rules: share snippets of your work containing each of the words the previous poster selected for you (optional addition: if you can't find the word in your WIPs, or you simply don't have any WIPs, you can just write a sentence around the word)

thanks @the-likesofus for the tag!! very excited to see how many of these words I've used...

my words are: quiet, hold, cover, first, together, and small. unsurprisingly, my fake dating au (currently sitting at almost 30k words like it has been for the past few months...) has all of these words multiple times lol <3

quiet

Buck’s phone rings, and he pulls it out of his pocket, his hands shaking when he reads Bobby’s contact name. He answers before he can even register it. “Pops?” His voice is quiet and terrified.

hold

Hearing footsteps from his spot on the couch, Buck tenses as Nathan comes up the stairs. It’s been so long, but Buck can still recognize the man’s footfalls. He lets out a breath he’d been subconsciously holding when Nathan finally appears and moves towards one of the armchairs across from him instead of the couch.

cover

“Jurassic Park!” Chris yells, and Buck has to cover his ears against the sound, the kid’s excitement causing him to be louder than usual. “Please, Dad, I know it’s kind of scary, but they just put it back on Netflix, and I’ve seen it before! Plus, I’m ten now, I won’t have nightmares!”

first

“I don’t want you to get hurt again,” Eddie says, meeting Buck’s gaze. His eyes are soft and despite his words, they shine with support, and Buck thinks—not for the first time—how lucky he is to have a best friend like Eddie.

together

Nathan’s study abroad had been nearly over when Buck brought up the idea of him going to Los Angeles to fight fires and help people. Nate had just nodded before taking Buck’s hand and kissing him, saying he’d buy the plane tickets in the morning. Buck had assumed they’d be going back together to be together.

small

Eddie glares at Chim when he insists on playing with the station’s small Hildy gadget that they keep in the kitchen. They mostly use it to play music, but Chimney takes the opportunity to ask her a bunch of questions throughout the day and only stops when Eddie threatens to run her over with a fire truck after Chimney starts asking her questions about the 118 themselves.

words for people I tag: home, care, love, make, and dream

no pressure tagging @mooshkat @jacksadventuresinwriting @ty-in-bedlam @lilbuddie <3

#so many of these were JUICYYYY #but i said lets be mysterious for once #and then i actually succeeded in not giving yall the juiciest tidbits? for once? #the snippet for 'hold' is so rough but like. we'll get there #i've decided to re-read all of my fake dating fic because OOOH BOY did I forget the vibes of the last chapter i've written #it is SPICY yall (not in the smut way) #asdgdsh tbh i feel evil giving you pieces of buck/nathan (an omc) and barely any buddie >:) #also jurassic park my beloved!! #it is my go-to when it comes to a movie to put in a fic tbh....like #it's my favorite and i am convinced chris would love it once buck convinced eddie to let them watch it together <3 #omg new headcanon just dropped buck and chris read jurassic park 'together' when chris is a teenager #not together together but like at the same time #when chris finally puts his foot down and says no more bedtime stories buck gets sad and so they come up with a new thing #aka buckley-diaz book club and i am SO writing that fic #holy shit i'm so excited it's gonna be so cuuuute #anywayyy i was looking through all my uses of 'cover' and didn't have to read past the jurassic park mention soooo love that lol #seriously though i cannot wait to edit this fic after i finish re-writing the earlier chapter i've been working on #i forgot how much i love editing my own work since i have most recently been working on a lot of lil projects that require little revision #but it's so fun! i truly am an editor at heart hehe <3 #i am going to 1) try to read it like I would someone else's work (which is impossible but like. we can try) #2) stop thinking about the big picture and focus on line edits and perfecting what i've already edited and had betaed #3) read it and edit like a motherfucking poet #this fic is gonna be so gorgeous i stg #she's got good bones now she just needs a decorator #and yk the last 60-ish percent of it lol #mine #wip #find the word challenge #tag game

[astriiformes]

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#really genuinely disheartened by the news about the latest toh ep leaking weeks before it was supposed to premiere #because like i would never watch an episode early when it's not what the creators want. that's a terrible thing to do #but it seems like a lot of other people just do not care #and so instead i have to just sort of. lock myself out of the fandom for a while #which given how few things i have to get excited about these days.... eurgh #i was really excited about the timing of this one; it's right after tlovm comes back and right around the time the semester starts #and i'm sure it'll be fun to watch when it actually comes out but #not the same as the whole fandom being hyped about it #which for the penultimate episode of a show that was cancelled early? sucks #and i hate how many people seem to not care or think it's okay to watch the leaked episode just because other people are doing it #like i don't hang out in fandom tags fortunately (for many good reasons) #but going 'well. guess i have to avoid ao3 or checking out new followers' blogs' and things like that is :/ #even the little fanwork discord server i'm in that i usually feel like is a nice space has folks that just... don't seem to care #and i like that space a lot but i'm considering muting it which makes me sad #i just don't get how people could be so disrespectful to the folks creating stories they love. that's awful #idk. guess i'm glad i have other fiction to care about right now #anyways! that's me done being sad about something relatively silly! #but :/

[tracybirds]

not to project too hard onto a fictional character but at what point did it just become so standard for John to get high grades in academics that his family stopped acknowledging it because that was the norm

#is this bc i told my family about my results and literally no one said anything despite responding to my second question #so i know they saw it #yes 😔 #come on fam I'm allowed to be proud and excited and I want to share that 🥺🥺🥺🥺 #yes I DO want to be told congrats for every result I worked hard for that!! #how is it that my friends and colleagues are more hyped than you i don't get it #(i will make character sad for the same reasons as me watch out) #anyway my family are very lovely but alas tall poppy syndrome is rampant #and i'm just more senstive bc the sads are here for other reasons #but also dude :( #idk #also this is not a post meant to be like john's soooo much smarter than everyone else bc he is not and I'll die on that hill #they're all smart #but i do like the idea of him being into academics and basing just a bit too much of his self esteem on his grades #and falling just a wee bit on the arrogant side of pride when it comes to those smarts #bc that is something I do unfortunately relate to 🤪🤪 #forreal physics students get a bit of a god complex and are super insufferable for a few years source: me #so #am i rambling to make myself feel better yes #poking fun at john is a favourite past time of mine what can i say #anyway releasing this into the world bc screw it #then I should probs make dinner bc it's getting a bit late

[fluffs-n-stuffs]

got sad about something, so sharing some of my fave pokemas Eusine screenshots to cheer up. :'} 💖 /smol vent in tags ueue

#hahhh anxiety is . not fun #I hate how aware I am of how much I stutter and fumble with words whenever I try to talk about pkmn with some friends /nbh #because I'm just so excited !!!!! and want to talk about many things !!!!!!! and brainrot about a whole bunch of characters !!!!!!!!!! #though most of them don't care about pkmn in the slightest (not a fault at all- just a matter of diff preferences) #but a a aa a that long awful silence that follows every time I try saying something......... #mayhaps I shouldnt bring it up with them anymore- I think it just makes me sadder in that way sdjkfsndsn #anyways happi Eusine to purify the soul #the way he adjusts his bowtie the same way Morty adjusts his scarf guys guys Guys... . . . 🥺🥺🥺💖💖💖💖💖 #fluff sad hours

[sysig]

Happy ♥ (Patreon)

#Doodles #Featuring the couple days I was out-of-my-mind energetic and excited and happy haha #Got hit with a Huge inspiration which actually got me minorly refixated and into hyperfocus #As previously mentioned in my Anger towards Lightworks lol #It's going much better now! Unfortunately I have since come down from my high haha #But then also At The Same Time that was going on got hit with a wave of happies on top of the big inspire so that was fun lol ♪ #Had like two straight days of just bouncing around excitedly haha #Crying is a good release valve ♫ Including for overwhelming happies hehe #Happy counterpart to the big-mouth sad lol it's good to yell in the opposite direction #And then gotta resupply all the love in my MewTwo plushie! ♥ #I'm usually very gentle with him but I couldn't resist giving him an extra squish - cute aggression while on an emotion high lol #Well even though I've levelled out again Hopefully the project that was started in this midst turns out really nice >:3c #I'm planning for it to! I'm still excited for it in a regular and normal way lol #Oh so normal about it hehehe

[labaguetteisdabest]

sorry don't mind me having a fangirl feels attack and setting my book down and probably concerning most of the people in this room

#keeper of the lost cities #kotlc #heartstopper #mcga #pjo hoo toa #pjo #pjo fandom #pjoverse #riordanverse #heroes of olympus #this really happens with most of the good books i read #whether it be my first time #or thousandth #i still get excited or sad at the same stuff at the same level #then again #every other fanperson does too... #right #i'm not like making stuff up

[scorpiotrait]

also aged up Indie and the twins because children are ✨boring✨ Indigo Volkov (werewolf): Outgoing | Art Lover Narcissa Rian (spellcaster): Neat | Perfectionist Orion Rian: Polite | Outgoing

#ignore Narcissa's glitchy eyes #Indigo looks nothing like Bellatrix which makes me sad because that means that Lyra's purple genes have exited the building #I'm getting too excited to finish this legacy #it's been SO LONG i just want something fresh #but at the same time I love it #ts4 #Legendary Legacy #Rian-Goth Household #llgen5 #Indigo Volkov #Narcissa RIan #Orion Rian

[her-dystopia]

Can I stop seeing stray kids' concert fancams on instagram? I'm already aware that i'm broke and they will never come to my country 😭😭😭

#i mean i love those fancams that's a good content #but when i see how they react with stays i got excited sad and jealous at the same time kdndndn #like excited for stays because seeing boys live must be like !!!!!!!! #sad because i'm poor lmao #and jealous because why i'm not there 😭😭😭 #even when they would come here idk if i could afford it lmao #anyway have fun stays tell them i love them and that they're worthy of love and happiness 💌 #stray kids #kpop #fandom #bang chan #lee know #changbin #hyunjin #han #felix #seungmin #i.n. #chit chat