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astrxealis · 2 years

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also also sorta offtopic but: what other games do ya play?? GO FULL OUT IN RAMBLING

ik you've seen me ramble abt twewy all the time but I also love pokémon, kirby, legend of zelda, detroit become human and golden sun !!! my brother has also been playing Hades lately and tho the playstyle isn't my thing bc I get stressed easily IT'S AN AMAZING GAME AND I LOVE IT

someday I will be able to properly try playing final fantasy and fire emblem HAHA if I have the time to play I'll let you know !!! I really want to try those games TT

HEHEHE AHJBHGDBJGH omg if you say so ,, under the cut bcs idk how much i might. ramble GSGBHB <3 <3 <3 warning. just in advance. sorry annie but you've just enabled me HGSBDHJG

( ok i finished writing. uh. i think i legitimately spent more than an hour what. BUT UHM warning it might be really long but idk HSBDHJG but disclaimer yes no need to read it all!! and tysm once again!! and sorry for. so much rambling HSDJHBG )

( edit again bcs i've woken up HOLY SHIT I DIDNT REALIZE I DIDNT POST THIS. I JUST SAVED DRAFT AND THEN POOFED HELP )

OKAY WAIT FIRST. ik you want more twewy moots yes AND THO i do consider myself to like twewy i still am sadly not into it that much yet despite i rmbr uhh neo demo, wanting to watch the animation, and then once it was on sale. i was hyperfixated on it WHFBJH and then moved on to . triangle strategy HJDSBJG which i still don't have but i cld maybe ask a friend who i convinced to buy it bcs he was curious and i was like ROLAND ROLAND ROLAND and i was rlly excited bcs it ws just around release but they haven't even touched it at all so i'll one day force him to lend me it (and i'll never return it JKJKJK HLEP) BUT YEAH. i feel like i wrote that latter bit w no breath breaks

!!! i rmbr you talking abt pokemon once (IN DMS ?? >O< & ff7!!) and ofc ik you love loz HEHE i was goin thru pics some time ago and. came across the link stuff again GDSGB ^^ I DON'T THINK I KNEW YOU LIKED KIRBY AND DBH THO ... kirby is ADORABLE but i've only ever played like. 5 minutes worth of one of the old games HGBSJHD and loz botw which i haven't finished yet bcs i am not enthusiastic to do the bananas and i had to give back the card to my tita TwT DHB okay funny story we had to make smth for school once and i used a somewhat triggering photo and thankfully it wasn’t anything too bad and no one got yeah. also i was rlly young. but DAMN i’m better now thnkfully ALSO i rly wnt to play sometime >< <3

HADES OH MY GOD I LOVE THAT GAME (than and zag. oh god) !!! i'm only a few hours in uhh around 16?? >< i shld def play more ,, can understand it not being your type in playstyle AHBAHFBJ but fr it's amazing and so loveable <3 tbh i kind of get stressed a bit easily like. i could MAYBE be that kinda "toxic" gamer but i'm too nice and don't want to be mean Out Loud so that's good THGBJ i like the stress . somehow. I HOPE YOU CONTINUE ENJOYING!!!!!

okay uhh so we have a lot of games here. kinda?? my game library in my Head is huge but in my actual reality kind of but not really T__T so ofc there's final fantasy!! i like all 15 (and the upcoming 16th) and the spin offs but i definitely haven't played em all yet HSBDJHG 7, 10, 14, 15 i've played! we have 8, 9, 12, and 13 (kinda, doesn't work anymore T_T) >< also type 0 i think but idk </3 i blame/thank my dad's side esp for me w games/anime/ff HGBJSDH!! 14 is kind of obviously my fave game hehe <33

fire emblem!!! 3H is the one i've only played but i LOVE awakening and fates >_< and shadows of valentia!! i know that even less but i love the credits song which i've alrdy accidentally spoiled myself on and the characters i know!

OK SO UHM. there's a lot we have that i haven't actually played so i won't go too much into depth q-q but god of war, xcom, last of us, uhhhhh wait okay

from ones i've played a bit!! or tried to play a bit!! or know outside of actually playing >< drakenier (3, automata, replicant! 3 is. kinda uh sus but i rlly like it and wna know more in the future. we have automata but i haven't played... i LOVE it sm tho and it's just so good,, & the raids in ffxiv i love SDHGJHA and the small spoilers ik </3 replicant same feelings as automata but we don't have it </3) + ghost of tsushima (i played a bit and it's a beautiful game!!) + uh. AH YES soulsborne (okay these kind of games make me scared. i tried to play bloodborne thrice and chickened and i don't actually have or want the guts to not Chicken BUT. I WANT TO HEAR THE MUSIC. and be challenged by the hard gameplay so sometime,, also we have ds3!! i want elden ring/sekiro rlly badly tho ><) + uhh what else. help OAAAAHH THE WITCHER!! okay we have 3 i. meant to start it a bit ago but then ffxiv took my time again SBDGHJH but i love the series!! just close my eyes at times!! i love the witcher man. and there's horizon zero dawn which i've played for quite a while but i'm def not TOO far into it,, it seems like open world isn't rlly my type T___T

i forgot the others. help. SAHGBJH okay from the ones i've finished or play/ed a lot!! persona <3 i like 3 and 4 but dk well yet :(( i love 5 tho!! such a good game, esp w royal <3 anddd then uh. uhm. HJHBF HELP i've barely finished games tbh T___T but <33 UHHH i like cod too! mario! OH MY GOD SUPER MARIO ODYSSEY!!! and other games oh man T~T

I FORGOT FALLOUT EXISTS HELP okay i’m like. really There in fallout shelter but i don’t play anymore </3 fallout 4 and las vegas we have!! i’m scared to play 4!! but yes!! i also feel terrible for forgetting skyrim holy shit i mostly just watched my dad/sis play until i actually started playing myself. i’m a coward and i admit that but that game is my CHILDHOOD... cuphead is also rlly cool i have just played REALLY little myself but <33 animal crossing is rlly cute!! i love new horizons!! also assassins creed!! we have odyssey which i played a bit but it makes me scared to play too ngl!! devil may cry and metal gear rlly interest me but no games or experience playing :(( love the music and memes tho <3

uh. minecraft was my childhood FOR REAL. i played a bit of mass effect then stopped but i’ll cont when i have time. somehow. HSDBGJH ik it’s rlly good !! LEGO GAMES WERE MY CHILDHOOD TOO... my only 100%. man. i fought so much w my twin over those games it’s absolutely hilarious. dragon age is cool i love inquisition soundtrack but i played a bit of origins and then stopped bcs i got stuck and it’s so ANNOYING... red dead redemption 2 i havent played but <333 resident evil is cool but horror. goodbye. GSHGBFBSD AND OH GOD I FORGOT I ONCE PLAYED A BIT OF GTA5. i stopped bcs it rlly was too much even for me who doesn’t mind swearing. i stole cars and did a bit of story and thn stopped i will never forget the man who opened my car door in the road and i drove off HABJGH ... i forgot what other games i’ve played or have or am interested in this is so much oh god . OH GOD WAIT I FORGOT KINGDOM HEARTS EXISTED HELP that series is so weird but means so much to me weirdly. i rmbr so clearly playing literally the first bit of the game. by first bit i mean literally probably just the first hour or less. and i never got past that bcs i never got to a save but then had to stop playing over and over again but wld always go back and play it AAA kh1!!! and thn kh3 i borrowed and man... <3 i love that game and somehow understood and enjoyed even if it’s literally the ending of a saga i think and i never played the rest HELP

i once again lost track of time it’s almost 5 am oh my god i have to get up before 10. BDHGBD i’LL PROBABLY STOP HERE THEN....... i hope you don’t feel like you have to read everything i’m just rlly Yay you asked and uhm enabled me WHEEZE i love rambling but also i do it a lot but also not that much T___T i genuinely do hope this isn’t annoying though! ^^ not in a like Oh i’m annoying way but in a like. this might actually seriously be A Lot JHGSDJHG

i actually barely know anything about golden sun!! but i searched it up rq and rmbrd i’m interested in dragon quest + diablo + castlevania too !! super mario galaxy was my childhood even tho me and my twin barely did anything bcs we were cowards. HELP. we fought too bcs i shaked the controller and then the stars went everywhere and escaped so she got angry at me. why did i even do that what. ANWAYS UHM IDK WHAT i’M EVEN TALKING ABT ANYMORE HELP gran turismo also interests me!! bcs of my dad >< OH MY GOD I FORGOT i also finished littlebigplanet 3!! it was so annoying w my twin /pos!!! we fought also. man. i love twins they suck (affectionate)

i feel like there’s still more i’m forgetting hm but idk. not gna say stuff about ffxiv bcs that’ll be a lot more rambling I’M SO SORRY. also no mobile games orrr free games uhhh there’d be a lot too. help. BUT UHM YES if you do ever someday properly play ff and fe i’d be really happy but pls /nf !!! and i hope you do enjoy if ever!! <3 tbh i’m a bit >:( when it comes to some stuff abt specifically uhh 7 13 15 and 3h but generally i still love them lots <3 personally i’d def rec xiv even if you aren’t a fan of mmorpgs bcs it’s def an rpg first >< also imo the best final fantasy overall!! even best mmo and def one of the best stories i’ve ever seen ,, BJSDHBG but from the single players, it’s a bit depending on your taste but safe best for sure is 9! overall i’d say the best, from what i’ve heard :O below 7 is not 3d yet but i’m biased to 3 bcs of 14, for reasons, and 4 is <3! and 6 def has prolly the best story from what i’ve heard if not for 14!! 8 is heavily romance based ?? but i personally love the themes sm >< 7 is rlly famous and probably the biggest franchise in the ff franchise :O if you ignore ffxiv HJBHDG! i’d def rec it too <3 10 is my first and rlly special to me and i’d def rec it too for sure!! 12 is more political but personally i love it. havent playe dbut uhm yes. tactics i’ve heard is incredibly good ^^ i barely know it. barely being a bit of an understatement uhhh ik some of the story!! yes!! okay squints that’s all i can talk abt rn help it just turned 5 JBGDHJGB ALSO I’M INTERESTED IN OMORI I ALMOST FORGOT!! horror scares me but ik omori is rlly good <3 i’m just watching bcs i might waste money on not playing if i buy it myself <//3 ^^

GN ANNIE!! or good morning. help. HBGSHDBGJ THANK YOU SO MUCH AGAIN BTW AND SORRY HELP rambling tho helped clear my head more so aaaa <33 ^^

BUT B4 I STOP FOR REAL i just want to advertise rq BUT NO FORCED /nf /nf /nf SERIOSULY it just makes me happy to do this WHEEZE but ffxiv has a rlly good free trial!! lowkey want to send u stuff no spoilers tho and see what wld convince u to play but do be truthful abt it all uhh yes yes gn >< WHEEZEHBGSHJ it’s available on all platforms basically! not like. switch or mobile tho aaaaa T___T </3 but playstation, mac, steam, pc... ^^ it’s pretty time consuming but it’s an experience i’d definitely recommend!! also no time restrictions for free trial :O so yeah >;D

#i like a lot of things but my favorites all in all would be ffxiv and gbf (mobile game tho ><) and fe3h! i feel like nier is definitely a #top contender when i properly get into it more <3 but these r games i actually. completed or am vv far into GHJSJBHGB T__T ^^#so many interests but it feels like. hm. idk how to explain but yeah <//3 idm tho HBDSJHBGH i genuinely do like all of them <3 #⋯ ꒰ა my galaxy ໒꒱ *·˚#⋯ ꒰ა letters of stardust ໒꒱ *·˚#— annie! ♡

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imy2 · 4 months

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2-2 oooo hi hector , didnt realize he'd be so soon •

oh damn goodbye mack. should've expected that was this ep w vasquez comin in... ughh the way murphy looks when addy's staring at him :/// •

2-3 "woahh don't be so negative; worry is poison - that's why you don't crap right." lmao random dude, too real •

"you are not the boss of me -.- she is." one of my fav murphy lines •

ok i regret not taking notes last eps so recap of what i rmbr then onward.. rc2-4 z weed lol • rc2-5 nvr noticed b4 that they call this ep aka lucy zombaby - makes sensee , but s1 zombaby is true zombaby in my heart. lucy's lucy :p ... ugh serena was so pretty this ep.. even looked cool as a zombie • rc2-6 gb4n lucy.. also cassandra :(( </3 • rc2-7 sketchy n skeezy were here again .. • rc2-8 i thiiink it was this ep that this happened but if not close enuff.. warren said to murphy, "the time is coming where you're gonna have to decide what side you're on - and when that time comes, remember which is trying to help u survive n which wants to eat ur brains." ooo i never noticed how good of a line that is bc well warren which side is which! half the zombies dont care abt murphy atp and yall r takin him to be experimented on .. hmmm • rc2-9 this is always a fun ep • rc2-10 idt docs cool aop in this ep... • rc2-11 addys hotelwoman moment :') • rc2-12 oo the zeroes.. warrens sooo pretty •

2-13 murphy savin warren, hell yeah. murphy listening to warren, helll yeahh. again warrens gorg.. hector n doc n murphy all also look cool .. el camino B) 10k w slingshot - also cool •

2-14 lmfao doc pre-z(beginning of z actually) "oh jeez, sorry, didn't mean to intrude! -- what a minute, what did i just see.. larry and his gay lover? it's funny he never mentioned him.. 2 patients wrestling on the couch? .. it's a damn zombie! hang on larry!" lol him pullin a joint from his beard .. • •interlude ... i used to say i wish i had a beard all the time as a kid 9-like12, love that for me..idt id want one now, i do wish i had more body hair tho man my arms n legs look hairless basically -.- my brother used to always comb his hand thru his thick ass leg -.- #jealous .. also hairy stomachs r so hot -.- anyways.. i also need to do smth diff w my headhair like sooo bad. its been like 6yrs since ive had a haircut its badd. i wish i cld do a cool haircut but my hairs thin n straight so.. no cool cuts look how i'd want them to w/o stylin n i cannot put stylin effort into my hair everyday.. i need a genius to tell me wtd w my hair basically! but im scared of goin anywhere..

also on subject of gender(re my feelings abt my hair) i've been kind of (aka when i rmbr to lol n when it dsnt feel awk) tryin to speak in a deeper pitch .. i hate when my voice sounds as high as it does smtimes :/ also.. well nvm 4now •

"why me? i don't want to be shit. this is all some terrible mistake. i just want to crawl off and die like everybody else. why me? what did i do? where is my mercy?" murphy n mercy (n me) i said it! •

omg pre-z murphy looks so different n cool. & postal fraud man.. he shld be pissed •

"if you were really my friend, you'd help me." "but i'm not your friend." ... "they're gonna hurt me. you know that, right?" "i won't let that happen." •

2-15 "i did not spend three years fighting my way across 10,000miles of zombie-crazed america just so i can be a blood bag for a few billionaires." hell yeah •

bye vasquez .. hey hector.. hey(almost) kaya n dr. sun :-) aww lucy.. •

•s2 done.. overall rating.. 3.5/5 .. i didnt rate s1 brb.. 3/5 .. huh kinda surprised s2 came out on top •

3-1 hi red.. hi the man... •

ooo i nvr noticed the red details -right b4 walking up there's red cloth in a basket, then - redofc, 5ks keychains, warrens bandana, 10ks socks n bandana n shirt stripes, docs suspenders n sunglasses, cassandra's jacket, addy's shirt n jacket tassels .. very obvious, cool .. then just blue murphy. interesting. enuff red down the line tho •

"got a name?" "10,000. but everyone calls me 10k." "10,000? that's a number, not a name." ... ''so what's ur name?" "red." "that's not a name, that's a color." - wait lol, "you asked me my name, that's my name" red u did it to him first •

3-2 • intros.. s1 was 3bullets, s2 was 2bullets-chomp, s3 was 3bullets+spin .. fun stuff •

now murphy got red pants this ep.. after they first reinforced blue by only showing shirt/skin/hat.. interesting •

ahh murphy wanted warren to go w him so bad :/ "seriously roberta?" .. "ttfn" •

3-3 got a fun screenshot from this ep .. terrible quality ofc.. •

3-4 10k off the bridge n merch khs .. fair enuff•

3-5 tbh the way reds been here so far(aka e1 n now) is so weird.. •

#h-vom

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rskbunny · 6 months

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also just cause I know some ppl I talk to follow me here: 9 times out of 10 when I don't respond, esp to smth negative, I genuinely just do not have the mental energy to do so. I also really only have like 2 people who are super important to me, and as a bpd, npd, + aspd bitch, it's really hard to conjure up emotions to respond if I already don't feel like it.

also a lot of the times I do go out of my way to help someone that isn't one of those 2 ppl, it's usually cause there's some benefit in me doin so whether that be me personally workin thru my own issues via theirs but pretendin it abt them or otherwise. I can't not think of everyone as investments.

idk just sayin this cause I don't want other ppl to think I'm some bitch when I stay silent on things but talk on other things when it's really just because I don't feel like other ppl should be my responsibility if we don't have a close relationship, I don't have the energy, or like didn't go to specifically me about it. I figure if someone wants my feedback, they'd specifically come to me like in dm or smth.

I'm tired of letting ppl use me all the time so I'm not gonna like willin let myself be used anytime someone has a bad day or needs some validation on smth. if you value my attention or like want it and I'm not already givin it to you, u do have to come to me for it. I'm not a mind reader nor am I goin to trip over everything for you if you don't even make it known you specifically value my words over others...

idk if that even makes sense but yea it's smth

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kuuyandere · 1 year

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random thing I keep thinkin whether or whether not to share with you, but why not. I mostly follow you, apart from sometimes relatin to the yan ramblins, because you share a lot of interests or at least aesthetics, taste in music, general view on life, and I believe possibly fashion too with my boyfriend. you're also both tall (or at least have small partners? I swore I read smth abt a size difference somewhere but I forgot, sorry if I'm wrong) and very yandere, obsessive, and devoted. it makes me wonder often if you two would be good friends, but I also don't know how unawkward goin "hey I follow this guy on tumblr, hes like u, u should msg him even tho u don't rlly use tumblr, and be besties" would be.

also in terms of why im followin lowkey I have weird impulses to watch people like I'm studyin them as lab rats as they go thru severe mental issues in life. but shh, I said nothin.

Interesting, I am sure your boyfriend is a cool person. You are correct about the size difference thing (heh). I do see how it would be weird to introduce him to someone on this hellsite, it's not something that the average person uses. That and if he is as possessive/jealous as I am, I imagine he might take offense to his beloved comparing him to another yandere, but that may just be me.

Thank you for following! I don't think I share much about my "severe mental issues", but I am glad you find me entertaining anyhow.

#your yandere #aidoneus asks

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scover-va · 2 years

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Hi im spitting thoughts down here bc i cant do that with insta without having to draw smth or make my gf listen to thoughts shes already heard, but anyways im here to finally get some thoughts down abt irving but like. if he were to ever get any sort of redemption. "Oh but Scov hes dead Lazarus shot him-" Um hes an ai and also hes alive in inscryption so shhhhhhhh. Idk how long inscryption takes place after the hex and for all i know, Irving checked up on Inscryption's development before getting shot, but like. Im gonna say Inscryption was in development after the fact for the simple reason of i hate trying to figure out timelines *looks at the weird ass timeline goin on just with vicious galaxy* Also ramble under the cut bc its a very long post

Anyways so obv Irving would have a lot to redeem himself for (Crippling Reggie, traumatizing Chandrelle and Lazarus, and at after playing thru the game 3 times im convinced he purposely made Bryce punch him during the training scene and intended to do the same in Cooking Granny but shh. And also im like 99% sure when he wanted to throw Chandrelle overboard he was fully intending to murder her ass) but thats like. The entire reason he SHOULD get redeemed??? And i dont mean smth cheap and insincere like with Shadow Weaver in spop, I mean a legit redemption. Bc hoooo boy does he need to start learning how to apologize, goddamn. I feel like forcing him to spend time around the group would make him realize how badly he fucked up, and I feel like he'd use the excuse "Well I'm just following orders" even tho he: - Told Lionel he would put Reggie in a different game - He admitted that making Vallamir possess Chandrelle was his own idea - It's implied he erased the VG1 files so he could punish Lazarus - Probably was not fuckin told to go try and fight Chandrelle to the death

Anyways so yeah, only one he fully followed orders on was Bryce, which idk if it's just me interpreting Bryce differently or if I'm right here, but I feel like Bryce is the type of guy who, if he saw Irving actively trying to make up for it, he like. He'd try and be some sort of support system??? Like "No Irving, you can't say sorry and then blame them. Apologizing means you're taking the blame." Bc for Bryce, he's like. The only one who can't fully get pissy with Irving??? Like Lionel's the one who bought Bryce, not Irving, so yknow. But yeah I think the big thing with Irving is that to him, these are just game characters. He's not a game character (in the dmg universe, anyways), hes an AI. So there's definitely bound to be a disconnect there, like "Your purpose is to fit a narrative and be a pawn. My purpose is to keep you all in line and make sure development goes smoothly." So like some sort of superiority complex and a lack of understanding.

But yeah, in a post-canon setting, I do think he should get a redemption arc. Not to mention that, if the game were to be from his or Lionel's perspective, he wouldn't be a villain, bc then the narrative would be "These game characters are running around and destroying perfectly good games, so they need to be stopped", he's a villain in the hex purely bc like. Most of the people there fuckin hate him. I mean, hell, in the game that narrates Lionel's life (Walk), Irving seems like a genuinely good guy/AI, up until Rootbeer Tender, which is implied to be put into Walk by Jeremiah I think (or im assuming wrong idk, there was a radio and ik radios are commonly associated with Jeremiah, even if I still gotta get into the basement vending machine). Like, he provided Lionel everything he needed to make a game when he was 12, gave him some good tips, and Lionel even fuckin says that Irving tried to warn him that his life was in danger. Like, up until RBT, if you had only played Walk, you'd think Irving was a helpful AI too. Kinda strayted from my og point but anyways yeah, from his own perspective for the entire game, Irving sees himself as being the good guy, so seeing as how to p much everyone fucking else hes a bad guy here, I think a redemption arc is entirely possible.

And also I mentioned Bryce bc you got it babey I love me some good enemies to lo- /hj And also I like the trope of the local asshole one day looking at The Nice One (tm) and just realizing "Ah fuck I've caught feelings" and then just adamently fucking denying it. Half of the reason I talked abt the redemption arc tbh was just bc this last bit would sound absolutely insane (/neg) without it. But yeah just Irving struggling to apologize and when he finally gets it out he decides to never acknowledge it happening, but it's okay because it's a step in the right direction

But yeah that's my two cents on the topic. Tldr this man needs to be fuckin humbled and brought down a notch

#the hex #the hex game #daniel mullins games #irving #character analysis #and also a ramble tbh i have adhd and needed to get this down #scov.txt

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