#i'm gonna try avoid social media for a bit but I think this would be fun to do and work on while I'm away

[mamisfavmosher]

cookie jar // soft dom!rhea ripley x fem!reader

based on this little thing i wrote: soft dom!rhea gives a punishment

Readers POV

Sweeping my gaze from side to side, I scanned the kitchen to make sure Rhea was no where to be found. She had told me multiple times already to stay out of the cookie jar until after dinner, but what's the harm in one cookie anyway? I quietly lifted the lid and reached into the jar.

"What do you think you're doing?" Rhea's voice sounded from the doorway. "I thought I told you no cookies until after you've eaten dinner?" She raised her brows and crossed her arms over her chest. Rhea was doing her best to act stern. I didn't act out often, and honestly, I know that even if I did, she wouldn't have the heart to punish me that much. That's why I tried to take advantage of the small things, like an extra cookie.

"But, Mami, it's not gonna make a difference, I swear! I'll still be hungry for dinner." I said while pulling a cookie out. A small smile formed on my face as she let out a sigh. "Please, Mami?"

"Baby, I said no. Put it back in the jar." She walked over and opened the lid of the jar for me to put the cookie back in. But I didn't. Instead, I lifted it to my mouth and took a small bite. "I'm not gonna tell you again, babe. Put it back." She said, irritated with my lack of obedience.

I chomped half the cookie off before shooting her a glare. "Stop telling me what to do." A spark of adrenaline rushed through me, "Bitch." Watching her features turn angry, my eyes widened and I attempted to hand the cookie back to her. "I'm sorry-"

She ripped the cookie out of my hands and chucked it in the trash. "Bedroom. Now." I winced at her tone and scurried into the room with Rhea hot on my trail. Hearing her sigh, I watched her pace back and forth for a few seconds, determining that she was already calming down. Although her dominant side was coming out, Rhea had never been one to maintain a harsh demeanor with these types of things. I could tell she was only angry about my choice of words, but now, as she was faced with her least favorite part, her rage had faded. I knew what would come next.

As she rang her hands together, she paced in silence to give me a bit of time to cool down. Rhea always gave me a chance to apologize first, trying to give me a way out of the punishment. "Sweetheart, if you apologize and promise to obey from now on, we can forget about this." She looked at me expectantly.

I could see the easy way out of this. Apologize, tell her that I'll never disobey again, and skip a punishment, but after a while, that gets so boring. I bit my lip and looked up at her, "I think you overreacted, Mami. It was just a cookie."

"I'm not mad about the cookie, babydoll. I'm mad about you deliberately disobeying me and calling me a bitch. Now, apologize or I'm gonna have to punish you." Her voice was calm and collected as was her posture, but nonetheless, the little voice in my head told me to keep going.

I shrugged and pulled out my phone to start scrolling through social media. "I'm not apologizing, Mami. Get over it." The room went silent for a few seconds as Rhea determined how to handle the situation.

"Fine. Get undressed, please." She sat down on the bed next to me and waited. Sighing, I ignored her. "Babe. Now." The sternness in her voice was the only thing that made me listen. I stood up and took my time getting undressed

Once I was fully naked, I sat back down on the bed and started to reach for my phone again. Before I could pick it up, Rhea shoved it out of reach and yanked me over her lap.

"Hun, I don't wanna have to hurt you, but I've already given you a few chances to avoid this." Her voice was soft as her warm hands gently ran along my spine.

I rolled my eyes and attempted to wiggle off of her lap, "Thought it was a punishment for a reason, Mami."

Holding me down, she sighed in irritation, "Okay then." A loud slap rang throughout the room as her hand came down hard. I instantly flinched at the painful contact, quickly remembering why I typically apologized before it came to this. Sucking in a sharp breath, I felt the hot tears prick in the corners of my eyes. "Better start counting, babe. You're getting fifty spanks."

The punishment felt like forever as my voice strained to mumble out a number after each harsh slap. "50....," I sniffled out. My skin felt like it was on fire, hot and tingling. Fat tears continued to roll down my cheeks as I weakly smeared them away. Rhea released her grip on me and I instantly crawled off of her lap, curling into a ball near the pillows. "... I hate you." I whimpered.

My emotions took over me as the pain radiated through my body. From the corner of my eye, I could see Rhea freeze, her gaze softening. "Baby, you don't mean that." She reached a hand out to me, softly rubbing her knuckles along my hip before tracing her fingers down my leg. "C'mere."

I sniffled a few more times, hugging my knees to my chest for a moment before quickly moving onto her lap for cuddles. Her strong arms wrapped tightly around me, her lips peppering soft kisses on my head.

"My sweet baby..." She lightly rocked me in her arms before raking her fingers through my hair. "You know how much I hate doing this, angel. Exactly for this reason."

"I know, Mami. I'm sorry." My words were muffled as I kept my face nuzzled into her neck. I calmed down as she comfortingly stroked my back and hair, sweetly kissing my cheeks and forehead from time to time. "I love you. I don't hate you." I peered up at her, laying a gentle kiss to her jaw.

"I love you, too, sweet thing," Rhea pulled my face up to hers for a kiss. "Just try and listen to me from now on, yeah?" She chuckled.

I playfully shrugged, "No promises, Mami."

#rhea ripley #wwe #wwe superstars #fanfiction #rhea ripley x reader #dom!rhea ripley #wwe smut #rhea ripley smut #soft dom!rhea ripley

[luvsturniolo]

hi!! i rlly love ur writing and i wanted to ask if i could request something where readers reputation is ruined by a false rumor which leads reader to thinking they aren’t loveable but chris doesn’t think that cause he’s in love with her?

basically the trope “one believes they’re hard to love and someone who loves them like it’s breathing”.

ー ★ !! unloveable

pairing : chris sturniolo x fem!reader

synopsis : after some bad rumors are past around social media, you begin to overthink about whether or not you’re even loveable

a/n : ok but why this is request so fucking adorable ???? like the trope u put at the end makes me want to put my blood, sweat, and tears into this. UGHHHHH no matter who it's written, i'm gonna be 100% convinced it's not good enough because i love this prompt so insanely much

wc : 3.7k

you have been friends with the triplets for a few years now, and you all agreed to keep your face off of social media. it started when you jokingly voiced that you were a bit scared to be judged by the entire world. the triplets — mainly chris — took this seriously, though. they know how difficult it can be to have millions of eyes glued to you at all times. due to their awareness, nick suggested that you stayed off of their platforms to avoid any backlash that you're not ready for.

to be honest, at first you were a bit skeptical of his idea. i mean, you'd never had a ton of random people watching you like they always do. it seems easy enough, though. just make sure to keep your privacy hidden and don't do anything bad on camera. despite your questions, you agreed with nick's proposal. plus, the triplets are the experts here ; not you.

it's been three years since you guys came to this agreement. and it's been working out pretty well, frankly. nobody knows that you're friends with the triplets at all. nobody even has had the thought cross their mind. you're a random chick with a few hundred followers and they're famous youtubers with millions. no sane person would make that connection.

a year and a half ago, you and chris started dating. your relationship is the healthiest you've ever been in. he's caring, he listens when you talk, he hugs you a lot, he likes to compliment you, he buys 'just because' flowers.

you have had a past of toxic relationships. you told chris about them and he's been trying his hardest to heal the mental scars your exes have left behind. one of your past boyfriends was manipulative, another one was narcissistic, another was a proud cheater, and the last wasn't even present in your life.

"hey," you whisper into the darkness before you.

you're currently at the triplets' house, staying the night. nick texted you and asked if you wanted to have a sleepover — which you happily agreed to. you'd been watching a movie with nick in his room for the past hour or two, but he fell asleep a few minutes ago. you were on your way to sneak into chris's room when you heard someone rummaging through the kitchen cabinets.

overtaken by curiosity, you tip-toed down the hall to see who it was. you poked your head around the corner to make sure it wasn't an intruder. your nerves instantly calmed down at the sight of your boyfriend, hungrily searching for a midnight snack.

"hey," he answers, turning around to face you as you stand in the doorway, "why are you still up? it's late."

"i could ask you the same thing." you tell him with a light chuckle shaking your chest. you then walk into the kitchen and over to where chris stands in front of the pantry. he smiles down at you, causing your stomach to twist. its pretty crazy to think that you still get butterflies from him. most people say that you won't feel giddy forever, but you seem to have proven that theory to be incorrect. it's been nearly two years and you still get flustered when he smiles at you.

you lift your hands into the air before dramatically flopping down onto his chest. your wrap your arms around his neck and bury your face into his shirt. he smells like home, a comforting scent that always makes you relax as it meets your nostrils. chris grins down at you before wrapping his arms around your torso, holding you by the waist lovingly.

"i'm assuming nick fell asleep?" he asks you.

not in the mood to open your mouth, you simply nod in response. he feels your head shift against his chest and he accepts the answer. normally, he teases you for being lazy. but chris loves it when you're sleepy like this. he loves seeing you all delirious and disoriented. teasing you would be like taunting a lost puppy — it's not right. morally.

"he always falls asleep when you guys watch movies together." chris says as though you didn't know that. "didn't he promise to stay awake this time? i thought you guys were planning to pull and all-nighter."

"that didn't happen." you say. your voice comes out muffled from his shirt presses to your face. "he pinky promised to stay awake, but fell asleep thirty minutes into the film we were watching. i stayed up and finished it, though."

"you finished it before or after you came to find me?" chris asks with a laugh. you just roll your eyes as a smile grazes your lips. he can feel the way your mouth pulls upward against his skin. knowing that you're smiling and he can't see it kinda pisses him off. your smile is his favorite thing in the whole world and he's missing it? that's completely unacceptable.

you yawn, blinking a few times to keep yourself from succumbing to slumber. chris notices your fatigue and asks if you're ready for bed. "yes, please!" you respond eagerly, excited to lay down with him and go to sleep in his arms. chris laughs at your excitement, honestly finding it adorable that you're so impatient to sleep.

the two of you walk back to his room together and you grin at the sight of his bed. you rush ahead of him and flop down onto the mattress. your face is pointed up at the ceiling as chris plops down next to you, looking at the ceiling as well.

"is this your equivalent to star gazing?" he asks you, knowing how obsessed you are with the thought of looking at stars together. it's something you've always begged him to do with you. but chris has refused. not because he doesn't want to, but because he wants to do it right. you're looking forward to doing this so bad that he refuses to settle for anything less than the absolute best.

he thinks the stars aren't bright enough in the city. he wants to bring you out to a field and look at them. but you still complain about it constantly — unaware of his little plan.

"yeah," you say with a groan, "since my boyfriend won't look at stars with me, i have to look at your popcorn ceiling instead. my standards have been lowered for you by a lot, i hope you know!"

chris laughs, leaning over to place a kiss on your forehead. he stays hovering over you before he whispers "soon, baby." against your skin. the feeling of his lips grazing your head tickles, making you giggle a little. chris's grin widens at the sound. he sits up and watches your giggles fade away, enjoying the bliss of seeing you smile like this.

"what?" you ask with a laugh, noticing the way your boyfriend is staring at you shamelessly.

"nothing." he replies with a shrug. "you're just so beautiful, i can't help but stare."

you look at him with nothing but admiration behind your gaze. it's truly surreal how far you've come in such a little amount of time. just a few years ago, you were in a toxic relationship with a guy who cheated on you with a different girl each night. and whenever you would confront him about it, he would turn it into an argument — which he would win every time. but now? now you're with chris. who is the literal epitome of perfection. you genuinely want to spend the rest of your life with him. nothing else matters but you two.

you and chris end the night in each other's arms. he holds your body against his side, your face buried in the crook of his neck.

the both of you find yourselves falling into an easy, dreamless slumber. this is your favorite place in the world — his arms. no matter what's wrong in your life, the feeling of security always patches every issue. regardless of how messy.

after a few hours of bliss, you jump awake at the sound of chris's bedroom door slamming open. the back of the door hits his wall, the sound of impact waking up chris as well. you feel his shift next to you, his arms still wrapped around your waist. you groan, not wanting to open your eyes.

suddenly, you hear chris gasp. then he pulls the blanket over your face, holding you against his chest protectively. of course, your mind jumps to the worst conclusion — someone broke in and you're all gonna die! you find out that this wasn't this case, though, when you hear chris's voice begin to scold his brother.

"nicolas!" chris shouts. the anger in his voice tells you that this is serious and you should stay out of it. "what the actual fuck are you thinking!?"

"i didn't know you guys were cuddling!" nick tries to defend himself. "if i'd known, i wouldn't have come in! you know i respect your decision to keep y/n hidden! why the hell would i ever do this on purpose!?"

"well where else would she be sleeping if she wasn't with you!?" chris argues back.

slowly, you peak your head out from under the blanket before cautiously asking, "what happened?"

"nick thought it'd be clever to start a live stream at eleven in the fucking morning! then, he had the bright idea to come in here and surprise us!" chris explains, still very very pissed off. "and of course he didn't think to knock like a normal person. he instead took it upon himself to walk right on in and record us!"

"i thought it was just chris!" nick says, stuffing his phone in his pocket now that he's ended the live. "i don't even know if anyone saw her. maybe they missed it and we can just say that it was matt?"

"why the fuck would i be snuggling matt?"

you laugh, trying to lighten the mood. "chris, lets be real. you cuddle your brother more than your girlfriend."

"i love you," chris says softly, "but it's now is not the time for jokes. this could be a huge fucking problem."

"okay, i'm sorry." you're quick to apologize, stretching up to press a kiss to his cheek before gently whispering, "i love you too." against skin.

you notice nick slowly back out of chris's room, not wanting to be around if chris decides to get angry again. you glance up at your boyfriend only to see that he's already staring at nick's departing form. chris is obviously still angry, but he doesn't seem to care enough to argue with his brother again. so he lets nick leave without giving him a hard time.

once nick is completely out of the room, you hear chris sigh. like it's a pained, saddened sigh that makes you want to cry for him. you look up to meet his worried eyes already glancing down at you.

"hey," you whisper, propping yourself up on your elbow to look at him better. "it'll be okay. we'll work it out like we always do." chris smiles at this before leaning down to press a slow, gentle kiss to your lips. you kiss him back before giggling and grimacing away from it. "i have horrid morning breath. let me brush my teeth before you kiss me."

you begin to move around toward the edge of the bed, aiming to leave and brush your teeth so you can start the day. before you can even make it to the side of the mattress, you feel chris's arms wrap around your torso and pull your body backward against his chest.

"i don't care about your breath," he tells you, "i just want you to stay with me a while longer. brush your teeth later."

you chuckle, "that's so nasty."

"pleeeease," he begs, tightening his grip around you, pulling your body firmly against his own. "stay with me, baby."

chris know how you feel about pet names. you hate them. they make you cringe. but when he whispers it against the back of your neck and you feel his breath against the hairs of your skin, you can't help the butterflies that swarm your stomach. you instantly give in and twist around to hug him.

"okay. i'll stay." you inform him, returning to the position you guys were in while sleeping. you shut your eyes before continuing. "but don't ever call me baby again."

"why not?" chris asks, clearly upset. "i could tell you liked it by the way you gave in so quickly. why can't i call you a nickname every once in a while. i think they're cute."

you groan, "i'm sleepy. let's talk about this later."

chris agrees and you both fall back asleep, enjoying the comfort of being in each other's arms. you know that no matter what happens with the media seeing your face, you'll always have chris by your side. nothing else is important as long as he is next to you.

the next time you wake up, it's bright outside.

you're no longer in chris's arms with him spooning you. you're now laying diagonally across the bed with your head in his lap as he scrolls through his phone. you blink a few times to let your eyes focus to the light of the room.

"mornin' baby." he says, quickly shutting off his phone and hiding it under his leg.

the action of him hiding his phone is enough to distract you from the use of the pet name. you raise a brow at his behavior, growing a bit concerned. you trust chris more than anything, but considering your history with cheaters, you can't help the annoyance that resides in your gut.

"what were you looking at, hm?" you ask him, trying not to be rude or anything. you want to stay calm with him because it's probably nothing.

"nothing, babe."

again, you ignore the nickname and focus on his suspicious demeanor. you thin your eyes at him, trying to read his body language. but it's difficult. he doesn't seem like he was texting some random chick, but why else would he hide his phone from you? you guys always share everything because he knows how you can get with this sort of thing.

curiosity overtaking your mind, you reach over and snatch his phone out from under his leg. chris opens his mouth to argue, but doesn't do anything to stop you from opening it and going to his recently opened app.

he was on tiktok, scrolling through the comments of some random fan page. you shoot chris a weird look before reading a few of them, your heart dropping to your ass from a mix of embarrassment and shame.

"did y'all see nick's live this morning?"

"who tf was that girl w chris? lmao she's not even pretty 💀"

"i found the chick's insta and she's apparently been in some rly shitty relationships. i mean lets be real. chris has never seriously dated anyone but this girl has been cheated on, manipulated, and abused? there's a clear denominator here. she's def done smth to cause that (for attention i'm guessing) "

"guys chris won't stay w her for long anyway after he finds out ab her ugly history!"

you read through the comments with an expression of pure disgust. how the fuck are these people going to sit here and talk bad about you when you've never even shown your face on the triplets channel? it's completely unfair.

you look at chris, but he's looking away. you wonder why he hasn't defended you on this. also, he was reading these people's opinions with a straight face. you begin to worry if he believes what they're saying. you glance back down at his screen, reading the third comment over and over.

there's a clear denominator here they had said. i mean, they're not necessarily wrong about that. you've been in bad relationships whereas chris has never dated anyone for a long period of time. in this light, of course you look like the bad guy. you can't technically blame their fans for judging you. you're easy to judge.

tears begin to prick your eye and you hand chris back his phone before wordlessly standing up from the bed and leaving his room. not once did he try to stop you or ask you to stay with him. you walk down the triplets' hallway and enter the bathroom, locking the door behind you and sitting down on the closed toilet seat.

you hold your face in your hands and try your hardest not to start crying over a bunch of teenagers talking shit on your name. but you can't help the intense weight on your chest and the lump in your throat.

to be honest, you don't give a shit about their insults. what you care about is the fact that they're right. you don't deserve someone like chris. he's so sweet and kind and understanding while you're irritable and skeptical of every little thing he does. you've done nothing to earn someone like him. maybe you have only ever been in toxic situations because that's what you deserve.

before you can stop them, tears begin to pour from your eyes. your cheeks become soaked with your pain. your entire body trembles as you sob into your hands, making it harder and harder to breathe correctly.

you love chris. you love him more than anything. you want to share the rest of your life with him. but you don't want to make him settle for less — the less in this case being your relationship. he deserves someone better. someone who won't snatch his phone from him when he's only trying to protect you from pain. someone who will let him call you pentanes because he loves them. someone who will be better. someone who's not you.

suddenly, you hear a knock at the door.

already knowing who it is, you tell chris to go away. your voice comes out shaky and hoarse, making it incredibly easy to know you'd been crying. the tone practically screams at him, saying that you're upset over something he tried to save you from in the first place.

"will you please let me in, baby?" chris asks. his voice is soft and gentle. you're suddenly craving the feeling of being in his arms. the feeling of being loved. the feeling of having him comfort you.

the greedy emotions you feel paired with the nickname makes it impossible to not open the door for him. you shuffle over to the door and let him in. you sit back down on the toilet seat, keeping your head downcast the whole time as to not see his face or show your tears.

you stare at the floor, watching his feet pad across the tiled floor before he stops in front of you. he drops to his knees so his face is in line with yours. you quickly turn away and stare at the shower curtain, letting your hair to cover your puffy eyes.

chris sighs before grabbing your chin and forcing you to look at him. he lifts his other hand to your hair, tucking it behind your ears so he can admire every inch of your beauty with no veil to cover the rawness of it. he lets out a shaky exhale, using his thumb to wipe away your tears. all the while, you keep your eyes pinned to his face. you watch every single movement he makes, knowing that you don't deserve any of the kindness he's offering you.

knowing that this relationship will not last forever, you begin to cry again. you lean forward and rest your forehead against chris's shoulder, allowing tears to pool from your eyes as he rubs a hand up and down your back.

"what's going on in that pretty head of yours?" he asks with his voice in a whisper. "i wanna know what you're thinking so i can tell you how irrational it is."

you laugh at him, but it just causes you to let out a choked sob. his humor is your favorite part about him. the fact that chris can make you laugh in any given situation is what you adore most. hearing him do it while you're thinking of how to break the news that you're leaving him so he can find someone better? this is gut wrenching.

"i love you." you tell him. "so, so fucking much."

"i love you too." he replies easily, not thinking anything of the fact that you're telling him this right now. but when you continue, chris begins to put the pieces together and he starts vigorously shaking his head in refusal.

"these past two years have been the best of my whole life," you tell him with a wavering voice. "but you deserve better. you deserve the world. and i can't offer that to you, chris."

"i don't want the fucking world." he says, grabbing you by the shoulders and pulling you to be in front of him to look you in the eyes. "i want you and only you."

"but-"

"no." he interrupts. "i don't give a single fuck what anyone else thinks. and i'm sorry, but i don't even really care what you think right now. because you're all wrong. i belong with you and i don't want anyone else even if i was paid a million dollars."

you stare at him with wide eyes, your dried tears still adorning your skin. the would could be ending outside, and you would stay in this bathroom and continue to stare at chris. his eyes are so gorgeously blue that you find yourself getting lost in them.

if you guys get married and live the rest of your lives together, your bodies will change. your skin will wrinkle. your hair will grey. your lips will thin. your hands will shake. your back will hunch. nothing about your appearance is permanent. nothing except the eyes. the shade, the hue, and the iris will all stay the same until they close for the last time. and you can't wait to look into chris's eyes for the rest of your life.

"i think you would be crazy to reject a million dollars for me." you tell him with a little giggle, wiping at your cheeks to rid them of the leftover tears.

chris's heart flutters at the sight of your smile, "there she is."

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[am-i-the-asshole-official]

Am I the asshole for not stopping to hang out with my ex-friend's little brother? 🫠 ← so I can see it later

So, I (19M) have been friends with Z(20M) for about 3 years at this point. However, about 2 months ago we had a fight, mostly caused by his unwillingness to work on his anger issues and my unwillingness to be vulnerable and other problems in our personalities that ended up clashing with eachother in the worst way possible. Both parties are responsible for the falling out here.

Now, we are both in the same friend circle, and when the fight happened I made it clear to all our mutual friends that I didn't want anyone taking sides, neither did I want people to stop talking to him because of said fight, and I thought he did the same since his younger brother J (15M) didn't stop talking to me.

I know the kid since he was 12, even baby sat him a few times over the three years I was friends with his brother. We don't talk regularly, but I do try to hang out with him here and there (usually playing video games or taking him and some of his school friends to whatever movie they wanna to watch).

I thought Z knew I still hung out with his brother because J sometimes posts stuff on social media when we go out, but since I don't have any other social media aside from tumblr, I don't know if these posts have me in it or not.

Yesterday, I went to pick him up so I could take him and his friend to this robotics/technology event my uni was doing, he begged me for almost a whole two weeks to take him when I mentioned it was going to happen and that I was gonna be presenting stuff (I'm part of a project that builds a race car and he Loves cars). When I got there, Z had just arrived as well and got Really pissed to see me there, he got even more pissed when I told him I was just there to pick J up.

He told me to stop talking to his brother and that I should stop being obsessed with him and that we were done. Now, I'm like a Really avoidant person when it comes to fights, like, to the point of if someone came to punch me I would just let them in hopes of the fight ending quicker (it has happened before, not exactly a pleasant experience I must say).

So all I did was say "ok" and got into my car to leave. However, since J was really excited about the event, I sent him a message asking him and his friend to come to my apartment cause "stuff" that I had to deal with had come up and I wouldn't be able to get them in time, and then sent him some money so they could grab an uber.

I get home and like, 20-30 minutes later J and his friend get there as well, but J is crying really hard, just bawling his eyes out. He was really really upset cause Z had yelled at him of me and threatened to tell their parents that he was "associating with his stalker" (I haven't seen nor talked to Z since the fight) and he was scared that his parents would make him stop hanging out with me (which I doubt they will since I'm the only reason the kid wants to go to uni, he Will regret that decision the moment he steps foot in the mechanical engineering building of my uni, so rip).

We got him to calm down and we went to the event, which went terribly but in a funny way (the car caught on fire when we turned it one, nobody was hurt physically, emotionally however is another story) and we had a lot of fun.

I gave him more money so he and his friend could go home, I didn't know if his brother was still there but I didn't wanna take any chances.

Today I woke up to a message from Z, again telling me to stay the hell away from his brother or else he would punch me in the face (he wouldn't, I know that for a fact, he would rather die than hurt me or anyone physically, emotionally again is another story). I didn't reply and blocked his number. I asked some of my other friends about it and the opinions are a bit divided, some say it's weird to still hang out with J, others say it's fine, so the most logical conclusion is to obviously ask strangers online what they think about it (which, it kinda of is, since no one knows either of the parties involved which means less bias or whatever)

Anyway, what's the verdict

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

[thatdogmagic]

This is the last post I plan on making about the current situation.

I've been trying to recall what it is that might be getting repeated, and there's a couple instances I can think of that are pretty ripe for taking snips:

There are chat logs where I made unkind generalizations about autistic cis men, in the context of the majority of my experiences with them being largely negative, and being relieved that I had a space where my own neurodiversity had room to unfold.

She has chatlogs where I commented on not fully understanding trans men who still veered ultra-femmy, even though I don't have any trouble wrapping my head around butch trans women. That contradiction made me think about it quite a bit, and ultimately decided it wasn't a great opinion to have/was mostly just some lingering All Things Being Binary shit I still find myself unpacking.

I'm sure there's other thorny conversations that can be pruned for content, but I'm having trouble thinking of what it is beyond interpersonal clashes and, yeah. I've already seen the depths of missing context there.

There is no better example, in fact, than the comparison of shadowy werewolves with glowing eyes/teeth. It was taken from a concept that was tabled after approval was actively sought because there was a recognized stylistic overlap. Since 'shadow werewolf with glowing eyes/teeth' is a very common visual element in a lot of werewolf artwork, we also went on to discuss when those visual elements would best be avoided, and when they could be put to use.

This wasn't mentioned in the original comparison posts. Nor was it mentioned that it was never intended for public posting. It was a thumbnail idea for promotional material, drawn over a month ago - and nearly a full year after Lacey's skin tone changed - and it was quietly set aside in favor of other ideas.

Bottom line, I don't have any control over what she does with what she has. I don't have any control over what people think about it. But I do have control over what I do with me, and what I plan to do is stay off social media for the forseeable future, and keep working on the projects that matter to me, like I always have.

In the meantime, if you know me off social media:

I do not want to be contacted about any additional escalation

I do not need to know about any further instances of reposted chatlogs or artwork

It's kind of you to want to know my side of the story, but for my own reasons I'd rather not go into it beyond what I've already posted.

If we discussed commission work that you no longer want, please let me know ASAP so I can remove you from the list I have prepped for when I get back to taking those. Those of you who contacted me about it already have my email address.

All that being said, I understand if even with context, some comments lose people. I'm not gonna hold that against anyone. Where I'm at in my own development is probably not going to be enough for some, and that's fine. It doesn't have to be, and it won't stop me from continuing to try.

End of the day, keep in mind that this is still a personal altercation being made public, with everything that entails.

PS - If any other art is being posted: understand that it is being done without permission, after Ependa and I both actively tried to delete those pieces off the server, stated we'd done so intentionally, and then actively requested those files be deleted off the server/her machine when we were made aware of the fact that she was using third party plugins to retain access.

[meraki-yao]

That question was super serious im trying to figure out what's going on, love that taylor got all that exposure but it was a bit surprising, Im from a super homophobic country (illegal/death penalty type homophobic) and china is probably more progressive from where i stand but by western standards its still a lot conservative. So it was odd that an actor who's only popular in certain groups for playing a queer character is getting hyped up there.

Heads up, I went on a rant lmao

I agree. And I was really freaking anxious the whole time he was there because of it.

Okay, for those who don't know, here's the thing about LGBT+ in China. And I'm only gonna talk about the sexuality aspect because the gender aspect is a whole other topic and a lot less progressive than the sexuality side (that being said trans lives matter)

The official stance promoted by the government, ergo the public, is condemning it. Thankfully not in an illegal/death penalty type, but more in a "if we ignore it and don't talk about it, it will go away" type.

There were a couple of years I think in the mid-2010s where significant progress was being made in terms of both representation (see shows like Guardian, the Untamed, Word of Honor) and pride organizations and support (see Shanghai Pride)

But starting in mid-2021 the government suddenly cracked down on queer representation. "Effeminate" men were publicly condemned and called "sissy" BY THE OFFICIAL GOVERNMENT NOTICE (I was fucking fuming when I read it). Dangai (BL, or simply, adapted from gay novels) shows were banned. Multiple LGBT+ organizations were shut down without explanation. And just this year, when a singer with a famous song about being an LGBT ally supporting the community held a concert in Beijing, anyone with anything remotely resembling a rainbow was banned from entry and had to hand in the rainbow object, even if it was their clothing. And those stuff were never returned. The older generation, such as my parents' generation, condemn it. It's not an optimistic sight.

But here's the fucking truth: queer people, have always existed, and always will. So actually, younger people, I'd say 30 years old and younger, the vast majority accept queerness. Gay couples are sharing their lives on Bilibili. Danmei (explicitly gay) radio dramas, novels, and comics are still being produced and consumed. There are so many people watching Western gay shows and movies such as RWRB as well as producing gay fan content. And honestly, part of it is due to the shipping culture here (which is a whole other topic I can write a dissertation on).

Either way, what I'm trying to say is regardless of whatever the "official stance" is, the demographic that's active on social media is accepting of it. Which is why RWRB could gain such popularity in China.

As per my last ask, I think the main reason for inviting Taylor is his willingness to try things the local way. A lot of times Chinese capitalists/executives don't really care where the star got their fame from, they just care that they are famous.

The difference with Taylor is that actors in China of a similar level of status locally to Taylor and who have been in queer productions don't talk about it after the promo period is over. If anything, gaining fame from being in a Dangai is kind of considered shameful. In fact, they actively avoid it. Taylor is of course, more than willing to talk about RWRB. In fact, during the videos, live streams and stuff, I was actively observing if RWRB would be brought up by the Chinese side/host. It wasn't. During the Little Red Book livestream, despite basically everyone in the live chat spamming RWRB comments, Taylor was the one who said "Oh I see talk about RWRB, what do you want to know?" And I understand that there are several potential reasons why RWRB wasn't brought up by the host, including time constraints, pre-set questions, pre-set agendas etc, but latent homophobia is also a potential reason.

Either way, yeah. I don't really know what the conclusion of this ramble is but here you go 😅

#rwrb #red white and royal blue #rwrb movie #taylor zakhar perez #alex claremont diaz #anon ask #answered #PLEASE NOTE THAT I PERSONALLY DO NOT AGREE WITH THE “OFFICIAL STANCE” #I AM AN AVID ALLY AND ALWAYS WILL BE LOVE IS LOVE BABY #also please note that everything I said hear about is about mainland China #we here in Hong Kong have a slightly more progressive and optismic situation #more so in Taiwan where Gay marriage is legal #meraki essay

[observers-journal]

Do you think that the whole controversy with Tenoch has caused ER to either be more popular among social media and the public or just less as if people are turning away from her? Especially since the 'so-called' evidence that she posted was used against her to call her out on her lies as well as her crimes and history. Also, I wonder if politicians who have tried to be associated with her, such as that one deputy who schemed with her to try to pass the stealthing law by dragging Tenoch, are avoiding and turning away from her due to probably realizing how toxic and criminal she really is. Because it's amazing how they are all silent instead of supporting her, even with the access to the media power that they have that they could use to promote her such as they did with her case as there is not much news going on except for what she posts on Twitter, even with her acid case. I could be wrong, but it seems to me that no one prominent is really on her side publicly, except her lawyer and followers, which makes her really all alone. She probably does these horrible things as a way to feel good about herself and have some self-importance, which would have been sad, if it wasn't for the fact that she tramples and hurts others with her family to do so. If there is one important thing that I have learned in my two and a half decades of life on Earth that is very true, it's that the bill always comes due, and I feel that her bill for all that she has done might be on its way.

Thank you for the submission, anon! You pose a very interesting theory, which I agree can be true.

I'm gonna be a bit more cautious here about my answer, mostly because everything is so chaotic, nuanced and layered it's hard to tease out a specific reason for this. Whatever I say is purely my opinion, so please take it with a pinch of salt.

She could be the case of "bad publicity is still publicity". If she truly is trying for a political career, this might bring her some exposure. Politics is usually dirty and messy, and any kind of exposure helps. I have a feeling she's not very big on her own, but tries to show herself by using the few contacts she has gained, and the nexus she has from her own family. She cares a lot about her carefully constructed image, coz that's what she has going for her. That public sympathy and an activist image.

On the other hand, an equally valid argument is the one you raise. And that I suspect too: this is gonna come back to bite her. Everyone acts to preserve their self-interests, and so we have seen people distancing themselves from her. The amount of stuff she and her family has going on is a biggg problem for her. It's not like other politicians are not toxic or criminal, they just hide it better.

She definitely created a big ruckus and then nothing came of it. So to some extent, I think her temporary social media popularity is down. Will it continue to be that way? I can't say. Does it reflect the ground reality? I don't know.

I don't want to pass any personal comments on her as a person, and keep myself limited to her case with Tenoch. I feel bad for her acid attack, but what she did to him was nasty. Terrible.

Here's what I suspect. All of our conclusions are based on publicly available info. Behind the scenes? She could have quieted down and shifted her focus elsewhere (other cases that are more important). She might have found solace in the fact that she was able to successfully deliver a blow to Tenoch's career. She might be covering up her criminal traces. She might be working on her network politically. Or she might be quietly planning another attack on Tenoch (I actually doubt that).

But boy do I hope he sues the hell out of her.

Sorry for such a long post! I had thoughts. I hope you keep the world bright through your goodness and optimism! 🫶

#tenoch huerta #tenoch huerta mejia #jose tenoch huerta mejia #maria elena rios #elena rios #long answer #i had thoughts #anon asks #answered

[ateezfanficthingies]

ATEEZ walking in while you're streaming

Basically you're a Twitch streamer and your boyfriend walks in the room while you're streaming.

This is kinda bad but I wanted to post something. XD

THIS IS MEANT PURELY FOR ENTERTAINMENT PURPOSES AND IS NOT MEANT TO REPRESENT NOR SLANDER ATEEZ NOR IT'S MEMBERS IN ANY WAY.

SEONGHWA

Would make a weird "AaaAh!" sound, kinda like a surprised yelp.

Scratches the back of his head in embarrassment and chuckles.

You call him closer to say hi to your chat.

He leans down with his face really close to yours and an embarrassed smile on his face as you introduce your chat to him.

You pet his hair as he avoids eye contact with the camera.

He says very little.

"What're you doing babe?"

"*Gasp!* Hwa! Come over here. Guys, Seonghwa's here. Say hi baby~!"

"Uhm. Hi guys... I'm Seonghwa. Hehe..."

HONGJOONG

He came to check in on you.

He's kinda sleepy cuz he woke up like an hour ago and only got out of bed now.

He slinks behind you and hugs you from behind swaying slightly, resting his head on yours.

Smiles (sleepily) when he hears you giggle.

"Hey baby... What're you doing?"

"Hey Joongie, I'm streaming."

"Ooh!" *Leans down and awkwardly pokes his head in from the top of the camera, a bit too close to the lens* "Hello, hello everybody~~!"

YUNHO

Walked in to crash on the bed out of boredom and a little bit of tiredness.

Was going to scroll through social media on his phone.

Realised you were streaming and started acting dumb.

Went from 0 to 5 to 30 000 REAL quick!

Started by pulling dumb faces.

Then a deadpan expression with a little dance where he's moving his head side to side while crab walking.

Then he just starts flailing his arms above his head and moving around in random directions - never breaking his serious eye contact with the camera.

Trust me; it only gets worse.

The more you laugh the dumber he acts.

You're crying of laughter as you try to speak and all he does is continue his lil' rave in the background.

"Yunho, I'm live!"

*Begins twerking in the background.*

"YUNHO-!"

YEOSANG

He was looking for his skateboard and walked into the room not paying any attention to what you were doing, too consumed by his search.

He only realised you were live when after a few seconds Text To Speech commented on how gorgeous he is.

You just smiled and turned your head to look at his reaction, not saying a word.

He slowly pulled his head and arms out from under the bed, sat up and looked up at your camera slightly confused.

You're chuckling a lot as you speak and he's slowly understanding what's happening.

"Whatcha looking for babe?"

"My skateboard... Hi chat..."

"*Chuckle* I think it's in the cupboard..."

SAN

He heard the sounds you and the computer were making.

"ARE YOU PLAYING LEAGUE WITHOUT ME?!" he pops his head around the corner with faux anger all over his face.

You can't help but laugh because when you look at him both in real life and in the viewfinder, there's just a floating head poking into your room pouting "angrily" at you.

You struggle to get any sentence out because you're just laughing too damn hard.

"Let's play together then."

"Damn straight we're playing! I'm gonna absolutely destroy you!" (He's yelling this as he "storms off" to fetch his laptop so he can boot up the game while you're dying of laughter in your chair.)

MINGI

Walks in to ask you something but realises you're streaming.

You realise he's there and gesture for him to come over.

Immediately comes over and blesses the internet once more with his crescent eye smile (and adorable smile in general).

Waving cutely at the camera.

Giggly cuz he doesn't know what the fuck he's doing.

"Hi~! I'm Mingi!" (Widest smile in the universe.)

WOOYOUNG

He was yelling your name from like, THREE rooms down.

He was trying to order pizza but you couldn't hear him over the gunshots in your headphones.

He finally marched to your doorway. He didn't enter. He just stood there and yelled.

"BABE!"

"AH! Fuckin- WHAT?!"

"Wooow... Chat can you BELIEVE this? I go out of my way to order food and make sure my girlfriend is well fed and THIS is the thanks I get? Okay... Okay... I'll remember this...

...now what do you want on your pizza?"

JONGHO

Came in to bring you tea (that he made without you even asking).

He didn't think you were live, he thought you were recording a video so he figured you'd be able to just edit him out.

He hears someone cheer.

It was at that moment that he knew he fucked up.

You're trying to hold back your giggles because his reaction is just that adorable.

His eyes are wide as hell, he's really shy, he doesn't know what's happening. Dear God please protect him. XD

"O-oh. Are you live...?"

"Yeah... Say hi..."

"Uh... Hi..."

#ateez #ateez fanfic #ateez imagines #ateez seonghwa #ateez hongjoong #ateez yunho #ateez yeosang #ateez san #ateez mingi #ateez wooyoung #ateez jongho

[alostlittleriverlotus]

i hate conservative Christian parents so effing much.

Had a fight with my mom where I was a bit more, uh, cohesive this time. And oh my God, so much of it was her trying to find a happy ending or a solution or downplay stuff or try to get away. Because I stood my ground and it made her uncomfortable. Her having to face the reality of a disabled child that appears as if they would be functional. And I made that clear.

And the amount of times she had said "we're still playing catch up" yeah, makes sense she's still behind the times, she is super conservative and doesn't like change 🙄

But i made it clear that this is the reality. I don't think I'll ever be independent and I am fine with that. That these bullshit expectations of professionals and being "encouraged to socialize" will not work. And she brought up how she cares. If you care then listen to me and support me and see things from my perspective.

In the end, my goal is to move in with my gf or MA, live a good life with them, and other shit. You can grow up and actually change and expand your world view or you can stay behind.

Considering I doubt she will ever stop being conservative and hating gay and trans people and internalizing ableism and saying racist and xenophobic shit, yeah doubtful. Especially since my dad is way farther down the rabbit hole than her and has more control over her. She was more of a centrist when she met him apparently so uh, yeah, doubtful.

So yeah. Sorry you feel bad, but I'm not actually sorry because I stood my ground for needing accommodations and support and actually being listened to.

And this entire thing happened because she told me she'd talk to my brother about doing laundry elsewhere (since I live here, he doesn't) and she automatically ignored that the next time it happened, I got upset, she "forgot" why it was so important to me (you know literal ocd), and she refused to listen so i fully called her out. Cry. Because frankly I don't care.

When you've neglected me, abused me, ignored my needs since I was a child, always treated him with more respect than me, favoured him, yeah fuck you. I'm standing up for myself and actually calling you out instead of just ranting about you on social media with nothing being done. It is not my fault you're uncomfortable or feel bad. This is the reality. I do not have to mask and pretend and avoid to be able to cope. I should not have to have breakdowns in private to avoid problems because you won't listen to me when I ask something of you. You cannot say you care then do nothing because "you don't understand." I don't understand plenty of what I reblog, but I know it's important. I didn't fully understand the stuff for transfems/trans women that I reblogged once, but knew it might reach someone that it's important to and it did. I don't fully understand every post I reblog cause I'm bad at understanding words cause of how my brain works, but I understand it's important (and make sure to discern between problematic stuff and if I'm truly unsure if it's harmful or not then I don't reblog it.) You don't need to understand to support others. If you want to care about me, you're gonna have your world view challenged, mother. And you're gonna be held accountable.

Accept it and learn and change, or stay the same and lose me. Cause even if it hurts me, I have spent years preparing and mourning my loss of a childhood, of good parental relationships, all of it. You, I believe can change, but I will not stick around if you do not actively work to change. I know you are better than my father. You have a chance. But you're gonna be challenged, held accountable, and you're gonna feel uncomfortable. But that isn't bad. If you can get through a bad fight, you can get through the hard emotions. I sure as hell did when I ventured down the leftist path and undid the bs you taught me. I doubt you'll ever be a leftist, but you have to at least start to change. But if you won't then it is not my problem. I'm not keeping someone like you in my life whether it's for personal reasons or your harmful beliefs that impact me and others. I'm okay with that. And it's not my problem how it affects you.

Also not being able to say "I'm semiverbal" to my mom fucking sucks. Same with saying I'm disabled, traumatized, disordered, neurodivergent, etc. I hate it so much. Cause like if I could say I'm semiverbal and she could understand then I wouldn't be so stressed in conversations. Instead I have my words locked away cause I struggle to think and communicate thoughts and she keeps pushing. I cannot communicate. Let me be semispeaking. Let me be the way I am!!! Stop forcing me to be fully speaking and be able to perfectly convey my thoughts!!! My brain does not work like that!!! It is hard!!! Don't make me feel guilty for it!!!

#rant #proud of myself #standing up for myself #abusive mom #neglectful mom #childhood trauma #the problematic kind of religious person #homophobic mom #transphobic mom #abuse victim #neglected child #emotional neglect #toxic parents #actually narcissistic #narcissistic abuse isn't real #actually antisocial #disabled #disability #actually disabled #actually autistic #actually traumatized #actually borderline #actually histrionic #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #actually avoidant #actually paranoid #actually schizoid #ableism #I'm proud of how far I've come

[plum-and-solitude]

I just finished Good Omens Season 2 and I have some BIG FUCKING FEELINGS, mostly about the last episode, so. You know. Spoilers ahead.

In no particular order, but starting with what is seriously SO devastating to me and working from there:

Aziraphale wants to go after Crowley SO BAD. "But... My bookshop!" I'm sorry Angel, you pronounced it wrong - it's, "But, my boyfriend!!" He wants to postpone Metatron like he did before the Apocalypse, so he can run after Crowley and I am devastated that he didn't get to. 😭

ALSO the end credits with Az going up in the elevator and Crowley driving away, I feel like you can just READ it in Aziraphale's face: "He'll see, I'll prove it to him. I will SHOW him how I can protect Us. How I can protect EVERYTHING. (ESPECIALLY the love of my eternal life.) I WILL. Make. A. DIFFERENCE." Because that scene is AFTER Metatron says, "We call it the Second Coming." Our Angel is momentarily TERRIFIED for what will happen to the Earth but then he gathers himself and you can SEE the level of devotion this ineffable fool is about to put into making SURE everything he loves (Crowley) (also, the Earth, but) (Crowley) is safe.

Crowley just being left with the overwhelming feeling that he's not enough for Aziraphale EXACTLY as he is, that the conditions for Aziraphale's love don't have room for the DEMON Crowley, only for his former Angelic self. (I wanna tear my HEART out, these goons are gonna kill me.)

And now, for the obvious one, The Kiss™. I saw so many spoilers, lord have MERCY. I do wish I had avoided social media as soon as I saw Season 2 was here, but I am a DAMNED FOOL. I will not make the same mistake when season 3 comes out in (WAY TOO LONG I NEED IT RIGHT NOW DAMMIT) what, like 3 years? 🥲

So, that was a little bit ruined for me, but still very powerful:

The way Aziraphale has to FIGHT not to embrace Crowley too (the HAND), the way he has to come back up from whatever depths of "I had never even DARED to hope but now this is actually HAPPENING" that Crowley transported him to, gasping, confused, elated, and HEARTBROKEN, the way he says, "I forgive you," either as a way to push back emotions he doesn't feel like he's ready to deal with yet OR as genuine forgiveness for the pain Crowley has put him in by refusing to go with him. (I REFUSE to believe it was forgiveness for the kiss itself.) The way he gently touches his lips. I'm assuming he's thinking, "Yes, but not NOW. Not like THIS."

The way Crowley just. Fuckin GRABBED him. So desperately. "PLEASE understand what you're doing to me. PLEASE understand how I truly FEEL about you. Please... PLEASE don't go." The way he looks cautiously HOPEFUL that THAT would be enough to make Aziraphale stay, holding on until the final confirmation that he's not going to, "I forgive you." The way he says, "Don't bother." It all GUTS me.

"Nothing lasts forever."

"i NEED you." 😭

When Crowley is talking about how they don't need Heaven or Hell, and Az is shaking his head because he KNOWS that it doesn't matter if they run away together, they'll never be FREE. They will ALWAYS know that they abandoned Earth to the whims of Heaven and Hell and that he and Crowley could never truly be happy with that sacrifice. They BOTH love the Earth and everything on it and NEITHER of them would be able to live with themselves if they left it unprotected and something happened that they could at least TRY to prevent. He knows the ONLY way to save EVERYONE is from the INSIDE.

And Crowley knows PERSONALLY what the consequences of that type of thinking are. He doesn't WANT to see Aziraphale go through what he had to go through, for simply ASKING a few questions. He SAW what they were going to do to Gabriel, for outright DENYING Heaven's plan for Apocalypse 2.0. He doesn't want his Angel to fall, because he SAW what happened to him after his first little lie, how it ate him up inside, when Az just THOUGHT he was a demon now. Crowley can't even bear to IMAGINE what Aziraphale would go through KNOWING he was actually a demon because he tried to directly influence or change the Will of God. Crowley simply canNOT bear to watch. (But you and I both know he'll be there anyways. Aziraphale always needs rescuing and Crowley needs to always rescue him.)

"But rescuing me makes him SO happy."

I can't get "It's always too late" out of my head and there WILL be art incoming, wait and see.

I am deceased. But, I will be back with more after I rewatch the entire season. Possibly even the whole series, I need to go back to the ending where everything seems like it's going to be fine for a while, to soothe me achin' heart. 😭

#good omens spoilers #good omens #ineffable husbands #aziraphale #crowley #i love them so much #i just want them to be okay #and neil gaiman said everything was gonna be okay #and I swear if they're not I am going to GET you #not really but cmon man #my husbands?? 😭 #did you have to kill me like that?

[tea-earl-grey]

character ask game: seven of nine and b'elenna torres

from this ask game

thanks for asking! since i'm procrastinating anyways i'm just gonna go through all the questions and put a cut because uh. this will be long :)

Seven of Nine:

1. Why do you like or dislike this character?

I'm always obsessed with characters struggling with humanity/personhood and Seven is the character to me that best exemplifies that struggle in addition to having so many complex narratives about trauma and guilt that are surprisingly well explored despite Voyager's tendency to avoid any serialized elements. plus Jeri Ryan's acting really sells it.

2. Favorite canon thing about this character?

her autistic swag. no but actually her bluntness and willingness to challenge others (particularly Janeway) is really refreshing and adds some great conflict to Voyager.

3. Least favorite canon thing about this character?

going to cop out and say the costuming lmao. it bothers me so fucking much and in my head Seven's been wearing science blues on Voyager since s4.

4. If you could put this character in any other media, be it a book, a movie, anything, what would you put them in?

i think Seven in any Doctor Who media would be really fascinating maybe specifically paired with the Eighth or Ninth Doctor? i think a lot of her problems around guilt and inhumanity are thoroughly explored in Doctor Who but she would also challenge the Doctor well when it comes to violence and whether the ends justify the means.

5. What's the first song that comes to mind when you think about them?

Machine by Regina Spektor

6. What's something you have in common with this character?

a fear of intimacy and insecurity about letting people around you know the real me... oh dear. on a more uplifting side, all of Seven's interactions with Tuvok really remind me of me and my dad. autism for the win.

7. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you like?

idk how widespread it is but i love thinking of Seven as a physically disabled character and her post-Voyager having to navigate medical systems that are openly hostile (if not downright dangerous) and her eventually finding that it's easier to be in pain and patch injuries together by herself than trusting others.

8. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise?

hmmm i don't think this is true on tumblr rn but i've read some older fic and posts that just comes off as weirdly infantilizing just because she isn't great with social interactions. (it's also just a larger problem of infantilizing neurodivergent coded characters).

9. Could you be roommates with this character?

tbh yeah? i think Seven might get annoyed at my tendency to leave clutter around and i might get annoyed at her tendency to mess around with things without telling people but i think we could pretty easily agree on boundaries and stick to them.

10. Could you be best friends with this character?

i would love to try but realistically i think both of us are too wary of social situations to actually be close friends.

11. Would you date this character?

if Seven asked me on a date then i would say yes but also i'm arospec and Seven has way too many relationship issues going on so that would not last.

12. What's a headcanon you have for this character?

Seven cut off all contact with Voyager's crew after Icheb died because of her guilt over his death except for Naomi who she sent a message to on every birthday.

13. What's an emoji, an emoticon and/or any symbol that reminds you of this character or you think the character would use a lot?

gonna be honest the last thing i associate with Seven are emojis so... none?

14. Assign a fashion aesthetic to this character.

maybe a bit predictable but i would love a steampunk redesign of Seven.

15. What's your favorite ship for this character? (Doesn't matter if it's canon or not.)

Seven/Raffi!! they have a great combination of being actually cute and having tons of unresolved conflict and some parallels (i.e. Seven accidentally causing her sort-of-son's death because she tried to be in an intimate relationship vs Raffi pushing her son away because she was too focused on her career and Doing the Right Thing). i really wish their relationship was a bigger part of Picard (particularly s3) and we didn't keep having them break-up offscreen and then ambiguously get back together like their relationship felt like such an afterthought and i realllllly hope we get some show or movie or even a book where Seven and Raffi get to be lead characters together.

16. What's your least favorite ship for this character?

Seven/Shaw is one of my few hated ships. if you like it then sure whatever i don't really care but i'm incredibly uninterested in shipping characters where one repeatedly deadnames the other and is just generally rude and dismissive. i actually really like their canon dynamic, i think Shaw is a great semi-antagonist for Seven with good narrative purpose and i dig the begrudging respect he eventually has for her but I Do Not ship it.

17. What's a ship for this character you don't hate but it's not your favorite that you're fine with?

Seven/B'Elanna. it's not something i really picked up on watching voyager and i'm not super interested in it but i definitely see how it could work and be a good dynamic! i'm not a b7 shipper but i support their beliefs.

18. How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?

admire is a strong word (and tbh i don't think i admire any of Seven's relationships, she's an absolute mess on that front) but i'm fascinated by Janeway and Seven's relationship. it was obviously written to be a mentor & student dynamic but so much of it is fucked up in a really compelling way (with some strong sapphic vibes going on) with Janeway essentially forcing Seven to be human and presuming to know who Seven should be and then acting surprised when Seven isn't her perfect protege (even echoing the control the Borg Queen has over the Collective. sorry i just watched Dark Frontier the other day so that's fresh in my mind). i would die to see them have a scene in Picard era because there's just so much to get into.

19. How about a relationship they have in canon that you don't like?

Seven & the EMH. in the Voyager of version that exists in my head, they have a good dynamic and friendship and i generally politely ignore some of the later canon stuff but yeah... not a fan of the Doctor's crush on her that just ends up falling into a very objectifying "older man is in love with his young female student" dynamic in seasons 6 and 7.

20. Which other character is the ideal best friend for this character, the amount of screentime they share doesn't matter?

i'm forever bitter than Seven and Hugh didn't have A SINGLE SCENE together. especially because the actors are actual friends! injustice! Seven and Hugh would be so cool together as they've shared so many of the same experiences but came out of them as very different people – Hugh choosing to be kind in the face of hatred and help the xBs vs Seven running away from the problem so she doesn't have to face her past. but yeah. Hugh is ideal best friend material.

21. If you're a fic writer and have written for this character, what's your favorite thing to do when you're writing for this character? What's something you don't like?

hm. i've mostly written (incomplete) stuff for Picard-era Seven and i really like to hone in on smaller movements and specify that they're very purposeful and planned because Seven has spent so long practicing "looking" and behaving human enough as a survival tactic (same thing with the way she speaks) and i love having her movements and speech pattern fall back to her earlier self when she's stressed or focused on something else.

something i don't like is that i have a hard time capturing her internal monologue and the way she views the world, particularly with Voyager-era Seven) as it always ends up coming out either too robotic or too human.

22. If you're a fic reader, what's something you like in fics when it comes to the character? Something you don't like?

hmmm i really like fics that explore some of the darker body horror type nature of the xBs (and particularly Seven) and i tend to get annoyed with stories (including canon ones) that erase the fact that part of her is still Borg.

23. Favorite picture of this character?

i do love the screencap that's my current icon (from The Haunting of Deck 12) but s1 Picard Seven is my favorite look of hers and particularly this shot is just. very good.

24. What other character from another fandom of yours that reminds you of them?

oh this is an incredibly obscure pull but Compassion from the Eighth Doctor Adventure books who is a clone that's been recycled so many times that she's lost any resemblance to the person she was based on and has to struggle with not being a real person in a way that reminds me a lot of Seven.

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now?

awhile before i started watching Voyager i had a friend who kept telling me how much i would like Seven (they guessed correctly) and from them i knew a) she was queer b) she was a badass c) she struggled with the idea of humanity which... again. is exactly my type of character and my impression hasn't majorly changed other than realizing that she is a much more nuanced and complex character than i originally thought.

B'Elanna Torres:

1. Why do you like or dislike this character?

i love B'Elanna! she's just a good character who has so much internal strife but tries to be strong and not let anyone know that she's in pain which is tragic but i am a tragedy enjoyer first and foremost.

2. Favorite canon thing about this character?

i think the sadness she has, especially when she's alone and there's no one to argue with, is so compelling and Roxann Dawson plays her really well. i also love that she's shown as very competent and and intelligent but didn't graduate from the Academy and doesn't have a particular love of Starfleet unlike 95% of other Star Trek characters.

3. Least favorite canon thing about this character?

because of the all (or at least mostly) white writers i think her character often leans into some unfortunate "fiery/angry Latina" stereotypes that's not recognized enough because it's always under the guise of "oh well it's because she's Klingon" but like. assigning undesirable personality traits to races, even if fictional, is. still racist.

4. If you could put this character in any other media, be it a book, a movie, anything, what would you put them in?

I'm not huge into Star Wars but I think B'Elanna would thrive joining the rebels in the original trilogy.

5. What's the first song that comes to mind when you think about them?

it might be the fact that i'm currently listening to this song but Mama by My Chemical Romance.

6. What's something you have in common with this character?

i think we both have a tendency to doubt our ability to do things that we're good at when faced with people who might be more qualified but less talented but i love how quickly B'Elanna does gain confidence in her abilities in s1 and 2 and i hope to follow in her footsteps.

7. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you like?

i have a lot of respect for the closeted lesbian B'Elanna headcanons i must say.

8. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise?

idk if this is a widespread fandom take or not but i always dislike the idea that B'Elanna would remain in Starfleet post-Voyager. like the show itself kind of forgets that the Maquis crew on Voyager still has some pretty big beef with the Federation (for good reason) and i don't think she would ever want to join Starfleet unless they have some systemic changes.

9. Could you be roommates with this character?

i think we would definitely have certain habits that would annoy each other but like with Seven, i feel like if we came up with some boundaries both of us would stick to them and it would work out.

10. Could you be best friends with this character?

we have very different personalities that would clash a bit too much to be best friends but i think we would get along.

11. Would you date this character?

again, probably not more just because i'm aro and not super interested in dating and B'Elanna deserves someone better than me.

12. What's a headcanon you have for this character?

after returning from the Delta Quadrant, B'Elanna opens an engineering shop where she rehabs old ships (with or without Tom).

13. What's an emoji, an emoticon and/or any symbol that reminds you of this character or you think the character would use a lot?

i think B'Elanna would respond to a lot of messages with just the middle finger🖕

14. Assign a fashion aesthetic to this character.

B'Elanna would rock 90s grunge fashion so hard.

15. What's your favorite ship for this character? (Doesn't matter if it's canon or not.)

hmmm i thought about this for awhile and honestly i just can't really think of a ship that makes sense for her because she deserves much better than the canon characters she interacts with.

16. What's your least favorite ship for this character?

i've seen B'Elanna/Chakotay around a few times and... no. not for me please.

17. What's a ship for this character you don't hate but it's not your favorite that you're fine with?

B'Elanna/Seven (as I said in Seven's section)

18. How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?

i generally like B'Elanna & Chakotay's canon relationship (with a few notable exceptions where things get weird) and i think Chakotay is such a good mentor figure for her as someone who shares the same political ideology but is older and wiser and knows better than to act only out of anger.

19. How about a relationship they have in canon that you don't like?

B'Elanna/Tom and it's not that i don't think the characters could work together, there are a few moments from the show and people's fanons or whatnot that have a lot of potential. and there's so much potential inherent in two characters with a lot of issues that they tend to hide with humor or aggression or whatever who are now forced to indefinitely be part of this crew/family. however i hate that all of their interactions are plagued with 90s sexism and always shown from Tom's perspective of how much he struggles being in a relationship and remembering to pay attention to B'Elanna as if that's just. an expected part of being in a relationship rather than a problem that needs to be resolved. and so many episodes focus on their relationship problems and we rarely get to see them being happy so it comes off feeling like they're trapped in an unhappy marriage.

20. Which other character is the ideal best friend for this character, the amount of screentime they share doesn't matter?

B'Elanna and Harry! they have such a good dynamic in s1 with Harry being the embodiment of Starfleet idealism and B'Elanna being so jaded towards Federation idealism and Harry over time developing his own Problems and B'Elanna beginning to resolve her issues. i wish we got more of them together!

21. If you're a fic writer and have written for this character, what's your favorite thing to do when you're writing for this character? What's something you don't like?

i haven't written any fic for B'Elanna yet so i'll just skip this one

22. If you're a fic reader, what's something you like in fics when it comes to the character? Something you don't like?

tbh i haven't read much B'Elanna fic. i'll get around to it! i've only been a Voyager fan for like 6 months.

23. Favorite picture of this character?

i love her curly hair from the beginning of s6 sooooo much

24. What other character from another fandom of yours that reminds you of them?

Clara from Doctor Who (specifically in s9). they both have some deep insecurities that they try to cover up with quips and deflection. they're also both very clever but don't necessarily think through their actions and have a tendency to throw themselves into danger.

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now?

tbh i didn't really have a strong opinion about any of the Voyager characters when i first started the show and kind of expected B'Elanna to fall into the mixed (alien) race stereotype of torn between two worlds and some of the accompanying racist tropes but tbh B'Elanna became a much deeper character than i ever expected both with exploring the tension of her heritage and internalized racism (Barge of the Dead & Lineage come to mind) but also exploring her mental health (Extreme Risk) and how her character reveals some of the issues inherent in the Federation's existence. i just wish that Voyager did more and was willing to create a more complete arc for her that doesn't leave some stuff like her self harming behaviors and grief over the Maquis alone after one episode. i also didn't expect her to be probably the most competent engineer in all of Star Trek but i maintain that she is.

#ask game #voyager #seven of nine #b'elanna torres #my posts

[elvenbeard]

I read your post about headcanons about Kerry's sexuality, and I totally agree with what you said about headcanons not taking away from representation, but I'm curious what your view are on mods that change a character's sexuality so anyone can romance them? I know there is, or at least used to be, quite a bit of debate around that. You don't have to answer if you don't want to, I'd hate to start any discourse drama on your blog. I'm just curious because I'm not even sure where I stand on the matter, and have been back and forth on it for a long time.

It's all good nonny! I have been asking myself that lately tbh, and I know I've been back and forth on it myself, too.

In this moment in time, I am completely indifferent on the existence of mods that do stuff like that. I don't condone or like them, but I'm not gonna do anything about them either. I know years ago in the Dragon Age fandom there was huge discourse and drama around a mod that made Dorian (canonically gay, his whole character arc revolves around that fact, just in case you're not into that series) available to be romanced by a female Inquisitor. And back then I was absolutely livid. Dorian was (and still is) one of my fave characters in the DA universe. And honestly, I couldn't even tell you now if anything ever came off of that whole drama (but I doubt it, cause it rarely does) - that's how pointless Internet drama really is. In the worst case, the person who made that mod got driven out of fandom entirely and now has negative associations with the queer community as a whole.

Do I think that mods that change a queer character's canon orientation are amazing? No, not really, and most of the time, especially in Dorian's case, they make no sense at all for the characters' arcs. I personally would never wanna play them and I'd also rather not know why some people make them.

(I'm completely biased here btw, because I do not feel as negatively about mods that change a canonically straight character's orientation to something queer. Simply because I'm queer and greedy for more representation, because there cannot be enough XD Does that make me a hypocrite to some people? Maybe, but honestly, I don't really care. And as I said in my post, and as you mentioned, even the "straight mods" do not take away from any queer representation that canonically exists.)

The thing is, me and others screaming and yelling about "straight mods" (or "bi mods" for characters that are explicitly gay/lesbian) is not gonna change a thing, mods like that are always gonna exist. Content I don't agree with is always something I can come across at random, and I keep finding new things that make me go "nope!" regularly. And even if I'm not screaming and yelling, and instead try to be reasonable, talk objectively with the mod makers as for xyz reasons their mod is not good in my eyes... I'm too old for that shit XD I'd rather use my energy and limited time to make a lot of gay stuff featuring my favourite queer blorbos instead of arguing with strangers why a straight!Dorian or bi!Judy or straight/bi!whoever mod is bad. Fandom should be a hobby, not activism, and you can go about fighting homophobia in a lot better ways than arguing about who certain pixel people would like to bone or not.

I wish there were - or maybe there are and I haven't figured it out yet - ways to filter stuff I don't wanna see on Nexus for example like there are on tumblr, ao3, any other social media site with a good tagging system and means to block tags or phrases or users. Curating your own experience and finding people who share your interests is so important and has really improved my time in fandom a lot over the last years. And it's good to have friends you can rant to about stupid things that upset you in private, definitely XD

So, on that note, ship whoever you wanna ship in this context, but tag it so that people who don't wanna see it can avoid it and don't get mad. Also sorry this got long and slightly off topic, I'm a chronic rambler.

(also, if anything's unclear, feel free to reach out again! sometimes I don't express myself as well as I think I do XD)

#answered asks #anonymous #I don't know how to tag this uuuuhhhhh #fandom stuff

[buckybarnesthings]

New Chapter 🚨

Making Enemies Already?

"Right, suns up so you should be too!" Tony exclaimed, stepping of the elevator.

It's just after 7am and Bucky had come back from his morning run with Steve and joined me in the living room for coffee but we were interrupted by Wanda and Sam coming up to spend time with me. Sam says he came to see me but really I think he wanted to hangout with Bucky. From what I've heard for Bucky they seem to have a secret love hate relationship. Tony made his way to the living room to greet us, stopping abruptly when he saw it wasn't just Bucky and I.

"Well can't say I'm surprised, you seem like his type. And Sam like to rile him up anyway." He said, eyes flicking between me and Bucky as if trying to suggest something.

"I don't know what that means and I'm not gonna ask." I replied.

"He's trying to suggest something about us." Bucky smirked.

"Would he be wrong?" I grin, this playful teasing was always something we did. But I seem to forget we have an audience, who are shocked at this, their mouths hanging on the ground.

"If he's talking about the past, he's right." He continued.

"Alright as confused as I am, I'm sure I'm not the only one, we have things to do." Tony interrupted. "So enough chitchat, this is for you and I have some more stuff for you in my office. Where we have things to discuss about your contribution to the team."

Tony hands me a rectangular black box, upon further inspection I find it to be a high tech phone produced by Stark Industries. I knew this was apart of the deal when I agreed to be a recruit. I look up to find Tony already waiting at the elevator for me, so I turned around and waved goodbye to everyone. Wanda and Sam both grabbed their belongings and their breakfasts and made their way down one of the other hallways. Bucky smiled softly as me and returned my wave with his own, and after looking around for prying eyes he cheekily blew me a kiss. I assume he's doing it in a playful manner but it was something we did when we were together during our entrapment at Hydra.

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FLASHBACK

My body aches from all the strenuous training I've been doing to avoid the typical Hydra beatings. I'd been doing everything I could from training with the Red Room Widows once a week, guns, knives, agility, stealth and under the right conditions even my magic and abilities. I even made a friend in the Red Room she told me her name was Yelena but it seemed like she was close to the end of her training as she has her ceremony at the end of the month. At least I finally have a mattress to sleep on which means I'm more comfortable than I would've been. I'm about to get ready to head to the labs for a new experiment. Yeah I haven't quite figured out how to prove myself above that part of Hydra.

"Doll?" A deep voice asks.

"Sarg?" I reply.

"I went down to the labs to see if I could find out what they had in store for you, but no luck." Bucky admitted.

"No different from any other time. It's ok, I'm used to it by now." I said.

"You're so strong, you can get through anything." He stated, placing a sweet but fleeting kiss on my lips.

We are still cautious about showing physical affection as Hydra doesn't know about our relationship. As we don't know what they'd do about it, I think they were hoping we'd come together on our own so they didn't have to force it. From one of the files I found in the Red Room stated that Hydra had plans to breed experiments and any males would be put through the winter soldier program and the females would be given to the Red Room. It doesn't say who they planned to breed but it seems super soldiers and assassins are what they had in mind. Either way Hydra decided to put us in the same room as we were often on missions or training together, it just made sense apparently.

END FLASHBACK

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"So that's the phone bit sorted and I understand that Nat and Wanda both told you about the social media. Now you aren't expected to jump onto TikTok of Instagram but you can if you want to but you'll need approval from the social manager before posting and they'll set up accounts for you. Otherwise you are expected to appear at one or more events each month, if it's a charity event your expected no matter what but other than that you can pick and choose which ones to attend." Tony said. "I'll draw you up a schedule for the week to week so you know when team bonding days are as well as meal times in the communal dining hall. We can book the gym for when you'd prefer to workout but you'll probably be stuck using it at the same time as someone else."

"I'm not a fan of phones as it is but I understand the requirement for them, but I won't be using social media. I'm happy to attend any events that come up but I do have a couple questions about that before we do a schedule." I replied.

"Ask away then." He stated, resting back in his chair.

"Well I don't have any money so am I expected to get a job to pay for these expenses for dresses and shoes for an event? Do I need at date at these things? Is Hades allowed to join?" I asked, I think I know the answer about Hades attending but there's no harm in asking.

"Ahh that reminds me you'll get a team card, it's a card that's used for all team members that stay here and it's always got plenty of money on it, you can use that for whatever you need events or everyday stuff. You don't necessarily need a date to all these events, some will require one, but it never hurts to go with someone for company. Which I'm sure terminator wouldn't mind lending a hand." Tony joked. "Uh strictly no animals at any events other than stuff held here at the campus with only other Avengers in attendance. Unless Hades is a certified assistance animal, which is what Alpine is so she'll be at some events if Barnes doesn't have any company."

"Look I don't know what you thinks going on between me and Bucky but it's in the past we are just getting to know each other, again." I clarified.

"It's none of my business what happens between teammates and their sheets but I think a girlfriend would be beneficial for him. Plus I had over heard a few conversations between him and Cap, talking about the love he found in Hydra and how he wanted to get clear of his trigger words and look for her. I'm assuming that means more to you than me." Tony smirked, seemingly piecing all these pieces together like a large and intricate puzzle.

"We have a history but for now we are just friends getting to know each other again. If something happens between us we will let you know." I joked.

"Again it's none of my business and there's no rules against relationships between Avengers otherwise Natasha would be under investigation." Tony said. "But now that we've gotten the formalities and details out of the way we can discuss the good stuff. Such as your uniforms, you'll get one for training and one for missions. It's up to you what design you want unless you'd like your Hydra uniform modified with an Avengers logo. Here's the designs I've had drawn up for you. The first one is the set training uniform everyone gets but you'll get your name or hero name embroidered on the back. You can pick out of the others what you'd prefer. What do you think?"

He place a Manila envelope on the desk and slid it to me, to look through. I didn't really think about changing what I wore, I'm just used to the feel of what Hydra gave me. Even though my uniform left little to the imagination but that was Hydra's plan. To distract the target with my body especially if (in the beginning) I couldn't fight. It gave the Winter Soldier a chance to take a shot or sedate them.

(The training uniform)

(Design option 1)

(Design option 2)

(Design option 3)

(Original Hydra uniform)

"I'm not expecting a decision right now, I understand from what Fury has told me, that Hydra has hurt you more than any of us can imagine. But I want you to have this opportunity to choose how the public views you, whether that's as a whole new version or the better version of what you were." He added, remorse evident in his eyes. "I know they used the fact that your a woman against their enemies, that they sexualised you and never took you seriously because they had the Winter Soldier as their weapon but in this team you are apart of every decision and debriefing that affects you."

"Thank you so much for understanding but I think I want to make this decision now and if it's not too much to ask for I'd like the first design but still be able to wear my old uniform when I want to." I said, withholding my tears as I would not cry in front of him.

"By all means, you have full control here. I'll get the suit put together and fitted with some nano technology to absorb pressure and redirect it, as well as some other stuff like fire resistance and what not to protect it from your abilities." He shared. Handing over my schedule that he was typing up as I made my decision, it only needed a couple of things added from what everyone else had on their but still needed to be done.

"Other than that that's pretty much everything, Fury went through the rules and expectations of you as apart of this team so I won't rehash that crap. But I will let you know that I've added an event to your schedule which you'll need to do your homework for. As we are having a team baseball game where we are splitting the team in half and we will verse each other and which ever team wins gets to choose which charity all the donations go to. And as a bonus everyone will represent a different charity in hopes of winning MVP to donate $5 million to. I'll get you fitted for your uniform when we do a fitting tomorrow for the uniform as well." Tony said.

"That sounds like fun actually, are the enchanted players allowed to use their abilities?" I asked.

"Yes as we've split the team in order to level the playing field. So you'll be on a team with Natasha, Steve, Bucky, Scott and a few others, then on my team there's Wanda, Peter, Bruce or Hulk, Thor and some others." He stated.

"So you're putting all the super soldiers on one team?" I inquired, wondering if there's any theory behind this madness or if it was simply overlooked.

"Yes but that's so I could have a God and a chemically enhance giant, Thor and Hulk if Bruce agrees to play as Hulk." He confesses.

"Hmm I hope your a gracious looser Mr Stark." I share, standing and moving towards the door with my schedule and some miscellaneous paperwork in hand.

"I guess we will never know, see you around." He farewelled.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~Time Skip: Lunch~~~~~~~~~~~~

"Here she is!" Sam exclaims, speaking to a blonde woman with her back towards me.

"Yup here I am." I state, everyone standing around the table looking towards me and smiling in greeting.

But the only person I take note of is Bucky, who's standing next to Sam and Steve. He shares a cunning grin with Steve, I wonder what that's about. I make a mental note to ask him later.

"Aspyn Davis meet Sharon Carter, Sharon meet Aspyn oh and her pet wolf Hades." Sam introduces.

"Nice to meet you. Are you another Avenger?" I ask in greeting. The scowl on her face is a tell tale sign that I've offended her somehow.

"She wishes!" Bucky scoffs, rolling his eyes.

"I can't say the same, Witch. This team already has an enhanced magic user, actually a few." She snidely said.

"Wow ok not that I need you approval as you're clearly not good enough to join the team but I'm a lot more than a Witch. You say Witch like it's a bad thing." I scoff, already deciding I do not like this girl one bit and I don't think I'm the only one with Nat and Wanda glaring at her with crossed arms.

"You know what-" she starts, moving towards me with her fists clenched.

She came to an abrupt halt when Hades moved in front of me snarling and drooling in anticipation for a fight. But before she could move another inch or Hades could pounce Steve stepped between them facing Sharon.

"I think you should leave, you got what you came for. I pick you up tonight for our date, see you at 6pm." Steve said, trying to diffuse the situation.

Hades looked to me for his command to attack or retreat, to which I directed him to sit between my legs in his guard position.

"Whatever. I don't have enough air to waste anymore on her." She sneers, grabbing Steve's arm and walking them both to the elevator doors.

"Well I can't say your the first girl she didn't like on the team. But I think she got the hint that you aren't to be messed with." Sam comments.

"The feeling's mutual, next time I may just accidentally confuse which command tells Hades to retreat with the attack one." I scoff, half seriously.

"She's a bitch anyway, don't sweat it. I'm still weirded out by the fact that she's trying to get into Steve's bed when he's head over heels for her deceased Aunt." Bucky stated, hand resting on my arm in comfort.

Sometimes I forget just how deep our history goes and how he knows my triggers and short temper. He also pays Hades on the head affirming his concern for my safety in the moments just gone.

"Believe me I'm not going go." I share.

"At least she's over her I wanna be an Avenger phase otherwise that could've gotten a lot messier." Wanda says, joining our little huddle.

"Yes and thankfully she's not still trying to sleep with Bucky as well as Steve, I think she's realised just how much Steve loves his customs from the 1940's." Nat shares, also joining the conversation with a sour expression across her face.

"Wait really?!" I ask, doubling over in laughter at Sharon's expense.

I know full well that Bucky wouldn't touch her with a ten foot pole, I know even as the Winter Soldier he was hesitant in having a physical relationship with me.

"Hey you better be laughing about the Steve part!" Bucky chides, knowing what I may have been thinking about.

"If it helps you sleep at night then yes I was." I said, still giggling.

"Not that that helps anyway." He whispered, so quietly that without the super soldier hearing I would've missed it. Another thing I'll ask about when we eventually get this coffee he promised.

"Alright enough with the drama, lunch is served. Everyone sit down and help yourself, we have baseball practice tonight so you'll need all you energy." Tony announces.

On offer for lunch was build your own burger and a range of salads and sides to go with it. You'd think for an elite team of heroes they be eating something greener but the food options seems to range from this to pop tarts apparently. That's according to what Nat and Wanda said as we sat down talking about how meal time usually goes when the campus has all its residents. But currently Clint is with his family, Thor is back in Asgard and Peter is staying with his Aunt during school and here during the school breaks. I'm avidly listening and contributing to the conversation as they move on to the topic of baseball and the female uniforms for the event. Well that was until I felt and all to familiar hand placed on my thigh under the table. I look over to see none other than Bucky looking innocent as ever animatedly talking to Steve and Scott. If I wasn't so used to this I would've thought it was an accident and he hadn't realised what he was doing but I can tell from the way the corner of his mouth is curved up ever so slightly.

Instead of doing the smart thing I decide to let this place out as if I'm unaffected by his advances. Boy was that a mistake, as he takes my silence as an agreement to continue with his cheeky plans. The deliciously warm hand move up closer to the crease where my thigh meets my hip, he leaves it there not moving any further. Leaving wet and tense hoping for something, anything more than simply his touch. He knows what he's doing as we've played this game before and it always end with the both of us in a compromising position.

"Aspyn!" Wanda exclaims. "What do you think about skirts or a dress instead of pants?"

"Uh yeah that's fine, might work in our favour as it might distract the guys or being in a little more donations." I said, completely stupified by the hand that sits slightly between my thighs.

"Good think but I was thinking more along the lines of it being cooler on us." Nat said, sending a knowing wink from beside me.

She has a complete view of the hand on my thigh, it doesn't help that her Red Room training has her on high alert at all times so she notices things like this. Wanda begins talking to Tony from across the table about this idea whilst Nat and I share a look one of knowing and the other of shame. Don't get me wrong I don't want him to move his hand away, actually if he moved it to my core I wouldn't be opposed, but I feel bad that I've been caught and watched by a new friend. With no one paying any attention to us Nat writes something on a napkin before sliding it towards me.

'You should return the favour. If he can tease you, why not tease him?' It says.

I smirk at her, all shame washing away, I agree why should he have all the fun and let me be the only one affected. With that in mind Nat joins conversation with Wanda and Tony, whilst I get right to work. I place my hand on his to begin with, he stiffens thinking I'm about to push him off. Instead I begin to play with his fingers a stoke his palm, tracing pattern into his large hand. Then after a few uninterrupted seconds I push him further by removing my hand and placing it on his knee continuing the patterns. I wait a few more seconds before walking my hand up his thick muscled thigh letting in rest just beside his crouch. He instantly tenses, I watch with enhance vision as his muscles all contract and bulge against his pants. My gaze eventually lands on his slightly tented crouch, I smirk knowing I've got him exactly where I want him. So I just relax my bad and leave it there.

I look over at Nat who's watching me with keen eyes, we make eye contact and I wink, causing her to smirk with me. I start listening to Steve's conversation, wondering what was so interesting that Bucky didn't continue on from what he was alluding to under the table. I feel as his hand roughly grasps my thigh and releases it as if it bring my attention back to him. But I stay strong ignoring him, he tries again and gets no response still so he turns to look at me. He eyes pleading for me to continue or move my hand away. So as I ponder my options I decide to give him a taste of what could have been if he had of continued before. I raise my hand making him look down thinking I was pulling away, only to move my hand to grasp his thick cock. Not too hard but just enough for him to feel me and enjoy it. His response sends a wave of wetness through my underwear instantly making me seep through to the inside of my thighs. I feel him twitch and harden in my hand before I suddenly retract my hand making him whine. The team all look at me as I slide my chair out as I stand up.

"That was delicious, thank you Tony. I'm gonna head back to my room and get to unpacking the rest of my stuff. I'll see you all later for training I guess." I say, waving goodbye as I walk away.

Hearing a mumble chorus of good byes and see you laters from the group. I look back as I step into the elevator to see both Bucky and Nat looking at me, Nat smirking at me before looking to Bucky. Bucky looks at me in disbelief for a moment before a cunning grin graces his face and he mouths 'this isn't over'. He maintains eye contact with me as the doors close only looking away when the door shields our field of view.

I realise I left Hades downstairs, so I quickly flick a message to Wanda asking her to bring him up with her, she instantly responds with a yes and say 'I have some questions about what just happened, I can read minds and Bucky is screaming for you'. I smile to myself, relishing in the realisation that maybe Bucky and I still have an undeniable connection on multiple levels.

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A/N- wow that was a bigger chapter that's for sure. Things are really heating up for our beloved Aspyn and her lost flame. Can't wait to write the next chapter and see what happens next for them, wonder what Bucky is going to do to get back at her. With the uniform feel free to picture whatever you want, the ones in the chapter were just for reference.

[crimswnred]

How do you think Tim & MC tell their friends they’re dating? Rap crew included! Oh oh how do you think Jen and the other islanders like Levi/Mason/Cherry/Erikah find out and their reactions? I think Mason/Levi’s reaction would be funny.

Tim's friends popped a bottle of champagne and lit fireworks. They were CELEBRATING, after all, they were getting tired of hearing him talk about her.

MC's friends were skeptical at first. she gets out of a pretty messy relationship and then starts dating one of her friends? — not to mention Tim is a bit of a manchild, let's be honest. but they soon realise they fit together and he makes her the happiest she has ever been. and that's the most important part.

Rohan is absolutely shocked. he is like since when? and feeling like an absolute clown for teasing Tim over his stupid crush. he knew Tim was into MC, ofc, Rohan and Tim are practically best friends. but he didn't think it was ever gonna mutual. it takes a while for the penny drop (in a funny way, ofc).

Jake and Talia knew about it. actually, they had a bet going on. Jake said Tim was confessing first, Talia believed it would MC. Talia won.

Jen flipped. It doesn't matter if MC started going out with him months after the breakup or a week after, she's pissed. like REAL PISSED. she's a fashion blogger (if I remember correctly) so she has a big following on social media and she's using it to attack MC. like, I'm talking about endless stories on Instagram and purposefully unfollowing her when everyone is talking about it. it gets ugly really fast.

I think Levi/Mason would have a bruised ego. When they got the news they didn't believe at first but then they saw maybe a cute couple selfie on Tim's page and they stood a whole 5 minutes just staring at it, incredulously. They would try to ignore it but he's actually avoiding MC and Tim in every way possible. I don't think they would as petty as Jen would but I can see some shade being thrown here and there.

I don't know if you left in a positive note with Erikah but I did. she's "friends" with MC and although she's not Tim's biggest fan I think she'd be supportive, at least online. Especially because I believe the general public would love them together and she's going with that flow.

Cherry is sliding in Levi/Mason's dms quicker than you can say MC's leftovers. something like "omg just heard the news about MC and Tim. how are you feeling? 🥺"

#litg #litg tim #anon #askask #litg s1 #u can totally see who i like and who i hate

[eternalglitch]

Okay, first off- thank you so much for responding eeee!! I literally got so excited when I saw this last night! Second! I was reading your writing tips [and now I’m gonna try and enter NaNoWriMo this coming November] but I would still love a little help :D 

I was hoping I could maybe hear more about how you got people’s attention / what your main reading resources are that developed your amazing writing; and how you were able to partner with other writers for the first time?? Like, how did those interactions transition to trusting relationships? :>

I’ve been a fanfic writer since I was 11, and I started looking into being an original writer this last year. I’ve admired the fanfic writing community since I was 11, but I’ve never tried reaching out, until now.

So this really meant the world to me that you responded :> :) :D

I have so many ideas, but I have a really hard time with writing more than one beginning-or-end chapter. 

So I had thought, maybe learning how you got to where you are, would show me the way. 

-Thank you for listening to me ramble. lol. 

Good luck with NaNoWriMo! It's going to be quite the trip, but hopefully it'll be fun as a whole. Be sure to sign up on the official website!

As for how to get attention... honestly it's a mix of skill and luck. It's hard to coach anyone how to do that because it's all about having the ability to write something good while ALSO landing in a spot where people are able to actually get a chance to see your work. I posted lfls when the fanfic scene of Rise of the TMNT was very small; it was one of the few plot-driven longer fics of the time, so it was easy for people to notice it. And once it was noticed and talked about in that smaller circle of fans, as the fandom's size exploded it was already easy to find for newcomers that wanted to try reading Rise fics so it was just yanked up there with that wave. I couldn't recreate that situation if I tried. But if you get your storytelling ability up to a certain standard, I think you'll at least find some people out there that will be excited to read your work. I can't promise it would be in fandom famous amounts, but you never know! Hopefully the luck aspect will happen for you, too.

Most of the chances I've had at teaming up with other writers and artists was because my work was already known. I've been approached multiple times because people who I admired noticed me following them on social media and since they liked my own work or even just knew of my reputation, wanted to become friends (and vice versa!). And I find that that's actually a really good way to make friends, if you happen to be in that situation! We both are intimidated by each other for a good three days and then two weeks later I'm making fun of them for being short on Twitter (I'm sorry Pen, True, and Andy lol). It's easier for me to take that step into connecting with people I admire when I kind of know they are also a bit scared of me in the same way, haha. Any other times I've met people is by becoming friends in larger fandom discord servers, which is also a great way. Just be careful and follow the standard online safety rules.

For resources, I just read a lot as a kid. Like a book every two days. I also was active writing online, of course, and read fanfics a lot. And then I also majored in Creative Writing in college. Personally I think actual classes help some, but the best thing was actually posting my work and seeing what kind of reception it got and judging how to push that even farther from there. I would also see what kind of language I liked or disliked from a wide variety of fics and books, including the classic ones I read during high school. I have a scathing hatred of Faulkner and took NOTES on how to avoid his style lol.

After that... I think you're mostly getting at that you want a road map of my little journey, so sure! Here's some highlights.

As a kid, I spent most afternoons at a friend's house. We would staple paper together and make little comics. Mine were mostly bad Warrior Cats fanfiction.

2009-2012 I was active on a virtual pet website called Chicken Smoothie (yes that's the name. What About It) with an active forum area. There was a lot of little roleplays I joined there, and often contests to adopt character designs would include a writing section. The friends I made there and whatnot really started me on creating characters and trying to write more often. I even started my own original story there based on some of the pet designs.

2012(?) I posted my first official fanfic online. It was called I Must Be Dreaming and has since been deleted from everywhere except my old personal files. It was about a main character being brainwashed into joining the villains in an old anime series (sound familiar?)

2013 I posted and finished a fanfic called Shadows of Pride for Fullmetal Alchemist. It was seven chapters and 27k words in total. The main thing I learned from this one was how to plan a story out and complete it. This was also the first year I entered NaNoWriMo for an original 50k novel called Wide Awake.

2015 was the Undertale period for me. I got up to top 10 ranked Undertale fanfics on fanfic.net, and finished a full longer story- Over and Over, which was around 64k. I also wrote some shorter ones, but that was the only one of note. After that year, I transferred to ao3 as my home base for fanfic.

2017 beat NaNoWriMo again with another 50k original story titled Lights Out.

2018/19 I worked on a My Hero Academia fanfic called Way Out of Character. I never finished this one, but I absolutely learned more about manipulating how I utilized POV in my writing.

2020 I started Like Father Like Son.

#glitch answers #writing advice #longer post #why do I feel embarrassed about talking about myself for this much AGKDHLDGHJ

[aromanticbuck]

Hey! You know I'm always down for babbles! So tell me your thoughts about Mouse/Buck? I love when you're excited about stuff, even if I still am struggling to get back to watching pd with all my life stuff lately.

Oh speaking of that, Hi, and sorry I've been gone so long.

So, I totally see Mouse and Buck working from what you've fleshed out about Mouse and how Buck seems from all the gifs you reblog. They would be absolutely a disaster together in all the best ways, and I love the chaos. I also had half a thought, because you recently shared the meta I asked for about Jay's shirt, how interesting it would be if they met while Mouse was wearing that shirt, half-claimed by someone who is getting married to someone else. Idk. I have thoughts but they aren't coherent.

Good morning, Shae! First off, welcome back 💜 and you absolutely do not need to apologize for being gone, for any reason - taking a break from social media is always okay. I hope things are going better for you now! (and absolutely no rush on getting through Chicago PD, either. it’s not going anywhere)

As for Mouse and Buck… I got deep in my feels about their mommy issues last night while writing that prompt fill, and I made myself write around them to avoid writing an 8k AU with deep dives and chaos. Because like… obligatory usual disclaimer that all of Mouse’s backstory is my own headcanons because canon refused to tell us anything about him at all. But…

There’s something about their parallels there that just makes me absolutely feral. They’re both struggling to live up to these standards their parents set for them that are completely unattainable, clawing and begging for the kind of love that they’re just never going to receive. Buck has to try to live up to Daniel, and his own perceived failure in saving him; Mouse had to try to live up to the “perfect son” image for the media and in private and always be performing to feel worthy of anything.

Just… the idea of both of them, having unpacked some of the trauma from their childhoods, coming together and seeing their they’re both cracked in the same places… they’re broken in the same ways… so much so that their pieces fit together like a puzzle? I love it. I love them. I’m gonna give them more cute things.

And the idea of Buck meeting Mouse when he’s in Jay’s Shirt… comedy, actually. Because, listen… they’re both sluts. They’ve both done the sleeping around, casual hookups thing - Mouse just didn’t “borrow” a firetruck when he did it. He did it the old fashioned way at bars and clubs with cheap drinks and filthy dancing. Buck used dating apps and gave himself the username firehose while meeting women for hookups with literal city property.

Buck would take one look at the shirt that’s too big on Mouse’s shoulders with sleeves that have to be rolled up and just “I know what you are (whore) (affectionate) (friend shaped)” and I think that’s beautiful.

I did, however, just remember that Buck is a hugger - Mouse might just have to accept that he’s attracted to disaster bisexuals whose love language is touch and he’s gonna have to be outside of his comfort zone a little bit for any of the relationships he wants to work out.

#answered #shae tag #lovelymysticmoon #evan buckley #evan buck buckely #911 #911 on fox #911 on abc #mouse gerwitz #greg mouse gerwitz #greg gerwitz #cpd #chicago pd #one chicago #mousely #alex says things #I’m gonna keep thinking about them today…

[sheisbeautyweareworldass]

Hi. I'm sending this to you because I feel like you being also a Latam Louie you would understand what I'm going through at the moment and also because I feel like some of the non-Latam Louies would probably shoot first and then ask questions later because they won't understand and would try to defend Louis at all cost. I know this is probably not Louis' or even Joshua's fault, this is probably LTHQ just being LTHQ, like I'm not really blaming Louis and Joshua but I really believe Latam deserved better. Like, Louis spend his days in Latam saying how much he loves us and everyone else did and continues to do the same but the only thing they gave us were two very short (and kind of crappy, sorry) IGTVs and no YouTube video, like it's been days and still no YouTube video, like sure is definitely gonna be shorter than the others but I'll still like to see it. I'm not blaming Josh because the guy was probably just trying something new and that's why the format for the Latam IGTVs is a bit different than the others and I don't blame Louis either because maybe he wanted everyone to truly enjoy their time in Latam and some footage might be missing because the camera wasn't recording but I'm going through it, you know. Like, I'm even starting to believe some of the xenophobic comments. I'm really having some dark thoughts and is probably just LTHQs fault but I'm going through it. I've been going through it since we got that IGTV, it kinda made me comfortable since day one. I don't know how to explain it but I hope you can understand and I hope no one comes for me, they're just my feelings and I'm allow to have those, aren't I? Like, I know Louis and his team probably don't know about the hate Latam got but their approach post-Latam is kinda making me believe the hate. I guess we Latam Louies are just mentally exhausted after everything that happened and this situation isn't helping it, you know? Sorry for the rant, I just needed to share this with someone.

oi, amor! i'm going to avoid my finals for a few minutes to answer you as you deserve because i can assure you that you're not alone in how you're feeling (fun fact: i had a similar rant about this with a friend of mine and i was also not feeling comfortable with sharing publicly because i was afraid of any potential backlash, but as it is..... i believe you, me and any other latam louies are entitled to feel like this).

you're being waaaay more lenient than me, i can't let louis out of the hook on this one. joshua is his employee, people behind lthq are his employees. they respond to him - louis can and should be able to tell them to do their job. i can't bring myself to believe in the whole "trying a new format" thing either, sorry. in the way it looks to me, it just seemed like they weren't in the mood to post an igtv for every 3-5 shows (like they did for the other legs) and decided to compile 6 countries and 12 shows in 6 minutes. in other words, it felt lazy. not to mention disrespectful and unprofessional as well - they were late for weeks (!).

as for the xenophobic comments, i ask you to please don't listen to them. people who said that only used louis as a gateway to express their hate and bigotry. i think the igtv reflects a lot of the issues with louis (for example, sometimes it seems like we're more worried about his career than he is, since the lack of consistency annoys us but it seems to not be a problem to him), but not even once did i think it meant that he hates us. i know those dark thoughts are hard to get rid of (especially when, as a latina, you're used to people making you feel bad for even existing), but don't give that igtv (or the lack of) more power than it has. we can always focus on what he said on stage more than his social media activity when searching for validation and comfort.

with that being said, latin america and asia deserved better. i don't know if the laziness is because they're getting tired of being on tour, if it's sheer unprofessionalism or something else, but fans are allowed to complain and we're not obliged to blindly support and love everything louis does - especially not when we think it's wrong. you shouldn't feel bad about having those feelings and, as i said before, you're not alone on that.

#answered