#i'm having so many incoherent thoughts rn

[archivalsapphic]

the idealist becoming the realist

"tonight i could make dinner." // "i'm done with you."

"we will win, of course." "you really believe that?" // "there is no our side."

the realist becoming the idealist

"everyone is exhaustive. even the best ones." // "no one is going anywhere."

#killing eve #villanelle #villaneve #eve polastri #good omens #crowley #aziraphale #bly manor #damie #jamie taylor #dani clayton #the magnus archives #tma #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #jonmartin #i'm having so many incoherent thoughts rn

[leias-left-hair-bun-again]

Repcomm anon again... I have officially decided that tumblr's problems with Kal'buir are just because of fandom's collective daddy issues. They hate every vaguely father-shaped character who isn't an obvious DILF or more perfectly wholesome than Father Christmas. If they put Kal in live action and made him hot, my bet is that fandom would be singing a very different tune. And it's not just Star Wars fans either - every fandom I've ever been in decides that the not-hot dads are problematic, neglectful, emotionally abusive, and probably physically abusive, no matter what the source material actually says. It's rather tiresome, if you ask me.

Anyway, Kal is the best and I love him

!!! thank you!!!!!! it IS it is tiresome!!!!!! oh my heck i -

repcomm anon you have taken the words directly out of my mouth. at least it isn't just this fandom that has daddy issues, that a relief in a way (though also kind of worrying if i'm honest), but oh my goodness i just - i may as well stop blogging right now, you've said all there is to say on the matter and you're so right

#i'm going to be coming back and reblogging this many times #so for now. i leave it only sparsely answered so as to not take away from you words bc i mean what else is there to even say #you've hit the proverbial nail on the head and i am about to become incredibly obnoxious from here on out with waving this in the fandom's #collective face 24/7 #repcomm anon if you would ever like to join a server where we talk about what a good dad kal is all the time >.> i mean only after you #finish the books of course XD but if you ever think that would be fun pLEASE let me know and i'll post a link #no pressure i mean i just. thought i'd put the option out there lksjkljd #your thoughts are so good!!! so amazingly good!!!!!!! #anyways #i am incoherent today so sorry but i am just flailing with emotion rn and have been for nearly 24 hours i just. YES #EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS IS SO GOOD #ask #repcomm reader anon 📚 #kal skirata #kal skirata positive #repcomm #republic commando

[braveburned]

home from being productive and can I just say get my boy OUTTA there

#★ * OOC / brainrot for a sushi restaurant. ) #I HAVE ... SO MANY THOUGHTS #I am mostly just yelling incoherently in ash's dms rn #BUT FEEL FREE TO YELL AT ME ABOUT THE DLC BECAUSE. AHH?!?!?! #I still have to be productive but at least while I'm in my own home I don't have to be NORMAL

[sam-jessie]

I fucking hate mainstream coverage of the writer's strike. Why is everyone talking about the strike delaying shows rather than talking about the actual fucking strike??

And i cannot believe how many people think ai rn can replace writers. Like have you read that shit?? Like it's boring at best and incoherent sometimes. Chat gpt can't even write an essay without it being immediately obvious that it was written by an ai.

I have soo many thoughts about some dumbass YouTube channels too that are like the writing is bad nowadays so they'll lose their jobs anyway and the wga members don't know what they're doing blah blah blah . I'm kinda pissed off ngl

#writer's guild america #wga #wga strike #union strike #worker's rights #fuck the rich

[teafairywithabook]

I need to scream about Avior

Ok ok so I've been a fuckin MESS for DAYS since the first of the 3 Avior finale audios dropped. I've ranted about this in other places but I need to spread my incoherent ramblings. Spoilers ahead if you still haven't listened.

That first drop, OMG please! Avior just wanted to make me cry. How he questioned Circinus ("Why do we live forever? Why do they die?") his beliefs about the Meridian and his building horror as he spoke about it. The emotion as Avior and Starlight walked to the void and oh that hug.

The second drop was so good. For something so short, it was a masterpiece. I loved Starlight giving the Meridien, or E'Laetum and Min'Ara as we know them to be, a mouthful. A child's outburst? Maybe but it felt good! Perhaps it was the only way to get their message heard but damn. Everything Avior had gone through would have been avoidable if he'd have simply not blasted Starlight out in the first place. And for E'Laetum to call Avior an "intransigent little thing" made me laugh. Yeah it's why I love him!

But there's so much in that last drop. So much. The way Starlight's memories were restored was fantastic! I loved the distrustful strangers-to-lovers we had. Avior's attitude was a delight, and even though he wasn't sure about this human, he still cared. And his laugh! Oh he's a flirty fucker and I love him for it.

Then they landed back on Elegy. Now, for starters can we talk about the respect Avior has for Starlight? The last thing Avior knew was that Starlight hated him and still his first thought, after realising it was all real, was making sure they were there. You can hear the panic in his voice. When they asked him to go into their memories, he didn't want to. They weren't in a good enough place for that, and he still double checked. He asked permission to touch them and explained why, and still kept enough distance that Starlight had to move forwards to kiss him.

Speaking of kisses, CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE KISSES? I'm going to need many MANY more of those! Thank you!

The ending finally gave us a firm timeline and this whole series has been a ride! I've been complaining I don't like slow burns, but I might be wrong. Maybe.

But for now, MY BOI IS OUT! WE ARE FREE!

I'm so excited for S2! I have so many theories but I'm too busy evaporating rn and listening to this on repeat. Feel free to come scream at me in my asks!

#redacted asmr #redacted avior #avior my love #avior x starlight #avior #redacted starlight

[claudiajcregg]

i'd love to hear any behind the scenes you have on 'say it's here where our pieces fall in place' bc i read it and loved it and i want to know about it 💜

Welp, I've been thinking about this since you sent it and I feel I won't do it justice! I feel like I could say a lot if I went chapter by chapter, but many tabs of unread fics stare back at me. I'll skim and try to say something, though.

Some commentary on say it's here where our pieces fall in place under the cut! I am sick and rambly. And lbr I can never shut up anyway, but this might be too incoherent even for me. (Original ask post here)

It was sort of an unofficial NaNoWriMo project, in that I set myself a goal to tackle “longer fics” or ideas I wanted to cover but hadn't. From my notes, I had this idea to write a ficlet per year because I always enjoy this kind of story, and I know I'd tried to approach different ones in the past. I started writing in late October/finished in Nov 2021. (The other fic I started was never finished, even if dammit, it hits.) I posted it in January, so it wasn't that bad, considering I'll often take months.

It's maybe important to note that I had only finished writing “The Monster (affectionate)” (aka the 148k-ish word IM AU) in early September and I felt a bit burned out after spending five months writing that (would’ve been less but the struggle was real for the last third of the story. Oddly reminiscing of you-know-what story these days). This arbitrary deadline helped me get back into writing. Granted, I wrote a couple of fics in those five months, but I wanted to try another multichapter.

Anyway. I picked some random, perhaps not obvious choices for the vignettes. It was partly to avoid writing something I might have potentially covered at one point, and also a challenge. Some are also strange (the dream!), but I kinda loved it? (Fun fact: the fic references the Sherry-Netherland, whose exterior is the establishing shot in Internal Displacement. I swear there is some thought put into my writing.) And as the A/N I wrote to myself, I definitely wrote and rewrote bits and pieces of this on my way to and from therapy, haha.

Let me find a fun fact about each of the chapters, if I can think of any.

1998: actually repurposed some campaign fic idea I distinctly remember writing in spring 2018, while I was still in uni. It also has GLOVES. I live for that.

1999: I like the idea of exploring Danny and Abbey's relationship! They presumably have a good one and yet, I don't think we ever see them interact. (And god. Danny's recent, pre-campaign breakup is a recurring theme in my campaign stories too, loool.)

2000: Danny and Josh are an underrated friendship, and I like the references to Rosslyn. There was so much in those months in Midterms that we didn't see, and I like thinking Danny visited his friend.

We also got two back-to-back chapters focused on Danny - I remember trying to make it even, so that the focus was more or less evenly split.

2001: the Manchester fuckup! And it's one of the dream chapters! There were two of them? (We're 3 out of 4 in which I was surprised by the focus, but now I kinda want to re-read it all properly?) I'll say that I can see some vague, unconscious inspo from Freefall by KadeeFalls in this chapter (esp since I was just talking to you about it)... But I'm mostly obsessed with the magical realism (there's another term that my foggy brain cannot think of rn) of dreams, and how it can help us clear our heads.

2002: I remembered this was set after Simon! I know it's probably an odd, controversial choice but they both tried to move on (at least, we know CJ did), and it felt disingenuous not to include it. There are moments when she almost admits to her previous (?) feelings for Danny, but stops.

As with most thus far, there were fluffier and probably better choices for 2002 (Christmas!!), but... My brain wanted it to appear like CJ couldn't really bring herself to think about Danny.

2003: Aw, the specialty store is inspired by a franchise over here that had Goldfish (not many flavors) and I took a dramatic license and added it over there. I also added a small flashback because I love thinking Danny doesn't think they're all that but likes them. (But will tease CJ about it.) Plus, some more resolution to moving on!

2004: Yeah, the formatting is weird. (This is one I'd have to go back and do a blockquote or something.) Danny winning a Pulitzer for the Shareef stuff is a mostly accepted headcanon. CJ seeing his picture on the paper and having feels is just something I love, especially if he mentions someone else. (Look. I'm all for letting him pine, but he deserves to move on and fail too.) Plus Josh teasing her!

2005: The Sherry-Netherland! fwiw, I'm sure I had finally figured out this was the place and decided it would be so cheeky to add it here. I'm so sMaRt. Flowers when she gets promoted! And my spin (in this story) of CJ vaguely shunning him. This is the angst before the fluff.

2006: I remembered this one was a dream at some restaurant! (Again the formatting is not great, but I didn't want to tip my obvious hand.) The same way I think CJ's dream in 2001 was about her wondering how Danny would have reacted, this is about Danny realizing he needs to reach out to her... But with the added family ~tale~. Def inspired by that lyric in "Sad Beautiful Tragic."

2007: I feel like having it at some random dinner with Josh and Donna was an odd choice, but I loved the idea of a double date! The scarf scene is just so! And the chaos siblings energy is great. It was a reprieve from the angst.

Meeting at LAX was right there! I had written a story or two trying to do it justice, so I'm guessing that's why it's not. And fwiw the airport story I wrote shortly after that is the one being posted ~soon~. (A rewritten, slightly expanded version.)

2008: Pregnancy mood swings! It hurt to make them fight, but it's so fluffy otherwise. From what I remember, it has various references to things that happen in the story (particularly from the first two chapters) but it still manages to close it rather nicely, showing how strong their marriage is. I hope.

Okay. This has gotten way too long and it's probably useless.

I've always said I could have written another 11 chapters using different scenes, because there are just so many, even outside the obvious ones... Though I feel I wouldn't be able to recapture the magic.

I do definitely want to reread this for real. As with many fics, it's one of those I used to reread often before posting it (especially the last quarter/third) and then just ignored after. See some other recent examples, such as memoir fic, Portland fic.

Thank you for asking, Ally! God, I used to be a good writer. What happened?!??!

#fanfic director's cut #ask games #onekisstotakewithme #asks #it's taken me an hour or so to write it alskdjasdasd

[supernovaa-remnant]

I'm having a lot of cdreambur/madduo thoughts but they're all incoherent rn... so many aus to talk about and yet my mind is only akdjlshdkllkfsewhqiajduihuediasjfhhsjdkadh jadhfohwoehd ujafjb hsdgygdfidsu curhifgsd

[iwannaban0nym0us]

welp time for another one of those long rambley posts because well uh everything's fucking ending

fuckkkkkkkkkkk why does this have to hurt so bad

I tried so hard to avoid this, fuck, why am I back here

It hurts different this time but it still hurts, while i'm glad we didn't stretch this out over months fuck I was in love

oh btw i have no brain power rn so this is probably gonna be entirely incoherent and just whatever the fuck comes to my mind

so uh basically my girlfriend broke up with me and at lunch today, and like it wasn't a bad breakup and i'm really glad we talked because like i wanted to talk about how things have felt kinda off lately, and uh it turns it its because they now only have platonic feelings for me

i think like part of me knew this was coming, they broke up with their last boyfriend this time last year (because they realized they really just wanted to be friends w/ him) and this time last year is when i hit the point of no return w/ my ex and a bunch of things that happened then have happened now (soccer team disbanding partner/ex not going on the school trip)

and so like i've had the thought 'could i go back to just being friends with them' or 'should i just break up with them before they have the chance to hurt me like my ex did' spiral around in my head a bit but i never actually did because like they're amazing

but then there's the part of me the would dream of us lasting for years and was just so fucking happy w/ them and was about to tell them i loved them, i've been thinking it for months but i thought i was ready to say it to them,,, and then well,,,,

theres so many nevers now, like i never said i love you, they never came to one of my club soccer games, i never went to one of their vaulting comps, we nEVER WENT ON A DATE

fuck i wish i had gone to prom w/ them this year, skipped the soccer game that didn't end up actually happened and fucking dealt w/ the fact that my ex was there but i was too fucking scared to do either of those things

aaaaa i was trying so so so fucking hard not to let myself get hurt by a partner again, i waited a while to ask them out like i was certain i really like them and they liked me back, and then i took things very slow, we took a while to kiss, we never said i love you, i tried really really hard to test the waters and really make sure i could trust them before i fully committed my heart to them

and while i can trust them and they are an amazing person who still cares a lot about me, they still managed to hurt me because they don't love me the same way i love them, and i kinda thought they did, and maybe they did for a bit, but they don't anymore

ahahaha fuck this afternoon they added the song (redacted) by Leanna Firestone to their playlist,,,, hhhhhh,,,, just look at the lyrics,,,, it made me start crying again,,,,

ok well uh i think im gonna fall asleep sitting on my floor in the dark w/ my laptop on my lap so i guess i should probably stop here and go cry myself to sleep

if i have any time tomorrow this'll probably be expanded because uh my soccer team is also ending :D so i'm losing people i've played w/ for 5+ years and also i'm gonna have to come out to a new soccer team which is gonna just so great

#M #me #personal shit #personal #partner #ex #ex girlfriend #girlfriend #ex grayfriend #hhhhhh it feels so weird to type ex girlfriend i hate this

[cruelsister-moved2]

Im the hater anon omg i didnt mean to lead u astray but i haven't finished it i'm just over half done. i probably will finish just so i can coherently say why i don't like it bc rn my thoughts are all over the place but  u hit all the major points im like nodding and taking notes rn.  Its very shallow lore wise like its all overly complex exposition that barely effects the plot. I could write about this for 100 years but basically it was boring and i just feel like it has nothing to say like theres no purpose or message and i think speculative stuff should have SOME weight behind it idk.  That paired w how the writing itself is like..not pretty or artful or anything………………….

And on top of that its not even actually funny. Instead of real jokes its just 100 million mcu quips awkwardly inserted so that no situation is ever treated genuinely or seriously or with depth. For example. My personal least favorite part beyond general quality so far is how often they bring up gideon being inappropriately horny… idk how else to word it.. Its one of her 3 personality traits. they mention her porn collection i swear every couple of pages. its played 4 jokes but like the rest of it its literally unfunny and feels so out of place. Like this is right when they just discovered an incinerated body → ”she looked troubled, which made Gideon sad, but she was also soaked right through to the skin, which made Gideon need a lie-down.” Its like if someone whose only point of reference was tiktok during that era where every vaguely masc woman got made fun of for being a quote hey mamas lesbian unquote tried to write a masc woman.  Reading it as a masc lesbian myself is just sort of embarrassing idk if other ppl feel differently but it just feels overplayed and goofy. 

Anyways… this is all very long and incoherent but thank u for complaining and vindicating me… i started reading it a couple days ago on a whim bc ive been seeing ppl talk abt it a lot lately and i was instantly SOOOOO disappointed. Part of it was definitely that i was expecting something very different because of how people talk about it but also its just like bad. Its insane. I also had no idea abt the roachpatrol thing so ummmmmm :(

hiiiiiiiiii omg so your suffering isn't even over yet my condolences.

the worldbuilding exposition industrial complex needs to end im so serious. I just had such a nice conversation with some writer friends about soft vs hard magic systems and world-building and how frustratingly common the assumption that more complex lore you dump the more sophisticated your story is at the moment. in reality many more sophisticated stories deliberately utilise abstraction and whimsy for thematic statements. v happy for brandon sanderson fans but again, a lot of those stories are basically like mystery novels except the magic is the mystery, whereas the speculative fiction authors who... actually speculate...are often using it as a tool to speculate about our own existence.

and the writing is so ugly like I've read a couple of chapters and I feel like i could get through a mid story if it's at least well written but it wasn't even inoffensive it was actively offputting like that prose was stinkyyyyyyyyy..... and the quips exactlyyy like who is laughing at none pizza with left beef anymore and the fact a lot of it isn't even the author being witty but just like. a reference to a meme? it's literally supposed to be like gritty but then everyone is memeing and quipping all the time how are you meant to take that seriously?

and okay the like sexualisation of Gideon had kind of been my suspicion but I hadn't read enough to make that claim for certain so. that's disappointing to have it confirmed. given that the author is a fem woman who calls herself a lesbian whilst being homestuck married to a guy, it really brings up some kind of discomfort in me to be using masc women that way and making a joke out of them and their sexuality and calling them himbos and shit like. it really doesn't seem like she actually knows any masc women??? and when that was a huge part of the marketing for the book it comes to feel exploitative.

one thing to be aware is that tor like. pushed it really hard marketing-wise for whatever reason. I guess they feel it symbolises a new era of sci-fi and like were using it as an outreach effort to engage the generation that mostly only reads fan fiction or whatever which I guess cheers if it achieves that. but the majority of negative reviews are specifically that it was nothing like what they expected it to be, because of the.... super gimmicky marketing.

the tagline being sword necromancer lesbians in space or something so lame 😭 and it really seems like the elements came first and the justification came second so it's never really explained why they use swords instead of more technologically advanced weapons (bc the answer is 'it sounds cool') or really why it needs to be in space at all (because the answer is 'it sounds cool'). even the necromancy is supposedly fairly tangential and ive seen people be underwhelmed how much actual lesbianism is involved too 💀

9mbut yeah the r0ach patr0l thing I wish people were more aware of because honestly above anything else, I've seen people who were fans and then found this out and felt super uncomfortable so I think people deserve to know what kind of background she has, and this is literally where she developed her writing and her name as a BNF so it's directly connected to her current career not just like a celebrity who tweeted something dumb when they were 14. like I think it's fair to take that into account + idk it's INTERESTING to me that she went from that to debuting with a masc lesbian whom she projects like comic hypersexuality onto it really is all much to think about truly

#ask #anon #I remember there was a bit that said smth like 'there was a sort of clanging sound' or something #and I just was like........................... has this not had any line editing stall #*at all #what do you mean SORT OF. #+ I feel like the author is that gross and is projecting it on butch women which like. category 5 fem woman moment #the homestuck het marriage is just so lame sorry im going to make fun of that #esp bc she used to also write the redacted redacted fanfic with that guy

[raayllum]

I am drunk on ‘I connected the dots’ energy rn but like forgive the incoherency because I NEED TO SHARE— so I was staring at the posters again and my thought process was: first poster had a crack running through Claudia’s face + second poster has the crack running through Rayla’s face… So, what does a crack signify? Injury? Loss of self? And then it hit me like lightning.

Crack in face = split personality.

And so, my take on the fake Rayla theory is that fake Rayla is not fake at all, but real Rayla who is under the control of Claudia.

That’s why Rayla comes back to the castle so easily, without having killed Viren, looking relatively calm and collected and not very conflicted at all - which felt so odd to many because it felt so out of character for her self-loathing and self-sacrificial self. But you know who it does seem in character for? Claudia. Compare to the way Claudia acts with the boys after the first betrayal in s2. The easy way she talks to them, as if they’re still friends. The lack of guilt. The dark mage cloak.

That’s why Rayla looks real but her actions feel off. It’s her body, but Claudia’s controlling it.

That’s why the story can have Rayla reunite with the boys without making her leaving narratively pointless. Because Rayla is not coming back of her own free will, she’s still midst development arc with her incorrect beliefs. (And what better way to teach her a lesson about leaving her loved ones ostensibly to protect them, than to have her used against them?)

That’s why Callum’s emotions/words/actions on seeing her again won’t be wasted. Because Rayla will still be able to witness all of them, even if she can’t choose how her body responds.

That’s why the first thing we see her with is the cube, why we later see Callum clutching her sword. Because this is how Aaravos is choosing to use her, not an illusion, the real her, to lure Callum in.

I’m writing this on 0 hours of sleep after having the ‘crack face = split personality’ maybe-epiphany so I’m sure there are a dozen holes in this theory but damn if it’s not the only thing that I think makes total narrative sense for Rayla both coming back (physically) and not coming back (willingly) at the same time.

Listen I always love people coming into my inbox unhinged bc I feel like I'm always unhinged about this show, these days, and I deeply appreciate the solidarity. However I am nothing if not a nitpicker which is to say:

Rayla is nervous to see Callum, it's just not the closeup shot they chose

And Claudia did show remorse around the boys post-betrayal

I was reflecting on it today and I think I may have figured out why Rayla's come back (plot inciting incident wise that also works with everything characterization wise) that I'm going to make a larger post about after this or once I corral my thoughts about it, anyway.

But her absence is two-fold: it's the catalyst for both her emotional arc and a driving force behind Callum's, too. They both need to be resolved and be resolved together (pointedly because it was a separation, tbh).

The biggest narrative weight behind Rayla's absence has always been 1) the way reconnecting with Callum after will force her to reckon with the fucked up ways of thinking that led her to leave in the first place and 2) the emotional toll it's taken on Callum. Prior to this, one of his biggest motivations from S2 onwards was to not lose her (2x07 with dark magic, so much of S3 and the climax of arc 1 itself, TTM). Now he's lived through that. He's lost her once. I expect a decent amount of S4 to focus on what he's willing to do in order to not lose her again - and by exploring that, give her choice to leave the emotional weight it deserves, tbh

Because Rayla can still be used against her loved ones and still see Callum be put in danger because of her, and can still have her epiphanies, you know... if we go the CHET route

#tdp spoilers #fake rayla theory #thanks for asking #anonymous #speculation #s4 spoilers #arc 2 #s4

[velvetineblue]

3, 6, 13, 34, & 35!! ( gibs u both salty AND sweet :D )

( in which i was supposed to be salty @ roleplayers but instead i just yell at tumblr staff incoherently / accepting ! )

3. what’s your favorite thing about your mutuals ?

aah, there's so many things i could say !! first of all, they're all very inspiring. whenever i see you guys on my dash, killin' it with your writing and ideas, it inspires me to be more creative. and active. i don't check my dash that often because i try to minimize my distractions during the day; but i bet if i checked it more, the inspiration would make me more active JASJAJJ. another thing i love to see is how the mutuals i have are all very supportive of each other !! liking posts, commenting, and being very warm and welcoming to each other. ; u ; i'm picky about who i follow, so i only follow the best. ;)) wink wonk

6. what’s one thing the rpc has to realize ?

most of us are over-thinkers. that thing that you are assuming about that other rp'er ( e.g. they must not like me because they didn't respond to my ask; OR they don't want to write with me because if they had they would have reached out; OR they probably think they're 2 cool for me because i don't use fancy aesthetics . . . all the thoughts we have like THAT ) are most likely not true. most things have simple explanations, and are not that deep. our anxious brains just like to overcomplicate things. : D I know that for me, if I did not want to write with someone, or if I did not like them . . . I would just unfollow them or not follow them in the first place !! it's dat simple asjjaja. so if you're mutuals, try not to worry so much about little things and overanalyze them !! if you come here & focus on having fun and exercising your creativity, and focus on that, and your friends, instead of rejections ( real or perceived ) and worrying over what you can't do and can't control . . . you will have a WAY better time! : )

13. what’s underrated in the rpc ?

touching grass. jk jk but actually only half jk. but all of the partners i have rn are people with lives outside of rp and other hobbies and stuff to do, and yes, that means we tend to be slower with our replies & all, but . .. it's so much better, ngl. it sounds stupid but fr, having a life is IMPORTANT, okay; people are less likely to get over-sensitive abt rp stuff, less likely to become overly invested to the point that replying to your threads becomes an obligation / burden instead of good fun, and it also helps lessen the over-thinking mentioned above...

when it comes to what the rpc writes tho ? hMMmm... i think continuity and single-verse stuff is kind of underrated !! like, having verses ( or even entire characters/blogs ) where everything is under ONE single timeline. so if you have a thread with Bob and in that thread, Bob chops off your characters' arm, from then on, your character has ONE ARM. periODT !! unless they get a cybernetic arm or magically regrow it, etc. . . this comes with it's own set of challenges & is PRETTY FREAKING hard to do in rp, but I think it is REALLY fun & rewarding when it works !!! i love all the twists and turns and the spontaneity of it. and if too much happens, there's no reason you can't just... reset back to the beginning!

34. what’s the best part about being in the rpc on tumblr ?

ooh for me, the best thing has been meeting a community of like-minded, similar writers : D bc yes, I’ve met plenty of other writers irl and online places besides tumblr, but… they don’t GET ME like my tumblr mutuals do ajdjsj. I rly thought I was a crazed weirdo because of how passionate I was about my characters, and how I can think about them all day & relate every little thing back to them … until I joined tumblr :’) tumblr turns a solitary, isolate hobby into something community-based, where we all collaborate and expand each other's universes, and i just genuinely think that's a really cool writer-y thing. very niche, very hard to explain to people outside our community ... but i think it's rly fun n uNIQUE. and I think I would have gone crazy if I didn’t have tumblr to scream to about character things svfdd

35. what’s the biggest problem in the rpc ?

that's a good question ... there's a lot of flaws in the rpc, but there's a lot of good things, too. there are a lot of problems that could use improving, but i don't know how to rank one as the 'WORST'. i do think that what i talked about in #6 is a possible contender for the biggest problem, because if we're all avoiding each other and too scared to talk to each other, that kills rp. but it's hard to change that and i feel like the rpc has talked about it enough. 🤷 i don't really have anything else to add or any other solutions. meh. i don't care that much either. i don't think the rpc will ever really die, so it's whatever asjjaj. ( correction: it may die on TUMBLR, but there's plenty of other places to rp if it does. roleplayers are like cockroaches; WE NEVER DIE. ) so instead, i'm going to say: THIS SHITTY ASS BETA EDITOR. I HATE THIS THING. WHAT THE FUCK. the biggest problem in the tumblr rpc is definitely that tumblr staff tries to 'fix' things that were never broken. they hate us and want us all to suffer. we are in hell, being punished for the crime of being tumblristas. i'm not one of those people who hate anytime a website has a minor ui change or whatever-- i didn't care about twitter adding 50 buttons. i'm not opposed to change if it's for innovation or a new feature or look or whatever, even if i don't personally want that feature........ but tumblr doesn't even fix anything: they replace what was there with something of inferior quality every time. how the fuck do you run a website worse than elon musk. not even muskrat has ruined the basic functionality of a text editor, tumblr....... honestly mind-boggling. > : [

#* OLD MAN SHAKEES FIST AT TUMBLR STAFF *

[madaranuii]

fishanon back :3 hope ya didn't miss me too much!! sorry for the ia hehe.

TYSM FOR THE NEW BOT!!!! ur so good at makin bots its like. awesome. i'm in awe everytime u make more cus?!?! woaa?!?! theres so many??? remember to take breaks, eat, drink, etc... don't want ya gettin sick or anything...

hiiro and rinne bot... mmfghfh has me thinkin abt all sorts of things... i don't think i'll ever escape the hornyposting... ovulation demons are tryin to get me. ANYWAYANYWAY i was thinking abt like. damn. imagine livin w both ur older brothers and yknow. ur just tryin to get off but the walls r thin and both of them definitely know what ur getting up too,,, so they have to deal with all those cute noises ur trying to suppress while tryin to stay sane... shakes amagi brothers back and forth.

ooohhmy gofdddd imagine if u have like. a toy too. those r noisy... esp vibrators... the buzzing followed by ur muffled moaning... god that would give both of em enough visuals to please themselves for an entire year... i'd like to think for a bit they'd be embarrassed abt the situation and just get flustered whenever ur nearby and ur like. Man! my brothers r actin weird! little do u know how often they gotta think abt somethin horrible just to not bust one right there and then...

so sorry for ramblin... that bot Awakened things in me. those r possibly ooc too.... its not my brain talkin, i'm just esp needy rn. virgin issues. its also like two am and i'm half awake so this might be incoherent. HAVE A GOOD DAY!!!

HAII FISHANON HEHE :3c!!!!! ALWAYZ VERYYY HAPPY 2 HEAR UR HORNYPOSTINZ!!!!! (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)ᰔᰔ

BUT U R SOO WELCOME !!! im so happy u like the new bit hehez (⁠人⁠ ⁠•͈⁠ᴗ⁠•͈⁠) ᰔᰔ hehe funny u say i make so many... :3c I have 68 botz rn, I gotta make 1 more then itz the number !!!!! BUT UAAAA thank uuuz !!!! hehe I'm making sure 2 not overwork myself much!!!! I've stopped doin like bot bundlez now bcz I was like!!!! need 2 make so many in such a short amount of time!!!! HAHA never makin like 10 botz straight after each other again (⁠＠⁠_⁠＠⁠;⁠) but WAAA!! I've been eatin' ++ drinkin well!! hope u have 2!! <3333 smooch smooch!!!!!

+++ OMFG.... u've become a fellow amagicest enjoyer w/ me ++ stella WAAAA WELCOME 2 THE CLUB HEHEZ CANT GET THE THOUGHT OF BEIN FUCKED BY BIG BROTHERZ RINNE + HIIRO OUTTA MY HEAD!!!! RAAAAAAH!!!!

I LUV THAT SO !!!!! FUCKIN MUCH!!!!! like,,, Rinne so fuckin would try 2 b a peepin tom + get an eyeful of u usin a vibe on urself, probably even sneak a picture of 2 here + there 2 like motivate his jerk off sessionz even more (as if he'z not already motivated from the fact u can probably hear his pantin ++ shit ;3c),,, IMAGINE, Hiiro borrowin Rinne'z phone maybe bcz he lost his or somethin!!! + like looks in2 the camera gallery "by accident" + comes across those imagez right in front of Rinne'z eyez (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠) they'd b tryin 2 act so normal!! probably a bit 2 much that it becomez very evident somethin is up, so that u don't suspect a single thing hehe :3!

I LOVE THAT, W/ THE THINKIN SOMETHIN HORRIBLE SO THEY DONT BUST 1 RIGHT THERE,,, I can imagine at first it would be so fuckin hard 4 them, like the mornin after that happenz, u would all b eating breakfast in silence- u thought it was quite comfortable, then there'z Rinne + Hiiro!! who r!!! trying SOOO hard 2 not cream their pantz just lookin at u, bcz their brains go straight back 2 ur sweet noisez.... ++ there they goooo~ hehe I like 2 think that they accidentally slip up @ least once, especially Hiiro who desperately triez not 2 think abt it, that he does too much, letting out a groan as quiet as he can, as his face turns pale in realisation of what he just did.... WAAAA ! ! !

HAHA I FELT THAT SO HARD.... horny virginz unite SOBZ I NEED !!!! A DICK IN ME!!!! preferably Madara's, Rinne's or HiMERU's!!! LMFAO (⁠ ⁠；⁠∀⁠；⁠) (it'z gettin so bad thou I miss my vibe so fuckin much it's unreal LMFAO I can't wait 4 like 3 hrz time when I'm back 2 it <33) BUT WAAA TYZZ !!!!! HEHE HOPE U HAVE A NICE SLEEP +++ A LOVELY DAY 222 !!! (⁠人⁠ ⁠•͈⁠ᴗ⁠•͈⁠)

#.* 𖦹 fishanon !! #𖥔 : madaranuii.ramblez!!

[junkyardromeo]

thoughts on danger days. rn. 🫶🫶

everything to me. i love everything about it—the lore, the art made by fans, the outfits, the way the fucking songs sound (i could elaborate on that SO MUCH but i will spare you), etc etc. but most of all i love the statement. it's about not standing down, it's about resistance and defiance and spitting in the face of the ones who put you down, it's about individuality and independence, it's about love in the face of horrible odds, it's about being who you are no matter what, it's about dying for what you believe in even if the effort was futile, it's about not caring that the effort was futile. it's about making whatever time you have worth it. it's about a short colorful life being better than a long grey one. it's about rebellion. it's about being loud and pissed off and unapologetic. it's about just fucking knowing that you are your own person and god fucking damnit, no one can take that from you unless you're dead. fuck. i have so many thoughts about danger days. as an album, it's kind of messy and loud and obnoxious, a little incoherent, but fuck if it isn't fun. even when it's fucking sad it's still got that burning fucking drive. save yourself is all about desperation. like, fuck, dude, run. get outta here with your life, i'll hold them back and i might die but i'll do it because i love you. it's all desperate. i could write a whole fucking dissertation on na na na and the fucking "everybody wants to change the world but no one wants to die" line. i could write a fucking essay on the themes of running away. fuck them because they're telling us who to be, fuck. FUCK. ok. this is so incoherent anon i am SO sorry but like i have to get this out. aside from everything that it is, it's everything to me. ok. this is gonna sound stupid. but my world is...sort of like battery city sometimes. i go to a christian prep school (not by choice) and it's fucked up and a lot of times i feel like i'm walking around in the twilight zone because everyone is just sorta. existing. but they're not really living and i can see it in their eyes. they don't seem to have any sense of like. self. and it freaks me the fuck out because fuck, all i have is my soul and shit. it's like...being a killjoy undercover in battery city or something. and i hate making things about being trans but it's also like. mcr and danger days specifically taught me that even when i'm being made to pretend to be someone i'm not, i still have myself and no matter what my parents say to me, no matter how worthless and pathetic i'm made to feel, they can't take that self from me. and it's just...fuck, i have a lot of feelings about this!!!

#im just. gonna end this here because wow that is a Lot #anon i am so ready to talk abt dd anytime ever #mcr #danger days

[seoafin]

Hello Morgan :) I just read chapters 1 & 2 of Dog days are over and .. xhsbacbksdjcb it was so good I have become incoherent. hence why - -- hhhh .... when i .. when he- when. they. hhh .. .... when- the mc- ....

Wah, I can't even find the words to describe how enamoured I am of it. Stsg? ? Forget about them .. Who are they anyways. Irrelevant. I am instead giving you and rip!mc flowers (if you want them, or any little gift you want!) .. Mc .. she deserves the world. i mean these three words, i do. Stsg are so annoying honestly. I would fall for her face first. The way you do with that one high school friend you have a very queer friendship with .. oddly specific but yeah I love her sm LMAOO. And you !! You deserve to get *all* the love you put in your works back tenfold and more for your wonderful writing, Morgan!!

I have already sent a few asks full of compliments on anon but tbh I would repeat what I said word by word as many times as it's needed. This fic alone is a lot of work from all points of view, and I want to let you know I personally am grateful for the chance to read it .. It's enriching (I hope this is an actual english word lol) and it's pleasant to read; the universe you created is vibrant .. realistic as in immersive and (sometimes painfully) relatable, especially the mc - she feels so human and I think I can say I relate and have related to her, which is a little sad - but reading it also feels comforting (i believe that truly is the unifying potential of fanfic and writing in general).

There are so many things i could say about these two chapters but i think i'll leave them for AO3 comments (didn't someone say tumblr asks are temporary but ao3 comments are permanent?). Rn I just want to focus on how beautifully outlined rip!mc's feelings are. The loneliness .. The image of a single mother and her kid in her apartment .. Her thinking about her future (woah, that one hurt. in a good way though) and the prospect of being left behind .. I've been going through quite strange times (& writing sad stuff? idk why it is, is it the strange weather?) so that passage was kind of the nail in the coffin, the final blow for me - but in a good, cathartic way, i promise!! (also. i loved "nail in the coffin" - i hope i got the title right. it did something to me. my dirty mind couldn't stop thinking about the way geto stole mc's panties mainly because i have too many [redacted] geto thoughts and that includes panty taking. but this is just a side note.) (and gojo. the leash line. i think, in that, me and mc are different because i would've said yes in the blink of an eye - yeah that's concerning of me but everyone has their flaws right??. lol. the "what do you want" "everything" exchange. i don't think i'll ever recover. in a good way).

When i find something i like this much I think I'd need a 10k word frame minimum to analyze and dissect it over and over .. so I'll stop rambling for everyone's safety 😂. But yeah, I hope this silly comment gives you back even an ounce of the warmth your writing gives me (& i'm sure i'm not the only one)!! and please don't feel obligated at all to respond to this. I just really wanted to say these things :)). i hope you have a good day !

hi friend!!!!! can i just say how much i was smiling reading this because i was SMILING so hard my friend thought i was texting a man (as if please lmfao) everyone being so nice and encouraging about this fic is going to make me cry. like i was not kidding when i said that this fic was loved into existence because i had no intention of actually writing an actual fic for them!!! but im doing it!!! because everyone is so enthusiastic about it!!! im glad u and many others enjoy rip!mc because the amount of self sabotage in this fic....i need to endear her to everyone LOL

this ask gave me so much serotonin never apologize for sending it in!!!!! if anything have me back warmth and happiness in SPADES. thank you so so soo much for reading <3333 i hope u have such an amazing wonderful bright day 😭😭😭 once again i am so touched that you liked the fic enough to write me this wonderful ask 😭😭😭

#AHHHHH screaming!!!!! never getting over this. im going to kiss you. #also geto fuckers are going to get FED im so excited for the geto scenes ive been writing chapters in nonchronological order HA #:))))))))) #long post #ddao.fb

[kate-m-art]

Hi I'm sorry it's late and I'm just super in my feels rn over Maggie my beloved so a bunch of incoherent thoughts under the cut

- This lady! Cannot get enough of the sunshine. She spent too many years of her life closed away in a cave and while fairies glow gosh,, there's just nothing like the light and warmth the sun brings and she soaks it in as often as she can. While she's always a tiny bit cold (mentioned it before but hc fairy fountains to be pretty hot and sauna-like) the sunshine warms her up from the inside out TvT

- I also think I've mentioned it before but shifting to her sprite form and taking little naps tucked in the petals of her flowers is one of her favorite things ever. The soothing smell and softness of the petals always puts her at ease and it's one of the best ways she has to get away from it all

- And then gosh,, before she left her fountain this lady had never had so much as a hug before from another being. Little things just mean a lot, a hand on her back, someone stroking her hair, hugs from her kiddos, she takes none of it for granted

- then last thought that's been revolving in my brain is that this lady (*especially* after she first left her fountain) is so bad at knowing her limits. Her magic is naturally sealed off when her emotions are too escalated a control Autumn doesn't have unfortunately but imagine its still difficult for her not push herself too hard when trying to heal someone. The same goes for her wings tbh, she has a bad habit of not being v careful w them and has snagged and torn them on many a thorn in her garden while in sprite form. Link's skilled with sutures but gosh it hurts him to see her wings torn

#kate rambles #delete later #loz legacy