#i'm in millenium hell

[cobragardens]

The Colors of Crowley

Black is the color Crowley uses to cover himself, red is the color that represents Crowley to himself, and yellow is the color that represents Crowley to Aziraphale. What each color symbolizes and how it's used give us important information about Crowley (and to some degree Aziraphale) and about the ineffable relationship.

I feel kind of dumb writing this post because I'm sure it's glaringly obvious to everyone else, but there's this Metro UK article of all things (the Metro is owned by the hardcore rightwing Daily Mail, btw, so please don't link to it) that mentions the red stitching on Crowley's gloves in 1867, and it made conscious some details I had only subconsciously noted, so fwiw to anybody else, here are my notes on the colors associated with Crowley in Good Omens and their significance in the context of the way each one is used.

I don't think we need to cover black-as-evil in Western color symbology. [And yet here's a long-ass paragraph about it anyway! --Ed.] Light:dark::good:evil has been a thing with Christianity since before Christianity was even Judaism. The Israelites picked it up from the Zoroastrians way back before YHWH had subsumed El as 'God,' which may have been before they were Israelites as well; I mean it was a LONG time ago. Good Omens has been using black and white to represent Hell and Heaven, respectively, long before the show. In the UK, the book was published in paperback with a choice of black or white cover with an illustration of the contrasting character in the contrasting color: Crowley illustrated in black, Aziraphale in white. The current hardcover is grey.

Crowley wears black, and the Bentley is black. At the metanarrative or authorial level this is obviously for the purposes of the black/white demon/angel contrast, but on the intra-narrative level, the Watsonian level, it's interesting to note that Crowley doesn't have to wear black. He's obviously not free to choose from the full color palette, but Furfur's shirt and sash are is dark emerald green, Dagon is in ultramarine (as befits a marine Elder God), and Shax has only been on Earth for four years before she's wearing head-to-toe oxblood. When she shows up later in battle dress she's got a lot of oxblood there, too. And yet Crowley wears black.

Authorial reasons aside, black suits Crowley for a couple intra-narrative reasons. For much of history, black was the most expensive color to dye and maintain in clothing, and as a result it has always been fashionable. And for several centuries in Christendom, wearing black was also a sign that you were in mourning, which was a social and religious obligation when someone close to you died. Whether you could wear other colors with it depended on how long ago that death had occurred.

Again: black is what Crowley chooses to cover himself, and as there is a sharp distinction between how Crowley presents himself to fulfill his obligations and who he thinks of himself as being, there is likewise a distinction between the colors that represent those two quantities as well.

Red is the color the show uses to represent Crowley to Crowley. The most obvious reason is his hair. This is another change from Book Omens, where Crowley is described as having hair that is "dark." A lot of fans in the UK hated the change when S1 came out because fans hate change and the British have a thing against gingers, but Crowley's red hair suits him better than dark imo because the Mother of Demons in Jewish religious literature, Lilith, is traditionally depicted with red hair. Red hair has been associated for more than a millenium in the Middle East and England and Wales with sorcery, witchcraft, demonic influence/possession, and satan-worship.

Crowley wishes his mom was this cool with snakes.

A good case can be made that Crowley genuinely likes the color red in addition to considering it demonically appropriate. I say this for three reasons. Firstly, because when he has a (limited) choice of (again, demonically appropriate) colors, he always chooses red. The marble of the desk in his apartment is not green or grey. He can have any color stitching on his gloves or lining of his jacket collar he wants, but it's always red. Secondly, it's not only red he chooses, it's almost always bright red.

We know Crowley's red isn't supposed to represent blood or violence, because we have another demon character whose use of red represents just that, and it's not the same red:

Compare Shax' oxblood and burgundy to

and

and

and

Crowley's red isn't just red, it's lipstick, cherry, crimson red. And in case we weren't sure that we should read this red as symbolizing passionate, romantic love:

Romantic symbolism aside, bright red is also the color of passion (romantic or otherwise), optimism, heat, vitality, life, (hell)fire, and warning.

Red and black says don't fuck with Jack.

The third reason I think we can safely say that Crowley actually likes the color red is that he hides it. It's always tiny little touches, some of which you have to look for to see. (I still don't know where they snuck in the red on his Elizabethan habit, e.g.) And we know this color is a risk for him, and that he is right to hide it, because Ligur, who doesn't approve of any of Crowley's less-than-fully-demonic embellishments and may share Hastur's opinion that Crowley has gone native, comments on one of Crowley's more noticeably colorful items.

And I think the red tells us one more thing about Crowley, too.

Bright red is the colorest of colors, you know? When we can choose only one color to represent all colors, to represent colorfulness itself, we choose bright red (even in cultures where red symbolizes other meanings than it does in Western art).

Remember how Aziraphale gives Crowley's jacket a tartan collar when he swaps bodies with Crowley and impersonates him in Hell because Aziraphale feels the need to maintain some small secret token of his identity, some tiny unremarked sign of something he loves and thinks is beautiful, when he is down there alone in the gloom among enemies?

Crowley is down there alone among enemies every second of every day and night, whether he's in Hell or on Earth. And he's already had his identity stripped from him once. If you were someone who said

about this

and then you got recruited by the fash downstairs bc the fash upstairs threw you out for not being fashy enough and you had to start wearing nothing but dark colors and more importantly had to hide everything that made you feel warmth or softness or joy, and that was it, that was the deal for eternity, but you could add one (1) little touch to everything you wore to remind yourself that there is some beautiful part of you left, something you loved once, that no one has yet been able to steal or brutalize out of you...what color would the stitching on your gloves be?

Lastly, Yellow represents Crowley to Aziraphale. I'm going to skip the chain of evidence for this bc I think it's obvious, but the way it's used also lends itself to some inferences supported in other areas in the show.

Here's where I think changing Crowley's hair to red from Book Omens' dark is a good decision in another way. Crowley always has red hair, and if he has any color in his clothes it's going to be red. Red is eye-catching; it always stands out, but it doesn't stand out as demonic. And yet the color Aziraphale associates with Crowley and calls "pretty" isn't red.

I suspect that when Aziraphale says he can make Crowley an angel again, Crowley hears "You're not good enough for me to accept you as you are, let me fix you" because these are words Aziraphale has said to him many times, and has meant some of those times. But

tells the audience differently. The color Aziraphale associates with Crowley, the color he calls "pretty," is the color of Crowley's only overtly demonic feature. Aziraphale doesn't love the angel he knew who isn't Crowley, he loves Crowley, the demon, the person he is now, his yellow demon irises.

Yellow appears in three other places in S2, and they're all symbolically significant, and in fact serve to establish another symbolic significance to the color yellow in addition to that of Yellow Is the Color of My True Love's Eyes.

One of them is a feather duster:

Crowley reacts to a feather duster like a cat confronted by an unfamiliar object

The other three are private conversations between Aziraphale and Crowley:

The walls that surround Crowley and Aziraphale when they speak openly about their situation and how they will handle it are drenched in yellow, and that is super interesting, because in Western color symbolism yellow is the color of fear. The archangel of whom Crowley and Aziraphale are both (rightly) terrified wields a tool the color of fear. The color of fear saturates the backdrop of conversations between Aziraphale and Crowley when they have to discuss their situation and their actions openly.

Remember how Aziraphale's voice shakes here?

Crowley realizes the crows have just handed an angel evidence the angel can take to Hell and use to have Crowley killed

Even the Bentley, that clear sign of Aziraphale's love for Crowley, is also a yellow coffin enclosing him. For Aziraphale, thoughts of Crowley are always entangled with fear, because Crowley is not just Crowley, he is also Crowley's Fall.

And I think fear is what Crowley's eyes themselves represent. For Crowley, fear is now a fundamental part of his perception, his nature, his identity.

The angel Aziraphale once knew is not Crowley, and yet from what we've seen, the chiefest difference in character between this sweetheart and this mischief-maker--

--is that the Starmaker does not know yet that he should be afraid, and the Serpent does. That knowledge and its fear has, shall we say, colored his view of the world.

Aziraphale learns that fear early by observing others rather than Falling himself, and knows enough that by the first time we meet him in the Before, he is already afraid.

Pink was once symbolically equivalent to red; in modern Western color symbology it is a color of innocence, youth, beauty, and first love. Hashtag just sayin'.

The cruellest thing this suggests to me is that, rather than rebellion or his propensity to ask questions, rather than the knowledge of good and evil, the Starmaker's Fall was caused by his innocence. it wasn't the questions that were the problem: it was that he didn't know any better than to speak them out loud.

Y'all, Crowley and Aziraphale do not suffer from communication problems. Despite both being male-coded and British, they don't even seem to lack emotional intelligence. What they do have is a universe of silence and fear they have to communicate within and around. What they lack is the safety to speak and love freely. The true color of Crowley is crimson, but someone gave him those eyes, and Aziraphale either watched that happen or knew about it, and now Crowley covers himself in black--which btw is also the symbolic color for mystery and secrets--and only lets Aziraphale see him as he really is now, because Aziraphale won't judge him for his yellow eyes (or punish and forsake him for his questions). Because Aziraphale carries that fear with him too.

#good omens #good omens 2 #good omens analysis #good omens crowley color analysis #good omens crowley color #crowley #good omens colour analysis good omens crowley colour #good omens colour #good omens meta #angel!crowley #starmaker

[nochangeintheplan]

[Meta Dump below cut]

Specifically when it comes to the Millenium Tower, there's a hell of a lot of death and I'd imagine more negative energy tied up in that place than most at Tojo right now initially think about. Nishikiyama and the explosion are of course at the forefront of people's memories, but that entire tower was built on top of a lot of suffering. I wouldn't be surprised if Tachibana's gone and cursed that land at this point l m a o.

I think a Dojima stepping foot onto the empty lot, then specifically poking around for ghosts might be worthy of provoking echos of what happened on the land that building's built on. I figure "Chairman Dojima" has been thrown around a lot in the tower the past few years, so as far as Tetsu knows, Dojima essentially succeeded in getting what he wanted- his legacy secured in the Chairman position within the Tojo Clan.

Nishiki I always hc'd as helping babysit Daigo sometimes but to a lesser degree than Kiryu; he knows Daigo well enough to find him an inoffensive brat/edgelord the last he met him, but to Tetsu he's an unknown, just an extension of Dojima.

fhdfd hope that clears it up. If I'm gonna be real I just thought it made for a more fun comic to put him there; I had an alt ver w Nishiki in mind but it just didn't feel the same to me. I wanted to do something that took advantage of Tachibana's pre-existing entity vibes.

For future reference, feel free to send asks to this blog specifically if you have questions about tojosuggestionbox. Things on tojosuggestionbox will primarily stay in character, and meta notices like this will simply be reblogged and deleted in a few days.

#tojosuggestionbox meta

[quitealotofsodapop]

So can we get more context on this situation for the Tang River Water au?

referencing this au.

Literally one of the first things Peng does when they get released from the Scroll is to try and kill who he thinks is Tripitaka [Tang]. Peng presses on Tang so forcefully that the stone around him cracks. Tang doesn't be looking so great afterwards either.

Only reason Tang isn't passing through Diyu after this scene is Azure mentioning that he's just the monk's reincarnation (which 100% must have tickles Peng pink since they of all people know how embarassing it must have been for Buddha's teacher's pet to fail to break the cycle of rebirth). I have seen aus where Tang does die in this scene and his Golden Cicada powers have to come in clutch to keep his soul there. (link to a really cool animatic)

But in the "Mother Child River Tang" au?

Peng immediately takes one look at this *obviously* pregnant monk and just starts screeching with laughter! You know that sound peacock's make thats like a strangled laugh? That is all Peng is doing for their first five minutes out of the Scroll.

Yellow Tusk has already given Azure a warm welcoming hug and gotten caught up on the most recent millenium by the time Peng manages to catch their breath.

Peng: "The- [peacock cry]! The monk is- [more peacock cries!] ahhhhh! I can't even be mad at him right now! It's so funny!" Tang, still a little hurt, now offended: "Rude. A pregnant man isn't that funny." Peng: "But a pregnant monk is! Looks like that vow of chasity didn't stick eh?" Azure: "Peng, they are not the monk." Peng, laughter stops: "...then who the Diyu are they??" Tang, emboldened: "I'm Tang! Reincarnation and/or decendant of the Great Monk! And this is my husband Pigsy, our son MK, and our friends." Peng, tears in eyes: "HE MARRIED THE-!" [peacock cry!] Azure & Yellow tusk: *both sigh tiredly*

On a more serious note, since Sandy was forced to push Tang out of the way of Yellow tusk's attack + Peng pinned him to the ground, the Monkey King's part of the Scroll is damaged, MK is having a mental breakdown, and if we combine this with "Slow Boiled Stone Egg" au - the Brotherhood has taken Yuebei Xing hostage? Tang is in a lot of physical and emotional distress rn.

Like... enough to trigger early labor-level of distress.

Bodhisattva Guanyin is summoned immediately to Subodhi's temple before any actual training can occur. She's (and many other buddhist deities) so preoccupied in making sure that the Golden Cicada and his baby survives that they are distracted from the threat sieging Heaven at that moment...

Pigsy has to be held back from trying to tear the Brotherhood apart himself. Zhu Bajie wasn't *just* "some demon". He used to be one of the most powerful Marshals in Heaven - commanding 80 thousand heavenly sailors/soldiers. In one mythology, Marshal Tianpeng was even a son of Doumu - the mother of constellations (making him the Queen Mother of the West's brother oddly enough).

Whos to say that Pigsy doesn't accidentally tap into the powers of that life? The whole naval power of Heaven is suddenly at Subodhi's school, waiting for the orders to turn the Brotherhood into a fine red smear on the wall. It's only Tang's own pleading that Pigsy doesn't act rashly.

The chaos does lead to an odd conciencidence occuring though...

Nezha, post-s4: "I do wonder... has the Jade Emperor broken the cycle of rebirth? If not, then that means the location of his soul could prove dangerous if left unchecked. I must contact the Underworld." *starts mediatating* MK: "What do you mean?" Nezha: "The Emperor was eons old. That amount of acculmilated divine power needs a host that can handle it. Like-" Tang & Pigsy's baby: *snorts/burps loudly* Nezha, realising: "-the child of the Golden Cicada and of the Doumu herself..." Yama, King of Hell, astral projecting: "You guys are not gonna believe where the Emperor ended up! He's in a half-demon piglet somewhere- oh there she is!" Tang & Pigsy: ( 0_0) (0_0 ) "uh oh"

#mother child river tang au #slow boiled stone egg au #lmk aus #pregnancy tw #lmk tang #lmk pigsy #lmk peng #lmk azure lion #freenoddles #freenoodlesshipping #lmk #lego monkie kid

[1stupidrat]

Learned Mortality Artwork Thread | Episode 17-20

Spoilers ahead for the artwork that appeared in these episodes of Learned Mortality; please watch them first before you read this post!

Learned Mortality has been really heating up as of late so you should really check these episodes out, they're some of my best work ^-^

Starting with episode 17, we saw the retrieval (or rather, discovery) of the care package requested in the early game, crashed into the Marine Lab.

The only new artwork in this episode is the red form of the Jellyfish frostbitten, as seen below.

These frostbitten are found leeching from electrical wires and machinery, their polyps containing a threateningly high level of stored energy. To quote the party; they suck.

Next up we have Night 10's artwork. The good doctor has come to negotiate, and the party engages in a tense but very revealing conversation. To ensure things go well, a new frostbitten appears alongside the good doctor.

This being, warped in coral and holding a bright white flag, appeared by the Doctor's side in the encounter. Nothing else is currently known about it.

Despite the Doctor's cease-fire, Elessar and Val found their way into the Garden of Chains, the Good Doctor's base of operations. Within the large chamber, they found two new sights... a massive frostbitten and the real form of the doctor himself.

Hundreds of rejected forms of the Good Doctor, either broken beyond repair or currently regenerating, all forced into infinite life by the Millenium AI. The Good Doctor has gathered them here in one place in the Garden of Chains.

Next up, day 11, the party goes to the 25th hour to get Bolt's opinion on the situation.

Since Bolt was never supposed to be a visual aspect of the campaign, I never finished his design. This update visually defines him a place in the world and fully realizes how his personality ties into his design. I'm quite happy with it.

And after another Duncan rolls a 1 moment, we rush right into the Mad as Hell ACT 3 encounter. Here are all of the artworks that showed up at the end of episode 19 and during episode 20.

Mad as Hell ACT 3, earth and lightning, the miasma of static electricity, and the one controlling the giant class to act out as a rogue frostbitten.

The hands were confirmed to be part of the giant, now known to be [In the Year 2525].

In its head stands a projector equipped with tragedy from all over time. One of those tragedies stays close.

Professor Black Ice, or "the virus", is a self replicating computer virus from the future. For some reason, it is attempting to look just like Milli...

And finally the party encountered the mental forms of the Good Doctor within the 25th hour. What appears to be Camilia's original personality, and a much more serious and humorless Bliss.

And finally some concept art.

Thanks for reading the post, hope you all enjoy the rest of Learned Mortality, see y'all in the next one ^-^

~Tali

#sequence break #art #ttrpg #digital art #digital artwork #ttrpg art #jojo ttrpg #learned mortality #dnd #jjba #horror #bliss eso #milli eso ono #1stupidrat #tabletop games #ttrpg stuff #ttrpg campaign #ttrpg dev #Youtube

[i--antimony]

didn't poast last week so this is a two-week extravaganza post! con: got roped into DMing dnd pro: none of these fools have read mdzs so i can steal plots from there. hope the party is ready to be lead on a quest by a disembodied arm!

listening: oh shit SO many things. i will not be linking to all of them.

depeche mode: basically just their top songs on spotify, not any specific album. strong shoutout to 'shake the disease' and 'wrong' (which featured in my secret samol post!)

disturbed: ditto

franz ferdinand: albums 'hits to the head' and 'tonight'. throwbacks

phoenix: 'wolfgang amadeus phoenix' ditto throwback

inxs: 'x' DITTO throwback. doesn't hit the same as when i first listened to em years ago unfortunately

streetlight manifesto: album 'somewhere in the between'

boy and bear: 'harlequin dream'

sammy rae: 'let's throw a party', 'the good life', and their 'everybody wants to rule the world' cover

hozier: 'wasteland baby' and 'unreal unearth'

paramore: album 'this is why'

grizzly bear: 'veckatimiest' and 'painted ruins'

haken: their newest album 'fauna' because i'm thinking about whether or not to go to one of their shows in feb (leaning towards yes right now)

my SO's pinecore playlist

shosty symphony no 5 (<3)

and, finally, a lot of borodin symphony no. 1 in e flat and the last two movements of rimsky-korsakov golden cockerel because that's what the youth orchestra i'm volunteering with is playing right now haha

for podcasts, i've listened to the new counter/weight prequel eps! i'm so charmed to see these characters again. i still haven't finished millenium break holiday special because i lost my spot when a bunch of an episode played without sound by accident so i finally went and scrubbed back to the beginning of the episode (it's the second to last part) so by next week i will FINALLY be out of holiday special zone.

reading: finished rereading tgcf lol,,, in loving memory of square checkbox: apparently apple is switching to circle ones? hateful wikipedia page for kessler syndrome my friend @celestialtourguide sent me a dm to ask about a few of the characters in this manuscript and i was immediately charmed by it. it's so pretty, i loved the informational blurbs, just really cool stuff. it was already on waybackmachine but i've gone ahead and updated it.

watching: kurtis conner looksmaxxing. weird little subculture peek. rewatched sideways' why the music in cats 2019 is worse than you thought because my roommate was interested. this led us to the same channel's why avatar has the most ironic soundtrack of all time because roommate misread ironic as iconic and she really likes that movie. no accounting for taste, but aight. much more interesting than i thought it would be. that video then lead us to tony hinnigan's woodwind demos because hell fuckin yes. big-ass panpipes.

i've been keeping up on dunmeshi anime in little watch sessions with my SO, and also am working through kill la kill with him! i've seen it before but he has not so i'm really enjoying that.

playing: fallow.

making: i managed to finish my secret samol gift in time for reveal day!!! comics are fuckin hard dude!!!! i don't know if i'll be doing it again but it was a fun challenge. i decided to use a New App for some reason instead of procreate because procreate has not been hitting right and i wanted comic half tone brushes for this project. app is called sketchbook, it's an orange icon with a pencil on it. shrug! it's fine! i'll probably keep using it for a bit. started working on an english paper piecing project! soliciting tips for that because right now my method is: cut out hexagon using pattern piece i made to be 1/4 in larger all around than the template, gluestick template onto hexagon, baste edges down neatly, whip-stitch right sides together. remove template once all six sides have something attached. i'm sure there's a better way to streamline this process, i'll have to experiment. this will end up as a dice bag i think.

finally, pottery starts again this week! so next week will have some of that in here

eating: ah beans i did not do a good job keeping track of this. uh. made the ground pork & cabbage thing again because my roommate got SO much napa cabbage for making kimchi and we had a shitload left over. napa cabbage isn't as good as a more standard cabbage for this imo, standard cabbage tends to be a little sweeter i think once it's cooked in? idk. had some stage 5 mental illness moments last week trying to cook dinner on a very short time scale with lots of other shit to do, following a recipe because fucking of course my roommate wanted me to cook with a recipe that night. anyways.

misc: like said at the top, somehow i managed to sign up for Another Activity god damn it. so now every saturday evening i run dnd. tl;dr i'm in a group irl that meets biweekly, someone who i give a lift to for that was complaining in the car that their other online group's dm ragequit after his encounter wasn't well-balanced (skill issue) and before thinking about it i just was like oh well i could probably step in if you need! god damn ittttt lol i have missed dming so it should be fun. i vibe checked them for a session 0 last week and they seem chill and honestly shouldn't be too much work on my end, especially if i yoink plots from mdzs ha ha ha. other than that, all is basically well. i've settled back into a schedule, applied for some summer positions (!), and absolutely hate the amount of busy work in one of my two classes. yippee

#tuesdayposting

[nevergonnabemuchmorethanweather]

I know that you're not exactly Spike's number one fan, but Xander calling him an "evil, soulless" thing after he spent months helping the Scoobies out is hysterical. Especially given his actions in the episode before.

For the record, I do like Spike quite a bit most of the time, I just really, really, really hate Spuffy.

And Xander's reaction to Anya sleeping with Spike was absolutely ridiculous all the way around. Like, yeah, I'm sure seeing that hurt like hell but you... you left her... at the altar. You asked her to marry you, insisted that you meant it even when she was skeptical, ignored about a hundred opportunities to tell her you were having doubts, and then left her on your actual, literal wedding day. And she broke up with you because of course she did, so she is completely free to sleep with whoever the hell she wants and you have no right to say a word about it, much less shame her horribly and tell her she disgusts you, you utter prick.

But also... Anya was a demon. She was a demon for over a millenium. She caused more devastation than Spike and Angel combined, and she regretted none of it. She invited her demon friends to your wedding. What the actual fuck are you even talking about?

But it just goes to show that Xander's morals are entirely dependent on what's convenient for him at the time.

#btvs #anti xander harris #anti spuffy

[saltygilmores]

Thoughts While Watching Gilmore Girls, Season 2, Episode 18: Back In The Saddle. Part Six

Part 1 Part 2 Part 2½ Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Really thought this was just gonna be a cute filler episode I could whack off (lol) in like 2 or 3 parts but somehow we're on part 6? My longest review EVER both in number of parts and also in words? (A Tisket A Tasket may have gone on for 10 parts had Lorelai not made me rage quit).

How the hell did we get here? Oh.

Mark my words. I will hunt you both for sport. The only saving grace here is that our favorite pornographic film, Insatiable Cougar Does Her Daughter's Boyfriend, will mercifully cum to an end in about 1 minute and the remainder of the episode will return to pointless filler once more. I just realized there is no Jess in this episode, at all. Not even a counter-wiping scene stuck on at the end. BOO. Dean is confused by this concept of giving Rory "personal space" so Lorelai, of all people, is going to try to explain it to him like he's 5. No, literally, he does not know what "Space" means. Behold!

Absolutely breathtaking. The audacity of Lorelai Gilmore to gently tell Dean that Rory needs "just a little bit of space" after his behavior in this episode that fits the legal definitions of stalking and harrasment (I looked them up, lol). Where does she find it?

Did your parents spoon feed you lead paint chips as a child? How can one person be this fucking dumb? How have your remaining brain cells not yeeted themselves out of your head already?

"I... don't understand."

Rory Gilmore, you are in grave danger. Your mother is so blinded by her DeanLust she is throwing you to the lions (again).

Never ever, Dean. She's going to give you a sloppy beej when this talk is over. L (flirtily): If I was trying to get rid of you, I'd start telling you stories about my family! Har har har! You're soooo funny, Lorelai Gilmore!

L: I'm not telling you this to try to get rid of you, but to help things between you guys. Just try it! Ms. Gilmore, please explain to the court where Rory asked for your help. Just try not be doing a scary douchecanoe for one hour, Dean. I know that seems like a Herculean task, my man. But just try it.

"Wash my car"-stick your dick in my mouth"

What sexual favor is "a soda” code for, as she's asked him twice already (he keeps sounding reluctant to accept, so I am to assume it’s some freaky thing that only comes with the experience of a much older woman, and he’s nervous about his first time).

Whew. That had to be the most overwhelming sexual tension I've had the misfortune of witnessing thus far on my Gilmore Girls hell-journey. I'm scarred. It's going to be imposible to remove from my psyche, stuck there like chewed gum, or like Jess Mariano's sidewalk drawings. And I thought nothing could ever eclipse these levels of sexual tension:

Or one of the many instances of this

No, this one beats em all by a mile. The big difference being that the other scenes make me want to throw up my hands and rejoice, while this scene made me want to throw up my intestines.

ARE YOU DONE?!

The remainder of the episode contains the conclusion of the z plot involving MIchel's mother which I've barely paid attention to.

Michel is mad at Lorelai because she overstepped her boundaries once more, so that's good. Let the hatred flow my man! I need to recruit as many soldiers as possible for my Anti Lorelai Gilmore army. Take your anger a step further and report her to the labor board in Connecticut for her undoubtedly shaky bookkeeping, close down the whole operation, send her out to the streets and Rory into a nice foster home, and you can find a nice job at a real hotel. Am I thinking too far ahead again?

"The lunchbox of the new Millenium." or the RX 2002 First Aid Kit? Which lame-o creation which would only excite the most lifeless of Teens will emerge victorious?

Now here's some sexual tension I don't mind. Thank god. I needed relief.

And another sucky competitor throws its hat in the ring!

Spoiler alert: they are not it.

The part where he finishes these sentences with "including yours" must have gotten left on the editing room floor.

Just another reminder that Madelyn over there in the background invented the smart speaker, and Rory said her smart speaker couldn't be made because no one at Chilton knew how to build a robot, but there's a sign behind her for an invention called "The robotic dissector", whatever the hell that is. They should have had those dudes on their team, because every single person on the RX 2002 development team was completely dead weight except for Paris.

I totally forgot about this other male douchecanoe. WTF is a "hose hook"? And a locker refrigerator? WHAT? I thought these were supposed to be practical inventions? Why is every invention so god damn terrible? How can Douchecanoe Charleston possibly choose a winner? I can never un-know Charleston as Doug Heffernan's dad on one of my favorite shows, King Of Queens, where he had a completely different accent and not the quasi-British thing he's got going on.

The Locker Alarm wins. Grown Adult Man Richard Gilmore take this loss of a high school invention fair, one his granddaughter contributed nothing to, quite personal. In a tired sequence of events that we have already seen unfold many times before and one which will unfold to the extreme in the next episode, something unfortunate but hardly life altering happens to Rory that she takes in total stride while the adults in her life invalidate her feelings and lose their shit on her behalf anyway. If you guessed “Richard is having a coronary over Rory's loss at a silly school business fair and Rory could not care less”, come on down and collect your prize.

R: You've all put in an extrodinary amount of time, effort, and thought into this. Rory's entire contribution to the project was "This is amazing. I want one of these." Richard is not having it and he is taking it up with DCC. I get the sense this is not actually about Rory at all and is really some kind of Old Man Vs. Old Man Personal Beef about stocks and bonds or golf or something.

In what should come as a surprise to no one, I was right about something again 😁 turns out Richard was bored with retirement or something, so his solution was to take out his frustration on Douche Canoe Charleston because he knew him from Old Man Business Land, and he was jealous DCC had a job? And he didn’t care if he humiliated Rory in the process. I have no more room for screen shots and I refuse to make this a seven parter so you're going to have to use your imagination for the last 8 minutes, kay? Rory expresses to Richard that she's okay with the loss and she does not want Richard to bring this up to the principal but he doesn't listen to her. He says she was robbed and he is not going to sit back and let it go! ARGH!! My poor girl!!! Richard complains to the Manager while Rory has to sit back and watch and while wishing Lorelai would just dump her off with some strange relative like Liz did to Jess so she didn't have to be part of this awful family. Richard to DCC: Out there in the real world, there is no way a locker alarm would be a viable business investment! It's a school that should be training children for the real world! Oh, right, a locker alarm is useless, but a lunchbox full of band aids isn't. The only ground Richard has to stand on here is that if the best minds in this expensive school can't create anything better than a "hose hook" and a "locker refrigerator" then indeed, their educators are clearly failing them. If Richard and Emily had raised Rory instead of Lorelai, you know Richard would have been picking a fight with Rory's kindergarten teacher if she came in second place in the class spelling bee. Richard: I DEMAND A RECOUNT! DCC: Richard, this is not the real world, this is just school. This is so embarrassing. Rory should go on and pull the fire alarms and evacuate the school just to put an end to this humiliation. I feel like every time I have stated "I got no problems with Richard" at the beginning of an episode I've been so, so wrong. I'll stop doing that from now on. At Friday night dinner, Richard is sulking in his room like a baby over his granddaughter's loss at a high school inventors fair, and Lorelai GIlmore, of all people, suggests to Emily he should go to therapy, because "there's nothing wrong with getting help". Does Lorelai ever listen to herself? Where does she keep finding the nerve to advise other people to do things that she refuses to do herself? Clean up your own house first, woman. Emily of course responds that therapy is only for deviants, people with multiple personalties, and disturbed people who lick parking meters and think their dogs can talk. And so another week goes by where all four Gilmores push their numerous emotional traumas deep, deep down inside once more where they can continue to bubble and fester. Things aren't looking too good for little Chaz Gilmore, Rory's son, to break the cycle. (I've decided Rory has a boy just to throw the whole darn Gilmore Woman dynamic off its axis and give things a little pizzazz). (but what would Rory name a boy? Please do not say "Jess Jr." ) After hours of sulking, Richard emerges from his room chipper as a daisy asking for dinner, confusing us all. We come to find out that due to Rory's non-contribution to the invention of a Lunchbox full of Band Aids, Richard has been inspired to come out of retirement. That makes a whole lot of sense. Rory recieves a page from Dean on the way home from FND and Lorelai is pleased as fucking fruit punch to learn that her sloppy but satisfying sexual services earlier in the kitchen were enough to convince Dean to reduce his harassment down to one page per two days. Rory states he hasn't "Called or mysteriously appeared next to me" in two days! Lorelai is pleased that he's "calming down"! The bar is so low! Rory is relieved to get some breathing room from Dean, so to celebrate, Lorelai encourages Rory to call him anyway, then when Rory says no Lorelai asks if she’s super duper sure that she doesn’t want to call Dean.

You can keep your corny little froo froo sitcoms where people learn valuable life lessons at the end of every episode. No one ever learns anything or betters themselves on Gilmore Girls and that’s the way we like it.

Lorelai arrives home, late at night, after dropping Rory off at Lane's house (weird turn of events, but OK, I'm sure this is going to be some kind of set up for Teach Me Tonight) to find Dean sitting on her porch, sulking. Despite the fact that this is the second time in one day that he has shown up at her house to wait for Rory completely unannounced, Lorelai does not find his repeat behavior the least bit concerning. Little baby is pouting and trespassing on private property because he really struggled and put his four brain cells to work to come to a conclusion: his repeated harrassment towards Rory, for some strange reason, isn't endearing her to him, so she may just prefer the company of Jess instead of a DoucheCanoe Wtihout A Paddle. Lorelai merely sticks out her lower lip, gives him some puppy dog eyes, and pities this poor dumb creature who she has an unbearable, aching sexual attraction to. Then he walks off into the night, hopefully over a steep embankment into a pit of alligators. Goodnight.

#gilmore girls #DALA #Dean and Lorelai Affair #Puke City #rory gilmore #paris geller #Denise Rewatches Gilmore Girls #GIlmore Girls Season 2 #Back In The Saddle #tumblr im begging you #please give more more picture allotment #30 is not enough for my insane ramblings #even 35 would help #there was no fucking way I was making this a 7 parter #The DALA is cramping my style

[somethingvicked]

@edhellfire continued from here.

Hannah woke up with a start when someone knocked on her door. She groaned and put the pillow over her head but when the knocking kept coming she sat up. "Alright, alright, I'm coming!" she wheezed out, grabbing her black dressing gown in fleece with little Millenium Falcon's embroidered all over it.

If it was the Jehovas making her leave her bed there would be hell to pay.

She opened the door and was face to face with Eddie Munson, making her go paler than she already was. Because quite frankly, she was a mess. Her nose resembled a clown's nose in its redness, her lips were dry and cracked, her hair - thank God in a braid - dirty and matted from sweat.

"Eddie," she whispered, since that was the only level of volume her voice could handle at the moment. "what can I do for you? Sadly not much, I feel like I've had a small stroke."

#eddie munson rp #edhellfire #the one where hannah's sick

[thedawntreaders]

aslan sending some of the telmarines back to earth in the disney walden media film (not telmar like in the book) has got to be the worst case of mindfuckery in the history of mindfuckery. okay i might be exaggerating BUT LISTEN.

as far as i can tell there's two possibilities:

YEAR A TIMELINE let's say when the original telmarine pirates came to narnia, it was year [A]. when aslan sends the telmarines (the ones born generations afterwards!) back to earth, they go to that very same year [A]. this is... somewhat problematic because they're not the ones who left earth, and it's been milleniums in narnian time since their ancestors arrived in narnia. as a result, they don't remember or even know the societal expectations of year [A]. however, this is probably the better alternative to year [B] which i'll go over now.

YEAR B TIMELINE on the assumption they're not transported to year [A], the time their ancestors left earth, the telmarines are sent off by aslan to the same time period as the pevensies, which we'll call year [B]. if that's the case, can we agree aslan did not think things through? assimilating into year [A] society would be tough enough to go through, let alone being transported hundreds of years into year [B]! and it's during fucking WORLD WAR II, LIKE HELLO? they're going to be overwhelmed by the sheer amount of technology they've never seen before. they wouldn't understand the figure of speech/idioms/slang. where the hell are they gonna get their documentation like birth certificates and passports? for the sake of my sanity i'm convinced aslan must have transported them to an island within the bermuda triangle to close them off from the rest of the world, there's no other explanation i have for them to live peacefully.

#they see a plane flying over and think they're being attacked and catapult it #just... so many opportunities for disaster #tcon #the chronicles of narnia #chronicles of narnia #narnia #narnia headcanons #narnia imagines #aslan

[jaimebluesq]

Twenty questions for fic writers

Thank you to @dual-domination for tagging me! :D

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 118 (including WIPs) - and this does not include my very early fanfic from the days before AO3 (though I hope to put those on one day)

2. What's your total AO3 word count? 842,883

3. What fandoms do you write for? Currently exclusively writing for MDZS/The Untamed - nothing else has quite gripped my entire consciousness as much as this fandom and its characters have.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Think Outside the Shell (aka my first Nie Sect Murder Tortoise fic), Gen fic where Nie Huaisang domesticates the xuanwu - 657

When Fate Opens a Window, Let Us Fly Through It, NieLan accidental (but really orchestrated by NHS) Lan ribbon marriage fic - 521

Under the Cold Qinghe Mountains, WangXian with dragon!LWJ and background SangCheng (this is so weird because I am NOT known as a WangXian writer at all!!!) - 494

It Was You All Along, SangCheng post-canon where NHS wore a mask to take part in a courtship tournament for JC, and now is the time to reveal himself, with a side of Yunmeng Shuangjie reconciliation - 468

Wrong Shell, Wrong Time, Gen (with background SangYao), the 3rd of my Nie Sect Murder Tortoise fics but my personal favourite (JGS gets eaten by a xuanwu and the only witnesses are Nie Huaisang, Meng Yao, and Jin Zixun - and Nie Mingjue is trying to find out what really happened) - 415

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? Yes! I respond to every comment if possible - I think the only ones I might not respond to are where someone says something as a placeholder and that they'll give another comment saying more, but never do. But yeah, every comment however big or small means the WORLD to me, so the least I can do is send back a thank you :D

6. What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? I think this is probably Mercy - it ends with NHS foregoing his revenge against JGY to give him a quick death with his reputation intact and it broke my heart to write.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Hard to pick since in general I tend to go the happy/hopeful ending route, and what constitutes a happy ending can be a very individual thing (e.g. for many the "married with children and a white picket fence" is the ideal happy ending, though I'm of a different opinion). If I had to choose, I think it would be a tie between Bed of Roses (modern day SangCheng, where the guys don't just get together but NHS can finally visit with his family again after 2 decades apart), and In This Garden, We Raise a Little Shell (I did the seemingly impossible and gave Jin Zixun a happy ending that people actually seemed to LIKE no romance just a JZXun/Garden ship lol).

8. Do you get hate on fics? Now? No, not really - every now and then there might be a comment that's a little less than stellar, like a criticism of a direction I went in or saying I was too generous in giving a certain character a happy ending, but that's very minor. Once upon a time? Yep - I stared writing back around the turn of the millenium when anti-gay crusaders were ecstatic going onto people sites and commenting that they would be going to hell because they're such sinners, etc - I once wrote a fic where a character was in Montreal with family on the day remembering the Ecole Polytechnique massacre, mostly gen but at the end I had him get a hug from his boyfriend - since I didn't put it as a ship in the description, I had comments, very unpleasant comments, about it.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? Yes!!! I enjoy it, I hope readers enjoy it too. And I've written all kinds - romantic, casual, kinky, mistaken identity, multiple partners, dubious noncon, m/f & m/m (and I have an idea in the works for a f/f). I think the only I haven't written is smut where one is trans (am not trans myself, and I think I would worry too much about how to say things and worry I'm using the wrong terms or being accidentally disrespectful), serious dead dove stuff, or A/B/O (the latter is a squick of mine).

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written? I have written crossovers, though very few recently. The craziest one was probably one called Things To Do in L.A. When You’re Insane - it was a crossover between the A-Team, Skinner (an old horror movie with Ted Raimi and Ricki Lake), Lunatics: A Love Story (another movie with Ted Raimi), and Xena: Warrior Princess, where characters from the original 3 modern-day canons were reincarnations of the triplets Joxer, Jett & Jace from Xena. It was weird but fun!

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not to my knowledge. Lots of accidental 2Cakes situtations, but that's all.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? No - I did receive a comment asking if someone could translate one of my fics into Russian once, but I never heard from them again.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? Yes!!! In 2 different ways. My old fandom friend JoeyRZ and I co-wrote a Xena/seaQuest crossover that turned out so well, and our writing styles were so similar that nobody could tell where one of us started and the other ended :D It was great!!! Also, way back in the day we used to do Round Robins - A story told from one person to another (e.g. the order is chosen at random, one person writes the first scene, the next the following, etc etc until a story is done), sometimes with themes (I remember the centaur sex one and the "copy such and such writer's style" one, both had been on KSAres if I remember right). They were great, low-commitment and high creativity community activities that I would LOVE to see make a comeback!!!

14. What's your all-time favorite ship? For this, I'm going to consider both romantic and platonic ships, and I'll list for a couple of fandoms. Back in my Xena days, I know Joxer/Ares was huge for us Joxer fans, but I was a multi-shipper to the core... so I think actually the platonic Joxer&Xena&Gabrielle was my favourite to explore because they were totally found family :D Back in seaQuest, I loved Tim O'Neill & Miguel Ortiz both platonically and romantically - even when I shipped Tim with other guys, they'd always know that there is no Tim without Miguel :D And currently, even though I enjoy shipping Nie Huaisang with several others, my heart belongs to SangCheng.

15. What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will? Toooo many, I even have a folder titled "Neglected WIPs".

16. What are your writing strengths? I think I'm good at dialogue, and at seeing the world through another character's eyes, particularly to where their opinions and mine might differ greatly.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? Figuring out how to end a scene (and keep writing and writing long past when it should have ended), impatience (particularly in the editing stage - I just want to get the damned thing online even if it's less than perfect), lack of confidence in my writing (which affects me actually getting to writing it). I'm having a good day so that's my answer, but on bad days that list can go on far too long.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? It would have to be one I'm familiar enough with, and I would always put a translation next to it - never assume everyone else knows the same combination of languages that you do (e.g. some people have accused me of not being bilingual because I don't speak spanish - doesn't matter that I speak english and french fluently, learned some Russian in uni, and am picking up bits and pieces of random mandarin at the moment, etc etc).

19. First fandom you wrote for? Technically this would be the Muppets - I wrote a story about Gonzo the Great for a class project in 6th grade. But when it comes to grown up fic writing, I think it was Xena - I know I wrote a couple of Red Dwarf fics around the same time so I'm not 100% sure which came first, but Xena was my first HUUUUUGE fandom experience :D

20. Favorite fic you've written? I have no idea how to answer this - I've written a lot in several different fandoms, and there have been ones in each I'm proud of, including fandoms I try to stay away from these days (HP). But maybe because there's so many and they're so varied, I just can't bring it down to one or two favs.

Tagging: @lowkeyed1 @gekidasa @roseclaw @thebiscuiteternal - and anyone else who'd like to join in :D

#twenty questions game #fandom stuff #my writing

[concrete-the-cat]

@secondhand-sonder

i found it.

do you remember how i said 'hey, you pulled me into homestuck!! i need to find a fandom to bring you into' and i settled with Psych?

Screw it you've spend hours reading and indulging in homestuck. i have done the same for HOI4. okay. so. i'm going to ramble until you're interested

tno? darker than anything you will find. screw vriska mind controlling shit. never play burgundy. never... never play burgundy... god, don't do it..

do like the speer path though. make that democracy man. and then don't be. once you don't be the democracy democrat i'll just put you on house arrest, mr. speer, and then the game ends as beauty springs

meanwhile in vanilla:

well. not exactly that's a cheated thing but it shows you the shit you can do lol

ignore the Border Gore when you can because if luxembourg DID beat stalin you can bet the ai would make some WEIRD shit with the borders... doesn't matter.

meanwhile in millenium dawn:

KURDISTAN!!! :D

also did i mention i learned more geography, history, and world flags than from any traditional school book. or maybe it's just- that it STUCK better when consuming media than geography classes....

also some rudimentary german since germany is obviously a big part of any mod... so now i know a few german words too...

if you want wacky you go to Kaiserredux where hp lovecraft can become leader of new england become a fascist and conquer everywhere but north america...

honestly that DOES sound like a homestuck plot

realism?? realism doesn't exist within the hours of Operation Sealions, Barbarossas and all other manner of naval bombings...

especially not in north america divided where indiana gains nukes and sends California to hell for existence don't fuck with hoosiers...

do you see the endless depths of tragedy that score the mind of the average paradox fan yet

do you see what silliness paradox i will pull you into in return it is your turn now

anything that brain of yours can think of can be found (+ turned into a genocidal warmongering nation)

#hoi4 #hearts of iron iv #paradox interactive

[icharchivist]

do you have any theory regarding the entity behind the boundary?

it seems like some stereotypical satan analogue who tries to tempt people away from god? then again god is already established to be a bit of a dick

i have genuinely no idea about the entity behind the boundary it's fucking me up

but i don't believe it's a Satan analogue, at least as of now.

Reviewing what we know:

There was once one Omnipotent God, who once started to have a disagreement with itself, and it split in two: the god of the sky, and the god of the stars. The boundary is something linked to the power of the Omnipotent, but not specifically of either gods.

I don't really think they're going for a christian retelling of godhood or anything there so i'd be really surprised if it was supposed to be Satan. Especially since, if anything, it's the Crimson Horizon and the Otherworld that has been associated more to the evil presence of the world, compared to Hell multiple times. (and the fact wmtsb's characters are lifted from Paradise Lost also support this because we have stuff like how Lucifer used to battle the Otherworld, or how Beelzebub fell there and fought his place into becoming the king of it.) To me it's much more Hell-adjacent. and i don't think the Boundary is linked to the Otherworld.

Personally i admit i'm. Heavily biased because i genuinely have the DGM logic in my mind.

If you would bear with me, i swear it's relevant:

In DGM there is at least one character that is identified as such: He Once Was One Person, Adam, but inside of him was activated the memory of a past being. This memory was full of hatred toward God for what it had done to him and his family, and this hatred overwhelmed Adam until he became one with that memory. He became what the memory's power gave him, he became the Millenium Earl, fated to destroy the world. But the world kept changing, Adam had a family out of people just like him that he kept losing and losing, and eventually, he was driven to despair, until he met a human woman. He felt so much at peace when with her that he wanted to do something to be with her, and to do so, he split in two. He became two children, two twins, left abandoned into his Earl's outfit near the tree for the woman to take care of.

The woman took the two twins in, and for a while, the two kids were happy. They lived a normal human life. Until their respective, shared Memory started to activate, filling them with the same hatred Adam used to have.

And more than that, they both started to be haunted by the Suit. An empty shell who still bore the power the Full Earl used to have. The Suit eventually started to attach itself to the oldest of the two twins, making him the Millennium Earl, while the second twin was left in the dust.

The Earl had the power to create new beings, new lives. The Other Twin had the power to absorb power, life. This Other Twin resented the plan the Suit had for his brother, so, he went on a rampage, tried to kill everyone, and The New Earl was called on by the Suit to Absorb his twin back inside of him, to become one again.

He did it, for the most part, held back only by his actual emotions for his brother, and holding back was enough for the twin to transfer what was left of his soul in the body of someone else, who one day, will allow him to come back fully.

But the Earl was left with what he had become, and the voice of the Memory in the mirror kept telling him to move on with his plan, to find where the Twin had hidden the soul and finish the job.

Pushed to despair instead, the Earl blew his face up to separate himself from the Suit, became the Eldest son again, and for a few years, was on the run, trying to find his Twin again.

And for those few years, the suit, the memory, had been chasing him to merge with him again when time was to come. Once it happened, to keep the boy from rebelling again, the memory erased his memories, but the boy still remembered how driven he was to find his brother again.

As such one of the major conflict of the story is set in between both the twins, who love each other, and this third entity, that is there because the two twins where one that became two, is trying to reunite them in a way that would bring both of them to ruin.

This whole story was motivated by the author's own exitence as a twin (the word she uses for "twins" is one in Japanese that'd translate as "two pieces of the same whole" rather than the more usual alternative) and how they were planned to be triplets, but the two sisters had absorbed the third one in the womb, and they have spent their lives wondering if this third being was still living through them, seeing through them, wanting a life for themselves. and it's especially visible with this one character but i should mention that everything in dgm works in pair with a third secret thing linking them together, with others characters who are going through similar "secret being inside of them" experiences that steam directly from this.

And i keep thinking about it when i hear of the split God in gbf. I keep thinking about this specific feeling about being split in two, broken in two, but still bond together by a third element you can't exactly put into words. A secret, a being that holds you two together. Of One Piece who then Become Three And Then Who Were Two. Were did the third one go? what does it mean for the One they used to be?

I keep thinking back to it. about a secret third thing that holds the two of you back together. The fact that there is a word in Japanese to refer to twins splitting as two pieces of a whole makes me wonder if there a cultural aspect to it gbf could be using as they approach the Omnipotent.

That's why a while back when i tried to explain what i thought was the Boundary to a friend, i represented it like this:

If anything i would think the Boundary is a Third Element that happened the moment the gods split. Maybe an element who wants the two Gods to be reunited somewhat. Like a cordon holding a child back to its mother. A being who's not clear cut, not half and half, but in between spaces, a being who is holding everything back together.

And it's really hard to be thinking about anything else for me, especially when they hit me with calling Seofon an "apostle of the Boundary" as if apostle wasn't also the term used by DGM in many similar situations. I keep going back to it.

And, like i said. I have no idea. Because i struggle to conceive this is what the gbf writers had in mind. But it's all that make sense to me because i legit just look at this and go "i've seen that before. I've discussed about that exact type of story before." and it gives me a very specific bias that is impossible to get rid of.

I have no idea.

I'm sharing with you the way my brain is working right now, and hopefully it makes some type of sense that you can understand why at least i struggle to believe it's a simple dichotomy thing. I feel like the Boundary is something else entirely. I just don't trust myself with being objective about it.

Hope at least it can give some ideas to feed on?

take care!

#ichareply #ichafantalks gbf #anonymous #ichablogging 9thanni #i know the tangeante feel scary but please do bear with me it is actually a point i'm making

[einsamerhund]

And for the next one (and maybe I'm not splitting them up small enough but ya gal has a goldfish memory. Fantastic for my job. Not so much for most everyday stuff 😂):

When Hans is fighting with Seras, is he trying to be dramatic and show off? Or is he trying to show his sins and plead for death to be free of the Major?

Her. She was the one…

The Captain had seen it all. Bodies burned, shot, trampled, hoisted by pike and left to bled, then revived to fight for a monster. He was numb. Aimless. His realization that his presence was all but a show.

He was lied to.

No more happier was he then to realize that, as he pointed Sir Integra to his master, that Max would be distracted by his long droning ego to care about anything else but his supposed “rival”. Hans was now unchecked, and from the way he saw it, there was no one who could bring him life but a true monster— one, he could tell, may have even been stronger than Alucard himself…

The challenge was set, the game began and his ridiculous C96 Mausers brought his new foe to the breaking point; exactly where he wanted her. Down, down into the far gallows of the ship lay the wake of Millennium’s treasures. Hans knew this was the spot. Seras was strong, but not strong enough. Hans wouldn’t lie to himself. But at this point, none of that mattered.

He didn’t want to live in this hell anymore…

As their battle commenced, he started to feel it. Every kick more dramatic, every jump farther than it had any reason to be, every standstill a moment to put on a menacing guise. He was having fun. He was finally himself again. He swore in that very moment, every time he struck, his pack struck with him. It was bliss unrivaled! But he knew it had to come to an end.

The moment that silver tooth burrowed into his heart, the pain didn’t matter; it was secondary to the fact that he’d done it. He fought and died not as Millenium, nor Letze Battallion, SS or Nazi. He fought as Hans Günsche, Werewolf. The moment he went up in flames, his spectral form let a melancholy howl ring through the steel walls of the treasury— leaving young Victoria to question his choice; he didn’t need anyone’s affirmation or understanding. In his fleeting moments, he saw all of his pack in their beautiful illuminated coats howling right next to him, ‘til the last bitter ember faded…

Familie… Ich liebe dich…

#hellsing rp #hellsing #hans gunsche #hans günsche #the captain #seras victoria #werewolf #ask #nuclearforest

[yukarishoodie]

do you have any favorite vocaloid song series? (like kagepro, or just any that have music produced by a vocaP like milgram)

Note that I'm song/PV-centric when it comes to song series - I don't check out additional material (novels, manga etc) often. Also minimal Japanese, so it's mostly translations and mtl. Spoiler warning for mentioned series.

My number one has to be KEMU VOXX/PANDORA VOXX. A song series packed into an album that tells a coherent story, and I love kemu's music. Love the consistent theme of granting wishes in a way that makes the monkey's paw curl. The Jinsei Reset Button novel was unhinged (affectionate). Did I mention the music slaps. Gumi rock will never go out of fashion.

Then there's OwataP's Benzene series. There's no real plot to it but OwataP nails the atmosphere: everyone wants change but nobody moves, and everything is stagnant as a result. Nitrobenzene is the best song in this series and I will die on this hill.

ShuujinP's New Millenium series has to be mentioned. The songs themselves don't really hold up to my current tastes, but the plot does. Time travel? Apocalypses? The Kagamines being tragic? Hell yeah. This series definitely contributed to me being a lifelong Vocaloid fan.

Honorable mentions:

-Kagepro, but especially Heat Haze Days and Shintaro and Ayano's plots. I'm a sucker for timeloops and people facing their traumas what can I say.

-Treow/ELECTROCUTICA's CYGNUS CC series. It could've been just ARTICUTION and still be good, but I love Treow's music in general and can't complain about getting new stuff. Classy, melancholic atmosphere that Treow's songs nail.

-HitoshizukuxYama's Synchronicity series. A classic, really. Still some of the best RinLen duets out there, and a lovely fantasy plot to boot.

#asks #vocaposting #need to get my hands on the rest of the kemu voxx novels to see if they outhinge jinsei reset button

[onetwobreathe]

Kitchen still isn't complete. Everything is still a nightmare. I'm ill beyond belief and just want to sleep for a decade BUT....

Got a front row ticket to see Michael Sheen in Nye at the Wales Millenium Centre in May! I bought ticket protection because the thought of being on my own, at that time, with no guarantee that the trains will be running back to my town is going to play hell with me closer to the time, but for now even with the sickness I'm in heaven at the thought of attending. 💕

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[thornforged]

Hell yeah, finally got the forge at 'vacation' home here in Millenium.

Going to run a small scale business for enchantments from here while I'm at it.

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