#i'm just here to draw block people and if i trace from a video so be it you know i'm tracing minecraft

[sparkanonymous]

Hello!

Anyone under the age of 18, do not follow me. Please.

Decided to put effort into an actual introductory post, so here we go.

Obviously, this is my art account, and you may refer to me with any pronouns. I don't care. I am 20 years old.

DNI

Pedophiles, MAPs, PEARs, Zoophiles, etc.

Transphobes, Homophobes

Racists

NFTs, AI "artists"

Anyone who harasses, bullies, and/or doxes another person over anything that is purely fictional.

"KYS" commenters

If I see anyone described in my DNI interacting with my account, I will block them.

If I have followed a minor or interacted with anyone described in my DNI, please let me know.

(Any minors that happen to follow me will be soft-blocked.)

I am anti-harassment and anti-censorship. I do not have the energy for any negativity. Sorry, y'all.

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Interactions

My ask box is open! You can put whatever you want there.

Anonymous asks are on, but if this proves to be a problem, I'll turn that off.

You can use my work as a reference, just please do not outright trace it.

I do not believe in "pose theft" or "color palette theft," so if you want to use my work for either the pose or color palette, go right ahead.

I don't know how to respond to compliments, but just know that they're appreciated, whether in comments, tags, or reblog responses!

Current Interests

Ninjago Total Drama Island Franchise

This will be updated for every piece of media I start to consistently post about.

Of Video Games

Sims 2 and 3 Minecraft Tomodachi Life

I'm not interested in shipping wars and will usually just stick away from things that I don't like. Also, my stuff will most likely not be sticking to the canon material. I like doing my own thing and making up shit all the time.

Specifically, I plan on eventually making pieces for Total Drama characters I feel would be related in some way to the Reboot cast. I know that some people don't like the implications when it comes to canon, but I hope it's okay if I make the original, RotI, and Pakitew Island casts a good 10-15+ more years older than the Reboot cast.

If you want to see what art I like or what fandom spaces I tend to be in, go follow my reblog-blog account, @sparksartreblog.

Ship Tags

"rajbow" - Raj x Bowie from Total Drama "primien" or "damiya" - Priya x Damien from Total Drama "nichayne" - Nichelle x Wayne from Total Drama "glaciershipping" - Cole x Zane from Ninjago "bruiseshipping" - Cole x Jay from Ninjago "luaisy" - Luigi x Daisy from the Super Mario franchise "mareach" - Mario x Peach from the Super Mario franchise "bawn" - B x Dawn from Total Drama

This will be updated the more pairings I post.

My Tags

"spark arts" - My art

"spark speaks" - Where I talk

"spark wips" - Character designs, works in progress, and general unfinished or sketchy pieces

"thumbnail" - Thumbnail art I do for the VODs channel

"reblog" - Anything I happen to reblog

"spark arts reblog" - Any of my art I reblog

"art theft" / "credit the artists" / "love your artists" - Where I try to find and credit uncredited artists

"screenshot redraw" - Any screenshot/screencap I happen to redraw

Let's get this one thing straight; this is my account, and I will do what I want with it. If I like something, I will draw it. Everything I do is a work of fiction, and if you see something that seems harmful, it was not my intention for it to be harmful.

Please, for everyone's mental health, if you don't like something that I've posted, please block this account.

#spark speaks #intro post

[sweetlavandertea]

Asks are opened!

Hi hi! Sorry for not posting! (Life gets busy!)

I'm glad to say that the ask box is now open for asks!

I've already received some asks and they'll be answered shortly! Just a heads up that I'm not accepting any suggestive questions about Lillian or for any of the other characters.

I'd also like to say that I'm currently in the process of making a Au of my own and update posts will come shortly! For now I ask that you respect clown's boundaries I'll share my boundaries with you now!

Please respect my boundaries.. I'd hate to have to block you if I find out you've cross them!

Boundaries!

❌ No NSFW. This is a SFW account! (Slightly suggestive is a meeeeh but SFW only!)

❌Please don't objectify my characters (I feel they should be treated with the same respect as any other person with their own thoughts and feelings)

✅Drawing them are okay! As long at you give credit where credit is do! (Also plz tag me so I can see it! {♡△♡} ♡)

❌ Tracing/Stealing art or characters are looked down on here! (What is okay is tracing for practice and if posted, credit the original artist and not claim the traced art as yours. I'm 100% okay if you use my art as reference, as long as you put your own creativity into it and make it different in your own way! ✅)

❌Asking about personal things about me

✅Asking personal things about my character (they are okay with them)

➖ Keep things at least somewhat positive. (It's okay if you seek comfort in them, just don't over share. Your privacy matters!)

✅ If you want to hugs or kisses them that's okay! (As long as long as you keep things platonic!)

❌ Don't sexualize them. (Need to make this CRYSTAL CLEAR. Treat them like people! I'd feel uncomfortable if you sexualized them and so would they!)

(⚠️THIS ISN'T THE OFFICIAL BOUNDARIES JUST YET AND THINGS CAN CHANGE. FOR NOW THIS IS WHAT I HAVE AS BOUNDARIES. THERE WILL BE CHANGES IN THE FUTURE!⚠️)

(just please be respectful)

Thank you for taking the time to read this! We're happy to receive questions and thank you for the support over on TikTok!

(Thanks from the chaotic trio and myself!)

Sneak peaks!

Here's some sneak peek for a video for my tiktok! It's taking a lot of time so please be patient with me I'm trying.

Thanks!

#welcome home puppet show #boundaries #welcome home oc #digital illustration #digital art #welcome home arg

[azrielfiend]

╰┈➤ ❝ [Welcome!] ❞

support me on ko fi and become a member, where you can see early drawings than anyone else, WIPs and exclusive art! more benefits from each tier can be read here https://ko-fi.com/azrielfiend (link)

collective name and pronouns: Vast/Umbra, they/them im a traumagenic system of 15-ish alters, and we're bodily 17 years old. please be nice to me :) though dont be afraid to ask me about systems. im happy to answer! Also please remember i'm a person with severe bpd. i'm not mentally stable and will have breakdowns often. They're tagged with #vent though!

this blog is multifandom! my interests changes very often and randomly, so please expect inconsistency. im just having fun!

DO NOT SPAM LIKE/SPAM REBLOG. i will block you if you do not listen. sorry, im a little fed up about it :(

if you dont like something on this blog, simply ignore and move on. also, no endo sys n their supporters on my accounts please! be very aware that im anti harrassment & do not engage in discourse. people who are neutral are on thin ice, mostly.

extra stuff below cut. sideblogs, my webcomic, permissions on what my art can be used for, commissions, a link to my discord server etc.

please read the dni list & abt me on my carrd in my linktree.

╰┈➤ linktree

PERMISSION TO USE MY ART:

you have my permission to use my art anywhere (except commercial ofc) with credit! be it banner or pfp or video edits. pfp such as pride flag pfps. recolors are also OK as long as you dont trace my art, claiming it as your own. DO NOT sell my art as an NFT as that greatly upsets me, also please do not make merch of my art unless i made them myself. credit the art as @/azrielfiend on tumblr if you use it on another website like spacehey or twitter!

my discord server! (link)

my commissions are currently on hold! i have projects i want to complete first, and my mental health to take care of, but theres a queue system where i can go through them later. hopefully you are very patient! my ko fi here i try to make it afforable for everyone!

SIDE BLOGS:

@devils-paradigm - oc blog (very active)

@askthehs-slugcats - askblog for my hs!slugcats AU (hiatus)

@officialwokenvoid - official blog for my webcomic, Woken Void on mspfa.com you should read it :) (hiatus)

@rw-complexion - WIP blog for a WIP webcomic im doing that features The Tumult and The Myrmidon. and other iterators (hiatus)

Woken Void on mspfa.com (link)

#main tags: #my art #post #reblog #hs!slugcats #rain world #homestuck #<3 #friends reblog #art for my bf #fanart #ask #wip #woken void

[the-proship-hellhole]

Sorry, I just saw a fiasco that I have to comment on.

Slenderman : Now, I'm not too on the up and up of Slenderman lore. So I don't know if murder is something that would actually please him. But if I recall correctly, there was some form of mental illness involved in that stabbing.

(And before y'all jump on me for pointing that out : I am not saying blame the mental illness. I am merely pointing out that mental illness was a factor in the stabbing.)

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The "Invader Zim" killing : Yeah? And? People draw inspiration from fiction all the godsdamned time. The guy who killed...I think it was John Lennon?...was inspired by To Kill a Mockingbird and you've seen how well attempts to ban that book have turned out.

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Cuties : the reason Cuties was so reviled was because it involved ACTUAL, REAL LIVE CHILDREN (child actors) BEING FORCED TO PERFORM SEXUAL ACTS.

Do you understand how that is different from a fictional demon butler fucking a fictional twelve year old boy?

Cuties was LITERAL, ACTUAL, CHILD ENDANGERMENT.

If you look at the laws, the laws specifically prohibit ACTUAL CHILDREN, photos/videos of ACTUAL CHILDREN, HYPER-REALISTIC DRAWINGS/PAINTINGS of children (where you can't determine if the child is real or fictional), and things in that vein.

That's also why there was a furry diaper fetish artist who received a lot of flack for tracing photos of actual babies and making sexual child furry art.

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As for normalization of things :

Game of Thrones has not normalized incest or any form of murder.

Mortal Kombat has not normalized violence.

Lolita didn't normalize paedophilia

It's not that hard to differentiate fiction from reality and if you are having trouble with that, PLEASE, for the love of the gods, GET. HELP.

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Grooming : You keep bringing this up. I have had a few anons come here and tell their experiences with being groomed. I have also read several other stories of grooming victims.

Problematic Ship content was never involved in the grooming process.

You know what was?

Toys

Videogames

Candy

Those were the most common examples I saw.

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(Hopefully) Last point I want to make :

If you are a minor : YOU ARE NOT SAFE ON THE INTERNET.

(If you're an adult, you're still not safe on the internet.)

Fandom spaces are NOT safe spaces.

There is no such thing as a safe space on the internet.

Always assume that everything you put on the internet CAN AND WILL be used against you.

And if you are a minor and you are deliberately accessing adult only spaces? That's on you.

Tumblr, last I checked, was a 17+ site. YOU ARE NOT GUARANTEED THAT YOU WILL BE SAFE FROM NSFW CONTENT HERE. Even with the ban.

And to further harp on this : fandom was created by adults, for adults. MINORS are the guests in fandom spaces. Majority of us do try to keep our adult content away from minors because we realize exposing minors to that is wrong. (Exposing ourselves to it is an entirely different story. We're a lot better equipped to process what we're being exposed to.) But if you are in an adult space, you need to accept the fact that you may see or hear things you are not comfortable with. That is a risk you take.

Majority of us do our part - tagging, content/trigger warnings, read mores, etc.

It is up to YOU to curate your internet experience. Block and filter tags that trigger you. Block blogs that post that content. If there's a specific tag you block, NICELY ask the blog owner if they'd be willing to tag for you. (You don't even need to give us a reason why. Just say "Hey, you posted [this content]. Could you please tag it with [tag] so I can block it?". I'd be willing to bet 99% of us would be "Sure! Thanks for letting me know. I'll get that updated.")

If you can't handle that, get off the internet.

We are not your parents.

~ Mod Niecest

#mod niecest #proship rant

[fl4ky-sc3nek1d]

hello I'm just an 14 yr old tyrogue artist what have autism who likes to draw

so call me alarm/sniffles/cassandra/alucard/flaky

I'm agender girl

i go by she/him/nis/ve

my sexuality is omnisexual and aromatic

yes I'm simp of alucard bc he is beautiful,cool,awesome (I want marry him) (but I'm kinda simp of other goths)

I am member of goth punks 3.0 I'm alucard from group

goth punks 3.0

@soulvee-animationz is red apple cassandra

@cassandra-kinnie is canon cassandra

@artistic-fxde is cyclops

@softie_flaky15 is really me

@sansanthegooberman is hanzou

@p1co-s1mp is pico

@moon-in-a-box is nene

@ace-alien-with-anxiety is spike

@picos-school-art-n-quotes is idk

I'm from to Brazil

I can be introvert and extrovert at same time

my birthday is April 29th

my sonas are

alex (main sona) she/he/azurill

aille they/them/softie/cat/catself

DNI:

if you are homophobic,transphobic or LGBTQ+phobic

you are pedophile,zoophile,necrophile or you are supporter of this things

if you are opinion basher

if you are toxic shipper or proshipper

if you are anti-furry,anti-brony,anti-gacha etc.

if you are nazi or fascist

BYF:

I am picandra shipper so if you hate this ship and don't wanna see my picandra arts I recommend you block me

don't draw nsfw of my ocs or my AU characters because I don't feel comfortable it

WARNING:

this account contains inappropriate things like gore,blood,bright colors,body horror and etc if this triggers you please leave it

do don't steal my art but you can put my art on videos like comp vids,tributes... and give credit please

do don't trace my art

my artstyle is inspired on @berrysniffles

credit of all pfp what I use

my social medias

tumblr:you are here

youtube: 《°ALUC4RD°》

deviantart: mysteryespeon57

toyhou.se: alarm_hanzou

reddit: call_me_cassandra

wattpad:softie_alucard95

discord:soon

Newgrounds:soon

my tags

edit:I have something to say

if tumblr doesn't recommend my most of my posts and think I'm inactive BUT I'M DON'T INACTIVE HERE!!!! sorry but it's triggers me if someone thinks I'm inactive if tumblr don't recommend my post I know this is an silly thing to get triggered but I want to people know what I'm not inactive

edit 2:if tumblr don't recommend my posts I recommend to you she my tumblr page

algorithms can be harmful (mainly youtube because they hate small creators)

#main post

[bdoubleowo]

Sleep King Bdoubleo100

#have i watched any recent last life videos? no <3 will that stop me from making fanart? absolutely not #i consume last life in the exact same way i consume d/smp except i don't even have a techno to watch #i literally had to open bdubs most recent video to get a good screenshot for their house. i traced it. don't @ me. #i'm just here to draw block people and if i trace from a video so be it you know i'm tracing minecraft #was gonna say 'it's obvious i'm tracing' but no it isn't actually my zine piece had a very similar look but was done manually with grids #that one was not traced #og post #my art #last life smp #last life #bdoubleo100 #bdubs #ethoslab #etho slab #ethubs #platonic? or ship. you decide. idk i just had the thought n had to draw it #again i haven't even wATCHED THEIR POV #what i do know is etho is fighting tooth and nail to not be divorced #mcyt

[genderhoax]

I used to want to be an artist but then i stopped drawing for like 7 years. I want to go back but i'm scared and dont know where to start. So yes, i am interested in those drawing videos can you post them if you dont mind? ^_^

Of course!! I am in the same situation as you actually. I used to draw a lot in middle school (2010-2012) but my depression worsened during high school and in college, I’d only draw as a distraction, never seeking to study or improve. I decided to get back this year, since I decided drawing was the only thing I could see myself doing professionally. I felt very lost, because how do you get back? How do you know what’s your actual, current, art skill? What are your weaknesses? Your strong points?

That’s how I learned to study the fundmentals of art. Because visual art is not a skill. It is a set of skills, if you are very good at anatomy but not really when coming to painting your art is going to look differently than someone who learned anatomy in how to draw manga books but paint like a pro. I am going to divide this post in categories, Also, all the videos I link I also recommend all the channels they are from! My favorites are The Drawing Database, Sycra and Ganev, Sycra and The Drawing Databse have a little of everything and are great at explaining. Ganev is a bit sarcastic but I like the way he teaches. I took some parts of the text of this post from here.

How do I begin? How do you even get back at art? What tips should you use? These are general tips videos, usually nice to draw along. /the fundmentals and how to get started/ /5 tips for better drawing/ /perfect pratice/  /beginner’s guide/ /5 tips for digital art/ /10 tips to improve/ /why your drawings are stiff/ /what level is your art/ /improve your art fast/ /drawing basics/ /how to hold and control your pencil/ /intuitive drawing method/ /iterative drawing/

The Fundamentals: Proportion & Placement Proportion is relationship between one element and another. In the visual arts proportion relates most importantly to the abstract quality of scale and placement. You know how stereotypically an artists puts a pencil to their eye when looking at an object? They’re mesuring the proportion of the object in question and how to represent it corectly in the drawing. /principles of proportion/ /ways to create illusion of space/ /drawing the human figure/ /how to draw proportions playlist/ /how to use proportion in character design/ /basic anatomy and proportions part one/ /part two/ /part three/ /part four/ /proportion basics/

Form & Construction The idea of form is how we see the 3D objects in or world and transform them into 2D in the paper/canvas. It’s understading that eveyrthing is made up of basic forms. /dynamic sketching part one/ /part two/ /how to draw forms/ /structure/ /building form/ /another how to draw forms/ /how to visualize 3D forms/ /form study process/

Perspective & Depth Perspective is knowing that as things move away from the viewer’s eye, things seem to get smaller. Get familiarized with terms like horizon line and vanishing point. This is the basic that must be understood to learn perspective. Here’s a good article about this. /an intro video on the subject/ /step by step tutorial/ /perspective basics part one/ /part two/ /part three/ /part four/ part five /part six/  /another basics video/ /20 perspective lessons/ /eye level tip/  /linear perspective/  /simple form perspective/ /drawing the figure in perspective/

Anatomy Anatomy is something I think it’s one the most crucials things to learn in order to make your drawing look good. Once you understand how joints work you’ll be able to see how bones and muscles move. And this goes for anything with a skeleton. It’s one of those things of you learn the rules before breaking them. I am linking different playlists, since linking different videos on various parts of anatomy would take forever. Just study a body part at time: head, eyes, nose, lips, ears, shoulders, neck, hairline, breats, torso, hands, feet etc. /how to do an anatomy tracing/  /playlist 1 /  /draw the head from any angle/  /anatomy for artists/ /draw facial features/ /how to draw and paint/ /playlist 2/ /draw 3/4 head with loomis method/ /playlist 3/ /drawing a head in 3 hours (this one is great to draw along with the artist)/ /how to draw a body/ draw a head with loomis method part 1/  /part 2/ /part 3/ /decipgering bridgman’s anatomy/ /anatomy quick tips/

Gesture Gesture drawing is a method of capturing figures in exaggerated poses, usually drawn quickly. It is important to undersand that the goal of all gesture is to study the figure and see how it moves. I like looking at poses and copying them. Here’s a good article. /how to draw gesture/  /how to draw any pose/ /draw interesting poses/ /a guide on gesture drawing/  /tips for expressive dynamic poses/  /figure drawing tips/

Composition The overall layout of a piece is very important. Artists often consider things like the rule of thirds or the infamous golden ratio. Neither truly defines a composition, but they can both go into your decision making. /composition in art/  /understanding composition/ /10 composition tips/ /beginner’s guide to composition/ /art fundamental: composition/

Value Studying value is very much the study of light and shadow. But there is a technical side of light that you’ll want to pay attention to if you’re going for technical rendering. /guide on rendering/  /seeing light and shadows in daily life/  /10 minutes to a better painting/ /understaing colors and values/ /shading basics/ /ambient occlusion/ /shadow colors/ /tips on how to shade/ /draw shadows on objects and people/ /lighting tutorial/

Color Theory Color theory is understanding which colors go good with eachother, and knowing the pyschology behind it. (what are cool colors? what colors make someone feel comfortable?) It is fundamental in art for you to understand the relationship between colors and what makes them look good. Best color theory books. A comprehensive guide to color theory. /hue value saturation in photoshop/ /color theory for noobs/ /understanding color/ /what you should know about colors/  /warm and cool colors/  /the basic elements/ /choose colors that work/

Traditional Media If you draw in traditional media, all videos above can be used easily. These are just videos for general tips in traditional media, there isn’t many since my focus is digtal ^^’ /watercolor tips/ /draw with colored pencils/ /blending colored pencils/ /4 how to draw lessons/ /Block in colors/ /holding the brush/ /

Digital Media Digital art is how everyone’s been doing art these days. It doesn’t matter if you’re doing with your phone or your computer. I don’t do art on my phone, I know the most used app is mediabang for android and procreate for apple, and I think anyone who is able to do art with their finger is very skilled. If you are like me and prefer doing art on your computer, you probably have your tablet. If not, well you should have. Not having a tablet is not an option if you want to get better at art ^^’ Best tablet for beginners in 2020. Or you can just buy an old used one, if it still works, and you are a beginner, a small intuos is all you need. When talking about softwares, the three big ones I see people using are: Photoshop, Clip Paint Studio and Paint Tool Sai. The best one is CPS, but I find Sai easier to navigate, but CPS is extremely complete and I hope to be able to master it someday. CPS Tutorials. I don’t have much to say about photoshop, people use it mostly because they’ve been using it forever lol I divide my digital painting process in steps: Sketch/Lineart/Color Blocking/Shading/Blending/Color correction. Sketch is the basics, draw your idea. Lineart is to clean your sketch. Color Blocking is to color your drawing one color, so it’s easier to work in it. Shading is to understand where the lighting sources are coming from and apply them. Blending is to blend the colors of your drawing with brushes. Color correction is when I use filters of hue/saturation and others to make the drawing more appealing. These require understadings of the software of your choice which I am not very good at the moment so I can’t give you more tips than that ^^’ Hopefully these videos can help. /perspective grid/ /clean line art/  /coloring process/ /make lineart interesting/ /best brushes for digital painting/ /skin shading tutorial/  /lineart vs painting/ /art in clip studio paint/ /hair tutorial/ /3 tips for improving/ /10 digital art mistakes/ /color block tutorial/ /shading skin/ /from lineart to painting/ /cleaner lineart/ /add texture to your art/ /improve your art with better shadows/ /the importance of brushes/ /use layer modes/ /improve your lines/ /how to blend colors/ /another blending tutorial/  /color blocking/

Exercises It’s no secret that to improve on art, you must pratice. Everyday, even if it’s just a little! A great way to pratice is make use of youtube picture in picture function to draw along in your software of choice. /pratice drawing forms/ /proportion exercises/ /perspective exercises/ /value studies/ /creative drawing exercises/  /simple drawing esercises/

Resources Senshi stocks, a deviantart page full of poses photos. Quick poses,  pictures of models, contains nudes. Character design references DesignDoll, create a personalized sketch doll and make it pose.

Phew!!! This took forever to make and is way more than you asked for, but I decided to go all in so I can have a masterpost for me too and for anyone else interested in art. As soon you can understand the fundamentals, you can do your own research and study, youtube is really great for this. I hope this helps, let’s get better at drawing together!!! Ganbarimashou (ง •̀_•́)ง

#anon #askbox #I feel there's a lot more to add but I'm tired I've been working on this sicne yesterday ^^' #Like there's more softwares and resources I could link you I know of that #So when I think of something else I may add to this psot #post #if you feel overwhelmed because this is a lot of info you can start with the beginner section of this psot #and sycra's channel

[emma-nation]

Ticker Than Water - Bloodbound AU (Chapter 4)

Summary: When Amy changes the course of the events at the Opera House, she could never imagine the consequences she would have to face. After being by Rheya’s side for five years, she’s finally ready to be reunited with her friends and find a manner to defeat her. But when the time comes, what will prevail? Her love for Kamilah Sayeed and her friends or her family ties with the First Vampire?

Genre: Angst, Drama, Romance

Tag List: @slytherinthoughts7, @lightning-fury, @spacecarrousel, @gavryllo​, @kamilah-the-bloodqueen, @whoinvitedalx, @sheyah, @imnotdonewiththeelementalists, @belvoiresqueenbee, @morvengarde​, @tephy24​, @iam-the-fuckin-queen, @scorpichoices, @leavemeandmyshipsalone, @jen825, @andreear17, @justejuste727, @evexofxtime, @zoe6111, @shanuuh, @ilovekamilahsayeed, @kenna-and-val-are-my-queens, @fal-carrington, @spookyjellyfishlove, @samgtt700​, @just-thinking-loudly, @martachm, @masterofbluff, @rice-wifee, @lifeisadance96, @serafinedupontownsme, @hellyeah90sbaby

4 years ago - Japan

The first signs of Winter started showing on the city outside. Kamilah wondered what she'd be doing if she was still living in New York. Working, perhaps. And also planning the next Dark Solstice.

The necklace. She didn't have time to retrieve it from the secret drawer in her office when they ran away. It would be her only memory from something that didn't exist anymore - her relationship with Amy.

"I did it," the penthouse door opened in a slam, making Lily completely lose focus on her video game or Jax stop sharpening his katana. Adrian seemed to be in ecstasy. "I... I managed to grow a seedling from the sample we obtained from the Tree Of Death. This could stop Rheya for good."

"How great," Jax replied with some sarcasm. The last few months turned him into a version of his late master, Takeshi. "And what about the others? Also, how long is it going to take?"

The others. Kamilah's stomach flipped. Amy was one of them, along with Rheya's husband and daughter. And she was so strong as the First Vampire herself.

"It's a start, Jax," Lily added. "It'll be easier to take her down once she becomes a Feral."

"Fine, but I'd like to do the honors."

"Kamilah?" Adrian approached, touching her shoulder briefly. "Did you hear what I said?"

"Yes," Kamilah told. She was too invested in her own thoughts, reflecting about the part where she'd have to face Amy again. What if they had to kill her? Would she be able to do that? "We will wait. When the time comes, we'll fight again."

Lily suggested a celebration, Jax agreed and so did Adrian. Since their arrival, they barely left that penthouse. Except for the occasions where they attended Kano's training sessions. The psychic vampire taught them how to guard their minds from Rheya. And also Amy.

"You can go. I'll stay here."

"Come on, Kamilah," Lily started dragging her to the door. "You never say no to booze."

"I'm saying this time."

"Lily is right," Adrian said. "You are coming with us. It'll be a good distraction."

"Yeah," Jax agreed. "We must stick together. Remember?"

This manner, the three younger vampires managed to make Kamilah to go out for the first time in months. Still a little insecure about their safety, they decided to visit The Five's nightclub. In the end, it was not terrible. Jax and Akeyo engaged in a singing competition, while Lily attempted to copy The Evolved's robotic dance moves. The female vampire let out a small laugh.

"Finally," Aiko slowly approached her. "Acceptance is the last stage of grief."

"I guess so," Kamilah replied in a dry tone.

"She's not coming back. She made a choice."

"I know."

The reminder of that fact hit Kamilah's heart like applying salt in an open wound. One year had passed. Amy was still doing atrocities together with Rheya. She showed no signs of regret or mercy. Not even a trace of the old Amy still existed in her eyes. The powers had changed her completely.

"I need another shot," she ordered to the bartender. Then she looked at Aiko, who observed her with the same old and seductive smirk. "Two shots actually."

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A blow from one of the mythological creatures that surrounded Amy in the mindscape forest threw her hard against a tree. Though the fight was happening inside her mind, the pain felt extremely real, as if her skull had been fractured.

"Ouch..." she moaned in pain. "Can't... back... down..."

A fire blast started to form in the center of her palm. If she could maintain the focus, it should be enough to stop the creature that was about to strike again.

"Ha!" Amy released the fire ball, that disappeared mid-air. "Fuck!" She screamed, punching the floor repeatedly. Noticing her frustration, Kano pulled her back to reality.

"There's something wrong," he spoke in all his wisdom of a 500 years old man, in a 5 years old body.

"Not even when I'm mad - and trust me, I'm really mad - I can make this work."

"You won't be able to do this moved only by anger. You need focus and discipline."

"Kano," Amy squeezed the water bottle she held, "we've been training for hours. I can't conjure one decent blast. I'm focused, I'm doing all the meditation exercises you taught me... I just can't. Maybe she drained my powers while I slept."

"It's not that," Kano handed her another water bottle, that she drank all in one sip. "There's something blocking you from reaching your potential."

"What could it be?"

He forced her to face all the nastiest skeletons in her closet for a second time that day. Starting by the childhood trauma caused by her mother's behavior. Though Amy knew the reason behind her rage outbursts, the marks would always be there.

The child version of herself was drawing in the kitchen when her mother entered, completely disturbed.

"Mommy!" She called. "Look what I've made for you."

"Nice," the woman barely looked. She was too busy inspecting the cabinets for her painkillers. "Where are them?"

She swallowed a couple of pills and little Amy's heart filled with hope that her mother would finally be able to give her some attention and love.

"Can we play teacups now? I missed you. You spend the whole day in the bedroom."

"Can't you see it, Amy?" The woman yelled at the child. "I am sick! Why can you just respect me? Why can you just be quiet, huh?!"

As she slammed the bedroom door, the little sat down on the floor breaking into tears.

"What did I do wrong?" She asked herself.

"Nothing," adult Amy sighed at the scene. "You did nothing wrong."

Then they moved to the Opera House. What else could be there to be seen? Amy did both of her crucial decisions - the one where she decided to tempt the fate and avoid the death of one of her friends, becoming a monster in consequence. And the one where she took the dagger. That was the most painful to watch. She had already seen Lily dying in her arms, as Kamilah plunged a stake in her heart to prevent her from becoming a Feral. She also saw Jax, sacrificing himself to die as the warrior he was, not as a disgusting rotting creature.

This time though, it was Adrian who took the fall to save her life...

"Not her! Never her!"

"Adrian!" The past version of herself screamed, kneeling down on the floor near the male vampire. "W-Why did you do this? Y-You didn't have to..."

"Amy..." he clutched the injury in his abdomen. His skin was already acquiring a grey coloration. "I had to. I was the one to bring you to this world in first place. I swore to protect you."

"But..."

"Shhhh, it's okay. I've had a long and accomplished life. I made a lot of mistakes too and somehow I think this how I must pay for them. I... I'm ready to be reunited with Eleanor and Charles."

She glanced at the rest of the group. Lily was sobbing uncontrollably. Jax punched the wall in anger and denial. Kamilah was also kneeled by Adrian's side. She was trying hard to prevent the tears from falling.

"And Amy?" Adrian said, before handing her a stake. "Take care of Kamilah. She needs you."

"No!" Both versions of herself screamed at the same time, as Adrian forced her hand to stake his heart. She collapsed to the floor before they moved to the next memory.

She and Rheya were terrorizing some citizens in New York City. Those who still refused to bend to their orders and obey their every command.

"I condemn you to be my prisoners," Rheya smiled deviously, staring at the small group of people restrained inside a TV station. They secretly planned to leak information about the Apostolous family to other states, including their ability of controlling and manipulating minds. "You can be my servants after all. You could entertain me, feed me... or even fight for me."

Amy emerged from a door in the back. Her hair was a mess and she had bags under her eyes. She was in a terrible mood, what lead her to slowly approach and start to snap the neck of each one of the victims. One by one.

"Foolish creature! What the hell do you think you're doing?" Rheya asked, visibly annoyed. "I wasn't going to kill them yet, they could be useful to my purposes."

"Getting things done faster," Amy told. "I'm starving, I'm tired. I can't wait to get home and feed."

"Of course, you spent the whole night out with Serafine, going to clubs and using your psychic powers for recreational purposes. I told you I needed you in shape this morning. You disappoint me."

"I'm sorry, Rheya. You were going to kill them anyways. They're all useless insects, isn't it what you always say?"

"You're right," the First Vampire approached and touched her chest using her indicator finger. "But I give the orders here. We may have the same blood, the same powers powers but I'm in charge. Do you understand?"

Amy was back to the same mindscape as earlier, surrounded by creatures in a forest. She felt angry at herself, yet she accepted it. She embraced the fact she was weak to resist the darkness inside her. It was part of who she had became. And now she wanted to change and make things right.

"I can do this," she closed her eyes, focusing on conjuring a psychic wave strong enough to push the horde of monsters away from her. When she opened them, ready to hit them... nothing happened.

"What?!" She yelled, back at Kano's office. "This time I did it. I faced the Opera memory and how things should have went. I embraced the fact I did horrible things too."

"There must be something else. Something you're refusing to face and let go."

Amy had no idea what it could be. At Kano's suggestion, they ended the training session for the day and she went back to the hotel to rest and reflect on what could be blocking her powers. After a long bath, she stared at the bed. The same bed she and Kamilah shared an intimate moment in the previous night, before she told her about her engagement with Aiko.

She finally turned on her phone. Iola had been trying to reach her all day.

"You need to return home, immediately. She has lost her mind."

"What is it this time?" Amy asked, getting dressed to meet Lily at the penthouse she lived with the rest of the group.

"She wants to-"

"Amy?!" Rheya seemed to have taken the phone from her daughter's hands. "I wanted to speak to you, darling. Are you finished with The Five yet? I need you to come home."

"Why?"

"I've signed a contract with a TV channel. Next week they'll begin to film our own reality show: 'The Apostolous'. Isn't it wonderful?"

No. It wasn't. Together with her insane ancestor and her family, Amy would be locked in the mansion with Priya, Serafine and Dracula, while every detail their daily routine was registered by the cameras and shown on television to the whole world.

"Rheya..." Amy sighed, thinking of some excuse. "Why don't you wait a few more days? I mean, a party with your new allies would be a great start for the reality show. Wouldn't it?"

"You're right," the First Vampire answered after a pause. "I don't know when you've gotten so smart, but you're having some good ideas lately. Anyways, I must start planning our party then. Talk to you later, darling."

Only a lot of alcohol could make Amy relax with all the latest news. When she arrived, Lily was still the only one in the penthouse. Jax, Adrian and Kamilah were doing some personal businesses.

"Why didn't you tell me earlier?" Amy asked, taking a sip directly from the bottle of sake before aiming her next shot at the pool game.

"I was going to," Lily told, observing as she sank three balls in a row. "I couldn't imagine Kamilah would go straight to your bed in the very first night."

As Lily finished her own turn, Amy noticed she was about to win the game. However, she would never be able to make the right move with that one question bothering her mind.

"Does she love her? Aiko?"

"Do you want the honest truth? No, she doesn't. She only got in that sudden relationship with her to forget you. And if you ask me, I bet Aiko is forcing her to get married."

A hint of a smile appeared on the corners of Amy's mouth. She still had a chance. With the right shot, she could win Kamilah's heart back.

"I win," she grinned as she cued the last ball into the pocket.

"Best of three?" Lily asked, after taking a sip of the sake. "So, now tell me about Rheya going all Kardashian."

Amy rolled her eyes in annoyance. She was about to start talking about Rheya's reality show when the penthouse's door opened, making her heart speed up inside her chest.

"Oh," for her disappointment, it wasn't Kamilah. "Hey, Jax."

"Hello, Lily and..." he glared in her direction, clearly uncomfortable with her presence. "You."

"Jax, come here," Lily called, assuming some alcohol and games would be able to seal the peace between them. "Amy was about to tell me about Rheya's latest bullshit."

"Later, Lil. I gotta... I gotta take a shower. I was training with Akeyo all day."

As soon as he left to the bedroom, Amy sighed:

"He'll never forgive me."

Kamilah arrived right after she finished her sentence. She didn't say a word, she walked directly to the bar, serving herself some expensive whiskey.

"We're not allowed to bring visitors," she scolded Lily. "After five years you should know that."

"I asked Adrian first," Amy told in her defense. "He said I could..."

"Oh, Amy. Congratulations on your new show. It's all over the internet. You must be loving the attention, aren't you?"

"Thank you. By the way, for someone who doesn't care care you're way too updated about my life."

There was a heavy tension between them. Years of unresolved feelings and unsaid words were affecting the whole environment surrounding them, like an earthquake.

"I-I..." Noticing that, Lily started walking away too. "You two must have a lot to talk about. I'll be in my bedroom."

Amy still tried to prevent Lily from leaving, but it was useless. She was alone and under Kamilah's hard cold gaze.

"You shouldn't be here," the female vampire said once again.

"Why?" Amy decided to confront her. "My presence is bothering you?"

"Not really, but it put us at risk. She could come here any second searching for her spawn."

"She won't. Besides, I can fight her."

"Oh really? How's the training going by the way?"

"Good," Amy lied. "I'm... I'm finding myself. Finding a balance between my powers and the darkness they can bring."

As if she still could read her, Kamilah raised an eyebrow and opened a small sadistic smile. Was it so obvious she was failing miserably? Did Kano tell the others how poorly the training session had gone? She swallowed dry.

"About yesterday..." Amy opened her mouth to speak, changing the subject. She had to know how Kamilah felt about the other night.

"Nothing happened yesterday," Kamilah nodded.

Before she could speak again, Adrian emerged from the elevator.

"Amy, good to see you here," he wanted to show her something in a secret Raines Corporation HQ he had built. "Come with me."

She gave Kamilah one last look. It wasn't over. She wasn't going to give up and pretend nothing happened between them. She wasn't going to act like the feelings weren't still there, alive and strong as ever.

"What?" Adrian asked with a smile during their way to the building.

"Nothing," Amy smiled back. She had never been so happy to see him. That vision had struck her really hard. "I'm just glad you still trust me."

The building was highly secured. Adrian guided her to the laboratory in the basement. Some scientists were still working late night, on many different projects.

"Only a few people know about our secret weapon," Adrian told while he typed a password on a keypad, opening a heavy metal door. "Only us and The Five. After all, anyone else could have their minds accessed by Rheya."

After walking through a long corridor, they stopped in front of a glass. Behind it, Amy spotted a small growing tree.

"Is it..."

"The Tree Of Death. I managed to obtain a sample and grow a seedling from it. It's still small and young, its sap is not so poisonous. It won't cause much harm yet."

After Demetrius was brought back to life, the Tree Of Death and the island ceased to exist. With that, there was nothing that could stop Rheya. Until now.

"Adrian..." Amy remembered testing her powers, or when Rheya used to grow different plants and flowers in the backyard, according to the occasions. "I can make it grow faster with my powers."

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