#i'm not mad about the fact that my parents and I are the exact opposite matches for each other bc I've gotten over that

[margotw10bis]

Crashing On Crush. JJK 3 [m]

crush!Jungkook x reader

Genre: smut; series; romance; angst

Words: 4.4k

Synopsis: What happens when your first encounter with your crush is Jungkook seeing your ass?

Warnings: sexual tension; alcohol consumption; make out in public; oral sex (f. receiving); handjob

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God must have heard your silenced prayers because a cup of coffee is floating in front of your face. You look up and meet Namjoon's soft brown eyes. You take the life-saving beverage and appreciate the delicious taste.

"Oh God, you don't know how much I needed it! Thank you Namjoon"

"No offense but you did look like you needed it" he jokes

You sigh, knowing that he's probably right. It's been eight days since you and Jungkook kissed. Eight fucking days and you haven't heard from him. No text, no call. Nothing. If work - which is so interesting and gratifying - keeps your mind busy at day, alone in your apartment at night you have no distraction. You just think over and over again, replaying the night in your head to spot what you've missed and could explain why he hasn't contacted you. So, yeah, you haven't slept very well the past week.

"Uhm, Y/N" Namjoon seems embarrassed, he clears his throat to pull himself together. "I was thinking, uhm, if you are free tonight, we could have dinner"

His red cheeks are so cute, your heart melts. Namjoon has been nothing but kind and sweet towards you. And it's not the first time you think 'I wish he were my crush, so I wouldn't be stressed about radio-silence Jungkook'. But you know damn well that your mind and your heart are full of a man with lip piercing and tattooed arm... However, you can't wait forever for Jungkook to pay attention to you - or can you?

This dinner will be a great opportunity to think about something else and to get to know Namjoon better.

"Sure!"

The blond man sighs in relief, his heart pounding in his chest.

"Great, uhm, let's meet after your shift at the entrance door"

You nod and watch him leave, not without almost hitting a large plant pot which makes you laugh. Cute.

At seven pm, you exit the gallery to wait for Namjoon in front of the building. However, you certainly didn't think you would meet this person. You halt your movement by astonishment. Jungkook is here. Right in front of you. And you have mixed feelings about that. Obviously, you are very happy to see him because, in fact, you missed him. But you are also angry with him for being quiet during a whole week... You have no idea what he is doing here. Well, you know he is probably here to talk to you but to say what? That he doesn't want to see you again? That he wants to kiss you again? So you stay silent, waiting for him to speak. And he does:

"Hi, Y/N"

"Hi"

You wait but he doesn't say anything.

"What are you doing here?" You ask after few seconds of unbearable stillness that is the exact opposite of your harsh heartbeats.

"I wanted to invite you to dinner"

What the fuck? You can't help a disdained laugh. You have been waiting eight fucking days and he just shows up at your work like nothing happened! You are so mad right now but why does you heart soften at the thought he wants to spend some time with you?

"I already have something set up for tonight" Your voice is harsher than you want and you kind of feel bad when you see the disappointment in Jungkook's eyes.

He bits his bottom lip and this simple act reminds you of how good his lips feels... You shake your head to not think about it.

"I wanted to call you but I didn't have time" Jungkook says lowly

"Yeah, sure" You reply, annoyed

"Actually, I spent the week at my parents for my grandpa's funeral" His voice is not filled with reproach but with a will of explanation.

You gaps and immediately feel horrible to have treated him so coldly. Your eyes soften and you put a hand on his shoulder to confort him.

"Oh my god, I'm so sorry Jungkook, I didn't know. Are you okay?"

"He has been sick for a while so we were prepared, but it was hard for my mum. I'm sorry, I should have at least sent you a text"

You can see in his doe eyes and hear in his voice the guilt. You shake your head.

"No, you don't have to apologize, I totally understand. You needed to focus on your family. Please don't feel bad"

You want to hug him so bad when you see the sadness on his face. You don't really know what to say or what to do to erase his pain but when Jungkook looks into your eyes, he knows how you wish to console him and his heavy heart feels lighter. So many words are running through his mind, so many things he would like to say to you. Like the fact that he has been thinking about you the past few days, that he has wished you were there with him to hug him, that he has been fucking missing you each fucking minute.

You open your mouth to say something but you are cut off by Namjoon joining you.

"Are you ready to go?" He asks you cheerfully

You are aware of the sudden tension between the two men. Jungkook's jaw clenches and his eyes narrow. 'Him again', he thinks. He wonders if the guy is now your boyfriend, if he has kissed you while he was gone, which makes him regret even more to not have contacted you. Now he is pissed off because at first, he thought that you having plans was a lie to not see him but it's way worse that you actually have plans. With another man. A man you have seen all week.

"I-Namjoon and I are going to eat" you start, embarrassed, blushing hard before turning towards your colleague "if it's okay with you, Jungkook could join us?" You try

Well, that was not what Namjoon had in mind. But what could he say now? No? He cannot refuse so he swallows the sword in his throat and he answers a not-so-conceiving 'sure'. And the three of you head to the Korean barbecue restaurant.

———

Saying that there is tension in the air is an understatement. The meat grilling is quite the only sound coming from your table. Seeing the two men side by side, you realize they couldn't be more different. Namjoon, wearing a white shirt and light grey slacks, is a very sweet boy, and very cute with his dimples. His glasses makes him look smarter - even though he is the smartest person you've ever met - and professional. Definitely the type every parents would love to have as son-in-law. On the other hand, Jungkook is the opposite, the perfect example of what a 'bad boy look' is. He is not a bad boy in fact because you can see the kindness in his so pretty eyes but he is surely intimidating. He always wears dark and baggy cloths. His piercing and his tattoos enhance his B boy vibes, but they also make him so fucking hot.

Jungkook and Namjoon haven't talked and you feel ill at ease, waddling on your seat. You clear your throat to save the night:

"Let's cheer"

You smile and pull up your glass in the most cheerful way possible, hoping that it will give rise to a better mood. But it doesn't. The two men click their glass but they still don't speak. You sigh in disappointment...

"So, Jungkook, right?" Finally says Namjoon "What do you do for living?"

You send a grateful gaze at your colleague.

"I'm a graphic designer" Jungkook answers politely but a little bit coldly, not sharing any more details. "What about you? What do you do exactly?"

"I'm the owner's assistant. I help him to supervise everything: the exhibitions, the contacts with the artists, the communication, the staff. I'm also in charge of training new recruits, that's why I've spent a lot of time with Y/N these days"

Jungkook grins, he knows damn well that this Namjoon guy wanted to snap at him. He sips on his beer, fantasying how satisfying it would be to kiss you again, like the last time, in front of Namjoon. He really has to behave to not put his hand on your thigh. It's even harder when you are so pretty in your pink a-line dress with small puff sleeves.

"Hey, Y/N, we could have a last drink at Danbam, what do you think?" Jungkook asks suddenly

You choke on your spit, blushing hard. Last time you were in this bar was for your make-out session with Jungkook. And the little sparkle of cockiness in his eyes proves you he meant to tease.

"I, uhm, I don't think I want to drink more than this tonight" you say cautiously

Namjoon grabs his chopsticks to gather some beef and puts it on your plate. The kind gesture makes you smile. At the same time, it makes Jungkook even more irritated. Yet, luck is on his side because a couple of minutes later, Namjoon receives a call: his boss requires him immediately. He wanted to spend time with you, get to know you because since your first day, he has found you so sweet and beautiful and smart and passionate. Since your first day, he has had a crush on you that only kept growing day by day. With a huge regret, he tells you goodbye and leaves you with Jungkook.

"So, do you go out with him a lot?"

Jungkook couldn't help but asking you. He feels so jealous, he doesn't even recognize himself. What are you doing to him?

"No, actually it was the first time"

"Good"

You turn your head to Jungkook with an abrupt movement. Your mouth is opened by surprise, questioning him silently about the meaning.

"I want to kiss you again" Jungkook says simply

His words provoke a whole ardent fire in your body. You want it too. So fucking much. You miss his lips, his hands on you. You miss feeling him on your skin - kissing him one time isn't enough. You want to do it again. You want more.

"Do it" you manage to whisper

It's enough for Jungkook to blend your lips together. The kiss is stronger, rawer than the last one. He is hungry and maybe a little angry. When the little moans he loves so much return to life, he smirks. He wants to kiss you like Namjoon nor any other men can. And he does. There is no word to describe how much you love his mouth. You wish the moment could last forever, you never want to be lips apart. But humans are not perfect and they do need to breath so you distance your face just enough to catch your breathe.

"Do you want me to take you home?" Jungkook asks

You know it's not just a ride home. It's an implicit question: do you want more? Fuck yeah.

You nod and Jungkook smiles. He looks happy and relieved. He leaves a soft kiss on your inflamed lips and grabs your hand.

———

You mostly stay silent in the car. It's not a weird or uncomfortable silence but just a calm silence, full of promise for what will happen next. You can't deny that your heart beats loudly and your hands are a little shaky. Jungkook remarks and intertwines yours fingers, saying with no words that everything is fine and you don't have to be stressed. But how can you not when you will spend the night with your crush? Your - two now - kisses proved you that you have feelings for him. Strong feelings.

After you opened your door and took off your shoes, Jungkook and you stay, once again, in silence. You are looking everywhere except at him, feeling so nervous. It has been more than one year since you last had sex, and all the times you had before were with your boyfriends. However, Jungkook is not your boyfriend, your relationship is... undetermined. You also wonder if he finds you attractive enough, and if you will be good enough in bed. All these thoughts make your hands sweaty.

But Jungkook gets closer and cups your red cheeks with his big and warm hands, making you look into his black doe eyes. They are so soft, so shiny - just like the billions of stars in the sky at night. They are so beautiful. Everything in Jungkook is beautiful.

"Hey, we don't have to do anything" he says gently "We can have sex, or not. We can do other things than having sex. Or we can just talk. Don't pressure yourself"

Your heart melts at his consideration. He is so nice, so sweet that you are falling in lo... No! No, it's too soon, you don't know much about him even after hours spent on his Instagram. It's just your arousal speaking, it messes up with your brain.

You take the time to look at Jungkook and you can't help but imagining what's underneath his black bomber jacket. You remember this one pic from Instagram of him at the beach, shirtless. His 'I know I make your panties wet' look has never been more accurate. Even right now, you are feeling horny.

He leans down and kisses you. At first, gently but the kiss is getting rougher. You instantly feel your pussy clench and moan at its emptiness. Your hands running through Jungkook's hair pull him closer and invite him to kiss you deeper if it's even possible. His own hands move all over your body: your hair, your neck, your back, your waist and your ass. He squeezes the latter and a small groan from you tells him you love it. Actually, you love every single of his touch on your body.

Your hands are struggling to take off his jacket but manage to do it. You want to feel closer, better. Without this barrier, you can appreciate his hard muscles. Gosh, it feels so good under your fingertips.

Jungkook leads you to your couch and puts you on his lap without breaking the kiss for a second. You are completely high on his touch, you can't think straight - not that you really care. Between your legs, you can feel his hard cock pressing on your covered and wet pussy. A moan of pure delight escapes your mouth and you press down to enhance the touch. You slowly begin to move your hips back and forth to release some of the urge of friction. Jungkook grabs your ass to control your move and you love it. You love how he uses your body to please himself.

But it's not enough. You need to feel his skin. You don't know if you said it or if Jungkook can read in your mind but he halts the kiss for just a couple of seconds in order to take off your dress. His intense eyes discover your matching white bra and panties, so pure, so innocent. It makes him crazy because the horniness visible on your face is far from innocent. He leans down and places his head between your boobs, kissing your skin. Your body is on fire. Your head rolls back - which makes your moans huskier - and you pull on his black hair by pleasure and he smirks.

You are so hot, so beautiful, he doesn't want any other men to touch you. He wants to mark you to make you his but he also knows that a huge hickey on your neck will not be great for your career. So he decides to put his mark somewhere only him can see. You feel his mouth sucking on the skin of your left breast, close to your heart. It hurts a little but it's a delightful hurt. Jungkook takes the time to admire his art piece - he has never created something so beautiful. The red, purplish mark is shiny because of his saliva and it looks so good on your soft skin.

"You're so fucking hot" he says with a raspy and so sexy voice

He suddenly changes position to lie you down underneath him and kisses you again. You take the hem of his black and large t-shirt to indicate you want it to disappear. One second later your wish is fulfilled. What a beautiful view. His chest is buff, his abs are well drawn, his arms are strong and his shoulders are large. Your hands brush his warm skin and you feel his muscles flexing under your touch. His body is so perfect. You'll never be bored of looking at it.

However, your eyes spontaneously shut when Jungkook's hand reaches your groin. His fingers find your clit in a second and start circle it through your panties.

"Oh my god!" You moan in his neck

It's so good. So fucking good. It's like you've never have been touched before. Your moans are louder as his fingers get faster. At this point, your panties are soaked by your juices - it could be kind of an unpleasant sensation if you could think.

"You're so wet" Jungkook teases you while he kisses your neck

You are feeling your orgasm slowly building up in you but the emptiness in your pussy is torture. You need something to fix that.

"Please"

It's the only thing you manage to say with a choked voice.

"Please what?" Jungkook smirks

He knows damn well that you can't concentrate enough to speak properly and he is filled with pride that the reason is himself. Seeing how you are going crazy under his touch is so fucking satisfying. The most important, the only mission in his life right now is to make you cum. He leaves your neck to kiss your body all the way down until he reaches your wet pussy.

"I think we should take this off" he says while trapping the fabric of your panties with his forefinger

He looks up at you to have your approval.

"Yes, please" you moan, looking away with embarrassment of Jungkook being so close to your intimacy.

What you don't know is that your shaky 'please' turned him on so fucking bad. He loves having control during sex, even being a little dominant. Fulfilling his desires without even knowing it makes him want to please you even more. So he slides your soaked panties down your legs and opens your thighs. The sight is breathtaking: your cunt is glistening with your arousal. He wants to taste you, you make him hungry. He gently rubs two fingers from your clit to your entrance before diving onto your pussy with his mouth.

He gives a single kiss on your clit at first and the feeling is so fucking good that you immediately grab his hair in a desperate need of holding on to something to not sink into this unbearable pleasure. Your fingers in his black strands give him the green light to go further. His tongue is now completely attached to your pussy. He is literally making out with it. He is so good with his mouth. Your clit is taken care of like it deserves. His tongue rolls around your bud, then takes a quick strip from your entrance to your clit and rolls again. It's a perfect pattern and it makes you go crazy. The wetness created by his saliva and your own arousal is full of sins and pleasures.

"Oh my god, Jungkook!"

You feel your orgasm coming and your fist clenches as much as your pussy. Jungkook notices it and enters your pussy with his finger. This friction in your body is exactly what you needed. He pulls in and out at a pleasant pace with his digit. Your brain is foggy, you don't even know where you are, you don't even hear your own moans. All you can feel is him.

"More, more!" Is all you can say

He adds another finger, sightly speeding up the back-and-forth's pace, his tongue still playing with your clit.

"You taste so fucking good, I could eat you all day"

His words reasoning on your pussy is too much to bare and you cum on his face and on his two fingers in you, screaming his name. The best fucking orgasm of your life. Your legs quiver when you reach your climax. But what did you expect from Jungkook? He was your best kiss, it's only natural for him to make you cum like nobody had done it before.

It takes you a few seconds to catch your breathe and to settle down back on Earth. Your cheeks, even red before, are blushing harder when you realize that you just let your crush eating you out. It takes you a lot of courage to look down to meet Jungkook's face between your legs. You see his mouth and chin glistening with your juice. The view is sinful. But he defies even more the limits of hotness allowed when he puts his fingers into his mouth to taste more of your cum. You gasp at the indecent teasing.

Jungkook goes up to your face and kisses you. You taste yourself on his mouth and you have to say that it's hot.

"Are you okay?" He asks you gently

His consideration is a dangerous weapon for your heart. Fortunately, you're still too much in the frog of pleasure to overthink it.

"Yes. It-It was really good" you whisper, blushing.

Jungkook's pride is beyond clouds when he saw how strong was your orgasm because of him. He wants to be the one that makes you cum the most, the only one that makes you cum. Because you are so pretty, so hot when you reach your high, he wants to be the only one who witnesses it. He wants to fuck you so hard that you won't ever be attracted to another man. His possessiveness is killing him. You are messing with his brain and you don't even know it. You are crushing down all his boundaries.

"I, uhm, I want to please you too" you say shyly

Jungkook is amused by your shyness when he just made you cum. But he is also touched that you care about his pleasure. He can't deny that his cock is really hard and that he would love to release the tension in his body. But he doesn't want you to feel obligated to return the favor. He didn't touch you to have something in return, he did it because he wanted to see your cute face torn in pleasure, a pleasure provided by him.

"You don't have to, Y/N" he says with a small peck on your lips

He helps you sit correctly on your couch, and the leaking between your legs make you wince. But not as much as his answer. Doesn't he want you to touch him? Does he think you won't please him? You feel a dragger in your heart, and maybe in your pride also. Jungkook frowns when he notices your expression darkens.

"It's not that I don't want to" he feels the need to tell you "Because, believe me, I want to. You make me fucking hard. But you don't have to, you don't have to feel obligated"

He cups your cheeks and you see the sincerity in his eyes. Rather than pushing you off, it makes you want to please him stronger.

"I want to" you simply say

The determination in your voice startles him a little bit because a new wave of arousal rushes through him.

"Okay" is the only thing he finds to say

You put your delicate hand on his stretched crotch, feeling him hard and big through the fabric of his pants. You can't deny that it makes you horny. Jungkook's body tenses, watching carefully your movements to detect any sign of displeasure and stop you in this case. But he only sees the way you blush and bit your bottom lip. So fucking cute, he thinks. He waits for you to express by your actions your want to get rid of his pants. He doesn't want to rush you and let you be in control of the pace, even if it's like a torture for him: he has been hard for a long time now.

When you grab the hem of this pants, he gets the message and rises his hips to slide down his piece of clothing. The bulge of his black underwear shocks you a little bit: he is fucking big. Your reaction makes him cocky, he knows he's big - a lot of women already told him that - but now he wants you to think that. He wants you to think about how his cock would fill your tight pussy. The thought of it makes his hard member twitch.

You push down the hem of his underwear to free his length. Your mouth waters at the sight of the perfect, velvety skin. He is hard, and thick. You wonder how would feel the stretch if he were in your pussy. You gently caresse his tip with your thumb and a drop of pre-cum escapes. You spread it on the tip, which makes it shiny and appetizing. You start jerking him off and a sigh of delight comes from Jungkook's mouth.

"You're doing great, babe"

The pet name makes your pussy clench and your heart beat faster. You also feel proud and more confident so you increase the speed, putting the right pressure. Jungkook's breathing gets more and more rugged, you can tell that he likes it. He grabs firmly - but not too harshly to not hurt you - your hair and pull you closer. He kisses you ruthlessly, his tongue meets yours. You moan at his sudden ardent desire. And this is what he wanted: hearing your sweet whimpers while you jerking him off. Your hand on his cock and your mouth on his lips are a dangerous combination for his sanity.

"You're perfect, so fucking perfect" he says against your pretty mouth "Keep going, you gonna make me cum, babe"

Babe.

Once again, it fills you with indescribable sensations - physical sensations and other sensations that you push away to not overthink. You keep sliding up and down your hand on Jungkook's fat cock, your arm is beginning to hurt but you don't stop. Making him feel good is so fucking satisfying. You being the reason of the orgasm of such an attractive, hot, handsome man messes up your bain - and your wet pussy.

"I'm cumming" Jungkook says in a gasp

After a few more strokes, you feel a hot and thick liquid on your hand. Jungkook relaxes his grip in your hair and kisses your temple, with a shortness of breath. Then, he rests his forehead against yours for a moment, to recover a regular breathing.

"It was perfect" he says with a soft smile. 

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[theghostbunnie]

Just to preference alot of this is my interpretations/HCs/OC and very little of it is cannonical character analysis:

So her name is Penelope Esther Goldman but she just goes by her middle name Esther, as a funny little nod to know SK and Neil are both named Neil, she shares a name with Mrs Priss and I think I had them go to the same collage or something, might have to do the math on their ages again to see if that lines up

(I HC Carl's last name is Pasternak and Neil's is both, hyphenated.)

She's a incredibly intelligent scientist with extensive knowledge in biology, robotics, chemistry, ect ect. Esther doesn't really emote or exspress her emotions in her voice or face much at all, or well.

Carl when they first met was smitten, he was a groovy goofy goober and still is. He'd do that walrus thing with breadsticks in public at restaurants. He'd skate around with a fanny pack dancing to bee gees. Convince her to go to parties and she'd just be pleasantly content to stand there as he's like "that's fine I can dance enough for the both of us/pos" She had to pass a first aid course and he guided her arms and taught her you can keep the proper rhythm by singing Stayin Alive. He was just really persistent and really sweet and he grew on her okay 😭

Esther didn't really have a respect for philosophy because she didn't really grasp it's value or importance. As she grew to respect him more that sortaa changed.

They eventually got married and really kick-started both of their careers along the way.

(cw miscarriage implications for this next part) Neil's a rainbow baby that happened after several pregnancy losses. It may have been one of the things to strain their marriage but what really ended up doing it in was just the simple fact of life people change and grow apart and can fall out of love so now they can't really interact with each other for long. Their differences and flaws now clash and they butt heads instead of being complimentary.

I'm a firm believer the episode where each camper takes care of an egg they were reflecting their own parents. Carl is embarrassing but he's almost the exact opposite of a smotherer that Neil was showcased to be. His overall parenting style is like he's way more concerned about being Neil's friend than anything.

Esther is the one he's mirroring, here. She treats him like he's fragile almost. She gives him specific everything, down to his bedsheet thread count, knows how to cater to his living needs inside and out. Esther struggles to connect with anyone emotionally, though so her affection in the verbal department isn't as maintained. This never really bothers Neil, it doesn't register as "smothering" to him how much she shelters or caters to him. Because this isn't a kid interested in joining sports he could get hurt in and likes everything in a specific way anyways.

She's more aware socially than Carl is and knows how to not embarrass him in general.

Esther is Neil's biggest role model he wants to be just like her and is mad when he isn't, when he fails to be. He's upset even physically the only thing they share are the eyes. ((Regularly you can't even see Esther's I couldn't help myself in the art above from making them visible/forgot on the cc one but it's supposed to be a bit on "eyes are a window to the soul" thing and she's just that closed off and unreadable. Really only has a soft spot for Neil))

His mother is incredibly intelligent, and just seems so collected to him all the time.. and importantly not over emotional like he can be (his temper specifically.) and ESPECIALLY how emotional his dad can be.

I just love!! Character parallels!!!! How Carl is this emotional goofy person who joked around and danced and played music everywhere and Esther got regarded as "cold" and stiff and Neil is just both of them bc he's so smart but he's also silly. Like he plays video games and gets passionate over little things and allthat and it embarrasses him secretly sometimes, he wishes he could chill out and be like his mother. But the parts of him that reflect his father have always been the parts Esther always loved the most and found endearing. He doesn't know that though.

Neil to an extent even secretly believes if he didn't have his big brain and academic achievements him and his mother wouldn't have this close relationship because this is their shared quality. This is what makes her proud. He's so scared to lose that or disappoint her.

At the same time it doesn't stop him from pinning his parents against each other a bit from time to time. As he knows Esther's go-to move is to spoil him to win.

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[gamerbearmira]

Hey, I had this crazy idea for post-canon Mama Isa and I wanted to share it, obviously I don't know how the rest of the Mama Isa story is gonna go so some parts are kinda vague

Isabela paced Casita's courtyard anxiously, waiting with Dolores for the (hopefully) good news. It had been many years now since Isabela had left the Encanto with her little family to start a new, better life, her and Dolores were now in their thirties, with Dolores already having two children of her own, in fact, her eldest's fifth birthday was coming soon, dios mio how time flies. But Isabela couldn't focus on that, all she could think about was Mirabel, her youngest daughter who was now in her mid-twenties, happily married to a man who treated her like a queen.... And was now in the process of giving birth.

Memories of the past few years flashed through Isabela's mind, she had become increasingly nervous once her kids began to reach the age where they started looking for romance, she trusted them to make smart decisions and promised herself she wouldn't keep them from marrying whoever they chose, but the motherly instinct of "if you break my baby's heart I will break your bones" never went away, and memories of their old family had not helped her concerns, Mirabel's husband, however, was nothing but a big sweetheart, he never missed an opportunity to show Mirabel how much he loved her, always complimented her on her sewing and other art projects, and supported her through all her endeavors, so Isabela happily welcomed him into the family. Now he and Mirabel were having their first child, Isabela was going to become an Abuela... And it terrified her.

"It's gonna be okay" Dolores reassured, "you're not gonna be like her" Dolores knew exactly what Isabela was thinking of, she was thinking of Alma, their old Abuela (though she had long since lost that title), Alma had been a horrible Abuela, from what Isabela can tell she had been an awful mother too, she cared more about the people of their village and what they thought than the needs and wants of her children and grandchildren, Isabela had done everything she could to be the exact opposite of Alma, but knowing she was about to gain the same familial title gave her an irrational fear. Isabela knew it was irrational, she wasn't going to suddenly turn into an awful person just because there was a new baby, but the idea of doing something wrong, of letting down or, God forbid, hurting her new grandbaby the same way she had been hurt, it scared her to no end.

"What if I say something wrong? What if I don't give them enough attention? What if I give them too much attention and I become a helicopter parent? Dios mio, what if they develop a POLLEN allergy and they think I'm making them sick on purpose!?" In her panic, Isabela had grabbed Dolores by the shoulders and started shaking her, "it's gonna be okay Isa", Dolores assured, "you're gonna be a great Abuela, just like you were a great mama, just breathe okay" Dolores guided Isabela through a couple of deep breaths, before letting out a squeak of surprise as she heard the tell-tale sign of a baby crying, "the baby's here" Dolores said, as soon as those words reached Isabela's ears, she made a mad dash for Mirabel's room, with Dolores following her.

Mirabel breathed a sigh of relief as her baby's cries rang through the room, the sound that announced the labor was over and her baby had been successfully delivered, "congratulations" the midwife said, cleaning off the newborn and swaddling them in a soft blanket, "your baby is perfectly healthy" "gracias" Mirabel's husband said, as he was handed his newborn baby, bending down so Mirabel could wrap her arms around the baby as well "mi amor, look" the baby had a mix of Mirabel and her husband's skin tone, but a small tuft of hair revealed they had inherited Mirabel's curly locks, the baby had yet to open their eyes. A rapid tap sounded on the door, no doubt Dolores had already begun spreading the news of the baby's arrival, "you can let them in" Mirabel said, and the midwife opened the door to allow Isabela and Dolores inside.

"How are you feeling?" Isabela asked, fidgeting with her fingers nervously, "I'm fine mama" Mirabel assured, "I'm just tired" Mirabel lifted her baby up from her chest towards Isabela, "do you wanna hold them?" Isabela froze for a moment, before a comforting squeeze on her shoulder from Dolores gave her the courage to accept the offer. Isabela carefully took the baby from Mirabel, holding them gently in her arms, the baby yawned as they snuggled up in Isabela's arms, getting comfortable in her embrace. Isabela smiled, the baby was so relaxed, they felt no fear or anxiety being held by her, the baby clearly felt safe in her arms, the baby trusted her to look out for them, and that immediate trust took away the remaining anxiety Isabela had, "hola bebe" Isabela said softly, "I'm your Abuela Isa".

Outside Mirabel's room, Isabela's door shimmered, and the name above her door changed to "Abuela Isabela"

I know this is a weird one, but the idea of Mama Isa's reaction to becoming an Abuela and comparing herself to her own Abuela was one that I just couldn't resist

Yo⁉️ THIS IS SO COOL RAHHHHH

Honestly. Love this idea, genuinely. Everything is right, like Isabela looks back and does pretty much to the opposite. She did her best as a mother (and did a great job), but being an abuela is just. Stressful to her. Not because she can’t handle it, but because she’s scared of how she’ll end up. She doesn’t wanna do anything wrong and end up like Alma.

Also her having all these questions. Like so real 😭 Shoutout to Dolores for helping her calm down though, cause that would’ve been a Greek tragedy waiting to happen 🌚 Also. Door, she’d definitely gonna be so excited, and then she’ll be breaking down in the corner and then she’ll be back to running around announcing she’d an abuela. Slay

I really gots to make them updated older designs, I just. Haven’t. Guess it never crossed my mind⁉️

Also, I know you didn’t ask but I gonna put this here for when I do time skips in the story (because there will def be time skips lmaooooo) uh. In this point in time??? And this is a guesstimate. Because Idek where the story is going either, it’s not planned like the others 💀 we’ll say, idk 9 or 10 years later than their canon ages, so that’s like. 14 or 15 from where the current story is now

Isabela is married to her husband, but has no kids yet (?). Dolores has 2, duh, but has another later on. Luisa has a husband, her wedding would’ve been a bit before this, but she has a kid later in the year, she just doesn’t know yet, (likely). Mirabel has a kid, obviously, and Camilo has a girlfriend and plans to propose later on, and Antonio. Has a crush on a certain girl <33 Bruno just. Tío Bruno, he’s not looking for a girl, not that he’s not interested, he just doesn’t wanna do allat, he’d rather focus on family.

#my asks #my asks are open #encanto #encanto au #au #encanto mirabel #encanto isabela #encanto dolores #mama Isa AU #mama Isabela AU

[maybanksbabe]

Ok so I hate cheating tropes

BUT I had this fuckin idea in my head for a few days now and holy shit

Little lamb already being in a relationship with someone that her father set her up with (maybe their dads are like really close or something) but meeting rafe and his family at church one day completely ruins things

I'm talking about little lamb telling her parents that she's going to church for some late night bible reading and her dad gives her the key to the church and she tells her boyfriend (let's say his name is Richie) that her father doesn't really let her out past curfew unless it's for a good reason (her curfew is like 8pm and 9pm on a good night but if it's for like church things than he's like reluctantly agreeing while little lamb's mom is ecstatic about her loving Jesus or whatever) and that coming over to her house without invitation is like a big no no (even though rafe is like coming over whenever he can cause you know he's a BadBoy™️)

And like rafe gets her a necklace that matches her purity ring (this is a little self indulgent here but not the point) and the necklace is like super expensive and had a really nice 'R' on it and Richie thinks it for his virgin ass but really the rafe Cameron

Her father kinda despises the Cameron's bc of all rafe's run in with the law but also because of the cover ups that ward does for rafe, he thinks that all of the Cameron's, except for wheezie, are sinners because

A. Rafe is an absolute psychopath and a 'delinquent' (he's not wrong y'know 👀)

B. it's rumored that Sarah is not a virgin and that she cheated on topper (so the exact 'opposite' of his little girl THIS ISN'T MY ACTUAL VIEW OF SARAH IT'S JUST WHAT I THINK THAT RAT BASTARD PREACHER MAN WOULD THINK OF HER)

C. Ward used to be a pogue (he's an evangelical Christian of course there's going to be some classist bullshit going on)

D. Rose is seen as the other woman even if it may or not be true (since we don't know what's her deal it's either she's a homewrecker if ward divorced his wife for her or she's trying to replace Cameron's ex wife is she's dead or missing, I DON'T HATE OR THINK OF ROSE LIKE THIS IT'S JUST WHAT I THINK AN ASSHOLE EVANGELICAL PREACHER WOULD THINK OF HER)

E. He thinks that wheezie is just an innocent soul trapped in a troubled family (again he's not wrong but he gets all high and mighty over it, y'know bc he's a preacher and has major savior complex problems, he probably offers bible lessons from his youth pastor for wheezie but she begs ward not to do it and he listens for once, preacher bitch gets mad but doesn't say anything and honestly he thinks that ward is corrupting her innocent soul but mama lamb jumps in and says it's fine)

BUT that him and his family being all kind and forgiving towards them and welcoming them into the church will do wonders for rafe and his family so he kinda just puts up a fake smile at the Cameron's whenever they enter the church but little lamb's mom is like 'stop being so mean, Jesus said to love thy neighbor and gosh darn it that is what we will do even if they're... sinners' she says with a forced smile as she lightly scolds him in the back so that no one will hear them and she makes little lamb be all friendly towards rafe and the rest of the Camerons. I imagine little lambs mom is like way more cool about this kinda shit than little lamb's father

Rafe likes to tease little lamb about losing her purity ring as he's balls deep in her and says something like "oh baby... Looking at that ring knowing that you're not married and that I'm not your boyfriend is really does make this so much more fun" He grunts and thrusts harder into her as he laces his hands with hers as he plays with the ring absentmindedly as he reaches one hand down and play with her clit as he grins

"and the fact that I'm doing this in your family's church really is doing something for me" he chuckles and feels her pretty pussy flutter around him as he says these dirty little things "fuckin on the church pews... Who knew the preacher's daughter had it in her" she's clawing at his arms trying to bring herself back to earth but rafe knows that isn't going to work so he grabs her hands

"you keep moaning like that and people might come in here to see what's wrong" he holds onto her hand again and puts it back on the pew "and if people come in here they won't think of you as a little lamb anymore" she moans into her hand but he can still hear her little high pitched moan as he holds her hips even tighter as she's bent over the pews

"what if" she cuts herself off with a moanas she gives up on trying to silence her moans and holds onto pew for dear life and looks at her purity ring without a care in the world "what if that's not what I want- oh!" She grips the pew she's bent over with a harsh grip, and looks down and takes a glimpse at his cock intruding her perfect pussy "oh my freaking god!"

"c'mon baby, I know you can curse" he leans in and whispers in her ear "I've heard you do it before, playing with your pussy in the church bathrooms cursing my name AND god for 'sending me to test you' oh I know all about that" he chuckles and rubs her clit even faster

"oh my fucking god! That's so good" she holds her skirt up and let's rafe see her bare ass as he's taking her from behind "holy shit that's fuckin good" she moans out and looks back at him He laughed and let her fuck herself back onto him "now just where did you learn that, Little lamb" he says as he looks at her cute round ass bounce as she's moaning loudly again

"I'm not stupid, rafe, I've seen my fair share of videos" she huffs out a laugh before it turns into more, almost feral, moan and reaches down and guides rafe's fingers around her clit just the way she likes it and lets her skirt fall over then again before rafe just lifts it up her waist "oh god just like that, holy shit"

"maybe I was wrong" he says as he takes control back and thrusts even deeper in her "maybe you're just a wolf in sheep's clothing, huh?" He lets her rub her clit as he thrusts into her at a faster and an unsteady rhythm as he feels her getting closer too "oh my little wolf is surely full of surprises, ain't she?" She nods her head before he pulls her hair to make her look him in the eyes as he takes her from behind "c'mon answer me, little wolf" he makes eye contact with her and enjoys the fucked out look in her beautiful eyes as she struggles to even think as she moans so loudly and plays with her nipples with one hand and plays with her clit with the another

-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-

Him calling her little wolf instead of little lamb is so funny to me 🤭 (you can ignore this but I had to get this out of my head and I'm actually kind of scared to post this on my main so you're cursed with this thought... My bad 😚)

This au is based on the idea of what would happen if little lamb's family isn't at all what it seems, so you know it's kind of a more self righteous than the wards but at least there's no drugs or run-ins with the law or cover ups for said run ins with the law or infidelity (mostly 👀)

HOLY SHIT IS RIGHT ANON OH MY GOD????

It's been so long since we've had a Little Lamb and Rafe moment I'm HERE FOR IT 🤤🤤🤤 I literally have no notes on this the description, the content?!! THE NECKLACE?!!?

Lawwwdddd forgive me I'm about to fucking SIN -

#libra's rafe #preacher's daughter!reader #libra speaks

[yay-depression]

my parents and i were not a good match like personality wise. bc i was born with anxiety and hyper sensitivity to a man that thinks all emotions should be like beaten down and a woman who thinks that you need constant attention or you will die.

who decided this combo?? it was a bad combo?? my parents wanted to raise a child that was humble so they like avoid giving me super direct praise but I was born with anxiety and had just like shitty self esteem growing up so it just made me even less self-confident.

like?? my mother a slightly overbearing and nosy woman who is very emotionally loud, which is not a good combo with me, an introverted child with inherent trust issues and an over-active brain that already detects all of the emotions tenfold.

my dad?? the wreck,, is an emotionally negligent person who is absolutely awful at any kind of positive reenforcement and thinks that life is hard and instead of being upset by it you should simply ignore your emotions and get on with things. pair that with me, an emotionally starving child with incredibly low self esteem and a whole stack of mental health disorders, who feels so strongly about everything that they think they're going to burst at literally all times and is literally a target for all the shitty things people could say at school and such.

like idk what universe entity put me as the child to my parents but god did they fuck up.

#also their personalities just annoy me #even if their belief systems aligned with mine i would still find them annoying #like my mom's entire way she talks and delivers information drives me absolutely insane #and my dad's emotional instability is just fucking wiLd to deal with #they're interesting people and all but if I was an adult I don't think I'd ever be friends with them or anything #tat vents #not even a vent rly just an observation #i'm not mad about the fact that my parents and I are the exact opposite matches for each other bc I've gotten over that #but like isn't it ironic how the kid who was already genetically fucked managed to get put in like the least proper environment for them?? #while not being like more abusive/traumatizing than they actually were ofc

[thejustmaiden]

So out of nowhere I was tagged and quoted by a SR shipper for a blog of mine posted in August of last year. Talk about throwback but, hey, gotta appreciate that level of snooping. 😉

Back in the day I actually used to encourage discourse amongst Inuyasha fans- both shippers and antis alike- but I've since realized that it's a lost cause. But for you, @feministmetalgreymon , I'll grant this exception. Just 'cause it's been a while so why the hell not. haha

I want to assure you, however, that nothing you say will ever convince me that Sesshomaru and Rin are meant to be together romantically or that the story intended it so. Nor will you find any validation here. You can ship them for all I care, but please for all that is good and holy while I have your attention try- I mean really try- to understand why it is so many of us Inuyasha fans are so against this pairing in the first place (newsflash: it's not about ship wars), and why we believe a romance between the two of them is completely and utterly out of character.

For those of you interested in reading this, the blog of mine in question that the above shipper mentions in their counter-argument is here for reference. It's titled "Jaken = Rin's Dad?" I'm going to try and keep this short, but I'm also making no such promises. After all, I'm not exactly known for my brevity. haha Now let's get crackin'!

Like you, feministmetalgreymon, did for your recent blog here where you took screenshots of mine to address certain parts, I will be doing the same and dissecting yours accordingly.

[Snippet 1]

I worked with kids for many years as a teacher, and many people in my family have too or still do. Two of them happen to be just over 5 feet which is quite short for the average adult woman living here. I've also worked alongside many a women of short stature, and never did I hear any of them complaining of issues with their students having difficulty differentiating them from their own peers just because they were short as well. I'm sorry but that's just ridiculous. Kids are quite smart and pick up on a lot more than you seem to give them credit for. Height is not the only characteristic they look at to determine who's an adult and who's not, and it's foolish to suggest otherwise. So unless you're a babysitter who's still in their teens and/or who has very childlike features or behavior then I'm afraid what you're getting at is total hogwash. This is just another example of how you shippers offer nothing of real substance to your reasoning, it's only ever cherry-picking or strawmanning from you guys. Stop deflecting from the real issues please, because this certainly isn't one and only winds up being a complete waste of time for all parties involved.

[Snippet 2]

Okay, calm down now. I wasn't insinuating that relationships between parents and children can't change over time in terms of how they get along. Of course that's possible, as all families experience their fair share of estrangement and abuse. What I was speaking about was in reference to the overall dynamic between the two. Because a bad mother or father can still be viewed as a parental figure to their child even if say they're not in said child's life anymore. Since Sesshomaru and Rin share a healthy bond- and just a friendly reminder that in my blog I even said that he doesn't have to necessarily be labeled her father but that a romantic relationship later would still be inappropriate- I didn't deem it necessary to address what you brought up. Plus, it kinda, umm, misses the point?? Please, let's stay on topic. And it's not captured in the screenshot, but stop acting like there isn't a small part of them that idolizes their parents at some point during childhood. Just like you mention later on how it's normal for kids to have innocent crushes on adults that they eventually grow out of? Well, guess what, the same concept applies here. Kids eventually learn that their parents are far from perfect and make mistakes too. Rin is so damn young in the OG series though that we never even get to see her reach that maturity level.

[Snippet 3]

LOL! Alright, okay, so the "unbreakable bond" bit you're mentioning was actually me quoting you sessrinners. Did you not catch that? I literally spelled it out. *sigh* The whole point I was making is that shippers like yourself make hypocritical and contradictory statements all.the.goddamn.time. One moment you guys claim that Sesshomaru and Rin were essentially strangers and meant very little to each other, only to say in the same breath a few seconds later that they were destined to be together and their bond is like no other. I agree, their bond is special, but why must that mean they're going to fall in love?

That is the root of the matter here. Too many animes/mangas have romanticized this older adult man & young girl growing up falling in love trope that it's become way too normalized and widely accepted across the world- and yes, in some cultures more than others. Sadly, you lack the awareness to recognize how this all works. You know how we know that? When we see that you shippers are so desensitized to sexualized images of girls in the media that you share posts like this one below which *subtly* imply a future romance although one half of that pairing is still just a child in the pic and then try and pass it off as cute. That's like super fucking problematic and it scares me that you can't see that (or deny you do). 🤢

After all that's said and done, Sesshomaru leaving Rin in the village with Kaede is to me the strongest indicator more than pretty much anything else he's done for Rin that proves he is her adoptive father. It's so funny to me how you somehow see the exact opposite though. 🤔 What I think is happening is that you got yourself on some squeaky clean ass shipper goggles fresh out of your little echo chamber. Because I hate to tell you, but what you're fantasizing is what you want to see and not what's actually there on screen or was written into the story. I'm strictly talking about Inuyasha and the manga of course. [For the TL; DR version skip to the last paragraph.]

Parents looking after their kids is what parents are supposed to do. A good parent will do anything to keep their child safe and ensure they are cared for, so what he did for her by leaving her there was in her best interests clearly. Besides, as a babysitter, you more than most people should understand that parents aren't always able to be there for their kids so sometimes others gotta step in to help. Haven't you heard of the saying, "it takes a village to raise a child?" Which in Rin's case is literally true! 😂 Sometimes kids are even sent off to stay with grandparents and that's who raises them instead. Or maybe they have to temporarily live with an aunt or uncle because their single parent's job requires they work out of town 4-5 days of the week so they're hardly home. But that doesn't mean that the parents care or love their kids any less, and it's foolish to assume that Sesshomaru must have thought very little of Rin simply due to the fact that he made the decision to leave her in the village. Come on, y'all are acting like he abandoned her there!!

It's just given the circumstances Sesshomaru finally came to learn that Rin traveling with him was no longer safe. I also like to think it's because he wished for her to live a more normal life and to learn how to fully trust humans again. Plus, continuing to travel with him as young as she was would have proven dangerous and unwise. Now for you to know all this and still manage to turn his past actions towards her while she was just a child into a romantic gesture is what boggles my mind. Regardless of how you look at it, from my perspective or your own, Sesshomaru is in the wrong. Either he's a father figure who impregnates his daughter at the young age of approximately 14. OR he's this man she used to travel with who maybe isn't a father to her but who nonetheless basically rapes her since kids her age can't consent to sex with an adult. Idk about you but it sounds to me like nobody here wins with either scenario we're given. In other words, you should be just as mad as we are. If only one side didn't choose to forsake their morals they know we both have in common for the sake of a ship. Welp. 🤷‍♀️

I agree, incest is disgusting but that's not the only problem we have with this pairing. A romantic bond forming between Sesshomaru and Rin would also constitute as grooming.

You realize that over the years he visited her in the village that he brought her gifts too and essentially watched her grow up right before his very eyes, right? I mean, I know you do, but I really shouldn't have to explain further why pursuing a romantic/sexual relationship with each other is plain and simple wrong. And before you say it's not because he didn't have any malintent, please understand that considering their history and power dynamic up to then that yes this is still considered grooming even if Rin supposedly "wanted it" or "made the first move." Whether you consider him her father or not, as the adult who took on a role resembling that of a caretaker in her early life- a critical developmental time for a child- Sesshomaru is obligated to turn down any advances by Rin and most definitely should not initiate any himself. As the first close adult figure she's had in her life since her parents died, it's unfathomable to imagine how Sesshomaru could go through with taking advantage of this young girl who was under his care and supervision since they met. To think he could be capable of betraying that trust sickens me to the core.

This. Now THIS is how a parent/guardian or a similar adult caretaker (babysitter, teacher, etc.) talks to a child. And, in turn, this is how some young children talk to adults. You'd be insane and delusional to deny it! We see it in our everyday lives, do we not? From where else do you think our stories draw most of their inspiration? Yes, obviously these fictional universes have aspects of fantasy that don't exist in the real world, but so how then do you suppose we're able to relate to them? The reason for that being is because these stories are written by people for people, so naturally there are going to be real life aspects embedded throughout. Sure, a little escapism doesn't hurt as we don't need to take everything so seriously, but ultimately we all need to recognize that the messages in the stories we tell matter. Most stories possess a combination of both light and dark themes, but when it specifically comes to the latter we gotta be careful with how we tackle this in children's media since kids are far more impressionable.

So if at the center of a story we have two of the main protagonists whose mom is basically their same age and to top it off she knew their dad when she was just a girl and who just so happened to help raise her, wouldn't you say that's beyond fucked up or at the very least so fucking weird? Like why would we think it's even remotely okay for our children to watch this garbage?? Really think about it. Try and be objective for once and think about how it would sound explaining this storyline to an outsider who's never watched IY or HNY. Well, antis have tried this before many times and we always get the same reaction: Ewww!

Like I said earlier, if you wanna ship it then fine, but 1) please stop seeking our approval or trying to change our minds - your ship wish came true didn't it, so why do you need us to validate it? 2) even though it's not canon, respect that we don't support this sequel portraying pedophilia in a positive light. It's harmful af to not only allow but glorify the continuation of sexualized images of young girls everywhere. And I shouldn't have to say this, but just because this trope is popular as you say does not make it right. Lolicon themes in the media have been an issue forever and it needs to stop. Yes, even some people in Japan or "the East" would agree. Shocker!

We're pissed off and rightfully so because Yashahime's TV rating is 14, not to mention it airs at the prime time kids in Japan watch TV after getting home from school. That's Towa and Setsuna's age, true, but if Rin being the mom when she's like only a year older than them (please don't argue w/ me about the math- antis have so far been right every time with it) is straight-up disgusting and not something we should be supporting or endorsing. Rin's a whole ass child!! Please don't start with the "but times were different then so her having kids at 15 is acceptable" argument either, because we've already debunked that and every other single excuse you guys throw at us. Besides, how or why would you expect young viewers to know these historical "facts" anyway, especially if as you suggest fiction doesn't affect reality so what does it matter? Yet here we are, arguing over a fictional show in real life almost a year and a half into the "Sesshomaru fucks?" sequel being announced. My ass, your ass, hell all our asses fiction doesn't affect reality!

Look, I do apologize if the tone of this blog came off as snippy or condescending at times. I do not wish you any ill will, it's just I'm not really sure what you expected to get out of all this besides maybe getting on my nerves perhaps. haha A lot of you shippers have been desperately scrambling to interact with us, lurking in our tags, jumping onto our posts screaming canon and getting so defensive even though you sought us out first. We've been sticking to our tags, so how about you stay in your lane too. By the way since we're on the topic, have you seen Twitter or Reddit?! SR shippers there are the actual worst and many Inuyasha fans (not just antis) have complained of not feeling welcomed to engage in fandom spaces anymore. Shippers swarm them and scare them off simply because fans don't like your ship and refuse to accept it. It's pathetic, really. No one should ever be bullied or harassed just because they don't like something you might. We're all fans of Inuyasha, aren't we? So let's act like it. Yashahime on the other hand, you guys are welcome to that pungent heap of trash. Fans have a right to criticize it too, but if you like it then good for you, so keep on liking it and don't mind us.

I'm almost done, but real quick back to Jaken! Let's not forget about how the official Yashahime website- which came out after my blog, mind you- described Jaken. This translation isn't the best one available but it's the only version a fellow anti friend could track down. They do recall a better one done by a native Japanese speaker who was also an anti, and that member confirmed that Jaken is indeed called Rin's babysitter. So you see, I was right in my interpretation. In the original post I did compare Jaken to a brother, but after talking to others (some comments can be found under said post) I did acknowledge that he's more of a reluctant babysitter who's not related. And if he's not at least a brother to Rin, then he's definitely not her father.

At the end of the day, the creator Rumiko Takahashi has the final word. Which is guess what? Hogosha. 💖 Probably should've just started out with that and saved us all the trouble, huh? Good day/night to you.

Papamaru bids you adieu now. 🤞

#anti yashahime #anti sessrin #sesshomaru is rin's dad #papamaru #hogosha 💖 #the sequel may not be canon but sunrise can still burn in hell

[kenobihater]

okay this is only part of their post but it's the part i take the most issue with. i screenshotted rather than reblogged because i don’t want this person catching flak for one stupid post. granted, the post irked me enough to write all this bullshit, but i’m not mad at this person in particular, moreso the overall direction that the disk horse is currently going in

i'm gonna break this down into points. 

1) “i want him to take off his helmet because i want to see his face, but i feel like w/ this new information if we get that kind of scene it's going to HURT” - so far the only time din's helmet has been removed was during a traumatic experience. he did not want to take it off. it was scary for him. why the hell do you want it to come off when he's adamant that it stays on? bc that means likely the only way we're seeing his face is if it's taken off against his will. either that, or he abandons his creed in a crisis of faith, which would also be traumatic. so i agree that if the helmet comes off, the scene is going to hurt to watch. why do you want that??

2) “...that he's in a cult...” - the children of the watch don't fit the definition of a cult. instead of being a cult, they're a diaspora with a shared creed. their 'isolation' stems from safety measures taken in the wake of the purge - face coverings for safety, only one member of the covert can leave at a time, and literally living in the sewers to avoid detection. these are all valid actions, considering that the covert is slaughtered as soon as they’re discovered, and that din has been accosted for his armor twice in three episodes, way after the purge ended. if that's how the galaxy treats mandalorians, then you bet your ass that their secrecy is justified, unlike the secrecy found in cults.

the children of the watch are not exploitative, either, which is a hallmark of cults. they saved din during the clone wars, came to din's aid on nevarro, and were systematically killed for doing so. they knew this was a risk, but they did it anyways, because it was the right thing to do to protect the child.

cults are also closed to outsiders. now, i'm extrapolating from legends here, so bear with me. bo-katan said they followed the 'old ways' or something along those lines. the most well known mandalorian code of conduct was the resol'nare, or the 6 tenants. they were: wearing armor, speaking the language, defending oneself and family, raising your children as mandalorians, contributing to the clan's welfare, and aiding the mand'alor when called to. anyone who followed these tenants could claim to be a mandalorian. anyone. that's why i said they have a shared creed, not a shared race. anyone can become a mandalorian in legends, and if disney keeps that canon, then that's the exact opposite of being 'closed off'.

3)”... as if it were his choice when clearly it wasn't” - okay show me where he was forced into this ~evil cult~. show me where he has no agency. din was rescued and taken in as a child, yes, but he currently upholds and defends his belief system, and actively chooses on multiple occasions to stay true to his creed. even if he abandons the way later in the season (which I sincerely hope that he doesn't), he was never forced into his belief system - he was raised with it. i wasn't forced into christianity*, i was simply raised with it. did i eventually leave the faith? yeah, and my parents were chill. there's a big difference between being forced into it and raised with it.

4) “he was robbed of getting to show his face to another person and being lied to. that's a shock to him and he's going to have to deal with it in his own way” - hoo boy. HOO BOY. how was he """robbed""" of anything? if you're talking abt omera in s1, he made the decision to keep his helmet on himself (sidenote: omera was not disrespecting him by trying to take his helmet off ffs) and so how could he feel """robbed""" when he was the one to make that call?

onto the next part - what was he lied to about? the origins of the children of the watch? why tell din about their links to an organization that they don’t even resemble anymore?

the last part, the part about this being a shock to him, is likely correct. anyone would be shocked if someone told them they were actually a member of a cult. din being shocked doesn’t mean that bo-katan was right, though. bo-katan is a liar. even if you don't take into account her own past with death watch that she conveniently left out, she lied to din about taking the ship, rather than just stealing weapons. she did this for self serving reasons - she wanted information on the darksaber. at the end, she asks din to stay. who's to say she didn't tell him his clan was a cult to drive him away from his creed because she wanted to gain another grunt for her team? do i think that this is her angle? no, bc i don't think she or the writers are smart enough for that. but could it have been her motive for the cult comment? anything is possible, especially in light of the fact that she's left out her own involvement with death watch when telling din his clan was a cult.

that’s it. that’s all. shit, i def put way more effort into this post than i should have, but what’s done is done. i’m tired of people calling any old religion a cult just because they don’t like it. words have meanings, you can’t just say whatever the fuck you want and not get called out on it. sorry if this comes off as aggressive, but i’m fed up with this discourse, and this will be my only post on it.

*the mandalorians are not coded as christian, and here’s a post on why. i’m using this analogy because i was raised with a belief system like din was, not because the children of the watch resemble christianity.

#len speaks #lucky don't look #this isn't even close to the worst take i've seen. thankfully this one only had abt 60 notes #the worst one i ran into had over 800 #not sure if i should put this in the main tags? #don't really want to start shit #but i also have a desire to help change the discourse surrounding this chapter because it fucking sucks #fuck it #the mandalorian #mandalorian spoilers #anyways if you clown in the notes i'll just block you and move on with my life #len's meta

[starsandheartsforever]

Okay I wanna talk about Greg for a second because the Jasper episode got so much more attention. One reason is this post on twitter.

Okay so I love that Greg is like the most understanding and laid back parent like ever but I have a small problem with it right now because sometimes that's not what a kid needs. My mom was my strict parent while my dad was the laid back one. As I'm getting older dad's more or less the same but my mom is now all go with the flow and stuff, and it hurts. So I kind of get where Steven is with his dad right now. He loves his dad obviously but he doesn't want another friend right now. I think that's why during their trip you can notice little moments where Steven still looks unhappy. He's lost, doesn't know what to do who to go to etc like he says. A LOT of people both young and older feel the exact same nowadays and being told something like "hey just chill." "Everything will be fine / work out." "Just go with the flow." Or my personal favorite "Life's too short to be worrying or mad all of the time." That can really be like the worst thing for someone in a similar mental state as Steven to hear. Steven reacting to Greg's carefree ideals like he did is beyond relatable. (To me personally and to others) Personally I think Steven needs someone who is the opposite of his dad and the gems right now and that's why he went to Jasper. He knew she wouldn't coddle him and tell him everything's going to be fine. He knew she would look him in the eyes and say you need to stop running, stand tall and vent! And sometimes that's just what someone like Steven needs, a healthy way to vent. Training honestly can be a big help. However now there's a very real chance that he might revert back to square one if not either damn close or worse. Because he quite literally killed Jasper! He may have been able to bring her back but the fact remains the same. This is going to add a new fresh level of trauma to him on top of now she's bowing and calling him my Diamond. So here is my theory for the last four episodes based off the leaks and titles I've seen. Firstly the gems (though I love them) are way too pushy and its going to push him over the edge again and make him accidently make those Steven plants we've seen around Garnet. Maybe to try and hold them back from stopping him trying to leave. Secondly he is going to head to homeworld. This is where it get interesting. So out of all of the characters we've seen in SU there have only been 4 that could beat or come close to beating Steven that is before he manga to work things out with them. Those have been his fellow diamonds and Spinel. (And yes I am a shipper but this has nothing to do with my ship) The diamonds are the only ones who more than likely not be scared of Steven's powers. I mean I'm sure they would be shocked and worried but scared? Please we've seen what Pink was capable of. So Yellow would probably replace Jasper for his anger venting while Blue helps him cry it out. White could help with controlling his powers more (scenes we all know how good she is at that.) And Spinel well a whole damn movie was made to show us how much trauma she went through so if she can't help with that then nobody can. Rebecca is covering some serious shit here and she (as we all know) never does anything without meaning. You can't tell me we got an entire movie with Spinel as the main attraction and then just what throw her out the window especially with all of Steven's similarities to her same problems. So yeah this is my theory for the begining of the end of the series as for how it will end I still think he'll kind of take Greg's advice and take a self discovering trip. And as for corrupt Steven I do believe it's going to happen I'm kind of partial to it being an unhealthy fusion rather than corruption otherwise I think it'll happen maybe during his visit to HW. But that's what I got from Mr. Universe and Fractured along with my theory it gave me.

#steven universe #steven universe future #suf spoilers #steven universe theories

[saiilorstars]

Falling in Temptation

Previous chapters • Sequel to Stars Dance •  Fairy Tale Memoirs (Companion story)

Ch. 23: The Investigators

Fandom: Doctor Who // Pairing: 11th Doctor x OFC

Chapter summary: The travelers must investigate the cry of help of a child. When the Ponds get separated from the Doctor, they and their granddaughter get some bonding moments in a creepy doll house.

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Avalon was in the console room with her journal open in front of her, currently writing yet another little draft she'd been tinkering with. It was so funny how her mind kept coming up with so many new ideas lately. There was just a lot to say right now. She knew the Silence and Kovarian were still out there, and of course there was the fact she still didn't know who the astronaut from Lake Silencio was, but right now she was actually happy. She was content.

Hell, she'd even gotten a little postcard from the Sapling. That alone had lifted her spirits! The Sapling wrote to his parents that he was just fine and that he was having a lot of fun on a planet made up of jewels. He said that he would soon visit them to 'Take his Mother to see the pretty jewels', prompting an excited squeal from Avalon. How could she not be happy with that? So her hand wrote along her endless journal...until someone covered her eyes.

She smiled and lowered her pen. "Who, oh who, could be covering my eyes and therefore preventing me from writing?"

"Only your primary subject of your journal," came the Doctor's smug voice from behind. He lifted his hands from her eyes and kissed her cheek.

"You wish. Not all my stories were about you, you know," she smirked as he moved around the chair to face her. "Actually, I don't think I've written a proper story about you since you picked me up from Leadworth the first time." It was fairly amusing watching his face fall with disappointment.

"What do you mean!? I'm...I'm me!"

"Yes," she laughed. "But the world doesn't revolve around you."

"Oh, but it revolves around you?"

"Yeah, thanks for catching on!"

"Think you're funny, then," he evaluated her and had to stop himself from smiling.

"I like to think so," Avalon answered his question with another of her smirks. "And to be honest, I wrote about a super hero, not a dork in a bow-tie."

There was utter offence on the Doctor's face. "You...you are just mean!"

"I'm sorry but...c'mon," she reached for his bow-tie to give it a little flick. "What on Earth made you decide that these were cool?"

"They don't seem be uncool when you hold onto them," he flashed her a smirk that grew when he saw the red tint cross her face. "That's right, princess, don't start something you can't win."

Now it was Avalon's turn to be offended. "How dare you!"

Before she could either throw the journal at him or smack him, he caught her lips in a kiss. "And there's the ending of that," he declared as he let her go. He yanked her up from the chair to sit down and have her sit on his lap. He was quite smug in the end.

"Well, someone woke up in a good mood," Avalon noted with a playful roll of his eyes.

"Is it hard to believe that I'm happy right now?" He took one of her hands and kissed it and followed with a trail of more kisses going up her arm. It was actually a real novelty for him to feel like that but looking at who he had in front of him, on him, there was no other way to feel.

Avalon smiled at him. "I'd be offended if you weren't."

"Oh," the Doctor rolled his eyes. "Here I am trying to be soft and mushy and that's all you have to say?"

"What else am I supposed to say?"

The Doctor's face was flat as he stared at her. "How the hell am I attracted to you when all you do is be mean to me?"

"Not true, I pay you compliments all the time," she said innocently while she fiddled with his bowtie. "Why, just yesterday I said that the 'Oncoming Storm' sounds like a sexy name for a hero. Was that not nice?"

Judging by the smirk on his face, it was very nice. "Oh alright, I can't stay mad at you." He brushed a finger under her chin.

"No, you can't, because I give you these," she left a pretty nice trail of kisses along his cheek.

"And how happy I am to receive them," he grinned and ducked his head just as she was about to kiss his cheek again, making her kiss his lips instead. It was their last kiss before Amy and Rory came in. They had set up some rules and there was one important rule they were to follow.

Granddaughters were to be off Time Lords at all times.

"Woah!" The Doctor exclaimed as he dug into his jacket and pulled out his psychic paper in urgency.

"What's the matter?" Avalon didn't know whether to laugh or not when he wiggled so weirdly.

"Please save me from the monsters," he read from the paper and promptly put it back into his pocket then turned for the console, "Haven't done this in a while!"

"Done what?" Amy frowned as he went around the console starting the TARDIS up, "What're you doing?"

"Making a house call," he pointed at them before pulling a lever and sending them into motion.

"Oh, you're doing the quiet materialization," Avalon raised her eyebrows with mild surprise, "Must be bad. Well, we best go and see what's going on, then," and she stepped forwards only for Rory to grab her arm and force her to stay still, "Rory?"

"Doctor, are we somewhere okay for her health?"

Avalon groaned. They were still doing it and if they had their way they would continue to do it for all of time.

"Course we are! It's Earth!" the Doctor exclaimed, further irritating Avalon by following the game. He reached over to pull Avalon to his side. "Never bringing my Ava somewhere she shouldn't be."

"One of these days, I'm just gonna kill all of you and steal the TARDIS," Avalon declared in a matter-of-fact tone.

"Quit overreacting," Amy waved her off and headed for the doors, Rory following.

"I'm very serious!" Avalon huffed while the Doctor led them after their friends.

"No offence, Doctor..." they heard Rory's voice as they neared the doors.

The Doctor rolled his eyes and opened the doors. "Meaning the opposite."

"...but we could get a bus somewhere like this," Rory finished and gestured to the area they were in.

"Oh, he's not wrong, you know," she looked at the Doctor, "Not your best work." Avalon looked around and made a face at the estate. It was a bit creepy, like the ones you'd see on television...which might have given Avalon a new idea for a draft.

"The exact opposite," the Doctor sighed as he shut the doors behind them.

"Well," Amy shifted on her feet and turned for Rory, "I suppose it can't all be planets and history and stuff, Rory."

"Yes, it can! Course it can! Planets and history and stuff. That's what we do! But not today. No," the Doctor pulled out his sonic and headed for the courtyard with the others behind, "Today, we're answering a cry for help from the scariest place in the universe - a child's bedroom."

"Mm, no, you mean under the bed," Avalon remarked with a sad smile while they headed for the building. "The Sapling hated what could be under his bed."

"Are you alright, Ava?" the Doctor noticed her expression and moved closer to her.

"Yeah," she sighed. "I just...you know, the Sapling. He was a child not too long ago."

"He said he'd come back and visit soon," he reminded her and motioned behind her for Amy and Rory to help out.

"Yeah! Didn't he say he was going to take you to that jewel planet?" Amy laughed. "You'll have loads of fun with him there."

"Probably get into some trouble no doubt," Rory shook his head.

Avalon half-smiled. That sounded like their usual trips. "Yeah. Anyways, why are we here Doctor?"

They stopped in front of a lift where the Doctor hit the button then pulled out his psychic paper for them to see. Rory leaned forwards and read off it, "Please save me from the monsters. Who sent that?"

"Well, clearly, the child sent that," Avalon playfully rolled her eyes, "Get with it, Rory. Monsters, remember?"

"Yeah but I meant who, as in the identity of the kid?"

"Well I suppose that's what we're here to find out, right Doctor?" Avalon looked back at him.

"Exactly, I've traced the call back to this building but I can't figure out which flat it's from," the Doctor looked around and saw the dozens and dozens of flats waiting to be searched.

"So we need to split up," Avalon gasped lightly and entered the lift as soon as the doors opened up. She yanked the Doctor inside and curled her arm around his. "And I pick you," she smiled at him.

"There's a shocker," Amy snorted.

Their search started from the very top of the estate. The Doctor excitedly brought them to the first door in the hallway and knocked before Avalon could even discuss how they should start their questioning. A couple seconds later, an elderly woman answered.

"Hello!" the Doctor cheerfully greeted her.

"Who are you?" the woman asked.

"Um, we're the inspectors," Avalon came up fast, "...and we're...inspecting..."

"Is this about the bins?"

"Did I mention bins?" the Doctor nudged Avalon for that and made her lightly sigh, "I meant, no, we're not here for bins, Miss?"

"Mrs.," the woman corrected and made Avalon roll her eyes, "Rossiter."

"Fine, Mrs. Rossiter, no we're not here for your dang bins." Again, the Doctor nudged Avalon. "What!?" she exclaimed in irritation, "We're not!"

"Look, can we come in?" the Doctor sighed as he saw this going no where.

Mrs. Rossiter frowned, "Course not! You could be anyone!"

Avalon made a face at the woman. Why was she complicating this so much? "Who else would we be, lady?"

The woman's response was slamming the door on them.

"We should've said we were from the bins department," Avalon sighed, making a mental note for next time then went off walking.

"Yeah, that was the problem," the Doctor made a face and followed after her. She might be as terrible as he was when it came to interrogating. That was certainly new. He smiled after a second or so. Yes, he truly loved that woman.

~ 0 ~

After several more tries, the Doctor and Avalon were making their way down a corridor where they heard Amy and Rory's voice below. Avalon went ahead to try and get them before they lost them. The Doctor moved to follow her when he noticed a young boy peering out a window right where Amy and Rory had just walked by. He hurried after Avalon and caught her in front of the lift.

"They were coming up the lift," Avalon pointed, "So what now, then? Can't you do some thing with the TARDIS to find the kid?"

"Um..." the Doctor considered telling her he'd already found the kid, or boy, but felt like this was one of the moments where he could do things on his own and keep her safe. He didn't exactly know what he was dealing with and he'd rather find out on his rather than have her beside him and in danger.

"Doctor?" Avalon's voice brought him back to the conversation, "So, can you?"

"Um, no, no, it was far too vague," he shook his head.

The lift went off and the doors opened up to reveal Amy and Rory inside.

"Hey! Any luck?" Amy asked them.

The Doctor cleared his throat and answered, "Three old ladies, a traffic warden from Croatia and a man with ten cats."

"What are we actually looking for?" Rory sighed and stepped out the lift with Amy. It would definitely help to have some significant details about the child otherwise they would be there all night.

"Rory, we're looking for a scared kid," Avalon shrugged, "Remember?"

"I found scary kids," Amy remarked quietly. "Does that count?"

"Nope!" the Doctor shook his head. "But try the next floor down. Avalon can go with you."

"What?" frowned the ginger in question. "Why?"

"Just to shake things up!" He planted a sloppy kiss on her cheek and rushed off.

"That made zero sense," Avalon turned to Amy and Rory but both of them shook their heads at her.

"No one told you to date an alien. That was all you," Rory shrugged. "Now you gotta live with it." He ignored Avalon's indignant yelp while they waited for the lift to come back.

When it arrived, they stepped inside and Amy pressed the button for the next floor down. As soon as the doors slid shut, the lift suddenly plummeted down at maximum speed. The trio were pressed against the walls, screaming at the top of their lungs.

Afterwards, Rory was the first to wake up from what ever had happened to them. He was on the floor on his stomach inside a very dark room, "Amy? Avalon? Are you here?"

"Yeah," he heard Amy answer first, "Here. No, here! It's me!" she was crawling over to him, "And Avalon? Oh God, where's Avalon?"

"Right here, don't go crazy on me again," came Avalon's voice not too far from them.

"Oi!" Amy scolded her.

"Are you both okay?" Rory switched on a small torch just as Avalon had joined them.

"Yeah, I think so," Avalon sighed, "But I can't remember how we got in here?" she turned around in the dark room, reminding the others that they didn't remember that either.

"We were in the lift," Rory looked at Amy, "We were in the lift, weren't we?"

"Yeah, yeah. We.. I remember getting in and then it just went down really fast," Amy said, still feeling a lingering pain on the side of her head.

"We're dead, aren't we?" Rory actually groaned.

Avalon snickered and glanced at him. "What?"

"The lift fell and we're dead!"

"Oh my God!"

"Avalon, why are you laughing!?"

"Because of you!" Avalon was laughing far too hard for a situation like the one they were in.

"We're dead. Again!" Rory couldn't believe their luck, his luck! He could actually say he lost count on how many times he had died...and his granddaughter was laughing at him. "Avalon, stop it!"

"I can't...I can't believe..." Avalon had her hands on her knees, her entire body shaking as she continued to laugh.

Amy looked between her and Rory, having no idea who to stop first. Their family really was that crazy.

~ 0 ~

Avalon was walking a couple steps ahead of Amy and Rory, doing her best to keep calm. After getting over the funny parts, the reality that they were somewhere unknown and in the plain dark settled quickly. She realized she hadn't really been on her own, in trouble, without the Doctor since Berlin happened and she wasn't liking it one bit. She swallowed hard as she continued creeping through the dark. What if the Silence were right around the corner? Or Kovarian?

She came to an abrupt stop with those thoughts. She bit her lower lip and looked around the spot, actually yelping when Amy bumped into her. "AH!"

"What!? What is it!?" Rory spun around trying to find the immediate danger to them.

His cries only made Avalon scream again, which then caused Amy to frantically try to calm her down. Avalon had no idea how River managed to live with the threat of the Silence for so long without going crazy, especially since she did it on her own. At least she had the Doctor, Amy and Rory, who, while were very annoying with their overbearing protectiveness, were always there for her.

"Avalon! Avalon, there's nothing!" Amy finally managed to break through Avalon's scream cycle and, with one hand stretched backwards, she stopped Rory from spinning. "Avalon! Hey!"

Avalon caught her breath and looked around. The darkness still didn't make her feel better but at least there were no Silence or...Kovarian. "Sorry, sorry."

"It's alright," Amy said, comfortingly rubbing her hands over Avalon's arms. "You can go back to laughing at Rory if that helps."

Rory rolled his eyes at his wife but yes, that was something Avalon could do if it made her feel better. "Yes, fine. Ava, you're okay."

Avalon nodded, convincing herself that she was being a bit too ridiculous right now. They needed to focus on finding out where they were after all. "Sorry."

"You don't have to apologize," Amy gave her a smile that was only partially seen through the dark.

Avalon tucked some curls behind her ears, licking her lips nervously as she scanned their area one more time. "It's just I keep thinking that maybe the Silence found us again."

"That's natural," Rory hated to think that way because he would give anything to make that fear go away. "It'll be a while before...before things go back to normal."

Avalon shook her head. "It's more than that, though. Have you guys thought about Lake Silencio anymore?" Amy and Rory exchanged mutual looks before awkwardly shifting away from their granddaughter. Avalon groaned and followed after them. "Don't do that! You have thought about it, right?"

"...of course we have," Amy muttered, picking up her pace with Rory.

"Why wouldn't we?" Rory sighed. "It's more crucial now that you went off and..."

Avalon stopped walking, forcing them to do the same and turn around. "I couldn't help it, Rory," she said quietly.

Her grandparents stopped walking and through the darkness Avalon heard Rory go 'Oof' as if somebody had hit him.

"That's not what I meant," Rory said after a moment. "Of course we've thought about Lake Silencio, especially because we know it's going to hurt you the most, Avalon."

"It's already hurting, actually," Avalon admitted. She hurried to where they were. "Because it's still a possibility and lately I've been wondering about that astronaut. What if...what if it was me?"

"What!?" Amy was about to tell her how crazy she was sounding but Avalon quickly added an explanation. She'd been giving the event many thoughts lately.

"Just hear me out! Why would the Silence take me? I mean, no offence, but shouldn't it have been Amy?"

"Offence taken," went the grandmother in question.

"Look, you're River's Mum. They could've taken you or, maybe even Rory. But they took me. Why take me unless...unless they wanted me for something else."

Yeah, leverage, Rory thought and unknowingly Amy thought the same. Kovarian had played it just right with the only person none of them could ever harm. If she'd taken one of them, they would've easily given their lives to protect Melody and ruined her plans. But she took Avalon instead, making it so that even River couldn't get near to extract Avalon from their hands.

But maybe Avalon's words had another truth to them. What if Kovarian had a second agenda in mind for her? Why force her to kill the Doctor in Berlin when she had raised Melody to do just that? Even Melody was confused (and angry) at the fact that her entire life's purpose had been changed at the last moment to accommodate Avalon's presence. She had even erased Avalon's memories in the end, like there was something she didn't want Avalon to know about and tell any of them.

"What if I'm the astronaut and I kill him?" Avalon whispered. "I would rather die myself than do that."

"Please don't say that," Amy begged. She had lost her baby and she was not going to lose her granddaughter too.

"Listen, right now, right now we have to make a plan. A plan to stop that future from happening."

"You can't. Remember what River said-"

"With all due respect, I don't care what River had to say! I'm not letting the Doctor die and I'm sure as hell not going to be the one to do it!"

"What do you even have in mind?" Rory dreaded to think how much time Avalon had thought about whatever ideas lurked in her head.

"The future Doctor came back in time to see us, and now that I've had time to think about it...didn't it seem like his 'hello's' were like someone who hadn't seen us in a long time?" Avalon sure thought it was. The Doctor she traveled with at that point in time did not hug her the way the Lake Silencio Doctor had. He held her so tightly and the smile on his face...it was the same way he smiled at her right now.

"God, how long do you think it was for him?" Amy asked.

"I don't know," Avalon sighed. "But I'm guessing it was a very long time. That means that the Doctor right now will eventually leave...or...maybe something happens to us. Whatever reason it is, we have to make sure that he doesn't leave us."

"And make sure we don't die!?" Rory flapped his arms to their current situation.

Avalon rolled her eyes. "Yeah, that too. So can we do that? Can we just...keep our eyes peeled for anything suspicious?"

"Avalon, we can try but the Doctor is still the Doctor," Amy thought that alone was an explanation for the choices the Doctor made, but Avalon wasn't going to settle for that. "He could have a plan that we don't know about. He's got a big head, none of us know what he's thinking about."

"You're right but I'm sure of one thing," Avalon said with a tightened jaw. "He wouldn't just leave me like that. He wouldn't choose to leave me behind."

That sounded right, but it begged the question why he did it once. Avalon was afraid of the answer.

~ 0 ~

"You know it's obvious what's happened," Rory began to say, disliking the silence that was taking them over. They had continued to explore their surroundings without much success. He'd only acquired a torch from another hallway but that was pretty much it.

"Yeah? Really?" Amy scoffed lightly, "Because it's not obvious to me. How about you Avalon?"

"Not in the least," their granddaughter shook her head.

"The TARDIS has gone all funny again. Some time... slippy... thing," Rory sighed. "You know, the Doctor's back there in Eastenders-land and we're stuck here in the past. This is probably 1700 and something."

"One of my favorite years," Avalon remarked and went along with his words.

"Oh yeah, you know, definitely Avalon," Amy began as well, "Big dresses and parties and-"

"Well if it's royalty then why not?" Avalon shrugged, "All the dances and the dresses, the jewels, and the princes you can dance with," she sighed with content, "Doesn't that sound lovely?"

"Did you forget the part where they're all stuck-up snobs?"

"Not everyone, the Doctor says that he once met a French mistress who turned out to be really nice unlike the others of the French Court."

Amy scoffed, "Oh brother."

"What?"

"Did he tell you who that mistress was? And why she was very nice?"

"Um, I think was something with Pompadour...no..."

"Yeah, that's her," Amy laughed, "She snogged him the moment she was a young woman."

At that, Avalon stopped walking and forced them as well, "Come again?"

"Yeah, he said something about the woman's life being spread around some old spaceship with clock robots and stuff. He became her imaginary friend which then turned out to be a little something, something," Amy nudged her, "You get it?"

"I'm going to kill him," Avalon declared. "Forget what I said, I'm gonna kill him right now."

Amy burst into laughter. Rory shook his head at her. The Doctor would be paying big time for that one.

Avalon stalked ahead, coming into a kitchen. She made a face at it and wondered what kind of house it was because the closer she looked at it, the shinier things seemed. "It's plastic," she realized after a moment.

"What is?" Rory asked her.

Avalon picked up a loaf of bread that was on the table and tossed it over to him, "It's plastic. This entire room's plastic. Look around," she gestured.

Amy picked up a pan off the counter and tapped her knuckles against it. "Hm. You're right."

"That's copper," Rory pointed at it. it had an orangey shade to it that shined through the darkness.

"No, it's not. It's wood," Amy said safer after another study. "It's made of wood and just painted to look like copper."

"That...is stupid."

"Ah!" They heard Avalon and turned to see her grabbing a lamp off a shelf. She managed to turn it on and give them a better idea of what they were looking at. "I told you this entire thing is fake. Plastic things and other things painted to look a certain way."

"Well, not seventeen hundred and something, then." Rory wandered over to a couple of drawers. He went through them and found nothing significant...not like Amy did. The moment she yelled, he darted to her side and yelped himself. He slammed shut the drawer responsible for their momentary fright.

"Wow, you guys are cool," Avalon declared from the other end of the room.

"Shut up," Amy hissed. She carefully opened the drawer again and peered inside. A huge eyeball stared back at her. "It's...it's glass. It's a glass eye."

"No way, let me see!" Avalon hurried over, only stopping midway because her lamp flickered on and off.

"Avalon, not funny!" Rory snapped.

"What? It's not me!" Avalon tapped the lamp lightly. "Stop it!"

"Something else is doing that," Amy grabbed the fake copper pan as a weapon. "C'mon!"

They hurried towards the other door in the room in hopes of getting the hell out of the creepy place.

~ 0 ~

The small family found the front hall of wherever they were in. Rory went for the front door while Avalon and Amy walked round the large entrance room.

"At last." But Rory groaned suddenly and made both gingers look over at him.

"What is it?" Amy called.

"No doorknob!" Rory exclaimed as he patted the doors.

"And this clock," Avalon was studying the large clock in front of her, her hand reaching to touch the numbers, "The hands are painted on."

"What?" Rory turned for them, forgetting the doors.

"I told you this place was all plastic," Avalon frowned, "And no doors? Painted clocks? This is like one great plastic house!"

Suddenly, they heard the sound of a child's laughter and made the trio turn around. Immediately, Rory and Amy stepped in front of Avalon, Rory putting a finger on his lips and motioned for them to walk towards the other door. They entered a different hall and walked silently when they heard more laughter.

"You hear that or is that just me finally going crazy?" Avalon whispered to them.

"No, we hear it too," Rory was careful as they went forwards.

"So why exactly are we going towards it?" Avalon stopped and pulled them back.

"She's right," Amy's eyes widened as she heard louder laughter. "They're getting closer!"

"They?!" Rory whisper-exclaimed.

Avalon sighed and crossed the room where another door laid. She slowly opened the door with her friends right behind her, with makeshift weapons in their hands. She opened the door and winced as Amy and Rory screamed when they saw a life-size doll with a large, chipped head.

"It's a doll," Avalon scolded them and stopped their yelling.

"This is... weird," Rory declared.

"Says the time-travelling nurse," Amy mumbled and made Avalon snicker.

"And the time traveling kissogram," she decided to add while she tapped the doll's head, "It's hollow..."

"Let's just... leave that for now. Come on," Rory reached for her arm and pulled her back, closing the door and turning for a new direction, "Why aren't there any lights? I miss lights. You don't really miss things till they're gone, do you? That's what my nan used to say, "You'll never miss the water till the well runs dry.""

"Rory, rambling," Avalon remarked.

"Except light I mean, not water. Lights are great, aren't they? I mean if this place was all lit up, we wouldn't even be worried at all."

"Rory!" Amy exclaimed, "Avalon's right, you're rambling. Stop panicking, will you?"

"Yeah, yeah. Sorry," Rory cleared his throat.

Suddenly, they stopped when another man came running down the hall towards them, "Help me! Please! Keep them away from me! Keep them away!" Behind him was one of the life-sized dolls they'd seen coming behind the man. It grabbed him by the neck and forced him on the floor. The trio watched in horror as the man slowly turned into one of the dolls.

"I take it all back. Panic now," Amy nudged Rory. He nodded and started running with her and Avalon away from the dolls, screaming.

"Don't run away. We want to play!" the dolls laughed as they came after them.

They quickly entered a room and slammed the door on the dolls faces. They leaned against the doors while the dolls tried pushing their way in. Rory looked down under the door and saw the shadows of the dolls moving away, making them feel a bit more relieved. However, that didn't lost very long when the dolls returned and banged on the door.

"We need to lock this door!" Avalon exclaimed and yelped as the door started opening a bit.

"There isn't a lock!" Rory gestured to the empty spot beside him.

Together, they managed to push the door close again and Rory reached for a giant spool of thread and placed it in front of the door. They backed away from it and looked for another way out.

"We can't stay in here," Amy grew frantic as she saw no more doors for them to go through, "We've got to get out!"

"Lovely idea," Avalon sarcastically remarked, "Any suggestions?"

"Take control," Amy took a breath, "Take control of the only thing we can. Letting them in!"

"She's finally lost it," Avalon pointed, "Are you telling us to let them in?"

"We surprise them," Amy tried to explain her abrupt plan, "We open the door and we push past them. Kick them. Punch them. Anything. You're freakishly strong, it should be a piece of cake!"

Rory looked at the door where the banging wouldn't cease and sighed, "Okay..."

They returned to the door and Rory grabbed a mop for a weapon. Avalon and Amy moved the spool and let the door open, one of the dolls falling to the floor.

"Go!" Avalon exclaimed.

Rory pushed past the other doll with the mop and ran out. The gingers followed but Avalon gave a yelp when one of the dolls caught her, "No!" she cried.

Amy angrily snatched the mop from Rory and whacked the doll with it, not about to let her granddaughter be taken by some stupid doll. As if! She quickly helped Avalon get up from the floor she'd fallen. But as she pushed Avalon forwards, the doll that had originally fallen into the room was back and grabbed Amy.

"No! Please, no!" Avalon watched in horror, along with Rory, as Amy was turned into one of the dolls, "It's my fault!"

All three dolls were now coming after them and with only a mop to defend themselves, it was a one-way battle. Eventually, they were backed away into the entrance room they'd been in earlier, along the top of the stairs. Fortunately, or not, they were going to bump into the Doctor and another man, Alex, who were being backed up the stairs by more dolls.

"Rory! Avalon!" the Doctor would've cheered if they weren't being caught between dolls.

"Where've you been!?" Avalon snapped at him but still hugged him tight.

"Been busy, you know, dolls and stuff," the Doctor considered and took a long sigh. He'd wanted her to stay away from danger and it still caught up with her!

"Doctor! Any ideas?" Roy called as he swayed the mop against the dolls in front of him.

"Working on it...where's Amy?"

"It's my fault," Avalon shuddered a breath as she pointed to the redhead doll on the left of the dolls coming down the stairs.

The Doctor's eyes widened in horror and started shouting, "George! George, you have to face your fears. You have to face them now! You have to open the cupboard or we'll all be trapped here forever in a living death! George! George, listen to me! George! George listen to me! George! Please! George, you have to end this! End this end this. End this now!"

And suddenly, the dolls all stopped right when they had the trio locked between them. The Doctor peered down and saw a young boy, George, standing in the middle of the room, looking terrified.

"George! George! You did it! You did it! It's OK, it's all OK now. Everything's going to be fine," the Doctor assured him but the dolls started moving towards the boy down the stairs, "No. No. No, no, no, no, no! George, you created this whole world. This whole thing, you can smash it! You can destroy it!" but the boy shook his head in fear, "Something's holding him back. Something's holding him back. Something..." he then recalled the fact that George had been afraid upon meeting him because he thought he was being sent away, "That's what did it. That's what the trigger was," the Doctor turned for the other man, the adoptive father of the boy who was in reality an alien, "He thought you were rejecting him. He thought he wasn't wanted. That someone was going to come and take him away."

Avalon and Rory looked down at the boy who was trembling with fear as the dolls moved towards him, "Doctor, they're getting closer to him, why are they doing that?" she looked between the two men.

"Well, we...we talked about it," Alex began.

"Yeah, and he heard you, Alex. A Tenza's sole function is to fit in, to be wanted, and you were rejecting him," the Doctor frantically tried to make the man see the point.

"You were rejecting your own son?" Avalon frowned and looked back at Rory, "See, this is exactly why I didn't want to look for my birth mother," she muttered and missed the look Rory did to the side.

"We just couldn't cope. We needed help!" Alex continued and glanced back at George.

"Oh, great," Rory was once again fighting off remaining dolls from them.

"Yes, but George didn't know that. He thought you were rejecting him. He still thinks it," the Doctor pointed down to the oncoming dolls for the boy.

"But how can we keep him? How can we? He's not..." Alex began but stopped to look back at George again, seeing the dolls surrounding him.

"Not what?"

"He's not...human."

"No..."

"DAD!" they heard George shout from below.

Alex pushed the large scissors to the Doctor and ran down the stairs, pushing away the dolls nearing him. He was able to take George from the dolls and hugged him, "Whatever you are, whatever you do, you're my son. And I will never, ever send you away. Oh, George. Oh, my little boy."

"Dad," George sniffled and hugged him back.

"What's happening...?" Avalon looked around as a bright, white light took over the place.

Next thing they knew, she, Rory and Amy were back on the lift that was opening its doors to a sunny morning. The three stepped out, shaken by what had happened, but none more confused than Amy wa.

"Was I...?" she questioned as they stepped out the lift.

"Yeah," Rory nodded.

Avalon hugged Amy from behind in gratitude and relief of the events that had happened. Amy looked at Rory and smiled at the action before hugging Avalon back. Yeah, she was a grandmother, a grandparent, but she was doing a very good job.

~ 0 ~

Eventually, the Doctor found his companions all sitting on a low brick wall. Avalon saw him first and jumped out of her spot, running up to him in a big hug and a surprise kiss. The Doctor held her tightly for a minute, taking in the guilt he felt for putting her in danger again. It seemed like no matter how hard he tried, it never worked out.

"I'm so sorry," he pressed a kiss to her hair.

"Don't do that," Avalon warned and pulled away. "Don't do that because you have something bigger to deal with right now."

"What is it?" He quickly looked over to Amy and Rory, thinking they'd gotten hurt but instead they were nervous...nervous for him.

Avalon was glaring daggers at him just before she pushed him away. "Tell me, when you mentioned that French mistress you knew so well...you forgot to mention the part where you snogged her!"

The Doctor was stunned at the accusation but he soon realized where, oh where, she could've possibly learned that. He turned the dagger-glare onto Amy and Rory. "You are dead to me, Ponds."

"It was her! I didn't do anything!" Rory pointed at Amy who gaped at how quickly he sold her out.

"You traitor!" She got up and moved for the TARDIS, prompting Rory to do the same.

"You did it!"

Avalon groaned at the pair and continued her own battle with the Doctor. "You are such a liar!"

"I did not lie! I just...omitted some parts!"

"That's lying! You liar! Don't expect me to kiss you anytime soon!"

The Doctor rubbed his face in frustration. "Why are we even giving this the time of day? It doesn't matter! You weren't even born when that happened!"

Avalon waved him off and turned for the TARDIS. "Oh, sure, use that excuse!"

"It's not an excuse! It's literally what happened!"

"Sure!"

"Oh my God..." The Doctor had to take in a deep breath before following her. She was incredibly crazy but then he heard the argument her grandparents were having inside the TARDIS and he realized Avalon never stood a chance. "You're all crazy," he mumbled under his breath then put on his best smile for his grumpy Ava. He'd have to apologize (even if she really hadn't been born yet) but it would be a fun time afterwards. "Ava, my Ava..." he went towards her.

"Leave me alone!" She snapped but he just laughed.

Author's Note:

I loved writing that ending because it's so stupid but so in-character for Avalon xD. I also really like this chapter because it kind of focuses on the Ponds this time around, all of them! P.S I also loved writing the little interrogation moment from Avalon and 11. It was hilarious!

Next chapter is an original one and features the return of someone special! Anyone wanna take a guess? ;)

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Jac & Savannah

Jac: Cannot stop thinking about that one dress in that last boutique we checked out though... Jac: so lowkey mad at Isabelle for having to go home to walk her dog 🙄😩 Savannah: UGH I know! Don't get me started yet again on how her mum is literally never there to do anything for it & they don't even have a garden Savannah: I'll go back & get it for you, she can't stop me Savannah: I have less than zero reasons to hurry home Jac: Lowkey like, who do I call again? 😬 Jac: the poor thing, as if breathing wasn't issue enough without having to contend with getting overweight and her mum's vape habit Jac: You're so pure 🥺🥺 Jac: and I'm personally not over seeing you in that one shade of pink like ??? Jac: 👼🏾 walking Savannah: ^^^  the levels of cruelty make my heart hurt, honestly 😢 but I won't get to Heaven until I convince them to see the error of their ways & that is a battle I simply do not have the energy for today Savannah: you could literally wear that AWFUL dress that Isabelle was considering- thank god we talked her out of that much! 🙌🏾- & still look like an actual goddess Jac: Seriously, I don't know how they can live with themselves Jac: that would be their business, because I'm not as caring as you, or even close, but the fact it hurts you means it's mine too 😤 Jac: actually though, would have had to pretend to not know her, oh my God Jac: not to mention how short it was, as well as just hideous...like this is a SCHOOL event, girl, I... 🤦 Jac: it does mean we're scheduled to help her keep looking though Jac: which is becoming a trial, like I'm so sorry to say but wow Savannah: I likewise don't have the necessary reserves to try and teach her the difference between positive & negative attention Savannah: Can Amelia not help her look? I highly doubt her wardrobe is fully stocked with suitable school event dresses so surely she still needs to keep looking too? Jac: That's a whole conversation her mother should be having with her but also needs Jac: sad, really Jac: Poor, poor Is Jac: Meels is a committed outfit repeater, no matter the occasion Savannah: She can't wear jeans to this though Jac: 🙄 I've also tried on that subject Jac: it'll just become a whole THING Jac: us trying to sort both of them out and getting nowhere with our own looks Savannah: 😔 I'm exhausted by their indecision, it's taking the excitement out of it Savannah: I understand that they can't and don't feel themselves in just anything, but it's getting ridiculous Jac: ^^ Totally agree Jac: although us being on the same page is not anything like a surprise these days Jac: it's so unfair, really Jac: they're not even THAT bothered about the whole thing Jac: we've put effort in before this whole step even Savannah: I knew you'd understand, despite feeling like I'm the one who is being totally unfair by saying anything, the rational part of my mind which isn't on the verge of tears as a result of Is' complaints or Amelia's apathy is like no, Savannah, you're not wrong Savannah: it does matter to us & it's allowed to be viewed as important Savannah: not to mention enjoyable, god forbid Jac: You NEVER need to doubt yourself Jac: you're a complete empath, honestly, to your own detriment Jac: but that isn't your fault and people should try to give even a fraction of what you give them back Jac: so, for your wellbeing, I'm calling a time-out on this and them Jac: you've got to focus on you for once ❤ Savannah: I can't tell you how wholeheartedly I wish I was the person you think I am, Ty & I had a HUGE fight earlier & I've been plagued by self doubt ever since Jac: Oh no, okay, what was said? Savannah: He seemed to think that we had plans today, which is not a conversation I remember us having, so of course I wasn't going to cancel on you all Savannah: & that makes me the most thoughtless girlfriend he's ever had Savannah: I'm so sorry the girl you dated for like two weeks dropped everything without a second thought if you even hinted that you wanted her too because she didn't have a life Savannah: they broke up for that exact reason Jac: He's totally got the wrong day Jac: you don't double-book Jac: not dragging him, he's clearly just so busy with his own stuff too but yeah, no way Jac: he'll work it out and owe you a great apology Savannah: it was beyond upsetting, I swear I need a mental health break from everyone but you Jac: I get it Jac: no boy drama but my family are driving me INSANE right now Jac: I vote we go test 💅 colours and get a hand massage to boot Savannah: Can we? I don't want to be responsible for causing you more family drama Jac: Ugh, no, they're fine Jac: and you're more important than any of this drama, Is and Amelia's too Savannah: ^^ I don't care how hard Ty is sulking, I'm not going to leave you to cope with them on your own Savannah: you needed my help first Jac: Like, he can't put that on you Savannah: he's never spoken to me that way before & I have no idea where it came from Jac: Is he under a lot of pressure right now, on the team? Jac: or at home, school Jac: either way, the issue is not with you, and he probably knows that already Savannah: No, everything's going really well Jac: 🤔 Savannah: It's me, it has to be Jac: You've not done what he's saying you have Jac: accusing would be too strong a word but Jac: we'll work it out but I'm totally clueless right now Savannah: me too 😢 Jac: Lowkey mad at him now Savannah: I shouldn't have even said anything, I told myself that I wasn't going to Savannah: but then Isabelle & Amelia started sulking too & it brought it all back Jac: No, I want to be there for you Jac: and make you feel better Jac: which I definitely will Jac: but I just can't explain away why he's being like this 🥺😢 Jac: and I wish I could Savannah: You'll definitely make me cry, you're the best Savannah: he was acting as though I don't make time for him, which is not true, but if it were, the reason would be that nobody deserves as much of it as you Jac: making you cry doesn't sound like something the best would do Jac: you've got to have your own lives, own friends Jac: you do NOT wanna be THAT couple Savannah: if you don't want my tears because I couldn't be happier to have found the love of my life, I'll keep them in, since they are yours, it's totally fine Savannah: yes, exactly & he knows that, he has more friends than extra-curriculars & he has as many of those as I do Savannah: it doesn't make any sense Jac: I will treasure them Jac: and make sure they never, ever spill for anything less than the happiest of moments, because that is all you deserve Jac: I could talk to him...totally on the low and in the most well-intentioned way Jac: maybe it's something he doesn't want to burden you with? but he has accidentally burdened you with this doubt and worry instead Savannah: 🥰🤗 Savannah: you'd do that? Jac: Of course! Jac: You're my soul sister, so I hope Ty at least considers me a friend too at this point Jac: he's going to have to get used to having me around 😅 Savannah: if he doesn't we have a bigger problem than I thought because I love you so much Savannah: & I will run away with you if anyone ever tries to make me choose 😄 Jac: He's smart, he's not gonna do that Jac: though honestly, I could do with the break right now, would not say no Savannah: maybe we could have one, it's essentially my right as a child of a broken home to play my parents off against each other Savannah: & if my dad is foolish enough to believe he can buy back any of my love or respect after what he's done, why should I feel bad for treating him like one Savannah: I refuse to, I do need to focus on myself Jac: In terms of making-up-to-do, he's in the lead no question, or so far behind everyone else, looking at it that way Jac: I think it would be the most appropriate way to end transition year Jac: God knows if my parents would go for it 🙄 Savannah: I'll talk to them, I've never lost a debate so far & I couldn't be any more well intentioned, my heart is in the exact right place Jac: 👼🏾🥰 Jac: next year is when everything gets REAL Jac: we need the holiday we are NOT going to get until...I don't even want to think about the next time we'll be able to take a real break after this Savannah: ^^^ Savannah: whatever I have to do to make it happen & be perfect, so be it Jac: the salon is the EXACT right place to plan all this Jac: all the inane questions they ask about your holidays will actually be useful for once 🤭 Savannah: 😄 Jac: This is like, just a you and me thing, right? Savannah: of course Jac: Okay because helping Isabelle pick bikinis is the opposite of fun 😂 Savannah: oh my god, I don't even want to imagine Jac: if the dress breakdowns aren't bad enough Jac: we'd be so stressed we'd be put on the no-fly list, honestly Savannah: Amelia would probably throw my body into the sea, weighted down by rocks or Isabelle's dog, I swear she hates me Jac: How could anyone hate you? Jac: and she's friends with me, so her taste can't be THAT off Savannah: we won't mention that she's also friends with Is Savannah: any excuse to talk about how perfect you are instead Jac: I seriously think if we wouldn't, who would 😶 Jac: you'll make me 😳 Savannah: OH! The tans we'll both get Savannah: you'll be sightseeing & I'll just be staring at you in disbelief because you somehow got even more beautiful Jac: Oh please Jac: you're so stunning they'd be running to write new laws just to make it illegal how good you look Savannah: stop, nobody can see me 😳 but I still feel it Savannah: it should be illegal how you make me feel Jac: sorry, but a world where you don't know and aren't told how perfect you are is just not one I wanna live in 💁 Savannah: I don't deserve you, all I've done today is mope & wish your friends away so that I can have you all to myself Jac: We deserve each other Jac: if I didn't have you, who would I be able to get excited about this with? Jac: I'd be going on my own, most likely Savannah: okay, you're right Jac: I just get sad thinking about all the time we weren't friends and didn't know each other properly before Savannah: No, don't be sad, baby, we trust in the universe because it was meant to be now not then Savannah: lord knows I needed my glow up before I could be around you Savannah: 👼🏻✨🌞💛 Jac: That's true Jac: I'm more thankful that we have NOW and the promise of forever than I could ever be sad Jac: definitely not ignoring how blessed I am Jac: also blessed that my hair grew back in and I lost the puppy fat look 😬🤦 Savannah: I stand by what I said when I first saw the pictures Savannah: you were ADORABLE Jac: you're too sweet but I'm not gonna complain about it 🥰 Savannah: It's true & you know that because I would never jeopardise our connection Savannah: you're the only person I can talk to with total honesty, it's so important to me Jac: I only feel like myself with you Jac: no one else gets it all Savannah: I feel like a better person when I'm with you Savannah: but with none of the pressure that my parents put on me not to fail or the fear I have of letting Ty down Jac: You're the best person Jac: if all I do is give you the confidence to believe that, then that's totally worth it Savannah: You're going to achieve everything you want Jac: I can't wait to be Dr Taylor to your Dr Moore Savannah: 😊 Savannah: I'll be there to make sure every second of your life is worth it until then & of course after Jac: Naturally ❤ Jac: have you seen the groupchat? Savannah: please don't judge me for not having opened it Jac: I couldn't even when I'm just sat here like 🤨😑 Jac: Is has sent a million links and they seem to be getting worse every one I open ??? Savannah: Well I can't face that until later when I'm 🛀🏾🥂 Savannah: not that I'll be staying at Ty's unless he apologises to me Jac: You can always stay with me Savannah: I don't think any of your family would be fine about the always, but I wish I could Jac: They'll deal, I have to put up with all of them so 💁 Jac: I'm trying to persuade them to move the sofa bed from the hangout area to the music room, make it more of a spare room too, more privacy Jac: it's not fair that Jesse has a whole room with all his crap in, there's plenty of space in said hangout room for him Savannah: 😄 I'm sure we could win that debate too, I definitely have as much passion about the subject as you if it means I don't have to go home Savannah: it's impossible to 🛀🏾🥂 when my mum is mid-breakdown in her en-suite Jac: 😬😥 Jac: she needs to convert the passion she had for couples therapy for solo therapy now Savannah: Honestly! It's a full time job making sure she's adequately but not over medicated & if I'm worrying about it I know Sienna is Savannah: I have to unlock the door to let her in & before I know it I'm re-doing her braids or checking her homework, all the while my bath water is going cold Jac: You're actually such a good sister, and daughter Jac: In awe of you Jac: I wish you didn't have to work as hard as you do, but it's really admirable Savannah: like, so sorry that you had to go home to walk your dog, Isabelle 🙄 it's no wonder she doesn't understand me Jac: She doesn't even try Jac: she lives on planet Is where the most important thing is which bland boy she's going to get off with next Jac: I can't claim so many of your experiences and struggles but I respect the hell out of you, and try to make your life easier where and when I can Savannah: oh my god, the boy from the other night! I can't Jac: 🤢 Jac: her taste! Jac: worrying Jac: ugly dresses are the least of her problems Jac: I feel like I can't leave her alone sometimes, honestly Savannah: if this thing with Ty is leading to a break up I refuse to date any of the boys in our school Savannah: that would be another full time job working out which of them have & haven't done what with her & when Jac: tell me about it 🙄 Jac: they're all so lacklustre Savannah: ^^^ Savannah: we know our worth & we're simply too good for any of them unless they have a serious emotional glow up of their own Jac: Mhmm Jac: Ty is never gonna break up with you though Savannah: I don't know anymore, I never thought he would raise his voice to me Jac: That's pretty out of order Jac: he knows about your dad, what he's like Savannah: & it's really out of character too Jac: Yeah, totally Jac: men and anger issues are a whole can of worms Jac: there's something he isn't dealing with, for sure Savannah: or something he's not telling me Savannah: I just hope it's not a someone Jac: who could even come close to you? Jac: he's not that cliche of having the perfect girl and risking it on some skank Savannah: Logically I know that but I'm so scared Jac: Babe 🥺 Jac: you NEED to put you first, even just for the length of this nail appointment Jac: you don't need this extra stress from him Jac: I've started the convo, you can read it all once we get to the meat of it Savannah: I just want to be excited about 💅🏾 & all the iconic outfits we saw Savannah: it's SO unfair Jac: I hate this Jac: I wish I could take you away right now Savannah: you do, I'd be even more a wreck if you weren't the amazingly intuitive person you are, earlier without even having to be told I was upset you made me feel better over and over again Savannah: and right now you know what I need, way before I can put it into words or coherent thoughts Jac: we trust the connection too 💫💐💞 Savannah: I love you Savannah: I'm not devoting time & space to anyone else today, from this point on Jac: and we're definitely getting lunch after, my treat Savannah: no, mine Savannah: you've already been taking such good care of me Jac: Okay, but we will be going [place] and I will be getting you your favourite dessert Jac: no arguments 😘 Savannah: Okay, I won't fight you on it Jac: there are so many more important, and fun, decisions for us to make Savannah: ^^^!! Savannah: is Is still trying to force you to make outfit decisions for her though? Jac: I've said we've got more pressing matters right now Jac: I've made it sound like a me issue though, don't worry Jac: they'll have to cope without us for a while Savannah: Thank you, I can't cope with their relationship advice at the best of times Jac: Yeah, there's less than zero chance they'd have anything useful to say so Jac: they don't need to know Savannah: We won't tell them about the holiday plans either, that way you'll have a nice secret to keep as well as my stupid boyfriend drama Jac: to secrets 🥂 Savannah: 🥂 Savannah: Are you still thinking about that dress or have I ruined everything? Jac: You could never ruin anything with me Jac: so yes Jac: but I'm also remembering that other shop we didn't even get a chance to check out Savannah: their window display is INCREDIBLE ✨ Savannah: we should go Jac: I KNOW Jac: I've been window shopping every time I go past Jac: and to be fair, I think it's a bit out of Isabelle's price range, so it actually wouldn't be nice to take her there Savannah: the universe has spoken, I'm taking you there, our secret Jac: 🥰 Jac: I swear I only have fun when I'm with you Savannah: you're so much fun that nobody considers you might not be having any, but I promise I'll always think about you & what you need Jac: You'll make me cry now Savannah: Baby, no 🥺 if you start you'll set me off again Savannah: I'm a really ugly crier & you look like an 👼🏻 Jac: Okay, okay, no crying Jac: we'll stay flawless Savannah: that's harder work for me than it could ever be for you, but I'll do my best Jac: You're the most perfect person I've ever known Jac: inside and out Savannah: I feel that way about you, I'm not just saying it like, oh sure, me too Savannah: you're so perfect I should hate you Jac: Yeah, I know Jac: sorta been there done that Jac: not that I ever hated you really Savannah: I couldn't Jac: No, in the way how perfect you are SHOULD be impossible, that's how hating you felt Savannah: that's it exactly Savannah: & I just wanted you to notice me, I'd wait all day sometimes, getting more extra about everything Jac: It was like, I should've been mad at you but I could only ever be impressed Savannah: Well, I can't lie, I'm glad because I've never worked that hard for anyone before Savannah: it'd be super awkward if I failed Jac: 😅 Jac: I'm flattered Jac: how many boys wish, like Savannah: of course, but boys are easy Jac: duh, if you need to try then you've got bigger problems Savannah: I don't understand what Amelia's is, a smile & a hair flip & she could be dating anyone in our year Jac: Yeah, me either Jac: maybe she's had the same 💭 about Isabelle's seconds Savannah: 😄 Savannah: at this point I'm seriously expecting her to come out as asexual Jac: 🤔 maybe you're onto something Savannah: I do have good instincts for these things Jac: True Savannah: one of Sienna's friends is & nobody's been anything but really supportive about it Savannah: her year group are so sweet though Savannah: I was not like that a year ago Jac: Awh Jac: yeah, she knows we'd all support her Jac: and no one is going to say anything to her Jac: no one with half a brain cell anyway Savannah: & even if things were said it'd be no worse than what they say about her now Jac: Facts Jac: I don't know if she 1. genuinely doesn't hear 2. pretends not to or 3. seriously doesn't care Savannah: & you know her better than anyone so if you aren't sure she probably isn't either Jac: 😕 Jac: if she gave any indication, I'd do everything to help her Savannah: I know you would Savannah: I'm honestly so jealous of how close you two are & have been for like, ever Jac: but we're just as close now Savannah: I can't help but envy all the shared history you have though, all the pictures & stories that I'm obviously left out of Savannah: I shouldn't think like that, I know Savannah: but sometimes it does get to me, even though I try & be a better person than that Jac: We're going to make so many memories together though Jac: from now 'til forever Savannah: of course we are Savannah: it's no wonder he also accused me of being over sensitive, that one is very clearly true Jac: people just say that when they don't want to make allowances for other people's inconvenient feelings Jac: you can feel that, and I feel it too Jac: I wish you had been there Savannah: it just feels like she brings up all these past anecdotes as often as she does to try & leave me out Savannah: but maybe she doesn't realise how much it hurts me Jac: I'm sure she doesn't, but I'll make extra effort to clock it and get her to chill now Jac: we don't need to dwell on the past, especially at our age 🙄 Savannah: I don't want to cause friction, I can totally understand her wanting to reminisce, if we'd known each other then, I'd be the same Savannah: I talk & think about you literally all the time as it is Jac: Not even Jac: I don't want you feeling left out, or anyone Savannah: you would never Jac: you're so important to me Savannah: you've always let me know that Jac: 🥰 Savannah: I don't know how I would cope with anything that's going on in my life right now without you Savannah: I didn't even realise how badly I needed someone to talk to Jac: You look after everyone, you need someone to look after you Savannah: I can't rely on anyone to do that though Jac: me 🙋 Savannah: you can't leave me ever, I swear I'll go crazier than my mother Jac: I never will Jac: I promise Savannah: okay, I'm yours to look after then Jac: I can cope with that 😄 Savannah: you've definitely handled me at my worst, I haven't forgotten my bathroom breakdown, trust me Savannah: the embarrassment will last forever Jac: it so easily could have been me Jac: and maybe I wouldn't have had the courage to ever reach out if not, frame it like that Savannah: No, I hate that Jac: Okay, but no embarrassment either Jac: because you're the strongest person I know, and nothing I've learnt about you has changed that opinion Savannah: Well, I think you're the bravest & I fully believe you'll always find the courage to do whatever you want Jac: 🤞 Jac: I've got a lot of things I want and intend to do Savannah: 👏🏾 Yes girl! Savannah: I can't wait for transition year to be over Jac: Ugh, I know Jac: on the one hand, LOVE the extra opportunities and learning experiences they simply do not bother with the rest of the time Jac: but the other half is having to do lessons I have NO intention of carrying on with, which is just, pointless Savannah: ^^^^^^^^^ Savannah: my auntie was complaining at me as if it was OPTIONAL & I CHOSE it, excuse me Jac: Ha! 🙄 Jac: we all know it's meant to be in theory Jac: but if you don't go to a school with a high teacher to child ratio, with the budget and time to care about tailoring the learning experience to each child...then you're gonna have to do it with the rest, like it or lump it Savannah: She's a product of the American school system, there is zero place for her criticism Jac: and I- 😶 Jac: even our worst school would be preferable I'm sorry 😂 Savannah: Right?! Jac: Compared to the English and American systems, except maybe the super-elite English ones, I feel like we're still going to be at an advantage when we go to Uni Savannah: Agreed Savannah: even this year we've totally made the most of so far Jac: You've got to Jac: or you'll end up with a mediocre life and what is the point in even living Savannah: Ugh, exactly Savannah: I can already tell who is going to end up living like that Jac: I know right Jac: like, sorry to break it to you, but they're called FORMATIVE years for a reason Savannah: mhmmmm Jac: you can still have fun without ruining your life and future Jac: you just have to work hard too and some people are simply too lazy 💁 Savannah: ^^ we manage to have it all Savannah: I'm not sorry if they don't want it enough to secure it for themselves Jac: Exactly Jac: can't be sorry for you if you chose to act that way Jac: maybe some of them will turn it around years down the line but it'll be so much harder than if they'd put the work in when they were meant to Savannah: It breaks my heart that everybody doesn't have you to guide & hype them Jac: Only you deserve me though, that's the truth of it Savannah: I'm willing to work at that for the rest of my life too so Jac: 🥺 Jac: Ugh, I just love you Jac: you've really solidified all my life choices, if that makes sense Jac: like I know now everything I want is exactly what I need too Savannah: It makes perfect sense & I feel it too Jac: Thank God you do Savannah: My family are always pushing me to go to Trinity, they don't understand at all Jac: like, yeah, it's a good Uni, but we've done Dublin Jac: it's also the point of Uni to expand your horizons, put roots down somewhere else Jac: your hometown and Uni town are NOT meant to be the same Savannah: ^^ thank you Savannah: Sienna is the only one whose opinion is valid because I will be leaving her here alone for a year before she can go wherever she decides to & she'll actually miss me Savannah: my parents just want to control me Jac: Right, you aren't being selfish about it Jac: it's because you're too useful to them, like you said, looking after Sienna and your mum Jac: but those are actually both jobs your dad took on when he got married and made a family so Jac: he still has to deal with them Savannah: He gets to literally walk out but god forbid I take the next step in my life Jac: Right, he has to realize you are not a surrogate carer Jac: and that sorting those things out will always be his responsibility Savannah: He takes no responsibility for abandoning us never mind the fact that he spent years emotionally destroying my mum & then walking out when he didn't like who she became Jac: He's going to have to face his blame one day Jac: if nothing else, he does love you and Sienna, he wouldn't let anything really bad happen to you two Savannah: I don't feel loved, I feel like he decided none of us were good enough Savannah: maybe I'm too much like her for him to handle too Jac: I hate that he's made you feel like that Jac: but if anything, that shows failure on his part, not yours Jac: you're brilliant and loving and you're still there, even though it's so much for you to handle Jac: you don't need him, but that doesn't mean he shouldn't be held accountable right now, and that it's shit that he isn't stepping up Savannah: I hate him & I can't stand that he's made me carry hate in my heart when that isn't who I want to be Jac: Oh, Sav Jac: you wouldn't hold negative feelings towards him if he wasn't giving you that energy first Jac: you're never a doormat, again, it shows you're strong Savannah: Don't let me be with Ty, okay? Jac: Promise Savannah: Throw my phone into the 🛀🏾 if you have to, I'll forgive you Jac: 😅 I've got it in writing Savannah: 😄 Jac: would never drop it in 🥂 Jac: such a waste Savannah: Lord no, I need the full 🍾 Jac: 🙌 I can get behind that Jac: it's been a DAY Savannah: it had it's genuine 🙌🏾 moments nevertheless, because of & featuring you Savannah: I've looked at the pictures so many times, I CANNOT believe you really look like that Jac: 😳 says you Savannah: yes & I'm going to keep saying it until it sinks in for both of us that you're the most beautiful person that has ever existed because I'm hoping that if it does for me, at least, whatever dress you choose won't take my breath away as soon as I see you in it Savannah: otherwise you'll be trying to twirl but also having to catch me as I legitimately faint Jac: you'll have to not kill me before then or I won't be any use to anyone Jac: just a blushy mess on the floor Savannah: that isn't fair, on the one hand, you can't die, I need you, but on the other that sounds ADORABLE Jac: it's unfair how much of an 👼🏾 you are to me but I don't wanna share so Savannah: pink is one of my favourite colours, you know this & you wear it so well 🌺😳🌷 Jac: I'll wear it for you Jac: even if I don't go for that dress Jac: I wonder if we can get corsages or is that too extra 🤔 Savannah: I'll get that dress if it makes you happy, I'll wear anything you want me to, including a corsage Savannah: there is no such thing as too extra when you're talking about 🌷 🌹 🌺 🌸 🌼 🌻 Jac: my sentiments exactly 😄😄 Jac: I don't think Amelia will wear one Jac: but we can get them Jac: we can get our birth flowers and favourites and it'll be so cute Savannah: It should be an us thing, the holiday is so far away Jac: ^^ and it's more our vibe Jac: doesn't go with a short dress or jeans, really Savannah: 😄 Jac: I've got some books I need to return to the library, do you wanna meet at that little coffee place by there? Savannah: how many books? If you need help carrying them all I'll meet you at the library Jac: love the romcom fantasy 😅 Jac: you know me, there's a few... 😬 Savannah: 😊 I'll be right there, baby Savannah: no more struggles today Jac: ❤❤✨ Savannah: 🥰

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notes I took during my second viewing of tros (on my phone in the theater because I'm that asshole)

Warning: many a spoiler for the rise of skywalker ahead. if you haven't seen it this post will ruin the whole movie

kylo ren is a nasty ass emo boy with gross hair but adam driver's voice? god tier

what are they doing with Palpatine in this why wouldn't they just leave him dead

goddammit my dad figured out the big twist in the first five minutes

JJ ABRAMS IS A LIL BITCH FINNPOE WAS RIGHT THERE BUT HE GAVE POE SOME FUCKIN RANDOM ASS HETERO LOVE INTEREST OUT OF NOWHERE

cannot emphasize enough that kylo ren is gross

"I'm just... not feeling myself." -rey skywalker, 2020

okay is it nighttime or daytime make up your fucking mind

hold up the sith have their own goddamn LANGUAGE

wait who tf is rose. didn't she die last movie

my assholery is really showing as I spoil the movie for my family

leia: "never be afraid of who you are." rey: does the exact goddamn opposite

okay darth vader wannabe

the festival scene was actually really cool

rey you're too good for ben, he's a freaking douchebag. don't take his hand blergh

a thought: polyamorous rey x finn x poe

way to make an entrance lando

what is disney's thing with bloodlines?? WHO YOUR PARENTS ARE DOESN'T FREAKING MATTER 90% OF THE TIME. WHO YOU'RE RELATED TO DOESN'T MAKE UP YOUR PERSONALITY TF

they fly now? seriously?

yep. star wars would definitely kill all the important people a third of the way into the movie /s

I know they did their best because Carrie Fisher died, but all of her scenes fall flat. she barely talks and when she does it's ridiculously vague.

are the sith a nation? do they have their own planet? lore? are they ALL bad?

yes I just healed the snake thing with my magic, what about it

now we know what the baby yoda healy thing is ig

is Finn force sensitive? could he become another jedi?

just the IDEA of facing ren is giving rey a panic attack but sure reylos they're meant to be

how the fuck is kylo even ALIVE what the FUCK

they both be vibrating doe

POLYAMOROUS REY X FINN X POE THOUGH

[leaves to refill popcorn]

what is a spice runner? why is that significant?

zory's alright but I just HATE that they gave pie a hetero love interest

they gotta stop killing characters just to bring them back

jj abrams is still a lil bitch

how did they remember what 3PO said? I IMMEDIATELY forgot

ngl poe damaron is kinda hot. my inner bi is showing

oh what your girlfriend never tried to kill you before?

oh what your boyfriend never tried to control you by making him your only option?

oh what your girlfriend never stabbed you in the gut?

oh what your boyfriend never pinned you down and almost murdered you?

I miss han solo

okay tbh, Ben had potential for a redemption arc. there just wasn't enough of it there, and too much violence against his supposed love interest and everyone else.

the sith robe people don't seem real. neither does palpatine tbh. they just feel like ghosts.

why can't we explore the jedi and the sith as valid, opposite parts of the force. just like mistborn and avatar the last airbender. they're both necessary for balance.

yessss finnpoe the cogeneral boyfriends

tbh the lesbian kiss at the end pissed me off. I'm glad they know at this point that representation is important and including the gays gets them a wider audience of people who don't hate them but it pisses me off that they'll do the bare fucking minimum and praise themselves for it. a 2 second lesbian kiss, one unnamed gay man, both cut out for international audiences.

the sith audience served zero freaking purpose. they were just. there.

oh so the sith formed a choir huh. between the murdering and the evil they practice ominous harmonies

ow I ate too much popcorn

that lightning shot looks really cool

can't really see it but it's super badass

I'd be mad if they did kill someone I care about but I'm also mad they didn't. where are the stakes

They're blurry but I got a pic of the lesbians

I hate that reylo kissed but GOD the look he gave her when they pulled away.... watch me start to cry. adam driver you're incredible

I'll take this as confirmation that my rey x finn x poe ship is sailing

oh shit is it illegal to take pictures? woops

what happened to tatooine though? it's completely empty

"rey who?" *TEN HOURS LATER* "rey skywalker."

why the fuck does rey have a gold lightsaber? when did she even have time to make it?

jj abrams is still a lil bitch

You're welcome that was my commentary

Review

I liked the glimpse into Poe's past, but if I were in charge I would have made Zory an ex-boyfriend, and instead of Poe asking "can I kiss you?" it's Zory, and Poe says something angsty about being in love with Finn. I enjoyed the continuation of Finn pining after Rey, but I wish that he'd realized there was no hope and started to move on a bit. (with poe obviously.)

This is a bit of a we'll-never-be-happy-with-anything commentary, but I wish that an important character died without warning. they kept killing but bringing back characters (chewie and 3PO) and magically getting characters out of ridiculously dangerous situations (skimmer on water, climbing around the death star, about to fall off the star destroyer). I'd be mad if a character died, but I'm mad none of them did, if that makes sense.

I think that the Rey and Ben force diad thing whatever and their entire relationship had tons of potential, but they executed it terribly. They made kylo ren an unlikable character when he killed han solo for one, and the fact that they kept trying to kill each other made it impossible for me to root for them as a ship. However, I loved the ending they had, standing together against Palpatine. (side note- making Rey a Palpatine was GENIUS. big fan.) also adam driver and daisy ridley are incredible actors.

Main takeaway-- it could have been better, but I'm really happy with it. Overall I enjoyed watching it, which is the #1 priority for any movie, the twists and character arcs landed well to me, it had a satisfying ending to the trilogy. I'd watch it a third time. jj abrams is still a coward bitch but I can look past it.

#the rise of skywalker #tros #tros spoilers #tros review #rey skywalker #rey palpatine #? which do we refer to her as #rey #rey x finn x poe #finnpoe #stormpilot #anti reylo #jj abrams is a bitch #jj abrams is a coward #the rise of skywalker spoilers #tros commentary #long post #on top of being an asshole who uses their phone in the movie theater #I'm also the asshole who talks during the movie #my family and friends hate me

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That's my mommy

Ashton and I had been dating for 3 and a half years and he finally asked me if I wanted to move in with him and his daughter, (H/D/N). She will be turning 3 this year as well.

Ashton was a single parent when I first met, his wife left him with a two month old baby, divorce papers, saying that "motherhood just wasn't her thing". After that he never heard from her again, leaving him to play both mom and dad. He had admitted that having to be a multi-parent was tough, but it did have his perks. But he was glad he had his family help him.

When we had our first date he was nervous when he brought up that he had a little girl. It didn't change my interests in him, he was still the same Ashton I met at the carnival they held every year in fall. He was still the same Ashton Irwin who loved to write music, and play every now and again. Ashton was still Ashton. The only thing that changed about him happened after having (H/D/N). She changed him for the better. I didn't think it was possible for him to get any better than he already was.

I was honored when Ashton asked me to meet his daughter. His eyes would sparkle when I'd ask how (H/D/N) is doing and as she got older and the more I would come over or stay the night, the more I got myself attached.

Ashton was having a meeting with management today so I told him I was fine watching her for the time being. (H/D/N) wasn't hard to handle, she is the exact opposite. Plus I live here with them now, I want her to know I'm always going to be here when Daddy isn't.

"(Y/N) I'm so sorry the meeting took longer than I thought" Ashton starts as I put a finger to my lips.

"She just fell asleep" I whisper, as he gives me a quick smile, the only sound being heard was her current movie obsession, Moana .

He slips off his shoes and jacket before picking her up, trying not to wake his sleeping angel and carried her off towards her room. I cleaned up her small bowl of leftover chips, before meeting Ashton back in the living room.

"Don't be sorry about being late, we had a good day" I kiss his cheek before snuggling up next to him.

"I really don't know what I would do without you".

"I cou--" I start before a little girl came rushing out, flinging herself small figure around me.

"Ash did you turn on the nightlight?" I say rubbing her back as he nodded his head.

"What's wrong princess?" Ashton said leaning closer to (H/D/N).

She looks up to me with sad puppy dog eyes that could make anyone melt "Mommy I had a bad dream".

I gulp down a lump in my throat as my mind started replaying the sentence (H/D/N) had stated. I tried my hardest to come off as calm as possible. I take a quick look at Ashton who also had the same reaction. I smile at him before turning my attention back to her.

"Mommy and Daddy were just about to go to bed. Do you want to come lay with us?" I ask before she nods her head.

I pass her over to Ashton as I go to change into my pajamas. I couldn't help but smile. She directed her statement at me, she called me Mommy. My heart was melting that, that little girl considered me her Mommy. I guess I had taken the role of the mother figure, she never met her birth mother and I had been around most of her life. But what about Ashton, was he okay with his daughter calling me Mommy?

The living room was complete darkness, a dim light flickering from our bedroom. As I walk in, I take a small step back, admiring the scene that lay ahead. These were the moments that I know Ashton would always hold dear to his heart. I didn't want to ruin it.

(H/D/N) was resting her head, her body curled up into him, a slight humming coming from him. Both of them had their eyes closed, he was calm and soaking up this moment as much as possible. Ashton knew that these moments wouldn't last forever so he was determined to make the most of it.

I silently crept towards Ashton. I run my hands through his hair before giving him a small kiss on his temple. His eyes fluttered open as a tired smile on crossed his face, he whispered "I love you". I nodded my head "I love you too".

 The next day I woke up a little earlier than usual to make breakfast. Lauren was coming to pick (H/D/N) for a little auntie and niece day, giving me and Ashton the day to ourselves.

The next to wake up was Ashton, he lazily sat himself at the table with a yawn.

"Sleep well?" I ask as he nods his head. It was evident he wished he could go back to bed, truthfully I don't blame him. (H/D/N), is a boxer in her sleep. We'd probably go back to bed after Lauren picks up her niece.

As I put the breakfast on the table I take a deep breath in, "Listen, about her callin--", Ashton was quick to cut me off.

"I'm actually glad you brought that up" Ashton says as he grabs a few pancakes.

"If you're uncomfortable with it I understand" I say as he laughs at my comment.

"Babe, why would I be mad? I should be asking you that. I know you aren't her birth mother, and you don't have to act like it. The fact that my daughter calls you mom makes me feel like being with you was one of the best decisions that I ever made. My daughter just approved of you without even knowing it, do you how amazing that is? I--" his speech getting cut off by a knock at the door.

"Hold on," I chuckle as he walks to the door.

I furrow my eyebrows "Lauren is a little early".

I stood up as I watched Ashton answer the door. His eyes widened and his muscles tensed up, "Hey Ash" a unfamiliar female voice half-heartedly chuckled. Ashton takes a quick look at me before turning his attention back to the girl who he hadn't let in.

"Can I ask why you're here?" he says as his hand tightens on the door. I was taken back by the sudden reaction.

My blood ran cold as her words struck me, finally realizing who she was.

"I'm here to see my daughter".

Ashton shakes his head, "You have been gone for how long? Leaving me to play both parts of being a parent. You don't know how many times I felt like alone and like a failure as a parent. If I didn't have my Mom, my sister, and my brother to help me I'd be beyond lost. The boys put their lives on hold because of me!" his voice getting louder the more he filled in his ex-wife on what his life like.

"Ashton, please calm down, (H/D/N) is still sleeping" I intervene, taking a good look at the girl who left my boyfriend alone and broken. The girl who gave me the most amazing opportunity at having become that little girl's mother.

"Who is this?" she said looking me up and down.

I force a smile onto my face, "Hi, I'm (Y/N), his girlfriend".

"Mommy?" a tiny voice squeaks behind us. I turn around with my a smile on my face. I opened my mouth to answer her before getting pushed out of the way.

"Hi sweetheart, you remember me? It's mommy"

Ashton and I look at each other before looking back to the two in front of us waiting to see what (H/D/N) and ex-wife will do. It's (H/D/N) right to know who her mother is, Ashton or I can't stop her from not knowing.

(H/D/N) just shook her head and pointed her small index finger towards my and Ashton's way.

"No, that's my mommy over there".

 Hey guys sorry this is extremely lame but 3:30 in the morning so I tried. I had an idea went for it. I hope some of you guys enjoyed it! If you guys have any ideas or request let me know!

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everytime i see posts about ppl asking if anyone can give them money because they're in v bad situations and i don't donate bc i'm trying to save up for my own projects and i'm just terrible at dealing with money (also I'm scared my parents will find out and get mad at me for sending money to strangers on the internet (i would understand but idk what to do)) i feel terrible and i always want to help as much as i can but when i don't it makes me feel so so guilty and i feel like the worst person

!!!! me too !!!!

that’s such a coincidence u sent me this because i’ve been trying to think about how to articulate a post about this exact problem. i struggle with it all the time. because the thing is: the way those posts are asking for help - and any charity/organization/person asking for help, really - are made to appeal to people with normal empathy levels. but me? i’m already inclined to help. i feel responsible for everyone on earth. like someone could just say ‘hey i’m struggling right now’ and i already feel devastated and guilty because i feel like it’s my fault and responsibility somehow. so the fact that they choose words and language particular to making you want to help them out and give them money??? i’m just a wreck. my anxiety spikes thru the fuckin roof every time i see one of those posts because i can’t help but i want to give them my life’s savings every time

(disclaimer no hate to the people who make posts asking for money. that takes a lot of bravery imo when you’re in a tough spot. and choosing the particular language that makes u empathetic is technically a smart move and the only one that makes sense! they obviously aren’t trying to prey on people, it’s my own issue that my empathy is thru the fuckin roof and i have all these guilt complexes)

the only thing that helps me is that i literally don’t have a life’s savings, lmao. i'm in debt and i’m gonna be taking out more money soon to go to school. it really helps me to open my bank account, think ‘oh shit that’s not my money i gotta give that back’ and realize that unfortunately i’m just not in any position to help someone because i’m also struggling in that respect. your situation is a bit different but the same gist - we simply don’t have the extra money to help people!! it makes me feel less guilty because then i can tell myself that i would help if i could, but i just can’t. the practicalities of it ease my mind a little

this is such a problem though for people like us, i totally feel you. i’ve considered asking people to tag it for me because it genuinely sends me into such a spiral every time but i’m afraid people will think i’m uncaring and rude when really it’s the exact opposite (not saying i’m better than ppl tho?? having this many feelings is terrible and does not help anyone lmao)

#i really hope i articulated this well it's a v sensitive topic i think #i'm glad you feel the same though?? i've always felt alone in this #and it's obviously not just posts of ppl asking for money this goes for literally everything #i've felt the need to give fuckin PBS money before... #anonymous