#i'm not quitting tumblr just so you know

[orionsangel86]

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#I know this is gonna come across as a bit pathetic #but I was already feeling a bit untethered today #wondering if I actually have a purpose here #ever since I came back to tumblr after my 4 month break I've felt very alone here #it feels a bit like everyone moved on without me #and I dunno i guess I hoped I'd be able to dive right back in again and just start engaging and enjoying it #but honestly I have been plagued with anxiety and intrusive thoughts about not being wanted #and the last thing I needed was some asshole anon #I'm already wondering if people are finding my event annoying #like maybe i should just shut up and quit #but I really fucking like doing this stuff I just wish I didn't feel so isolated #I'm being stupid i know #you should never trust how you feel about yourself after 9pm #but bleurgh its a horrible feeling #shut up saz

[pa-pa-plasma]

bro you are on the FANDOM WEBSITE why are you NOT supporting your fandom creators????? do you WANT us to stop??? do you want there to be no more art & fic?? because that’s what happens when you don’t reblog our stuff. this isn’t a threat, this is a reality. if there is no one here wanting to see our stuff we won’t post it. I’m not trying to guilt trip here, none of us are, we’re literally just saying that if there is no motivation to spend 10+ hours making fanart or 5 years writing a multichapter fic for free then we won’t fucking do it

^this shit? ridiculous. I LOVE EVERYONE WHO REBLOGGED & INTERACTED WITH MY ART! I LOVE EVERYONE WHO ASKED QUESTIONS & COMMENTED!! but so many of these people just liked it & left. this has been getting worse over the years, too. the reblogs to likes ratio has been getting crazier. I create because I love it, but if I have no reason to post, I won’t. fandoms dry up because of this. creators quit because of this.

we just need to stop acting like this is instagram, or that anyone cares what your blog looks like. people don’t see your likes, they see your reblogs. you want that favourite content creator to post more art? you want that writer to post the next chapter of your fav fic?? reblog it. share it. show them you care, because otherwise they won’t. this is a hobby we do for free. you consume our stuff for free. you aren’t entitled to it, so please just reblog, it isn’t hard.

#we aren't asking for money we're asking for you to hit a button #stop being a little bitch #this is tumblr. no one gives a shit about your ''aesthetic'' or whatever #no one even looks at who reblogs what on here #i'm sick of seeing people not sharing works out of spite & acting like wanting attention for our labour is bad #I SPEND 15 HOURS DRAWING YOU BETTER FUCKING REBLOG IT. I'M POSTING IT SO I CAN FEEL BETTER #AFTER SPENDING 15 HOURS HUNCHED IN A SHITTY CHAIR WITH MY WRIST ALL FUCKED UP & MY LAPTOP TRYING TO KILL ITSELF & ME #im not asking to be PAID im asking for you to share artist's & writers' works. we are 99% of the fandom's content #you want more content? fucking motivate us to make it. you are getting it for free. stop being an asshole & fucking reblog it #i'm so fucking tired of people with their cold ass takes #if i EVER like anyone's art & don't reblog it THAT WAS A MISTAKE. I MEANT TO REBLOG BUT TUMBLR GLITCHED OR I RAN OUT OF REBLOGS #i KNOW how hard it is to spend hours days YEARS on something & for no one to care #i am literally just asking for everyone to have some sympathy #like imagine if your employer started complaining about how selfish it is you work for free? that's this #you'd quit that job #YOU CAN'T COME TO THE FANDOM WEBSITE & COMPLAIN THAT FANDOM CREATORS WANT ATTENTION FOR THEIR WORK #EVERYONE WANTS ATTENTION YOU STUPID MANTHING IT CAME FREE WITH YOUR FUCKING HUMAN BRAIN

[mokeonn]

So I heard that Tumblr is slowly being abandoned (they seem to be laying off a majority of their staff and keeping a skeleton crew) and we might be nearing the end of this webbed site. I don't think it's currently worth panicking over, but I'm definitely going to start making that neocities website.

I'll make a post soon about other places where you can find me. Unfortunately, I've spent quite some time these last couple years getting rid of a majority of my social media because most platforms were bad for my mental health. I do not plan on going back to these platforms, so if tumblr goes down, I'm going to be only on non social media.

Maybe if one of the new social medias being created, actually take off (like bluesky or pillowfort or whatever else these days) I might join, but if not I might be entirely on personal websites, patreon (I will start posting regularly like a blog and make more free posts), some old websites I deleted but not because I hated them (such as ko-fi, which I deleted due to inactivity) and possibly furaffinity. I'm still on the fence about furaffinity. I might also finally start using my toyhouse but that is an oc sharing website and not much of an art sharing website.

I really do hope Tumblr doesn't go down, this is my one social media and if it does go down I am going to lose nearly all of my audience. I can make do by creating a personal blog and using whatever I have left in terms of "can post my art there and people can find me", and it won't discourage me from making my personal projects. I can make do, and I will make do, but I don't really want to make do.

Anyways, that's all I have to say right now, I'll make a post later once I set up some alternative sites to find me at, but for now I want to give the heads up that if I'm gone, you're not gonna find me on twitter, Instagram, or whatever third option there is. I'm likely going to just make do, be offline more, and likely just become active on the discord servers I'm on.

#simon says #long post #i think #it looks long on mobile #anyways there it is #I'm gonna have to start learning html #im also really sad that i hate making videos so much because I probably would just go on youtube #but I know from experience that I am not becoming a youtuber entirely because I fucking hate making videos that much #i get tempted quite often to become a nice little art youtuber or go into a niche art video subcategory #personally fight against the things I hate about youtube by not doing those things #but I just hate video making too much to do that #i do NOT like my voice enough to edit it #i might consider live streaming again since I used to live stream but also hnng nah im not sure #I prefer live streaming to video making because I hate making scripted videos and I love the live aspect of streaming #but also do I really WANT to stream again or do I just want an audience from a platform where it's very easy to build an audience? #that one is gonna be up in the air for a while tbh #streaming is currently in 'im not sure how i feel about it' limbo and it may never leave #if I do decide to start live streaming again you will hear about it on my sick ass personal blog I have to code #because I'll probably unravel those mixed feeling and come to a decision likely long after tumblr disappears lmaoooo #edit: #also I would rather eat my arm off than ever go back to tiktok so rule that one out forever

[kyouka-supremacy]

Uhm..................

#I got an ask‚ and to answer I was bracing myself to make a big bsd content masterpost #And I did! I was already on my way to share all the manga reading platform I use for every manga‚ I had already listed them up #And I was going to add the additional content like anime streaming resources and art scans resources... #But now I'm having some serious reconsiderations #Like I was happy to make a masterpost! Making masterposts is fun- #and fuels the autistic need to put every little thing in little categories #But now I don't know if it's... Safe to have them all in one place?? I was very glad to share with people the resources I personally use- #but I really don't want to make something that is just. A big list of sites to report / shut down. The thought scares me immensely #And I thought it was safe to share manga reading platforms on Tumblr but what about‚ to name one‚ n/yaa? Would it be safe to link to that? #And it's something I'd highly want to include because some stuff that's there you won't find anywhere else‚ #such as the Dead Apple official English translation‚ the official Beast English scans... #Same would go‚ to make another example‚ for m/initokyo‚ or anime streaming platform. #Is it safe to share those... Uhm... More hidden websites through Tumblr? And if not‚ do I have any alternative for sharing? #I'm quite sad because I was already half way through making the list- #but now I'm not sure it's worth to continue if I never end up sharing it. #But then again the safety of people who share content has the maximum priority to me– I wouldn't be able to do ANYTHING without them #Mmmmmmmmmmmhhhh... #I even contemplated sharing the masterlist through text file‚ but I'm not sure if that might work out. #For one‚ I will never EVER use g/oogle docs or any g/oogle service for the matter. I'd rather die #So... I'd really appreciate it if anyone could advice me on this / had any suggestion / thought #random rambles #Sorry for the long ramble. I'm stuck

[wild-at-mind]

Not to talk about MRA-lite spaces again but I'm going to need everyone to understand that in these spaces, the subtext of 'men don't get to talk about their problems' is ALWAYS 'and it is women's fault!'

#my time in the MRA-lite saltmines returns to me yet again whenever i see the transandrophobia side of tumblr #look- it's just the same stuff ok? Or maybe i'm just biased because it triggers me the fucking same no matter who is saying it #also please note i'm saying MRA-lite and not MRA- I understand that MRA usually has connotations of violence for people #MRA-lite is nothing like that it's just a load of talking about men's issues but without any of the context #the very important context that you need to place the issues into wider society and its effect on everyone and not just men #these spaces may not be violent but they are quite pointless and the conversations never ever go anywhere #and it's been the same like 5 conversations for the past 15 years and no doubt much longer but that's as far back as i go with it #every time someone discovers the 5 or so men's issue they act like they just converted to a religion or something #and bring it up in everything. I was like that too at like 21 i promise i get it! but now i look back and CRINGE #and i am a guy now! ok? I get it that a lot of people are transmasc doing this i get why! but..... #i just wish it was less of a Thing. and i genuinely find it triggering. #because i do fucking care ok? i have academic books about some of the 5 or so men's issues on my bookshelf! #because actually there are people writing these books and they do care! #i had someone a while ago saying it was 'sad' to see a trans man talk like i do on this so i explained where i'm coming from #and they never came back so i will never know if they saw my point of view and that kind of sucked #hopefully that won't happen again- i really don't like arguing with other transmasc people (i like discussions though) #anyway i'll stop rambling now

[culmaer]

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#there was a period where I used this blog to vent quite a lot #I've tried to stop doing that because 1) I'm just trying to be more positive in general #and 2) even if it's just venting about little things - it's still negative and probably not that much fun for you who still follow my blog #thanks for that btw #so as you probably know I was incredibly anxious about turning 30 this year #that happened a few months ago and I'm pleased to report that it's been fine #it's not a big deal at all #(I mean. aunties now raise their eyebrow slightly higher than before. since I still have neither a spouse nor phd. but whatevs) #turning 30 has been fine :) #on a completely unrelated note : this has been the absolute worst year of my life so far #certainly the worst since the desastre that was 2015 #but as of today I think 2023 exceeds that #and honestly. if its 1 god-awful year in 8. those aren't the worst statistics and life is overwhelmingly bearable. maybe even pleasant #and genuinely. truly. these are bad luck events completely unrelated to turning 30 #so anxiety of aging and life milestones is pointless #that's my lesson as a tumblr-elder (but real-world-young-person) #also yes yes el problema es el capitalismo etc but if any star sign people can explain what caused my bad luck this year : please do !

[intern-seraph]

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#seraph speaks #k word use #everything going on rn is just. awful. my dash makes me sick to my stomach on a regular basis. #but i feel such immense shame at the very idea of blocking The Words even if it's for my own well-being #because then i'll be One Of The Bad Jews or whatever #honestly this site feels really really hostile again #it hasn't felt that way since i was sent graphic gore and death threats during one of the nazi raids years and years ago #and the worst part is that this unsafe feeling is coming from ppl who i generally quite like and even trust. #to make it even worse i KNOW ppl will deride and mock me for the very fact that i (a filthy fucking jew) feel terrified and unsafe rn #because ~i'm not the one being actively bombed right now~ #i've already seen it happening. #and i just. am so tired. #as if this is a fucking competition? obvs i'm not saying i have it worse than palestinians #but honestly if you have the time to mock jews for being afraid rn #bc antisemitism ALWAYS spikes when israel's in the news for crimes (bc gentiles think all of world jewry is responsible for those crimes) #it's already been bad. it's going to get worse. #and if you come into my asks or my replies or w/e about this and get combative #genuinely just call me a fucking kike so i can block you #i just assume that if you have the time to bitch at random jews for the gall to be afraid rn that you aren't someone currently in a warzone #i feel like they have more important things to worry about than harassing jews on tumblr dot com. #anyways sorry for the [gestures] this #im not going to say anything else. will likely block certain words eventually as well. i'm just so exhausted and upset. #it's been all i can think abt.

[zebratimw]

people who write essays or are having a meltdown in reaction to my art, I hope you know you are living so rent free in my brain

#hehe thank you all for reacting with my stuff honestly #it makes me giggle n kick my feet like a little girl #ik I'm super slow at posting hshdjf #so thanks for sticking around uuu #I'm working on another 79 animation LMAO and a shorter bingqiu and one of tianlang and xiyan #but all of them are really quite taxing... and I'm busy with work so its really slow going #and I'm also on a cosplay crunch since I'm behind on my self-imposed schedule ahh #but hopefully I can finish these wips 💪 #the 79 is bittersweet while bingqiu is a meme and the tlj n xiyan is just #the usual knife LMAO #tlj n xiyan what is their ship name? I actually don't know... tianyan? tianxi? haha tiansu? xilang??? #anyways they are just like 79 💀 well not exactly but they are so close together hfjfjgjg #entrapment wrongly perceived betrayal deep-seated rage and enbitterment being just too late ahhh the flavours are melting on my tongue! #anyways just an update~ thank you all for following me n stuff btw #so many notifications nowadays ? it makes me feel bad I'm not active haha #but not enough to lighf any fires under my ass sbdjfj #tumblr is lowkey for me and it's gonna stay that way

[reserwrekt]

I do not have to tolerate people's toxicity, how are we back to trying to normalize that?

#toxic positivity #on tumblr lately #it's fine if you hate your friends and family and choose to still be around them but yeah no i don't like being around people i hate #also knowing so many people are like cool with secretly hating their friends just makes me want to have less friends to begin with #I'm quite happy being alone #stop acting like I'm broken I'm fucking not normal lol #I'm allowed to be different ironically it's like don't judge people but you're literally judging me for not doing the same thing you do #antisocial #say youre an ableist and hate antisocial people lol #feeling some type of way about people's posts lately #literally the comments were being needlessly aggressive and straight up bullying someone for disagreeing lol like there you go #shows exactly what type of people feel that way lol

[ballsballsbowls]

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#oh this is the pettiest Old Man Yells At Cloud ever #if you've followed me for a long time you know I am not 'in fandom' at all really #I'm an extremely casual fan of [IP redacted] and cannot get over how many people must like #EXPLICITLY go through the tumblr tags to reblog every post to...mention they've only sat through the first few eps? #not even a 'well I didn't like it' or anything just that they quit for Some Reason and might pick it back up someday #which is SUPER there's been like 100 eps since you dropped out and I want to know why you think people care where you stopped #to be clear I don't care if you liked it or don't I am no SuperFan I am a Casual Enjoyer who goes long stretches and then catches up #I'm just vexed and befuddled why all of these people think it's VITAL I know they haven't experienced a single ep in years? #it's SO MANY of them all commenting to say the exact same thing? #thank GOD you're here we were having a debate about something in Ep7 and needed someone who only vaguely remembers it in a contextless soup

[peridots-pixiwolf]

[Start ID. A green-toned drawing of two characters from an original universe, shown from the shoulders up. It's framed as though they're taking a selfie. On the left is Heathrow, a human with dark skin, long hair, a good number of facial scars, and two painted lines below each eye. He wears something akin to a green hoodie, with fluffy plant matter sewn into the back of the hood. On the right is Crassie, a half elf, which in this universe entails long pointed ears, a pair of short pale horns, a slightly rabbit-like nose and markings under her eyes. Her skin is olive-toned, sporting a couple distinct scars on her face and hand, and she's wearing what is essentially a bush and spiked glovelets. Both of them are smiling, Crassie a little bit wide-eyed and Heathrow with a fond expression. The background's a saturated green with the text "1 YEAR!". End ID]

A redraw-in-spirit of the post from last year's Feb 16 that introduced these two to my blog. It's their birthday :]

#peridots-art #heathrow chtn #crassie chtn #chtn #eye contact #peridots-ocs #i've only posted about them three times including this and every single time i manage to go 'hey did you know heath was originally meant as #a stand-in for the hunter from hk? i thought that was neat :)' so. obligatory mention of that i guess #because of their shifting nature i could never pin down the days they/their universe were created but i love an excuse to get emotional #about birthdays/anniversaries and such. so today it is then (it just turned midnight 17th in my timezone... it's the thought that counts) #this is also the first non-fullbody I've posted on Tumblr in a Really long time?? like there's the dragon from nov 5 and daud from oct 26. #looking past that i guess there were quite a few okay but three and a half months is a lot when you draw as much as i #anyway. these guys. #had a little more to say about them but i scrapped it. they're both very ace and aro and while i respect aroaces who don't want Any sort of #intimate relationship (platonic or otherwise!) they are about as far as you can get from it. a qpr sounds appropriate #the nature of their relationship defies description. friends and a little like siblings. life partners? a little like father and daughter. #they've only ever known each other. i may not think about them so often but man do i love them. #for the most part accidental but this was definitely inspired by miecz's art :] the linework was surprisingly fun to do #wasn't gonna address kit directly seeing as i don't know if it always reads these? but if you are your tags were very kind!! #i don't know anyone else who's as lengthy with it as i but i like talking in the tags! so. i'm glad they're appreciated :] #that isn't all i have to say on the subject (i'm never used to people being nice to me) but i'll save it for somewhere it will def. be seen #...idk how to describe their clothing. i designed his a year ago and hers more than that do you think they're supposed to make sense #there were a Lot of particularities with the id that made it. hard to write. this is better than nothing of course but don't know if it's #the most efficient. with that hour-to-thirty-minutes of my day over with (I AM TALKING ABOUT THE IMAGE DESCRIPTION MY ART TAKES 6 HOURS AT #ABSOLUTE BEST apologies for the screaming) i can officially say goodnight to you tag-wanderer and farewell

[eviltothecore13]

lots of people in this fandom CLAIM to love Gomez but when someone makes a post with Morticia as "Barbie is everything" and Gomez as "he's just Ken", it gets likes and reblogs

like...isn't that meme essentially saying "he's bland and boring/doesn't do anything interesting/is no good at anything and has nothing special about him, and no-one cares about him that much because he's just some bland generic guy with no personality beyond being a sidekick"?

do the majority of fans genuinely believe Gomez has no personality and no interesting traits?

#I really am starting to consider deleting all my fics and my Tumblr #because most of my planned WIPs focus on Gomez quite heavily #and I feel like no-one will care or want to read them because apparently everyone thinks he is dull and bland #I'm also assuming everyone I've ever talked to about him was secretly #thinking 'I wish this loser would stop going on about this boring character who no-one cares about' #'ugh they're pathetic he's the most generic bland guy on the planet why would anyone be a fan of him' #even if at the time people seemed interested I'm starting to think they must just have been pretending #because APPARENTLY the whole fandom thinks he's boring and useless and bland and stupid and has no personality #if I post any of my fics I'm worried I'll either get zero response because no-one likes or cares about Gomez #or I'll just get comments from people going 'give up and quit writing no-one cares about this stupid character he sucks and so do you' #I don't get why he's apparently seen as dull and boring when he swordfights and builds robots and blows things up but apparently he is? #I especially don't get it from Morticia fans tbh #because I don't think SHE'D actually like people calling Gomez dull and bland and forgettable and useless #she generally seems to believe he's amazing just as much as he believes she's amazing #but hey what do I know I'm clearly the only person in the fandom who finds him interesting #or thinks he has a personality or is anything more than Morticia's forgettable stupid sidekick #so I guess I'm just stupid and wrong about everything #and should stop writing fic because apparently I'm too stupid to understand the characters properly #and I'm just an idiot with bad taste and bad opinions #because if I was a true fan who understood the characters I'd think Gomez was boring and useless too like everyone else does #it's just not fun to know that everyone I thought was interested in my fics and headcanons was only pretending to be

[wild-at-mind]

I crave validation so strongly. I wish I could help everyone in the world and yet I am unable to help myself.

#this website is constantly telling me that trying to help myself with mental health is some sort of bougie indulgance and insulting to gaza #and it's a quick jump from there to thinking the same about trying to access transition #and from there it's my life is meaningless and my suicide would be celebrated if i put the right post on twitter before #tw suicide #i feel like the obvious thing to do is quit tumblr and stop encountering these messages- but i have nowhere else i feel #i can talk about the ugliest parts of myself #and recently i put an artwork on instagram that i worked on for 15 months and it got 7 likes and i'm fucking destroyed by that #i genuinely can't tell you how upset #but i know that's not healthy- i should be able to like and feel proud of my work no matter how many people press a thing #or see it in the first place- we all know its algorithm that does it #i never want to become someone who moans about algorithms and guilts for likes and yet here we are #leaving instagram would seem the obvious solution but i need that validation so badly #i don't even want to make art my job ever! i'll be doing it no matter what i just want people to like it and like me #to think i am someone worthwhile #i don't understand why i'm like this i have no good reasons i have never lacked for love in my life #and yet i can't feel it #i hate myself

[kangaracha]

so tired so, so tired. tired. i'm tired. i'm awake but i'm tired but i would like LEISURE TIME but i am tired but i didn't even finish all my Tasks, my Learning. so tired

#delirious babe that's me #star star star star that's me #something something sacrificing dreams for other dream #s #dreamS #something something give me several million dollars so i can quit jobs forever #several million not because i'm greedy but my horse needs a place to live and that's dumb expensive #the man the myth the legend the monster #i should have just gone in keeps' inbox but we here now #man tumblr rambling i have Missed you #who have i become in the years that pass #i feel ill why are there several things so wrong with me #sat down using my bad shoulder before and realised that shit is Not Healed when will my tricep return from the war #freakin hayfever or whatever irritating the shit out of my throat and filling my stomach with crap #'you look pale' says my boss this morning yeah idk bro i might have like tonsilitus or some shit who knows #damn stomach if we're gonna be like this why don't we just throw up #what else was wrong with me #oh yeah my BASHED ankle from that one chucklehead horse this morning #stupid dumb stupid animals i love you but seriously #if i'd gotten stepped on because that stupid idiot was scared of the DRAIN IN THE BARN FLOOR #ew seven hours left to sleep #take me either backwards or forwards to the days when five hours is sustainable my body is dying #lethargy is Eating Me #anyway anyway anyway anyway

[saxifactumterritum]

I can't sleep so I thought I'd say about the au I discovered in my brain:

Hst is captain of blue rain, he has to go to the emergency room for whatever reason; the nurse walks in, and it ywz who dropped out of the blue rain training camp. Hst is like YWZ!!!

Other things:

Ywz is unimpressed and hst has to chase him out into the hall. Zx is like 'captain?' as hst goes rushing off half dressed after ywz. Ywz has to escort him back and gets zx into the room and is like 'make sure he doesn't leave'. Hst all through is trying to apologise for the name calling in the training camp.

Ywz explains that he decided to leave the training camp for other reasons completely unrelated to hst. But he is glad of the apology. Apologies. So many apologies.

When the Dr comes they are surprised to find Ywz there and hst works out ywz is way too important to just be getting details from a random patient. 'he runs the emergency room doesn't he? He's so competent and efficient'. Ywz does not, but he's well on his way.

Ywz and zx get coffee and renew their friendship.

Hst is very extra happy that he knows where ywz works and can send a thank-you gift. He sends flowrs, ywz sends a note back explaining he's alergic to those ones, and thus starts the short notes epistolary. Hst sends a gift, 'dear nurse Yu, this time I'm sure I've found something perfect for you' /'dear captain Huang, this is hilarious, but no'.

Hst tries to send ywz the cup when blue rain win the championship. Zx has to come collect it. Ywz asks if hst is in trouble and zx is like 'he just won the cup. He walks of water, according to our managers'. Ywz asks if zx has time for coffee and zx just like 'we won a championship. I can p much do what I want for a few days'.

Ywz's colleague in pediatrics is complaining cus one of her teenagers is obsessed with yx/oal, but ee won't let them request a visit, so ywz asks hst. Hst is like 'no, I won't ask yx. Anyone else, but I won't ask espec if he's already said no'. So they ask smc instead, and hst and smc visit and play games with the teenagers.

Smc doesn't mind hospitals, she says yx dealt with much more of it than she did, when smq died. Also ppl have different experiences so.

Smc brings dancing rain badges, hst akss her for one and pins it to his jacket, and then he sees ywz and has pockets full of rip off dancing rain badges to gift to ywz and smc is like 'omg worst fan' and tries to confiscate his official badge.

Hst and zx are the cap/vice cap team who low key both wish they weren't. Hst enjoys playing games with teenagers just for sheer fun, so he and zx keep doing that.

Ywz recognised hst name that first time and was curious, he didn't expect to get wooed via many gifts and short notes, he doesn't know what to do with himself.

Someone asks hst about his influences one time and hst says wc and the usual but also says 'as they all know' blue rain ethos comes from someone in the training camp. And ywz hears it and goes to find old interviews and sure enough hst always says some variation of that, cus ywz quit after he beat wc.

Oh! When hst was staying overnight for whatever thing, he kept telling all colleagues abt ywz genius gamer and they all have videos and clips and ywz is like "pleas stop. It's not a secret but please stop it" so hst does. One of ywz colleagues reports to ywz that now hst is going around telling everyone how clever and kind and awesome and impressive and competent ywz was when he was a teenager. She's like 'is this better?' and ywz is like 'no. No it is not' and goes to tell hst off again.

There was more things I've been lying here trying to sleep for AGES but I can't remember them right now. I know nothing abt emergency rooms of nursing. Oh,

One time hst is there bringing ywz a gift ('you keep sending my thank you gifts back with such polite little notes. if I bring it in person it will be harder for you to return it') and a big emergency happens and hst is like 'can I... Help? Or get out the way', and ywz looks around and points him over to the kids waiting for news and hst spends the evening distracting them.

Afterwards they are outside and ywz is smoking (for the aesthetic. He can smoke once in a while when he is stressed) and hst is like 'I can't know can I? The outcome. Confidentiality and all' and ywz is like 'correct' and hst is like 'I had a whole thing planned. About it not mattering, being in your hands, it was a good speech. But it does matter, right?' and ywz is like 'yeah' and they just stand there until hst taxi arrives. Then ywz is like 'captain Huang? This isn't my favourite either' and remembers to return the gift and hst like 'damn you so focussed' and is really impressed.

Anyway ywz is very competent and great nurse and they fall in love slowly and there's some pining and zx takes ywz to dinner to make sure that ywz is okay forgiving hst for the names and it's all very wholesome. And ywz wears crocs. That is key. Hst can buy those little crocs decorations you can get.

#the king's avatar #yuhuang #Productive insomnia #huang shaotian #Yu Wenzhou #I'm on mobile so I can't put a read more and I don't care hahah #I am I think the only ever person who likes tumblr 'cuts off a post after a line' feature I have it on I love it. So I am unaffected by #Such things as readmore. #You know this whole au came about from and idle thought of hst stepping in front of a punch meant for Zjl and Zjl being like 'what u even #Doing here' and hst like 'I was looking for my vice captain'. And then I had to explain why zx vc and the obv is hst is cap and then the #Rest just cascaded. Anyway abt halfway through I thought being punched so hard you had to stay overnight is a bit much #So I thought of zx saying to ywz hst stepped in front of a punch so he's a good guy，but zx still wants to be sure ywz is okay with the whol #Names calling. And zx then like 'well he really did step in front of the punch then tripped over his feet and head butted a hand rail #On the way down. But it was a heroic thought'. I you that was quite funny. Also I once head butted an Eagle and got a black eye it's one #Of my favourite stories. Not a real eagle. A lecturn Eagle #*I thought that was quite funny #Also hst was looking for zx in zjl team cus he might be visiting yf. No it does make sense that yf and Zjl in the team at the same time #That hadn't occurred to me yet #I am fallable. I know it is surprising but it is true.

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Rin week 2022 day 5- facepaint / Fuuinjutsu

#this was awfully fun to draw #couldn't get her face quite right #rinweek2022 #rin nohara #also!!! i am really afraid of reblogging stuf bc i'd like to put tags and it's so much more visible #and the moment i hit so many notes whicg didn't even pass twenty i was like really tempted to just plain delete my Tumblr #so like i'm just genuinely afraid of rb and people seeing my blog so i usually don't but now i just play can't because it's feel weird to #have like one reblog in the whole blog or whatever #although i really want to just get over it and start bejbg normal #but all that was me going on a massive tangent when i just wanted to say that wind-becomes-lightenings submission for today was so cute #literally so lovely #i know no one reads tags #but of you are i actually loved the fic sooo much it's so good so many feels