#i'm not ready for this i can't handle it

[bluebipples]

ok im gonna be so controversial for a second why the fuck where the fuck is my xena warrior princess remake i understand there are lots of sapphic shows that are getting cancelled rn but we need to say fuck off to all of those and refocus our attentions on what's important and that's making xena as gay as it should have been

#'yellow jackets' this and fucking 'cannibal lesbians' that #WHERE IS MY FUCKING #XENA REMAKE. #WHERE IS IT. #THEY ARE SOULMATES. #WHERE THE FUCK IS IT. #I'M SICK OF PLAYING W YALL IM SICK OF ACTING LIKE I GIVE A FUCK ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE #FUCK YOUR OTHER WLW SHOWS I WANT THIS ONE. #like i even have like 5 different xenas and gabrielles in my head bitch #put me in charge of this FUCKING project i will do it SO MUCH justice #yall bitches aren't fucking ready #you couldn't handle it #that's why it hasn't been done #that's why nobody is asking for it #you can't fucking HANDLE it. #i dont even need a full series remake bitch #i can tell you what i need from a 2 hour movie RIGHT THE FUCK NOW #LETS GET THE BALL FUCKING ROLLING #I DONT EVEN WANT TO BE PAID FOR IT I JUST WANT IT TO EXIST

[dirtytransmasc]

grieving with family is so complicated, cause sometimes, no matter how much I love them, I just... can't with them.

each person in my family keeps trying to force their way of grieving, their way of coping onto the people around them.

people keep telling me how I'm supposed to feel, how I'm supposed to react, and that's one thing, I can handle it.

but my aunt (my uncle who passed's wife) keeps having people tell her how she's supposed to move on, and it's driving me bonkers. they keep telling her that finding out more answers about his death is not gonna fix things, that it's gonna not gonna ease her pain, that she just... shouldn't.

and like. yeah. there's a point to be had. but as someone who lost someone very close to me (my papa) very similarly, like, please, please, *please* stop telling her how she's supposed to fucking feel. like. oh my fucking God.

I swear.

it's been a few days, let us grieve how we're gonna grieve for just a minute. wanting answers isn't unhealthy. processing real or imagined guilts and coming to terms with it and clearing it isn't unhealthy. letting people grieve for a minute how they're naturally grieving is so important.

there does come a point where certain forms of grief become unhealthy, but trying to force someone to grieve differently DAYS after the death occurred, is like... such a dick move in my mind, especially when it's just the natural progression of thought and emotion and everything.

I don't know if I make any sense, especially cause I'm trying to leave as much detail out as possible, I just need to vent all this anger and frustration out before I snap.

#I have *no one* to talk to about this stuff #my family doesn't need my negativity and frustration #thats just the stage of like grief and just Feelings™ about all this where I'm just mad and easily frustrated and overstimulated by #everything thing around me so I'm sure that thats the reason I'm so frustrated #but I NEED this off my chest before I blow up on my grieving family #so to tumblr I go in an attempt to maintain my very fragile peace and temper #grief #loss #dealing with grief #mourning #I'm in my angry/overstimulated/“ready to blow up at any given moment cause im emotionally disregulated and can't handle anything ever” phase #personal vent

[inkydoc]

sometimes you just gotta give things time to be lost. y'know, before they can be found.

thank you Carol, that was sorely needed :"D

#man this show is equal parts hilarious relatable heartwarming and just pure existential dread #idk what i would be doing if certain doom was hanging above me tbh #probably have a breakdown about it #lock myself away shut everyone out and distract myself with stuff so that not a single thought is occuring #in short i'm not ready for something like that lol #might need a little more time to be lost #inky's mind #carol & the end of the world #another thought is that i would probably be paralised by the deadline #i just don't do well in situations like this can't improve can't move when met by something so big #man this show just makes me think which is a bit unfortunate as it is 2am #the witching hour of bad thoughts #it is a heavy show please only watch it if you can handle it #but if you can please watch it #mayhaps i wasn't quite ready but also i don't regret watching it #that must count for something

[r3dblccd]

what does your blood taste like?

Yongsun - salsa roja

your blood tastes like salsa roja, a hot sauce made primarily from tomatoes and chili. prominent flavors: fiery garlic (ouch!) and piquant cilantro.

Minsung - fruit punch

your blood tastes like fruit punch, a fruit juice typically mixed with sweeteners and sodas. prominent flavors: sugar, ambiguous fruits, and uncomfortable school dances.

tagged by: @mxldito

tagging: @luneblush, @r4bidog, @dozenrozez, @frxgmcnts, @weedzkiller, @stillm0nster, @unavernales @caelcstis, @dcrkfcngs, @formorethananame, @irrwicht, @rainyearning

#//yongsun said he always knew he's hot both on the outside and on the inside #//(without the garlic though for any vampires that want to get a taste of him but can't handle garlic jdbgfvhg) #//(like did you know he wants to get bitten? surprising I know /s #//i'm not at all surprised by minsung's result either #//THE UNCOMFORTABLE SCHOOL DANCES PLS #//Minsung's ready to disappear into thin air bye #misc; dash games #about; yongsun #about; minsung

[sunlitlemonade]

*opens wikihow* how to tell local teenage spy that he needs to let himself catch a fucking break

*switches to another tab to shop online* *types in "bubble wrap"*

#alex: i do NOT want to be a spy. nope. not at all. worst thing to happen to me by far #alex: im done with mi6 i gave them what they wanted #also alex: starts digging because got a lead™ #like baby just report what you heard they would handle it from there you did your part!!!! #why are you so recklessly curious i can't handle you #with that being said I'm ready to invest in his safety #(boy srsly can't make up his mind he doesn't WANT to be a spy but he ends up acting like one anyways) #(really is in his blood huh?) #anyways #alex rider

[the-yearning-astronaut]

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#shouldn't have shoved aside the panic attack that was building last night #when I had to leave work during a massive snow storm #because that overwhelmed feeling carried over into today #and im exhausted and I'm about 2seconds from losing my shit but i cant AGAIN because i have to get ready for work #my shift starts in just over an hour lmao #and i feel like a raging bitch #all snappy and nasty #but really im stretched too thin #and im terrified #of not getting into grad school of this forever being my fuckin life #but also because my health is bad but my brother's is worse and i just watched something terrifying happen to him #(something in his neck temporarily dislocated) #and i just #im so SICK of everything being shitty #im so sick of our shitty medical system and how my brother cant find anyone to take him seriously and actually help him #and i go each day wondering if... if. and i can't handle it. and if i get into grad school I'll be leaving the state... #and if something..... #i know ive put my life on hold for my parents because im afraid of what ifs and my dad's health has ALSO been shit #(i love growing up with a parent that casually says stuff like I Wont Be Alive By Then. or When Im Dead-. all the time.) #and ive been terrified of leaving Just In Case. and every time my brother's health goes bat shit sideways again i freeze and panic #and I don't have TIME to panic or freeze rn but as im well aware the body will make you take a break if you don't make time for one #it's all BS & im tired & lost & i want so BADLY to get into this particular school but i feel Guilty for wanting to leave so fucking badly #idk what to fuckin do #☉ #tbd #im gonna cry. or be sick lol. maybe both.

[thirsty-protoss-fan]

Bruh I'm not strong enough I can't do this

#I had the game spoiled for me #So I know what happens #But like #That doesn't mean I'm fine with it #Nor does it mean I'm ready to see this shit on tumblr #I already logged off of twitter because I can't handle seeing [redacted] as every other post because people don't fucking tag spoilers #Yeah the campaign is shit but the pain is realy bruh #call of duty #modern warfare 3 #cod mw3 #mw3 spoilers

[caracello]

never not thinking about his circle glasses. they grew on me so bad thy're soo cute.

#the square glasses i just can't handle tgey make me bust out laughing i'm not ready for those yet. but the circle ones are adorable. #also are yyou seeing that fucking. That tweed jacket. absolutely unbelievable i know that thing feels so bad i need one. #gush:{💣}

[sagittariangirl27]

Apparently I found out tumblr brought back porn 9 months after the fact. So that's how up to speed I am on current events, just in case anyone is wondering...

*This is my favorite gif, probably forever.

#a couple of those months I can let go #I was not ready #but that probably would have helped a TON when I tried to get back into cam #/online nakedness whatever #the beginning of the year was really hard #not in a fun way #I can't help myself #anyway #I handled it really well #and the year continues to be one of the hardest #but I'm still handling it really well #the last two and a half years have been a rebirth #losing everything I ever was #and starting to build something new #I don't know what it is yet #but I can feel it #I think that I have done so much healing #and then I look back a couple months and cringe #like wow I thought I was doing better then #and I know I will feel that way about right now #honestly I just don't know how to live with this much heartbreak #I know that it's about unconditional love #and I have that #and that I have to love myself #I used to have that #I have to make it on my own #and not need anyone to take care of me #I don't think I need that anymore #despite being very very poor lol #I think deep inside I have to know that I can do it

[yusuke-of-valla]

This isn't deeply thought out or anything and I'm not super familiar with the watcher entertainment guys and their content so I'm not sure if it's just me missing some context but the reactions and vitriol I've seen about it is making me anxious that the entitlement AI companies have towards art and the idea that they shouldn't have to pay or ask permission to shovel into into their slop machine is way more widespread than I think it is

#idk I'm not super well read at this stuff but I don't think you have to pay for it if you don't want to but also creatives should be #allowed to make a thriving wage and they can't really do that just off YouTube/Patreon esp with all the issues those platforms have had #like. I'm not sure they handled it in the best way but the speed with which some people have decided that independent creators asking for #money at all is evil and greedy is uhhh stressful #like there are conversations we are not ready to have at this point

[notastraykid]

I need someone with an American express to let me use their membership so I can book pre pre pre sale tickets. I fuming that there is artist presale. I pay my SKZ membership but cannot get presale benefits.

I mean what's the point.

#I am anxious. #I have the money. #I'm ready. #Hotel is booked. #fomo is a bitch #I can't handle this. #stray kids #skz #BST Hyde park #Amex #American express

[zoekrystall]

Did I ever complain abt that publicly idk anyways I need to get to the big city (2h to and 2h back, not much for the states but sure for me) and next to not wanting to bc cold, they gonna stab bc blood test and my body hates making that easy to locate (dif place but I will never forget the time I got stabbed like three times and still no blood so new appointment had to be made, I have a fear of needles otherwise it would be whatev), and even more risky bc gatherings were recently do I prob hate the most that like. I'm hungry.

I'm hungry and I suck at eating enough so I often go out w not much in my stomach. I survive but it sucks really bad that I can't either buy smth once I arrive to eat on the way back or pack smth to like eat on the journey bc no-one wears a mask and the virus stays rampant so I can't take my mask off until I'm back home. At the inbetween stop I maybe could but I rather won't risk anything. Esp in winter I could bring smth warm to drink w me at least but I rather don't in the crowd I gotta walk through. Least people are when I'm only a few mins away from home and at that point I can always just wait a bit longer.

Tbh I dread going outside and limit it to only shopping and appointments bc even if I could walk here prob somewhere without many people do I rather just stay indoors and try to limit irl reminders of how many people can't be bothered to care bc that just nosedives my mental health. It doesn't help that I still try to nudge my irl friends to care more.

#a wild lux appears #I also feel stuck in am I ablebodied or disabled limbo reg physical. On record I only got vitamin deficiencies #Ik my body is weak but that could be due to things that change if I took more care and the right stuff #Idk idk my state feels like it changes biweekly or smth #I just know I relate to some things #And also that it sucks since it started having to wonder if covid or the usual bc some stuff do I have since forever randomly #Idk idk I just woke up from a few hours nap I need to slowly get ready. Why can't the train strike start today already #(I also know that when I'm already done going to the city where I just sit could I not deal w going to a strike or smth next to anxiety #making me feel like passing out n maybe actually happening. I leave that to the people that can actually handle that) #Anyways need to get ready now hn #I will complain the whole time but I need to go. Hnnnnn #I just need to think abt the refill that I can't get otherwise. And then the next appointment is anyways only in 3-6 months again #Plus I got another one tomorrow morning so today will force me to fix the schedule enough so tomorrow won't suck #Bc otherwise I would just pass out fully now but like that at prob like. 18-19 then. Hn. #Hate the cold bc layers hate the heat bc I could pasd out you can't win w my body #At this point I just use the tags to stall I'm really off now to get ready OTL

[buckleyseddie]

just finished 4x1 of the rookie........... i am not okay..........

#don't read the tags if you don't wanna know................... #I can't believe they killed jackson oh my god #😭😭😭😭 #i loved him and i loved his relationship with lucy and with angela and he was going to do so much good in the police #i'm devastated #and of course angela named her baby jackson god that HURT #the whole episode was so stressful i was so scared for everyone #but thank god they all made it backs afe i wouldn't have been able to handle someone else dying #ALSO #lucy and tim 👀 that hug 👀 the moment after that hug 👀 lucy getting ready to go to his room only for them to get that call 👀👀👀 #oh boy i'm so excited #also i might've gotten my mom and my sister hooked shdjshd they watched the last three episodes with me #they were a little out of the loop but i filled them in svdhshs #i think i can watch one more before going to sleep hopefully this is a chill one i need to recover #monse watches the rookie

[aidankalenko]

i can't believe i had an entire relationship falling out within the span of like 3 months. and i had nothing to do with it somehow?? the other person just decided to throw everything into a dumpster and set it on fire?? what a fucking mess. and yet the lack of longevity just makes it easier in the end i guess

#personal #it was truly a whole thing and it didn't have to be #i mean I'll be honest I didn't handle it to the best of my abilities but also i can't be hardcarrying literally everything all the time #like as the youngest I'm used to it but like. a relationship is for fun and if I'm not getting the same effort in return then fuck off #seriously our texts were usually me asking questions and you know. filling space. #so when i got tired of that i was ready to let it die down #and then the person i was texting was like yeah i stopped replying much bc i have feelings for you and it's complicated #not even a full 24hr cycle passed and they got tired of waiting for a reply #which is fair i guess but then i got petty on ig main #they double texted abt it but not even in a constructive way #LIKE THERE WAS NO PROGRESSION UNLESS INITIATED BY ME AND I WAS TIRED OF IT #DON'T TELL ME YOU HAVE FEELINGS FOR ME IF YOU CAN'T EVEN TEXT ME HOW ARE YOU #LIKE DO YOU EVEN KNOW ME??? GUY I'VE MET IRL 4 TIMES???? #anyway what a disaster #i was just so flabbergasted #and left feeling like I'd done something wrong but literally i was just drawing boundaries that they didn't want to ask about #lol #anyway wow

[delicris]

i finally sent in that application to uni 🧍

#fucking cheer for me bcs i've been stressed about it for like two entire weeks at this point #i'm not ready for this I CAN'T HANDLE ANOTHER EXISTENTIAL CRISIS FUCK #mine *chomps*

[daz4i]

oh my god my brain is being so unnecessarily LOUD rn 😒

#one of those 'i can't breathe i can't handle being alive right now at all' moments xx hate it here #vent #? i guess #now that i don't have anything long term to care abt I'm done with existence man #(i still. have 2 things i need to get ready. but they're both for this weekend so it's not long term. eh) #don't get me wrong. it was hard and stressful and i wanted to die before too. but now it's the empty sort of wanting to die #liiiiiike so empty it feels my lungs are caving in and i can't even breathe to fill in the space inside me. doomed to remain empty yknow?