#i'm not strictly speaking a christian but i can't honestly say i'm an atheist anymore either

[jinruihokankeikaku]

In which I cover Isaiah 45:23 by the Mountain Goats.

“I have sworn by myself, the word is gone out of my mouth in righteousness, and shall not return, That unto me every knee shall bow, every tongue shall swear.”  - Isaiah 45:23 KJV 

It’s been almost exactly four years now since i started this whole transitioning thing, and having a realization like that - suddenly - is at once liberating and frightening. This is a song I’ve basically known by heart since I was 8 or 9 years old - which is kind of heavy on the face of it, to be frank - but it’s acquired especially intense meaning during these past few years especially of relapse and recovery and realization of new things about the world and my place in it. It’s a dark song in one sense and a luminous, hopeful one in another; it’s a song about holding on faith and hope against the inclinations of our bodies and our minds. I didn’t hardly do it justice, but  I wanted to play it anyhow.

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