#i'm sick so this is all i see

[golyadkin]

I cannot express enough that if your reaction, as a hobby artist, to not getting that many notes on your art is to say "maybe I should just stop doing art altogether" you need to stop posting art to tumblr

not necessarily forever, not even for long, but just stop putting your art on here and start doing it for you again, remember why you enjoyed doing art in the first place and stop relying on the attention of faceless people on the internet for your enjoyment of your hard work

believe me, I get it, nothing crushes the artistic soul quite like labouring for hours on a piece only for it to get like 10 notes, so you need to find your own source of joy in the act of creation and a lot of the time that means making art and not showing it to anybody

#not art #listen #for real #this is not about any one person because i've seen posts about it from a bunch of people #you think i post everything here? buddy i dont even post half my stuff here #every drawing you see is preceded by five more just like it #that never see my cursor close to the save button #i have a sketchbook i draw in regularly that i do'nt show to a single goddam person #i make cutout art from gels i steal from work and stick them to my windows and do paintings in my living room just for me #because that it the only way you are ever going to be able to retain your original love of art #is by doing it for the sake of doing it #not for the sake of seeing how many people stop and stare #anyways i'm sorry if this sounds terse #but i'm so sick of seeing artists put all their self-esteem and happiness in the hands of a blogging website #stop selling yourself short by measuring your self worth by how many reblogs you get and what people say in the tags #your artistry and your happiness are worth more than that #if you're an artist for a living that's another story #but even then #even then #anyways sorry i'm done ranting

[koddlet]

the mind electric // a TOH animatic

flash warning!

#i'm not really into toh as much these days but it would've been such a shame to Not finish this #so you know. i'm glad i did it even tho my fixation is somewhere very different rn 💀 #the conception of this has made me so sick. seeing the finale trailer was a gamechanger for the ending of this #i don't even remember what the original idea was before that BUT i hope it makes you all just as sick #the owl house #luz noceda #hunter toh #hunter wittebane #hunter noceda #philip wittebane #emperor belos #toh #animatic #digital art #animation

[wilsonsmcgillsweatshirt]

I will never recover from the knowledge that thymoma generally has a very high survival rate, and in most cases that it becomes fatal, the patient has unknowingly lived with the cancer for years. There's a chance that Wilson was sick for half the series and didn't even know it.

#I'm just imagining House looking back at the last few years in horror thinking about the possibility that Wilson had been sick all along #I can see it leading to him feeling like all of their memories are tainted #House definitely blames himself as well even though it was never in his control #I can't imagine how much his already extreme self-hatred was amplified #And he probably looked back at all the mistakes he made and all the fights they had and realizing that - #- while they were having all these fights that now seem so trivial that Wilson was probably sick #They wasted all that time unknowingly with Wilsons cancer slowly progressing as they argued and fought #It makes me want to cry #I'm not a doctor and I know this obviously isn't always the case but from what research I've done this seems the be the standard mostly #house md #house #greg house #james wilson #gregory house #hilson #wilson #housemd #favs #favourites

[nemhaine42]

it's me i'm bitches

(x)

#dbz #raditz #i'm home sick today so this is what we're doing #does it even go in my art tag if it's just memery?? #me: why do all my screenshots look like such potatoes?? #the show: is pretty much the same age as i am #me: ah right i see

[buglaur]

been making sims because i miss cas

#ts4 #sims 4 #i was popping in and out of cas this week in my free time #been a tiring week 🫠 #but i've got my favourite cider and 6 hours of minecraft with friends on the agenda for tonight so alls well #bring on the summer i'm sick of the 6am commutes #see ya next week simblr #actually! i have another minecraft post in the drafts #so that might come out this weekend 🥹

[shoyoist]

i know i haven't spoken about the annihilation of gaza here at all yet, i've been more actively sharing posts and information on my personal accounts on ig/twt/fb etc. however, i'll say this here right now—if you support isr*el or are staying "neutral", i need you to actually go ahead and block me this instant. this is actual genocide, actual ruthless murder of innocent people and children. if you are not firmly on palestine's side, i do not want you on my blog, or to even breathe the same air as me. kindly remove yourself from my space. thank you!

#₊˚ପ⊹ soliloquy .ᐟ‍ #free palestine #palestine #i've been feeling so sick and so helpless. #have been using tumblr to tune out whenever i feel too overwhelmed but fuck that. children are dying. little kids are getting killed. #i'm not going to talk about this situation all the time because genuinely i can't fathom it #it's been affecting me so much. i feel so horrified #but i'll be reblogging regularly alongside my usual posts #so if you don't want to see that either #you are free to leave! #thank you very much

[cerise-on-top]

Hi! Hope you're having a lovely day ✨️

Valeria and Gaz with a fashion designer s/o! Dressing them up and using them as a practice model to test new designs... this has nothing to do with my need to put Valeria in a suit, ofc not

Anon, you're so galaxy brained for wanting to put Valeria in a suit in all honesty! She'd look so good in one because women always look good in suits!

Gaz and Valeria with a Fashion-Designer!S/O

Gaz: He’d honestly be so flattered you wanna use him as a practice model. Don’t get me wrong, he’s a very pretty man and he’s well aware of that fact, but he didn’t think he’d ever get that sort of privilege. The first time you measure him he’s a bit confused, but complies, asking you with a chuckle about what you’re doing. However, as soon as you present him with a jaw dropping suit that leaves every other one in the dust, he’s a big fan. While he may have supported you from the very beginning as soon as he heard that you’re a designer, his support skyrockets as soon as you present him with the first piece of clothing for him to wear. He feels so very fancy wearing it. He may be used to wearing fancy clothing from time to time when invited to certain occasions, such as weddings, but he never really paid much mind to that sort of thing. Once you’ve put the first article of clothing on him, he’ll ask you if you wanna use him as a practice model again at some point. Only if you feel like it, of course. He hopes you’ll say yes, he loves how creative you are and the things you create. You’re a lovely designer who puts their heart and soul into it all, and it shows. Although unprompted and despite it being a bit silly, he’ll also pose and do that one walk models do where they sway their hips. He feels pretty in your clothing. If he can afford it, which he likely can, then he’ll even buy some of the things you’ve made. And yes, he will 100% wear them as well, doesn’t matter if it’s a fish tail or if it’s a shirt with a dragon on it. He unironically loves it and will wear it whenever he can.

Valeria: She chuckles a bit when you ask her to put on some clothing you made. Valeria is a very attractive woman, and she knows it, so she’s not at all surprised when you ask her to put on a suit. She’s worn those before, and every time she has she was turning heads left and right. If you blush while seeing her in a suit then she’ll chuckle and trap you against the wall before letting you continue whatever it was you were doing. Like Gaz she wholeheartedly supports you, and she’ll own every single article of clothing you’ve ever created. While she may not have the time to wear them all every time, you will catch her wearing your creations from time to time, if there’s no danger of them tearing. Valeria’s glad that you trust her enough to want her to try on all your prototypes and will gladly pose like a professional model for you and you only. The first time you measure her she, too, would be a bit confused and would ask you regarding what you’re doing, but afterwards she’s more than happy to model for you whenever she can. She doesn’t have a whole lot of time for that, but the things you do for love. If you ever want a real, professional model, she can arrange one, though, it’s no problem for someone like her. Besides, she has a pretty good eye for fashion as well, so she can give you some hints regarding what could look good and what might be a complete no go. You don’t have to do as she says, but she will point it out if you do. If she ever does find herself having the time and there’s a fashion show that shows some of your clothing, then she’ll watch it and jokingly tell you that she looked better in your clothes than all those models did. If you ever need some creative inspiration then I’m sure Valeria can help you as well, she’s seen plenty of things and is always more than happy to help you. Besides, she can get just about anything as well, so you really don’t need to fret if you wanna feel the fabric of something yourself.

#cod #cod x reader #kyle gaz garrick #kyle gaz garrick x reader #gaz x reader #valeria garza #valeria garza x reader #y'all would never guess who got sick again -.- but hey! at the very least I'm doing home office this time instead of resting up! #this request made me realise just how gay I would be for Valeria Garza. the one and only. to wear a suit #I need her to wear a really fancy suit and show herself off because she'd look so so good in it #sometimes I do go on pinterest and look up women in suits just because my heart can barely take it #women in suits are my ambrosia and I am so glad they exist. more women should wear suits in all honesty #maybe next month when I've gotten paid again I will commission someone to draw Valeria in a suit #naturally I will share it here because everyone deserves to see that sort of thing #the thought alone makes my heart sing with joy I think I will do that #Valeria is among best girls and I would force the world to stop spinning just to make her happy

[wiildhcartsrun]

punk!steve: * play flirting with jonathan * nancy, who has dated steve so knows his tricks: were you flirting with my boyfriend? punk!steve: no

punk!steve: * once again play flirting with eddie * nancy: are you - flirting with eddie? punk!steve: who knows * shrugs *

punk!steve: hey gang, i'm bisexual - known this for a long while, but wanted to tell you all now. nancy, pointing a finger at steve: I FUCKING KNEW IT YOU WERE FLIRTING WITH JONATHAN AND EDDIE! punk!steve: yeah... i was

#punk!steve harrington #punk steve harrington #steve harrington #stranger things #steddie #stonathan #nancy wheeler #fuck you all i'm reposting this so you CAN interact with it bc fuck you for liking / reblogging something that wasn't tagged / says DNI #anyway you can interact with this one i'm just sick of seeing you all in my nofictions on something i idn't even TAG for you to find

[lovvecherrymotion]

tbh i really understand damon because i too only needed five minutes to completly fall in love with joker out and have them take over my life

#if he wasn't a famous photographer he'd be travelling to four different countries to see them #and obviously his flights would be late or the weather would be shitty #and he'd get sick after all of it of course #instead he got kris as a boyfriend or smth 😭 #i slept four hours i think i'm so funny #joker out

[sleep-deprived-corvid]

Star fly

#firefly oc #fnaf oc #heeeey sorry about lack of art posting #i have been sketching a lot but it's mostly blorbos i haven't talked about here so idk you may see those soon #also i've been buried in schoolwork for the past month or so #here's a nice little firefly piece to tide you over while i also recover from bad sickness #if you read all my tags i'm giving you a flower #ps i'll see about posting more sketches and stuff instead of just finished pieces bc i simply don't have much energy

[a-dragons-journal]

Forgive me for showing my fangs a little here instead of being as delicate in phrasing as I usually am, but. Periodic reminder:

sweeping "humans suck, humans are evil, the world would be better off if humans disappeared/had never evolved" statements may be cathartic but they're thoroughly inaccurate (ie, the vast majority of uniquely bad effects of humans on the planet are a) extremely recent, like within the last couple centuries, b) the fault of an extremely small minority not the entire fucking species, and c) fixable)

hating being human isn't the same as hating humans. I get species dysphoria is a thing. I get that it's often hard to fit in as a nonhuman in human social groups and that can make it easy to slip into hating everyone around you. Please fight that instinct

villainizing people for traits they didn't choose, such as the species they were born into, is neither cute nor fair. No species is inherently good or bad

misanthropy is cathartic in short term vents or whatever but genuinely embracing it wholesale as a philosophy is liable to lead to you hating humans, human society, and being in a human body more and more over time and thus make your life worse by constantly reinforcing a thought pattern that makes you angry and upset

you are not immune to being part of human society (translation: just because you're nonhuman doesn't mean you're not included in statements about the effects of the human population on the world, ie "humans are killing the planet")

related, you are not better than humans for being nonhuman. looking at my fellow dragons in particular on this one. I get it, draconic pride is a thing, dragon brain probably says you're the supreme being and all else is beneath you especially anyone who annoys you. Mine does too. Please recognize that is an instinct you are supposed to FIGHT, not something that's TRUE AND THAT YOU SHOULD EMBRACE. Good fucking gods.

some nonhumans are also human (it's me, I'm some nonhumans) and you are making sweeping "humans suck, why would I ever want to be human, all humans do is kill the planet" statements in the presence of people included in those statements, which is insanely rude (and no, you don't get to "but you're different because you're nonhuman" me! you do not get to decide to ignore half of who I am because you don't like it, you do not get to decide I'm not "really" human, and also see the previous bullet point). this goes doubly if you're in a space like a DIscord server where people have expressly stated they're not comfortable being tacitly included in statements like that

saying "but I don't REALLY mean all humans, I just mean the specific ones at fault!" after the fact does not actually change anything if every other thing you say is constantly "humans humans humans" and not the group you're actually referring to, or at the very least doesn't change how it reads to everyone around you

#otherkin #misanthropy #rani talks #rani is biting today sorry #if you want me to dial it back and explain any of this in a calmer tone please ask i will be happy to do so #i'm just. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #sick and fucking tired of seeing 'humans bad' in the otherkin community on a regular basis. ITS ME. IM HUMANS. STOP IT #it's not a constructive mindset!! it's not!! there's no constructive conclusion that can come out of misanthropy as a core philosophy! #all it can lead to is either 'nothing is fixable' which is a recipe for depression #or 'humans should be exterminated' which is GENOCIDAL #and it's fucking ALWAYS accompanied by 'but i'm better because i'm [x] instead har har har' No The Fuck You Are Not #you participate in society exactly the same way a human would #you are exactly as responsible for the effects of humanity on the world as anyone else around you #which is to say not very fucking much! #anyway /tag rant i'm hitting post before i think better of this one

[caliginouscreature]

Sorry for being so inactive lately... been busy irl, and have been meaning to post here more often, but also, like... I always feel a bit shy approaching the 'kin communities on here because it kind of feels like everyone is sort of... "internet poisoned"? For lack of a possibly-better word. A lot of folks here on tumblr in the 'kin and alterhuman communities are children, and a lot of more prominent community figures treated like "elders" are only about my age or younger, and it feels really strange, to be honest. There's a lot of discussion of feelings and terminology, but very little "lifestyle"? It's like there's a universal expectation for everyone to just figure everything out on their own; you get some definitions here and there yeah, but the amount of variance says much more loudly "just figure out what it all means on your own, pal". ex. Not only can no one actually explain what "otherhearted" actually means sans relation to otherkin, but it feels like I never see anyone talk about dealing with what one could call "kin feels" in the workplace, when unable to acquire your habitat, etc... Othercon is online-only, and while I'm pretty sure I'd be unable to attend an in-person event, part of me has a hard time feeling like everyone is really taking it all seriously and is really unafraid of being "cringe" when obviously it's so much easier to act like you're so confident online. I kinda feel like meeting some wolfkin stereotypes in a park for snacks and doing a group howl would do more for me than years of reading essays on tumblr ever has.

I dunno, I tried watching a recording of an Othercon panel I felt would be relevant and useful to me once, and was floored at just how... utterly useless it was. Despite its promising title, it was just shallow "you're valid" garbage and internet discourse... Makes me feel severely alienated, to be honest.

#'youre valid' this 'just journal' that I'M ALMOST 30 WITH JOB AND TERRITORIAL why doesn't anyone have anything irl useful to say to me #otherkin community #othercon #alterhuman #otherkind #otherkin #fictionkind #fictionkin #I'd LOVE to visit the Silver Elves or something just to see someone in person who I know takes this stuff seriously #like... people who are actually trying to live AS their kintype and I KNOW they are. because all this online posturing makes me feel alone #but they're in HAWAI'I and so I can't just take a road trip + am not Doing That to the already-colonized-and-sick-of-tourists-Hawaiians

[throwing-roses-into-the-abyss]

My first ever victorian outfit is DONE! I made all these things!!

#adventures in sewing #arts n crafts #the skirt and jacket are both made from 1895 patterns #the shawl is from an 1860s pattern #everything else is improvised lmao #i also have a stripey button up shirt and another petticoat #i'll get someone to take good pictures in daylight this weekend #so people can finally see my outfit is blue and not black lmao #anyway all of my clothes have massive flaws #but for a first ever victorian set (where i used actual patterns!) and after just one year of sewing #and i did a lot of this by hand and often while sick too #so i'm happy (or at least trying to convince myself i'm happy)

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Happy day one of Chatember, starting it off with strong with the Thunderclan (Jin) leader, Jin Guangshan (Lionstar)

(Name and AU credits to @clintbeefwoods!)

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #mdzs au #MDZS Warrior Cats AU #jin guangshan #He's a Persian calico! #Him and Madam Jin are T4T. This is very important and we are standing by it #No matter what it was always in the stars that JGS was going to be a local menace (whore) to the kittypets. #I saw the opportunity to draw JGS pregnant with his kitty nips out and had to take it #Can you fault me? Can't you see I had no choice but to take this path? #Anymeow; The Mythological Figure and dear mutual clintbeefwoods and I have been plotting a powerful AU! #and we have come up with some GOOD stuff. Can't wait to show you all! #I meant to do something for doggust but my life has been very hectic lately (I did Not Know It Was September Today) #I do have a creature (dog in shape cat at heart) whom I love dearly but shes very old and sick. So drawing her made me quite sad #Anyways I'm gonna TRY and finish another comic today to get back on track. It will be late. I'm trying to not beat myself up for it.

[bennydunbar]

bro ngl tumblr is way more fun than twitter, twt is one of my first social medias and honestly no wonder my head was so goopy

#fr tho that place is really something #im not even sure how i used to stick around there for so long? #i wanted to write fanfics and commentaries and discussions but GOD the word limit is stupid #also i was??? so desensitised to gore #LIKE. V E R Y #because it's just something i used to see every day on my phone #now that im not looking at it all the time i actually get sick looking at any #OH MY GOD #I'M TURNING INTO A BETTER PERSON

[red-high-tops]

#>:[ #feels like I'm banging my head against a wall here #this isn't even just about bkdk it's about everyone in this story #I am sick of occhaco constantly being thrown into just a love interest position #she is so much more then that #and other characters moments being taken or completely left out #this story isn't just about being a hero and crushes and shit #it's also about growth and devlopment #it's about getting better and learning new things and truly growing as a person #and if bones can't see that then I'm sorry for all the anime-onlys #you are seriously missing out #anyways sorry I'm a little angry lol #bkdk #bakudeku #mha #bnha