#i'm so distressed

[septembersghost]

No but the breakfast bars make me sad somehow. Like not to babygirlify Jimmy any, but the cooking he did was so nice (and even with all the tragedy and kinky freaks that they ar-were, still so funny that she didn’t let him feed her), and Saul is just a hot knife to anything soft in him (and per that interview, how he wants to pervert the law out of spite for Chuck, kill me)

bestie don't apologize for babygirlifying jimmy it's what he deserves

the breakfast bar is oddly dichotomous to me. like, it lacks personal attention, but it's also a smidge considerate? he's still offering some form of sustenance to this woman even though he doesn't care about her or have much space for his humanity? it made me think of nacho offering the puzzle to jo, even though nacho's caring is more immediately on the surface - he'd rather them not be there, but they are under his roof and he's not going to be unkind to them, he diverts her attention so she won't hurt herself. it's a superficial, transactional relationship and doesn't fulfill him, but he still offers them his compassion. saul's VERY devoid of that, but it's like...some part of him, however suppressed, still retains the urge to provide something.

and at the same time, like you said, it's not like the cooking he did for kim, making something with his hands (no matter how basic, it mattered and was a loving gesture!), looking after her, something she likely NEVER had from anyone else. it's as though jimmy is the raw ingredients and saul is pre-packaged. nourishing takes time and tender care, whereas consuming expediently is impersonal and more about powering through. even with their copious amounts of takeout, i'm sure saul never again enjoyed his thai iced tea and a classic film with anyone.

a hot knife to anything soft in him yo, why did you put a hot knife in ME? this description :( he resents all the things that made him vulnerable and tender and true.

he once tried to honor the law for chuck (and then for kim) and it didn't work, he was left bereft and alone and vindictive, but his perversion of the law out of spite is SO crushing because it's allowing chuck's worst thoughts about him to flourish. chuck was spiteful too, and it's like that took root in jimmy and coiled itself around him until saul burst forth from it.

#i'm so distressed #anonymous #letterbox #jimmy mcgill #saul goodman #better call saul #bcs spoilers

[nniko-i]

i am cooking right now apparently (what the HELL) (i am nowhere near done. i'm still at the beginning of this fic.) (free me.)

#niko's rambles #I'M SO DISTRESSED

[beachboysnatural]

I think a spider crawled out of my shoe when I took it off this is the worst thing that has ever happened to me

#IT WAS IN MY SHOE #WHEN I WAS WEARING IT #I'M SO DISTRESSED #IN TEARS #I HATE BUGS I HATE SPIDERS I HATE THINGS WITH MORE THAN FOUR LEGS

[lesbian-in-leather]

Was listening to new songs, as I do, and becayse my audio processing ain't shit I also had the lyrics up. I use genius lyrics a lot and happened to check the about section and-

wHOM THE FUCK

OH YEAH, Y'KNOW, WONDERLAND, A PLACE INVENTED IN 2010 FOR THE FUCKING FILM

#the lesbian herself #i'm so annoyed you guys #WHY #WHY WOULD THEY #THE FILM LITERALLY *SAYS* THAT IT'S BASED ON A BOOK #A VERY FAMOUS BOOK #I'M SO DISTRESSED

[allthewhumpygoodness]

Big fan of when a character's grief/trauma/guilt manifests as physical symptoms. Big fan of characters keeping things so tight inside them that it makes them sick. Big fan of when the line blurs between a character's mental trauma and physical illness until it's hard to tell which is which anymore.

#whump #k once i did a fic where a character had pneumonia #and also was in Big Mental Distress and mentally going over all the people he'd lost in his life etc #and i gotta say i'm proud of myself for bringing up the recurrent motif of his chest being pianful...like is it from being sick & coughing #or bc he's grieving so badly it's putting him in physical pain #ANYWAY

[chittychittyyangyang]

Listen, you should never film strangers in public without their consent, but I swear there need to be fines or something for people who do that shit in some spaces. For example: I had to go to the ER last night, and some jerk filmed a woman who just came in and was clearly having an asthma attack. She immediately got to go back, and he was unhappy about that. Believe me, I get that it sucks having to wait when you're in pain, but you don't get to pick who deserves care when. The medical system in the US is a nightmare, and the ER could be the worst moment of someone's life. No one deserves to be recorded because some jack ass believes someone doesn't look like they need care.

This is fine to reblog. People who film strangers should be shamed if nothing else.

#ccyy talks #sorry for posting this here but I'm pissed and this shit really needs to stop #For all I know he recorded me too cause I'm young and look healthy but got to go back next #Sorry about your cough buddy but the way things work I was a more immediate emergency #1k #5k #10k #30k #this post clearly has a life of its own now #and in case someone wants to know some clarifications for common points #people in a position of authority/actively hurting someone with the intent to protect/help the person is fine #so cops doctors nurses mental health workers and educators (to name a few) who actively are abusing their power and authority? free game #this post was filming random ass people for Content(tm) #random ass people more so those in distress aren't your content and you do not know the harm you can do to someone by posting that shit #50k

[silvermars]

this book is breaking my heart. i keep reading ahead because i'm so distraught.... gahhh i just want to finish it so i KNOW but also i cannot keep reading this thing

#i'm so distressed #i feel sick #that's how you know something's good #but also it hurts my heart and brain and body #personal

[azulhood]

Danny was tired, like 'I feel it in my bones and soul' tired. And he didn't want sleep at home because there's only so many nights, he could spend lying awake making sure his heart was beating in case his parents checked on him.

Currently he was flying aimlessly not really taking in his surroundings, but he could neither sleep while flying or fly forever. Normally he'd sleep over at Sam or Tucker's, but the Mansons had made it clear that he wasn't welcome at their house anymore and Tucker was grounded. Both would sneak him in if he asked, but he didn't want them to get in trouble for him. Which leads him to decide between his two choices, sleeping in a graveyard, or sleeping in a forest.

The graveyard was a little crowded with all the ghosts that called it home but he could probably find a quiet spot to sleep. The forest had a great view of the stars but was filled with traps from both his parents and the GIW after tracking his ecto-signature. Both options weren't appealing, but he wasn't about to chance sleeping on the roof of his house again. There were too many ghost detecting guns attached to it now. Danny sighed, graveyard it was, at least the ecto from all the shades/ghosts would hide him well enough. Decision made, now all he had to do was make his way over there. But first, where the heck was he? Danny looked around at the unfamiliar grey sky and gargoyles littered around and realized he had no clue where he was. He must have flown too far away from Amity without noticing...Again. It was really becoming a bad habit. Danny stared down at the city's inhabitants that were going home or heading to nightshifts or whatever and dreaded the long flight back to his town. And maybe it was ghost instinct, or maybe it was just his exhaustion. But his brain suggested 'What if I just possess someone?' And to him that seemed like a perfectly logical train of thought. He wouldn't control their body or anything, just sleep in their skin...That did not make it sound better at all. Before he could think twice, someone left a general store, arms filled with stuff and somehow projecting an aura of safety. The two thoughts of 'They look comfy' and 'screw it' clashed together in his head as he made the very stupid decision of performing a swan drive right into the someone. "WHAT THE-" "Don't worry, I'll be gone by morning I just need to sleep" Danny cut off the persons freakout-he should really get their name at some point- he would have explained more but the sleep gods had already done their job. This left one very confused, scared, and freaked out Batkid.

#dpxdc #dcxdp #dp x dc #dc x dp #I don't know which batkid it should be #I'm thinking Dick or maybe Stephenie #I feel like Steph would be the most chill about a ghost using her body as a sleeping bag #Cass and her just straight up adopt the tired ghost boy who talks in his sleep and says the most distressing things #Bruce didn't even have a chance #Danny is gonna be so confused when he wakes up

[elspeth-catton]

today i'm thinking about how "i love you" was the first thing felix said to oliver and the last thing oliver said to felix

#that they both held the others face in their hand #how when felix said it it was casual and joyful and when oliver said it it was desperate and distressing #i'm so unwell #saltburn #saltburn 2023 #oliver quick #felix catton #oliver x felix #felix x oliver #cattonquick #jacob elordi #barry keoghan

[redactedcrowart]

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#this is pretty good if you ignore all the parts that are bad #anyway i hope you like double encryption i'm starting to get into it more <- normal sentence for normal people to say #something something tim begins to distort more the more distressed he gets or some shit idk brother i just work here #i was being forced to watch the room while i drew the majority of this if you want an idea of my mental state during the Artistic Process #my art #art #illustration #marble hornets #marble hornets fanart #mh #tim marble hornets #tim wright #i'm Not tagging all of them that is so much #eyestrain cw

[fluentisonus]

something something guy who is so so unhealthily dependent on these very specific formalized roles & narratives they've been cast into to maintain an ultimately broken relationship & can't handle it when the people around him increasingly start going off script

#i'm not articulating this well but it's sooo interesting to me #this + him not being willing to believe the institution is also breaking the 'rules' & doing evil things bc it doesn't fit this world view #he's so invested in. even though deep down he sort of knows this but he won't even let it get past his subconscious bc it's so distressing #AND like him convincing himself the joust incident was an accident bc he'd repeated it so many times even tho he Knows it wasn't #thoughts #nimona #nimona comic #^ more thoughts on this in the rbs btw

[lady-of-the-spirit]

"Just finished a Mechanisms album for the first time" moodboard

#the bifrost incident #high noon over camelot #these are the only ones i've listened to so far #very distressing #the mechanisms #tbi #hnoc #i'm saying stuff

[canisalbus]

Hello! I hope I won't sour your mood with this ask but I have been thinking a lot about your gay dogs this month especially.

I'll just try to keep the context short but in general I'm someone that has accepted being romantically undesireable. It was hard but in the end I have built my life just around me, my humble family and at this point in time I don't even think I have the time for a partner. And considering that it's the love month and a lot of people are preparing to celebrate it with their SOs I assumed that, actually, this is a thing that I sort of have in common with Machete.

From the miscellaneous lore on your profile I see Machete as someone that also has kind of rejected love. That also has built his life around his job, possibly hobbies, his family or mentors (depending if we're talking about canon or modern au). Who kind of forgot that relationships are a thing and that people bond with others in that way. Well, at least he did until meeting Vasco.

I just love thinking about their awkward beginnings. Machete being 100% sure that Vasco is just joking, maybe even sometimes teasing him (in a friendly banter type way) or just explaining to himself that all that kindness and interest is just him being a very considerate friend. And then we have Vasco that just tries to be subtle, as if he was trying to pass a fawn without it noticing and running away, but also with time gains confidence and tries more risque moves. Vasco being all smug and Machete being flustered when their hands or shoulders or tails brush in passing. And then when both are sure of their feelings we have Machete who has to choose between God and his love. Who, at first, unwillingly accepts that divine wrath will be worth their brief love.

I just love your boys. I swear they are all the love supply one might possibly need

Thank you for such a long and thoughtful message! I don't know why you thought you might accidentally sour my mood, I'm utterly delighted whenever I hear that someone has been pondering my little guys (rotating them in their head, as they say), and when they go through the trouble of sharing their findings and conclusions I'm so happy I could crawl up a wall.

I think you deciphered Machete's inner workings very well, especially those of the original canon version. The concept of love is of course prominent in Christianity, so even as a kid being raised in a religious environment that discouraged overt displays of affection and close personal bonds, Machete wasn't completely alienated from it. But it has always been a nebulous, unperceivable and unattainable thing for him. When he was old enough to lock down his career choice he readily accepted he'd never have romantic relationships, spouse or a family, and I think he must've been too young and socially inexperienced to think of it as a significant loss. Either he consciously blocked out the need for companionship by studying and working like his life depended on it, or he didn't really consider that being genuinely befriended, appreciated and loved as a person instead of a respectable and competent authority figure was even an option for him, at least not until Vasco came along.

#I think it took some time to get through his initial defences #especially since when they first met the stressful apprenticeship period was still fresh in Machete's mind #the years under his explosive and gaslighting mentor's wing had made him very distrustful so he preferred to just stick to himself #Vasco is good at winning people over and once he convinced him that he didn't have any ulterior motives they became besties pretty quickly #and even though the line between platonic and romantic started gradually blurring Machete kept convincing himself #that his feelings for Vasco were just Very Deep Friendship #and Vasco has an eye for noticing these things and a bolder personality #so when he tried to reciprocate a little bit Machete thought 'what a good friend he is' #'so kind and considerate and I'm so grateful and lucky to have him and I must not ruin things by getting too personal' #it was awkward and at times a little bit painful but I'd like to believe the progression was for the most part smooth and natural #considering the circumstances it could've been a lot more distressing #as corny as it is I think they were just happy to have found each other #they advanced at the same phase and reached the 'I think we've become a couple actually' stage at the same time #at least that's how I imagine it at the moment #answered #anonymous #Vaschete lore #long post

[crestomancer-art]

(bonus: playing as 9S)

I'm extremely charmed every time 2B sits or lays down and 9S attentively watches over her 🥺💗💗💗

#pls no spoilers #I'm playing a2 right now so you can imagine my distress #but im still not at the end #and i hear theres even more pain RIP #nier 9s #nier 2b #nier automata #2b x 9s #update: i finished all the endings!! #wehhhhh what a game!!!!! #9s2b #2b9s