#i'm so sorry this became really long sdfghjkl

[jeoncooky]

As the year comes to an end I wanted to continue my little tradition of thanking my favorite bloggers and remembering the year through a follow forever, so here it comes 👀 Or at least it was supposed to be a simple follow forever, but it became a huge thank-you/appreciation post to Bangtan but. Oh well. It’s been about two months since I remade this blog and over the holidays I reached a significant milestone (well, at least for me), which I’m honestly still very surprised about, so I wanted to share my feelings a little bit.

2017 was in no way an easy year, though it was an important one. I finished at my first “real” job, started in a university, moved to another city - and was lucky enough to see Bangtan live in front of my very own eyes for the first time. So if I’ll remember something of this year in the future, it will be those. Or at least, I hope it will be those. 

I’ve struggled a lot during this year with my dog passing away, losing my friends and trying to cope with stress, sadness and anxiety. This blog (and the one preceding this) has been an escape, or at least it was supposed to be one. I’m not so happy to say that my struggles are quite visible in here still but.. it’s an escape of a sort. 

If nothing else, I’m glad to share this place with you all. I’m glad to share my love for Bangtan with you all. Because honestly? I’m not sure where I would be without them. In my darkest days they make me laugh, in my saddest hours they make me smile, in the most painful moments they make it hurt less. 

To my sweet loving Namjoon: thank you for being the thoughtful, wise, beautiful human being that you are. I really look up to you. I wish I could see the world the way you do: your mind is beautiful. You give me strength to go on. Thank you.

To my smiling big brother Seokjin: your dad jokes and heart events always make my day, even when I’m down. I can’t quite decide whether I love or hate them (mostly love... but some part of me looks at your puns and goes “dude. really”. but each time my heart grows fonder of you so, I guess it doesn’t matter). Thank you for blessing my days with your beautiful voice as well. 

To my soul buddy Yoongi: that’s what I’ve called you for a long time now, haven’t I? I feel like we get each other, you know? You’re like a long lost brother, someone who shares my soul and understands me. You’ll never know how much you mean to me and how much you have helped me, but one day I want to thank you properly. You deserve the world.

To my hardworking sunshine Hoseok: I’ve said for quite a long time that if I got to choose to get to know one of the guys as a friend, it would be you. I thought for a long time that you shine too brightly for my dark heart but your caring heart pulls me closer to you, makes me love you more each passing day. You have the energy that I don’t have. You have the bright smile that I don’t have. You dance, I trip because of my own limbs by just standing still. I thought we were the total opposites but, perhaps we just complement each other really well. I love the happy you, but I love the serious you even more.

To my sweet angel Jimin: how does someone as sweet as you even exist. I feel like my family would really like you: you’d get along well with my mom, I think. If we don’t count the language barrier but hey, let’s not. You’re free to visit anytime, ok? I’m sorry I call you small, I just can’t help it. Every time I see you I want to hug you. I hope one day you’ll love yourself as much as I love you. When I was a child I had this painting of a guardian angel on the wall above my bed. I don’t know if I have an actual guardian angel, but I’d like to think you do their job very well already. 

To my adorable friend Taehyung: It’s still your birthday in my country so, happy birthday! Let’s go play with Yeontan together and game until it’s early morning, shall we? I’d call you my little brother but you’re older than me so maybe I shouldn’t. I want to see your happy smile every day I’m alive. 

To my matured bunny Jungkook: ahh, we’re the same age but you’ve achieved so much already, I feel so young and useless when I think of you. I’ve got 6 months on you though so let’s establish that before anything else ok. My shy little bunny, sometimes I relate to you a lot. I’m glad to have another introverted role model, there can never be too many. I adore you so much it shouldn’t even be possible. You’re like one of my siblings tbh, you’re welcome to join our (very not social) gaming sessions anytime. You were my first bias and that love from years ago will never go away. My sister’s boyfriend says you’re the most handsome in Bangtan, I don’t know if I could ever make that decision but then again my fave tag is full of pictures of you... 

Oops, that part of the post became a bit too long. Anyway, I want to thank each and every one of you who made the decision to like my posts, reblog my gifs, send messages to me or just visit my blog. I want to thank all of my mutuals for being the lovely people that they are. Each and every time I got a notification of gaining a new mutual I could not believe my eyes, and quite honestly I still can’t. I’ve looked up to many of you for a long time already, so seeing you following me never fails to surprise me. I want to thank the bloggers that I follow for creating amazing content and keeping my dash active (you can’t believe how many boring uni lectures I’ve spent scrolling through my dash appreciating your posts). And lastly, to my sweet followers, whether we follow each other or not: thank you for being so sweet and loving. Each time one of you leaves a message in my inbox or adds cute tags to my gifs you add a smile to my face. So, thank you. 

And then we can finally move on to that part that this post was actually supposed to be about: listing lovely people. (Mutuals in bolded).

#-j

@2awake @agustdz @apgujeon @army-baby-gzb @ask-bts-stuff @bloombwi @booptaegi @bwinkook @bwisan @bwiseoks @cloudjimin @comeherejimin @cosyjeon @cyyphr @daegucrew @dearmyjimin @ggukbun @hobies @jaayhope @je0n @jengkook @jeonbegins @jeongguk @jeonggukiest @jeonify @jeonsshi @jeovkks @jiminnight @jiminrolls @jimiyoong @jinblond @jjeonguk @jjeoreo @jjilljj @jjks @jminies @joonjuly @jungshiii @junqkookied @junqkooq

k-y

@kimdaily @kookiebuff @kookmint @ksjknj @ktaebwi @kthspjm @mangaetteok @mewchim @nochuie @nochuu @parkjiminbiased @pjmksj @poutyjimin @rapdaegu @samwol @seokjinies @seokjins-wings @softjiminstan @sosjimin @sugaa @sugahyung @sweaterpawsjimin @taeguk @ttaewo @vanillalattaes @yccnseok @yoonggi @yoonmin @yoonseok

#follow forever #more like confessing my eternal love but oh well #i'm so sorry this became really long sdfghjkl #congrats if you actually make it until the end ahahahhaa #mutuals: tumblr keeps unbolding your names so i'm sorry if you're not bolded LOL