#i'm sorry i'm rambling i just feel really good rn skjdhas

[littlespoonevan]

y’know, i’m aware i know how to write to some degree. bc like, i’ve been writing steadily for 8 years now and it would be ridiculous to think i haven’t improved and i absolutely do take every compliment i get on my fics to heart so i know my strong suit lies in character/emotion, it’s what i’ve built my fics on - plot be damned. but god it was my 2nd week in the creative workshop i’m attending right now and the whole time everyone else was reading their pieces i was panicking bc everyone had written 300 word stories with actual plot!! and i’d gone for something v simple this week, just a little snapshot into a moment in life, y’know? and for an actual published author to compliment me on that, to tell me it was beautifully written and point out all the little phrases she loved????????? guys i could actually cry i never thought i’d have a chance to have my work taken seriously outside fandom spaces before but i’m starting to feel like maybe i might???????? 

#last week we had to read the piece we submitted to apply for the course #and i took that from an idea for a novel i'd had AGES ago so it was more plot-driven #but this week i really just wanted to write a Moment y'know? #and try and make the audience feel something bc i can do that with fic but i've never really tried to do that with original work #and the response was just so lovely??????? #one of the other members of the class was like 'it's exactly how you hope your children view their life' #is2g #my heart was bursting #everyone else in the course is so much older than me and won competitions and published stuff before and it's so intimidating #but also really motivating to think i could be on the same level as them somehow???? #i'm sorry i'm rambling i just feel really good rn skjdhas #writing adventures