#i'm still alive (barely)

[d3rpydoods]

Getting high off my own supply once again🤡👍

Based on this

#STILL ALIVE BOISSS #barely #idk #schools getting in the way and i'm just BURNED OUT #affects the artistic motivation too #but have this for now #yeah the braid's back cause its what he deserve #liulao #liu kang mk1 #liu kang #mk1 #mortal kombat #kung lao mk1 #kung lao #my questionable creations

[coconuts-are-mammals]

gays, claim your "I survived the summer of 2023" tokens here

#see also: “I barely survived the summer of 2023” tokens as well as “I didn't survive the summer of 2023” tokens #Hozier #Unreal Earth #good omens season 2 #go2 #Wwdits #ofmd s2 #ofmd season 2 #Barbie movie #red white and royal blue #rwarb #heartstopper series #honestly I'm probably forgetting a lot still. feel free to bury me nameless in Boston and spit on my grave #should that be the case #but hi. hey. we still alive?? #lgbtq #I also mean gays more so as queers but I personally am more inclined to use the word gay when describing this lovely community #Even though in this state none of us are happy #neil gaiman #Nimona

[crescencestudio]

Intertwine: A Romance to Last

Full Game Out Now!

Our Otome Jam 2023 Entry is here! We are so excited to announce the release of "intertwine," a short but sweet romance visual novel that explores the meaning of soulmates, destiny, and a love that transcends lifetimes.

❝ would you choose me in every lifetime? ❞

✼　  ҉ 　 ✼ 　 ҉  　✼ 

i’ve heard it said that love is a thread woven through destiny. to experience an inescapable pull—a free fall into sun-dappled bedsheets,  intertwined caresses, gossamer whispers.

i’ve heard it said that love is a tapestry woven from memories. experiences of a quiet comfort—a haven of sun-soaked bedsheets,  interlaced caresses,  silken whispers. 

i’ve experienced that love: sun-dappled bedsheets into sun-soaked, intertwined caresses into interlaced, gossamer whispers into silken.

what i would do to experience that love with you again—to follow this string into the next life, with you by my side.

if i did, would you come with me?

✼　  ҉ 　 ✼ 　 ҉  　✼ 

Features

Customizable Name and Pronouns

~15k Words (Estimated 1-2 Hours of Gameplay)

6 CGs

Partial Voice Acting

Van (Need I Say More??)

Van: the One and Only Love Interest of Intertwine

The way his naked back is plastered all over this post. I’ve whored him out fr

#intertwine #game release #visual novel #romance visual novel #indie game #amare game #english otome #otome #otome game #WE MADE IT BABY #OTOME JAM #I'M STILL ALIVE BUT I'M BARELY BREATHING

[smolpotatobun]

some trigun doodles that I did out of boredom

#yes i'm still alive #barely #/j #trigun #trigun stampede #trigun stampede fanart #millions knives #legato bluesummers #vash the stampede #meryl stryfe #nicholas d. wolfwood #zazie the beast #doodle #digital sketch #nariibun art

[wormdebut]

Hello! How about 21 for your Spotify wrapped? 👯

HI! I am so fucking sorry this took me forever. This one was a massive challenge for me because 21 on my Spotify Wrapped is Counting Worms by Knocked Loose. For any of you that know, Counting Worms is thirteen words long so I had to process how I wanted to handle this. (And work fucking sucks and I'm exhausted as hell but that's beside the point.) I hope you enjoy this. I actually love it a lot more than I thought I would. 🖤

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'I wrote a song about getting better, it's a feeling I don't remember'

Steve stares at the words on the page, looking up to cock an eyebrow at Eddie, "What comes next?"

Eddie stifles a laugh. "Nothing does, Stevie. That's it."

Steve scrunches his nose, confused. "Thats--the song? That like ten words."

Eddie grabs the paper from him and smiles down at it. "It's thirteen words, big boy. And its--sometimes it's not about the amount of words. It's about feeling something."

Steve tries not to blush. Big boy certainly did a number on him. He would never fucking admit that--but, it is what it is.

He shakes he his head, to try and clear his thoughts, "Sure."

Steve watches as Eddie's smile widens, eyes crinkling in the corners. Christ.

"Did you?" Steve asks.

"Did I what?" Eddie questions.

"Did you ever get better?"

Eddie's smile softens then. "I'm working on it."

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Steve always knew he was something--something not straight. He just didn't really have a word for it, and he tried not to dwell on it. Didn't get caught with drifting eyes in locker rooms, made sure Tommy wouldn't tell a soul about what they got up to. He didn't. Tommy might be an asshole but he wouldn't out himself or Steve…

Anyway, Steve always knew. He always knew and he had told Robin a few months after Starcourt. She helped him find the words for it. Bisexual. So Steve knew what he was, but he was fine ending up with a woman. That's just what he always figured would happen

But Eddie? Eddie changed everything.

Robin had told him just to fucking talk to him. She said that he was being a hypocrite because he had helped her get her shit together enough to talk to Vickie after everything and it had worked out--at least for a bit--but that's beside the point. The point is Robin had asked Vickie out and Steve just stared at Eddie talking, at Eddie playing D&D with kids, at Eddie writing music. He just watched.

He was scared because Eddie? Eddie was loud and confident and interesting and important.

Steve was just…Steve.

What would he even say?

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It'd been a few months since Steve had found the song. Thirteen words.

He couldn't stop thinking about it.

'It's about feeling something.'

He still hadn't said anything to Eddie, but he needed to…Well, he wanted to.

There's only a couple of days left until the kids have winter break, and Steve is expecting them to invade his home as per usual so he has been cleanly all fucking day listening to Abba and thinking about Eddie Munson's stupid fucking hands.

He was feeling impulsive--he could talk to Eddie--he could. Eddie had said it wasn't about the amount of things he had to say it just had to mean something…right?

Steve grumbles out a sigh before stomping over to the phone. He dials out the number--has it memorized by now. It's late, he listens to the line trilling as the clock turns. 10:12 pm.

"Thanks for calling the bat cave." Eddie rambles off.

"Yeah, hi batman. It's Steve."

Eddie laughs over the line. "Stevie! To what do I owe the late night call?"

Steve steels himself. "Listen, I--can I come over?"

"Uh--yeah? Are you okay?" Eddie asks and Steve shakes his head, not that Eddie can see it anyway.

"I'm--I just--I'll be over in a few." Steve breathes. He can do this. It's fine.

"Okay, S. Just be safe--alright?"

Steve mumbles out an affirmative before hanging up and grabbing his keys.

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He only paces outside of Eddie's door for a minute or two before he knocks lightly. Eddie is quick to answer, looking ridiculously hot for a man wearing worn out sweats and one of a thousand old band tees. He looks worried and Steve feels bad about that but--he's just gotta--

"Can we go to your room?" Steve asks and Eddie lets out a shocked laugh before nodding and heading back through the apartment. Steve follows behind.

He stands frozen in the bedroom doorway, watches as Eddie sits on the edge of his bed with head cocked to the side.

"What's going on Stevie? Was it the nightmares again because--"

Steve shakes his head, and swallows before just--going for it.

"Look--I've been--running so many things through my head. I've written speeches and songs--which is sort of your thing. So, I stopped that. But--I have thought over and over again about how to say what I need to say.

And you--you told me 'it's not about the amount of words, it's about feeling something.

And when I look at you? I feel everything--

And I just--I just needed you to know."

Eddie blinks up at Steve, eyes wide. Great. Steve fucking scared him. Awesome this is great. This was a really fucking awesome idea Steve. Nice--

"That was a lot more than thirteen words, sweetheart." Eddie smirks at him and Steve feels his heart stutter at the name.

Steve breathes, "Yeah well--did I fuck everything up?"

Eddie moves from his bed then, quick to meet Steve in the doorway. Steve is quiet. He watches as Eddie's eyes move from Steve's own, down to his lips and back up again.

Eddie brings a hand up to cup his cheek and Steve can't help the soft noise that escapes his throat. The other man swipes his thumb over Steve's cheekbone. "No Stevie, I really don't think you did. I'm gonna kiss you now, okay?"

Steve can't do anything other than nod.

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#steddie #steddie fanfic #steddie blurb #steddie ficlet #yall this one was TUFF #Worm Spotify Series #I AM STILL ALIVE--but I'm barely breathin #have u ever run a business in the middle of chrimas cause ten this is year ten and im TIRED #anyway thats enough of that #Don't think that I didn't want to include the ARF ARF in here #but unfortunatley there is no puppy play featured--this time #worm brain #hellfiredemon

[solarwreathe]

christmas with no limits

really, this art was all an excuse to show you this image. i miss when old movie promo photos were awkward as shit.

#home alone #wet bandits #merry christmas #christmas art #christmas movies #really what do i tag this as #'solar is everything okay? you've barely drawn any weird ugly men lately' #no but fr i need to fetch an ugly man muse every few months to keep my art alive. this is the molting part of my life cycle #im proud of how i caricatured harry but what you see of marv is my 4th attempt and i'm still not satisfied. it doesn't look like him! #he veers more towards the pompous brand of bearded villain than the weed smoker he actually is #anyway little anecdote: home alone is one of the first movies i remember watching. we saw it in school on one of them old tellies on wheels #i didn't know much of america yet. being a toddler. so the whole time i was like: #why's it such a big deal the family's trapped in paris? it's an hours flight...

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

do you understand how long I've been waiting for Devan's wedding???!!?!! it has lived in my head rent free for 5 years, I'm fucking HYPED

#I'm so fucking ready I'm so glad Phil confirmed Dil was alive and well and they hadn't lost the god damn save #5 years 🧎‍♂️🧎‍♂️ 5 fucking years and all i wanted was to see that stupid fake person get married to another stupid fake person #im so sorry everyone who follows me because of harry potter stuff #im barely in the dan and phil fandom anymore but this has awoken something in me #and unfortunately everyone has got to hear about it #im in my fucking 20s ready to watch these 2 gay mfs play video games badly #i still have their channels on notifications but ignore that #dan and phil #dan and phil games #dab howlter #evan pancakes #my favourite fake gay people #dnp #dnpgames

[420pogpills]

#dream team meetup #i'm still alive but i'm barely breathin

[lurakha]

HORIZON ZERO DAWN ー scenery (17 / ∞)

#hi i'm still alive (barely) i had 2 big exams today i was studying for but they're done now (as am i) #horizon zero dawn #hzd #horizon photomode #horizon scenery #gamingnetwork #gamingscenery #dailygaming #virtual photography #video game screenshots #horizon #gaming

[thebananwithaplan]

. "Anyone else sometimes feel like being a-"

#....banana slime. #appeeling show host (dancing banana) #((Guess who finally played Super Slime Simulator. It's not much but still enjoyable in short bursts.)) #((which may be because my phone isn't doing well with battery life these days and I may need to get a new one soon)) #((I can barely play SWBG for a few rounds before I have to charge this thing again)) #((the charger port doesn't even work anymore so I'm using a magnetic charger to keep this thing alive)) #((I swear once I get a new phone and/or pc I want to give Shrunken School Obby a try too))

[geek-png]

Hey y'all, been a hot minute hasn't it? I've been preoccupied with classes as of late and my art drive has been very sluggish, but I'm still chugging at my own pace.

However I come back with a commission done for the lovely @morelikedoccock , featuring the man from their Mutant!Otto AU (one of many I really enjoy) :} I love himb very much, and I'm happy with the result.

Commissions are currently closed and so are requests, I apologize for neglecting y'all for so long but shit happens. I appreciate those who still do stick around though! My love for Spiderman and all the Doc Ock / Molina related stuff is still very much alive, just subdued due to everything else happening.

#geek png #fanart #doc ock #otto octavius #spiderman au #fanfic #alternative universe #i'm still alive but barely aha #my brother got me sick and I'm out of class for this week #but must remain productive somehow #bless everyone who still acknowledges my work n reblogs n everything #also a special thank you to my friends who help keep me sane and support me a fuckton #you know who you are ♥

[mysterywheeze]

If you've ever struggled with suicidal ideation, this has likely been a particularly difficult week. It certainly has been for me. I've lost a lot of trust in a lot of people. I hope this post doesn't make anyone lose trust in me.

You need to live. That means you, the person reading this post. I don't know your name or your situation but I know, with the same certainty that I know that the Earth is turning, that you need to live.

I know that it can be hard, crushingly hard. I know what it's like to feel so empty that getting out of bed seems impossible, or so overwhelmed that drastic action seems like the only way out.

It isn't. Death is not the answer. It sure as fuck isn't praxis. Please, please do not let anyone convince you otherwise. If you think that your death will have a net positive effect on the world, I promise you, as someone who has been there before, it won't.

And while I encourage you to do what you can to try and make the world a better place - donate to charity, pick up litter, volunteer your time, write your representatives, et cetera - I want to make it clear that those aren't requirements you need to meet to justify being alive. Your life has value, inherently.

Today things may be terrible. They may stay terrible for a while. But one day, a song will get stuck in your head that makes you feel something again. You'll meet a dog that loves you unconditionally. You'll eat a meal that tastes like it was cooked by an angel. You'll pick up a new hobby, perhaps without even realizing it, and it will bring you some sense of satisfaction. You'll watch a beautiful movie. You'll walk past a beautiful mural. Someone will compliment your outfit, someone will laugh at your joke, someone will tell you they're happy to spend time with you. One day you will wake up early enough to see the sun rise.

It's a cliche to say "it will get better". That's because it's true. It probably won't be a linear upward trend, rarely do things stay better forever, but there will come a time when you'll be glad you stayed alive. I promise.

#cw suicide #and uh. it's been a while since i last posted. i feel like i owe y'all a Life Update #so much has changed in my life - for better and worse - over the past two years #i have a degree and a (freelance) job and new friends. i have been through extreme stress and been taken advantage of because of it #there are a lot of things in my personal life that i wish were better. lowest points are not easy to recover from. #but at the end of the day i think it's a good thing that i'm still alive. #sidenote: this isn't the grand return of this blog or whatever. i haven't been keeping up with watcher content since early 2022 #i still love the boys it's just been a wild ride out here in meatspace #i hope to make a proper return to the fandom someday. right now a certain hat simulator has an iron grip on my brain #it's funny how a game i was barely familiar with just half a year ago has ended up helping me deal with extreme stress. #the very specific type of joy it brings me is not something i ever saw coming. i am so glad i'm here to feel it now.

[mattodore]

the echthroi protagonists on the set of barbie

#river dipping #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #echthroi #oc extras #i didn't feel like doing any of my other ocs bc there just aren't enough colors for the full lot (but still missing three lmao) but okay so #imani: this barbie is living in a plastic house #romeo: this ken is collecting roses #sehyuk: this ken is carving his name in flesh #dutchie: this ken is circling the drain #alessandria: this doll is tending to too many wounds #delphi: this barbie is stomaching bone #dionte: this ken is digging claws into dirt #nicholas: this ken is fading in and out of the light #............................... romeo fr the only oc in here having a good time i'm gkjfdhnfjghndfkjghn #!! cw for vague mentions of abuse and drugs and like... a lot trauma in these tags past this point bc i'm talking abt my ocs !! #we got fuckin uhhhhhh neglected child aching for affection grows up craving any kind of touch even a welt abusing substances and himself #vs. barely there boy nearly human enough for love but missing the mark and growing up detached wild too apart from anything to feel alive #vs. eldest daughter discarded for only son unable to break free from kinship and find herself and a life apart from the plastic #vs. murderer drug dealer crime lord born to a cold family then sent away and abandoned out of shame #vs. recovering catholic suffering guilt and violent urges toeing the line of morality and seeking acceptance #vs. werewolf never meant to lead suddenly having their entire family ripped from them and struggling with power and isolation and grief #vs. woman who spent her whole life being used and hurt and silenced growing claws and teeth to strike back and maim and feast #vs. lost boy in a foreign land mourning the loss of his mother has humanity ripped from him and is forever altered from failed shifting #vs. protective volatile arsonist orphan older brother figure whose entire story arc is [redacted] #vs..................... romeo the hopeless romantic like it's kjdnhkjfnghk #maybe it's just bc romeo is a new oc and i haven't had the time to really sink into him but i kinda like that about him #dutchie was originally supposed to be the untouched by history oc but then i made him catholic and well. that turned around pretty quickly #i fully blame his pinterest board for that like you add one cross image in a board and suddenly every pin you get recommended after is like #hey what if you fucked this guy up a bit? and who was i to argue with that? ...................also i just reached tag limit LMAOOOOOOOO

[kaiko55]

I've reinstalled this app to give an idea to the tk community if it's still alive.

Hi lees and lers and whatev, so y'all remember the ENA series right

Uh

See how Merci's arms are kinda...up there...?

...kept up by that pole..see that? Yeah yeah?

mmm yeah thanks

I hope this is enough of an indication💀

#im back #extinction party #joel g #merci Joel g #i have not seen ONE lee! Merci art smh like LOOK AT HER SHE'S SO VULNERABLE HLEPELEPE #understandable cuz she's a minor character but STILLLLANDIMK #tk community #PLEASE STILL BE ALIVE GUYS #i can barely draw Joel g's characters myself that's why I'm asking others to LOL

[poppythetoppy]

the good news is while I've been away from this blog I've been working hard on my mental health with my therapist and am feeling better, bit by bit ᕙ(`▿´)ᕗ I've also been diagnosed with psoriatic arthritis & have been working with my rheumatologist on medications for management. Wooo!

#poppy life update #thats mainly why I' ve barely posted for a while #I'm still alive tho f;lkad

[benkeibear]

Popping in to let you know I'm alive lol

#rhy speaks ♡ #barely alive but still somewhat standing #look at me harder and I'll fall over #your girl is so sick she will call in sick tomorrow and probably the rest of the week #told them I'm not well but they made me come in regardless. I'm worse now #oh well. 8pm and imma go eepy