#i'm sure she'll find a way to co-opt this

[pillowbeast]

Ya want questions aimed at Leona? Well, don't mind if I do!: * What product does she specialize in selling as a shop keep? I'm assuming from her hammer that she'd be a sorta blacksmith-type, offering to tinker with and add on enhancements and attachments to whatever armaments she's handed. * When taking on whatever dungeon she decides to challenge, what's her general approach? Does she take this slowly in a calm and measure approach, or is she more guns blazing, smashing down any mob or trap in her way in order to plunder any loot as quickly as possible?

And finally: What's her favorite meal & drink to indulge in when she gets ready to wind down from any eventful day?

I think on average she specialises in blacksmithing stuff most of all, like she'll take commissions to work on almost anything but that's definitely a lot of where her personal drive tends to end up going. Like sure, she probably COULD figure out how to make a drone if she was asked to or something, but that's not where she feels her magnum opuses come from. Leona is, without a shadow of a doubt the guns blazing kind I feel. Granted, I'm sure she takes a bit of time to plan out a route ahead of time but that will quickly fall by the wayside when improvisation comes into play with her. You'll often find her just, stomping through a dungeon and whatnot, fierce grin on her face as she carves her own path through the place. And last but certainly not least, I feel like she's probably quite simple with her tastes? Nothing too fancy, probably likes her sweeter foods and drinks cos I think that's a fun contrast to the kind of person she is? Non-Alcoholic Apple ciders being the kind of drink she'd opt for especially I feel, compliment it with a fried rice considering that would be easy for her to whip up after a day like that (She can always leave the sweet stuff til dessert anyway, she can't say that ice cream counts as a meal in good conscience)

#asks4beast #c:leona

[madame-peach]

Hi Peach,

I've been looking into resources on anti-transmasculinity, and the framework of transmisogynoir-as-fulcrum. It's been helpful insofar as contexualizing my own experiences of antitransmasculism, both w/physical (cis men attempting to traffick me, cis men spying on me in the bathroom, ect.) and verbal manifestations. While I don't necessarily appreciate the way statements like "hyperinvisibility is a privilege" downplays and erases attacks against men like me ranging from my own experiences to far more fatal events, I appreciate the privilege lessened scrutiny affords us generally, both in the media and on the street (sure, when we are "found" its incredibly dangerous, but we aren't hunted for, and anytime that grifter buck angel comes up i remember the only way trans men get to experience anything close to cis men's privlege is to allow one's self to be co-opted by transmisogynists) . I'm mostly bothering you for 2 things: 1) can you point me in direction of any more writings on the topic of antitransmasculinity and much more importantly 2) how do I show up for the black transfems in my life more effectively? A very close friend of mine has just started in her transition, and I worry about the transmisogynoir she'll face as she continues to take on more overtly feminine presentation. Do you have any resources i could read for that sort of allyship as well? Not just for general society, but for intracommunity stuff as well (I'm leery of white folk being weird around her). I think there seems to be a desire amongst the community to both hold up black trans women and transfems as the ultimate martyrs, while denying them the space to rlly feel and express themselves in part because ppl hold up hatred of transmisogyny over love and concern for black trans women and trans fems. Like, I'm ready to be there for her emotionally, and keep my eyes peeled for those who'd hurt her when we're together, but obviously there's more I could do that I'm not thinking of atm. Thank you for your consideration 🙏

Thanks for writing to me about this! Here are some of my thoughts:

I've been looking into resources on anti-transmasculinity, and the framework of transmisogynoir-as-fulcrum. It's been helpful insofar as contexualizing my own experiences of antitransmasculism, both w/physical (cis men attempting to traffick me, cis men spying on me in the bathroom, ect.) and verbal manifestations.

I'm happy you've put in the effort to locate these resources and that you've found them helpful. Consulting theoretical texts can illuminate things about our experiences that we wouldn't have been able to recognize otherwise. Reading is a great practice, and I encourage you to continue this insofar as you are able.

I don't necessarily appreciate the way statements like "hyperinvisibility is a privilege" downplays and erases attacks against men like me ranging from my own experiences to far more fatal events

I'd really like to check out this resource that frames hyperinvisibility as a privilege. Where could I find this resource? I wonder if there's some crucial context in which that statement is being made that is being missed.

1) can you point me in direction of any more writings on the topic of antitransmasculinity

I honestly haven't read anything recently on this topic, but I will absolutely post about it if I do. And please send whatever you've found my way!

2) how do I show up for the black transfems in my life more effectively?

Love and support them authentically. Devote time to working through your internalized biases without shame and show up for them authentically. Witness them in their truth. If you view them as "black transfems" first and foremost, start there. Let go of preconceived / systematically-instilled / racially-gendered notions of what you think they are, and see them as who they are.

I worry about the transmisogynoir she'll face as she continues to take on more overtly feminine presentation.

This is understandable. Luckily, the more you invest in unlearning your own biases, the safer a space you will be able to foster for your friend. That's all you have control over in your friend's life.

Do you have any resources i could read for that sort of allyship as well? Not just for general society, but for intracommunity stuff as well (I'm leery of white folk being weird around her).

I don't have any resources on hand that I can vouch for necessarily, but there are certainly books and such that specifically discuss allyship, and I highly suggest you check them out. Let me know what you find!

I think there seems to be a desire amongst the community to both hold up black trans women and transfems as the ultimate martyrs, while denying them the space to rlly feel and express themselves in part because ppl hold up hatred of transmisogyny over love and concern for black trans women and trans fems.

This may be true in some spaces, but not everywhere. The more invested you are in surrounding yourself with folks who have divested from these ideas, the less you will witness / experience this in your life, and the more safety you and your network can offer your friend.

Like, I'm ready to be there for her emotionally, and keep my eyes peeled for those who'd hurt her when we're together, but obviously there's more I could do that I'm not thinking of atm.

I think you should do just that. Love your friend and enjoy the time you spend together. Above all else, support them as they transition towards their authenticity and this new, exciting chapter of their lives. I have found that the friendships I've made post-trans acceptance have been the fullest I've experienced to date. Your friend deserves to find that fullness in you. And you in them.

#my thoughts #anti transmasculinity #transmisogyny #transmisogynoir #how to support transfems #anon #ask

[punkscowardschampions]

Jesse & Jac

Jesse: [okay so in my head it's at least the next day and obviously she's not going to school and neither is he because lowkey doesn't want to ever but brings her a cup of tea in the morning when everyone else is going off and then leaves] Jac: Practicing for your illustrious career in the café industry? Jac: Dad will be equal parts proud and horrified Jac: that'd be a...latte, yeah? Jesse: Depends on if you reckon it's needed Jac: Think it's a flat white, actually Jac: I'll ask him, be nothing but thrilled Jesse: thrilled about you talking Jac: you could be a little more buzzing yourself, honestly Jesse: I am Jesse: silent brooding works better for lads Jesse: and it's sorta my gig Jac: Don't worry, I'll leave your guitar out of my 'brooding' Jac: keep it truly 🤐 Jesse: 👍 Jac: You been tasked to make sure I don't top myself or this purely about your knowledge adversion Jesse: writer's block Jac: well you aren't co-opting my heartbreak Jac: not being another bitch who never gets the credit she's due Jesse: have a credit Jesse: don't matter to me Jac: Got enough hits, Mr Sensitive? Jac: alright Jac: it would piss Jude off if I got mine 'fore her Jesse: chart faves are shitting themselves Jac: yeah, you're well top40, always said so 😏 Jesse: prefer the 🤐 off you then Jac: Charming Jac: no wonder I'm so well-adjusted Jesse: you're doing alright Jac: Ha, what are you basing that expert opinion on? Jesse: 👀 Jac: Notoriously deceptive, 👀s Jesse: depends whose Jac: Remember when we started school Jac: and the teachers used to get our names the wrong way 'round Jesse: yeah Jesse: put a k on yours and an i in mine Jac: right Jac: maybe we can really commit to the swap now Jesse: if you like Jac: I could get the silent brooding down Jac: my sex aside Jesse: I'm not doing everything you do Jesse: be knackered Jac: you kidding? Jac: I'm laying here watching this cuppa go cold Jesse: [comes in and drinks it because we don't waste tea in this house] Jesse: don't stare at an empty mug Jesse: that's 💔 Jac: [the smallest lol ever] Jac: what do I do then? Jesse: [gets his guitar and starts teaching her some basics, like well if you're gonna be me] Jac: [that's a nice moment] Jesse: [just passing that guitar between them like] Jac: ['does it work then?'] Jesse: [a look like what?] Jac: [looks at the guitar then does 💔 mime] Jesse: [gets his phone and shows her how many songs/playlists etc there are on spotify or wherever about heartbreak with a shrug like it must do] Jac: [a look back that says 'or it doesn't'] Jesse: [a look back like maybe nothing does and looks at his imaginary watch like maybe time does] Jac: [scatching look like your mother] Jesse: [😏 like both of your parents] Jac: [taps the empty mug like make us another one? 'might be able to drink some of this one'] Jesse: [goes to do that and will bring her biscuits of course] Jac: [I'd love a biscuit rn tbh] Jesse: you know what would work? Jac: tell me Jesse: 🥊 Jac: I can barely hold a mug Jac: you want an easy win that bad? Jesse: you held a guitar Jac: not as hard as you want girls to believe, pretty boy Jesse: piss off Jac: 😏 Jesse: told ya you were doing alright Jac: not dead yet Jesse: 👍 Jesse: Jude would have it said you are Jesse: or dying Jac: She's got Auntie Grace's dramatic streak Jac: she'll wanna 🥊 me for saying it but can't hide from the truth Jesse: she wants to knock out loads of people Jesse: get in line Jac: I'm not queuing Jesse: 💔 isn't a killer then? Jac: Haven't you ever? Jac: ❤ or 💔 Jesse: only been in like Jac: reckon I've only ever been out Jesse: what do you mean? Jac: I thought it was ❤ Jac: but it weren't Jesse: weren't to you Jesse: or weren't to them Jac: Is there a difference? Jesse: yeah Jac: if it's not reciprocated Jac: it's not real Jesse: if it was real to one of you Jac: Only in my 🧠 Jesse: you reckon? Jac: I know now Jesse: if they even know Jac: what do you mean? Jesse: how they feel might be complicated Jesse: in their 🧠 or ❤ Jac: She made her feelings really clear Jesse: one of them Jac: It's not even how much this hurts Jac: and it does Jac: but I'm going to be completely alone Jesse: [brings her the tea and biscuits and does the feelsy lean on her that JJ do like no you won't] Jac: [just tapping his hand like she did the mug because we can't be smiling or showing appreciation in any way more than this rn] Jesse: [we drinking tea and eating biscuits cos emotions] Jac: [again, a nice moment, even though if you could cry, you would be] Jesse: [his biscuit falling in his tea and him doing the 💔 mime] Jac: [kisses her teeth like amateur 'won't tell dad'] Jesse: [does a little spur of the moment song about it that's so silly] Jac: [snorts 'oh, now I get why you have fans, yeah' shaking her head] Jesse: [throws a pillow at her because father's son] Jac: [hits him with it, obvs] Jesse: [lets her because it'll help] Jac: [should turn into you lowkey angrily beating him with the pillow like a crazy grieving person 'cos tea] Jesse: [100% approved and he'll eventually just hug her when she's exhausted her anger] Jac: [allowing it 'cos you need it] Jesse: [you seriously do gal] Jac: [loved this tbh] Jesse: [I like them together a lot] Jac: [but not in an incesty way ty] Jesse: [no no] Jac: [later, like, he left] Jac: thanks Jesse: it's just tea Jac: no just about, boy Jesse: 🙄😏 Jac: just let me know when you need a cup, yeah? Jesse: every hour on the hour Jesse: tah Jac: don't take the piss, like Jesse: don't sound like me Jac: 'course not Jesse: real food? Jac: biscuits are the most important food group Jesse: Dad entered the chat Jac: thank fuck he hasn't Jesse: worse people to talk to Jesse: in this house Jac: don't need to tell me Jac: dreading when she gets back Jesse: I'll take her on a dog walk Jesse: long Jac: throw a ⚾ and lose her Jac: bless Jesse: you've done the runner Jac: it worked so well Jesse: no seeing the future Jac: dunno if anyone thinks it's all that shocking Jesse: you weren't doing it for shock factor Jac: mum thinks I'm such a prick Jesse: She don't have the full story Jesse: and she can be a prick Jac: she ain't saying it like a compliment Jesse: not personally gutted that you weren't as good at pissing off as her Jac: 🤢 Jac: careful Jesse: 🤠 Jac: gotta live up to the namesake, yeah Jesse: don't wanna be the other McCartney Jesse: and you're more likely to invent Facebook than I am Jac: but how will I know I've got a beautiful soul now? 💔 Jesse: Talk to her Jac: who Jesse: the girl you love Jac: I can't Jesse: not today Jesse: but she's not going anywhere Jac: she's gone Jac: I can feel it Jac: nothing is the same now Jesse: loads has been happening Jesse: cut her some slack Jac: you didn't see the look on her face Jesse: I've seen her with you loads of other times Jac: she was in love with Tyler Jac: everyone knew it Jesse: was Jac: that was me Jac: their breakup Jesse: No it weren't Jac: I've done a lot of shit Jesse: that's not why she reacted like she did Jac: She's straight Jac: regardless Jesse: she said? Jac: the 👀 Jesse: it's for her to say Jesse: I got shit scared the 1st time I performed, it don't mean I never wanted to again Jac: well, she can Jac: not getting my hopes up here though Jesse: she'll be alone an' all Jac: if she weren't 💬 him in her uber back Jesse: you reckon? Jac: probably Jac: wouldn't be surprised Jesse: that's rough Jac: mhm Jesse: You wanna come to tonight's gig? Jac: How 💔 is your set? Jesse: it ain't Jesse: but it ain't set in stone Jac: don't go changing it on my account Jac: not fit to be seen by the public Jesse: write down the songs you wanna hear Jesse: if you can hold a pen Jesse: pub's in the middle of nowt Jac: I could use a drink that don't have milk in Jac: no white russians Jesse: should've said Jac: not before 5PM Jesse: real food 1st Jac: Dad entered the chat Jesse: don't wanna clean up your 🤮 you prick Jac: then don't Jac: and I'm not an amateur Jesse: 🖕😏 Jac: they got a 🚽 yeah? Jesse: Dunno Jac: Jesus Jac: super ⭐dom is well glam Jesse: Piss off Jac: can we be out the house 'fore they're all back or what Jesse: if you like Jac: you don't wanna be unfashionably early though Jesse: we can find somewhere else to go Jac: alright Jac: better than repeating the same conversations again Jesse: 👍 Jac: 🤠 Jesse: dress code? Jac: I'm not that gay Jesse: gutted Jac: 💔 Jesse: if we ain't matching, better not Jac: let us borrow a hat Jac: not gonna be pulling Jesse: Alright Jac: give me time to wash Jesse: don't have to queue Jac: polite to pretend I ain't a state Jesse: is it? Jesse: or are you just not? Jac: oh yeah, winning at life, me Jesse: weren't what I said Jesse: but you don't look like Alice Cooper, you can have that Jac: Cheers Jesse: 🏆

[punkscowardschampions]

Rio & Buster

Rio: Alright, Birthday boy? Rio: how's the guest list looking for this shindig then Buster: 'Course Buster: My standard, which is good enough to blow you away, like Rio: 'Course 😏 Rio: If that's the case I'll put a bit of effort in, like Buster: Yeah? Rio: Yeah Rio: Hate to bring down the average Rio: No spoilers though Buster: What good is a birthday if you don't get to unwrap anything early Rio: Like you ain't been treating yourself all day Buster: Jealous? Rio: 😂 Rio: You're so predictable Rio: and you saying I ain't gonna get a turn? Buster: You reckon? Buster: Depends how the party games go, doesn't it Rio: Know so Rio: Suppose it does Rio: know I ain't waiting in the line looking like this though Buster: Looking like what? Rio: Me, bitch 😜 Buster: 😂 Rio: Nice try though Buster: One of us has gotta put the effort in Buster: You're clearly gonna show up looking a state Rio: Winning by default ain't, babe Rio: 'cos dread to think what thinly-veiled racist stereotype all your friends will opt for Buster: Aiming for Harry level aspirations but land on Phillip Buster: Unlucky Rio: grandad got jokes Rio: press'll have a field day Buster: Standard Buster: You gonna wish me happy birthday then or what? Rio: Now? Buster: You need an audience, like? Rio: Ain't popping out this cake for just you, Christ 😒😉 Buster: Who else you got your eye on? I'll wish on it. No guarantees but you'll need the help, yeah? Rio: Please Rio: even if I will be a wingwoman down Rio: Indie sends her love, btw Buster: I can imagine Rio: Pervert Buster: Fuck off Buster: She's the one hung up, it ain't me Rio: Calm down dear Rio: that'll be why she ain't coming Rio: s'all jokes Buster: When she sees my costume she'll be kicking herself for the no show Buster: Can't blame her if she can't hack it Rio: Yeah? Rio: No doubt it'll grace many a social Rio: if its as good as you reckon Buster: 'Course Buster: Maybe I'll send her a sneak preview since you ain't playing along with yours Rio: 😑 Rio: Don't be gross Buster: Only jokes when you do it, is it? Rio: Awh baby, are you feeling objectified? Buster: Shut up Buster: You wish you could make me feel any type of way, babe Rio: Wouldn't waste a wish like that Rio: gotta bank 'em 'til my bday Buster: You only get the one, like Buster: Ain't that special Rio: Birthday, yeah Rio: Wish, nah Rio: don't you know where to find 'em? Rio: what you learning at Uni, honestly Buster: Whatever Buster: Take it up with my professors if it's gonna stress you Buster: I can always find what I need Rio: Good Rio: I'm happy for you Buster: Cheers Rio: Did you get to see Jay or are you seeing her after? Buster: Christ knows when I'll actually get to, but I'm trying to see her Rio: That's shit Rio: could always try sending Chlo that preview, might change her mind Buster: Don't Rio: Not trying to be funny Rio: Genuinely might work Buster: I know Buster: That's why I ain't Buster: Don't need her trying to jump me more than she already does Rio: Yeah not ideal Rio: can't you just...I dunna, palm her off on one of your mates and take the kid n run Buster: Who'd have her? Buster: She's in love with me, like Rio: Your friends aren't that smart Rio: but you have a point Rio: needs a new obsession and bit late in the game to sort one for this party Buster: C'est my fucking vie Rio: Bummer Rio: Good thing you're about to get shitfaced or this would be depressing Buster: Yeah Buster: Plenty of decent party favors with my name on too Rio: Thank fuck Buster: How many of your lot are coming Buster: Don't say shit they just show their faces or nah Rio: can't blame 'em, life's one big free for all in our gaff Rio: Erm Rio: Grace and Pablo will for sure Rio: Junie and Iggy will probably make an appearance at some point Buster: Christ, Grace ain't bringing all her friends, is she? Buster: Fucking hell Rio: Probably Rio: There's gotta be a more age-appropriate party they can move onto once they're suitably smashed Rio: welcome to my world Rio: fucking kids Buster: You love it Rio: You reckon? Buster: I know it Rio: Makes one of us then Buster: Poor baby Rio: Piss off Rio: don't have to be nice to you just 'cos it's your bday Buster: nah, just 'cause you miss me Rio: so what if I do Buster: so start behaving Rio: 😒 hmpf