#i'm tempted to do a proper post on this but for now pls accept this

[neverdoingmuch]

i feel like people take the whole ‘wwx was super annoying towards lwj as a teenager’ and just run with it, forgetting about how it also comes with the ‘but only because lwj otherwise refuses to give him attention’. 

#mdzs #modao zushi #wei wuxian #lan wangji #wangxian #cql #the untamed #i'm tempted to do a proper post on this but for now pls accept this #it's a game that wwx plays - lwj refuses to pay attention to me. okay what do i need to do so he *does* pay attention to me? how far do i #need to go? what is he willing to put up with before he gives in and acknowledges that im in the room with him? how much do i need to do so #that he will look at me but not so much that he becomes furious at me and refuses to ever let me near him again? #and then he goes down his crooked path and that's the too much! thats the part where wwx has done too much and lwj wont let wwx near him #so to speak #by lwj's own actions and words and by wwx's understanding of himself and of lwj they can never stand side by side. not now and not ever. #and then wwx comes back from the dead and amidst his attempts to get free and hide his identity he keeps playing the same game he used to #play as the innocent & carefree teenager - bc lwj doesnt know who he is so there's none of that baggage that they'd had that wwx had died w/ #but then lwj *does* know who he is and he *does* pay wwx attention #and it honestly throws wwx so off balance bc this isnt how he remembered them - how he remembered lwj - but then he adapts and they play new #games and lwj promises that he's always paying attention to wwx now and it's true #wwx chatters on deep into the night and even though he expected lwj to go to sleep when it hit 9pm he can still feel lwj's eyes on him #he occasionally throws out a question to lwj. 'dont you think so lan zhan?' 'do you agree with me?' 'what do you think?' 'have you seen #anything like this before?' and wwx never expects a response but lwj does respond. it may not be a lot. maybe a single mn or whatever but he #*always* responds now and wwx will never stop being delighted that lan zhan is paying attention to him #and lwj will never stop being delighted that he's able to give wwx his full attention #and i love them both so much ahhhhhh