#i'm tired of fighting

[eclarinet]

im so tired these days. i feel like everything is starting to grind to a halt. but it's ok. i will keep trying

#everywhere i go i keep seeing systems that are not flawed but corrupted by design and i'm so tired of it #i don't want to be a part of any of it #i want to break free of it all and live without shame #i'm tired of fighting #this is about so many many things lol #recently i have given up on my family and i don't want to talk to any of them anymore #fun fact! my brother got arrested #and my family is still defending him and enabling his actions #i've gotten more flak for skipping class for one day because my uterus was kliling me and i wanted to die #than he has for literally getting arrested #which is insane #like i don't want to be a part of this anymore #i'm so disappointed #my therapist says i need to let it all go and start working hard for myself #and not to prove any points #so i'm trying to let it all go #but i'm so tired #it's infuriating to wake up and see him at the computer all day and then go home and see him at the computer all night #and then getting yelled at because i forgot to wash the dishes after coming home from working a shift at school or from an exam #im just venting here because this blog ties me to nothing irl lmao #all i want is a friend and even that i have found is getting muddled up in school #who can i trust? #why are you all so hellbent on some strange popularity contest we aren't in high school anymore #is it so bad to be a little bit kinder and friendlier to someone who's struggling jsut as much as you are #im not even angry i'm just disappointed #i feel like i am constantly being let down #how's that for emotional awareness malar... #oh she used my session as a model session for a training therapist #does this mean i am a Good Patient (thing that is reasonable to want) #she also says that something that sets me apart from her other patients is my resilience

[starsaver94]

I'm so stupid...

My stupid, procrastinating ass waited until the last minuet to get a 40 point paper written and now I'm probably screwed cause I have a 70 in the class it was for and if I make a bad grade then I'll have an F and my mom will be mad and I don't want to have another argument with her!

I don't want to disappoint her more than I already have...

I don't want to make her sad or upset...

I want to be a good student and a good daughter...

And right now I'm the opposite....

I'm a shitty student and a piece of shit daughter!

#star says #star vents #rant #vent #i want to cry but can't #I'm afraid to talk to mom #I'm tired of fighting #I have no excuse #I should ban myself from this site as a punishment #Or... #I don't know

[kirinda-ondo]

See this is what I feel like the @obscure-skirmish is all about! Yeah we're all rallying for our little guys but we're showing each other stuff we might not have known about before and expanding each other's horizons and I think that's really cool!

Whoever wins, this has honestly been such a nice and wholesome tournament experience and I've had a lot of fun!

#this is propaganda for team friendship #I'm tired of fighting #peace and love on planet earth 🙏

[emblazons]

MIKE "I AM NOT LEAVING WILL'S SIDE" WHEELER ⤷ part i || S02E06 - The Spy

#byler #miwi #mike wheeler #will byers #there is another one of these coming of him being beyond adorable lmao I just couldn't crop them the same lmao #also??? I'm so tired of people acting like this series of like FIVE ENTIRE EPS of Mike being present and fighting for Will #doesn't even exist?? like? folks really delusional for mid ass mlvn in S3 when S2 Mike exists lmaoooo couldn't be me #mike wheeler edit #stedit #byleredit #strangerthingsedit #dailystrangerthings #strangerthingscentral #tvstrangerthings #strangersource #tuserrae #userelz #tuseremilia #my gifs #stranger things

[copypastus]

Sign me up for the tithe in the Spring Court I hear rent prices in Velaris went up again.

#my art #acotar #acotar fanart #lucien vanserra #pro tamlin #tamlin #very serious tithe discourse #it's not that bad acctually #i'm so tired of seeing serious arguments about it #you - bean brained: tamlin and lucien as robin hood villains laughing and extorting his poor citizens from all their gold #me - galaxy brained: tamlin using all the consumables his citizens give him to feed all the fae he allows FREELY INTO HIS HOUSE #at least tamlin won't condemn my wholeass apartment complex coz he had a fight with his sister in law #anti sjm #trying to make tamlin look bad still accidentally looks good if you PAY ATTENTION FEYRE

[cukerka32]

Shockers

#transformers #tfp #maccadam #transformers prime #tfp shockwave #shockwave #tf art #man i'm tired #Literally fighting for my dear life with this art block but still proud of it

[miraculousbohemian]

i'm so fucking tired of heteros ffs GIVE ME PEGGYNAT

also natasha in this entire episode is just *gay yearning* for a certain Brit

Melina just goes slipping shit like "ah go for her left knee she fucked it up in third grade" LIKE MA'AM.

WANDA?! WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA

#that's a lot of wandas #anyway I'm seriously tired of steggy. seriously. #LET ME HAVE THE GAYS #also if you try to convince me lake bell didn't fight to keep the yearning in I'll dropkick you onto Neptune #if i had a nickel for every time lake bell voices a redhead whos very gay (in canon and fannon) I'd have two nickels #which isnt a lot but its weird that it happened twice #mb rant :) #what if #peggynat #c'mon kevin. you don't have the balls- #mcu #marvel #natasha romanoff #melina vostokoff #steve rogers #peggy carter #captain carter #I'm gonna go rewatch episode two bye bye

[lazylittledragon]

i guess my political opinions are quite extreme in that i don't believe there should ever be any sort of debate on whether or not a group of people deserve the right to exist

#ramble #i'm so tired #please don't stop fighting

[lil-gingerbread-queen]

So, I cannot show support to Palestine at my university (flyers for protest, the colors and the flag, you get it...) because it's "encouraging violence and antisemitism" but when my university was tagged with antisemitic symbols, they did NOTHING. When the students union was targeted with threat of violence and their office was destroyed, covered with neo-nazis symbols, they did NOTHING.

The Neo-Nazis student association (which has been multiple times reported for their hate-crimes) were distributing flyers at the entrance yesterday WITHOUT ANY ISSUES, because they support Israel.

#I'm so mad #france #palestine #And I will not talk about the caricature of leftists in a nazi uniform because we support Palestine #That's like so fucking disgusting how dare they compare people being AGAINST a genocide to Nazis #repeating to myself that murdering one of those assholes of the gov will only make it worse #don't fucking judge me on my violent thought I a French leftist this is normal to us we know this is the only way to get things done #bro look at the Marseillaise lyrics it's about fighting turanny and oppressors that kill your family #and you dare make France stand with Israel #I know things suck way more for other people but I am tired and scared about what France is becoming

[yamisnuffles]

I love Aziraphale because he's expected to be hard, to be a warrior, but he chooses to be soft. He's not gentle, kind, and good because he's an angel. We've seen what the other angels are like and many of them are anything but. And there's no doubt that he could be that warrior if he wanted. He was issued a flaming sword, after all. But he gave it away and seemed none to eager to use it when he finally picked it up again. No, he is who he is because he chooses to be that way again and again.

I adore that. In a world that's often so hard and in a system that expects him to be just as hard, he chooses to be soft. To be silly. He learns to dance even though angels don't dance. He learns magic and French the human way. Successful or not, he likes playing parts, living it up as a double agent and newspaperman. He wears glasses because he thinks they're nifty. He enjoys eating food and going to the barber not because he has to but because he likes being pampered. To be fussy and indulgent. Despite strength and miraculous powers, he makes himself vulnerable so that he can be coddled and rescued.

And it's not like it's easy for him. He has to struggle against what's expected of him and against judgment from the other angels. He was worried about doing the wrong thing before the beginning, before there was even really a concept of the wrong thing. He's so terribly anxious but he doesn't let it stop him from trying to do real good. He did his part to save Job's family, even when he was certain he would fall for it.

Most difficult of all, he loves. Is in love. A thing humans do, he says to the Archangels in S2. So that's not just some easy, natural, angelic thing for him. It's very human and very scary because it's not really something he's meant to do and especially not with a demon. But he pushes slowly forward as best he can. He risks small touches and can't help but wear his heart on his sleeve with that all too expressive face. He's the angelic embodiment of heart eyes. Because he wants to love and be loved.

This isn't all he is, of course. He can be bitchy and petty and hard when pushed. He can be the warrior he was built to be. Those aren't bad things. Just enough of a bastard and all that. But just enough also means they also don't define him.

Which is where my frustration comes in. I understand the desire to flip the script sometimes. I like to do it myself from time to time and definitely think Aziraphale should be allowed to take charge. But it feels like, more often than not, large parts of fandom have taken those moments and made them all of who he is. Of the two of them, he's often made to be much more impassive and distant than Crowley. It's Crowley who is more emotional, who is more overcome physically. Despite the fact that it's almost entirely Aziraphale in canon who reaches and touches. Despite Michael Microexpressions Sheen putting so much open heart into Aziaphale's face. He isn't allowed to be soft and needy, comforted, coddled, and rescued. To be the one who yearns and lets himself be weak with it.

Just... let him be soft and silly. Let him be the person he most often chooses to be.

#aziraphale #good omens #long post #gos2 #pls I'm old and tired and not trying to pick a fight #just I so often see someone wearing aziraphale's face #and have to say #this is not my beautiful house #this is not my beautiful wife #good omens meta #meta #sort of lol #more a wild ramble

[martyryo]

his biggest sin was having blue hair and pronouns.

#artists on tumblr #digital art #illustration #art #faith #faith the unholy trinity #john ward #father john ward #hiii heyyy #watching videos abt this game got me out of some very bad mental state like wow #he's narratorcoded #bro is played by edward norton idc #anyways loved the game sm and I tried replicating the plai color on black style while maintaining my type of rendering #also I figured out thst adding additional lineart after the shading makes things kinda more organic #like it's not all a messy mix of colors #so proud of having done this in around an hour #also dw I'll still post fight club but I need to draw some other stuff as well or I'll get tired of drawing the same three prople all over #stage is going really well #feeling workercore workerpilled workercoded #huhu going to sleep cause I'm sealing my casket with this late hour stunt #bye bye <3

[anarchy-and-piglins]

Technoblade leaves the Dream SMP server in the middle of the night.

He doesn’t take anything with him. No armor, no weapons, nothing. He doesn’t even take his dogs or Steve. Only Carl, the stable emptied by the first signs of dawn.

Instead, he leaves notes.

One for Ranboo, one for Niki. One for Wilbur, one for Tommy.

He leaves one for Phil too, slightly different than the rest. There’s another line at the bottom, a set of coordinates.

(“To the gates of hell,” Phil had said.

“What about just anywhere but here?” Techno had answered.)

There’s another server. A smaller one, with more sunshine and mob-proofed fences. Where Techno does not ever have to pick up a weapon. Where Techno does not have to continue fighting.

Where there is no need for him to do anything but tend to his farms and sit outside to read, feed Carl carrots and nap as much as he wants. Where the distant crackle of a portal won’t mean anything except the welcomed visit of an old friend.

Where he can rest easy.

Because the war is over.

And dust settles on pain. And regrets become worn with age. And memories will bring strength more than they will sting.

(Perhaps, they will visit. Perhaps, Phil will come along one day and bring with him the people Techno loved and who loved Techno and who Techno hurt and who hurt Techno.

Perhaps they will find something worth holding onto in the ruins dug between them, that will grow flowers again.)

And on this new server, Technoblade is happy.

(And the universe said, you are not alone.)

And on this new server, Technoblade knows peace.

(And the universe said I love you because you are love.)

#technoblade #shara writes #well it's hardly writing is it #until canon comes to write my heart out #this is what I'm going to headcanon guys #he just got tired and left #and Phil knows where he is and visits often #and Techno is don't fighting other people's wars

[somegrumpynerd]

Truce au part 5 - Dream gets answers

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#UTDR #UTMV #Truce au #My Art #Dream Sans #Nightmare Sans #(Staind voice) It's been a while ♩ #But I'm finally back on it!! #And Dream and Nightmare are having their first tentative meeting for this truce #Nightmare is also tired of fighting and ready to try and get along #Seeing his boys fight and scream but ultimately still look out for each other has softened him up to how much he misses his brother #I hope it works out or else I'll have to rename the comic #I'm sure nobody will interfere and try to ruin the peace between them tho what are the odds of that

[artichow]

a wip i don't know if i'll be able to finish so HERE

#screencap redraw #redraw #liste idk what is my style and what is my rendering either i'm tired #mfb #beyblade #metal fight beyblade #beyblade metal fight #ryuga #beyblade metal saga #beyblade fanart #screenshot redraw #artidoesart #ryuga beyblade #wip #artists on tumblr #digital art

[covertblizzard]

jaykyle au where they're theatre kids in the same school but they're not the actors jason's the scriptwriter/director and kyle is the prop manager (i don't know the official terms sorry) and they'd probably do an amazing job on the backstage setting if they could stop arguing for 5 whole seconds about their artistic visions and ideas and how "this would obviously work better this way"

#jason todd #kyle rayner #jaykyle #mypost #dc thoughts #vp of the club: maybe we should find some other people to do the job if they can't get along? #pres of the club: no they're both talented af and i want this to be raving success just knock their heads tgt and tell them to play nice or #i'll make them wear the get along shirt again #WAIT ONE SEC DONNA'S THE PRES and overseer she's pissed bcos kyle played the same role last year and he was chill then #wally's vp no 1 and backstage manager and he's thinking of kicking kyle out #dick's vp no 2 and main lead and he's thinking of kicking jason out bcos it's embarrassing and annoying to work with your younger siblings #kon helps kyle with props and bart is one of the actors and kon is jealous af about it he grumbles a little #roy is the fight scene choreographer #i'm trying to think of something for garth but the only thing that comes to mind i'm not sure are fitting enough #actor manager? weapon manager? oooh maybe pet manager if they have animals... human and pet manager???? hr department but including animals #ooooh maybe pet manager if they have animals #raven can play bart's love interest (in play) maybe (wally doesn't like it and neither does gar for very different reasons) #eddie deals with the contraptions they build for this bubble machines smoke machines lowering and raising anything mechanical #rose and cass helps with the weapons stuff they keep fighting too and roy is TIRED #connor plays the villain he didn't mean to or want to but he got dragged into it and he's really hot and gunned in for next years main lead #he doesnt want this #steph and mia are hair makeup costume department but bart and kon love to hangout and help too #jennie-lynn and bart are in-charge of socials #tim pops up a lot because so many of his friends (and brothers) are here and when he does he helps steph and mia #damian too pops up to help with pet management and sometimes prop art #this is much to dicks annoyance jason is already here can his little brothers LEAVE HIM ALONE SOMETIMES UGH #damian (taking cues from talia and bruce loverenemies dynamic and wanting an artist in-law): we should set jason and kyle up #dick: no / tim: hmm / dick: NO #i want to add the yj girls (cassie cissie greta anita) but i know too little about them right now but imagine they're there and the roles #are to be determined