#i'm very tired i am going to sleep now <3333

[greg-montgomery]

Ivy - Part 11

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Aaron Hotchner x Fem!Reader (Sean Hotchner x Fem!Reader)

Series summary: Your relationship with your boyfriend, Sean, is going great. Well, that is until you meet his older brother, Aaron.

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10

i am back!!!! <3333 we're getting close to the end my besties <3 if you missed the previous chapter, i'm sorry i didn't tag anyone! but now my blog is fixed and everything is back to normal!!

i think i’ll only write one or two more chapters on this story and we’re done 🫶🏻

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“She’s gonna be alright.” Those were the words Aaron had said to him after getting you back. Sean was holding onto those words like his life depended on it.

“Thank you for reaching out to me for help, even after everything we’ve done to you,” his brother had said. “It means more to me than you know.”

“I would never put my pride above her safety.”

“I’m really proud of you for that.” That statement should have not made his chest swell the way it had. Seeking validation from his older brother seemed like a trap he still fell into; even after being betrayed by his own blood.

“I don’t know if you’ll ever find it in you to forgive me, but I don’t want to lose you.” Sean remembered the way Aaron’s voice had broken after saying those words. “Just know that you’ll always be my family and I’ll always be by your side if you need anything. You can still hate me, I don’t mind, as long as you know I’m always here if you need help.”

“I know.”

“Hot chocolate is ready!” A bubbly voice snapped him out of the memory of that phone call.

“How can you be this energetic at 4 in the morning?” he groaned, taking the cup of hot chocolate from Penelope’s hands.

“Well, my job doesn’t really have a schedule. So I’ve been trained to be alert at any time of the day. Or night.” She smirked.

Penelope had insisted on staying with him after hearing the news that you were safe. Sean couldn’t even imagine how awful he must have looked for a stranger to make an offer like this. But he was glad she did. That woman was full of warmness and light; things that had been missing from his life.

He had only managed to bring the mug on his lips, when he heard his phone ring. It was you.

“Hey,” he said, breathless.

“Hi, Sean.” Your voice was weak, tired; he could tell. But you were alive and that was all that mattered.

“How are you feeling?”

“Better. I slept, I showered, and now I’m having something to eat.”

It stung that it was Aaron who had probably cooked for you; that it was Aaron’s embrace you had found comfort in that night. It was all clear to him now. Sean was the reason you had been kidnapped. Aaron was your knight in shining armor who had come to your rescue.

It would never be Sean again for you. It would always be Aaron.

“God, I’m so sorry,” he cried. “I don’t know what to say. I feel like the bigg-”

“Don’t you dare apologize for this,” you interrupted him. “How could you have known?”

Sean wasn’t able to reply, his sobs choking him, preventing his voice from coming out.

Penelope was quick to sit next to him and take his hand in hers. “Hey, it’s okay.”

“Sean, do you think we could meet at some point? And just talk? I think we both need it.”

You were right. “Yes, we do. I’ll text you when I can.”

“Thank you,” you said.

There was an awkward pause. The times you were giggling on the phone asking him to hang up first were long gone.

“Um…try to get some sleep, please,” you spoke again. “I’ll be doing the same.”

“Okay, Y/N. Good night.”

“Good night.”

--

A kiss on the forehead by Aaron calmed your beating heart down. “I’m proud of you.”

“I can’t tell whether he hates me or not,” you admitted, letting your phone drop on the couch next to you. “Last time we talked it felt like he didn’t wanna see me again. And now it’s…”

“It’s all very complicated,” he said, leaving another kiss on the side of your head. “He’s hurt, but he still loves you. And now he feels guilty on top of everything.”

“I don’t want him to forgive me because he feels guilty.”

“We need to give him time, my love. Let him reach out to you when he’s ready. He needs to process his emotions first,” Aaron said. “We all do.”

“Thanks for the input, Oprah.”

“Ah…” he said, throwing his head back. “I missed that nickname.”

You laughed and kissed his cheek with all the love in the world.

Brining your attention back to the soup you had left, you brought up a little detail from the phone call you just had.

“As I was talking with Sean…” you started, “I swear I heard Penelope’s voice at some point.”

“Penelope as in…”

“As in Penelope Garcia.”

Aaron raised his eyebrows in surprise. “I guess she stayed there for moral support?”

“Can she even do that?” you wondered.

“Well, your case wasn’t official so I guess she can,” he argued.

“Hmm…interesting.”

At least you were gonna sleep easier now, knowing that Sean wasn’t all by himself.

--

“Shh…Try not to wake her, okay buddy?”

“Okay.”

After a sleep full of nightmares that you were back in that basement, being woken up by the whispers of your favorite people was a blessing; even if they managed to do the exact opposite of what they had just said.

You opened your eyes slightly, being met with a little Jack climbing up the bed.

“Daddy, I woke her up,” he said, turning to face his dad with a guilty face.

“It’s okay, my angel. Come here,” you said, softly, opening your embrace for him.

Jack was soon in your arms, and to the sight of Aaron smiling at the two of you, you fell back asleep.

This time, without bad dreams.

--

My family: those two words were on your mind the entire day you spent with them.

Normally, you would be irritated if the people around you acted as if you were going to break at any point, but how could you be mad when those people were Aaron and his son?

Aaron told Jack you were a little sick and that was all it took for him to act as overprotective of you as his dad did. They didn’t let you lift a finger, and somehow, this treatment felt comforting. You felt loved and cared for. You were important to them.

“Need some tea, maybe?” Aaron asked, as you rested your head on his shoulder. Jack was playing in his room, finally giving you some time alone.

“All I need right now is my man to hold me.”

“Okay. I’m sorry if I’m being too much.”

“Don’t be sorry,” you said, placing your palm on his chest. “Thank you for taking care of me.

“I would lose my mind if something happened to you,” he admitted. “I don’t even wanna think about it.”

“Then don’t,” you replied, kissing his jaw. “It’s over now.”

“It is,” he said softly, his nose brushing against yours. “I love you.”

“I love you.”

You cupped his cheek and brought his face close to you, giving him a deep kiss. “My love…”

“Y/N, look what I made!�� Jack’s excited voice made you break your kiss abruptly, but not fast enough for him not to see what was happening. To Jack, you were still his aunt – not his dad’s girlfriend.

Embarrassment and surprise were written all over his face as he stared at you, before running back to his room.

“I’ll talk to him,” you told Aaron before he even had the chance to speak.

--

You knocked on Jack’s door and entered his room after hearing his soft, “Come in.”

Jack was sitting cross-legged on the carpet, a superhero figure occupying his hands.

“Hey, buddy.”

“Why were you and daddy kissing?” he asked, staring at the toy on his lap.

“Honey, uncle Sean and I are not together anymore,” you said, taking a seat next to him.

“You don’t love him anymore?”

“I love him, but not the way I love your dad,” you answered honestly. He was a kid, but you weren’t going to hide the truth from him. Children understood everything anyway.

“You love my dad?”

“Very much.”

“And does he love you too?” Jack finally looked at you.

“He does.”

“So now you’re my dad’s girlfriend?” His tone was curious, not judgmental like you feared.

“Yes, my angel,” you said.

“Isn’t uncle Sean mad at you?”

His question hurt, as innocent as it was.

“He is. And we deserve that.”

“I’d be mad too.”

Thanks, Jack, you thought.

“Max is my best friend,” he said after a small pause.

“Okay…” you said, uncertain where he was going with this.

“But after Christmas break, when we went back to school,  he only played with Alex, and not me anymore. And it made me really sad and angry. But then…then…they said they were sorry and we started playing all together. And now we’re all friends.”

You furrowed your brows - trying to ignore your protective instincts that wanted you to fight two children named Max and Alex – and focused on the moral message of his story.

Yes, the three of you would never be best friends. But Sean deserved an apology. The one you hadn’t given him the day you broke up, because you thought it was worthless. An apology wouldn’t fix anything, but Sean deserved to hear it anyway.

Jack interrupted your thoughts by moving closer to you. “I know that uncle Sean is mad, but I’m happy you’ll be here with us a lot. I love you.”

That kid had the ability to melt your heart like butter. “I love you too, buddy.” You leaned in to give him a hug.

“Can I tell you a secret?” he whispered against your shoulder.

“Of course.”

“I kept wishing you were my mom and not my aunt. And I think that my wish came true and that’s why daddy fell in love with you.”

You squeezed him even tighter.

Part 12

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[thegenderfluidace]

hi hi! how're you doing?

I'm very tired today ;-;

don't forget to eat and drink today

have a nice day and loads of platonic love <3

Dude I just got back from work and I’m soooooooo eeeeeeeepy, I worked earlier then I usually do today and so I woke up early but even tho this shift was the same length, possibly even shorter, then my one yesterday it felt like it dragged on foreverrrrr

I am going to take a nap and probably destroy the small remains of a sleep schedule that I actually have

Also found out that my trans co worker actually does drag so that’s cool

But yess I eepy and you probably still sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeping so imma nap now -v-

Lotsa platonic love to you sweet tea!!!! <3333

[watch-my-cosmic-death]

Hey hun<3

Ahh stop thank you for being so kind I can't tnejfjje

Ohmygosh yes!!! I love your brain!! Light beams are so ethereal and so damn pretty. I have watched so many videos of concerts and raves just to see the light shine through the smoke. I really want to see that in person one day!!

Oh no don't cry!!! You're too cute. You deserve every compliment and so many more. You're such a wonderful person and I'm so damn happy to get to talk with you so often<33

I swear it's only moths and like old people lmao

Ah!!! stop it you're making me blush!!!! I don't think I'm that special, I just have a tendency of overthinking things. But thank you<333:)))

Hfjwicjwkxkek ohmygosh stop you'll make me fall in love with you or something!!! You're so sweet thank you so much<3333:))

That's so sweet. Neptune is such an amazing planet and a wonderful choice!! I really like that about you, you always have such amazing options. Okay I know that he's just a chunk of ice and rock but he deserves his status back!!! And right?!? There's so much out there just floating!! it's weird to me that you can never see it in any of the pictures that NASA shows us, idk I've always thought that was strange. And like it being so much junk aside, theres so much of our history within it all! We have come so so far in the last 20 years!!!

Nebulas are so incredibly powerful and I'm in such awe of them. They're so beautiful and scary at the same time!! But no you haven't said too much I swear. I love hearing everything you care about! I enjoy reading things that are important to you<3 oh my gosh the thought of living on a whole other PLANET is such an amazing thing to think about. And although I would really like it to be in my lifetime as well, I kind of hope it isn't. Because that would be so scary!!

Getting super into a book is such a wonderful experience and I love it so much but once the book or series ends I am left with so much sadness. Like I've lost a close friend, y'know? It's sad and happy at the same time. Though I'm not reading anything right now. I've been trying to get into another book or series but I can't find anything that I've been taken by just yet. I've read a series called Clockwork Angel in the past and oh man they are three amazing books!! The ending made me cry so much though:'(

Rihanna is such a strong and wonderful woman!! I have so much respect for how much she has accomplished over the years!! And she's very attractive but that's for another conversation haha:) I think Sleep Token is a mix of Pop and Metal. Two of my faves of theirs is Granite and Alkaline. I really relate to those songs. I think they're really nice. What are some of your favourite songs and artists? Anything you're super into right now?:)

Thank you so much! You don't now just how much that means to me, you're so sweet<33

I'm sorry. That sounds really frustrating. I would say it's neat that they came to see you but if it was just sad then not so much. I'm sorry it wasn't better seeing them:( That's so cool that it snowed though! I love the snow!!! I love the quiet and clarity that comes with it:)

I hope your day has been better today!! Mine hasn't been too bad, it was my day off but my boss called me in to take a part of her shift because she had something that came up with her family. I haven't been sleeping very well, or at all, the last few days. But that's alright. Nothing caffeine can't fix haha

My name is Audrey though online I've started going by Ray/Razz. It's just a little more gender neutral and I really like that. And trust me, I don't think I could ever hate you hun! You're all good<3:)

Hiii :))))

'Hun' - Stop aajskhf- That's so cute! <3

You get it!!! I didn't even think about rave lights! I love those. When I got tired at parties, I'd lay on the chairs and watch all the lights. It's one of my favourite things!! They're so pretty! I think rave lights would look sick in person- especially with all the smoke machines, plus music. I hope you get to experience that one day!

It's not even funny how red my face is! You're truly lovely. But I can't handle blushing every other sentence. You're so sweet, thank you. My day honestly gets so much better after speaking with you. You're just that awesome. I'm really happy I get to speak with you often, too. <33

I reject the implication that you're "not that special." You most definitely are! Please, at this rate I'll end up falling in love with you first hun. <3

That was such a specific compliment about options- I'm actually holding on by a thread- Okay- We should start a petition to bring him back to the planet gang! We're technally part chunky ice and part rock! It's not fair. :( I feel like the images may be photoshopped beforehand. Not in- the earth is flat type of way - Never that, more in an enhanced colour correcting, making it look aesthetic way. Or they crop it out, could have just said that, but no I went the long way around. Again, your beautiful brain! I didn't think of the historical value of the machines we've built, but you're completely right! Years of building and history lost in a vast sea of nothing!

At this point, half my paragraphs are going to be about your comments towards me and my lack of functioning after reading them. But I do love how reassuring you are, it's really sweet of you. :) <3 Nebulas are quite literally fucking horrifying, and that's why I love them so much. :) To look at something like that and understand what's happening. Truly the stuff to create an existential crisis. Same with living on another planet. If you were truly there- societal breakdown. You have to carry everything over for it to be the same, morals, behaviours, beliefs. Kind of weird how much you'd have to take morally and functionally. That's if it's liveable. Just visiting. You gots to take respect and love. I have reached the point where I don't know what I'm saying.

I feel the same way about my tv shows! It's like mourning a friendship rather than a tv show or book. Bittersweet... I hope you find a series that you enjoy and get to flutter through and become apart of. I haven't heard of that series. What's it about? What's your favourite things about it? Which were your favourite characters?? - I'm sorry the ending made you cry. :( I bet it's a beautiful story to look back on? I always find if something coming to an end makes me cry, then it was worth it all and more.

She is extremely attractive, and we should definitely have that conversation because it's always relevant! My god, I love her. She's so cool as well, like how are you gonna be that attractive, that talented, with all that swag and on top of that! Perform whilst pregnant at the half-time show- What I'm saying is that women is a goddess and there should be a statue in every town of her. - I will put those on my Spotify and give them a listen tomorrow whilst I get my tattoo done. :) I have so many different top songs. Of all time, I'd say No Eyes by Claptone and JAW would be the one that is completely engraved in me. It's an extremely simple song, but it means a lot to me based on why and when I found it. I have many others, though. Artist hmm- Obviously, Rihanna, Lady Gaga, The 1975, The neighbourhood, the prodigy, etc. The list goes on and on. I can never sum myself up when speaking on music. But currently, I'm listening to a lot of soundtracks and 'dark academia' music. My mind's been loud, so- no lyrics currently.

It's just weird- I feel like every time I talk to them, they don't listen. Or the judge me. That was all. Maybe it was because I didn't eat until they left. I guess we'll never knowwww. But thank you. You're so nice. Again your mind. I love snow. That dampness in sound when it heavy falls, and the small specks of shine in an untouched layer. It's like a gentle blanket over the world. It's so calming. The Shinning is one of my favourite horrors, and those shots of just the snow and no music-phenomenal.

It's actually night now, I just stayed up to respond lmao. Kind sucky you got called in on your off day. Especially since you haven't been doing great. (I hope her family is alright, and that everything was ok.) I'm sorry you haven't been sleeping, I get how frustrating that can become. Have you tried any remedies?

Oh, thank god! I was worried for a minute. -That's what I did with Rj! My full name is Renée, but online it's Rj. Either's fine by me. Thank you for letting me know by the way :) - Again with the hun asfgsk <33:))

(I wrote this whilst tired. I'm sorry if there's any confusion at any point. I'm just as confused)

#im very tired #my response is not that great #but I wanted to answer #<3 #r #asksss

[binch-i-might-be]

RAY! I LITERALLY HAVE NOT WRITTEN A SENTENCE OF ANY OF MY WIPS SINCE SO LONG THE LAST TIME I TRIED I ENDED UP CRYING BECAUSE IT'S A SPECIAL WIP FOR SOMEONE AND ANXIETY IS A BITCH BUT ANYWAY WHAT I MEAN IS STOP BEATING YOURSELF OVER NOT WRITING EVERY WAKING MINUTE!!

You're literally so fucking amazing for writing as much as you already do like working on a book??? Fucking awesome! Growing pains new chapters??? BRILLIANT!

I'm proud of you! Very proud of you for all that you do already! And it's okay if you can't. Don't make yourself feel guilty for that. And sleep schedules? Who she? Haven't seen her in a while.

Find a schedule that works for you okay? And it's okay if you can't right now and it'll probably take time so don't beat yourself up for that. I'm proud of you ❤️

Do you know how many people would be too scared to try and put their thoughts and ideas down on paper? So you've already made so much progress and that's something to admire.

You're amazing and you deserve good things. Ily ❤️❤️

oh no :( don't pressure yourself too much and just try to have fun with the first draft, if you make a mistake you can always come back and fix it later!! besides, I'm sure they'll love it <3

hhhh my problem isn’t even that I’m not writing every waking minute, it’s that I’m not writing at all a lot of times. and like, there’s literally nothing else for me to do. this is the only hobby I have right now

I really appreciate you saying that and taking the time to send me this because it’s so sweet and I might have cried a little this morning when I saw it before I went to sleep, but I’ve been frustrated with myself lately for a lot of reasons :’)

haven’t been doing much (any) writing for the book at all, and Growing Pains is going much slower than I care for. I’m excited about the story, but I’m not very excited to write it right now. doesn’t really feel like anyone is reading it (which I know a decent amount of people are!) and even though I do write mostly for myself because it’s the content I want to create, it’s hard to motivate yourself to actually write when it feels like no one cares

thank you! thank you, really, it’s just that I am really frustrated with myself because writing is what I want to make a career out of, but right now I can’t bring myself to do it more than once or twice a week? and I am very much aware that my fucked up sleep schedule plays into that because I am usually simply too tired to focus. and every night I say to myself that I’m going to bed at midnight or maybe one am, but every fucking night I don’t! it’s pissing me off because I know all I’m currently struggling with is my own fault!

I know it’ll probably take time to get everything fixed, but it’s time I don’t have. next week I have to work again and if I can’t get anything done in my time off, how am I supposed to get it done when I have to use most of my energy for my stupid job?

that’s a really sweet sentiment. thank you again for writing this!! it means a lot <3

and so do you, anon!! <3333

#thank you but i do not have any patience for myself rn #i've got no one else to blame but myself and i know but i can't seem to fix it #time just keeps fucking running away from me and i barely even notice the days pass it's all going too fast and i'm doing nothing #i wish i was normal but i'm not and i resent that #ask #anon #vent

[twiceland]

I love ur header 💅🏼 anyways hi again shri my loveeeeee I'm def enjoying all the content from svt's comeback I keep seeing even tho I miss most of it bc of work 😭 but how are you doing beloved? What's new? Any fun plans now that your exams are over 🙇🏻‍♀️

HIIIIII elv my loveeeeee <3333 EUNCHAE MY BELOVED !!!!!!!!! she looks so pretty i wanna buy the unforgiven album so bad ( sobs ) .... my last ap exam is wed!!!! so im really looking forward to thurs - sun being super relaxing hehe <3 and omg how is work!!!! i hope its going wellllll ,, so understandable that its making u miss content :(((( hopefully u can binge watch them all soooooon

im doing alright !!! very very tired but i am powering thru 💪 ( cue antifragile instrumental ) im so excited for these last twenty one days of school ( yes i counted ) i am just . screams !!!!!!!! so excited for the next couple of days too i need to catch up on # Sleep <3 how are youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu <33333 happy monday // tuesdayyyyyyy ily so so so much <3

nothing relatively new tho . i am looking forward to summer and sleeping in ( on weekends, internship will be taking up my weekdays ) hehe

#answered ♡ #elv 🍁 #MWAAAAAAH

[lee-minhoe]

hi mel my bias twin <333 here to love jaemin!!! even though these are all things we've discussed before haha

ahh where do i begin. my favorite thing about him? how do i choose a single thing? his smile, displaying various moods and subtleties. his hands, firm and masculine but delicate and expressive. his build, i mean we talk about it constantly. where.. just.... when on earth did it happen? not complaining though. ;) his introverted personality. yes, he has his loud, look-at-me moments, but in a natural setting, he doesn't unnecessarily overexert himself. love that for him. go baby give us nothing. relax. please continue to sit on your phone in the corner i don't need fake enthusiasm 24/7. as long as i see your lil casual self in the corner of a video by yourself just chilling scrolling through your phone i'm good. <3333

when i knew he was my bias??? nct 2020, resonance pt 2, he had just dyed his hair black. now, jaem has always been Up There on my list, always at least top 5, but resonance pt 1 shot him to number 2 and then he dyed his hair black. now he is my number one, or really my only lol. but yeah, that was what did it. the black hair. which ultimately leads me into my favorite looks lmao. his black hair will alwayssssss be top tier for me! i don't care what color he does, black will always top it. blue is a close second, but a maintained, icy blue, like ridin era.

my favorite verse has to be his first verse in dreaming, the short little melody of his! he isn't the best vocalist i know but that line made me so proud of him when i first heard it. he did great, he delivered that sound well, and i wish there was more of that sound from him.

i would love to see him book more solo modeling gigs, especially a fashion week! (would have loved a nomin duo at nyfw) he's obviously proved he can work a camera, so i'd love to see him land some more shoots and maybe one day work a runway. i would also love for him to take a nap, specifically on a flight to new york, and then another nap in my bed with me. idk just a thought.

to finish this off, jaemin is so great and contributes so much and his friends love him and i am very tired of people writing him off because he isn't a vocalist. <333 he is trying his best and working so hard and he deserves the world and i hope he is happy and healthy and eating well and sleeping well and taking time to himself here and there and is not pushing himself and i hope his back is feeling well and that he gets to see his family soon and that he continues to be his true unbothered self. <33333 (sorry i didn't realize how long this had gotten lmao)

NIKKI I SMILED SO MUCH READING THIS i was literally like

(to top it off i was listening to last in love by junggigo as i read this lol it sounds like a kdrama ost and really set the mood)

before i address anything in this love letter, i must comment on your writing haha it flowed so smoothly and was such a joy to read <3 it was like poetry for my soul

alright so first you mentioned his smile....his smile is one of my favorites, it's such a sweet smile and could bring world peace

that last picture leads me to his build that you mentioned...

this suddenly appeared overnight and no one knows when it happened but nobody is complaining ;))

i absolutely love when he gives us nothing and sits in the corner scrolling on his phone, and i love when they'll film a 30 minute video and he doesn't say one word at all lol like yes don't force yourself to do anything if you don't want to <33

oh man black hair jaem was really a time, i think that solidified his spot in my top ults too

his verse in dreaming is so nice <3 he's maybe objectively not the best vocalist but his voice is sweet!! i also personally love when he does those lazy raps (like in my youth, and im sure some other ones im forgetting right now off the top of my head), i think he does those really well because of his deep voice and the way he does it lazily (not in a bad way)

I WOULD DIE IF WE GOT A JAEMIN RUNWAY but i too would love to see him get more solo modeling gigs <3 like when he did the W korea photoshoot last year?? chefs kiss!! i would also be interested to see him do kdramas in the future if he wants to hehe i think he would do well (and certainly has the looks for it too). i hope for you that he books that flight to new york ;D

your last paragraph sums up my feelings as well, and i think it is fitting because jaem seems to have a similar attitude towards life as well of like, i'm gonna do my best and work hard and enjoy life but not push myself too hard and make sure to take care of myself <3 and i love that about him <3 (and semi related but....i think lee know seems to have a similar life attitude as well which i will mention in my lee know love letter 😉)

tell me why you love your bias!

#answered #nikki 🌃 #i really didn't mean for this to get so long either but i got carried away #and of course i had to include pictures as well #thank you very much for sending this in nik <3 it was such a pleasure to read <333 #ILYYY

[ghost-light]

hello my love /p it is very late adn i am very tired adn i am overcome with a lot of feelings so please bear with me !! (also just read all of this with a /p ofc i just don't feel like putting it after every sentence)

i just. i appreciate you a whole lot !! you are so so so so kind and so funny and sOOOO talented wtf (seriously i'm still not over your fic ohmy GOSH) and so easy to talk to. like. whenever we interact on a post or whenever i get an ask from you i'm like aHHH !!!! or even if i'm a little too tired i'm still like :D just more lowkey, yknow? but yeah. just every conversation with you is like. it's. like. hang on. i need to think of an adequate metaphor or something. uhh.

okay it's like when you're hanging out with someone and you're doing something lowkey like. walking along the beach. and you're just walking along kicking rocks or sand and looking at the ocean and you glance over at them. and you just think. wow. i am so glad i have you in my life!! i am so grateful!! and it's just. idk. u have a very *warm* vibe ?? idk i hope your irls appreciate u as much as i do because u deserve all of it (and more) !!

that wasnt even a good metaphor i was barely committed hang on lemme think of another.

okay every conversation with you is like weekly movie nights with friends!! there can be different vibes every time. like sometimes it's so energy !! so hype !! lots !! and then sometimes it is very chill and lowkey and just. vibes. and whenever. it is very good.

i think you are the cactus to my mushroom. that is great. yes

no pressure to answer this i am just. tired and having. feelings. ahhhh <333 you are !! most !! <3333

i think i will sleep now goodnight ily

LOVE !!! BESTIE !!! BABE (IF YOU'RE OK WITH BABE, IF NOT LMK SO I CAN DELETE THAT PART /gen) /p. and /p for everything here, for the same reason as you

hi i'm. dead uaosnjfxcznand. no but i am Puddle now i am absolutely Melted dude. hi??? how??? dare you??? /j i really did not think there was any more of my heart for you to steal but hey, you've gone and done it <3 /p

i'd like to say: mE??? like,, me me?? because UNO REVERSE !!! you're the one who makes me smile all the time, and in the least weird way of all, you are on my mind all the time. when i finished radio silence, i looked through the tag and then i went straight to your blog to see what content you had on the book. i was on pinterest and i saw a button down shirt that had mushrooms on it and i went "!!!" because YOU!! and i have a screenshot from a few weeks ago of a uquiz answer that reminded me of something you said once, and my autocorrect fills in your url because i've typed it in so many times, and i have a separate tab open to your blog most days and. the fact that a notification from me makes you happy is just. woah. :0 <- the literal embodiment of that mixed with -> :D

no that's,, absolutely beautiful and you're going to make me cry stop it but also please don't ilsym. i, and this is the part where i look at you with comically wide and genuine eyes, am so, so grateful to have you in my life. idk how many emoticons i should use so *insert happy face + the most incoherent keysmash you've ever seen here*. thank you, i hope your irls appreciate you and love you because you deserve that, and you deserve people who truly find you just as incredible as you are <333

no no i loved those metaphors!!! and. just. aaAAHHH /pos

wAIT I *LOVE* THAT. you, bestie, genius and amazing and super kind person, are the mushroom to my cactus. you are so very friend shaped i am in constant awe of you, and <3333

good night!!! have an amazing night and don't worry!! i did reply to this :)

#jules tag #ash answers #save

[hhuta]

Hi I just wanted to say you're the reason I watched Mozart l'opera rock? Uh I have no idea who you are i think I probably followed you by accident or idk maybe Tumblr fucked up but for MONTHS now I have been seeing salieri on my dash I log in and it's like BOOM florent!! So out of boredom I watched it the other day and now I'm utterly obsessed it is on my mind constantly like. The songs are bangers. I want to (fondly) bully salieri. And Mozart.... Oh my god Mozart. I can't think about him without descending into utter incoherence like I've been so utterly charmed by him I don't know what to do with it I sent a picture of him to my friend like 'this is what Mozart looks like' and they were like 'nice jacket. Got gender envy now' and I realised... That it! It's the gender of it all. The ugly purple coat. The shitty hair that I am now in love with. Like I love him as a character but also I just really really wanna look like mikelangelo. anyway. Uh thank you for posting about mor so much that I got into it I am incapable of thinking about anything else now and I am looping lbqfm religiously it is 2am I am sor tired oh my god but if I don't disrupt my sleep schedule to focus on mor I will die

thats perhaps the best ask i ever goOOOOTTTTTTTT SO MANY COMPLIMENTS THERE AND ALSO RELATABLE THINGS I WILL COMMENT ON EVERY SINGLE SENTENCE.

FIRST OF ALL ,,, i need to say right away that i think i know who u are kldjals if u are the person who recently reblogged a place je passe gifset from me then. ur tags gave u away dlkasjdkls i had no choice but to connect the dots !! why did u go on anon lets be friends !!! 

so if u are that person then i think u followed me bc of vixx ldajlkDLKSJ leo is friends with the guy who played salieri in south korea btw u have to know that. ill use that as propaganda to get starlights into mor.

also cannot believe u put up with me talking about mor for mONTHS and not only u didnt unfollow u then went to watch it!!!!!!! im really touched!!!!!!! seriously!!!!!!!!!

"now I have been seeing salieri on my dash I log in and it's like BOOM florent!!" dlksjkljlkLDKS DONT CALL ME OUT LIKE THAT 🚶‍♂️I KNOW THATS REALLY ALL I POST ABOUT BUT STILL 🚶‍♂️

the songs really ARE bangers and fondly bullying salieri is all i do too !!!!!!!!!!!!!! ur so in love with mozart tho ldkajslkd tHATS REALLY CUTE that was me before. the. second act begun. and my attention went to. someone else. but also "The ugly purple coat. The shitty hair that I am now in love with" u jUST HAD TO END HIM LIKE THAT??????? "ur clothes and hair are ugly and thats why i love u <3333" dlkajslkjlkjLKDLKSKL

u wanting to look like him is so valid tho i bet if u dm-ed mikelangelo he would tell u where he buys his clothes and how he does his makeup im really not kidding right now

and omg you're so welcome 😭😭😭 being loud on main finally payed off... im so happy and honoured that u decided to check out the musical bc of me saying incoherent things about salieri !!!!!!! 

and i cannot stress enough how much "I am incapable of thinking about anything else now and I am looping lbqfm religiously it is 2am I am sor tired oh my god but if I don't disrupt my sleep schedule to focus on mor I will die" is literally me ... im not kidding .. rn is less worse but i used to listen to lbqfm on repeat at 2am too everyday ...... i listened to it more than 100 times in 4 months.......... i replaced that with songs from la legende du roi arthur after i watched it but still i always go back to mor when its very late at night 😭

anyways the sentence "Hi I just wanted to say you're the reason I watched Mozart l'opera rock?" alone was the best thing i could have read . question mark and all. thank u sooooo much for sending this it made my whole monthhhhhhh 😭💕💞💗💗🤧

#come off anon lets be friends :(((( #u should make a mor bloggggggggg #im sounding desperate bc i am #u seem really nice i love how u described it all ldkjs #thank u for taking the time to send this 💕 #asks #keep

[slitherfromeden]

i don't think they're creepy but the thought of touching them makes me scream yk?? oh my god i googled slaters and they. oh my god. i don't like them... i don't want to Look at them. ooh that sounds nice!! i'm glad it was mainly nice, you deserve nice :) aaa hope you get some sleep soon! i hope tomorrow won't be as bad as you expect. well you know that if it IS bad i'll be here for you, if you want to talk about it or anything else. i've been well, thank you! still on my mission to get things –

– together lol baby steps! baby steps. still kinda foggy but it's getting better. so much love + hugs ♡

oh yeah,, i get that. i KNOW slaters are evil. i remember then being in the kitchen all the time growing up because our house was so old and like. the kitchen was poorly built (it’s been fixed now) and i could like barely go into the quarter of the downstairs of the house that the kitchen was it because fear of slaters. they climb up walls sometimes too and my skin is CRAWLING i gotta stop asdhfashd. thank you so much :) i was gonna try and sleep about now but i’m in the bit of being sleep deprived where you really couldn’t feel less tired and you just wanna be awake forever. we’ll see about tomorrow. 

also just gotta talk about this interaction i had today. my auntie came over (she stayed in our garden, at least 2m apart, it was to give my dad his medicine and me my birthday gift so like. it was allowed dont worry adfh) and like. she kept on talking about alcohol and asking if i was gonna drink tonight or if i was gonna get drunk and i kept on being like “i don’t drink” but she wouldn’t stop bringing it up and my dad was like. tryna help me out and it was just so weird. like,,, yes it is extremely unusual for a 17 year old to not be drinking regularly over here. but like. my family has a history of alcoholism as well?? on her side of it?? like,,, my grandad is dying of liver cancer because he is an alcoholic and has been for at least 40 years. and like,, i do drink. my parents don’t know that but it’s moderation and i maybe drink like,, one can of cider a year or something but it’s nothing much. and like. just because everyone else starts drinking heavily around the age of 13/14 here doesn’t mean i have to. it was just uncomfortable and idk why she wasn’t understanding that me and my dad were like,,, tryna steer the conversation away from that. everyone else in my family has been really supportive of my choice, and like,, they might say “are you sure you don’t want a drink” once during a get together or sumn but they’ve never pressured me and it was just to make sure it was my choice?? and this is the first time anything like this has ever happened to me and i am just. very uncomfortable and confused ashdfhasdf.

anyway, yeah, beyond that it’s been good ahdfa. i really hope things get better for you soon, my dear. i understand that it can be difficult with dissociative states and getting out of them. idk what to recommend really, except sticking to the baby steps plan. so glad it’s getting better for you. hope that one day soon the fogginess is gone because you deserve that. sending so much love your way <3333

#anon #answered #alcohol /