#i've been down bad for like a year now 😕

[aleksa-sims]

RL Simself Story ( 18+)

After I finally told N. that I was pregnant, I wanted to tell my Mom too. N. & I went down to the living room, to talk to her, but my Mom wasn’t in the house... The windows were open. I heard her talking to someone outside, so N. and I also went out into our backyard/garden. My Dad wasn't home. That’s the only reason Nico accompanied me. Otherwise he would have had to hide in my room. My Dad still didn't know about him and me. 😬

While trying to eavesdrop on the conversation between my Mom and that.... man who was there with her, Nico's Simself decided to.... water my mother’s plants. 😂🤣

Nico (to me): What's wrong?

Me: Be quiet!.... Damn it, that's-..... That's Daniel's Dad, hell!

Nico: Daniel's Dad!... Maybe D. came back?😒 ... What are you gonna do now, babe? 🤨 You wanna go back to him, ha?

Me: What?... Um... n-no. I-... I don’t think Daniel is here. I wonder a lot more what his Dad is doing here? And why is my Mom seeing his Dad alone?... Agh, I've had enough of this shit here!

Nico: Wait! Don’t go!

Me: But-........

Mom ( to D.'s Dad): You have no idea what you’re doing. I know how to deal with a drug addict kid, you know?

D.'s Dad: He trusts me now! Alex trusts me too. He'll help Daniel. I'm sure he can do it!

Mom: But you lost him again! You understand?... I don’t doubt Alex’s intentions, but Daniel is hooked. He's gonna drag Alex into all this.... sorry- shit, too. Don’t be stupid!... You’ve been gone for over 20 years. You can’t be his friend! You have to finally act like a parent and do the right thing for him. So let me help you! Trust me, please.

D.'s Dad: You’re right!. .... As soon as I find him again, I’ll take you to him. But he was here! He was in his apartment and planned to stay there.

Me: I know he came home.... He picked up his things. Why didn’t he stay? Why didn’t he wait for me? 😢

Mom: A.!? When did you get home? I thought you were-....

Me: You thought you were alone, right? 😠

D.'s Dad: I came here for you. Alex was with me, he asked me to get you a message. Here, that's for you!.... Don’t worry, I didn’t read it.

Mom (to D.'s Dad): You-... you had this letter with you the whole time??.. Why didn't you read it??? Maybe Alex tries to tell her where Daniel is.

D.'s Dad: I thought the same! I asked him of course. He said it was about something else. And as for Daniel, Alex was with him when he was in his apartment. He told me that Daniel wanted to leave after a while. Alex tried to stop him. At first everything seemed ok. He was determined to stay and ready to talk to her. But something changed Daniel’s mind. He didn't want to tell Alex. He just wanted to get out there. So Alex went with him not to lose him again. He called me the same day and told me all this. He said, he'll stay with Daniel. Alex will bring him back, I know that.

Me: But what did I do wrong? Why did he leave me? 😢

D.'s Dad: He never wanted to tell me. He meant, I didn’t understand him. No one would understand him. The only person who can is you, but he can’t talk to you about it. Daniel wasn’t well when I found him. He relapsed, just like... you. ... It was really bad .😞 Alex and I helped him. Some weeks later he seemed fine, but.... he took off again. I'm so sorry.... I think you have to be patient with him. I have the impression that he doesn’t want to give up your marriage or you. He wants to be with you! The question is, what’s stopping him? I thought if anyone knew, it was you!

Me: All he had to do was talk to me.... But he decided to run away, a second time!.... I think it's over. He doesn't want me. It’s easier for him to run away from me, than to finally confess what he did. I would never have done that to him! 😭

Mom (to D.'s Dad): Don't worry, I'll talk to her.... You should go now.

Dad: Yea.... And thanks for...... helping. 😕

Mom: Call me as soon as you know where he is! This time, I’ll come and talk to him.

Dad: Deal! So, we'll do! Alex’s gonna drop by my place anyway. I’ll get him to tell me where Daniel is.

Shit! I totally forgot about Nico.😞I was just hoping I didn’t say anything wrong or didn’t trigger his anger from back then. And what Alex’s wrote me, I’ll tell you soon. But he didn’t tell me where Daniel was. He only asked me to trust him and that Daniel was NOT with Irena! Because of that pic Irena posted. Nevertheless, my feeling was that Daniel didn’t love me the way I had hoped or wanted it. I mean, how can he do that to me, if he really loves me? He knew how sad & broken I was! Alex must have told him. And yet Daniel kept making me suffer. 😞Alex at least tried to tell me what was going on, but he couldn’t!!! Daniel was completely against it!

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#ts4 #sims 4 #sims 4 story #cw addiction #myrlgameplay #rl story

[melis-writes]

Fanfic Disclaimer: If you don't like it, please don't read it.

After writing and working fanfics continuously now on a daily basis for almost two years now, unfortunately it seems like making this post now is sadly unavoidable. 🫤 I feel the need to finally mention the disclaimer I'm putting on all my fics/work now due to a constant pattern of anon hate, insults, de*th threats and unwanted "constructive" criticism on my work.

I can't stress enough: if you don't like a fanfic for any reason whatsoever, you don't have to read it! You really don't. Nobody's making you read anything you don't want to and you're not a bad guy if you put it down the first paragraph in or five chapters in. Another thing you don't need to do at all whatsoever is send hate comments/asks, or tell fic authors they're writing is shit and their fic is too. Unwarranted, rude and hateful comments only make you look like the awful person, not someone with a "different opinion". 😕

This exact kind of disgusting behavior is a huge cause of why many fanfic authors delete all of their works, stop posting, and stop writing. I ignored it for some time myself but seeing that it's clearly going to continue periodically and not stop, I'm addressing it all in this post.

From the past almost 2 years since I've been writing Moth to Flame, I've been repeatedly a target of this behavior/bullying up to the point where it's evolved to anon hate/blogs that I've blocked changing locations to send me asks, sending me and my fics hate while making new blogs to interact with me, actively reading my fics and writing hate comments on them, and interacting with my blog while continuing to send me hate over a fanfic. 😶 What it's evolved to is downright ridiculous and insane and I am no longer entertaining it in any way, shape or form whether it comes on AO3 comment sections or here.

I'm not going anywhere. I'm never going to stop writing fics or my original work. Writing is my hobby, my passion, one of my favourite things to do and this hasn't changed for 16 years and it never will. I'm not going to delete my fics/works for anyone or anything and that includes anon hate and every nasty message inbetween. I'm here to stay, and nobody is obligated to read my fics or even interact with my blog so please, if you don't like me, my writing and anything regarding it from the style to the characters' personalities and down to the plot, unfollow me. Block me. Please don't interact with me in any way if you don't like me/my writing for whatever reason.

My welcome onto Tumblr after beginning to post the first few chapters of Moth to Flame was anon hate and nasty messages. Because of a fanfic, I've been told to "stop writing it because it discourages other fanfic authors" due to Moth to Flame's soaring popularity, that I have "ego problems" from accepting and being grateful for feedback and compliments, that I "think I'm better than every other fanfic writer" because I'm confident and comfortable with my writing style and skill and refuse to insult myself or downplay my own talent in some way, that I have a monopoly on Michael Corleone x Reader fics and that I supposedly think "nobody else can write good Michael Corleone x Reader fics". ??? None of these are remotely true at all. ☹️

Since then, I've had growing suspicions this kind of bullying and behaviour was coming exclusively from The Godfather fandom and unfortunately, I was right. 🫤 Being in many fandoms for long periods of time on and on for years, The Godfather fandom is the first fandom I've ever been in where I've seen blogs group up and gang up on other blogs to send anon hate/make nasty posts about them, have someone tell me to k*ll myself over a fanfic, encourage other blogs/users to individually send hate (over anything, ships, headcanons, etc.), make new blogs to send hate and to follow/stalk from and so much more disgusting, awful behavior.

It got all the more concerning when I had friends and mutuals telling me they're distancing themselves from The Godfather fandom and choosing to have nothing to do with it or follow anyone from it. I've had beloved mutuals and friends deactivate their blogs over witnessing this behaviour in the fandom. 💔

Over a fanfic, I've had anon hate telling me I'm a misogynist/hate women because Moth to Flame is based in the late 1940s/1950s, that Victoria has "too many children", that there's "too much smut" in a SMUT fic, that Victoria "isn't shy enough" (just to name a few) and users telling me how I should write my own fanfic and my portray my own characters differently because they don't like how the plot went or how the character acted. These are no longer bits of "constructive" criticism, but condescending insults coming from individuals who clearly don't like my fics or my writing, but refuse to stop reading them, refuse to stop interacting with me and continue to send more anon asks and anon AO3 comments.

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I will always love and welcome thoughtful and kind comments/feedback on my fics but I'm not going to stop writing my fics, I'm not going to change my characters or alter the plots because someone doesn't like them.

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#sigh. #melly talks

[maddy-ferguson]

can u expand on the byler vol2 problems

i said ask me to expand and i will and you delivered thank you for that!!! i didn't say byler vol2 problems though i said byler fandom problems post-volume 2!

i think the main thing is overcorrection. i said every major problem but i only meant the things i think of as byler tumblr trends that annoy me personally. tbh🙏 it's subjective. kind of.

i've been rereading posts from after volume 2 recently and yeah it's the "will only ever gets to be sad" to "will deserves a villain arc" kind of pipelines that you saw after volume 2 that i think are still very much happening i'm gonna talk about even though the will villain arc one died down pretty quickly. on this side of the internet anyway. some of these actually aren't volume 2 related sorry i lied i was mostly thinking about the mike stuff when i said that.

mike says i love you to el: everything always ends up being about mike somehow. i think this is the biggest one. people like the mystery and the way mike's sexuality isn't confirmed like will's is and so they analyze him more which leads to people literally rewriting history with takes like mike is more queercoded than will?😭 i get that everyone knows will is gay now but the mike focus has people thinking that will has no subtext when literally his entire storyline is full of the saddest subtext ever!!! but it's not subtext that you can choose to only read as "this boy is gay" so it's not as fun i guess😔 and it really isn't as fun. because it's mostly heartbreaking and awful lmao but yeah. just wanted to give a thumbs down to the mike is more queercoded than will take again.

mlvns say will is a whiny crybaby, bylers say going through what he's had to go through would make anyone cry just as often so will isn't even that sensitive even though he is it's literally one of the first things we learn about him lol. people imply that being sensitive is bad so often and act like will has sensitive gay kid allegations to beat when he literally doesn't like he is a sensitive gay kid😭 why do you think that's bad exactly...🎤

mike says i love you to el: 90% of people think they read everything wrong for 72-96 hours and then everyone's like oh no i get it now. byler's still endgame. overuse of the term media literacy and everyone who doesn't think or simply doesn't believe that the duffers would make byler endgame is stupid and has no media literacy. which actually comes off as very INSECURE!!!! and is frankly annoying. and obnoxious. the term media literacy needs to be taken away from byler tumblr i'm so serious.

will is not a baby just because he's gay look at these two scenes he's actually so mean and most importantly not sensitive (and then he's not even mean in the scene) and he can load a gun could a sensitive baby do that (and then he's literally 12 in the scene so like. i'm sorry but that's a baby to me😕). how dare you imply that he's sensitive, gay, and a kid. i'm kidding about the gay one because no one in this day and age is defending will by saying he's not gay but some of them might as well be because it's the qualities that made people assume he's gay that people try to say he doesn't have. the how dare you infantilize him he can load a gun one is just nonsensical because regardless of how you feel about will with a gun you're definitely meant to be like oh no this poor little kid has to defend himself all alone :( in the moment like him being a kid isn't a bad thing (??/!??,/) it makes you feel for him and is part of what makes what happens to him so awful.

mlvns accuse bylers of hating el and of being raging misogynists: elmike is born. bylers start saying that el will actually be thrilled by the match and might actually set up the guy she spent the first two and a half years of her life out of the lab fixated on who's been her boyfriend for over a year and her newfound brother. because she's so mature and over the petty drama that's a teenage love triangle. which is crazy because i DON'T believe that most bylers are as misogynistic as mlvns make us out to be like i've seen way worse which might be because...the show is actually pointing to mike being gay so it's not made up and no one needs to give el a thousand flaws to justify anything? even though people do blame her for things that i don't know if she should be blamed for but whatever that's a different discussion. i was saying: it's crazy because while i don't think bylers are all awful misogynistic el haters...the girl being so happy and out of the way and not being given the space to feel anything about her (gay) boyfriend not being in love with her is sooo new age 2010s mlm fandom sexism. let el have emotions about her breakup with her gay boyfriend who was the first person she bonded with (who didn't die immediately) after escaping the lab who lied to her about falling in love with her at first sight 2k25‼️

everything about babygirl mike and buff byers? let's not get into the whole buff byers debate i hate it with a passion. but it's like. people want mike to be taken down a peg. mike says i love you to el with will's sad little face in the background and people want mike to have to beg for forgiveness. which i get because as i was saying the other day, "i feel like my life started 24 hours after you were taken to the upside down and were traumatized forever because i met this girl who's replaced you in every way that matters, will" is hard to get over. but idk. people are so weird about mike being lame and loving will and about will barely caring about him in return and about the loserification of mike wheeler because yes mike is a loser but only in the sense that the whole party is!!! and that's something that gets lost when he's made to be below them and below will specifically because people feel like he has all the power in the relationship right now and will's at his mercy. which is something they don't like. like it's okay they're both miserable actually. rejoice! post-volume 2 mike needs to have fallen first and he needs to have fallen harder because if the only thing will gets at the end of everything is a boyfriend who loves him only as much as will loves him it's not good enough even though that's all he's not letting himself hope he'll ever have.

#kidding about will being a baby. i know he does not like being treated like one🙏 #see how i'm a real will fan #at one point i was like wait. should i do the will wasn't in the wrong at rink o mania thing again😁 #but then i didn't. sorry jackietaylcrsers #about the mike is more queercoded thing. this one time someone who mostly does mike analysis got an ask that was like could you do #the biggest hints that will is gay? and their answer was a link to noah's interview saying that will is gay and if that doesn't sum up the #way bylers tend to think about will's storyline #like if will's not your area of expertise and looking for the gay clues of a canon gay character isn't of interest to you it's fine but #they really were like there's no need to dig bc we know. and i thought that was so weird😭 and dare i say a little sad. #especially because now there's people who think he's less queercoded somehow?//?/)/) #anyway #ask

[ajkesiah]

• Indirect kiss •

Five hargreaves x reader

A/N: IM REALLY JUST MAKING THESE BC IM BORED BUT THIS IS MY FIRST TIME WRITING ANYTHING SO THIS WILL SUCK BUT HOPEFUL IT TURNS OUT GOOD 😅 trust the process ig 😕✌️(BTW I HAVE BARELY WATCHED TUA, I SAW JUST A COUPLE EPISODES OF SEASON 2, IDK HOW THE ACADEMY LOOKS LIKE SO IM SORRY IF I MADE ANY MISTAKES)

(btw the italic words mean y/n`s thoughts)

[ also, five is the same age as y/n, they're both 21-24 I can't rlly pick an age ]

Y/n's pov:

I'm currently walking towards the Umbrella Academy to hang out with my friends, Klaus invited me to come over bc he was bored and we were gonna have a party there, yk foods, music, and dances etc. I've been friends with them for a few years. We're all super close. Me and five get along well, surprisingly, we're like best, best friends, I sorta have a tiny crush on him ig... OKAY I HAVE A HUGE CRUSH ON HIM. 😻

3rd person pov:

(Time skip bc I don't wanna write all this)

Y/n walks up to the academy and knocks on the door, the door flung right open as Klaus put his weight on the handle with a drink in his hand. "Hey Klaus!" y/n says "hey y/n, come in" Klaus says as he stands to the side then closes the door after they walk in.

The smell of fresh food and drinks coming from the kitchen and music playing in the background. Allison and Luther dancing in the living room, Diego talking to vanya while playing with his knife, and five... idk where five is he's probably in his room or something.

Klaus stumbles to the kitchen "we have so much stuff in here y/n! Come here". Y/n follows Klaus to the kitchen and the smell getting even stronger made me wanna fall down on my knees..

(AN: FOOD THO 😻😻 HMU 😘😘 OKAY SORRY)

I walk to the counter and look at all the food and drinks lay down there, tacos, lasagna, chicken, steak, chips, sauce, cheesecake, brownies, cookies, you name it.

(IDK WHAT FOOD TO PUT??? I BARELY GO TO PARTIES, ONLY FILIPINO ONES BUT LIKE YK???)

"Woww..." Y/n asked, Klaus nods "mhm, I'm gonna dance now, wanna come?" "Sure!"

Y/n's pov:

"what happened?" all of them asked.

After drinking and have a fun time I got up from the couch to go to the kitchen when I saw five blink away somewhere as I stood up. I grabbed some food and got thirsty, and there was this cup with wine in it sitting next to me so I just drank it, not caring who's it was. While I was drinking it five blinked near me while Klaus also walked towards us. "isn't that fives glass? OMG YOU'RE DRINKING FIVES GLASS Y/N" Klaus yelled then started laughing while five just stared.

I put down the glass as I spit out the water, almost choking on the drink bc I was shocked, I mean... I'm drinking from my best friend's glass.. AKA MY CRUSH??!?!?!? HELLO??? "what?.." The others came in here curious abt what all the noise is from.

OH IM FUCKED.. 😭😭

"They kissed?!"

"Y/N HAD AN INDIRECT KISS WITH FIVE!!!" Klaus yelled out. INDIRECT KISS????? I BASICALLY KINDA KISSED FIVE?? OMG I THINK IM GONNA HAVE A HEART ATTACK..

"what"

"what's an indirect kiss?"

"Y/n and five kissed?!"

....

...

..

.

Five and I basically just watched this whole scene unravel. "umm..." I tried to think what to say.. BUT HOW TF WOULD I KNOW WHAT TO SAY IF I JUST INDIRECTLY KISSED MY CRUSH ???

Five and I just looked at each other and he walked up to me and grabbed my hand and teleported to his room. wow.. his hands are SO SOFT- IS IT HAPPENING??? FIVE IS GONNA KISS ME??? I MEAN... SAY LESS-

I was knocked out of my thoughts as five said something "well that was something..." I nodded not knowing what to say. OH GOD IM BLUSHING I BET HE CAN SEE THIS IM GONNA SHIT MYSELF SO BAD RN 😭😭 He walked up to me and and tilted my chin towards him since I was looking away. "umm.. sorry five I didn't mean to drink out of your glass.." I scratched the back of my neck awkwardly.

I MEAN WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WHEN I JUST HAD AN INDIRECT KISS WITH MY BEST FRIEND THEN WE'RE IN HIS ROOM LIKE THIS??

Getting lost into his green eyes I suddenly felt a pair of lips on mine. NOW MY EYES ARE WIDE OPEN RN 😨 I kissed back knowing we weren't going to pull away anytime soon. He grabbed me by the waist and I put my arms around his neck. HIS LIPS ARE SOFT TOO THIS MAN IS TOO PERFECT WTF

The kiss lasting for a long while, we pull away and I look into his eyes as he smirked. "umm-" Klaus and the others kicked the door open right as I was about to say something. We both immediately pulled away from each other and stood awkwardly.

"OMG THEYRE KISSINGGG"

NOT AGAIN 😭

"Y/N???"

"FIVE??"

"OH MY GODDDD THERE THEY ARE"

"wow"

"Oh my god guys shut up" five said rolled his eyes and shoved them out of the room with a sigh. Turning back to me, "I'm sorry, they're annoying" "no no it's fine! I mean, it was kinda embarrassing but-" five pulled me into a passionate kiss.

A/N: OMF I HOPE THIS IS GOOD??? I HAD AN IMAGINE LIKE THIS IN CLASS BUT DIDNT FINISH IT SO I JUST WENT ALONG THE WAY HERE I HOPE YOU GUYS LIKE IT 😘😘

#five hargreeves #the umbrella academy x reader #the umbrella academy #five x reader #the umbrella academy one shots #five x you #five x y/n #x y/n #five hargreaves x reader #klaus hargreeves #diego hargreeves #luther hargreeves #vanya hargreeves #allison hargreeves

[0nlythrowharrybeaux]

Heyy, how you doinggg!! Could u write smthg abt a reader with psoriasis.. maybe she's insecure to go out in a dress or smthg and harry helps her feel better. Mines been pretty bad recently and I could use some fluffrry 😕🤧 also I love your ficsss,, they're so goodddd I'm obsessed.

Hello friend, TBH not too great today either! I've had cramps all freaking night and I can barely move from the waist down so I called off work and I see Harry in 2 DAYS, so I hope I feel better by then.

But I'm sorry to hear that it's been bad lately. I hope that whatever is causing your flares to diminish soon. I can't begin to imagine how frustrating it can be to figure these things out. Sending you a big hug and I hope that this brings you a little comfort! 💛

It was no surprise that Harry had been busy, he was always busy! But he was not the type of person to break his promises, so when he promised Y/N that they would have a day out together he was punctual when he arrived at her home. They hadn't even been seeing each other a year, but he really wanted to prove to her that despite the insanity his life could be, he could still give her normalcy. When she let him in he hugged her tight and briefly kissed her lips and that's when he noticed that she was not yet dressed for their stroll through the neighborhood.

"Wake up late?" he asked as he thumbed gently at her cheek.

"No, I got showered and all, but then I got distracted before I could change." she said and he smiled, "A client called and had an issue with and order, there was a misprint on her wedding invitations and obviously it needed to get sorted immediately." she explained as he slipped out of his sneakers, it was apparent they weren't going to leave immediately as they had originally planned. So she guided him further into her apartment.

"I'm sorry, lovie. Did you figure it out?" he asked her as he followed her into the kitchen.

"Yeah, I fixed it and all, but now we need to find a printing press that can get this done in the next few days so that I can assemble all 350 of them and she can pick them up by Friday." she explained and he could tell that she was still in high anxiety about this, "Do you want some coffee?" she asked.

"If you're having some too yeah."

"I don't think my heart can take an espresso right now. I'm just gonna have an earl grey." she said to him.

"OK, I'll have that then. Less mess, I don't mind." he assured her and she smiled as she put on the kettle, "So how's everything been apart from this today?" he asked as he leaned on the counter and as she chatted with him about business picking up a lot she did not sit still for a moment. She was putting away dishes and wiping at the counters, then preparing the tea, she was fluttering about like a bird who figured out that they were in an enclosed space. He had never ever seen her this agitated and so as she turned around to fuss over something else in her small kitchen he came behind her and wrapped his arms around her forcing her to stop, "Love, slow down for a minute." he said soothingly, she was tense in his arms and it made him smile, "Relax, you're stiff as a board." he informed her and she exhaled slowly and let her muscles loosen up as she did so, "Good girl." he hummed and she felt her face growing pink at his mumbled praise.

"I've been really busy and stressed lately, sorry."

"Don't apologize, lovie. That's life sometimes, I've just never seen you like this." he expressed, his chin rested on her shoulder as he continued holding her from behind.

"I haven't felt this pressured in a while. I started this whole invitations thing with the hopes that it would take off, but I just don't think I was ready for how fast it would take off." she expressed and he hummed in understanding, "I don't want mix ups like this to ever happen again." she shook her head.

"Hey, it's alright, you fixed it OK? What time do the printing places open?"

"Earliest one opens at 10am." she said and he hummed.

"OK, well it's only 7:30 now, how about we take our stroll as planned, have some breakfast somewhere and I drive you to the printing press? Get you there right when they open." he proposed and she nodded, "Good." he hummed as he released her and she turned around and smiled at him before reaching for his face and pulling him down and their lips met gently and sweetly for several moments and then parted with a soft, wet sound.

"Thank you, I needed that, honey."

"Anytime, lovie." he smiled, "Now go on and finish getting ready." he said sliding his hands down to her bottom and giving her a few pats before fully letting her go to her bedroom.

Y/N had a renewed sense of energy as she pulled her hair away from her face and finished her make-up, she was just getting on her mascara, her client called right before she could get to that bit. She had a pretty little sundress all ready to go for her walk around the neighborhood with Harry. She was grabbing a bra and some biker shorts for underneath when he came in.

"Your tea." he said and she smiled as she took it.

"Thanks, hon." she said and he hummed a you're welcome before heading back to the kitchen.

She took a few sips before half-closing her door to get changed. She was still a bit shy and he didn't want to pressure her so he always let her have her time to finish getting ready. She had put on her bra and was just sliding the shorts up her legs when she felt a little itch and she bit her lip. This is not happening. She thought to herself as she pulled them up all the way and then went to her mirror and turned a bit only for her fear to be confirmed, she was starting to get a psoriasis breakout and the evidence was there on the back of her calf. It had been odd to her that it hadn't happened yet, she'd been so stressed, but she probably jinxed it. She started inspecting her body for more rashes and just found three on her legs, they were still in a mild stage, but she knew that they could easily get worse - especially now that she knew they were there, naturally it would start to itch more. She hurried to grab her ointment and get it on the affected areas, but now she didn't want to wear her dress. Maybe the one on her calf and back of her knee would pass as bug bites and the other one was higher up and would be covered, but it still made her feel self-conscious. She slipped it on to check how it would look, but all she could see where the fucking rashes and she wanted to cry. Why was this happening to her now. She was about to tear the dress from her body when Harry tapped on her door gently.

"Hey lovie, what if we eat at this- hey, what's wrong?" he asked as soon as he saw her frown and glossy eyes.

"I'm having a psoriasis outbreak and now I can't wear my dress because it's going to show and look bad." she huffed and he frowned.

"Oh lovie, where?" he asked looking her over.

"My legs." she said and he looked over her legs carefully.

"Baby, I can only see that spot. Is that it?" he asked and she nodded, "Does it hurt?" he asked her and she sighed.

"Not really, not now. It's just about to start." she explained.

"All that stress isn't it? Causing a break out?" he asked and she sighed as she sat on her bed.

"Probably." she mumbled, "I don't want to go out with that showing. I don't want people to see it, especially if it gets irritated it's going to look a lot worse and weird and..." she trailed off before she said something hurtful about herself.

"Lovie, you know it's not your fault. And if wearing something else is going to make you feel better than by all means, change. But I for one think that you look so pretty in that dress. It's a very nice color and it...makes your butt look really good." he said with a timid grin and she laughed softly, "I think you are absolutely perfect." he said and she smiled.

"You're too sweet, H." she shook her head with a smile.

"Lovie, I'm not just saying things to make you feel better. I'm being honest." He reassured her, "I know that it's hard and scary to live life when you feel like everyone can see like you're under a microscope, but that's all it is, lovie. It's just a feeling, it's not real." he assured her and she exhaled slowly.

"Promise?"

"I promise, lovie." he assured with a kind and loving smile which caused her own lips to curl up in a beautiful and warm smile, "There's my girl." he hummed as he leaned down and pressed a kiss to her lips and she pulled him down into her for a hug and he toppled onto the bed with a hearty chuckle.

"Thanks, hon." she said quietly, "You always know what to say."

"Just wanna make sure you're happy, lovie." he assured and she hummed.

"I always am with you."

[100dayproductivity]

Day 26/100.

I'm tired and lazy today. But I'll try and get motivated to continue my declutter project.

Next pantry shelf to tackle:

I know there's expired stuff at the back.

First layer: all stuff I use regularly. Couscous, rice, pasta and some cookies.

The tall blue wine gift box is what I keep long pasta in (linguine, spaghetti, fettuccine). I'm pleased with myself for having found a way to reuse the gift box. It's a bit too tatty to gift to someone else.

The empty peanut butter container is for rotini. I've recently started buying it from a bulk food store that opened near me (not Bulk Barn). I'd love to eventually get most of my staples from there, because I hate packaging waste. But they have so many nice things, it's a bit overwhelming. So right now I just get my couscous and rotini from there.

The couscous you see in the photo is not in its original container; I saved the container and then reused it for the bulk couscous.

Next layer:

Banana chips. I don't like banana chips, but my daughter does. But she tends to forget we have them. I need to put a small container of them on her desk so she can snack on them while doing homework.

A container labelled "cream of wheat" so I always think it's cream of wheat, but it's not cream of wheat. It's flour mixed with what smells like garlic powder, which I evidently batch-prepared for when I'm battering meat. How very efficient of me. Too bad my past self thinks my future self doesn't need labels. (Yep, we've gone over this before.) I need to label this properly, and then keep it together with the paprika-salt-garlic powder mixture I probably batch-prepared at the same time. And then I need to use them!

Chocolate syrup. My household doesn't consume chocolate syrup. I had to buy this for my daughter when she was taking a desert-making course over Zoom. She used about a half cup. The rest has been sitting there since. It's not that we don't like chocolate syrup, we just never think of having it. I need to buy some vanilla ice cream and whipped cream to give me a reason to consume this.

A container of chopped walnuts. I have no recollection of when or why I bought this. This will have to go in the compost.

A very nearly empty container of honey. I will use this up tonight in some tea. I've just added a bit of water to the container to dissolve it, it will be faster and easier than trying to scrape it out.

Low-dose aspirin. I must've got this as a freebie trial product or something because no one here needs a daily low-dose aspirin. I should probably throw it out but instead I'll keep it with the other painkillers. Might be good for period cramps.

Ok, we're on the last stretch.

Some cardboard boxes for holding six cans of beer. Not sure if I need these, but maybe I should keep them where I keep empties.

Woo, some fancy dip mixes! I sort of remember these. Only a little bit left of the, I think, onion-cheddar one. Chucked it. Box in recycling.

Lasagna noodles. I don't know why I always end up buying lasagna noodles. It's such a pain in the butt to make. But I guess I'll have to make some at some point to use up the noodles.

What are these? Flat wooden sticks. For ice cream? *Sigh* I don't know why I have these. Garbage, I guess.

I used to keep an emergency kit stocked with dry foods when my kids were really little. These meal packets are from that.

They are made specifically for camping or emergency kits, as they have a long shelf life and only need hot water added directly to the pouch to prepare them. It says they have a shelf life of 3-5 years, but they are best before dated 2013 😕 I'm tempted to open them up anyway and see if they're still edible though 😅 Maybe tomorrow.

Alright, so all that was left was an empty cardboard box, an empty plastic container and some plastic bags. I recycled those/stored them for reuse, and then I just had to clean up some spilled nachos and crumbs. Wiped everything down, put everything back, and here's what I have in there now.

So much space! 😮 WOW!

I'm pretty pleased with myself ☺️

I'm sooo tired though. Time to tea and read before bed.

#100 days of productivity #kitchen #declutter #recycling #reusereducerecycle #reuseandrecycle #reuse #packaging waste #emergency kit #dried food #camping food #best before date is just a guideline

[dingyuxi]

hey it's z anon!!! i've been away from my computer for the past couple of days so i couldn't reply right away BUT !!! v belated congrats on ur last day for didactic classes & exams!! i hope everything goes smoothly w the year of clinical practice and studying for boards!! i also got my grades back for the semester and did WAYYY better than i thought.. my semester gpa was 3.9 smthn which makes my cumulative 3.64 :D okie backkk to drama talk,, omg is there a reason you didn't watch s1 of yumi's cells?? i feel like it's kim goeun's best work..even above goblin 😅but yess please watch it for jinyoung.. his character is sooo sweet and i alr know a spoiler for how the webcomics played out so i'm looking forward to how the s2 will work! my other most anticipated is link!! like link, why her, and yumi's cells?!!? ahhh so exciting.. also have you been watching from now on showtime? i don't see many talking abt it and it's very underrated imo. clear communication btwn characters w great acting >>> and comedic plot while also being able to be serious ??? it's so good.. really. confession: i still didn't finish to my star 1... my friend lovesss it though so i should give it a second try... also THIS WEEK'S EPISODE OF PLUS AND MINUS.. NO ONE TOUCH ME... it just keeps getting better i'm <33333333333 so PLEASE continue when you have time and lemme kno ur thoughts!! also you haven't led me astray so far so 😋 i think we can just acknowledge that you have good taste! and idek w xu kai she just says he seems like a robot when he acts and that he has a funny face .. both non logical reasons to dislike him but she's a bit pretentious anyways 😳sh**ting stars.. yh.. such a shame w such a good cast too... and our blues.. the teens got MARRIED. like wha..what.... ure right the anti-abortion plot was way too strong and i'm honestly just watching it rn so my mom can have someone to talk to abt it. lap.. i am still on ep 7 but everything is so <3 esp since the secret got revealed and it (imo) wasn't that bad. idk how an accidental injury became bribery though 😕the otp of miss crow & mr lizard <333 i still haven't finished it.. i think i'm only on ep 23 still bcos i'm slowing down .. i want to savor the drama :)) sucks to hear the ending is rushed tho :( ALSO watching one spring night FINALLY and jung haein and han jimin look so good together :OO still nothing beats han jimin and nam joohyuk imo...also KINNPORSCHE THE WAY KINN APOLOGIZED NOT ONCE BUT TWICE.. i mean i kinda would've liked porsche to be upset longer but at least it wasn't as bad as in the novel... OH also alchemy of souls is airing in june?!? what the heck.. june is really my month for kdramas. also v unrelated but what music do you like? i feel like it would be fun to leave recs for each other !! so i'm recommending the albums jújú & the flowerbug by sunni colón & bismillah by peter cat recording co.!! sorry for the long message and i hope you're having a great weekend - z anon

thank you and CONGRATS right back at you! that's definitely something to be proud of ❤︎ you worked hard and you deserve it! I didn't watch s1 because I wasn't really into either of the actors (but ahn bo hyun and me don't vibe for whatever reason idk). I watched through all the gifs tho! so I know what went down and I've heard of the spoilers from the webtoon too. ohhh link! I want to watch that too, jingoo and gayoung look good together, I hope it delivers. I'm not watching now on showtime, I know at least eon of my moots is tho so I watch through her gifs. jin ki joo looks soooo cute in that drama tho, glad she's getting that. ahaha to my star I admit can be a bit slow for some people but they really were very cute together, their chemistry was very natural and comfortable. I caught up on plus and minus yesterday!! will admit I fast forward all the scenes of the second couple but I'm looking forward to developments between our lead besties. (also for someone who was trying to hide the box with the charm fu ligong was doing a very poor job at it alkdfj). SHUT UP THEY GOT MARRIED!?? DLFKJ the way they went from 0-100 so quick. the whiplash. lmfaoo at your friend I can't even be a hater because honestly sometimes it just works like that. I feel like you can hate/dislike people (esp celebrities) for really no reason and as long as you're not being a public menace about it's all good. as for LAP the hatred was really uncalled for SMH and junyoung could've just stayed in Spain I didn't need her to come back and ruin all this wonderful progress we've taken so long to get through. ONE SPRING NIGHT the superior haein drama. they were the softest little family of three, all the other trash men in that drama could choke tho. As you could probably tell from the onslaught of gifs I made, episode six of KP really was something else!!! we finally got communication and it was delicious. I literally had no idea alchemy of souls existed until I saw luni's pretty caps of it on my dash. my music taste is random obscure indie-pop/k-pop/k-indie and then a little bit of this and that that spotify recommends me lmfao. I'll def check out your recs tho ❤︎ to pick a couple artists from my playlists: gaho, lucy, flor, vinyl theatre, the band camino, gentle bones.

#asks #anon #answered #<3333 hope you're having a lovely day #random tmi of the day is that my brother Brough covid into the house and now I'm positive too :( #so I've just been isolating and making gifs in my room lakdjf

[jimkirkachu]

you’ve been afk for a while, are you alright? what happened? 🥺🥺 (੭ ･᷄﹏･᷅)੭ु⁾ any Kitty updates?

Hi hon, thank you for your note and your lovely emoji guy!! Those sparkles...... they're so magical......! 👀✨

(Sob story follows)

(Disclaimer: I promise I'm not deliberately trying to gain sympathy or pity!!!)

So........ it's been a rough few months. I've had an aunt and a cousin pass away; my longtime mentor retired but I had to, well... avoid the huge celebration that was thrown in his honor because The Abuser was there (thankfully I knew ahead of time so I wasn't blindsided, but it still sucked not to be there); and I've sort of been having a whole identity crisis, trying to figure out if I'm non-binary, gender non-conforming, gender confused for sure, then trying to communicate that to my family, and everyone I've told has been very supportive (for which I'm extremely grateful!) but it's just stressful trying to get up the nerve to talk about such personal things when you have no idea how it's going to be received. Especially when you're accustomed to never talking out loud about Anything personal because you've been conditioned to understand that your feelings are Too Much to dump on any one person and every time you've slipped up in the past and even obliquely talked about your feelings, you've gotten in trouble for it. (Let's just put it this way: I'm in a text message group chat which is active every day, and I got to a point where it was making my mental health so bad that I muted all the notifications--and I now have 709 unread messages as of this writing.)

On top of all that, there's the unfortunate kitty news. My cat (the big black one, Ensign Kittycat) is doing just fine (and my dearest anon, you have reminded/inspired me to come up with a new kitty/Trekky post sometime soon 🤔🥰). My mom's cat, however, is rather old and has been in declining health for the last couple of years. It's been at least a year since she lost whatever was left of her hearing (she's always had bad ears), but about 3 months ago she also lost most of her sight, and it was actually an overnight change, which was really freaky and scary. One day she was deaf but otherwise pretty much fine, the next morning she walked directly into the light from my bedside lamp and stared up at me with her eyes Fully dilated, and ever since that night/morning she's gotten around by memory, possibly by sensing light/darkness, but mostly just by feeling her way with her whiskers, which means she gently bumps into everything (walls, furniture, people, other cat, etc.) and it's just... really sad. Our vet confirmed that she is definitely in kidney failure, so we've started her on a whole plethora of medications, and I know it sounds like a weak excuse for being emotionally exhausted but it's really taken a toll. She wails about a dozen times a day/night (loud enough to be heard across the house and/or to wake us up) any time she goes to lie down somewhere and feels... pain? loneliness? who knows? I know she's "just" a pet, and she's technically not even my pet. But she's been part of our family for 17 years and being essentially incapable of helping her, having to watch her health/comfort/quality of life slowly decline is devastating. 😔

Otherwise, it's been the same old song and dance with the multiple mental illnesses, the unemployment, the constant comparisons between self and more-successful friends/peers/family members, the fantastically inconvenient sleep phase problems, and the overall feelings of worthlessness/hopelessness. 😕 It's all been something of a hindrance to my writing and creativity in general, which is a frustration in its own right, but... I think I've whined enough for one post (yikes).

I'm so sorry anon, I wish I had better things to report. 😔😣 But I really appreciate you checking in 💜💜💜 Thank you for caring; I hope things are going more smoothly for you than they are for me!

#ask #anon ask #sweet humans are sweet #personal log #ship's intercom #kind words #tw: abuse mention #tw: depression #tw: anxiety #tw: pet illness #tw: death #tw: unemployment #thanks for noticing me 💜 #not trek #chronic lack of spoons #no spoons #jtkchu's brain #stfu jtkchu #for reference #gender identity #identity crisis #long post sorry #soul sick #heartsick

[void-galaxy-shenanigans]

[May come off as dumping sorry] Uh Hi! I'm the Vagabond. I'm a fcktive (sorta fictive sorta factive) and have been happy with that and my fictional source for years. And the post you made about fictives and factives not condoning their source's actions or being treated as if they do. It made me feel really good! It came to light about a year ago that my irl source guy did awful things with his fame. And I kinda went into hiding for a while.

When I tried coming back, the system's friends got super uncomfortable, breaking down because I cofronted and offered help. I've been very avoidant of front and headspace since. Like yeah he was terrible and I'm a "bad guy" for not related things; but knowing that I'm not him, I don't have to completely reinvent myself because of a bad person that I share the name of, made me feel really good inside.

So thank you, sanders bunch. Thank you Void collective. From the bottom of my heart.

Thank you,

Ryan; JackedUpSystem

Hi! This is Roman responding 🥰.

First off I’d like to say ¡you’re not dumping at all! We love to see responses like this - it both lets us know our efforts aren’t in vain, and that we’ve made a positive impact on at least one person. (/genuine) (& what better way than to help make the world better than helping one person at a time? (/rhetorical))

Second, you’re completely valid, and your help shouldn’t be shot down just because your source did something(s) bad. And you have equal right to front as any other headmate. 😕 You’re not bad or evil because they did bad things; you get to choose good and better for yourself. If bravery is not a lack of fear (that’s foolhardiness/dumbassery), but instead choosing to do the right thing anyway, then being a good person is not an absence of bad/cruel thoughts but instead choosing to be & do good anyway.

Third, I hope things get easier for you & your system (/genuine). You’re allowed to defy & deviate from your source, ¡100%! 💛❤ You aren’t defined by your source; think of them more as a loose blueprint that gave you a name or an appearance or good personality traits (or all of the above), just a foundation that you get to build on and make your own. The system needed you for a reason, & you manifested the way they needed you to. You’re now allowed to grow & make your self your own too.

Fourth, I don’t know if you want them but I actually made these little apology & condemning templates awhile back for this exact type of situation (I really hated how my source responded to Janus’ name reveal)....so have these. 😶

If you’d like to post it somewhere or send it to the friends who rejected you, feel free.

(Anyone can use these if they want to, not just Ryan! You’re all welcome to.)

Introject Condemning:

Hi! My name is [name], my source is [source, e.g. Sanders Sides], and I’m [a fictive/a factive/an introject]. My source did something I disapprove of, so I wanted to officially [condemn/disapprove of] their actions. I don’t approve of or agree with [thing they did or said]. I understand if you don’t want to engage with me because I’m an introject of [source person/character], but I’d like you to know I would never [do/say] what they did if you’d like to [talk/interact/etc.] in the future. Please do not punish me for the actions and words of my source.

(Optional add-on sentences: I will not/would never [thing they did or said]. If I had been in their place, I would have [done/said] [what you would’ve done/said] instead. I won’t be engaging with [that part of the source, things they created after the bad thing was done, &/or the whole source (up to you, the introject).])

Introject Apology:

Hi! My name is [name], my source is [source, e.g. Sanders Sides], and I’m [a fictive/a factive/an introject]. My source did something I disapprove of, so I wanted to officially apologize for their actions. To [person/people that was/were harmed, fictives/factives of person/people that was/were harmed, and/or supporters of the source, & anyone else you’d like to see it], I sincerely apologize for [thing that source said/did]. I understand if you don’t want to engage with me because I’m an introject of [source person/character], but I’d like you to know I would never [do/say] what they did if you’d like to [talk/interact/etc.] in the future. Please do not punish me for the actions and words of my source.

(Optional add-on sentences: I will not/would never [thing they did or said]. If I had been in their place, I would have [done/said] [what you would’ve done/said] instead. I won’t be engaging with [that part of the source, things they created after the bad thing was done, &/or the whole source (up to you, the introject).])

#introjects #introject #fictive #fictives #factive #factives #multiplicity system #plural system

[haruchiix]

- Some M E D U S A Headcanons for your fruity ass ( part 1 ) :

Mizushi Katsumi “ Katy “ :

- Yup she’s actually 188cm no lies

- buff 😩

- Her Father is actually a boxer so

- Has a serpent tattoo on her neck right down to her left arm " like that dick from squid game 😐"

- Medusa was found right after she left jail , she was 21 years old.

- she continued her highschool years as normal

- Medusa’s first member was the one and only Ryo

- I won’t write anything about yuoko cuz this shit is depressing af and I wanna simp over my favorite sad lesbian

- Her favorite color is red

- Her birthday is on the 3rd of December

- Her favorite food is Pizza

- Is actually very good at school , studies well and always gets good grades… Ryo started studying too because of her

- Loved by the teachers, all of them have some kind of inside jokes with her that no one really understands

- Is adored by other girls in her school, with boys saying that she may actually steal their girlfriends from them.

- I mean they’ll let her steal em cuz it’s way better than facing her beefy 6”3 hunkers budunkers

- Pls I can’t imagine her wearing the school uniform ma’am build like a Jojo character

- Secretly enjoy headpats but she’s way too tall for someone to pat her head “ except for Ryo who literally jumps on her “

- I hate all men but when he’s Takeomi Akashi that’s different cuz that’s my “ bestie bro dude man homie gang member to gang member conversation friendly manly handshakes sharing the same cigarette under rain protecting senju beating up other men brotherly platonically friends-only “ type of love

- And most if not all of their conversations goes like :

" Ayo bro your sister's cool let her join Medusa bro"

" No way bro I'm gonna keep an eye on her bro "

" Then join us to-- lmao my bad bro sorry bro "

" Haha it's okay bro you're hot bro "

" What oh you too bro platonically bro "

" Of course bro "

- She somehow knows if any girl in her class has a problem of some kind , her appearance may seems harsh but in reality she’s way too soft and care about others very much , you can easily recognize this by her warm smile

- Used to attend the same highschool as Yuzuha and Sherry , Only if she knew about Taiju my man you will be SOLOED in two seconds 😹

- She graduated three years ago " following the current events , she's 24 now "

- Yeah we’re married

Satoshi Maru :

- Oh my favorite weirdo

- she’s the type of person that will bring up the weirdest shit in any conversation

“ yeah I broke my leg yesterday ، I fell off the stairs and— “

“ Did you really fell off the stairs or DID somebody pissed invisibly over the stairs and pushed you over ? There are ghosts out there ya know 😕👎 “

- The youngest sibling, the only daughter of 5 sons, and the most demonic one too

- Steals her brothers clothes as if she was homeless girl your father works from 9 to 5 the fuck

- The head of the Occult Club in her school , and the only member too lmao 🤣

- Forced Emiko to join her club for shes the only one who can keep up with her shit

- A cat person, will literally bring any cat she meets on the street home and her mom would kick her ass

- Believes in Aliens as if she wasn't one of them

- Her favorite color is green

- Her birthday is on 14th of June

- Her favorite food is anything sweet , specially Mochi

- Everyone met Katsumi in some kinda of a dramatic scene but miss gurl was her arcade partner for 3 months in row

- " Hey so you're from my school aren't ya love "

- " ᵒᵐᵍ Yeah ᵒᵐᵍ "

- " I've been seeing you kicking stuff here for ages , wanna join my gang ? "

- " ʰᵉˡˡ ʸᵉᵃʰ "

- I'll be blushing too if I was at her place oh lawd

- Tried every hobby on earth and still didn't find the one she really loves, but she's fond of photographing

- Second year " again , that's when Katy got out of jail, not in the current events cuz they all graduated "

- She can be reckless sometimes but she's actually very logical , will find a creative solution for any of your problems within seconds

- Istg that's because of trauma, my girl lived with 5 human species of the male sex , 5 of different ages ofc she'll handle your problems as if they were a piece of cake

- I love her so much she radiate good vibes