#i've been in my room for weeks now

[becca-e-barnes]

I'm not really feeling like myself today so I'm gonna indulge myself a little.

I don't remember the last time I talked about anal on here but more specifically, I'm imagining Lee and his little innocent wife again (I know you've all missed Lee as much as I have 🥵)

I think anal would be something she wouldn't often ask for because I always imagine she's quite shy about asking for what she wants but anal becomes one of their mutual favourites very quickly.

The way Lee would dote on you before anal just makes me melt. He's not nearly as reckless and rough. It's all gentle praises and soft kisses, trailing his thick fingers against your soaked sex until they're well enough coated in your arousal that he can slide two into your ass.

He'd be so mesmerised by the way you enjoy it; watching the sweet, innocent woman he married begin to explore her own sexuality and slowly start to indulge in fantasies she'd never admitted to anyone else just does it for him.

Lee's not a stranger to toys in the bedroom but nothing makes him hard like the memory of the first evening he came home from work to his wife, a couple of days after he'd got you a cute little princess plug.

He's usually greeted with a brief kiss when he comes in the door but that night, you couldn't tear your mouth off his if you tried. He tastes faintly of the toffees he keeps in the car but his mouth is so warm and distinctly his, it's addictive.

"What's gotten into you, sweetie?" You've pressed yourself flush against his body, standing on your tiptoes to kiss him while your fingers hook his belt loops, pulling him closer.

" 'm sorry. I need you." You've been worked up all day, imagining how your husband will touch you when he gets home and now he's here, you don't want to wait. The dinner can burn for all you care.

You notice how warm his hands are as they shift from your waist, reaching down to squeeze your ass and when you whimper against his mouth, it all clicks for him.

"Livin' room, sweetheart." That's exactly where he wants to be right now, instead of cramped in your tiny little hallway and when you don't make a move, he scoops you up and carries you there before sitting down in his armchair.

"Turn around. Bend over." They're clear instructions. Your feet are planted between his as you follow his lead. He pulls the skirt of your dress up and your underwear down your legs.

"God, do y'have any idea how wet you are?" The sparkling end of the plug sits neatly between the cheeks of your ass but it's hard to miss the way your slick arousal seems to almost glisten on your skin in the dim lighting.

Your breath catches in your throat feeling your husband trail his thick fingers from your neglected clit, back to tease your soaked entrance. Your body resists him pressing into you though. Having one hole filled at a time is more than enough for you for now.

"Thought I'd try it this mornin'. Slipped it in before I started the cleaning." You might feel embarrassed at how exposed you are if you weren't so turned on. "Couldn't even think straight by noon."

"Such a good girl for me. Shoulda called, honey. I'd have come straight home" He taps the base of the plug rhythmically and even that's enough to make you squirm. With his other hand, he's palming his own cock through his work trousers but that's not his main focus in that moment.

"Let me take the edge off for you. I'll take real good care of you after dinner, how does that sound?" His fingers circle your clit with the kind of ease that only comes with practice while he taps the base of the plug with the fingers of his other hand. Your body flutters around the metal inside you, offering a pleasant reminder of how full you feel and you're quite sure nothing will compare to the evening you have ahead of you.

#becca's thots #becca writes spice #lee bodecker smut #lee bodecker x reader #lee bodecker x reader smut #idk the whole innocent wife who's secretly as filthy as he is suits lee's character so well #I'm so convinced hormonal bc is the root of all evil #there was no good time for me to take a week off it so I've been taking it for like 3 months straight #and now I'm stopping for a week and I just know this is gonna kick my ass #everything I tried to write today was so sad #the dialogue all had a weird gravity that I didn't like #I'm working in my second job all this week though #so I'll get to reschedule my mortgage appointment #I've found an adorable little house that I really love #it's been totally renovated and it has a cute little back garden #I'd get my little vegetable plot 🥺 #Belle would still be able to watch the birds out the living room window

[snootlestheangel]

Autism Mood of The Day

Being so frustrated about every little thing and crying because you don't know how to express your emotions.

So then you end up crying in front of your parents and make them uncomfortable/feel frustrated cause they don't know why you're crying "ItS nOt ThAt BiG oF a DeAl" or they don't know how to help

#We're struggling out here #Can't believe it's only fucking Wednesday #I'm so fed up #With this week with the shit I've been working on this week #Fun story y'all #My older sister's old room has been my room for over a year now #We are just now getting to the point of getting her shit out of it #I still have not properly moved into my own damn room in a year #So I think it's safe to say I should be allowed to cry over this but for some reason I don't think I am? #fucking hate this #Autism rant #Autistic mood #autistic things #Autistic adult #Autistic problems #actually autistic

[fidgetspringer]

- Marten & Nohren -

#digital art #illustration #art #cowboys #original characters #my art #thought I might as well slap some colour on this now since i'll be away this week #i've got so many ideas floating around my head for story stuff I want to draw for these two #i've been writing them for almost a year now and i have a bunch of different AUs i'm excited to make designs for #the outlaws AU is one of my favourites though #excited to see how their designs change as i get more confident with drawing people #i'm not gonna info dump about them too much i think. I'll probably just let the story unfold trough the illustrations etc #cause idk if anyone's interested in the story stuff. i'm happy to answer if anyone asks stuff though #but the short version is that they grew up in the same town but didn't really get to know each other until later #Marten has a bad accident that leaves him bedridden for over a year while his father hides his condition out of shame #so Nohren takes a job as a hand at their ranch and figures out which room they're keeping Marten locked in #they become good friends and Nohren visits him in secret for almost two years while helping Marten regain some mobility #they take up the outlaw life after Nohren is seen with another man in town and decides he's better off getting out of dodge #Marten is torn about leaving the ranch behind but he comes along eventually #that's the very basic gist of it #they good kiddos #Marten #Nohren #Outlaws AU

[rithmeres]

genuinely these panels are going to make me ugly cry

#i'm not back for real yet i think i want to stay away longer. i'm just here to put more things in the queue and answer messages #i really enjoyed trimax vol 4 idk something about it was less miserable than 1-3 #might have been the first volume that i wasn't grimacing the entire time i read it. or maybe i'm just desensitized now. #unironically this prayer is soooo beautiful to me. give us this day our daily bread. not bread for the week not bread for a year #just enough for today. #lately when i've been praying it just looks like #please for the love of god please please please please please PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPL #things are not looking good for the community house.. lots bureaucracy with the city. and the church that funded us is falling apart #i don't know what i'm going to do if we get shut down it's the one thing in my life that's worth anything #all those kids... where are they going to go. who is going to help them. where is the neighborhood going to get their food. #in two days it will be the anniversary of [REDACTED] and i am so so so scared #just sat in my room today and fruitlessly scrolled thru jobs im not qualified for & tried not to think about thinking about killing myself #i don't WANT to kill myself i don't want to think about it i hate thinking about killing myself i will never ever kill myself or even try #but there is a demon or perhaps a ghost or evil wizard that tells me there's an easy way everything can go away. and it's A STUPID. BITCH. #please do not reply to this post i know you all mean well but i just don't think i can handle it. #talking about it i mean. and hearing people say nice but empty things. #i just wish i had someone to sit next to me. #personal #i don't want to go to church tomorrow :( it all feels so fake and i do not ever feel fed.

[arsonist-chicken]

hopefully my last flatmate rant but hello this is not a drill, I got a spot in a student dormitory!! I'll know tomorrow when exactly I can move in but it will probably be very soon, and as soon as I know, I'm letting my landlord know I'm leaving and why exactly and be petty as hell on my way out and enjoy my new freedom 🥳🥳🥳

#it's a dorm by the airport so let's see if the windows there rattle like the ones in my old dorm did lol #it's a single bedroom with a shared bathroom and floor-wide shared kitchens which is not the room I was hoping for but #it's cheaper than my room now and maybe I can move to one with a kitchenette in march and until then it's fine #i've spent five years in a dormitory with shared kitchens; it's fine #let's see if 'the stench' miraculously disappears when I tell those [redacted] I'm leaving and they'll coincidentally have someone #they want to move in here. i kinda hope so just because it would mean less effort to find a new tenant for me #and my friend suggested letters to the neighbors saying goodbye and telling them who's been putting wine bottles in the plastic trash #and slamming doors at 2am #which i probably will. yeah. those two have made my life really unpleasant in just six weeks to the point I'm moving out #of an apartment I really like that's conveniently located and has a balcony. I'm gonna be petty when I leave. #mine #anywayyyyyyyyyyyyy you're all invited to my new dorm room to celebrate my new freedom #bring your own bed or sleeping bag as I am now back to a single instead of double bed; also maybe all just sit on the floor #we can stack up on the bed like pancakes I guess #hehehehe off I go hopefully very very soon to people who don't mock me daily and make me want to not go home #I technically really don't have time to move right now but oh well I'll make time #jess' flatmate rants #there'll be another one I'm sure but I can deal with anything now knowing I get to leave soon

[friendly-firefly]

I'm 3 days in to surgery recovery and I finally picked up the book I borrowed from the library for post-op reading, Temeraire by Naomi Novik, and I am HOOKED. can't wait to see what this dragon and his little man do next

#i only started reading it because my laptop ran out of battery and the charger was upstairs #and no one was in the room to ask to go fetch it #but i'm so glad! i've had the patience to read twice in the last few weeks now and it's been delightful both times #temeraire

[moregraceful]

put 712 of the worst words ever put in a google doc tonight BUT! it is 712 more words in the google doc than i had yesterday. this fic will be more than 2k, so help me god

#the past six months have been so weird after posting over 200k last year (including the longest fic i've written since bandom) #i think i would have been fine continuing to post 1-3k one shots all year if i had not just had to request extended time off of school #but between that + having no idea if i have a regular schedule at the library + my nonprofit boss sending a harrowing welcome back #i'm like by god jason robertson we are going to take a couple of leisurely 7-10k+ strolls to get you a boyfriend or two this summer #well all that + being horrendously writers blocked on the other two longer projects lmfao oh my god #10k deep in one and every time i open the google doc a portal to hell opens up in my living room #0k into the other bc every time i open my outline another different portal to hell opens up in my shower #i get no rest. i get no peace. every morning i wake up and 5 more demons are- oh my god #bro my fucken train of thought just got completely derailed by spotify. i know i'm the last person in the world to know this but #3oh!3 and big freedia remixed rebecca black's friday?? and it's completely unlistenable?? girls what did you do #3oh!3 kill me bc no time traveler ever took their faces in hand and kissed them gently on the forehead and looked into their eyes #said ''please focus on coloradosunrise it will literally course-correct the trajectory of your career from frat house gimmick to #rowdy but respectable indie edm artists. you can remain true to your warped tour dirtbag origins but you HAVE to develop THAT sound'' #like the chainsmokers are a joke but i feel like THAT + ANGRY EMO GIRLS + THEIR TOTAL DISREGARD FOR MARKETABILITY... could have been THEM #when the piano drops?? hello?? i had so many mental breakdowns in college listening to that song they could have defined a generation #like who else is gonna get noah cyrus and ashe and gayle and olivia rodrigo's vision. only warped tour dirtbags. #me @ myself [so lovingly]: what are you talking about. how old are you #me @ myself: talk to me abt earth 2 in which 3oh!3 remixed i got so high that i saw jesus....and it whipped ass #also. i had to google how old i was. THREE TIMES last week. #the minute i turned 32 apparently i was like i'm in my mid-30s now the rest of this decade is NOT my business until i turn 38 #this post was supposed to be an uplifting reminder to myself to keep pushing forward and trying hard and to not let the rot consume me #but i think i just drove off a cliff like fully my god #i need listen to big freedia more she rules #fresno oilers.txt #another banner day in the tags with kasper moregraceful

[seekingthestars]

me, yesterday: i got some projects done so i am finally starting to feel a little less overwhelmed at work!

work, today: gives me 5 new projects in the span of 8 hours

me: well nevermind 🫠🫠🫠🫠

#personal #my manager and my boss know and understand that we're slammed and have been slammed since january #and they're trying #but everyone thinks their shit is important so we keep getting request after request #i swore i was gonna take a day off in march bc i've been feeling so stressed and overwhelmed and burnt out #DIDN'T DO IT. TOO BUSY. #friday is a holiday and i've been holding out for that for two months #so i finally gave in and asked my manager if i could take monday off too #bc i thought i had stuff under control #aaaand then i get like 7 new things all due first week of april 🫠😭 #and my brother said we could go visit them on saturday so my parents are going and i looked at them last night and i said i wasn't #no room for debate just that i was not going to go drive 3+ hrs and sit around my brother's house all day #when i just saw them #bc i am so exhausted at my very core and i have been holding out for a peaceful 3 (now 4) day weekend for months #and i cannot #i just can't #i always bend and break to do what everyone else wants me to do or what i think they want me to do #and this time i just can't

[cheekblush]

i was honored as the best student from my class at yesterday's graduation and today exo dropped a new album truly the best graduation gift i could possibly ask for <3

#i'm so happy 🥰 #i've been dancing in my room the whole day already listening to exo's album <3 #i have 3 weeks of vacation now so i can finally have some downtime after all this studying #going on a trip with a beloved friend in a few days 💗 #i'll be working 40 hours a week soon so i gotta make the most of these 3 weeks off #i had so much fun at my graduation i felt beautiful and i really didn't expect to be the best of my class i was so shocked #my friend took so many great pictures of me i'm contemplating on sharing some on here but i'm not sure i'm comfortable with that #i got a 40€ amazon gift card for being an honor student so now i can finally buy some things from my wishlist 🥰 #☁️

[queerstudiesnatural]

everything is pissing me offffff

#my friend was supposed to pick up a table that i have that i've been wanting to get rid of for weeks #and she said she wanted it so i didn't throw it out or sell it #it's been sitting in the middle of my room for weeks and i basically can't take a step without bumping into it #there are shelves now where it used to be so i can't put it back #i need to get rid of it i hate this table so much #and after weeks of me holding it for her she was supposed to pick it up today #and she just sent me a message saying there's no room in her truck so she can't take it today and she'll come back in a week or two for it #and i'm just #UGH. no. #like i'm in such a bad mood i may start crying over this table #i hate it i hate it i hate it #and it's so typical of my friend #she always does things like this. just assumes i'm gonna be fine with doing things according to her schedule or her mood swings #im so tired of always putting myself second #so fuck this table #i told her if she's not picking it up today i'm getting rid of it #it kinda feels good to say no to someone for a change #i should say no more often #rain.stuff

[siena-sevenwits]

:-)

#I've spent the past week organizing in the play's wake - sorting and laundering huge numbers of costumes #some to return to those they belong to and some to come home to my costume storage room which had become chaotic over the last few #months #so a complete spring cleaning for the storage room became part of my task list too. Now the play's been over for a week #and the emails are starting to come in from admin about next year. As some of you know I did a lot of discernment this semester #about what next year should look like and I have decided a mix of continuity is best. I won't be working for my 'main' schoolboard anymore #but I will continue to teach and direct for the one program in the city (the one I did the play for) and possibly with a new home school #enrichment program that may go ahead this year if there are sufficient numbers. Otherwise I am going to spend a semester #tutoring and running workshops f I can get it off the ground. Then we'll see. #Anyway - admin wants me to get new syllabi in to them within a month's time so my thoughts are all in that direction! #I get to teach 19th/20th century Canadian history to the middle schoolers and Late Antique/Medieval Church History to the high schoolers! #Also direct another play and do a humanities course centred around an epic in the spring (the last couple of years we've done Iliad and #Odyssey - they want Aeneid this year but I am trying to talk them into another option. The Aeneid is valuable but I am not sure it's the #time or place with this group of students. The result of all this is that I am spending far too much time doing Internet research for ideas #and then taking breaks on tumblr - which isn't good for my eyes or mental health. What with the play and end of term #I fear I've been out of the reading habit. I'm still hyperfixating on the Book of Romans so there's that at least #but I lost the novel I was in the middle of and am not feeling so motivating with out books. It's a proper reading slump! I need a kickstar #of sorts. Feel free to yell at me that I should pick up a book!

[confinesofmy]

me and my cousin i'm barely on speaking terms with (but in a relatively casual way) repotted her deceased grandmother's pothos today. this was our first time actually properly repotting it bc last summer it was in such a fragile state and we were so scared to hurt it that we just lifted it out of its pot and placed it in a bigger one but this go round we basically dismantled it entirely. we got eight discrete plants and placed it into four different pots!! in nine months it went from the edge of death to that many plants and like ninety leaves altogether. so if you're bad with plants but still wanna fool with them, i guess you should get a pothos.

#neither of us are corny enough to say it or interested in tearjerker moments but i think we both felt the presence of her grandmother HEAVY #this was the only potted plant of hers still living since she died back in 16 & it was. god. it was no longer variegated from lack of light #it actually had more leaves than i remembered. it had like 20. but for every leaf there were 4 places there should've been and wasn't. #water that touched the soil came back yellow which i've never researched to see what the cause is #but i associate it with like. bogs. and stagnation #like if it was still in that dark corner of my other cousin's living room it fr might be dead now #but in nine months thanks to my other cousin asking for help and thanks to us repotting it and taking our turns with it #it has more than quadrupled in size and is variegated af #i don't know what we'll do in like six months when it wants to do it again... #i'm keeping mine somewhat contained tbh i don't even like pothos i just love it bc it's a piece of my aunt #and it is like objectively so fucking sweet that we've rehabbed it like that #adam yaps #like two weeks ago i asked my other cousin if she'd want a pot of it when we repotted and she once again emphasised #that she didn't want it or any cuttings off it leaving the family or being handed out willy nilly #and i once again tried to explain that it's a pothos. it wants to be split up and thrown all over. #that's a pothos' favourite thing #plus her mom probably gave an ungodly amount of people cuttings off it like come on now #but anyway maybe she'll understand now when she sees and fully comprehends that in 9mos we turned half a plant into 4 #at this rate we'll either be giving bits away or throwing bits away. those are the options we will eventually face. #because you can't just repot infinitely. eventually your whole house will be one massive pothos in a hundred pots.

[mocacheezy]

Having sensory issues that you haven't quite registered as proper, real and VALID issues yet can be real interesting. For example;

Me, overwhelmed and fuming with rage and anxiety: How can I fuckity fuck make this better?

*remembers that sunlight and seeing what's outside can make people feel less claustrophobic ergo lowering anxiety*

*forgets that bright lights and colors are a sensory FUCK NO when overwhelmed*

*partially opens the window shutters*

*closes the window shutters*

#i have never been more grateful to not be a smoker because I have been pacing up and down the room and FUMING #fuck apps and fuck technology AND FUCK CUSTOMS AND FUCK ALL OF THIS SHIET #AND ESPECIALLY!!! ESPECIALLY FUCK PEOPLE WHO THINK THEY CAN MAKE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT AND NOT FACE CONSEQUENCES!!!!!!!! #ever since I've been told that anger/rage can be a good source of energy if you sirect it right I've been trying to harness that #BITCH LETS FUCKING GO TIME TO WRITE FUCKING EMAILS WITH BREAKS OF SCREAMING AND TEETH GNASHING #FOLLOWED BY STABBING FABRIC AND HISSING #I AM FURY AND ANGER AND MOTHERFUCKING SPITE I AM NOT GONNA SEETHE QUIETLY AND NEATLY AND BE STILL #I GOT BONES TO SCRUB BITCHES LETS FUCKITY FUCK GO #moca grumbles #vent #sensory issues #my therapist will be hearing about this #I haven't had an appointment in a few weeks now and OH BOY OH BOY AM I GONNA HAVE SOME STRATEGIES FOR HER #WE ARE GONNA BE FOCUSING ON SHIET AND I'LL PROBS BE CALMER THEN #BUT. THAT IS. ABOUT A FUCKING THREE WEEKS AWAY. #SO I AM JUST GONNA LOG OFF FOR NOW AND SCREAM AS I WRITE THE STUPID SHIT THAT IS MAKING ME SHAKE WITH ANXIETY #FUCK IT ALL FOR FUCKS SAKE #and bless the golks who uploaded these gifs DAFFY MC FUCKER GETS IT #THAT FUCKING EPISODE WAS SHIET FOR HE AND I AM GONNA BE YELLING WABBIT SEASON @ SHIT

[worldssilliestserpent]

bruhh the world really hates me this week

#let's see what happened? what hell did I go through? #we were down 12 people this week on the team- so we had two 12-hour work days #my body hurts and my feet are blistered- and I was assigned to help my supervisor wrap up in equipment for the week #which I barely got training on #yesterday I accidentally tripped the emergency fire exit alarm in walmart cause my dumbass didn't watch where I was going #which caused me to have a meltdown which I was trying VERY hard to hold back and not sob my eyes out in front of my boss #My belt buckle broke while I was working today so I had to stop and shop for a new one #I tripped and ate shit while packing the equipment cases into my supervisor's hotel room last night #my leg gave out from under me when I tried to stand up after counting a shelf in grocery and I rolled my ankle #I got lost when my supervisor told me to take the equipment to the back room #I had to stop and ask two walmart employees where it was located- neither of them knew #I've been overstimulated since first break this morning #I got so many scratches on my arrms from counting pegs in apparel and those bitches are so sharp they'd make my therapist concerned #aaaand while wrapping up equipment there was a bike hung up on a shelf and I ran face-first into the handlebar and I bent my glasses frames #so now I gotta get those fixed #I'm quickly making my way to the top in competing for 'most directionally challenged' as my supervisor jokingly put it #I'M GONNA GO DOWN TO THE LOBBY TOMORROW MORNING AND MAKE MYSELF A WAFFLE FOR BREAKFAST #I DESERVE A TREAT

[kneworder]

literally how the fuck did i survive my sophmore year of college. i went out every weekend. i got HAMMERED EVERY WEEKEND. i know that's standard at some schools but now that i live off campus it's like a switch flipped and i'm suddenly like oh no i actually need to get some stuff done on this friday night. was so looking forward to going to hockey games again this year until i went to one and realized oh holy shit i did not enjoy these at all i just liked that it gave me an excuse to get so drunk i couldn't stop giggling with my besties and then go to another party afterwards. like no WONDER i was a wreck last spring i did maybe 40% of my readings and wasn't functional most saturdays. now i'm like oh no idk if i can afford an edibles+movie night in this weekend even though that's my new favorite activity 😔 and then i think back to asking in the middle of the dining hall PLEASE TELL ME WE HAVE SOMEWHERE TO GO DRINK THIS WEEKEND every single friday last year. my roommate and i joked a lot about 'alcoholism behavior' and it never got near that bad but like. in retrospect. it was a little bit of alcoholism behavior. like that was super not healthy and i don't know how the lowest grade i got that semester was an A- bc you would think i was failing my classes the way i talked and looked and acted 80% of the time.

#it's just wild bc i have been having a terrible academic week but it hit me that this horrible guilt and panic and anxiety #was how i was living pretty much every day of last spring. girl. how did you do that. #with shitloads of fireball and raspberry smirnoff apparently 🤪 #like i'm not a monk i still enjoy getting wasted every once and a while but lately i've been like i will NOT. get a hangover. i REFUSE. #so terrified of feeling shitty all saturday now it has put the fear of god into me #meanwhile me from last year once took my i wanna say my 9th drink of the night #and turned to my roommate and went 'OLIVIA IT DOESNT EVEN TASTE LIKE ALCOHOL ANYMORE' and immediately blacked out #it was in our room so like whatever but the idea of drinking that much now. LIKE GIRL YOU HAVE SHIT TO DO #and i'm still not doing enough!!! so how did i get through it then???? #absolute madness. i feel like i'm 80.