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ckret2 · 27 days
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All right here's the rundown re: how this affects editing my fic to be TBOB compliant, because after "SWEET, NEW LORE DROP" that's my biggest priority:
It would be a retcon, but I don't think it'd be too hard for me to edit in Ford guiltily thinking that he's lowkey suspected bill could return since last summer, I can tweak a few early chapters without too much difficulty. Maybe have him belatedly confess to Stan that he had a reason to be worried about this; have Stan go "yeah I figured you were worried after you did two hundred brain tests on me to see if Bill was still in my noggin." I don't think he'd confess to Fidds, but he's always kept Fidds partially in the dark about Bill so as not to "burden" him, I can work with that.
But MAN. For the last two weeks I've been posting chapters about Ford worrying that the tiny interdimensional rips are about to rip open again, if I'd known this a LITTLE bit sooner I could've incorporated Ford worrying about "IS IT THE FUCKING BOOK THAT DID IT."
Still, that's 100% something I can include on rewrites EASY, he ALREADY suspects that it's bill's fault the rips are opening, we can just tack on "maybe it's Bill and his book magically trying to reconnect." If he lets that slip to Bill, Bill can go "WAIT YOU SAW MY BOOK, WHAT DID YOU DO WITH IT" "threw it into the nightmare realm" "YOU WHAT!!!"
This plotline is just a PARADE of Bill angsting over his own death—I think yesterday's chapter makes that clear lmao—angsting over the loss of the tool that might've helped reversed his death just fits right in perfectly.
But I'm hesitant to make those edits until we see more of the book, in case even that much lore ends up changing when we learn more stuff.
So far, so good!! Easy edits!! Keep it up TBOB, let's go!!!
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Let's Just Rip Off This Band-Aid (Kliff Doll Repaint)
I still haven't finished adding the fringe to his scarf, but at this point, I don't think y'all will actually care that much. It's a personal project anyway, so I'll just finish it on my own time. Right now, I want to be released from the shackles of this project.
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Once again, my poor camera and lack of editing do him no favors (he's got a real bad case of jaundice in that first pic. I PROMISE he's not that yellow-orange IRL ;o;), but he is (mostly) done.
Well, he was (mostly) done like a week ago, but just yesterday I decided to redo a few things to try and "fix" what was really bothering me about him, so I really made recursive progress. That said, I do like him more now than I did a week ago, so I'm not mad about it.
A little backstory: Alongside Kun3h0, I've been working on him for the past month, so I've been pretty occupied with this project for a while. Now, I do wonder to myself why exactly I thought making this would be a good idea. All I can really say is that my impulsive tendencies drive me to do things against my better judgement.
But, I will still give y'all my documentation and thoughts on the process + more pictures.
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(I'll talk a little more about it later, but for those of you that aren't going to go through the long-ass readmore, the Neon J. mask is a reference to an old comic I drew.)
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(It's so old, I was still writing everything by hand~)
So, the "real" answer to "why" I made this is really as simple as "because I could." As I said in the Kun3h0 post, I've been wanting to repaint dolls for a long time, years even, so in the back of my mind, I'm always thinking of ways I could finally start one.
Well, recently I just finally put together the ideas and motivation I needed to start. And of course, that was with Kliff.
I don't remember *exactly* how I stumbled across everything, but I do recall looking at doll clothes online and stumbling across this trench coat (pictured with the other clothes for this project).
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(I took this pic mostly because I thought I was going to take pics of every major step of the process, but that didn't end up happening).
I thought it was pretty darn close to Kliff's coat, and I got the horrible idea that, "I could def make a Kliff doll to go with this coat as long as I can repaint it."
I feel like usually people would think the other way around, but that is basically the truth of this project: I didn't find clothes to fit the doll, I made the doll to fit into the clothes. Because for me, customizing the doll wasn't really the intimidating part: it's making the clothes. I don't know how to use a sewing machine, and currently lack the patience to learn (and due to some personal trauma that I don't really want to get into), but I can hand-sew, so starting any project that involves it requires me to be willing to set aside a lot of energy for me to do it, which I don't often have.
But, if I could find ways to cut down on the sewing, then I'd be more willing to start. And somehow, I was able to find just about everything I would need for a potential Kliff doll without having to sew anything. In the end, I only sewed together one thing, and it's the one thing that isn't actually finished: the scarf.
So, I blame the trench coat for the entirety of this project: if I'd never seen it, I would have never made a Kliff doll. In fact, I got the clothes before I even had the doll.
Since I was brainstorming this project, one of the most important parts is of course the base doll, which was tricky. Male doll repaints are fairly uncommon, especially of older men, so there weren't a lot of resources or places to get inspiration for this project.
From what I found, most male (fashion) dolls were very youthful, and the ones that weren't usually took heavy modifications to achieve, which was out of the question. Kliff was supposed to be an "easy" project, so on top of not wanting to sew any clothes for him, I also didn't want to have to alter the doll that much to make it look like him. This was a lot to ask for without putting in any personal work, but in a way, this goal was supposed to keep me from actually starting this project: really this whole thing was supposed to just live in my head as a fantasy as most things do, but then I just stumbled into the right set of things, so I couldn't stop myself from going through with it.
The doll I landed on was a BTS Mattel doll. Now I've said before that I know basically nothing about BTS, and that is still true, but that's beside the point. In my research for finding a suitable doll to work with, I found out that a popular base were these BTS dolls. At first, I wasn't into it because I was still running into the "youthful face" problem that I was with other brands: most of them had pillowy lips and nice soft faces, but I did eventually find one that I thought was close enough: J-Hope.
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(It's not the worst match up.)
I don't have pics of my doll before I started working on him, but it was pretty close to the stock photo. He has much thinner lips than the others, and a taller, more angular head shape that I thought would work best for Kliff. I did worry a bit that the nose wasn't "strong" enough to really be Kliff (and IMO, it wasn't XP), but it was the closest I found yet, so I decided to bite the bullet and get one, and if I had one, that meant I needed to start gathering everything I would need for this project.
So, no backing out now.
Now, actually acquiring this doll was a whole other song and dance, but here's the part that's important for how the process went:
Due to a miscommunication with the seller I eventually got him from, there was a delay with shipping, so I didn't actually get him until weeks after "officially" starting this project. In the meantime, the clothes and things for Kun3h0 (who I started as an impulse project within the impulse project) had already been gathered.
The original plan was that I was going to work on and subsequently post about Kliff first since he was a comparatively simpler project. All the things I was avoiding for Kliff: sewing clothes and making modifications to the doll, were all going to be incorporated into Kun3h0, so she was theorhetically going to take longer and be posted later, thus telling a small story of "starting simple, ending complex." But since I didn't have his doll, but didn't want to delay working on Kun3h0 just to wait on him, I started on her and repainting his clothes anyway.
So, I don't have any pics of the doll or his clothes from when I was working on them, unlike the sparse ones I had for Kun3h0, I only have pics from after he was finished.
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But I'll still tell y'all what I can to at least preserve the story.
For starters, repainting this coat was probably the most time-consuming part of this process.
I really thought that it would take one or two days maximum to turn this coat bright yellow, but I think it actually took over a week. And I really should have known; the coat was a medium tone, and I know that yellow takes a while to build up on anything that isn't light. I lost count at some point, but I swear that thing has over 20 coats of paint on it. Mind you, the first 10 or so coats were watered down with the textile medium, which also contributed to how long it was taking for the coat to take color, but at some point I just got so frustrated that I stopped mixing in the medium and painting directly onto the coat to get the color to layer faster. This is a huge no-no for painting acrylics onto fabric, lest the paint crack from creasing the fabric, but I just couldn't be bothered anymore. I needed this thing to be dandelion yellow NOW or I was gonna lose it.
There were consequences for taking that shortcut, such as the paint cracking in high motion areas and the coat getting stiff, but it's not terrible. In the end, I accepted the trade-offs or else I might still be painting the coat. Perhaps one day I'll reverse engineer the pattern for the coat and make him a new one, but I wouldn't count on it. In retrospect, I wonder if I would have had an easier time if I had thought to bleach the coat first?
As you might notice, I contoured/shaded part of the coat in orange. That's something that I actually *just* added yesterday and added another couple of hours to the work time. It was just bothering me that the doll was essentially a giant slab of yellow, and was part of the reason I didn't like it very much. But I got inspired by this repaint to try contouring the coat to give it more depth.
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(I also used this person's videos to modify the hands. He has one deidcated to just reshaping the BTS hands.)
In the end, I'm pretty happy with the results.
The rest of the clothes weren't as difficult to deal with.
The pants took the paint a lot better, likely due to being dark paint on a light surface. Since I used less paint, it's not as stiff as the coat and still go on very easily. Though, they are VERY high waisted, and I'm not sure if that's normal XP
The shoes are also painted (and slightly modified), though I had to paint them twice because the first time, the paint got stretched off when I tried to put them on the doll's feet: the shoes were just *slightly* too small for the feet of the doll, so they really get stretched to fit his feet, and his heels don't actually go in all the way XP.
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He's still capable of standing on his own, but I try not to remove the shoes, so I can avoid having them crack again.
In my "initial clothes" pic, I put down a different shirt than the one he's wearing. The original plan was to repaint the shirt black, but my work space is very limited, so I couldn't really repaint three pieces of clothes at once without significantly risking that I would stain other things. In the end, after getting scarred by how long it was taking for the coat to take color, I decided to just give him one of the black shirts that came with the coat. This does make him somewhat inaccurate since the current shirt has flowers/plants on it, but I'm gonna say that they make up for the lack of flowers on his scarf. Maybe someday I'll make him a new shirt from an old sock or something, but for now, I don't think it's a bad look.
Other clothing of note is the scarf, but since it's not technically finished I didn't take any close pics of it. It's actually made of an old headband of mine that I just cut and painted to look like his scarf.
Originally, I had actually glued on ribbon to it for the stripes, which took a couple days for the drying, but because I couldn't flatten out the scarf to easily glue the ribbon, it turned into a mess and bulked it out too much: since the scale of the doll is already small, I really needed to keep the fabrics thin. This was especially important for the scarf since it was going to wrap around his neck: if it were any thicker, it was going to practically eat up his face, which it still does, just less so.
Speaking of face...
When I finally got the doll in the mail, I started working on him right away, so I don't have any "before" pics of the doll.
After I did the usual "wiping off the face and pulling out his hair," I started with repainting the entire body and head.
Despite Kliff being ambigously "WHITE 🫵," Kliff isn't as pale as the original doll. I'd say even the stock picture I posted above has more warmth than the actual doll did. So, I got the base to be "coral" all over, dusted him in light orange chalk pastels for contouring, and most of his details are outlined in shades of burgandy. I didn't take any nude pics of this doll, but he is countoured all over his body and you can rest easy knowing I gave him some nips XP. But maybe someday I'll show y'all doll!Kliff's washboard abs XP.
TBH, I did want to detail some tattoos and some body hair too, but I just didn't trust myself to do either of those well with the tools I have (my brushes aren't thin enough, and my hand not steady enough for those kind of intricate details). Maybe someday I'll at least get his tattoos in (and after I've actually designed them XP), but we'll see. I don't plan on having the doll in short sleeved clothes very often, so details like that are the least of my concerns.
TBH, I was pretty proud of how the face paint originally went on. I really took my time to make sure it went down flat. It really was beautifully smooth~
But disaster struck.
I had painted the head while it was still separated from the body, and when it finally came time to reunite them, the paint on the head cracked and peeled when I shoved it back on. And, foolish fool that I am, instead of accepting my losses and starting over from a perfectly clean head, I just peeled the lose ends and repainted the exposed parts, which of course made the paint uneven. I somewhat justified this with the idea that most of it would be covered by other details, but in retrospect, I really should have just started over properly.
But, after that ordeal was over with, it was time to actually work on the face.
I can't clearly remember if I worked on Kun3h0 or Kliff's face first. I think I worked on them simultaneously because it took me a LONG time to actually get the courage to work on Kun3h0's face.
I thought I did a decent job on Kun3h0 since I really only had the 1 eye to repaint (the hidden eye is painted, but it's basically just a void with no details), and it was a bigger "canvas", so it was easier to paint. Besides having 2 eyes that I would need to make nearly identical, they were also a lot smaller, so it took a lot longer to paint them in a way that satisfied me (and since it's not easy to "redo" acrylic paint, his eyes lost a lot of smoothness too).
Again, I don't have any "before" pics, so it won't be easy for me to convey my troubles about it, but I do want to say that I think Kliff with a closed mouth is very cursed.
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He just looks like he's itching to say something heinous and that is no different for the doll.
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It was so difficult for me both match his expression on a face that wasn't *completely* his and still look like him. Although I chose this doll because he most resembled Kliff, he was never gonna be a perfect likeness of him, but despite knowing this, it still bothered me that the face was still just very "young" looking.
Granted, I don't think the original Kliff looks *that* old either (if I didn't know any better, I would assume he was in his 30s, not his 50s, especially compared to other characters around the same age), but still not as *smooth* as the doll is (even with my paint mishaps).
If you can believe it, the face actually used be worse. I don't have pics of it, but like the coat, I actually repainted his face yesterday to again try and fix what was making me dislike it before. I think the problem is that I didn't outline the eyes as much as the final one (like, I don't think I lined his undereye at all), so he was lacking depth. The mouth was also a little more off. Instead of being like "<--->" it was more like "|-|"
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(A rough illustration of what I'm trying to describe.)
So, while it's still not perfect, I do like him more today than I did a week ago.
I think the only things left to talk about are his accessories, starting with his wig:
I'm not actually a big fan of the color. When I started this project, I wanted to try and make him as accurate as possible, and the original Kliff design has a very "cherry jolly rancher" hair color.
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However, how I draw him and how he appears in Encore Edition gives his hair a more red-orange tone which isn't as intense. In the end, I opted for accuracy towards his first design since that's the one I was technically most familiar with and wanted to replicate, but in retrospect, I should have realized that I was never gonna be able to seperate my personal quirks from this personal project, so I should have gone with a color that was more accurate to how I interpret him. (I dunno if I would have gone as far as to give him triangular eyes, but one of my biggest takeaways from this project has been that I should have just allowed this to be "my take" on the character instead of trying to be "accurate," meeting in the middle, and satisfying neither condition.)
I don't think I really got across how much I HATED brushing out yarn for the wigs when I posted Kun3h0. It was just such a tedidus process, from brushing it out, to straightening it, to gluing it down. It was such a mess. I'm still finding loose wisps of yarn hair floating around my home since I made them.
Since I had more than had my fill from making Kun3h0's wig, I once again started taking shortcuts when it came to Kliff: I really should have made more wefts for him. I figured since his hair was (compartively) shorter, that I wouldn't need to make as many, but in the end his wig turned out both too thin and too thick.
Since his hair is so messy, I didn't follow any kind of guide for his hair like I did Kun3h0. I basically just glued around the perimeter of the cap, horizontally on the inside, and made sure it would fold over in the front.
Part of the problem is that I made the wefts too thick: instead of just gluing down what could actually touch the surface of the work area, I wound up gluing layers on top of each other, so the wefts would be like a mm thick when they should have been less than half of that. So, I barely got enough coverage for the scalp, and the parts that I did get down are very thick. I think it makes his head look bigger than it should which kinda adds to the uncanniness of him.
I did try to style it as close to canon as possible, but there are some things that just aren't (easily) possible in certain mediums, and Kliff's wild hair is one of them.
In retrospect, I probably should have just sculpted his hair with clay or something: it probably would have been more accurate, but I don't have much confidence in my sculpting ability, and again, I didn't want to modify the doll that much, so I stuck with the yarn.
I might suck it up and try and make him a new wig, I still have a LOT of red yarn left over, so maybe I can make him some new styles too. But the tedium of going through with it makes it very unlikely that I'll follow through~
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(The wig from other angles.)
Since the beard is made from the same yarn, I'll lightly talk about that. There aren't too many resources about bearded dolls, but I've seen people root it, glue it, and even just paint it if they weren't supposed to be thick. In the end I used this repaint for reference (suggestive content warning) and glued it on.
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The scarf covers most of it, but I think it turned out okay. I need to add just a *little* more to his left cheek, but otherwise I feel like I was successful.
Next, it's usually hidden due to all the crap that's on his head, but I did give him an earring.
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I didn't think about it until way too late in the process, and I tried to poke a hole through his ear so he could actually wear it. However, when I tried to do so, I almost ruined his head paint a second time. Saying, "fuck that," I decided to just glue it on.
If I had been more brave with modifying this doll, I might have just resculpted his ears entirely, because, being based on a real life human being, the doll's ears don't flare out that much, so they're easily covered by other things.
His glasses are just a piece of painted plastic that hold to his face using some plastic cord. They fit well while his wig is off, but putting them on with everything else is a goddamn nightmare.
Since his ears are so small, and his hair is so short, there's nothing for the glasses to "grab" onto without the cord, but the cord is too short to fit around the wig once it's on, but I can't make the cord longer to sit over the wig, because the glasses need to go over the headband, and it's a pain in the ass trying to layer everything like that.
So, I have to put the glasses in place first, TAPE the cord to his scalp so they don't move, put on the wig, then put on the headband. It's really such a hassle, but I don't think I can truly convey the annoyance of having to do it all without showing you. So, unless I absolutely have to, I'm never taking any of those things off him again.
I think the last things are the headband, mask, and tablet.
The headband is just a spare scrunchy that I have. I don't have one in the *exact* same color as the real one, so I went with the closest one I had, which was this teal color.
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I didn't feel comfortable repainting one since it's essentially an elastic band, I don't think the paint, even with the textitle medium, would be able to hold up to all the stretching I have to do to even get it on his head.
If I happen to find a white one somewhere in my stash, then I might try dyeing it using water and acrylic paints to see if I can get it green, but for now, I think this works. A little thick, but it works.
The tablet is just a piece of foam painted with paint markers and the mask is a piece of cardboard. I wasn't planning on really recreating any scenes with this doll, but since I remembered that comic, and thought it would be easy enough to make, I went ahead and made it as an in-joke to myself.
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Honestly, I think it's the most charming piece of the entire ensemble. Plus, he can wear it without me having undo/redo any of his other head accessories, so it's easy to make him wear it whenever.
My final comments about the doll itself are that he's fucking huge. I should have taken a pic of him next to Kun3h0, but he is too tall to even fit on my display shelf without sitting.
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(Please ignore any mess you might see in the reflection. This is just one of the only flat pieces of furniture he can stand on without me standing on something to take a pic.)
Despite my interests, I don't actually collect dolls (I'm more into figures and plushies), so I wasn't expecting him to be so big. In fact, Kun3h0, who would be considered a small to medium doll in collector's spaces, was also bigger than I thought she'd be, so you can imagine my surprise when I got my hands on him.
So... I don't really know where I can put him. He obviously can't live in front of my TV, but beyond being too big for my shelf, he also doesn't fit in with any of my other collectibles. And I'll be honest, the contrast of him "clearly not belonging" among my more "kawaii" items was a motivator in starting this project, I live for the gap moe after all, but in practice he really just sticks out like a sore thumb. (This is also why his first pics are in a slightly different location without many props. I just couldn't put together anything from my collection or find a spot among my things to take a good thematic pic with. The magazines/CDs he's with are from my dad's collection.)
I do have space at higher elevations in my room, but it's kinda off putting to have him staring down my room, looking like he's plotting something (my space is too small to ignore it). So I dunno what I'm gonna do with him. I did have plans to make him some... cuter outfits so he wouldn't stick out as much, but that requires sewing, and I'm kinda worn out from this project.
In conclusion, despite my troubles with this project, I'm not entirely displeased with the results. At the very least, it was an experience, and one that I might even be willing to do a third time 👀...?
But for now, I'd like to rest and maybe go back to drawing again. I feel like I haven't drawn anything "real" for a while now. We're inching closer and closer to the next follower milestone (4 digit number BA-BY!), so I'd like to at least get back to being good enough to sketch some stuff for y'all soon~
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Cowboy Up - Pt.6
A/n: It's here y'all! After this part we'll be getting into the show and I can't wait to start incorporating my own character into the episodes!
I need your input! I'm currently going through the show episode by episode to pull out what I want to use for this fic and I've reached ep5 when Travis first turns up and I am seriously undecided about his relationship with the reader. It is more than likely that they would have interacted on the circuit but I'm split between him having a flirty relationship or a older-brother-protective vibe. Let me know your thoughts!
Pairing: Ryan (Yellowstone) x Dutton!reader
WC: 1649
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That summer was one of the hottest y/n could ever recall having in Montana.  Unfortunately hot weather didn’t negate the fact that there was always work to do on the ranch.  Yesterday one of the freshly backed colts had thrown a fit in the corral resulting in kicking the fence hard enough to break it.  So the job for the day was to put a new log into the fence so they could use the corral again.
Y/n had abandoned jeans in favour of shorts out in the sun, a tank top and she had opted to swap her cowboy hat for the cap Kayce had given her for her birthday despite having claimed she’d never wear it around the wranglers.  Lloyd was holding the log up whilst she worked to secure it to the post.
Around the corral the other hands were doing their own work and a small group of them were hiding from the sun in the shade of the barn.  They were mostly busy watching y/n do her own work, more specifically how she looked in her shorts.
“God damn that girl has an ass,” one of them commented.
Another one agreed, “you just know that she’d give you a good time.”
Colby and Ryan were a little way off cleaning tack getting more annoyed at every comment the men were making.  Ryan was getting more frustrated by what they were saying and how oblivious she was to how they were treating her.  His friend was less concerned about that and more occupied trying to stop the hand from doing something he would regret.
Rip emerged from the barn to say something to them when Ryan snapped at them, “will you shut the fuck up?  It’s disgusting to hear you talk about her like that.  She’s your boss’ daughter for fuck sake have some damn respect.  Someone’ll rip your tongues out for saying that next time.” 
Y/n overheard his shouting from across the corral and couldn’t help but smile to herself at his defence of her.  Ever since Rip had threatened him (and the rest of the bunkhouse but they clearly hadn’t taken those threats to heart) after finding her asleep in Ryan’s bunk years ago, he’d been very careful with his interactions with the younger woman.  They’d remained close friends, and he’d been instrumental in her integration with the wranglers, but it had never gone further than that despite what both of them not-so-secretly wanted to happen.
Lloyd looked at the smile on her face and rolled his eyes, “y’all have been pining after each other for years.  When will it end?”
“If I had a say in it it would’ve been over before anyone noticed but if he has it his way it seems like never,” y/n sighed, “I think Rip’s threat from forever ago ruined it.”
He watched Ryan whose eyes were on her, “might go insane if I have to watch y’all making eyes at each other for much longer.  You and I can both handle Rip if needs be.”
She laughed at the idea of someone ‘handling’ Rip.  The only people she believed were able to handle the foreman were her father and Beth, no matter how poorly her sister treated the man.  In reality, Rip had a soft spot for the youngest Dutton and Lloyd was the only wrangler on the ranch that would stand a chance arguing against Rip.  He left her to go and deal with something else, leaving Colby to help with the other side of the fence.
“Swear he woulda murdered them if it had gone on much longer,” her friend joked, “practically fire in his eyes when he saw how they were looking at you.”
Y/n shook her head, “I’ve been trying to get him to make a move since I was 18, Colby.  I don’t think he’s gonna start now.”
“I love both of you but I will help Lloyd lock you in the tack room if this goes on any longer.  Feel sorry for the poor bastard watching this for years.  I’m done with it after a few months,” Colby laughed, “just make a move for everyone’s benefit.”
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That evening the temperature had cooled down from the scorcher of the afternoon but it was still uncomfortable, hot enough that y/n was still wearing shorts.  Most of the hands were sitting around the table playing cards but she had chosen to sit the game out in favour of reading the book she’d been waiting weeks for.  Every once in a while some of the conversation would break through her reading bubble and y/n would laugh at the insults that got thrown around half-heartedly.
After a little while the focus of their conversation moved away from their game of poker to their romance lives, or more accurately their struggles with romance being wranglers.  They were complaining about how difficult it was with their work schedules to meet girls.  Y/n shook her head slightly at their trivial problems.
“Reckon we’d all be better off if Dutton over there gave a piece of ass up,” a hand commented nonchalantly.  
As soon as the words had come out of his mouth, Ryan was out of his chair as was Colby to stop his friend doing something.  Colby grabbed his shoulder and arm, keeping him firmly away from the other hand.
“Hit a nerve have I?  Thought she was supposed to be off limits to the bunkhouse?  Just you getting at or you sharing it with your friend?  Care to let us join in on-”
Before he was able to finish his sentence, Lloyd had punched him, “you don’t speak about her like that, ever.  Anyone thinks that’s okay and there’s more than just me to answer for.  Rip will know about this.”
The tension in the room was broken by the sound of the door slamming shut and they looked up to see that y/n was no longer sitting on the sofa.
Lloyd looked over at Ryan, “I think you best follow her.  Now or never, son.”
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Ryan exited the bunkhouse and saw her sat on the corral fence in the fading light, cigarette smoke drifting into the sky.  He headed across the drive to join her and leant against the fence beside her, letting her finish the cigarette before starting the conversation.  When she was done, y/n threw the stub into the sand and watched silently as it smoked on the ground.  Her eyes remained fixed on the mountains as if she could pretend he wasn’t there if she didn’t look at him despite the fact his arm was practically touching her thigh.
“You gonna say anything?” She asked.
Ryan sighed, “was kinda waiting for you to start the conversation this time, sweetheart.”
“I don’t know what you expect me to say.  I really don’t need you jumping to protect me the moment one of them says something about me.  Can’t be a ranch hand and not expect someone to say something about it.  I’m a big girl.  Plus Rip has it handled, something you haven’t seemed to forget,” y/n added bitterly.
“You can’t seriously expect me to just sit there and let them say that shit about you y/n?  No one should say that,” he argued.
Y/n looked at him, “that’s exactly what I expect.  You got no right to be that overprotective with the people we fuckin’ work with when you’re just as bad as them sitting staring at me like that.”
“The fuck are you tryna say,” Ryan growled.
She sighed and turned around, getting off the fence to move away from him.  Y/n turned away to take another cigarette from her pocket to avoid answering his question.  He watched her for a moment as she took a long inhale before turning back to look at him.
“It’s all good and well you tryna fight anyone who has something to say about me but we both know you ain’t gonna do anything about it except just sit there and stare because you’re fuckin afraid!  I’m so over it Ryan either make the move I’ve been waiting for you to make for 10 years or stop acting like you get a say in my life,” she ranted at him.
Ryan took her in in front of him, cigarette between her lips and frustration in her eyes before making his decision.  Within one step he was in front of her, taking a moment to see if she would stop him before taking the cigarette out of her mouth and putting it out under his boot.  Y/n inhaled sharply when he placed his hands gently on her hips, using them to walk her backwards until her back hit the barn wall.  
Ryan kept one hand on her hip and moved the other to her cheek, “last chance to change your mind, sweetheart.”
“Been waiting for you since I was 18 don’t make me wait any longer,” she whispered into the space between them.
With no more hesitation he kissed her.  Y/n responded by fisting her hands in the front of his shirt.  After a moment, he pulled away and rested his forehead against her.  Y/n allowed her eyes to fall shut as she reveled in the moment she’d been imagining for so long.
Ryan kissed her again, “do I live up to expectations sweetheart?”
“Better than I could have hoped,” y/n smiled, “we’re gonna have to be careful though.  I reckon I can handle Rip if I need to but if dad finds out he won’t hesitate to fire you and I won’t let you leave here.”
He nodded, “I’ll follow your lead.  Colby won’t say anything and Lloyd’ll just be happy that he no longer has to deal with me staring at you longingly.”
“Gonna be fun sneaking round.  Never got to do it in high school,” she teased.
Ryan laughed, “you’ll be worth it sweetheart.”
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bropunzeling · 3 months
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Since you say you love to chatter, I hope you don't mind being asked a few questions :)
what's a scene/detail/piece of dialogue etc that you really wanted to include in [fic of your choice], but you couldn't find room for? here's your chance!
if you had to write an epilogue (or sequel!) to any of your fics (that you are NOT currently planning on writing an epilogue for), which would it be and what would happen?
for the ships you're currently writing about (and have written for in general), is there usually one character you like more than the other? (will you tell us who? has it ever changed?)
what's a ship/fic idea you want to read about but don't want to write yourself? maybe somebody will be inspired!
share anything you'd like about a wip!
aw thank you anon! especially for the opportunity to procrastinate on working on my current wip :) answers under the cut:
some dialogue that i ultimately cut from the spain scene in marriage bets where they were having tapas (originally there was going to be ALL this flirting over the tapas and then it went on too long so i got straight to the questions):
"You're not going to eat that?" "Hey, I tried it." "You're so American." "It's the texture--" "Such a wimp." "I'm sure plenty of people aren't into eating octopus." "Uh-huh."
if i had to write an epilogue or sequel:
oh gosh. i think a lot about the one where marriage bets matthew and leon get married for real for real, with suits and their families present and everything. it WOULD involve matthew finally telling brady that he was not, in fact, the first tkachuk to get married. the other one i think about is, of course, rat baby in a cup. she reigns eternal.
is there a character in a ship that i like more than the other?
i think it's hard for me to enjoy a ship where i don't actually like one side of it! that said, there are definitely characters where i find it much easier to get into their headspace than others. i've probably said this before, but leon is such a straight line thinker and so easy for me to get that for a long time it was hard for me to try and write anything from matthew pov because his is a little more twisty-turny. they're both equally complex! but it requires different skills to get the effect i want, which is normally the pov character not having a clue what the other one is thinking. it's a lot easier to have leon misreading matthew than the other way around. except now of course i've written a lot from matthew pov so finding my way back to leon pov has been a challenge.
a ship/fic i want to read but don't want to write:
god what DON'T i want to read. lmao. i would love for someone to write a good achy jamie/trevor post-trade fic. i would love for someone to write a long slow friends-to-lovers matthew/sasha fic! i would REALLY love a brady/quinn future fic. especially if it features divorced brady. i feel like future fic especially is a trope/concept that i just feel less comfortable writing so whenever someone else writes it i eat it up with a spoon :)
share anything you like about a wip:
well the wip is going SO SLOW and is VERY HARD for me because im challenging myself by writing a slow burn and cant rely on sex scenes to do the chemistry work for me this time rip rip. but here is a wee snippet:
“Draisaitl. Tkachuk,” Coach says, gesturing at the starting line.
Leon gets ready, bracing his stick over his thighs. He’s already raced Jordan and Gourde—beat Jordan, beat Gourde—but he hasn’t had to go against Tkachuk yet. Hasn’t had to do much of anything with Tkachuk yet. Yesterday they were at the other end of the line from each other, or opposite sides of the rink. It had lulled Leon into a false sense of security.
Now, though, Tkachuk is watching him with that way that he has, like—
One time, while making kebabs, Leon got a splinter from the bamboo skewer under his nail. It hurt like a bitch, had him cursing for five minutes until Jenna told him to stop squirming and tweezed it out. The splinter had been miniscule, almost impossible to see, and Leon had wondered how something so tiny could be so aggravating and painful, would make him do anything just to get it to stop.
That’s how it feels when Tkachuk looks at him. How it’s always felt. Like his gaze is digging in under Leon’s skin, until Leon’s entire body is red and inflamed. It makes Leon want to scratch at his shoulders, his chest, until he can finally tear Tkachuk out.
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7grandmel · 3 months
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Todays rip: 13/01/2024
RNR (Rip No Riffs)
Season 1 No Album Release (Read More) DND (Do Not Destroy) - No More Heroes
Ripped by Triple-Q
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Alright, uh, WHEW - I hope everyone's had a great day in a post-Christmas Comeback Crisis Episode 11 world!! I've been absolutely giddy with excitement and joy ever since I watched it and I'm so glad that the reception has been so universally positive all around. I'm trying to wind down from all of it, and figured I might as well push a rip I had down the pipeline to cover up earlier in the schedule. And hey - RNR (Rip No Riffs) is also somewhat Christmas Comeback Crisis-related! If you haven't heard the rip on its own, you've DEFINITELY heard it within that series.
For those out of the loop, RNR (Rip No Riffs) is used as the theme to the Rapper's Union HQ in the CCC, the hub of the story's chill resistance faction fighting against The Voice. Yesterday with 9​来​4s I wrote a fair bit about how excellent a job dante and c.o. have done in giving the series a very distinct soundscape, but the thing is - that doesn't just apply to composing new songs for the series. Plenty of rips from the channel's life have been used for music in the series without being explicitly made with that purpose, and RNR (Rip No Riffs) is probably the most widely recognized of these tracks?
I think it's an excellent choice for a lot of reasons, quality aside, because of just how well it slots into the series' tone and feel. The original DND (Do Not Destroy) is the laid-back lounge theme of the original No More Heroes, playing whenever Travis Touchdown is at home rather than slaughtering people en masse outside - it's a chill calm before the storm, so to speak. At a first inattentive listen, you may not even notice that RNR (Rip No Riffs) is edited at all, as its edits aren't exactly explicitly out of tune or in contrast to the original tune. As the track's chill vibe plays out, elements from All-Star are inserted into the backing, eventually being replaced with the guitar from Linkin Park's In The End - a song typically associated with pent-up anger, frustration, rage, hatred, the works. Yet the rip builds it all up so subtly, it never interrupts the chill lounge beat that laid the foundation for the original track, and so this change in emotion never truly registers as sounding out of place or wrong.
And to me, that's what makes it such a perfect fit for the Rappers' Union's theme - it's a home where these people relax, where they talk to one another and lounge, yet its also the place where all their bubbling rage against the oppression they face is being stored - the last remaining home to all of these damaged souls. The Christmas Comeback Crisis, for as silly as its premise is, and for as many lighthearted moments that it does have, is still fundamentally a story about strife and conflict, about a bubbling state of disarray that's slowly exploding into full-on warfare. RNR (Rip No Riffs) feels like the perfect theme to embody all of those emotions, a breezy jam playing in the background to a downtrot apartment space that slowly bubbles to become something far more serious, with far more grit and rage.
I certainly don't believe this sort of vibe was what Triple-Q had in mind with the original upload - at the end of the day, it's just a silly, classic Season 1 rip, changing just enough in a familiar song to sound different while still sounding recognizably like the original. Yet I find it so fascinating that the rip still stands on its own two feet, whilst adding some genuine gravitas and mood to the series it was eventually grafted on to - althewhile being such a relatively-obscure pick for a rip to use, that it didn't feel played out whatsoever when it showed up again.
A lot of the stuff I've covered for Season 1 on this blog has been of a sort of "higher" status, be it all-time classics like Live and Ooooooooooooooh and Pikmin Park, the emotional highs of Epic Flintstones and Stone Halation, or just generally ones tied to more well-remembered passion projects like Everyday Goodbyes (SiIvaGunner Band Cover). And in comparison, rips like RNR (Rip No Riffs) may end up feeling kind of...normal, kind of basic and simple in their edits. Yet that simplicity has never been a bad thing, and its never been anything holding rips down from striking pure gold, and there's something just so sweet about knowing that any rip, of any kind, any popularity, can eventually get this kind of association, this kind of retroactive use and meaning, that ends up drawing so many more associations and thoughts to it than were originally intended.
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Trigger warning: depression
4 days. That's how long my brand new computer managed to make it in between blue screens. And here's the thing that has taken the hope from me: the updates worked. Dell issued a new BIOS, Nvidia and Intel new graphics drivers and everything steadied out for 4 lovely days.
Until Windows 11 covertly overrode the pause I have on updates and rolled the Intel driver back to the broken one. Of course it crashed. I cannot prevent Windows from doing this. It did it stealthily, there's no record in the Windows Update history that it did it, nor that it took half a dozen updates yesterday. But the Windows Reliability Monitor recorded the updates (again, I have updates paused because I wanted to give the system a chance to stabilize). Since both Dell and Intel want me to have the patched driver, Windows is the only thing that had the ability to roll them back as far as I can tell.
I reinstalled the new driver. Windows, though, will override me and roll it back again and it will crash. This isn't a fear, it's a certainty. Until the Intel driver is old enough to be determined "stable" by Windows, only then will it graciously allow me to keep it. Until the next version comes out, then it will force that one on me, even if this version works better. Even if the next version breaks my computer again. I can't stop it.
This computer will never probably be stable. It will always be a struggle. Dell does not consider this a problem. If they replaced it with another one of the same make, model and specs, it will have the same problem. It will always have a bleeding wound at its heart and I'll always be trying to patch that wound while Windows rips the patches away.
Anyway, guess I'm done vidding and making GIFs, can't get Vegas working in such an unstable state. It was fun getting to feel like a gamer for a little bit but nothing's going to launch like this. I can just keep writing by hand and never posting again. It's a "nothing of value was lost" win for everybody who's ever told me that my "creations" clutter up the fandom tags and make people waste valuable time trying to find things "of talent and substance around all the crap" I post.
Yeah, I'm super depressed right now but that's not me just having a pity party, I've legit been told that.
Given how much I've been complaining lately, it won't seem like it but I really do try not to post negative stuff a lot. I want to be somebody who makes others feel better with the things I put out there and this definitely isn't a feel-good post, sorry. Well, there'll be some people out there apparently thinking this is the best news ever, so yeah, guess this brightened somebody's day at least.
I'll try to pull myself back together, struggle to keep the computer going, see if I can find ways to stabilize it enough to be able to do some of the things I used to love to do. I just got so discouraged when I realized this is a chronic thing, not something that can be solved and put behind me. I'm just sad. Sorry again. Hope you're doing well out there. I love you and miss you.
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danpuff-ao3 · 1 year
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Embroidery Commission
I was going to do a longer introduction but really I can't tease the people like that. That would be quite rude of me!
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This, my friends, is the gorgeous embroidery hoop I commissioned from @onbeinganangel!!!!
Okay you have the goods now, read ahead if you're ready for Danni babbling.
Yesterday morning, I got an email from our apartment's Amazon hub that I had a package ready for pickup. And since I knew exactly what it was, I was annoyed (cuz it's early and I'm at work and I have to wait) and excited (cuz MY HOOP!!!!!)
After work, I rushed home, ran to the hub, grabbed my treasure, and pranced back to my apartment. You know, carefully. I wasn't sure how delicate I needed to be and I was risking this hoop for nothing!
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Above pictures is what I found inside the box. My hoop carefully and beautifully wrapped in tissue, and a sweet note!
And if you know me at all, you'll know I was too excited to rip right into it. I don't know if anyone else deals with this, but my excitement levels get so high I just don't know what to do with myself! Have to smile and shriek and dance a bit. Shake out all those nerves! Breathe a bit (because oxygen is important.) (That's what I'm told anyway.)
Once I had my wits about me, I very carefully peeled back the tissue and beheld my beautiful hoop!
And started crying, of course.
(If you know me at all, that won't surprise you, either.) (Overactive tear ducts, I swear to Merlin.) (Or maybe that's just me being overemotional...either way 🤷‍♀️)
It was in early November that I reached out to Mari. She had posted about making sure she could get commissions done in time for Christmas, and while I didn't need anything by Christmas, it did prompt me to think "hey...maybe I could commission something!"
If you've not seen Mari's embroidery, you should definitely check it all out! (Conveniently: click here.) Her work is gorgeous, and it's extra special to have another craft used for fandom purposes! Fan writing? Great! Fan art? Great! Fic binding? Oh cool! Fan embroidery???? Oh god I'm in love. (Also Mari writes, so here's her AO3.) (We have to stan a multi-talented queen.)
I was a wee bit nervous, because I've always been hesitant to ask about commissions from people who I don't know are okay with Snarry. My OTP is so controversial to others, but so beloved to me, and so I rarely reach out, but...I don't know. I couldn't help it! It seemed like too cool an opportunity to not try for, and Mari seemed so sweet so I figured if she let me down, she'd do so gently!
...because obviously I'm going to commission Snarry things. Much as I love other ships, if I'm spending my hard earned money, it's going to be Snarry. 😍
As you can see: it was not a problem!
What I most wanted was a piece for my pride and joy, Contempt. I wiffle-waffled a bit. I thought Orange Blossoms might have better imagery for embroidery, but I already had a fanart done for Orange Blossoms, and while more is more...I really, really in my heart needed a physical representation of my beloved Contempt.
I felt a bit bad about the timing and assured her I didn't need it by Christmas and to prioritize Christmas projects (even though I was quite eager for this!) Like: "I saw your post about Christmas commissions but...this is not for Christmas!" Anyway between the Snarry worries and timing guilt and my anxiety...that should tell you how much I wanted this piece! And let me tell you, it was worth fighting anxiety for!!
The other tricky part of commissions is me trying to give creators an idea to work with, while also stressing that I value their creative input more than my own vision. Everyone is different; more details are useful for some while others enjoy the creative freedom more. (So of course I fretted about that, too.) But generally I am drawn to creators for their own skill and creativity and want as much of themselves in there as possible! I have so much respect and admiration for other creators!! And why I want so dearly to support them however I can! (And to also selfishly benefit from it, not gonna lie.) (Look at this thing!)
What I gave Mari to work with were primarily the quotes. Both are spoken by Harry in the work, though in separate portions of the fic. I wasn't sure how weird that would be, but I don't know...they go so well together and really sort of sum the whole story up! My ultimate love/hate endeavor!
As for the imagery, I had suggestions for that, too: the door to Snape's quarters have "serpents entwined with ivy and dahlias" and there are moments in the story where other flowers are given, those being white gardenias and forget-me-nots. Between my personal love of flowers and animals, as well as my great love for symbolism, and the role they all play in the story...well, I'm glad they all fit in! (Also, Mari is a champ for listening to all my rambling about symbolism and vibes haha!)
From one of our email exchanges, I mentioned: "It's a very stark, intense story. A bit brutal. Lots of shame. Riding that line between love and hate. That's another part of why I like nature imagery; all of the beauty and brutality of the world around us." And I feel like it came through! It feels very simple and natural. It looks a bit like fallen, fragile flowers and a snake slithering along, a sort of unsuspecting seduction. (Sorry, I sure love to read into things!)
Honestly, Mari was such a joy to work with. She has such a good eye for design and color! And such clear skill. She was easy to talk to, happy to communicate, and best of all so kind and patient and sweet! And in the end, she crafted something truly priceless.
Contempt is truly the story of my soul. (If you follow me, you're probably tired of hearing about it LOL.) The concept has lived with me for so long. Writing it was a true labor of love. Having this piece of it to hang on my wall is genuinely so meaningful. I cried when I first saw the finished product (via email) and cried again when I had it in hand. And again when I hung it on my wall.
It's not in its final spot just yet. A few inches to the right (not pictured) is a Hogwarts plaque that I plan to move to another wall this weekend, so I can move the hoop a bit to the right. But I was much too eager to share this to wait until the weekend! But this should still give you an idea of what my Snarry wall looks like, and will more or less look like after the shift. (The art beside the hoop is the Orange Blossoms art mentioned earlier, by LuEndland!)
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Mari, thank you so much again for working with me and creating this truly precious hoop! Also: feel free to make your own post if you like, one with less word vomit haha! You are a true angel, I hope you know!!
To everyone else: if you've been thinking of commissioning an embroidery hoop...for sure do it!!!! 10/10 do recommend.
Also please expect more photo dumps once my work space is all set up!!
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cheldardo · 3 months
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Nintendo fire this man!!!!!! 💥🔥🔥🔥
I gotta talk about this because i've been obsessed over this since like yesterday
Remember the "nintendo hire this man" joke meme thing?, well the person that made that mario in unreal engine goes by CryZENx
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Now i never followed cryzen but i saw he posted a showcase of his ocarina of time remake, i came into it thinking: it's been a long while since then, perhaps he's gotten better
as i kept watching his video showcasing the OOT demo there were a lot of blatant errors and weird inconsistencies in the quality of models, animations were pretty rough too, they're good enough most of the time but just that
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this was one of the inconsistencies that caught my attention the most, i didn't watch the whole video where he showed every stage he's made but i was skipping through the video and immediately recognized that guy under the tree is literally just the n64 model (screenshot taken from a comparison video)
i can't say for certain but i wouldn't doubt if there are more models that are straight up ripped from the original n64 game and slapped on unreal with the only difference being the lighting
there's many more models which look just fine, but they don't look that great, and again, the animations aren't helping the overall look
i also skipped through that comparison video and well at least most models look way better... but then i remembered, there's a 3DS remake of OOT, so i got curious and well
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that's right, some models are just slightly modified / retextured from the 3DS remake, i'd love to check for more, i'm sure these aren't the only models that have been either a straight rip or changed just a bit, this is just in kokiri forest btw
you can argue he's trying to keep his stuff as faithful to the original as possible, but there's barely any effort or thought put into it, he's just putting the 3DS models in a new engine and calling it a day
okay but there's a good amount of modeling that actually looks great, like link's model, i think he did a great job on it, and it also makes sense since you're going to be seeing him all the time
now i'm no game dev (yet) and i don't use unreal (and plan to keep it that way) and right now i've only talked about the visuals, but there's also a ton of bugs and glitches some small, some others i wonder how they even happen, like not being able to move backwards and to the left, also on that same video there's this interesting comment
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and that same person who commented is also working on a ocarina of time unreal engine remake
now by checking the wayback machine on his patreon page it seems he was getting about 150 dollars in late 2017, in 2019 it went up to around 400 and in mid 2020 and it had gone up to 1,000 and by 2021 he was making around 2,000
it'd be one thing to just make this as a passion project or just for fun, but people are giving you money, from september 2023 to 1,500 to 8,100 and right now as i write this he's at 14,000 members, he's only showing the number of members and not how much he's making but you can imagine it's a LOT of money
this is as far as i'm gonna look into this for now, but i'm sure there are a lot more issues, i don't hate cryzenx and you shouldn't attack him but it sucks seeing someone do almost the bare minimum and sacrificing clarity and style for realistic physically based rendering
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phoenix · 2 months
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So, who wants to hear the story of me trying to do my review of Guilty Pleasures?
...Well, too bad, I'm gonna tell it anyways.
But I'm not a monster.
I needed to do this yesterday, because of my best friend's birthday...
So, my best friend's birthday is, well, yesterday. The 27th. Trisk has always posted reviews on the 26th of each month, so when February rolls around, I've always tried to make my review on that day be something that makes me think of him. From something as much as a movie he likes (Rare for our interests to align enough for that to happen, but I got a few out of that), to something as basic as "made in Canada". The connection doesn't have to be much, and it was always just a bit of something that made me smile, nothing more.
About ten years ago, Scott did a movie review show of his own called, Guilty Pleasures Cinema. I gave him the tagline for the show, and designed his logo, and even made a few appearances as Cthulhu. He eventually gave it up because of trying to include clips always led to copyright strikes, and the audience never showed up enough for him to be happy.
So of COURSE, the reason why I wanted to review Guilty Pleasures this week, once I heard about the movie, is obvious.
Unfortunately, the movie is ONLY available on Blu Ray, and Trisk requires DVDs because of my workflow, and creating images. And also, the one rule of Trisk is "I will own the movie". There's only been two exceptions I've made.
But this is a minor issue, because surely someone has it streaming...well, no. Even though a lot of obscure stuff is, not this. Well, surely I can find it through...other means. Again, no, and that's a bit more shocking. I can usually find stuff SOMEwhere somehow. Maybe ripped to YouTube or similar, other elsewhere, but this was just NOT out there. Or it might be, but GOOD FUCKIN' LUCK trying to find something named "Guilty Pleasures". So much porn...
Side note; I mentioned this to Scott, and he offered to look, and I was like, oh no you are literally the one person I can't tell the name to. ;)
The movie might be out there somewhere, but it's not being easy to find.
STILL, I have a Blu Ray player and a DVD burner! I've done THAT before too, but it's a pain in the ass, and there's loss of quality! EXCEPT...this time the recorder picked up copy protection signals and refused to work, no matter what I did.
Time was running out, and I had three choices; play it on my Blu Ray player in the living room, pause every five seconds, walk to the computer in the other room, right up my notes go back, repeat for 110 minutes...because of course I picked a long movie lol.
Choice #2: Scrap it for now, keep working at it, do it next year, and pick another movie REALLY QUICK.
Choice #3: Buy a Blu Ray drive for my computer, and do it that way.
I went with #3, and found a drive that was reasonably priced that I could justify, and then had to play the waiting game.
Scheduled delivery...the 26th. Because of course...oop, no wait, the 28th.
Under ANY OTHER CIRCUMSTANCE, I would have been happy to push it that late, as much as it hurts, but this is literally the one time, in 14 years of Trisk, when it HAD land no later than the 27th.
In the meantime, I had done my first basic watch of the movie in the living room, handwritten down my basic notes I do on that past, transcribed it to a text file, and gotten the post all set up, just needed the bulk of it to be filled in.
And of COURSE there was problems with the delivery. I used my STREET ADDRESS, since it was coming UPS, but they decided randomly to go 'Nah, we're sending it SurePost so it goes to the post office". But I have a *PO BOX* and not a box at my house, for reasons, and when a package with my street address goes to the post office, it adds another whole day, as it gets sent around on trucks trying to find an address they don't feel 'exists'. And they yell a me for sending it to the street address when it comes to the post office...but this is tangenting and I digress.
I scream and upgrade the package to Ground, and yep, it knocks a day off the delivery time, so the drive is at least arriving on the 27th. There should be zero problems of swapping the drive, watching the movie, and doing the thing!
But hahahaha, do you have any idea how fucking difficult it is to get a Blu Ray movie to play on Windows? IT SHOULD NOT BE THIS HARD. DVDs were just ready to go. I know all the reasons why Blus are a pain, and it's so incredibly ridiculous.
The drive arrived around noon, the actual swap was RIDICULOUSLY easy. I didn't even have to unscrew anything.
It then took me three hours of bashing my head trying to get the discs to be recognised and play. And I won't go in depth with THOSE details.
But FINALLY it got working, I chugged my way through the movie, I did the work, and got it posted around 7pm.
At this point, I had been up 30 hours, I'd recorded, edited, posted a podcast, swapped a drive, did tech support, did up an entire Trisk review, and lemme tell ya, I was exhausted.
What a bloody journey for one absolutely ridiculous movie.
The good news is, this does open up a new door for Triskings, since as can be seen here, while I've done a few Blu movies before, they were always a challenge. Now, they're on the same level of ease as DVDs.
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tripleyeeet · 7 months
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*checking in my crew* WHAT DO YOU MEAN THE EPISODE DIDN'T AIR YESTERDAY??? *quickly put on the suit and grabs the microphone*
HELLO EVERYONE AND WELCOME BACK TO TUESDAY INTERVIEW
I'm your host Annie and today I'm once again here with the spectacular, the stunning, the sublime Summer!!!! Let me hear your appreciation, everyone!!!!
*standing ovation from the everywhere*
First and foremost, I must apologise for the late release of this Tuesday Interview, but we had some technical issues (aka Tumblr eat the ask like Gale eats his artifacts)
Anyway, Summer! I've heard that you've not only opened your commissions but some people have already commissioned you some delicious fics! How do you feel about this? Is writing commissions as you expected?
Onto another topic, I would like to remind everyone that in 4 DAYS the first part of "Curse You" will see the light of day, so you better stay tuned for some good old fashioned enemies to lovers with our lovely vampire Astarion and Summer's amazing OC, Zayis!! Anything you want to add on this Summer? A warning for the public, perhaps?
And before we go, Summer, what were you thoughts on the BG3 DnD one shot that recently aired? What were your favourite moments?
rip the og ask :') classic tumblr never working the way it should!!
glad we figured that out sooner rather than later. would hate to deprive the people of tuesday interview with bard annie. (it's me, i'm people, i love tuesday interview with bard annie.)
to answer your questions though, in regards to commissions i am very excited! i was a bit hesitant at first because i already write a lot for free. for a while i kind of felt like a jerk asking for money but then i realized that i work really hard and if someone just so happens to want to pay me for something cool who am i to say no???
that being said, everyone's been really nice and supportive and i hope people continue to commission me because i think it'll inevitably help with my writing skills in the long run?
moving onto curse you though i literally!! i'm very very very nervous to release her out into the wild. it's been a while since i've posted oc fics because i'm pretty critical of my own character building sometimes but i'm trying to get better! because i know it'll be fine and everyone will be nice and just... it's gonna be fine, right?
anyway, yeah i'm just excited. i don't really know what else to add other than i hope people enjoy zayis because she's my baby.
and also yes, sort of. i've caught the main highlights of both episodes and am currently fully half way through the first (i'm so bad at watching long form videos sometimes) and loving it. in terms of my favourite part i'd probably say all the clips i've seen of bing bong have been hilarious. i just love the idea of shadowheart and lae'zel failing to co-parent this poor little creature. also, gale's spa day obviously!!!
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gren-arlio · 10 months
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We're finally back on schedule! Episode 7 is now out!
I did a poll for when I should release this and it ended in a draw. Go figure. So I'm going to post this now and then post another next week. Seems like we'll be back to normal for the time being.
Fun fact: This episode was actually the first I ever did. It began this whole escapade, so thank Witch and Black Kikimora for that.
Oh, and congrats to Witch for getting 2nd place in a Puyo Quest popularity poll. There's that too. She's a lunatic in this game, chasing Schezo for...his clothes. Trust me it makes sense...later.
Speaking of, here's the portraits, only 3 new ones, since you didn't fight Black Kikimora when you first met her.
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And the video itself:
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Timestamps:
Intro: (0:00)
Black Kikimora Midboss: (4:45, defeat is at 6:43.)
Skeleton-Tea Time: (7:30)
Witch Boss Fight and a Lot of "Misunderstandings": (8:35, defeat is at 13:04)
Orb Gotten: (15:15)
Mysterious Voice Appearance: (15:40)
Listening to Kikimora and Bulletins: (17:20)
I think we'll be back to schedule after this episode. Oh, and a big thing, a Madou Monogatari game was translated yesterday! It's Madou 1 (or Madou PC98,) and since I'm one to celebrate people's wins, I'll link it here. Check it out when you can!
With that, enjoy.
Intro: (0:00)
Black Kikimora: (Who I'll call Biki again.)
... ... ...
Schezo:
Hey, you can't get into the attraction?
Biki:
You can come in.
Schezo:
Hey, where are you...
What kind of usher leaves her guests to enter first?
Biki:
Shut up! Shut up and let me in!
Schezo:
Exactly. She's a Jigoku-mimi, isn't she? (Jigoku-mimis are also called "Hell Ears," often hearing secrets or quiet things, usually bad ones they don't wish to hear.)
[0:35 is the iconic "Alright, let's go inside!"]
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Black Kikimora Midboss: (4:45)
Schezo:
What're you doing here? Are you cleaning?
Biki:
(Damn, I'm almost ready...) [You can replace with Dang if need be.]
Schezo:
Let me through.
Biki:
Well...I can't.
Schezo:
!? Then I'll just pass by force.
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Black Kikimora Defeat: (6:43)
Biki:
Damn, you're pretty good... [Again, could be replaced with Dang.]
Schezo:
...Hmm, you're really making me work for this.
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Skeleton-Tea Time: (7:30)
Skeleton-T:
Hey, you're here too.
Schezo:
It's you again...
Skeleton-T:
Hmm~ Tea is good no matter where you drink it!
You drink too!
[Text appears saying
Accept <-
Refuse]
Schezo:
Well, since we're here, let's have a drink.
(Schezo's HP and MP have been restored!)
Skeleton-T:
What do you think?
Schezo:
It was pretty good.
Skeleton-T:
Right, right? Of course it is.
But today's been an unusually busy day.
Schezo:
Guests?
Who else is going to try these attractions besides me?
Skeleton-T:
Oh, there was a girl with long blonde hair.
Schezo:
Long blonde hair? That's not Arle or Rulue.
Uh...who the hell is that?
I don't know who that is.
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Witch Boss Fight and a Lot of "Misunderstandings": (8:35)
Witch:
Ah!
Schezo:
Hey, what?
Witch:
... ...
Schezo:
I don't know what you said!
Witch:
Ah, you...
Schezo:
Me?
Witch:
You...I want you... (Or you can say "I want it...". This'll be for almost every line unless mentioned.)
Schezo:
H-hey, what?
Witch:
I just can't help it. I want you.
Schezo:
Wait, what-?
Witch:
I'm begging you.
Schezo:
(W-What am I suppose to do?
This is the very first time I've dealt with someone like this!
Calm down, calm down! This has to be a trap, I know it!)
Witch:
I want it! (This is supposed to be an It.)
Schezo:
Uhh...
Witch:
Your black...
Schezo:
Black?
Witch:
Your black clothes!
Schezo:
Oh. My clothes, huh?
Witch:
I can't help myself. I want it. (Also an It.)
If you won't give it to me, I'll just rip them off!
Schezo:
Woah! Wait, no, don't do that!
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Witch Defeat (and also the Orb getting): (13:04 for the Defeat quote, and 15:15 for the orb.)
Witch:
I'm sorry~! (She isn't. She's gonna keep doing this. Trust me.)
Schezo:
Ha! That was a bad idea. (I assume to Witch.)
[After that Schezo finds the orb at the timestamp.]
Woah, there's an orb in here. Is it the black one?
Only 1 more orb left, and I'm done!
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Mysterious Voice Appearance: (15:40)
Mysterious Voice:
Finally, you cleared 5 attractions, but yet...
Schezo:
Hm? It's you...
Mysterious Voice:
Let's just say it's a masterpiece. (Or "it's incredible.")
Schezo:
If it were up to me, this place wouldn't be here. It's just a kids playground.
Mysterious Voice:
...Well, let's leave it at that.
Schezo:
You're such an annoying guy, always bothered by every single thing. So what did you want to say this time? (Translator called the voice a prick, which...idk man.)
Mysterious Voice:
I'll tell you where the last orb is.
Be thankful.
Schezo:
Well...since you're here, I might as well ask.
Mysterious Voice:
If you don't want to hear it, then I won't tell you.
Schezo:
I don't care. I don't need your help.
Mysterious Voice:
Ugh...Why don't you stop and be honest?
Schezo:
What, you want to tell me that badly? Why don't you just say it?
Mysterious Voice:
... ... ...
I left it for you, deep in the Puyo Puyo Dungeon. Now go get it.
Schezo:
You left it there? Who the hell are you!?
Mysterious Voice:
Are you really that curious about my identity?
Schezo:
No, not at all. I don't care anymore.
Mysterious Voice:
... ... ...
Schezo:
Well, I think we're done with this boring idle talk.
I'll go get that orb you left in the Puyo Puyo Dungeon.
Mysterious Voice:
Well, you better hurry up, or else someone else might beat you to it.
Schezo:
Who do you think you're talking to? That's none of my concern, hah.
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Listening to Kikimora and Bulletins: (17:20)
[Good old info board. Here's the Menu.
Listen <-
Rank
Bulletin
Back]
Kikimora:
What do you want me to explain?
[More Menus.
The 6th orb <-
About Rare Items
About the Black Market
About Ranks
When in trouble
Back]
Kikimora:
Have you found the 6th orb yet?
Schezo:
...Not yet.
Kikimora:
I heard there's 10 floors in the Puyo Puyo Dungeon...
Schezo:
!?
Hey!
You're not saying this to everyone else, are you?
Kikimora:
Well, yes, it's my job to guide you.
Schezo:
(Damn, guess I have to hurry...)
[Kiki repeats a line, and we go to Bulletin. Menu goes:
Puyo Puyo Dungeon Secrets 2 <-
Peddler Fufufu
You Who Has a Grimoire
Don't Throw It Away
Complete Synthesis Manual]
Bulletin:
Heh heh heh, the Puyo Puyo Dungeon isn't over yet.
For those with 6 orbs, a more dangerous route will open up.
Oh yeah, for you, I've made the monsters that appear much more powerful.
It's tough, it's dangerous, it's perfect. A thrilling and dangerous experience.
I hope you enjoy it.
- From the Owner of Waku Waku Puyo Puyo Land. [Mystery.]
And that's all. Probably my favorite episode so far, might even edit the Puyo Nexus to add the info. Thanks for reading.
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eulerami-art · 2 years
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Sorry I've been gone awhile. I don't really have any art or anything to share but, I hope I will soon.
I had top surgery in late February and just yesterday I had the first stage of bottom surgery. Weirdly enough the recovery from that has been way easier than top surgery lol. Not to toot my own horn, but apparently I heal super fast, and by a few hours post surgery all my bleeding stopped 😂
(Didn't try to rip a breathing tube out this time either lmao)
I'm forced to take 5-6 weeks off, and while I have some savings I'll probably need to do a couple commissions once I'm feeling better and can sit up long term. (My doc chewed me out about taking time off since I was back to work in 5 days after top.)
Anyway that's where I've been, wishing you all well.
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not only did i completely forget to post my top selfies of 2022, i didn't even realize yesterday was tdov until i crawled into bed feeling like shit, so i could Not have been asked to make a post about it last night, rip.
i've just been. So Tired. of all the shit that's been going on lately both in this country and across the world from a legal(?) standpoint; idk how else to word it. b/c i consider myself fairly lucky that most of these bills haven't affected me (yet). i was finally able to get my gender legally changed on my id, and in my home state it was an expensive but otherwise simple process. but part of me still wonders if having that little nonbinary X for my id is gonna fuck me over in the long run b/c 1) i don't pass (more on that later), and 2) what if i can't get hired. what if i can't get approved for housing; what if what if what if b/c of some law or technicality that's gonna see that as every reason to fuck me over. just for telling my truth, for not wanting people to use my agab as a completely different reason to treat me like shit and place me into these bullshit little boxes b/c no one can get it out of their fucking heads that gender can be whatever the fuck we want it to be.
and like i said, i don't pass. case in point, most if not all of the pics included above. i've since narrowed my pronouns to only he/him after being he/they for roughly 8 years b/c it feels like people only humor me when i tell them which pronouns to use. when i tell them i'm Not a Woman in any sense of the word, that there's not a single gods damned thing about me that's in any way associated w/ womanhood. i'm starting to think that my personal definitions for my expression are opposite to what most people think, that when i look "feminine," it's really my way of being "masculine" and perhaps vice versa. but in reality, masc and fem just in general are just as bullshit as trying to fit into "man" or "woman" because the moment you bring any of that shit up in conversation, people already have a specific idea of what that is in their heads. and tbh it just makes me feel like i can't trust people. why i feel like they're just humoring me. b/c me existing as i am is apparently so incomprehensible, it's easier for them to just play along so they don't upset me.
so happy (belated) trans day of visibility i guess?? to any and everyone else who feels like they're in the same boat as me, that despite every effort to live our truth and to finally exist comfortably as who we are, it still feels like the most isolating shit possible.
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Hey. Just thought I should say that as a 20-something year old who is disabled and neurodivergent, I wish more of my teachers had been like you. I don’t know much about you other than that post about what you do off the clock as a teacher, but I just wanted to send some positivity your way and thank you for being what those kids needed. I had one really good teacher in my specialist school and it changed my entire life, never forget the impact you have and how every day you go in with a smile and be yourself, you could be the thing that makes a kid want to learn.
So this email came to me on the day I found out my dog had cancer, and since that day I've been kind of swept up in a whirlwind of fear and self doubt surrounding almost every aspect of my life. I'm on a video call for a district level meeting (I'm the representative for my campus for teacher evaluations) while trying to recuperate from 4 hours of sleep after having a day long panic attack yesterday during the election, which was also my 31st birthday. I pulled up my Tumblr inbox, and here this message was, shining its little positive glow onto my day.
I am tired. I am working my ass off and burning myself out to give my kids opportunities millions in this country, including those in state leadership, would be delighted to rip from them. I am evaluating how to be my best self while reconciling the fact that I can't save everyone or fix everything, no matter how hard I try.
These messages MATTER. Thank you for sending this. After these past few rough weeks, this kind of positivity helps. Thank you dearest anon <3
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So hi.
Sorry this account has been inactive for a while. I've been busy and was just about to come back with more stuff to post when yesterday happened.
If you don't know, I'm a CSA (Child Sexual Abuse) survivor. For about 9 months my step father raped me. I did not get pregnant from it, and everyday I'm grateful for that. But, imagine if I had. I was 9-10 at the time. I was a child. I was innocent. And that man ripped it all away from me like it was nothing. I've never been the same since. I have Social Anxiety and Depression now, that man irreversibly change my life and I hate to admit it. I hate it. I don't want to say he's won. He shouldn't have won. But he did. His last "fuck you" to me was changing my life so much. Hurting me so much to the point that now, everyday, I can't stand living anymore.
Now imagine a child going through what I went through, and then being forced into continuing with the pregnancy. I can't even fathom it. Sometimes I feel guilty because I KNOW it could have been worse for me. It could have gone on longer, I could have been beaten along with being raped, I could have been killed, my mom could have ignored me when I told her, or that son of a bitch could've gotten me pregnant.
Im lucky. I know that. Every damn day I feel guilty because I know I had it better. Little kids shouldn't have to be forced to bear the children of the sick bastards that put them there. They shouldn't have to deal with that fucking truama. Pregnancy is truama. Its truama to the body, and forcing a child to go through with that is horrible. And yet now that Roe V Wade has been overturned, so many states in America will ban abortions. I got an ad where I live, about a governor who is seeking to ban abortion, making no exceptions. And you know what that means...
Im just...
Im so mad right now.
Women, AFAB people, and kids will be raped and then forced to have children and I just...
It makes me so mad.
I'm not old enough to do anything yet. I cant vote yet. I feel so hopless. I feel like I'm watching the world burn around me.
What am I supposed to even do?
There is so much that the overturning of Roe V Wade will bring, but I am only really equipped to speak of the things that I'm familiar with. Please try to share resources for abortion and support people in need.
I'm sorry for the rant. I know this isn't what you followed me for. But I just had to get my frustration out.
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Im not dead hi
💀💀💀
I kinda thought to myself a little and I was just like... oh yeh with the note I left on and the degree I've let this get to me dipping for that long probably would look suspect..
Figured I'd get back to it. I am tryna slow down again. Me constantly being like.. high high starts to get in the way I'm seeing. I can get away with it within the first like hour halfish buuut past that I get really out of it and I process shit super slow. I've actually always had this problem now that I'm looking back tbh. But usuallyyyy I'd just dose again during that period and I'd be fine. But with how much i take off rip I have hydration issues by the first and I'm sure taking dose after dose prolly would exasperate that a bit
I'm actually halfway through the bottle now. It was kinda weird to see. It's felt like it's unlimited ever since I bought the giant bottle but 4 months later andd I've emptied the rest of it into the container I hide em in. I don't know how I feel about it.
Oh right uh I dunno if I had done it by the time I posted the other one but I went ghost for like.. 4-5ish days and that was.. eventful. Wasn't planned. I was sad one day and I just continued ignoring everything until a less closeish friend of mine reached out. He considers me his best friend but even with that we don't talk that that much. So once HEEE start going through hoops to try and reach out I was like o uh maybe I took it too far.
All in the past now it's been about a week being back. I try and let myself ignore messages more so that I feel more comfortable giving myself space without needing as long as a break. Well. That's the nice way of looking at it. Whatever uh. R and me have been fine. Had some technical issues with insta and I wasn't on as much cause of it which wasn't a great look after all that. I felt so bad. She cried a few times while I was gone. Unlike me and the other dude we do talk everyday and while the shit aint as like.. ig attentive as it used to be, we do usually get back to each other a bunch throughout the day so she damn near instantly thought something was off..
Sorry I'm babbling at this point. Long story short. Habit has gotten pretty bad. When I dipped I was doing it 3x a day and I've been doing 2ish lately. Still a long way from the once every other day I was doing when I originally started this. It makes me really sad honestly. Sometimes I don't even feel like taking my pills for the day but then boom I'm finna cry. Or irritable and have my whole day ruined off a minor annoyance. It don't even feel worth it to fight it anymore. But the hydration thing is kinda bad so I try sometimes ig
I had 2 funerals to go to while I was gone too. One was an old family friend. I never was close with her as like I'm just now really starting to connect with people in my family tbh. But it was still like.. wild. I just visited her around this time last year and one year later she's in the ground. The second one was for a longtime friend of my mom's. I won't lie, I really didn't know her at all. But it happening back to back just rattled me. I had seen them both semi recently and they weren't deathly ill at the time or anything. I just. I dunno. I can't explain why it makes me sad
I had to get high for the funerals. I felt so embarrassed but I just know it'd be easier that way. Though uh I kept circulating on whether they suffered or not and I couldn't stop crying cause of it. I hate that there's a real possibility that they sat there feeling terrified and in agony before they left. That still kills me. I hope they were able to be semi comfortable at least. It's the least they deserve
I'm not high rn but that's finna change. I had to play this game with a friend of mine yesterday while coming down and that shit was.. miserable. I wanted to sleep and lie around but dude bought the game for me specifically for us to play. I wouldn't dare. I was tryna stay sober today just incase he was tryna play earlier today and i didn't wanna risk being gone gone. But atp I think I'll just hop on tomorrow. I'm sick of being like this. I'll just say I got busy.
I'm gonna probably change the way I write these cause the multiple times a day thing is kinda awkward to document. Or not. I dunno. Maybeee I will stop being such a fucking JUNKIEEE and take the shit at least semi safely I wouldn't need to but. We will see.
I'll get back to it tho. I think it's important to keep up with it and if I only update when I'm semi stable it defeats the purpose of the page tbh. My bad for dying off the face of the earth. I'm fine
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