#i've just sent 22 emails

[call-sign-jinx]

Spencer Reid X Reader - It was clearly just a simple mistake

summary: you and spencer have known each other almost all your lives. now, you both work for the fbi. when he's working on a particularly hard case, you spill coffee on some of the evidence and other papers. he immediately blows up at you unknowingly but as soon as he turns around and sees you, he says it was a simple mistake.

warnings: age gap, best friend's brother, making out, mutual pining (spencer started to have feelings for reader when she was 19)

spencer reid x fem!reader

Spencer Reid was my best friend's brother. I've had feelings for him since I was 11 and her was 14. I told my best friend and she fully agreed that we would be a good couple. But that was just our 11 year old minds dying to be sisters in some way.

But there was one thing in the way, well two. The age gap, and the kids at our school. Me and my best friend were the 'popular' types of girls. And Spencer was the 'nerd' that steered away from parties and big groups of people. Which meant the only times I ever saw him was when I was over at Amanda's house. Which was actually quite often. But he was always stuck in his room doing homework and reading books.

Now, I'm 22 and Spencer is 25. I'd say we both aged very well. We both work at the BAU but I'm just an assistant who gets everyone coffee and their lunch and answers the emails they can't be bothered reading while Spencer is a profiler who works on cases like kidnapping and serial killers. I see him a lot more often and we occasionally talk when we both happen to be in the breakroom.

At the moment, the whole BAU was working on a case that was particularly hard to solve. I heard Morgan chatting with Elle and this guy seemed like they knew exactly what they were doing. Left no clues, varied in the way they killed, thoroughly cleaned the crime scene, etc.

I could tell that it was infuriating for everyone, especially Spencer. He was sat at his desk, brows furrowed with a mix of anger and confusion, forehead resting on hi right hand, eyes dead focused on the paper he's holding. I quickly made him a new cup of coffee to hopefully cheer him up.

As I take it over to him, I trip and accidentally spill the coffee on the case files. Shit. Shit shit shit. Shit. For fuck sake. He's going to be so fucking pissed. I didn't mean to! It's not my fault someone else left their fucking bin in the way. I was too focused on not spilling the coffee anywhere that much that I spilt it. Ironic.

"For fuck's sake!" Spencer quickly stood up, some of the coffee spilling on him. He tried to move the papers quickly while muttering how could I have be so clumsy and stupid.

He then turned around and looked shocked to see that it was me who spilt the coffee on the case files. His whole angry demeanor changed into a calm and collected one. He had a small smile on his face as he brushed himself off.

"I apologize Y/N for how I spoke. It was clearly just a simple mistake." He sat back down at his desk and the few people that saw what happened had very confused looks on their faces, including me.

I just walked back to my little office to deal with any emails that the others sent over to me to look at. Baffled by the interaction me and Spencer just had.

--------------------------------------------

It was 1am. Everyone had left the office, except for me. I was too busy answering all the emails Morgan sent me, he clearly doesn't answer any of his emails.

That was until I heard a loud crash in the main area where everyone's desks were which caused me to practically jump out of my skin. My first thought was an intruder. But how could it be? This is a literal FBI building so how could anyone possibly break in? This clearly wasn't what I was thinking at the time because I went to grab the gun that Gideon had let me have - with a license obviously.

I quietly opened the door and pointed my gun and phone torch to scan the area in front of my office. I couldn't see anything. I then stepped out the door and scanned the area around me, making sure to check through other doors on my way to the main area.

Sweat began to run down my forehead as I thought the worst, this could be the night I die. My worry quickly went away when I saw that it was only Spencer, still at his desk.

"Spencer? What are you still doing here?" I make my way over to him and pull out a chair and drag it over so that I can sit next to him.

"Still trying to figure out the case, you?" I sigh as I leaned back in my chair.

"Answering emails that Morgan can't quite be bothered to even look at. One of them was about his gym membership! What does he expect me to do with that?" Spencer laughs as share my frustration.

"I think they treat you too much like a normal civilian. Which you are far from because you helped me get one step closer to closing the case." Spencer had a proud look on his face as he told me. My eyes widened in shock. How could I have possibly helped in the slightest?

"How? The only thing I've done is bring you all coffee and lunch, and answered your fucking emails." I add the last part with exasperation, it was not part of my job description.

"That's what helped me. You accidentally spilt the coffee you brought me on a piece of evidence and it revealed a big clue, it was the first 2 digits of the zip code of where the killer lives." How can someone be so dumb? Maybe they want to be caught?

"Really? How did the coffee help with that?" I look at the evidence and the first two digits are there but not fully visible. Me and Spencer look at each other - as this would actually really help the case - with pure joy in our eyes.

"Y/N..." His demeanor suddenly changed. He looked down and I followed his eyeline, my hand was on his thigh. How the fuck did my hand get there?

"Shit, sorry. Didn't know my hand was there..." I immediately pull my hand away and look to the ground.

"I-It's alright Y/N... stuff like that happens." I look up to Spencer and he looks at me with a certain glint in his eyes, one that I haven't seen before and one that I can't quite place.

"Spencer?... I-" I was quickly interrupted when Spencer placed his lips on mine. I almost immediately began kissing him back. I placed my hands on his shoulders and pulled him closer to me. He placed his hand on my upper thigh and my grip on his shoulders increased.

When we both pulled away, we couldn't help but smile. I giggled as Spencer just had a boyish grin on his face.

"I love you too Y/N. I have for quite a while now actually."

#spencer reid x you #spencer reid fanfic #spencer reid fanfiction #spencer reid #criminal minds x reader #criminal minds fic #criminal minds fanfiction #criminal minds #spencer reid scenario

[pantiesandpamperssissypart2]

"Okay, I know I said I'd heard of guys who were into diapers, but, like, seeing it? That's different. Okay, just give me a sec. I'm sorry! I'm sorry for laughing but, come on.

No, no, it is sweet that you trusted me with this, um, secret of yours. I mean, we've known each other for so long and, um, wow.

Okay. Let me take it in. So, you special order these, you said? Like pink adult diapers are a thing companies make? Because you're a...sissy? That's what you said in the email to me? Got it. Sissy in diapers. Oh god you're blushing for real. That's soooo sweet.

Now, you said you use the diapers too, right? For, like, everything? EVERYTHING? Peeing and...pooping? Okay, that's kind of gross, but, okay, I suppose if you're wearing diapers you need to use them. Otherwise it'd be a waste.

Um. So, the bonnet and pacifier. Is that what you always like to dress up in and suck on? Yes? Okay. I get it. Probably gives you comfort.

All right. So when you wrote that email to me you said you'd had a crush on me forever and even though we've been friends since junior high and we're now in college you wanted to take it a step farther and to do that you thought I should know everything about you and you hoped I would maybe want to be your girlfriend. Or even a mommy? A mommy, right?

You wrote that, remember? Right? Okay, that took A LOT of guts to write. But sweetie, come on. Look at you, right now? You're wearing Pampers, a bonnet and sucking on a pacifier. You told me you like to mess your diapers. Like you think I want to be a mommy to a 22-year-old? Like that's what I'd want, just because I've always been friends with you? I'm sorry but what were you thinking? I want a man. A man. Not a diaper-pooping faggot? I'm sorry! Sorry for using that word, I know, we shouldn't use that. But that's what I see. Really.

Oh, no you're crying now? It's okay. Hold on, just let me get my camera out because our friends are NOT going to believe this. Neither is your sister, I bet. Don't look so scared, sweetie. You seem so proud of yourself so why wouldn't you want everyone to know what you are? There. Picture taken. And...picture sent. Now everyone gets to see my little diaperboy friend. Fun, huh?"

[neondownpourzine]

RAIN CODE ZINE - Interest Check Results!

Hello! After a week, we've gathered an encouraging 88 responses! With that in mind, I've decided to go through with the zine 🎉🎉🎉

Here is the full results report:

In terms of participating, we have an overwhelming majority wishing to participate as artists! There's a fairly even split between writers and readers only, and just slightly less on anyone willing to take on either writer/artist roles. With this in mind, I've considered having this zine include 24 artists, 3 digital merch artists, and 6 writers, not including the moderators.

Here are the results regarding the zine's theme. We will be focusing on a general RAIN CODE zine! However, there will still be a theme so the zine can remain cohesive.

The theme is: A Trip Down Memory Lane!

For this theme, I'm hoping for a variety of pieces focusing on each chapter of the story, from the prologue to the epilogue. I'll permit some pre-game and post-game works as well, but would prefer a major focus on the canon story.

We have a staggering dominance of people preferring to be an art moderator. Even with this in mind, we will be accepting one art moderator and one writing moderator. I will handle scheduling. Applications for both will be sent out soon.

Most people have agreed on a writer/artist collaboration, which means that 6 of the artist participants will be paired with a corresponding writer to draw art that accompanies their writing.

Most folks would be willing to have digital merch attached to the zine! We will accept 3 artists to make digital merchandise. The merchandise doesn't need to fit into any one chapter, so the rules will be a bit looser on what the art can portray.

And those are the results!

Regarding some suggestions and questions asked in the interest check:

You should add keychains/physical merch/ physical copies. Full disclosure, this is the first zine I've ever run, so this zine will be a free, digital only PDF. This is to keep it as simple and manageable as possible.

A cosplay section? I would count cosplay under art. When I release artist applications, cosplayers are welcome to submit cosplay photos and even create them as entries to the final product.

Artists should make promo art! Once I have co-moderators and participants, any artists who are willing to offer simple doodles for promotional material are welcome to contribute.

Link contributor's Ao3 accounts in the zine? The zine will offer full credits for all participants in the zine. This includes any preferred social media accounts for sites such as Ao3, Wattpad, Twitter, Tumblr, and anywhere else.

How will this be scheduled? I intend to drop a full schedule post soon, but the basic rundown will be: 15 Jan - 22 Jan: Moderator Applications 24 Jan - 25 Jan: Moderator acceptance/rejection emails sent out, mods invited to the zine's discord server and emailing list. 1 Feb - 20 Feb: Artist/Writer Applications 25 Feb - 29 Feb: Artist/Writer acceptance/rejection emails sent out, participants invited to join the discord server and emailing list. 1 March - 15 Jun: Production period, with monthly progress check-ins for all participants 16 Jun - 29 Jun: Countdown period 30 Jun: Zine releases

I assure you, Vivia Twilight will appear at least one time in this zine!

As an additional note, I'd like to thank @rararazaquato for coming up with the title of the zine!

And thank you everyone for your responses!

#rain code #raincode #mdarc #master detective archives #master detective archives: rain code #fandom zine #zine promo #interest check results

[fandomsnstuff]

One of these days ill post at a reasonable time

@taznovembercelebration

Day 22: silly

Lup's birthday is coming up, and the present from her long distance boyfriend is haunting her in all it's wrapped glory. Doesn't help that her brother thinks her boyfriend is fake.

Read it on AO3

Dearest Apologies

From: [email protected]

To: [email protected]

Good morning Lup,

I would like to deeply apologise for being unable to provide you with the goodnight text you were expecting last night.

Turns out, it is unwise to use one's phone above a pot of boiling water when one is easily startled. According to the respectable phone repairman in my local mall, the damage is fixable and the repair will be cheaper than a new phone, but I am without said device until wednesday. In the meantime, I shall send my missives to you by electronic mail of the g variety.

I hope you slept well. I stayed up far too late, as usual. I write to you as I await the energising effects of my coffee.

Have a wonderful day, my darling.

Yours,

Barry

Re: Dearest Apologies

From: [email protected]

To: [email protected]

Barry,

I suppose I can forgive you, given the harrowing phone experience you've gone through. I pray for your phone's survival.

I did sleep well, I had many dreams of you. I miss you more every day.

I would scold you for staying up late, but alas, I have done the same. But I suppose I have stronger coffee than you, as I'm already set to face the day.

I received the parcel you sent me. You're far too clever, putting a note on top telling me not to open it until my birthday. You're also a cruel lover for it. You know I adore packages, I long to tear it open and see what's inside. But I adore you, so I shall follow your instructions.

Forever yours,

L

“What're you writing?”

Lup jumps out of her skin as Taako's suddenly standing behind her. “Jesus fucking christ, maybe warn a girl next time?!”

“I made so much noise walking over here.” He grabs her phone from where she dropped it. “What's got you smiling like a fool?”

She snatches the phone back. “Nothing!” She finishes typing her name and sends the email. “It's just a silly thing with Barry.”

Taako groans. “Not this again. Lulu, I'm not stupid.”

Kravitz pokes his head out of the bathroom with a toothbrush in his mouth, “who's Barry?”

Taako gives her a look that says, go on. Lup sighs irritably, “Barry's my boyfriend.”

Kravitz's eyebrows go up. He ducks back into the bathroom, presumably to spit his toothpaste out, then says, “since when do you have a boyfriend?”

“She doesn't,” Taako interjects, “there's no way he's real.”

“He's real! I've shown you pictures! He sent me a birthday present!”

“You one hundred percent just googled pictures of white men and showed me one.” He looks to Kravitz, “she said his name is Barry Bluejeans. Tell me that's not fake.”

“Your name is taco twice.”

“Thank you!” She says. “See, Kravitz thinks my boyfriend is real.”

“Now I didn't say that.” She glares at him and holds up his hands defensively. “I have some followup questions.”

She crosses her arms. “Fine. Shoot.”

“Where does this guy live?”

“Connecticut.”

“On the other side of the country? How the hell did you meet him?”

“Conferences. We've been flirting for years.”

“Years, Krav!” Taako exclaims. “And I never heard a word about him, until a month ago! She went away for a week and came back with a boyfriend.”

Kravitz looks between the two of them, then says, decisively, “he's fake.”

Lup throws her hands up. “I get texts, I get calls, I get emails, I got a package, but he's fake! Sure!”

“I'm just saying it sounds a whole lot like the fake Canadian girlfriend I had in middle school before I knew being gay was an option.”

She pouts up at Taako, “I thought you wanted me to be happy.”

“I do, but this is closer to delusional.”

She sticks her tongue out at him then stands up. “Fine,” she says, marching to her room, “believe what you want, but one of these days you're going to feel real stupid!”

A few days later, her phone lights up with a text.

🐻E👖

> Hello

> I've returned to the modern world

> How are you?

Lup ❤️

> welcome back

> im trying to bully taako into letting me help plan the menu for my birthday party tomorrow, but he won't let me

🐻E👖

> how rude of him

> Are you going out for it?

Lup ❤️

> nah, it's cheaper and honestly more fun to stay in with the crew and be stupid than going out and being stupid

> other people's stupidity can interfere with our

🐻E👖

> I can understand that

> good luck bullying him, I gotta run

> I love you

Lup ❤️

> love you too, bear

> also when can I open my birthday present

🐻E👖

> I'll let you know

Lup ❤️

> mean

🐻E👖

> you'll love it, promise

Lup's birthday party is in full swing. There's lots of finger foods and cake, the games are as unnecessarily competitive as always, and Lup's having a blast. But she can't help but check her phone a little too often. Barry called her last night, and sent her a happy birthday text in the morning, but he said he'd be busy all day and wouldn't be able to talk until later. It's later, and she still hasn't heard. He hasn't even told her that she's allowed to open her gift yet, which has been sitting in her room taunting her for days now. She even shook the small wrapped box, but the faint rattling gave her nothing.

She's halfway through a very intense round of poker when she vaguely registers a knock on the door. She dismisses it, far too focused on watching every microexpression on Kravitz's face. Then she hears Taako say, “well I'll be damned.” He calls to her, “Lup! You've got a visitor!”

Confused, she turns her attention away from the game to the door. All her guests are here. Who else–

She practically knocks over her chair as she scrambles up and tackles Barry in a hug. She kisses him hard and says, “what are you doing here?!”

He laughs. “I wanted to surprise you!” His cheeks are tinged a little pink. “I hope that's okay? I don't want to intrude. I have a hotel room, so I can go if you–”

“No!” She fists her hands in his shirt and pulls him into another kiss. “You're not going anywhere. If anything,” she leans in close and lowers her voice, “you'll take me back to that hotel room later.”

“Yeah– yes. Absolutely.”

“Lulu, you gonna introduce me?” Taako says from behind her.

“Taako,” she extracts herself from Barry's arms and stands next to him, linking their arms together, “this is Barry, my boyfriend whom you and your boyfriend so rudely assumed was fake. Do you have anything to say for yourself?”

“Glad you're not a figment of my sister's imagination, my man. Come on in, we have hors d'oeuvres.”

Barry slots in seamlessly with the group. It's around a game of Monopoly that he says, “oh, Lup, your gift.”

She perks up, “can I open it now?”

“Yeah, I almost forgot after all the travel.”

She goes and gets it from her room, already tearing into it as she sits back down beside him. She lifts the lid of the box to reveal a folded piece of paper. She takes it out and unfolds it. It's booking confirmations. She turns to him slowly. “Did you book us a trip?”

He's gotten sheepish now. “I did. I thought… you know, you said you'd never really been on a proper tropical vacation, and you wanted to go to an all inclusive one day, and I had the money, and we're together now, so… yeah.”

“Barry, this is… holy shit. The only travel I've ever done is for work conferences.”

“I know. I've wanted to do this for you for a while, but it felt inappropriate as just a work conference friend that you flirt with. It's not until next year, so there's plenty of time to book off work and whatever. Otherwise, it's all taken care of, all you have to do is show up.”

“Thank you,” she breathes, still scanning over the page in her hands. She looks up and across the table, “a fake boyfriend couldn't do this, could he, Taako?”

#taz fic #blupjeans #barry bluejeans #lup taaco #taz lup #blupjeans fic

[galescafe]

old zoomed in photos, new hectic day

22 FEBRUARY 2024 | 58/100 DAYS OF PRODUCTIVITY

started my morning off with office hours on zoom with my philosophy prof to go over my precis from last week in more detail; he's super chill, very passionate, and it was nice to just be able to talk about the assignment and ask more specific questions about what i can do better, because i got a good grade, but we both agreed that we could always do a better job

went to my sociology tutorial, where we did some small group stuff, but i'm super behind on the readings for that class, so i wasn't very helpful

i had to miss two sociology lectures for a religious observation and then because i wasn't feeling well, and they release lecture recordings on a case by case basis, but i've followed up with the TA three times by email and once in person and haven't gotten anything, so i'm kind of frustrated

had my research capstone course, got to share some articles my friend sent me that i thought was applicable to other people's work, which was cool! i love academia! also had a big revelation about how i can organize my big question/concept i'm researching for the course, so i'm super excited for that, but it means i have to do a little more work

went to ballet rehearsal, no notes lol :)

did laundry, packing up for my trip this weekend while also trying to cram in getting a start on my philosophy paper because it's due sunday and i'll be with my family all weekend!

friendly reminder that wearing a mask in public is an act of love!!

#studyblr #100 days of productivity #100 dop #study aesthetic #studyspo #study motivation #uni #college #academia #galestudies

[thesawrfilms]

My Search for The Last Supper

In 2009, Angus Sampson made a short film. It's about the last supper between Jesus and his disciples. Angus wrote and directed it, and also appears in it as Judas. Of interest is that Angus's good friend and frequent collaborator Leigh Whannell also appears in the film, and if you've been trying to do a full filmography watch of Leigh you might be familiar with the somewhat frustrating story I'm about to recount.

There's a five minute excerpt of the film uploaded to Angus's Vimeo account, and it is seemingly a quite bizarre little film with a strong focus on reality television. But... we don't have the entire short, though! According to IMDb and letterboxd, the entire runtime is 14 minutes, so this is only about a third of it.

The full thing is not, and as far as I can tell has never been, available online. They showed it at at least one film festival in '09, but after that I have no idea. It's a ghost.

Well, now. Angus Sampson is the writer/director/producer/star, he's who uploaded the excerpt to Vimeo, he must have the full thing, right? ....right?

Back in '22 a Twitter user jokingly asked him about it, and (in true Angus fashion), this was his response. What does that mean? Angus, what do you mean by that? Does he NOT have it? If he doesn't, who does???

I've been legitimately considering posting this to, like, the lost media subreddits or the lostmediawiki forums, but they're a little scary to me so I've been mounting this search on my own. I've sent some emails and DMs, with no word back yet, which is... to be expected, honestly! These are busy professionals and I am just some guy looking for a short from 2009 that Angus himself described as "a nothing film."

However... god, I really wanna see it! Especially after getting so very into The Mule (2014), I'm really interested to see Angus Sampson's first crack at writing and directing a film. Plus, another Angus and Leigh collab? We can't miss out on that!

Do you have any leads? Who should I email next? Or should I just sit around and hope that Angus answers my insta DM?

#angus sampson #the last supper 2009 #the last supper #leigh whannell #lost media #Vimeo

[study-lizard]

day 8 of 100 days of productivity! 1/22/24 i was actually quite productive today even though it was a low energy day for me

✿ 8am yoga - took it slow today bc of my low energy/mild pain ✿ did one hour of work accountability with a friend - bumped an email to some instructors about work i need to finish - schedule sent an email for my club - mentally prepared for my research meeting later ✿ went to the library to use a text for some outstanding classwork - accidentally took a nap, but it was a good nap - actually got a problem done for this class! - i've been struggling with motivation for this class specifically so im really pleased by this ✿ had a meeting with a postdoc on my research - it was really helpful and i know exactly what i need to do now - worked on my research for a bit after the meeting as well

been kinda just chillin since then, got co-op dinner and now burning a candle as i wind down with a cup of chamomile & a little chocolate :)

#also this is kinda irrelevant but im going back to being gf bc ive been physically suffering recently and oof #huge s/o to my celiac/intolerant siblings yall are so strong #(im gluten sensitive but usually just eat it out of convienience/taste) #my intolerance to it kind of builds up over time #hence recently reaching a tipping point #but its always so hard to restart the gf diet #anyways... #student life #studyblr #study #study blog #studying #studyspo #student #college #university #productivity #100 days of productivity #100dop #100 dop #productivity challenge #productive

[16ruedelaverrerie]

Rest of messages in thread not included for reasons of mortifying inadequacy on my part! Anon you sent this in on August 22. I just want to type that out loud so that I can nail my shame to my front door like Martin Luther with his 95 Theses, except every thesis is "Nat can't fucking answer a single thing in an even vaguely timely manner". I would say I'm sorry for what I have become, but the truth is that I was ever thus. I'm sorry for what I have always been.

I'm sorry as well that it is so hard to find me across platforms because I have a thousand different usernames! Some of it used to be intentional, but intent or none, it functions as a real pain in the ass and I apologize. I've been trying to address this issue via the sidebar link on this blog and the cross-platform links in the author's notes on AO3, but we could have avoided all this if I had just stuck to a single identifying name. Still, DESPITE MY BEST EFFORTS TO THE CONTRARY, I'm so glad that you found me! Not least because it has led to you sending this absolute conflict-free lab-grown diamond necklace of messages! Thank you so so so much 😭💕 It's hard for me to explain this in a sensible manner, but my slowness in answering genuinely is in large part because the message means so much to me. I want to save the act of answering for a moment when I can feel articulate enough to do some justice to the kindness you have shown me, but then it's 10PM every night when I finish writing work emails and I am incapable of stringing two words together. Tomorrow, I think, I will try again! And then it's another 10PM and another 10PM and more than two months goes by before I have to accept that I will never feel articulate enough to respond the way that you deserve. That would be true at any other time of day, besides!

But thank you. I hope that you can stick around for the frustratingly glacial pace at which I do anything at all; what I lack in output, I make up for in stubbornness. One day, 88 will be a complete fic, even if I have to break my own bones to do it. (Please don't ask me the perfectly legitimate question of why broken bones would facilitate fic writing. It is a statement about the strength of my resolution, but it is an incomprehensible statement.)

This is such an interesting question! HOW DID I? I'm combing through my (admittedly blurry) autobiographical memories, but I can't seem to find a particular originary point for reading. Saying "I've always been a reader" is so boring, and it implies a certain kind of relationship with literature that I don't think I actually have-- I didn't particularly gravitate towards reading at the expense of other activities, and I read such a hodgepodge mixture of stuff that I can't fathom what it was about the act of reading that I actually enjoyed. And now, well, I read almost exclusively for work, to the degree that the thought of reading for pleasure makes me recoil.

The writing, I do have an originary point for. I was in elementary school, and my class had recently held a small creative writing competition; we were at an age where it was embarrassing to try very hard to achieve anything, so I blew it off, because I had to perform coolness due to it not coming naturally to me. Our homeroom teacher announced the winner, and asked that they read out loud their winning entry for the rest of the class. They did, and I remember thinking very clearly: This is fine, but I could do it better if I tried.

This is a story that is immensely unflattering to me-- or rather, it's a devastatingly accurate portrayal of me. It contains all the seeds of my worst qualities as a writer and a human being: competitiveness in something I consider myself to be proficient at, the need for external validation, baseless arrogance. But when I found myself being so hideously jealous of that kid, it wasn't primarily jealousy over the fact that they had won something; I was jealous that they had this stage time to show people what the world looked like to them. I felt robbed of the chance to connect with people in that way. Of course, no one robbed me of anything -- I chose to pretend that I was too cool for school -- and there was absolutely no reason to think that I would have won the competition and gotten that stage time for myself, even if I had tried as hard as I could. But still, it got me writing. Not because I had anything to say, but because whatever banal cut-rate shit I would end up saying, I just wanted someone else to hear it and tell me that I made sense to them. That's still why I do it, I think.

Seeing as how my twitter is just my tumblr with 100% less overwrought rambling, I can't decide whether you had a worse experience or a better one than binging this blog instead! On the one hand, I can't recommend the overwrought rambling; on the other hand, what's left after the overwrought rambling is excised is still just a lot of mid art determined to insist that dick jokes comprise an entire genre of creative output. IT'S DISMAL EITHER WAY! But it's too late for you! (Thank you.)

Anon!!!!! The very FACT THAT YOU SENT ME A ONE PIECE MESSAGE!!! My past in One Piece fandom is a really deep cut in that it very rarely comes up on this blog, so I'm super pleased that you thought of me!!!!!!!!!! 💖

Tragically, I have still not watched it. I KNOW, PLEASE DON'T THROW ME OUT OF THIS PORTHOLE. I agree wholeheartedly with you-- I'm thrilled that it got new fans into OP, and that it was made with so much visible love! I wouldn't say that I'm someone who is ever looking for live action versions of stuff -- if push came to shove, I'd probably admit that I don't necessarily see the inherent appeal of live action adaptations -- but it makes me truly happy to hear all the enthusiasm and praise for this one!!! Me not watching it yet mostly has to do with the aforementioned "it's 10PM when I finish writing work emails" problem.

As someone who is unfortunately very well-acquainted with what I am into (or so I must presume, by the sheer miracle of you sending me an OP message), it probably comes as no surprise to you that the single most affecting piece of promotional media that I encountered was a teaser clip from the Baratie arc. Anon when I tell you THE BREATH CAUGHT IN MY THROAT. THE BARATIE SHOT LIKE A RESTAURANT SHOW!!!! THE BARATIE!!!!!!!! WHERE MY SON WAS RAISED! HIS FISH-HEADED NURSERY! MY SON! THE DARLING OF THE BARATIE! A KITCHEN PACKED TO THE GILLS WITH SHORT TEMPERS! THE THORN IN THEIR SIDE! THE APPLE OF THEIR EYE! CRADLED TO SLEEP BY THE WATERS THAT TOOK HIM IN! GENTLED TO WARMTH BY A COMMERCIAL GAS RANGE! THE BRINE-SWEET CHILDHOOD HOME OF MY SON!!!!!

One Piece was so early for me that I can't even distinguish what came first, my Sanji bias or my commercial kitchen obsession. What remains crystal clear is that I am predictable in my perversions. I will watch it, anon. Someday hopefully soon.

#askbox #can it be? #could it possibly be? #that i have made a post #that is at least partially about #one piece #miscellany

[magpie-69]

Today my employers (and us employees too to be honest), had one hell of a shock. We had a delivery of 18 CO2 bottles. We're a brewery (albeit a small one), so we're talking tall canisters here. At the last delivery, two weeks ago, they were just under £40 each. With no warning (they said they sent out a generic email but we didn't receive it), the cost of one bottle is now...

£140!!!

Each fuckin' bottle!

We simply can't sustain this. Wish us luck, please 🙏💜🙏

Also, the only other employee handed their notice in today. I'm actually relieved they're getting out, but I'll miss them immensely 💜 They leave on Nov 11th. I've 2 days booked off for my birthday on the 17th and 18th Nov and I expect them to say I can't take them now. I'm having my op on 21st Dec and will be out of action for at least 4 weeks & will have to return to light duties. Fun times! 🤷🤣

30/9/22

#we're fucked

[shouldntbeaskingmyselfwhy]

Okay, so I mentioned my cardigan not being shipped.. well it shipped right after I sent you that ask and it was supposed to be delivered last Friday, then Saturday, then Monday, and then today/Wednesday. Well it wasn’t delivered and now the date was switched back to pending delivery date even though it’s been here in Denver since 11/22🙃🙃🙃

ah that sucks!! super frustrating. i had a similar thing happen once with merch from a different artist and once i emailed the usps it magically showed up at my door the next day, so i'd try reaching out if you can. at least you know your cardigan exists lol they keep telling me my vinyl will be reshipped "depending on stock" so i'm fairly positive they're just going to refund me and i've waited all this time for nothing!!!

fingers crossed you get an updated and accurate delivery date asap!!

[josieoh]

𝑵𝑰𝑮𝑯𝑻𝑹𝑬𝑺𝑻 𝑻𝑨𝑺𝑲 𝑶𝑵𝑬

— a look at josie's mobile device & social media ( ft. lunara, dae-eun, finley, jacob, enzo, jieun, kahlan; special mention: lukas. )

THE BASICS:

brand of phone:

samsung galaxy z flip4 512GB.

color:

graphite.

case:

this rhinestone & pearl with a chain thing. visual HERE.

locked or unlocked:

locked, of course, with the fingerprint scanner & PIN, which is jacob's birthday in the format of DDMMYR ( 010394 ) and it's only ever been told to jacob, but would it be hard to figure out? nein.

wallpaper:

childhood photo of her & her brother jacob. visual HERE.

lockscreen:

the front face is a photo of lady justice. visual HERE. the actual lockscreen is a photo of herself, courtesy of lukas for her linkedin or some shit idk. visual HERE.

USAGE:

time spent on device:

not as much as one might think, truthfully. she only averages about 1.5 - 2 hours a day, but can certainly be on there longer if it's a day she isn't busy or wants to read.

five most used apps:

web browser. email. spotify. ID GO. wheel of fortune.

web tabs:

two are open: one being an online portal for US case law and the other being the crime report. she checks the former for work and school often, but she reads the former just for fun --- normally in the morning while she eats breakfast or before zonking out for the night.

last thing googled:

chapters 263-280 of massachusetts' statute regarding crime, punishments, and proceedings in criminal cases. she had to confirm something. don't ask me what because i haven't thought that far ahead thx.

last text message received:

a quick "that's my girl. i'm on my way" response from finley after josie sent her a very nsfw video.

last voicemail:

a request to meet up from a past play toy that she watched go to voicemail. she didn't bother listening to it.. just read the first line of the transcription before deleting it.

last thing on camera reel & what image was last saved:

photo last taken: THIS photo of finley. image last saved: THIS photo of perfume she intends to purchase.

extra tidbits:

she's personalised her phone all the way down to making the icons for all of her apps aesthetically pleasing; she does lots of shopping online & primarily does it via her phone rather than her computer; has three different apps for books and the only ones you'll ever see her reading are true crime ones.

SOCIAL MEDIA:

handles:

ohjosie for personal. josieohcp for business. she passed the exam, so she's a certified paralegal, which is what CP stands for.

instagram, latest post:

snapchat, latest sent:

used to be into it back in the day, but doesn't use it anymore.

dating apps:

um. no. she's hot, she doesn't need a dating app lol

spotify:

top three songs of '22: tippy toes ╱ XG {xx}

❝ thrift shop keep ya change and ya two cents bad gyals on the rise, you a nuisance drop jaws, tie tongues, and the loose ends got pushed out a queen, I've been true since... ❞

gucci vision ╱ qveen herby {xx}

❝ i need space, bitch, i'm comin' through if you're in my crew, you can hang tight, we got shit to do if they only knew, damn right we don't follow suit crystals out, she on that witch type... ❞

5-star ╱ CL {xx}

❝ you my ocean, i'm your star yeah 'til six in the morning baby don't stop, keep it coming make me feel so good... ❞

last listened to: yacht (k) ╱ jay park & sik-k {xx}

❝ just for my baby, just for my baby hit me up baby, on the kakao baby gimme good lovin', we can get down baby get down baby, hey... ❞

tiktok:

doesn't have the time nor the desire to bother with it.

facebook:

she deals with it for the firm she works at, but she's never had one herself.

others:

has a youtube account, but the only people she's subscribed to are JCS - criminal psychology ( both accounts ), EWU crime storytime ( all 5 accounts ), and planD. she also utilises reddit, primarily to read certain true crime related things, but she doesn't have an account. probably has a linkedin account for business stuff? who really knows, i don't.

#nightrest:task001 #꒰ 🔮 ꒱ tasks ╱ 𝐣𝐨𝐬𝐢𝐞 𝐨𝐡 ◞ #i didn't realise until now just how into true crime this birch is oops #and she cARES about her friends?????????? jail #if u see any mistakes no u don't #i was working on this until after 3am 😭

[littlemissmanga]

Hey Beth<33 For the fic writing asks 🦋, 💥 and 🧿?

Hi Ezzie!

Let's see ...

🦋what are you most insecure about when you post a fic?

Honestly, it's that my intentions get across - with the characters, emotions, and especially actions. More often than I'd like, I'll reread something I wrote - not even just fics, I'm talking emails, texts, replies, etc. - and realize it was a lot clearer in my head and when I wrote whatever it is, I've left out context or didn't word something very well. So I'm hypercritical of areas of ambiguity ... which leads me to overcompensate and bog down my prose with exposition and unnecessary detail. It's a catch-22 lol. That's why it's so reassuring when a comment hits on something that I was intentionally trying to convey without blatantly spelling it out. It's like "Yes! I did it! I did the communication!" lol

💥find your least kudos'd fic - say something wonderful about it.

So I know I gotta correct this but I don't have anything posted on my Ao3 account and my stuff on fanfic.net are from when I was in high school so I'm not going to drudge them back to life lol. But I guess a general statement I can say about those early fics without details is that they let me process a lot of the isolation and loneliness I felt in those days. I had my self-insert OC and she could be everything I aspired to but fell short of, and of course she was loved by every character I respected. I needed that feeling, even if I had to create it myself. I wasn't really aware that's what I was doing, but looking back it was clear self-soothing. So they are wonderful for giving me a place to take what I needed and not worry about the quality of my writing. I was able to get through some tough times because of them and I'll always remember that.

🧿what steps do you take to not take things personally if a fic doesn't do well, or if your writing/posting/sharing experience isn't going how you'd like it to?

Oh I like this one!! If I fic isn't getting the same interaction I expect for some reason - because we all expect some level of interaction even if we do write for ourselves - is to reread it. This way, I remind myself why I needed to tell this story, what it meant to me, and what I like about it. If I can't remember those things, then maybe it genuinely wasn't ready to be published and maybe I should work on it more. But usually I can remember and once I do, I'll reread again but with my "editor's" cap like I'm reading a submission for work - that way I can find objective reasons it's not everyone's cup of tea - tone, subject, diction, characterization, etc. - that are understandable, rather than the subjective feeling of just not being good enough so I can shrug and move on. If the disappointment is persistent, I get a snack and tell my support people IRL (who haven't and will never read my writing but know I do write) that I had a disappointing reaction and just wanted to vent that to them so they can validate me without giving more suggestions. My best friend sent over her middle school poetry once to make me feel better lol.

Sorry these got long, but you picked the in-depth questions, so in-depth answers you get!

#thanks for the ask! #i love talking about writing like this #it really emphasizes the community/workshop nature of fanfic circles #rather than holding up masterlists as a popularity contest

[bookscoffeeandracoons]

Goodness it's such an emotional day.

Today it's exactly one year ago, that I saw my dad for the last time. It was the day he was picked up by the RV and brought to the hospital. Because of covid we weren't allowed to visit him. And in four days it's one year since he passed away. Technically that's the last day I saw him, but I don't like to count it like that. Today, a year ago, he hugged me the last time.

I miss him so much. It's unbelievable that it's already a year ago that I talked to him, that I just still had him as my dad in my life.

The last year was incredibly hard.

After my dad Kate's grandma, who was just like my grandma for me, too, and Kate's mum, who i also considered my second mum, both passed away within 5 months.

We buried 3 people who were so important to us. And in October we had to let our Lucky go as well. In the meantime also some of our pet mice passed and in December one of our rats. With little rodents it hurts terribly, too. But their lives are so short, it's a different kind of being prepared for that. Although I miss every single one of them.

So today, is kind of the anniversary of when that horrible year began in 22.

But instead of going the same route this year, today we got a call from a shelter because of a pup that we want to adopt. It was an amazing conversation, the Lady was absolutely lovely and now will send us someone to visit us and see, if everything is as we said and alright for a dog.

I'm not worried about that, after all a dog lived here already. But we sent the Email last week, the Lady apologised a bunch of times because usually they call the next day after receiving the mail. Instead, of all the other days it could have been, the call came today.

It made me absolutely emotional, I've been crying for all the mixed up reasons every now and then today. I'm sad, I miss my dad and all the others. But we're very likely getting a big pupper soon and that is so exciting. The only explanation I have, is that our loved ones up there are pushing all the buttons so things finally get better for us again.

Life is chaotic, but sometimes the best things start on the worst days, I guess.

#things about me #about my life #personal stuff

[bubblesandgutz]

Hello again, Brian! New album is dope and on heavy, heavy repeat. So, thanks for that. Was wondering, now that we're a year out from you and the guys getting robbed, how are you liking the changes to your gear? I noticed your rig is predominantly Darkglass, do you still have the Meatsmoke? We're you able to rebuild your board with the same gear? New preferences? Thanks!

Hey y'all... big apologies for not getting through my inbox with any degree of regularity. This message is from last year, so I've obviously been slacking. Sorry! And thanks for the kind words regarding Gnosis.

Russian Circles were robbed in Chowchilla, CA back in October '21. Our box truck was parked at a hotel parking lot and we woke up in the morning to find the majority of our gear, merch, and a bunch of miscellaneous personal items gone. Personally, I lost two speaker cabinets, a synth, a MIDI keyboard, a baritone guitar, a bass, pedalboard, and a bunch of accessories (DI, strings, cables, multitools, etc). Oh... and they took a really nice pair of boots from me. Assholes.

It was an unusual tour for us because it was only a handful of shows and it was on the West Coast, so we flew out and Mike and Dave rented/borrowed a bunch of gear. I had just purchased three speaker cabs from Darkglass, so I had driven my rig down from Seattle. I was fortunate because my amps weren't stolen (they were in a beat-up cardboard box that the thieves must've missed) and I still had my Meatsmoke back in Chicago. But I had JUST bought those cabinets, so that was a very big bummer.

We were unlucky in that our gear insurance had lapsed. This was because the renewal email from the insurance company was sent to a label employee that had gotten a new job during the pandemic. However, because so much of the gear was rented/borrowed, it likely wouldn't have covered much of the loss. But we were very fortunate that fans were generous via GoFundMe and several instrument companies immediately offered to help us out (thank you Darkglass, Electrical Guitar Company, Dunlop, Fuzzrocious, and Keith McMillen). It was also a big turning point for us because Hiwatt loaned Mike a backline for the remaining shows, and Mike has never been happier with his sound now that he's playing Hiwatts.

Ever since the robbery, I've been cycling through a lot of different gear options. I was able to rebuild my pedalboard, but my new bass and baritone have slightly different sonic characteristics from the instruments that were stolen, and as a result my sound changed slightly. Most of my first shows back after the pandemic were nowhere near Chicago, which meant I didn't have access to my 8x10 and Meatsmoke. So I used the Darkglass amp and cabs for the TAAS shows, SUMAC shows, and remaining stateside RC dates in 2021 and early 2022. Russian Circles went back to Europe in Spring '22 and I rented a couple of Ampeg SVT3s for the tour just because they tend to be the amps that I'm most comfortable dialing in. I felt really confident about the sound I got in Europe... felt like it was closer to my pre-robbery sound... so I got back to the States and bought two cheap used SVT3s for our Fall tour. By the end of the tour, both amps were broken beyond repair. I finished the tour using my Meatsmoke on bass and Darkglass for synth stuff. The Meatsmoke is still an excellent amp but I'm nervous taking it on the road now that Verellen isn't making amps anymore.

My Meatsmoke and 8x10 are still in Chicago. Most of my Darkglass stuff is in LA. And since most of my musical activity this year has been in the PNW with Botch and SUMAC, I've had to cobble together a backline from borrowed stuff here in Seattle. Been using a pair of cabs that belong to Cory from Minus the Bear and have been borrowing amps from Science and Hiwatt. Both amps are fantastic. I actually bought the Science amp after recording the new SUMAC album on it, and am currently talking with Hiwatt about getting one of their DR201 amps.

So that's where I've been at with gear. If you've been wondering why every picture of my backline on Instagram is different, that's the reason.

[fayoftheforest]

hiii!!! i hope this doesnt come across as me sounding demanding im just a little guy who LOVES ur writing so much i just cant help but be curious about the 22/23 chapters on ship in a bottle?!?!!! i finished it a few days ago and have been talking about it nonstop w my friends and we noticed it and were like WTF?! does this mean a potential epilogue peepoShy?! i would genuinely love to see one IF u r planning one bc you have such a way with words, the entire fic was incredible and i jsut cant get enough of it.

(Ask is in reference to this fic) 

Hello lovely anon! Thank you so much for your message and apologies for the slight delay on the reply, I've not been checking Tumblr very often as of late.

It fills my heart with joy to hear that you and your friends liked my story enough to chat about it!! I've been writing fics for the fandom for almost two years now and it still blows my mind that my writing, which means so much to me, can mean so much for other people too?? Woah!! I would love to hear any thoughts, feedback and critiques you guys have if you feel like sharing. If so then feel free to drop me an email at [email protected] or add my discord FayOfTheForest#6892 as I’m always on the lookout for more fandom buddies!

Anyway yes good spot on the 22/23, there is in fact an epilogue coming which, I'm thrilled to announce, will be uploaded either this Saturday (2nd of July) or the next (9th of July)!! I’m in the editing process at the moment and should have it sent off to my beta readers by the end of today for a final look over. It’s only been *checks watch* seven months since the last upload. Not too shabby. 

#WIP: Ship In A Bottle #south park #south park fic #sp fic

[give-soup-please]

INBOX IS OPEN!

Alright everyone, I got to all the requests in my inbox, so it's going to open up again in a few minutes. A couple of reminders and announcements:

This isn't going to be a 100% headcanon blog. (though, the more I say that, the more I doubt it)

I write for the narrator from the stanley parable. I can write platonic or romantic things, either for 'you' (the reader) or someone else.

I'm doing these for fun, and I don't guarantee to write to everything that's sent in.

I don't write about s*icide, extreme violence, or NSFW at this time.

And a quick announcement- I'll be taking a few days off from posting. Tonight, I'm taking a break from writing. Tomorrow (6/11) is my birthday. I'll be 22. I'm going to be doing birthday things. Also, I'm going camping from (6/12-16) to a remote place where internet access isn't going to be a thing. Here's what I'm going to do. I'm going to leave the inbox open until I get back from camping on the 16th, and after I've got internet access again, I'll shut the inbox off and work through the requests that have been sent in. So if you want to request something, now's the time. Just keep in mind that I will not have access to the internet, so it may take a while. Once I'm back home though, you can bet that stuff will be posted rapidly again. All asks are sent to my email, so there will be an archive for me to work through when I return. Don't get worried if there isn't an immediate response this time.

See you after the break!

#tsp narrator #headcanon #stanley parable #the stanley parable #tsp narrator x reader #narrator #tsp