#i've selfharmed in so many ways over the years like i've slized myself open and i've overeaten

[spokelseskladden]

I....im like. I like mybody today???? The fuck??? Like it really does what it's supposed to do, it carries my brain around, every single day. It doesn't look like i wanted it to most of my lufe, but why should that matter? It does its job, and like. That's pretty awesome. I've never judged other peoples bodies, so i really shouldn't judge my own. Especially when all it does is exist

#sometimes u have to sort of 'separate' myself from my body to realize that what it looks like doesn't matter #i've tried to be more healthy lately and it's baby steps #but learning to like my skin and my flesh and my bones is an important part of it #so i can give my body the nutrients and the care it deserves #i've selfharmed in so many ways over the years like i've slized myself open and i've overeaten #i've smoked and treated myself like shit #but the body i'm born in doesn't deserve that. I don't deserve that #so i'm trying to change and i want to get better #i managed to stop cutting and i've been able to not do it for like. 2 or 3 years now #so i'm quitting the nicotine shit and i'm stopping the overeating #if i have kids i don't want them to grow up seeing everyone around them complain about their bodies like i did #it's so unhealthy