#i-care-enough-for-myself

[fossys]

system stuff sometimes is like.

yes im an ancient godly power from another realm

and yes im doing our math homework because no one else wants to do it

#i dont. particularly care for it but its fine enough. #im also safe to do it without anything “bad” happening #perks of being myself i guess- #-noire #sysblr #system #plural #i guess also im a god and stuff. and also yes im posting on tumblr #i think its neat #plurality

[aromantic-diaries]

My favorite argument against literally anything like "it's not natural" or something along those lines is simply I Don't Care

#aro #aromantic #arospec #ace #asexual #acespec #lgbtq+ #lgbtq #queer #< additional tags bc while i'm talking about being aro and ace this pretty much goes for literally every queer identity under the sun #not even joking. let's say hypothetically being trans is unnatural and wrong. i actually don't care i think it's awesome #i don't consider myself the rebellious type but i also go against several societal norms just by existing so fuck it. anarchy it is then #i cannot stress this enough. i don't care if it's wRoNg. i can live with that. you can't even imagine how willing i am to live with that

[hello-eeveev]

can we. can we talk about how in the final lucien fight, Essek failed to resist the slow effect from one of the eyes (he rolled two natural 1s in a row). canonically, he was weighed down with with so much shame and guilt that he could barely move—the same guilt that he is seriously considering going back in time to undo—and he didn’t use his fortune’s favor reroll to try to alleviate it.

but he did expend his mote of possibility when he struggled to pull Caleb out from under a building. no hesitation.

so. so. was he saving his fortune’s favor for the mighty nein? had he already decided not to use it for himself?

homeboy really said “I would break the world to undo my sins, but I will bear them if it means you survive.”

#‘I don’t fool myself into thinking I will absolve myself of those things #but I think that if I do enough I can at least carry it more easily.’ #‘I have taken your lessons to heart.’ #now flip it and reverse it #more late night wizard posting with eve #critical role #essek thelyss #caleb widogast #shadowgast #I was intending this to be about Essek caring for his friends #and not specifically about sg #but what can I say #the wizards have had an indelible effect on each other #late night wizard posting #eve talks

[wordstome]

what is it with me and school/university settings because I can't stop thinking about having a nasty one night stand with König at some frat party and he becomes obsessed with you while you don't even know his name. you're just trying to get through uni without crashing and burning while coping using drugs and sex and there's just this fucking guy who you slept with once and now he's everywhere, caring about you to an infuriating degree

#OH MY GOD WHAT IF THE READER CHARACTER GIVES HIM THE NICKNAME KONIG WHILE THEY'RE FUCKING #and she just doesn't care enough to learn his name so she just calls him konig #i just have a thing for reader characters who like #do not match his energy whatsoever #but he's persistent and devoted and has a massive cock #and once she gets closer she's like oh okay. there's more to this guy than i thought #oh fuck do i like him??? #it's fun having a cod writing sideblog i can just talk to myself #and have all my thoughts in one place #2am thoughts #König #König x reader #konig #konig x reader #cod #mw2 #cod mw2 #university au #fic: now playing

[mumblesplash]

pov you’re the wither and you have about 30 seconds to live

(the marks under his eye just say ‘RIP’ in sga/enchantment table language if anyone was curious)

#my art #witchcraft smp #smajor95 #i just thought it was funny seeing as his whole deal is not letting people do that #the idea was actually that he was *about* to summon the wither which is why the sword’s in his off hand you know what nobody cares topsy #the witchcraft smp kinda got me tho ngl i literally have like 4 things i want to draw from this episode alone #i keep saying this but i really need to start just posting stuff and not letting myself finish it bc i want to draw so many #and frankly almost none of it needs to be polished but i keep getting carried away and not having time for other drawings >:[ #i even do this fully aware that people in general like sketches *more* than finished stuff! my brain doesn’t care! #anyway enough about me how about those block game witches

[theragamuffininitiative]

I don't need a vacation, I need a sabbatical, where I go live in an abbey in switzerland for six months where I read and garden and study and stare at the sky and learn about birds and make some art and write a lot and help feed the nearby village with the garden crops and there are no ads or algorithms or tv shows or fastfood restaurants and I walk into town once a week for phone and internet to check on friends and family and then I go away again and preferably there are cats and goats and those soft brown cows and one shaggy dog and I learn I have a new favorite constellation and type of flower and shade of green.

#ragamusings #anyone else? #had to drive v carefully around a phone-distracted driver on my way home and i wanted to shake him by the shoulders #had someone want a refund from their show bc they didnt like it (we didn't have enough cast members apparently???) #and i watched horrific news unfold #and i'm so angry and tired and frustrated #i took a week-long staycation and only began to feel like myself again on the fifth day #anyways you can reblog this if you relate it's not just a private ramble #but idk if it is relatable or not i just want it deep in my soul #but alas i have no money and sabbaticals cost money ironically #and who would take care of my cats

[uncanny-tranny]

I've talked before about how the way people treat suicide can be unintentionally devastating to the suicidal person, but I don't think I really ever said how to avoid that.

Speaking about suicide in how selfish it "is" ("think about how you'll transfer your pain to your loved ones!") might seem like a way to put logical sense into the suicidal person, but, honestly? It runs the risk of massively increasing their shame and guilt about being suicidal. Suicide is not inherently a revenge fantasy or a way to "get back" at someone's loved ones, so when the suicidal person is treated like a criminal of a "crime" they haven't even committed yet, you can imagine how unhelpful that can become.

Instead, if you want to point out how cherished your person is, frame their relationships as something they can keep fostering.

"Your cat will miss you :(!!!!" becomes "you and your cat seem close, right? I'm sure it's beautiful having a close friend like that!" and maybe include ways that they and their cat are close and meaningful to each other, tailored to that relationship.

That's only one example, but when you shift the focus away from why that person should repent and feel guilty for being suicidal, you can instead focus on why they would live for that reason. See how you can frame that as a positive? Whatever is keeping that person tethered should never be used as a bludgeon, I think, because then you're taking away why they're living, the positivity of why they are here. Whatever they are here for should be remembered often and honoured.

#mental health #mental health advocacy #mental health support #suicide #suicide tw #(after this i'm going to rant about being told the unhelpful narrative i included above) #when i was younger the thing i was told the most was that suicide would only transfer my pain to others... #...and is that true? maybe. was it helpful? no. #why was that unhelpful? #because i started using that as yet ANOTHER reason to feel guilty and to lash out against myself... #...because that didn't magic away my suicidality like it 'should have'... #...and that was ~obvious~ proof i didn't care enough about my loved ones to keep them out of harms way... #...and it can be really hard not to do that (give advice like that) because if you're not the suocidal person... #...you have the luxury of thinking without the burden they are labouring under... #...you can see 'logically' and make assumptions about what the other person 'needs' #it's just frustrating because i know that people like this want to help but i worry about *how* they are helping... #...in the sense that i want their efforts to actually help their person and bring them closer

[infiniteorangethethird]

being loveless does suck sometimes but less bc of some "ohnooo I'll never be able to loooove what will I ever doooo" bs but because how the hell do you tell the ppl around you that you view all relationships as business transactions where the currency is care and support and the reward is trust? How do you tell someone "hey so I could not care less about you as a person but also I enjoy every second we spend together and I'd fight the universe for you if you asked and if you ever disappeared I probably wouldn't miss you but I'd still cry for all the things we never got to experience together" without being the asshole?

#loveless #loveless apl #loveless aplatonic #aplatonic #aplspec #loveless aro #loveless aromantic #so many times i find myself believing im a shitty person #for not being emotionally invested in others #i find it genuinely hard to truly care for other ppl #but it's like i do wanna help and support you!! i do wanna be there for you #and do stupid shit with you!! #id do anything a good friendship requires from me!! #and yet it never feels enough bc the needed emotions aren't behind the acts #not enough that i do it bc i wanna. not enough if it's not out of love #and like how could i blame them for it? how else would they react to #'hey i literally don't care about you. let's hang out anyway'? #(bestie if ur reading this. im sorry...?) #queer stuff

[tariah23]

One of the main reasons why I used to avoid Isekai’s, and fantasy works in general, like the plague is because of how over saturated they’d become with things that didn’t feel like they even belonged to the genre to begin with… it’s not too hard to find works that stand out but so much of those works have been pushed down and forgotten, it just sucks.

#one of the many reasons why fantasy in general outside of a few things has never stuck with me or have even been a go to genre to engage #with if it was simply just that and nothing else added to subvert the genres 🧍🏾‍♀️ #at least enough for me to enjoy myself… and I’m an insanely picky person too so… #isekai’s really did get turned into incel shit and sm of them are pedo/incest pandering as well #the amount of times I’ve run into an isekai where the warrior ends up marrying his daughter at the end of the series- #never got over that one where the son was falling in love with his mom bro that series could’ve been so fun #and a lot of the scenes with them would have them almost appearing as though they were a couple… the Romantic scene on the beach 💩… #kms rn- #and sm fantasty stuff is full of assault as well because they want to be like berserk so badly uhhh #it’s kinda crazy #rambling #I’m mostly desensitized to a lot of this stuff in fiction depending on how they’re presented but I usual usually scroll by/read the things #as quickly as possible just to get done with it #I don’t rly skip most things tbh :( #DM is refreshing though it’s very charming and colorful #I don’t have much to say for frieren since I never really cared to get into it but I’m sure it’s endearing for most

[emry-stars-art]

Have you ever heard the noises axolotls make? its kinda quiet blub!, when they reach the surface of the water to gulp down some air. Anyway any time i see JellyNeil my mind immediately goes to Neil just making that noise

I HAVE NOW. wow I made a reel for the first time in forever just so I could get this across properly, here you go

(Audio from this YouTube video)

Find the mer au masterpost here 💕

#this was DELIGHTFUL #it’s okay for the first few years I bet a jelly mer could do quite well in a tank or fishbowl #as long as you are aware it will try to eat everything in there #e v e r y t h i n g #so keep it with some crabs and snails probably #or any fish big enough to fend for itself #I cannot promise the safety of your little shrimp #and give it toys #why am I getting into ‘the care of your jellyfish’ rn #stop that we got work to do #(@ myself) #but thank you for the ask I loved this hehe #also explain to me why my brain is so sure that jelly mers can breathe air easier than most fish #not like a mammal like a whale or whatever #it’s not the ideal way to get oxygen #but jellyNeil breathes air better than the sharks #and for why #no clue #anyway #fan art #my art #aftg #all for the game #neil josten #jellyneil au #jellyfish #mer au #asks #jellyneil #mer research notes

[heroesriseandfall]

Fanon mischaracterization of the Drakes is how I end up making a post defending Tim’s parents from baseless fanon bashing only to immediately after make a post complaining about their canon parenting.

#they’re pretty terrible parents most of the time but not like THAT #jack drake did not literally call on the U.S. government to save tim from a war zone only for 1000 fanfics to claim he didn’t care abt tim #neglectful and abusive parents can in fact also love their children! they are not devoid of emotion! they just don’t know how to parent #ALSO. they CLEARLY cared about Tim more than about status! they were just way too caught up in their work to pay enough attention to him! #/end complaint #not really done complaining I’m just gonna stop myself before I keep going #tim drake #jack drake #janet drake #drake parenting #heroesriseandfall #canon vs fanon

[anininas]

Stupid doodles that were speficially catered towards myself 💛

#I never cared much about re6 Leon but playing rhe game myself did something to me #resident evil #leon s kennedy #helena harper #luis serra #ashley graham #dead by daylight #ghostface #danny johnson #micheal myers #If you scroll far enough on my profile you can probably find old dbd fanart #which funnily enough was also my first Leon drawing #ani's scribbles

[pcktknife]

I hate when I start acting like a brat in splatoon when we're losing and then the scores come up and I'm in last fucking place as if me covering the ground and screaming this way at my dumbass team isnt doing anything

#my job in rainmaker is making paths and no one ever fucking follows me if we lose thats on you for not paying attention #maybe i dont kill enough people but i try my best to get u where u need to be *grits teeth* but it doesnt matter if you dont move #whatever ill grab the rainmaker and kill myself and piss us all off who cares #kae.txt

[benveydraws]

i can't love you in this skin

#twittering birds never fly #saezuru tori wa habatakanai #suggestive #<- jic #interpret this as you will #there's A Lot about gender and yashiro's relationship with gender and heteronormativity especially in relation to doumeki #he asks him what type of Women he likes. they only watch m/f stuff together. “i wonder if he's gentle with women”. #the anger and disappointment when he realizes that doumeki is actually attracted to him #unless he's remembering something that happened he only fantasises about doumeki with a woman and not with himself #(same was with kageyama iirc) #except for that kiss in the elevator but that's a whole other conversation. and even then there was a woman present #he even tells kamiya that doumeki is basically straight and he's just a rare exception #yashiro's is so so desperate to push doumeki towards a “normal” life #aka not in yakuza. not with him. in a normal (straight) relationship #just. a lot of self hatred and internalized homophobia #all that being said. i think regardless of the author's intent reading yashiro as a closeted trans person is also valid #the “i could never afford myself to reflect on this and i also don't care enough about living to even bother atp” type of closet #would it contradict some of the things yashiro says? sure. but he contradicts himself all the time #am i projecting as someone who will live and die in the closet? sure #i think it's interesting that the only person who genuinely asks him about gender is ryuzaki #in the same conversation where he asks him about falling in love #and yashiro's response is basically “it wouldn't change much” and “i'm fine with what i have”. are you tho #there's a lot i can say about yashiro and aoi and yashiro and ryuzaki's girlfriend but i can't articulate it well rn so whatever #the way dumeki's lie about dating a woman affects yashiro is also interesting regardless of which interpretation you go with #which is also why i'm using post time-skip for the art. the topic keeps popping up #but yeah uh. take it as you will i just have a lot of feelings about. This #art tag

[rileyclaw]

Hey, if you're still taking requests, maybe the emerald trio? I just really love how you draw them.

i love these kids with all my heart and i NEED to see them interact again soon or I might actually die

(I'm not taking requests anymore, since my inbox still has so many!)

#the owl house #toh #emerald trio #willow park #hunter toh #gus porter #holds them up by their scruffs i just think theyre neat #clover toh #flapjack toh #im not typing out gus' palismans name i dont trust myself enough . #my art #love how willow and gus saw hunter and went luz we're keeping him we dont care if he has every disease

[louroth]

thought it's about time I poked my head out of the mire, and confirm that this period of silence just seems to be a part of my process. I can't wait to show you what I am working on. It has taken on a life of its own. It's beautiful and untamed like a wild horse. So much has and is changing. I love it to pieces. !!

#I hope you are taking care of yourselves too!!! I can't wait for tumblr brainrot to take hold again >:3 #a rough est: I wouldn't expect The Drop until the 2nd anniversary in march- it seems fitting for a mighty metamorphosis such as this :> #but truly anything could happen- I just want to give myself enough time. learning something new is always slow at the start! and the middle #and at the end. But then! #thank you for all the asks and encouragement<3 you sustain me through tough times. *blows a kiss into the sky* for u #OUROBOROS #ouroboros if #ouroboros-if #interactive fiction #twine game #twine wip #progress update #if you /are/ thirsty for more ouro stuffs come visit our home on discord<3 or take a peep on patreon mayhaps!