#i. am. not. okay.

[foreverdreaming252]

I...so even Neo knew Penny and Ruby loved each other.

#i. am. not. okay. #neo I know you were troubled but that? #that was sick #omfg #rwby v9 #nuts and dolts #ruby rose #penny polendina #as weiss once said #shut up don't touch me

[veryferaldistributions]

I know it’s been less than 24-hours since binging, and I’m probably hormonal and sleep deprived, but every time I think about Good Omens even slightly I start crying.

#i. am. not. okay. #good omens 2 #good omens #inneffable bureaucracy #inneffable husbands #sobbing

[bumblewyn]

just realised that TLOVM season 2 has started and i can literally FEEL the critical role obsession crawling back into my bones

#i've been on a bit of a hiatus with watching it since i've been busy with other hobbies #BUT OH GOD I CAN FEEL THE OBSESSION RISING WITHIN ME LIKE A TIDAL WAVE #I. AM. NOT. OKAY. #i have so much campaign 3 to catch up on #i'm on book 9 of the alex rider series #i think i'm gonna nyoom my way to critical role as soon as i finish the series #well #after i read that one danny phantom crossover fic that is #bee talks #cr

[whatkindofnameisella]

can you believe that we have fanfiction. that we have websites dedicated to fanfiction. that there is a place that you can go and read tens, hundreds, thousands and thousands of pieces of writing that strangers have made. people who are not "writers". people who come home at the end of the day and have feelings and say, i am going to put that into words. i am going to share those words. short, long, sweet, sad, horny, funny, wonderful words. we are all just human and we all love to make and remake and share that with others. can you believe that.

#ao3 #archive of our own #fanfiction #sometimes i can't even believe how much i myself have written. like i think i am not a writer. i am not doing enough. i do not write enough #and i look back and i have 34 (34!!) works on ao3 and reams of unpublished work on my computer and so long left to live. so i think #we will be okay. #writing

[catmask]

does anyone have like an anti aesthetic. like something you look at and can recognize as a complete fashion/interior design/artistic movement and understand it but it makes you shudder seeing it. i am not talking like “its morally bad” “its poorly structured” like just sheerly devoid of joy for you actually invites a repulse response.

#also if it wasnt clear this isnt ‘its bad its lazy’ there is a level of like #completion consistancy i am thinking for with this #personally i really do not enjoy the like. vintage chic long red nails fur coats noir esque aesthetic HOWEVER 💥💥💥 #i can recognize that it is put together it is Intentional #i feel like a lot of people are going to say minimalism on this so LET ME SAY 🫰☝️ i recognize that minimalism is Considered an aesthetic #but i *PERSONALLY* do not consider it an aesthetic i consider it the void of one #it is a lapse in aesthetic or personality in the same way a silence in a song is still technically a ‘beat’ but no music is played #however the importance of Space or Breath in design is more akin to a purposeful silence in music #because that silence matters in the same way rhythm and breath in design do #so i guess minimalism is more comparable to like. white noise. the sound of a fan #very little effort and there is a comfort in it i suppose but its not. A Design. okay #TO ME 🤫 #if minimalism has one hater its me if minimalism has no haters im dead

[voidoffline]

!This is a drawing! Not a screenshot!

This is nineteen hours of work. (Not the build I based this off of- it only took me like a few minutes to build it XD)

(This is the next build of mine that I will draw)

#art #digital art #my art #fanart #<- ? #minecraft #minecraft art #minecraft fanart #okay so this would be considered fanart #gottcha #minecraft build #at least this is based off a build #sunrise #I am very proud of this #likely because it took me nineteen fucking hours #and gosh I still have one more to go- #I’ll post the other one when it’s finished on its own. and then both of them together in another post #drawing not a screenshot

[peblezq]

Good Omens 2 was like reading a 100k fanfic in the middle of the night that you realize was left unfinished and last updated 5 years ago, and you are left alone with this earth-shattering cliffhanger

#i am not okay #this season is going to destroy me #i am obsessed #but so fucking distraught #neil gaiman #good omens #good omens 2

[oof-i-did-it-agaaiiin]

Beautiful from Ordinary Days

#EDIT: I added links to the post’s caption go click them. #I did this because people were mistaking the words as a poem. I love poems. it’s not a poem. #it’s a song from a musical that deserves more attention. go listen to the song. if you like it go listen to the musical. it’s fantastic #it’ll make you laugh and it’ll make you cry. could not recommend enough. #okay edit over. back to my og tags #long post #and I'm talking LONG like do you love the color of the sky long #today I am a nuisance to your dash #but it's in the name of art and beauty #ordinary days #musicals #paintings #art museum #post i made #i love lyrics #greatest hits

[liveandbreathemusicals]

Gay people will be like “this is my comfort show!” And then show you the most emotionally devastating, stress-inducing, tragic piece of media you have ever witnessed

#good omens #our flag meets death #a league of their own #Heartstopper #young royals #dead poets society #fleabag #doctor who #Merlin #the last of us #what we do in the shadows #haunting of bly manor #i am not okay with this #stranger things #shadow and bone #lady bird #yellowjackets #she ra

[hansoeii]

dear ed, I love everything about you.

#THE TEASER #I AM NOT OKAY #AHHHH #I was so nervous today that I had to draw something to calm my nerves #THEY'RE COMING BACK TO ME!! #i do not know why ed is wearing buttons shirt in that oen promo pic but i liek the vibe #ofmd #ofmd 2 #our flag means death #our flag emans death season 2 #ofmd fanart #ofmd s2 fanart #our flag means death fanart #stede bonnet #ed teach #gentlebeard #gentlebeard fanart #my art #digital art

[socra--tease]

The way Percy is going to go from “I chose her because I couldn’t imagine we’d ever be friends” to “the world was crumbling around me and the only thing that mattered was that she was alive” and choosing to fall into Tartarus for her, from “I don’t know what to think or who to trust” to trusting Annabeth to know where his Achilles spot is… oh I am FERAL rn

#pjo tv show #pjo tv show spoilers #percabeth #I am not okay #also I would die for Leah sava Jeffries NO QUESTIONS ASKED #it would be an honor #leah sava jeffries #walker scobell #percy jackson #annabeth chase

[zivazivc]

I feel like I have some of the most random headcanons. but I am lowkey obsessed with the fact that John Dory is so much older than Branch that he potentially could have dated their friends'/peers' parents, and/or anything else funny and possibly entertaining that the large age difference entails lmaokskssbcdsbcjdh

edit: part two

#trolls #dreamworks trolls #(I headcanon that JD is 18 years older than Branch) #branch does not compute all that that entails lmao #also the possibility that he could have been getting bullied by his nephew lmao #okay okay i'll stop #my art #trolls branch #trolls poppy #broppy #trolls john dory #john dory #trolls creek #trolls oc #freesia #every one of my troll posts so far has an oc yay yippe :P #brozone #trolls band together #trolls spoilers #i guess #trolls comic #comic #trolls fanart #that second panel branch is so in love and i am so in love with the fact #and then the third panel poppy is so in love and i'm just GYAAAAHHH 🥺🥺🥺

[dramamccringe]

Me when something LGBTQ+ happens in the LGBTQ+ series with the LGBTQ+ characters that I watch because they are LGBTQ+ and have LGBTQ+ characters: ���

#good omens #ineffable husbands #what we do in the shadows #wwdits #she ra #the sandman #she ra and the princesses of power #spop #hannibal nbc #our flag means death #ofmd #disenchantment #heartstopper #i am not okay with this #first kill #lgbt+ #lgbtq+ #lgbtqia #-

[mobius-m-mobius]

#the Nowhere Man who waits and the God of Stories who watches

#mobius #loki #lokius #mcuedit #lokiedit #marveledit #loki spoilers #owen wilson #tom hiddleston #owenwilsonedit #marvel #dianagifs #😩😭 #what... in the most tragic of romances did i just witness #gotta rewatch tomorrow but cannot BELIEVE how okay i am with everything atm??? #their story clearly isn't done their burden is obviously going on without each other and they exist fundamentally connected #they've lost everything but being able to see mobius every step of the way is enough for loki to make the sacrifice #and mobius left for his timeline with no other purpose than to make sure loki could do just that #now they're lost without each other?? the only thing mobius can do is exist for a moment in loki's creation i'm UNWELL #god this is the star crossed angst that's gonna keep me going for the rest of my LIFE they're my everything #loki s2 spoilers

[stromblessed]

Mizu, femininity, and fallen sparrows

In my last post about Mizu and Akemi, I feel like I came across as overly critical of Mizu given that Mizu is a woman who - in her own words - has to live as a man in order to go down the path of revenge.

If she is ever discovered to be female by the wrong person, she will not only be unable to complete her quest, but there's a good chance that she'll be arrested or killed.

So it makes complete sense for Mizu to distance herself as much as possible from any behavior that she feels like would make someone question her sex.

I felt so indignant toward Mizu on my first couple watchthroughs for this moment. Why couldn't Mizu bribe the woman and her child's way into the city too? If Mizu is presenting as a man, couldn't she claim to be the woman's escort?

However, this moment makes things pretty clear. Mizu knows all too well the plight of women in her society. She knows it so well that she cannot risk ever finding herself back in their position again. She helps in what little way she can - without drawing attention to herself.

Mizu is not a hero and she is not one to make of herself a martyr - she will not set herself on fire to keep others warm. There's room to argue that Mizu shouldn't prioritize her quest over people's lives, but given the collateral damage Mizu can live with in almost every episode of season 1, Mizu is simply not operating under that kind of morality at this point. ("You don't know what I've done to reach you," Mizu tells Fowler.)

And while I still feel like Mizu has an obvious and established blind spot when it comes to Akemi because of their differences in station, such that Mizu's judgment of Akemi and actions in episode 5 are the result of prejudice rather than the result of Mizu's caution, I also want to establish that Mizu is just as caged as Akemi is, despite her technically having more freedom while living as a man.

Mizu can hide her mixed race identity some of the time, and she can hide her sex almost all of the time, but being able to operate outside of her society's strict rules for women does not mean she cannot see their plight.

It does not mean she doesn't hurt for them.

Back to Mizu and collateral damage, remember that sparrow?

While Mizu is breaking into Boss Hamata's manse, she gets startled by a bird and kills it on reflex. She then cradles it in her hands - much more tenderly than we've seen Mizu treat almost anything up to this point in the season:

She then puts it in its nest, with its unhatched eggs. Almost like she's trying to make the death look natural. Or like an accident.

You see where I'm going with this.

When Mizu kills Kinuyo, Mizu lingers in the moment, holding the body tenderly:

And btw a lot of stuff about this show hit me hard, but this remains the biggest gut punch of them all for me, Mizu holding that poor girl's body close, GOD

When Mizu arranges the "scene of the crime," Kinuyo's body is delicate, birdlike. And Mizu is so shaken afterward that she gets sloppy. She's horrified at this kill to the point that she can't bring herself to take another innocent life - the boy who rats her out.

MIZU'S ONE MOMENT OF SOFTNESS AND MERCY, COMING ON THE HEELS OF HER NEEDING TO KILL A GIRL TO SPARE HER THE WORST FATE THAT THIS RIGID SOCIETY HAS TO OFFER WOMEN, AND TO SPARE A BROTHEL FULL OF INNOCENT WOMEN WHO ARE THE CASTOFFS OF SOCIETY, NEARLY RESULTS IN ALL OF THEIR DEATHS

No wonder Mizu is as stoic and cold as she is.

And no wonder Mizu has no patience for Akemi whatsoever right before the terrible reveal and the fight breaks out:

Speaking of Akemi - guess who else is compared to a bird!

The plumage is more colorful, a bit flashier. But a bird is a bird.

And, uh

Yeah.

I like to think that Mizu killing the sparrow is not only foreshadowing for what she must do to Kinuyo, but is also a representation of the choice she makes on Akemi's behalf. She decides to cage the bird because she believes the bird is "better off." Better off caged than... dead.

But because Mizu doesn't know Akemi or her situation, she of course doesn't realize that the bird is fated to die if it is caged and sent back home.

Mizu is clearly not happy, or pleased, or satisfied by allowing Akemi to be dragged back to her father:

But softness and mercy haven't gotten Mizu anywhere good, recently.

There is so much tragedy layered into Mizu's character, and it includes the things she has to witness and the choices she makes - or believes she has to make - involving women, when she herself can skirt around a lot of what her society throws at women. Although, I do believe that it comes at the cost of a part of Mizu's soul.

After all, I'm gonna be haunted for the rest of this show by Mizu's very first prayer in episode 1:

"LET" her die. Because as Ringo points out, she doesn't "know how" to die.

Kind of like another bird in this show:

#blue eye samurai #mizu #akemi #kinuyo #bes #women are birds okay they are BIRDS #the let me die line is so SCARY AND SAD like a part of Mizu wants death but she cant? she doesnt know how?? excuse you show??? #when all these other delicate birds are dying all around her #akemis character gets more and more gutwrenching upon subsequent rewatches because whenever she says her life is in danger #NO ONE BELIEVES HER - certainly not other women #because shes rich and pampered and that means shes safe and is worrying about nothing right? right????? #and it turns out that all of akemis instincts were right and she was in danger the ENTIRE TIME #also I need to make a post just for kinuyo because I am sad

[soon-palestine]

DON'T BE SILENT MAKE YOURSELF BE HEARD #FreePalestine

[image description : a person setting on his computer and says " but I am just one person " below are many persons the same way she is on their desktops telling themselves " I can't do anything " and then many more of people the same way End Description.]

#palestine #gaza #free palestine #stop the genocide #end the occupation #permanent cease fire #gaza starvation #khan younis #rafah crossing #ceasefire now #famine #open rafah #I added image description #if anyone would have a better one I am okay to edit it again