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strange-spaghetti · 5 months

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I've kept my eye on the Crimson doc for a while but I didn't buy my ticket in advance since I didn't really know if I'd be up for the drive. At 12 today I wrote "Bummed I'm not seeing the King Crimson doc. The only theatre that's screening is in Chicago - the 1.5 hours to get there isn't so much the issue but the f*cking street parking. I haven't had a free Sunday in 3 or 4 weeks. I'm constantly stressed & having to plan & figure a way around sh*t, so mapping out where to park & then walking 5 blocks to get to the theatre. I love ya, Crimson with all of my heart but I can't do it :, ("... my room was a mess, I needed to exercise, I have to study & finish assignments. But once I cleaned my room & looked into parking further - like the jewel right next to the theatre has underground parking 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻♡♡♡ bless them, man they made it happen. I had time to exercise, buy the ticket & go. So happy I went.

Incredibly sentiment & f*ck the music is so god damn sexy lmao. Just major goosebumps, they are the sickest band, so killer ♡♡♡ Fripp was so pivotal in articulating my wellness - at age 21 (2016) I was really getting it together physically & mentally. I was still feeling left out in life & scared of my future but I became a beautiful, very capable & brave version of me. Discipline had been a word I was using before Crimson & Fripp, but it was unreal hearing Fripp say almost the exact same analogy I had made for my anxiety & depression when I was 20. I equvialated discipline to getting out of the shower in winter "you can't live in the shower, Alice". Fripp said discipline was making yourself get into a cold shower though the body does not want to but it must be done. Just holy sh*t. Fripp helped me a lot while I was out doing exposure therapy & putting my neck out there - how humility is a tool, ya know. Tonight, as I watch his commentary for the documentary, it hits deep. Especially with the break up. It would be a long story of how just last night I asked a former work friend to give me Jack's number. I explained to my former work mate the void I've been left with, actually feeling the absence of Jack in my bed, my life feels empty without him even though I have really great things for myself with film & photography. He diverged & in the end I did not get Jack's number... Fripp discussed silence & being present. Right now my life is silent once again, but there will be movement & music that forms from this silence & it will form a whole new sound. Fripp & Ian addressing heartbreak hit deep. Belew's hurt of being kicked out of what he thought was a beautiful partnership, how he loved him & still wants to be a part of Crimson... Broof is always a f*cking delight : ) there's a lot I would like to write here & there but i really need to do environmental science work. But yeah, really a special event for me. Love King Crimson dearly.

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