#id rather not be put in a ward again. itd be cheaper for me to die ffs

[zarovich]

vent in the tags bc ihave no one to talk to and i need somewhere to rant

#personal #vent #i hate being this way idk why im like this #having a breakdown over textures being weird. over the fact that i cant stop picking off my skin #im covered in all the scars. so bad that ppl think theyre from fucking chickenpox ffs. no its just from me fucking up my body lol ❤ #my back seriouslt hurts from how much ive been picking at it. i really hope nothing is infected. i cant deal with that rn #it burns like hell.... nothing im not used to but that doesnt make it hurt less #kinda wanna die tbh but that feels dumb. i kms over textures feeling bad..... ig its true that im too dramatic #like i get it. i have ocd but it keeps getting worse as time goes one and nothing hells!! what am i suppised to do at this point #not only that but i have to deal with my chronic illnesses as well fml. im exhausted #i should see a doctor soon or something before i snap and hurt myself #id rather not be put in a ward again. itd be cheaper for me to die ffs #but god i need to sleep. its 4 in the morning #im hungry but im just gonna sleep instead of eat idc. ill eat when i get up if i remember #and if im able to