#ideations

[ghostowlattic]

I will crawl down in your eyes and turn your hair to seaweed groves

ghost owl attic

#seaweed #aesthetic #face #ocean #sea #mermaid #green #ideations #for inspiration #for music

[gcastelini]

Annabeth ideations

#art #oc #oc art #ideations #concept art #character design

[stayingstrongthroughquotes]

I thought I hit rock bottom before, but no.

This. This is rock bottom.

I feel like I’m suffocating with no way out. I want everything to end. Seriously. I’m fucking done. I’m throwing in the towel.

#depressed #depression #mental health #fuck everything #fuck everyone #fuck living #fuck this #fuck that #I literally hate everything #suicide #suicidal #suicidal tendencies #ideations #grief #lost #broken

[peace-and-light-poetry]

“I won’t burden you, anymore.”

At times, She wished she'd Depart sooner

As opposed to later

She was estranged from them But, still, within, held some lingering feelings (residual fondness)

Her wish to depart Was born of instinct And these lingering feelings

Death frees all If she departed sooner, Then, they'd be freed from her

Somehow, she found solace In this more so than herself being Freed from the burden of existence

She'd tell them Not to weep and mourn for her But, instead, to rejoice

When that day comes As, now, they're free.

#death #Ideations #No Trigger Warnings! #genuine #resignation #melancholy #mental illness #estranged family #dysfunctional family #obsession with Death #burden #notebook poem #revised #written on the fly #written 3/17/2023 #I won't burden you anymore

[thesapphireslayer]

But what if I just let myself get to 30 so I could go in my sleep.

#behavioral health #diabetes #LADA #depression #sadgirl #ideations

[planetgleebglorb]

I have been having a lot of "scary" thoughts again. The past few days to be exact. I haven't had any suicidal ideations for a couple of months. But lately my mental health has been kicking my ass!

#ideations #existentialism #i have been doing a pretty good job at breathing exercises/meditation #but lately it feels like im fighting for my life

[amygdalae]

Me: damn this situation I'm in sure isn't ideal, what am I gonna do about this

Suicidal Ideation Man who lives in my brain: perhaps I have a suggestion ☝️🤓

#shut upppp suicidal ideation man

[rox-and-prose]

the thing about living with mental illness for decades is that occasionally your brain will be like hey you're useless and should kill yourself and your only real reaction is cmon man right now im in the middle of something

#roxy writes #tw si #tw suicidal ideation

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[ghostowlattic]

synchromancer 

ghost owl attic

#ideations #not real #visions #synchronicity #synchromancer #dreams

[druid-for-hire]

[images ID: three images of a comic titled "one must imagine sisyphus happy" by druid-for-hire. it is a visual narrative beginning with someone with wrist pain (depicted by bright orange nerves) working at a drafting table. the reader is shown the same wrist as the person uses it for many everyday tasks such as carrying a grocery basket, pushing elevator buttons, typing, and doing dishes, until the pain dissolves all the panels into chaos. the person then performs several physical therapy exercises until the pain subsides. they sit back down at a desk with their laptop, sigh, and begin typing. a small spark of pain reappears. end id]

a fun little piece i made during the semester and submitted into our school comic anthology! (which you can buy at the Static Fish table at MoCCAFest in NYC ;] ). it's about artists and injury

#comic art #comics #original comic #chronic pain #carpal tunnel #tendonitis #my art #original #edit: what a delightful surprise to see this take off #this was made for class on very low fuel and very few thoughts and late at night and exhausted #the prompt was just a wordless narrative essay. three pages. and i had nothing and no ideas #and my head hurt and i was too tired to think about doing any of the like. research and mind mapping and ideating i'd do otherwise #but my arm hurt #so i decided to do a thing about arm hurty #i'm surprised to see so many people finding it resonating with them #but then again i shouldn't be. the universal lies in the specific #i should make more things about smaller stuff

[patronsaintofsacrifice]

Replacing "I dont want to live" with "i dont want to live like this" was v helpful for me because it helped me figure out what parts of my life i was trying to escape and reminded me there are absolutely versions of myself i want to work towards and ways of living i havent experienced yet that i want to see

#i hope this is semi coherent #im seepy #recovery #?maybe #suicidal ideation #ask to tag

[endlessmidnights]

I hate when people say suicide is the easy way out, they have no idea the pain you must be in to want to end your own life

#tw sucidal ideation #tw selfhate #mentally drained #sorry for being depressing #anxitey #i hate me so much #tw depressing thoughts #tw sui ideation #depressing shit #mental health #tw depressing stuff #please let me die #please let me kms #let me go #you’re losing me #you’re on your own kid #mental problems #i wanna die #i want to disappear #i wish i was dead #i’ll never recover #what is wrong with my brain #tw sui vent #tw self h4rm #mentally fucked #so fucking exhausted #tw sui talk #very unstable #im going to kms #what is wrong with me

[thebibliosphere]

You know the cluster migraine is bad when your significant other ends up holding you while you clutch your head and sob about wanting to kill yourself to escape the pain.

Twelve hours. Twelve hours I was in so much pain I wanted to die.

And yet I still don’t qualify for pain management treatment and keep getting prescribed preventatives that don’t work for me because “we prefer not to prescribe painkillers where we can.”

Fuck you.

This is how people end up self-medicating and overdosing.

#chronic health tag #migraine #suicidal ideation

[iwillnotseeheaven]

#tw sui ideation #tw s3lf harm #tw self destruction #dissociation #tw depressing thoughts #depressing quotes #depressing shit #depressing life #mental health #mental illness #actually bpd #bpd #bpd vent #bpd thoughts #bpd mood #bpd problems #bpd stuff

[vixensofdeath]

the urge to die and become nothing becomes stronger every day

#bpd stuff #actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd symptoms #mental problems #mentally fucked #actually borderline #borderline blog #bpd problems #bpd struggles #tw depressing stuff #tw sui ideation #tw sui vent #tw vent #depressing quotes #depersonalization #tw self destructive thoughts #tw self destruction #i hate it here #major depressive disorder #bpd #tw depressing thoughts #bpd things #depressing life #bpd thoughts #bpd shit #bpd traits #depressing shit #bpd mood #personality disorder