#idek man im tired

[yakamozarda]

One thing that fucking pisses me off about people going against gender affirming surgeries is that. Not even every trans person wants them or can get them in the first place but not passing can cause a lot of problems with your daily life and paper work. Like if you really wanted less people to get surgeries etc you could just. Make it easier to trans people to exist without passing???? Ofc if someone wants the surgery it is their fucking choice but if these people who oppose the surgery really cared about people they would go another route

#cecil.txt #You can not gender everything under the sun and create a hostile world for people who dont fit your boxes and then act surprised when people #Go for surgeries #Like i know people including myself who are trans or questioning and doesnt want the whole package #Jesus i just want t and see how it goes but im terrified of not passing and all the headache im gonna deal witu #Im already dealing with gendered issues in medicine #Adding t on top of it would be way trickier #Idek man im tired

[ohposhers]

sometimes when i dont feel like drawing i pretend im good at photoshop

#i dont have any art rn so the next best thing i have is old memes #trolls #trolls band together #clay trolls #john dory trolls #floyd trolls #idek man im so tired #working hard on unnamed project sit tight

[itafushin]

in lmkverse, female macaque demons would probably think mac is hotter than swk because they’re attracted to red facial markings, the darker red and more widespread, the better lol

hi its 7 in the morning and this is so random it made me giggle so much because i immediately thought of some female demons trying to flirt with macaque and wukong being all >:O >:( about it. dude gets tunnel vision and can not see the fact that macaque is very obviously not interested in them

#🏮 #shadow talks #i mean macs an attractive guy #so it only makes sense #sucks for the ladies though because mans gay as hell #idek what im saying i am so tired i should not be up this early #shadowpeach #i love protective wukong sm though #hed slide up and interrupt a conversation macs having and be like 'EXCUSE ME' really loudly and the girl macs talking to is like #'omg my king!' and wukongs over here nodding really fast like 'yes yes as your king i order you to stop talking to this man' #and when the girl asks why wukong gets all nervous cuz he does not want to admit he got jealous in front of mac #SORRY i put way too much in the tags sometimes idk if yall read these

[bangcakes]

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#personal #once again yearning but not willing to do anything about it :))))))))) #i was FINE until i had to talk about it last night. i didnt Expect to talk about it. oh god oh god #but then HHHHHHH i hate that i talk about it so much. and i KNOE the answer is to just tell him i like him #or to ask him out but !!!!@@ #im not ready !!! #i need to get a job first. like im so serious Zbfjfjdjdjjd #bc if i tell him or ask him... REGARDLESS of his answer. o im gonna be distracted #and i will not have my future ruined by a guy. nooo fuckin WAY. #and like !!@@ hes working so much anyway. like we're talkin unpaid overtime #but hes hung out with me (and other ppl) twice regardless.... but still HDJDJDJFJ #ugh idk #im so tired of thinking about this #im worried i'll ruin my chances the more i dont act. but its like.... GOD IDK. i like him so much its like. debilitating ???????? #is that the right word idk #i just.... i think im not ready #and if he moves on then ok that sucks but then at least i'll have an answer....???? #god idek #and like one of my friends got asked out by 2 different guys n im like HFJFJJFJFJDJDJDJDJ #GOD. this man is never gonna ask me out. like i think hes Shy. im so. IDK. im also older. like. i think im gonna have to make th3 move #but i wanna be SURE about it. bc like relationships are scary #and i dont wanna start something im not ready for #im kinda hoping that things will happen 'naturally' like they have all along hhhhhhhh

[ingoodjesst]

just two devil hunting eyepatch ladies sharing a smoke 🚬🚬

#chainsaw man #quanxi #quanxi csm #quanxi chainsaw man #himeno #himeno csm #himeno chainsaw man #csm fanart #jesst some art #i just think they're both very cool n sexy and it's funny that there's two of them #oh god i slammed through this for hours and idek if i like it aaaaaaaaa i'm trying very hard to not think too hard about the mistakes bc im #TIRED LKSJDFLKSJDdskljgsdf but also aw man i wanna get better at anatomy

[dear-mrs-otome]

Wait no don't you dare try and tell me these two kinda secretly want to be bestie bros don't you tell me about their cute seafaring swashbuckling adventure together don't you tell me that Silvio and Rio's earrings are made from gold ore he and Rio found together on a pirate island my heart can't take that

Look at his silly grin when talking about it too. I need a minute or ten or a year...

#ikemen prince #ikepri #ikepri silvio #ikepri rio #spoiler #spoilers #ikemen prince spoilers #ikepri spoilers #i hope im reading this right #idek man it's stupidly late I'm too tired to be doing this but #BUT #need to reread when i'm actually awake but couldn't not screech

[v4mp-wife]

Having a day where nobody fucking talks to me would be great actually. You wanna text? Sure. You wanna interact on social media? Ofc. But the second you send a voice message or call me I'm ghosting you. I just want silence. Absolute silence. Not a word from anyone bc im actually tired of noise rn I can't even explain it. I don't even want to hear music rn. I don't wanna gear anyone's voice or any noises from games. Nothing. Just complete silence

#i need a mute button for the world #idek what this is man #im just tired of noise #does this count as a vent? idk

[provvidence]

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#went to shower to try and calm down and not have panic attack #came out mid panic attack #scared the shit out of boy #took ativan and watched ted lasso #but fuck man like for the past week #i wake up at like a 6 already #and by like 8 pm im at a 10 #just absolutely wrecked and nauseous and panicking and suicidal #cant focus cant calm down cant do fucking anything #and i hit my breaking point tonight #and my entire arms went numb and it was scary like it always is #and nothings even better now im just too drugged and tired to keep spiralling #idek how im fucking going to pay rent.

[cherry-bomb-ships]

Hello folks I am thinking 🤔🤔🤔 So like, of course at the end of Crash 4, Cortex goes back in time to try to stop himself from creating Crash in the first place, and for some reason throughout today I've been thinking abt.. him running into R. Marie in the past as well <_< Back when she wasn't a commander and was still a low-ranking minion working her way up the ladder, back when she didn't love him and her feelings for him were indifference at BEST, and maybe even back then she hadn't started developing plans to betray him, which were plans that were never even put into motion.

What would it be like to see someone that you have YEARS of history with, at a time before you even knew they existed? I feel like there might even be a moment where he feels a wave of relief and familiarity wash over him and practically rushes to her cuz shit is STRESSFUL right now and he needs the comfort, but she's just extremely nervous like "why is my boss who I've never talked to before hugging me wtf?????" But I feel like she actually WOULD believe that he's from the future, which would just make learning about how they come together in the future even more mind boggling, and she'd probably be like "haha, oh please, like I'd ever fall for a moron like him." :T wELL WE SEE HOW THAT WENT DONT WE

#idek where these thoughts went im tired 😭 but there is... POTENTIAL HERE 👀💖💖💖💖💖💖 #there are a LOT of different directions i could go here especially cuz im not 100% on when and where r. marie fits in the whole timeline #somewhere along the first 3 games is what i got so far. and also i rly like the idea of her starting on the same level as the assistants #(well maybe a liiiittle bit higher but ya know) #anyways i almost went full sweet and philosophical mode here but NO NOT TODAY NOT RIGHT NOW HAHA #ruby rambles #💜: the man of my schemes #🍒🧠: evil does it better #long post

[hrina]

besties i fear it’s self-sabotage o’clock

#like 🫠 fuck bro #literally nothing bad has happened and this man has given zero indication that he’s getting tired of me and YET. my brain is being mean 2 me #im like ‘what if he doesn’t want to hang out anymore and he’s just agreeing to see me out of pity’ #GRRRRR i hate this so much oh my god why can’t i ever just let myself enjoy things #and idek if i can talk to him about this stuff because he’s so level-headed and i don’t want him to think im irrational or stupid #like i know im being irrational but i just 😓😓😓😓 GOD. #how do people do this. im gonna mcfreakin lose it

[yakamozarda]

I have like. Two clear options ahead of me in case I get a remote job:

Stay in hometown, dont pay rent or utilities but be bored out of mind with only 2 friends in the city that i see occasionally? Basically save money till i can get a job abroad

Or move to capital, progress my relationship with the Guy I Am Seeing That I Am Starting to Like Too Much, dont save as much money but be in a central location where i can Do Stuff, Have Fun etc, and just. Enjoy life instead of getting ready for the Next Thing and go abroad when i get a job there.

Im v conflicted bc at one hand saving money would be nice but at the other hand. I will be bored to death here. And im tired of getting ready to the next milestone jfkfjkfbf

#cecil.txt #He is very persuasive..... Willing to cook wants to learn new skills with me GET A DOG...... #Idek man #Im tired of trying to reach the Next Goal or whatever the fuck and dont look forward to moving abroad yet #Like yes turkey sucks but i wanna stay in my comfort zone for a while and chill tbh

[indigodawns]

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#mental health is such a weird thing isn't it... like damn when ur mind just... isn't healthy y'know 😔😔 #im in greece rn with my family (being as safe as possible and yeah i feel weird about it too) and it's so lovely and nice #and then also? i feel. tired 24/7 and am constantly on my phone rip and just... idk??? idk #i love my family i rly rly do. but then the conversations sometimes... it's. tiring & sometimes i feel like im constantly on the defence #like i will say smth abt idk not being able to remember things well at all and my sister goes WELL NO ONE DOES OFC #like yeah... yeah i know and i get the instinct i was JUST saying #and it's so? heterosexual dhsjsjd idk?? is that weird to. Feel? it's my parents and my sister + her bf #and he's uhhhhhhhh complicated but kind and happy rn and v sweet to me #but just... the vibes man. #oh wow i was like why did that feel different with my sister's ex but he was bi. oh. i mean he also turned out to be shitty but huh #anyways this really isn't to whine like i hope if u follow me u know by now rip like ofc im grateful etc and enjoying it #im also just. trying to figure myself out without blaming myself for everything idk idk idk #blablabla depression blabla some spice of undiagnosed bullshit and being bi and single #and like. my sister is probably neurodivergent and my dad definitely has adhd. yet i always feel like the Mentally Ill One here rip #anywaaaaaaaays #the sea is very good very nice and my parents really are being v good about everything #just don't feel like going to friends with this and making it a Conversation they didn't sign up for where idek what the conversation is

[clamorybus]

it feels like the world's on the brink of collapse. i know, logically, that it isn't, it just feels that way because of the 24 hour news cycle. and what's going on in the world isn't new--most of it has been brewing for a long, long time

but god its getting harder and harder to deal with everything

#the thing that gets me is that idek if i can blame the news because all the shit that's happening #is still going on even if i don't hear about it. and as devastating hearing about all this destruction constantly #isn't good but it still feels more...useful? productive? than ignoring it all #admittedly i should still use my phone less but i don't. really have much outside of it #like i have no job no social life. just my dogs and my niece #don't worry i won't hurt myself im just. rambling i guess #its just that frustrated feeling of like. not wanting to die and just wanting the pain to stop #but idk what to do #mickey.txt #negative//// #ask to tag #im not even sad anymore im just. so tired man

[moodbroads]

i may or may not be questioning a whole new ahh religion like how are poeple this dumb but like not dumb because human survival instincts i just dont feel human as a whole but like not in a nonhuman way i just cant explain the major crowd herding happening right now and nobody noticing exept me

idk man its hard for me to put it into words

anyways have a lil speculative dude meant for changing gravity lolol

#goofy goof #doodle #i know this is just my insane declining mental health but #it just feels so real to me #and makes so much sense #i dont want to say too much #i cant even say too much because of the lack of english human words #im just 14 man why do i know this #im supposed to like lisa frank and gossip in highschool and shit #not lay in bed for hours at a time left alone with the horrors my mind comes up with #i like speculative evolution guy #hes cool #idek how i made him #i just thought #like #different things #i wanna go back in time #earth is so small #life is so small to me #i want bigger #but i know i will never get that #no human will ever get the exitement of discovering a new animal #because we have discovered it all already #our space rock is too small for me #i want to go out and see things the human mind and eyes cant even comprehend #im so tired of animal parts #i need more #so much more #never ending more

[elias-acorn]

I'm soo exhausted

#is it too late for me to just up and leave my job i havent clocked in yet #idek man #im just so tired bro im too tired to do anything

[straykats]

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#kats personal #man fr i just #1. i cant keep having the same fcking conversation all the time #its been two years please lets just drop it already #2. i know people mean well when they give me advice about stress and stuff #and most of the time i dont take it badly like im pretty chill w unwarranted advice #but theres a small handful of people who i just. please stop talking #like ??? ur acting like talking about my stresses etc is gonna solve all my problems #bro i AM talking about them. with a professional. but im not about to just divulge that info to u #ur literally my dentist idc if ur a family friend pls stop #i know u mean well but my guy please #and also. the assumption that stress is caused by uni??? #which links to poijt one. i cant keep having the same convo about my course change #dude told me to just take a semester off #yeah i did + thats not why im stressed #and i hate myself bc i know he means well but i just. really wanted to be snappy by the end of it #and he was saying like. oh stress might not seem much short term but long term its teally bad and you'll need to #go see prpfessionals and get meds and etcetc #and i was like 'yeah haja dw i know' and this guy was like #'if you know then why..???' he didnt finish his sentence but in that moment i was like #bro. idek what to say to that rn im so. #anyways 3. tjis money sutuation is taking its toll on me fr. its not even just my cousin. jts the fees for a fricken SPLINT and wisdom tooth #extraction which im putting off for now and getting a diagnosis #and then also my mum asking me for money and me knowing she will so ive been trying to accomodate but like #im going to scream #and 4. i was super tired and exhausted when she called me and asked for money but after i sent it #she was like #'thank you. i'll try not to ask you for help in the future.' #but knoeing her its like. #in a guilt trippy way. idk im so exhausted i have an assignment due tonight too