#idk I thought jade was good this year but other than that I didn't really care for the songs... adventure sort of

[three--rings]

Hello! Sorry to bother but I am waaay too curious

If you have time/energy/mood, could you please elaborate? I am curious about your perspective. Psychology is one of my biggest passions and I want to start a degree in it (with possibility to advance further with the degree maybe) I am aware of some of its flaws, and the fact that it can be biased and inconclusive and not exactly exact and precise like the other sciences. Is there anything else that perhaps I should keep an eye out on? Thank you for reading and if you reply, thank you for replying as well.

So the thing about studying psychology, especially at the undergrad level, is that you spend all your time being taught about these landmark studies that defined the thinking of decades of psychology theory and practice.

And then at some point, which may be during or after your education, you learn all of those studies were terrible research bullshit that can't be reliably reproduced even if they could get past a modern ethics board.

Psychology is a field that is really uncomfortable with itself because it desperately wants to be taken seriously as a hard science and not be thought of as just people thinking about people. But it is REALLY REALLY bad at being a hard science. The research is just not rigorous at ALL.

My senior year of undergrad for my research methods class my group of slackers who rarely went to class put together a research study where we drew up entirely new models and tools that looked far better than the published ones, applied them to a much larger and more diverse population of subjects and basically put the leading research in that little niche to shame. On the weekends. Our prof wanted us to publish but we were graduating and it never happened. We sent it to the leading researcher in the field and he was all...uh, yeah, I'm working on some new stuff too...but good for y'all. He was a known prick though.

Like, it's not that there's not good stuff in there somewhere. But my god there's so much chaff.

Then you get into the grad school degree maelstorm and...ugh. There are a lot of options. They are split into practical i.e. you want to help people in the real world and clinical i.e. you want to do shitty studies and publish.

I worked both in psychology research (so I got to see how the sausage was made on the ground) and in social work for mental health care and...most of my coworkers at both jobs had some kind of advanced degrees and were making something around $30K doing the same jobs as me. There are far too many people with masters in psychology because they are easy to get and even if you get your LPC they are still way too many people with them with no idea what they are doing. Like you can go to Christian College Number 304 and get your Marriage and Family Therapy masters and come out and have only learned to Pray On It and do some supervised hours and now you're licensed and yeah I worked with these people. (Go get your masters, they told me. It is SO EASY they told me. Uh, yeah that's not winning me over to your program.)

Anyway, if you can't tell I'm jaded. Besides the fact that the field is one that will eat you alive, burn you out, and then spit you up, with no money and no accomplishments. I also deeply loved it even though it destroyed me. (I mean also my spine exploded, which didn't help.)

If you want to do hands-on helping people stuff I like the social work programs out there. And if you want to study hard science of human behavior neuroscience is killing it. Psychology is...IDK. The most hopeful way to look at it is that it's a discipline going through a transitional period maybe. But I'm also fairly out of touch with the field these days so talking to someone actually in the field now would be a good call for further advice. Unfortunately most faculty in my experience are...deeply behind the times. You would not believe the kind of 1960s relics I had to deal with teaching me.

And most of what I learned about mental health I learned on the ground, in mental health crisis work, on the go. Most of psychology doesn't really enjoy dealing with "abnormal psychology". Which is literally the term for people with any mental health diagnosis. I had one class on it.

So that's my entirely personal experience based opinion. For more, look into the replication crisis of psychology research.

#wikipedie #asks #psychology

[linalilia]

I'm kinda late but yeah :D

For fandoms: Soukoku, Jade x Trey, and Leona x Ruggie

For your ocs: Akio x Ichiro, Aimi x Akane, Kei x Daisuke (Now that we know more about them, I'd like to see what you think of these skips, hehe. :DD)

it's okay it's okay! i'm surprised to see no bllk ships here /lh

LISTEN. AGAIN. i'm just not really a fan of this dynamic in general? like, i really like the concept of 😠😆 characters being a couple, but ehh, for some reason soukoku is just.. not it for me. it's like, i can see the "hating each other" part, but i can't see the "secretly in love with each other" part?? also i just got too tired of seeing it everywhere and the "this ship killed my grandma, okay" part is like. i've told this story to my other friends before, but long story short, back when i was like 13-14 years old and i just got into bsd, i was a part of this gc and all members liked skk, but i didn't, so they came up with this great plan: THEY JUST KICKED ME OUT OF THE GC EVERY TIME THEY MENTIONED SKK AND THEN ADDED ME AGAIN WHEN THEY CHANGED THE TOPIC. like. i get it, they were even younger than me and they said that "they did that for my own comfort", but also.. yeah, i kinda get ptsd every time i see them now /j

i just.. don't really get it?? like yes, i know about their interactions and i know about the whole "oh, trey thought jade is just like him fr but it turned out that jade likes working for azul" (??) thing, but also.. idk, i just don't really care about this ship :'D maybe it's bc i'm kinda neutral when it comes to these characters too (i'm like a magnet for trey and jade simps though. i have too many mutuals/friends who like them JDJSKSALSL) so that's why i don't really care about shipping them too?

tbh the age gap makes me feel a bit uncomfy? like, listen, i'm not the type of person who goes "IF THESE TWO CHARACTERS ARE NOT THE EXACT SAME AGE, YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO SHIP THEM", but ehhh, idk, i think leona is a bit too old for ruggie. i think i like the concept in theory, since i enjoy dynamics where character a has more power and character b is their servant/follower/etc, but ruggie is like.. basically, i think he deserves better jdkdslsdls

WELL. UH. NOW LET'S TALK ABOUT WHAT I ACTUALLY LIKE. okay, i love both platonic and romantic versions of akio x ichiro. they're just so cute, but so toxic at the same time <333 like, hear me out. they have a very cute dynamic bc akio just wants someone to listen to him and admire him and just do what he says, but also recognize that he's more than just his intelligence and he has other good qualities too and if ichiro needs attention and someone to guide him and answer his questions, well, akio would be glad to do that! but also, there's a lot of angst potential since akio still misses arata to a very bad and obsessive degree as it will be shown in season 2 and he may also see ichiro only as a "second option" because he would like to reconcile with arata if he's able to go back home and also, unlike riku, ichiro probably doesn't really share any traits with arata? but hey, maybe akio should just stop searching for guys who look and act exactly the same way and try something new? also i can definitely see them as, like, that type of ship where someone talks a lot and the other one just listens and nods. but yeah, i think they should go to therapy together once they're out. if they're able to leave milgram that is (also hi i'm typing this while thinking about t2 akio and I'M THIS CLOSE TO CRYING)

AIMI X AKANE IS SUCH A CUTE SHIP (both platonically and romantically) IT LITERALLY MAKES ME MELT. like, their t1 version is so heartwarming, aimi finally gets a friend (maybe something more?) and akane finally gets someone who won't look away and give her all the attention and love she needs! also matching bandaids!! brushing each other's hair!! aimi saying that she can hug akane if she's too cold!! (and aimi is very soft and warm and her prison uniform is just like that as well) but also man. i'm thinking about the fact that i've actually never revealed much about aimi's backstory and what kind of person she was before milgram and like, why she was bullied by everyone.. and again, her undercover lyrics, if someone is not her friend, they don't deserve to even breathe. would love to see akane's reaction to t2 aimi, hehe <3 (don't worry, aimi is still cute, but now we get to know how messed up her morals can be) (also the fact that their love languages go together so well makes me go insane)

AGAIN. i love them both platonically and romantically. two angsty boys who have some love-related problems, how cute <3 but also, i think daisuke deserves someone better than kei jdkslsls. kei's morals are literally non-existent and he genuinely enjoys hurting people though one of the reasons why he likes it is because he thinks it's a normal way to show how much you love them. their love languages go together surprisingly well too (the masochist bit made me laugh so hard like if kei found out HE WOULDN'T LEAVE HIM ALONE AND WOULD TEASE HIM NON-STOP). this is also that kind of ship that really makes me wonder how your ocs would react to the t2 versions of my ocs, though in this case it's more about, well, kei's t2 mv and more info about his crime because IT'S GONNA BE SAD.

#also yes i'm working on season 2 it's just. homework. and exams #I LITERALLY HAVE TO GO AND DO MY HW RN AND I'M TALKING ABOUT SHIPS 😭 #t2 akio and kei are so. *CRIES ON THE FLOOR* #like when i can finally talk about them you won't be able to shut me up sjdkslsl #“lina what twst ships do you even like” I'M A CHARACTER X CHARACTER ENJOYER YES but my ships are like #they're either not that popular or extremely basic (like adeuce or vil x neige) #(also ngl now i kinda prefer some oc x canon ships because come on. my ocs are pretty they would fall in love with my kids if they met them #lina plays ask games #lina's friends! #friend: aurora! 🌠

[hyunjinspark]

Hi Jade!! I'm finally here to read and give my thoughts on chapters 8 through 12 of star lost!! I know I'm late, I know and I'm sorry, I just had to take some time off social media but I'm so glad to be back to finally catch up with my favorite

This would be way too long if I were to say everything about these 5 chapters all in one ask so I'll split it up so you won't get tired of me lol (you still will get tired of me, I talk too much)

STARTING CHAPTER 8 AAAAAAA

I actually had read a little bit of chapter 8 when it came out but wasn't able to make it to the end due to busy life 😬 so I decided to read it from the beginning because I have a shitty memory and didn't remember enough to know exactly where I left

First of all, the beginning was already so beautiful and poetic, I can't get enough of saying how good of an writer you are, seriously. Just y/n describing the landscape and daydreaming is so relatable, I can't concentrate on anything else other than the landscaping when I'm traveling, and her saying it looked like something out of a Studio Ghibli film 🥺 my ghibli enthusiastic heart was pleased ❤️

Also how can Y/N not realize how in love she is with Hyun yet? I'd be panicking about it already, guess I'm too self-conscious haha

My man is here talking about Baekhyun and being excited and she's freaking out internally thinking about how bad she wants to hold hands with him. So cute.

I can imagine it perfectly.

This whole scene of them talking in the train was cute, I love it!

Hana asking what y/n talked about in the train and asking "what did he say about me?", I'm sorry I'm trying so hard to like her but things like that make it difficult, she's so self-centered omg and her stepping up to fix Hyun's hair when y/n was about to just do that aaaaa annoying

And Hyunjin being jealous of Felix?? Yes. I asked for it and I'm loving it.

Y/N CALLING HIM HYUN YES LOVE TO SEE IT.

I'm taking notes as I go through the chapter so I won't forget to mention anything and I feel like I'm talking alone lol

DID HANA JUST SAY Y/N HATED HYUNJIN TO THE WHOLE FUCKING ROOM? WHAT KIND OF FRIEND- and it's not even true... wow... I'm speechless, I thought things couldn't get worse

"Being my wingwoman certainly came in handy" how the fuck does she make everything about her? and why?

I guess the reason I dislike Hana so much is because she sounds like an old friend of mine but idk how everyone else feels about her so I'm feeling a bit bad so I hope I start to like her soon? Idk?

But anyways

I smell a truth or dare game coming, I can almost feel it, I know it'll happen sooner or later, it wouldn't be a party without it, right?

Hyunjin checking y/n out got me flustered and giggling like a 15 year old 🤡

Why is their dynamic reminding me of something I had with somebody I'd rather forget omg I'm gonna cry

Them holding hands 🥺 I love them

Felix seemed disappointed Hyunjin checked if y/n was hurt? What is going on? What is this tension? Oh I don't like this

Spin the bottle... of course... I'm not READY

Ok 5 minutes later... I'm ready (I think)

So Felix likes y/n? Is that it?

Hyunjin chose to drink that thing instead of kissing y/n.. ouch that hurt

Felix and y/n just kissed and weirdly I'm not mad at that at all, Felix is such a great friend and it doesn't matter if he did it because he has feelings for her or to get her out of an awkward situation (or both) he still obviously did the right thing

Hyunjin baby what were you thinking? I'm really glad there's more chapters to read, I have so many questions!! Thank you Jade for being amazing and writing so much for us ❤️ I'm so so impressed with this story, you're doing a fantastic job with this

And i'm so sorry this is too long, this was literally my thoughts between literally jumping from my bed and walking around my room trying not to scream and dancing bc I was excited. Yes this happened a lot.

Hope you have fun reading this mess though! (English is not my first language just ignore my mistakes pls kajskja)

Thank you!!

hi love !! thank you for sending in a detailed review. i love these so much because they inspire me a lot 🥺 ofc i wont get tired dont worry!

you’re so right, yn definitely is slow to realising when she was falling in love with him in part 8, it can be obvious based on her thoughts and feelings but she’s oblivious 😇 im so glad you liked the train scene, i love her monologue because its so simple (?) but so focused just wanting to hold his hand ☹️

your thoughts on hana were very interesting to read 😭 and ofc there’s a spin the bottle game… it wouldn’t be a party without one. :D

felix probably did have multiple reasons for why he did that, but in the moment, it definitely was the right thing to do!

i enjoyed reading your thoughts. thank you so much 🥺🫶🏻

#star lost with you

[troglobite]

one more time for those in the back: pls don't say anything abt the shows i watch. lol

now here are some more Thoughts

okay i went back and watched the first episode of s3 and i FULLY agree w ppl theorizing that ted is gonna go back to kansas at some point this season, and then likely return.

the ENTIRE EPISODE was ted being like why the fuck am i here?

and yes it was spurred on bc of henry--but that seems to be sort of his main concern and motivation in general

he had to take henry to the airport, had to worry abt his flight, asking him directly if he knows why ted's still there

he even asked beard and beard didn't fucking answer him which. INTERESTING.

and then of course henry and the bullying thing and ted panicking and wanting to be back there in the latest ep.

also fun detail, while he's in the airport, the--what do you call the. speaker? speaker. whatever.

the person over the speaker in the airport noted that the flight to amsterdam was delayed. 👀 now what does that mean? lol

also rebecca quite literally says in the first episode TO KEELEY that she HAS grown. she used to want to crush everything rupert loved--and now she just wants to beat him.

what did i say abt that revenge body era? lol

it's not perfect but christ, again, it's only been 2 years after a TWELVE YEAR MARRIAGE and he is constantly antagonizing her in public. i'd be still hurt and pissed, too.

other thoughts!

nathan. [stares]

yeah honestly it'll be interesting. there's not much to say that hasn't already been said.

but basically rupert is clearly trying to manipulate and control him into a little mini-me that will win everything for him. the car, the look, the office, ms. kakes, etc.

yes also we get the foreshadowing of the tinted window in keeley's office in this episode.

orgasm for the soul is said in the same place that, undoubtedly, keeley & jack have regular orgasms later on. lol

but also she had to schedule time to cry--and later in these next few eps we see that. well. it seems maybe she has a little more wiggle room if she manages to get caught up w jack, etc. lol

also what is WITH barbara and jack? and barbara in general? less so the second one. but the investor sent her over as the cfo. so i'm. hm.

also keeley not knowing what cfo is, and later not knowing what position to give to shandy, officially.

again, she's not stupid--she just doesn't know the ins and outs bc she wasn't raised in that shit.

also idk it's interesting there's a parallel w keeley and nathan in that they both have a person from their past who's reminding them of where they came from

for nathan, it seems to go well w jade at the restaurant--friends or dating. thematically, makes sense.

for keeley, shandy doesn't work out so great. and i'm REALLY wondering what the final takeaway will be about that relationship and how things fell apart. bc believe me, it's not over.

also obviously leslie saying at the beginning they should look to get new blood--initially ted vetoes the idea. doesn't seem to think they need it.

but he just sort of. rolls over. lets it happen. says you got it, i'll be flying like a butterfly stinging like a bee all season, etc.

and his entire conversation w the doc over the phone that i only half paid attention to the first time bc him trimming his nose hair was. Gross. lol

but he literally says

what if i'm doing more harm than good

what if they'd be better off without me

what if i'm holding them back

she says to him "you don't quit things"

as a literal answer--part of why he's there.

everyone is echoing to him the reasons he's offered for staying. he doesn't quit, it's to win the whole fucking thing (as rebecca AND henry remind him).

so yeah i absolutely agree, i think ted is going to leave.

it will. potentially. break the fucking team. they just love him so much. i have no other thoughts or ideas abt how that would go. but it does feel absolutely certain.

also of course higgins suggesting new blood does also foreshadow him suggesting that ted is actually the problem w the team.

and he IS out of it and FEELS out of it and is just questioning his entire purpose there.

meanwhile jamie is soaring, flying, brilliant colors. he's doing GREAT! he's internalized ted's message and ethos, but with his own style. he cares abt the team. he kept his confidence and sometimes allows his ego out.

BOTH times the team starts getting worried in the locker room, it's JAMIE who calms everyone down.

he's not a mini-ted--but he's a very enlightened little jamie! and i'm proud of him.

also would you believe i forgot until this very moment that jamie has that whole stint on a reality tv show and then has such an attitude problem that no teams and no tv shows and no pr firms even want him anymore? and THAT'S how he ends up back at richmond? i completely fucking forgot until this very moment.

anyway, jamie's doing really well, right off the bat.

ALSO

we get TWO hints abt roy's uncertainty having to fill in for nate's position. "i know i'm not a tactical genius like nate" and then keeley saying "roy i know you're worried abt that but--"

very interesting.

roy is insecure.

he has been since the beginning.

and it often seems the anger overcompensates for that.

and yet in those moments, he doesn't have a lot of anger. he looks at keeley like he's HURT, not angry--bc when is he ever angry at her, anyway?

but like he's HURT that she would try and comfort him. as if to say "really? now?"

which. is interesting. bc she says they're on a break, and he says they've broken up.

and yet--

at the end of season 2. it was roy being a big ol baby that keeley wouldn't take two weeks off for vacation with him, and keeley being like "babe, i have to start my own business. i'm gonna be busy."

like. i guess that's not a "and yet" moment.

that's roy.......realizing how badly he needs so much support and how insecure he is. how much he needs to be someone's priority.

we haven't ever met phoebe's mom, and she says that her parents got divorced when she was four. "one of my core beliefs is that nothing lasts forever"

is roy..........

maybe feeling some of the stuff he imagines phoebe might? he has to be there for her bc her mom is--

way. too busy. for her.

yeah. okay. that makes sense. lol

perhaps he wanted a clean cut. even though they agreed that she could still hang out with keeley. ostensibly....

yeah it's interesting.

what else?

beard and roy bonding is nice.

also the hoosiers reference.

interesting. little details are similar.

i'm just sort of. thinking and wondering. what elements are going to be thematically relevant and compelling throughout this season. bc that seems. deliberate.

ALSO realized that season 1 also included/featured ted's getting ready routine--but it was to get ready for bed, instead. this one is to get ready for work.

[stares]

i've connected the dots

you haven't connected shit

i've connected them

[stares at the empty spot where an answer to 'so what?' should be]

HMM!!!!

anyway.

thinky thoughts.

ALSO idk if it was. intentional or relevant.

when they went to the sewer--also ted says that henry wanted to go in order to face his fears. roy says that's fucking smart.

[squints purposefully]

okay anyway when they go to the sewer, the first players to climb down seem to be plot-relevant for the season, which of course makes sense.

but then isaac is on one far end

and colin is on the other

i think roy and jamie are near each other??? idk

basically i am Paying Attention. lol

okay i think that's everything.

[nakunakunomi]

Hey Hazel! My week was alright, things went smoothly at work so I'm hoping that continues. No weekend plans for me though haha. How was your week and do you have any plans for the weekend?

Ooh the way you got into Twst is somewhat similar to how I did. I also saw it everywhere when the JP version came out (I saw mostly Riddle art lol) but I never bothered to try it out until the NA version was released. And I relate with the struggle of pulling, it's like the game can tell who your faves are and decide not to give them to you T-T. Omg I'm also saving for Fairy Gala Leona, hoping we both get him!

Same! I had to go by vibes and art too. To be honest, none of the characters really appealed to me at first😅. For some reason I chose Malleus as my first SR, but my first fave actually ended up being Vil lol. Speaking of, I thought Vil would be one of the most popular but based on what I've seen in the fandom, that doesn't seem to be the case.

If you ever feel like it, I would love to hear a more in-depth explanation of what you like about each of the characters you listed 👀. My current fave (as you could probably guess based on my requests lol) is Leona! I still like Vil but I like Leona just a bit more. To be honest I didn't even like Leona at all in the beginning or even for the duration of Chp 2 but suddenly out of nowhere I started liking him a lot.

And how you feel about pulling Azul is valid! I also much prefer pulling for characters I like rather than pulling for ones that are good for battle. I'm hoping you'll be able to pull for all your faves!

Sorry for the long-winded ask, I thought this would be the best method to respond while also answering the questions😅. - berry anon

Not me answering about my weekend plans on Monday (｡・//ε//・｡)

I didn't really have any big plans either, spent most of my time chilling, making progress on my bigass crochet blanket (so many hours) and studying some Japanese (and do a tiny tiny tiny bit of prep for work, teacherlife).

i put the rest of my answer under the cut, I am so sorry berry, I am presenting you with yet another essay

I really hope we both get Leona. (・`ω´・) getting super fired up over here, so lmk if you get him when the time comes!!

With Vil it is kinda an all or no situation? The Vil fans tend to be die hard, putting all their love in their queen (rightfully so) and the other fans seem to disregard him quite easily? I am thinking his popularity will rise when chap 5 comes out? We've not seen that much of him just yet; and chapter 4 surely did wonders for the popularity of Kalim and Jamil UwU. In my case, I like Vil in the sense that I would like to be him. Like, that work ethic, those poison making skills and those looks? Where the hecc do I sign up?

As for why i like who I like, I have very little explanation? If i look at my other favorites, Kalim would be the most obvious choice for me, and while I like him loads, he just doesn't hit the way Leona/Jamil/Idia do.

Idia is just very funny? I think he's hilarious and I have had some spoilers for chap 6 so far which made me very intruiged. 10/10 the cringiest character I like.

Leona is a smug bastard, just like Jamil, and I think I just like the general aesthetics of them both the most, and the rest of my love is fueled by fan content? I also think the both of them are absolutely hilarious (Jamil in acting like an innocent angel, Leona in not necessarily wanting to win but just wanting to beat Malleus). For some reason I am aware of them not being good people at all, but find them endearing somehow? I cannot explain it very well.

Thinking of it, I think I like most characters I like cause they make me laugh? I have been getting more fond of Jade and his ridiculous straight faced threats as well as Rook and his outrageous behavior and French?

Idk if that was the kind of answer you were looking for heheh. The past few years I just need a character to make me smile ;_;

#hazel speaks #interaction #berry anon #hazel and friends #on twisted wonderland

[liinos]

I want to know how chuang gave us outlier (not only their best song but one of THE best songs to come out of the produce series there is not a single flaw in that song) and then it’s a bomb for the final as if that song is not fucking AWFUL 😭

#not that phoenix is a Great song but it uh. wasn't that so a win #like nene baby I'm so sorry you were SINGING but the song was just so bad <///3 and like zhuai's rap was good #but it's soooooooo bad #I'm hoping that maybe since the 3rd stage songs this year were... not particularly outstanding the final will have good ones #I know they can't have a vocal heavy song bc there are Not that many Vocals left #but like. just a good song that's all I ask #I actually liked a couple of songs last year? I think aside from right place they were at least decent #right place was a mess and a half like idk what the hell happened with that #and then I remember not loving the song nene's group had but honestly 90% of that was that someone was out of tune #and their guest really wanted to sing but... he could not #idk I thought jade was good this year but other than that I didn't really care for the songs... adventure sort of #but like even nene couldn't make me like that vocal song I'm sorry I know I like ballads but I couldn't back it #but like... as long as the songs aren't worse than it's a bomb I guess I'll live #and as long as bo yuan is given the main vocal parts I NEED that man to be singing bc him and linmo are carrying rn #imagine this year is the one they give a vocal oriented song I'll 😭 #still can't get over netizens complaining about how most of the top contestants aren't Singers like okay but YOU picked them #it's y'all fault we lost yu yang I don't want to HEAR it :| #*y'alls #we could have had him WE COULD HAVE HAD HIM #THE vocal THE singer THE talent but noooooooo #honestly tho... idk what fucking song he would have done for the 3rd round bc i don't think he suited any of them #like assuming he actually got free pick... I guess the one with nene? or maybe the other vocal one but I don't think that's his vibe #either way... I think he's too good for them

[childotkw]

Yknow idk but watching Harry Potter as a orphan who got send from one bad foster care family to another you just think about it differently like fkdkfkd

First of all how Harry is mentally still there is really a wonder in at off itself. Our boy lived in a fucking cubboard under the stairs idk how he didn't became jaded and mistrusting af. You just do not trust any kind of adult even those whore nice Becwuse it could be taken away at any point in time becquse adults are BAD

Second I think it got mentioned that he didn't always have access to food?

I would've assumed he's a defensive eater, arm around his plate in hogwarts, hoards every kind of food he can get and will never be wasteful (I'd think hoe wasteful Ron is eating would annoy him actually)

I could see him trying to make himself smaller than he is not only becquse its easier to not get noticed that way but also because isn't that how he needed to be in the cupboard? Doesn't look very big is all I'm saying

I also doubt that he would've trusted Hagrid/dumbldedoore right from the start and hated Snape as much as he did Becwuse like

Snapes behavior is something that he would have expected from an adult, it's what he knew what he could deal with.

I have way too many thoughts about Harry Potterfkdkdkdkd

(I'm sorry you had such bad experiences, darling 💕)

You raise so many good points. If Harry Potter hadn't been aimed at such a young audience, it would have been so interesting to delve into the more realistic impacts his childhood would have had on him.

The distrust - both of adults because Vernon and Petunia, and other children because Dudley and his friends. Harry would have had some very deeply ingrained trust issues that would have had significant influence over him building relationships once he got to Hogwarts. He wouldn't trust his professors until he had significant proof that they cared (would likely even do small, unconscious tests to see how they reacted). He would take forever to warm up to his peers, and would constantly be watching for any hint of aggression like with Dudley. He'd probably be very defensive.

Emotional regulation - Harry would probably swing wildly between having no control over his emotions and being completely shut down. He would probably be used to repressing his emotional responses because the Dursleys preferred him out of sight, out of mind and being emotional would have gone against that.

I think you're spot on with his eating as well. Being denied food / that being used as a punishment would make him incredibly defensive of the food he gets. He'd probably gorge himself accidentally until he learned to ease himself into regular meals once he returned to Hogwarts. He'd keep snacks on him at all times, just in case someone ever decides he's not allowed to eat (in the first two years he'd worry about this, then it would just become a habit to have food on him).

I really like your comment on Snape as well. Harry wouldn't even blink at how Snape talks to him or acts around him. Like you said, it's expected. Ironically, Snape treating him like he does in canon would make him reliable in Harry's eyes. It's the one thing he can trust - Snape being mean.

Your thoughts on Harry Potter are always welcome! These kinds of discussions are so interesting to explore!

#anonymous #harry potter

[annebrontesrequiem]

Pmmm for the asks :)

Hell yeah! Also I'm gonna include MagiReco/PMMM expanded universe in some of these answers cause I'm trash.

Ellis this contains spoilers

The first character I first fell in love with:

Kyoko definitely. I just, agh. She was one of my first crushes, and even beyond that I love her so much as a character, her jaded nature, her selfishness, the fact she at the end remembers this feeling of hope and love for humanity that she once had to the point of sacrifice. Honestly I always tear up/cry when she dies even on rewatch.

She's just such an amazing character and ahhhhhh.

For Magia Record it was definitely Tart. I would die for Tart. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now:

From the show is definitely Mami. I was just kind of neutral on her and I felt she sort of just existed to die. However after the like 20 millionth rewatch and after playing Magia Record I grew to love her a lot. She's such a relatable character, probably the most out of the quintet - besides maybe Sayaka - and I think she has an unspoken strength about her. It takes a strong character to be determined to be kind and caring and smiling to the end even when you struggle inside, and I just think that's very understated.

In terms of the game (because yes I am MagiReco trash even if I kinda fell off recently cause business and stress and not being able to read Japanese) is definitely Alina. I thought she was kinda sorta really annoying, but once I realized her meme potential and her potential as a tragic figure a la King Lear, well, lets just say I accept you crazy art girl, even when you commit warcrimes. The character everyone else loves that I don’t:

I don't know if people love him, but I think I hate Kamijou more than most people, which might not be true. I just think that a lot of fellow PMMM friends are kinder to him. But as someone deeply in love with my performing arts as a dancer and a violinist, it is no one else's job to take on the burden of my own disappointments.

I cried really hard when I realized I wouldn't be able to simply audition for a ballet company right out of high school, realizing that I wasn't good enough. I had so much anger and self-loathing. But you know what I didn't do? I didn't hurt other people in an act of catharsis or rage. It is no one's responsibilty to bear the burden of your guilt, and to act like that to me is unforgivable.

Now of course I am talking about a whole ass fictional person, but I guess Kamijou is just a bit #tooreal. Anyways, sleep with one eye open you ass. The character I love that everyone else hates:

Tbh the cast is so small idk if any PMMM fans really hate some of the characters. Maybe Sayaka? I think some people found her annoying but I love her so idk.

Also for MagiReco prolly Touka? Or maybe Oriko. What can I say, I love evil flamboyant villains. Also Oriko is the definition of the "diversity win" meme. Person committing war crimes is a lesbian! (Touka is like 12 so I don't ship her with anyone yes even Nemu I know they're same age but they're like 12 and 12 year olds don't know what love is). The character I used to love but don’t any longer:

Again hard to answer. I'd say maybe Homura? I still love her but she definitely went down on the favorites list. I wouldn't say I hate her though, and I think she's a really interesting character. But I guess??

For MagiReco prolly Tsukuyo, but only cause the storylines between her and Tsukasa got weird. I still like her. The character I would totally smooch:

Kyoko when I was younger. Now Riz Hawkwood from Tart Magica. And Kanagi from MagiReco. The character I’d want to be like:

Madoka! I wish I had her personal strength and conviction.

I also just wish I was a cool fighter like all the magical girls. Someone give me a weird cool weapon! The character I’d slap:

All of the Wagius (hello to those who understand this inside joke if any of you see it). I know I said I love Touka and Alina, but they still need a time out. A pairing that I love:

Kyosaya. I mean, I could say so much on them but for now I'll keep it to tragic ships own my heart, I can relate to both of them, and they make me cry. A pairing that I despise:

Maybe Homura x Sayaka? I just think it would be weird and not work.

For MagiReco 110% Iroyachi keep that away from me.

Hope you liked my answers!

#asks #casumarzuappreciator #madoka magica #magia record #hope none of these are controversial lol

[hms-no-fun]

was there anything in particular that inspired the concept of june eg8ert?

there are lots of little things! i talked about it some in my video about writing godfeels 2.1 and 2.2, but the short version is that a lot of the post-toblerone june fanart i saw was really frustratingly bubbly. and like, i understood why. who doesn't love art of a character who has happily transitioned being happy in public? to be clear, i loved that art and i still do, it made me feel SO GOOD to see so much explicitly transfem june and transpositive homestuck art in general at the time! but after a while it struck me just how little any of that art reflected my experience of transition, which has been slow and full of false starts and lots of dysphoria and disappointment. and good things! see it wasn't like i wanted the polar opposite, a grimdark genderangst june. what i wanted was something that reflected both the euphoria and dysphoria, the good and the bad.

typically when i start fics they're less based on a scene or a plot than they are a question. like i started godfeels 1 because i wanted to know how it felt to live this extraordinarily lonely life as someone with unfathomable power and seemingly no will to use it. but i was also fascinated by john's dynamic with jade specifically, how difficult it had to have been for both of them to go through with typheus' deal and force jade to live alone on a ship for three years. honestly that's the origin point for a LOT of godfeels when i think about it.

so following on from that, my big questions with gf2 were, what if june comes out and her friends don't take it very well? and what if she decided to go back in time and retcon herself to be trans when she was a kid? now if you've read gf2 you'll know that the first question is resoundingly answered, while the second is... basically never touched on outside of like one dialogue exchange with jade i think. this is because of vriska, and i think if you've understood everything else i have said so far then i don't need to explain to you why that makes sense. anyway my idea for how that second question would be answered was june would take jade back in time and be like "i'm gonna give myself a better future by making myself realize i'm trans at a younger age, and i want to give you the opportunity to give yourself a friend on your island." i always wanted to find a way to make jade less lonely at some point in her life, like in 2.3 my original plan was to have june rescue nepeta from a dead timeline and basically give her to jade as a friend and mentor, but then she decided to become silverbark instead.

(this is completely tangential but i think the reason i didn't go that direction is kinda related to what i talked about in my last ask about catboy dave, where i had to really stop and ask myself what story i wanted to write. because i feel like if you build a narrative about maybe going back in time and transing your gender as a kid, and you have it be this big weighty question about whether or not she should do it or if it would even work, and then you conclude by having her not go through with it would be... pretty inherently unsatisfying. like even if it's a profound or interesting conflict to have in prose, when it's over what you're basically left with is a bottle episode that doesn't really have to impact anything that comes after. but then, on the flip side, if you DO follow through with it, the result would be that there's a happy early-transition june running around living her life, and then there's our june, for whom nothing has changed. and the more i thought about what that story would look like, it just seemed so inevitable that it would become this depressing dead end where june just winds up right back where she started, living alone and isolating herself. idk maybe she could have instead built a new life with new characters and that could potentially be interesting on its own, but that wasn't the story i wanted to write.)

as far as other stuff, i've made no secret of just how autobiographical many aspects of june are. a lot of her development as a character mirrors my experiences, and i guess if you wanted to make it pathological you could say godfeels is a story i use to help process some of my more complex emotions about transitioning and living in the world as a trans person. in places where you can modify text color, i've adopted june's blue as my own. she's messy and difficult and makes mistakes but she always says what's on her mind and asserts herself and has this core sort of RESPECT for her identity that i find really compelling to write and that i wish i had more of in my own life.

i have no idea if this answered your question but i sure did say a lot of words

#godfeels #homestuck #june eg8ert #sarahposts

[vanveronicango]

if you don't mind me asking, what aspects of s2 did you dislike? bc for me, although i liked it a lot better than s1 (mainly for the increased focus on sibling dynamic scenes). i also kind of realized that it had kind of a Lot going on, that although i appreciated, didn't get enough equal attention? idk

i agree that the dynamic scenes this season were pretty great. we got some great interactions between characters that didn’t have much last season (personal fave being klaus/allison/vanya and every individual combo in that trio). 

i personally love reading other peoples’ opinions on shows/movies, even if they don’t match my own, because a lot of the time they open my eyes to some stuff i haven’t seen, and i love to see work affecting others the same way it does me, even if it has a different outcome. 

so, i know  i said i wouldn’t, but since you asked, under the cut i’m going list out some of the stuff i wasn’t a huge fan of, and some of the stuff i really liked. 

(edit warning: this shit is LONG. but please don’t take this as me absolutely hating the season - I didn’t. there was some genuinely enjoyable stuff. but, in my opinion, it didn’t have the spark and intent that s1 did. it wasn’t the caliber of the season i fell in love with. i think it’s still rewatchable though, unlike a certain godawful season of a certain hit netflix show...... coughstrangerthings3cough)

WHAT I DIDN’T LIKE

1. not enough characterization/development in most of the characters (this will be the longest point, so I’ll get it out of the way first) - for one, the siblings - save maybe vanya & allison - really... did not develop much this season, and weren’t explored as heavily as in the first season. hell, even in vanya and allison’s cases, i still think s1 did a better job at delving into their characters and psyche, even though they still had a bit of it in s2. but especially in the other siblings cases, i feel like SO MUCH of this season leaned into trivial things the fans liked, that it either (at least) took time away from or (at worst) was an active detriment to the characters’ development and plots. they said oh you like banter? we’ll give you unnecessary arguing and jokes that go on for 20 minutes too long when we could be delving deeper into these interesting situations we saw on the surface. here’s some fart jokes and forgettable music when we could be seeing more of how these characters are coping with the literal end of the world/being sent back in time/facing the prospect of never seeing their families again. 

in s1, we got luther’s immense internal struggles in living up to his “name” and only existing to please his father... diego finding his relationships through his jaded nature towards his siblings and himself, and grappling with feelings of inferiority... allison’s coping with the effects her powers have had on her life, and trying to become someone without rumoring everything into existence, which is a new feeling altogether that she isn’t quite sure how to cope with... klaus going through intense development as a simultaneously self-obsessed and self-destructive drug addict that gets thrown into a gruesome war for a year, only to watch the person he loves most die, grappling with his ptsd from war & his abusive childhood, and discovering new powers... five coming back home after decades of solitude and then being used as a weapon, trying to reestablish himself within the group while dealing with an eating feeling that he doesn’t belong in his body or in this group.... vanya, oh vanya, with her depression, anxiety, feelings of loneliness and betrayal, feeling invisible and utterly ordinary, gripping to whoever makes her feel special (and dealing with that fallout) before suddenly being slammed with unbelievably powerful abilities that she can’t control.

in s2... yes, we get lesbian!vanya who becomes truer to herself, and - through intense struggle - finds a way to harness her abilities so she isn’t so out of control and can finally feel extraordinary herself. but much of the latter was given up for a vast majority of the season bc she literally didn’t know who she was (there was a positive in that though, which i’ll list in my positives list), and so we lost a LOT of potential coping and learning time, which easily could have mingled with her sissy storyline! allison’s storyline i actually dug, i don’t have too much gripe with it except that i wish her throat injury didn’t just kind of magically heal, and they could’ve addressed it more. the end of ben’s story was interesting, but still lacked depth imo. as for the other siblings.... it all just felt like a TON of jokes that were funny at first, but quickly became stale and had me wishing they would take the story a bit deeper. that said, a lot of the gags, jokes, and quips were great, but they could’ve been incorporated WAY more intelligently, and allowed for characterization at the same time. loads and loads of banter, not being balanced with poignancy like s1 did very well.

we could have seen luther’s descent into the criminal underworld, and why he felt the draw and obligation to go that route. a more detailed look at klaus’ beginnings and relationship with the cult, his motivations (which s2 kept super shallow), more of diego’s life inside the asylum and even beforehand. but no, we got five and old five farting.

2. the music - man, the s1 soundtrack was iconic, was it not? effortlessly cool scene/music combos, countless iconic music moments, brilliantly and thoughtfully done. this season felt like they said “music? oh ok throw music EVERYWHERE” and it was just. not. good. instead of music that intertwined with each scene like it was a character itself, amplifying the tone and adding a new layer (like in s1), the music this season was mostly just distracting, forgettable, and felt like they were this close to just making a bunch of music videos. i even found myself hating a couple of their choices (the rest i just kinda... forgot). i did like the vanya/allison/klaus dance scene, but other than that.... eugh.

3. the handler - I HATE. HATE HATE HATE. when shows/movie franchises do shit like make a big deal of killing off a villain or lead and then just being like “hehe jk uwu” and bringing them back with some totally bs reason that they lived. a metal plate? really? and she magically awoke... how long after? not to mention how unbelievably lazy and lame it is. they could’ve done so much more with carmichael and the swedes, but they had to bring back... the villain we already had? don’t get me wrong, i LOVEEE kate walsh, but come on. it’s season 2. give us something fresh.

4. the swedes - in s1, cha cha and hazel had personalities, wants, desires that were all explored. we knew their motivations, their doubts, their fears. we liked to watch them. then the writers threw in the swedes... who were completely devoid of any and all characterization (they could’ve gone in my #1 point too heyo), personality, backstory, anything. it was so painful that when each one died, it was clear that we were supposed to feel something for the others, but did any of you really feel anything? no. because we didn’t know these characters at all. they were walking guns, pretty much. nothing substantial.

5. ben & klaus - being someone who loves these two characters so, so much (hellloooo, my old url?), this one breaks my heart. i was so unbelievably disappointed with them this season. all either of them were was horrible to the other. in klaus’ case, he just decided to keep ben’s presence a secret, not even telling the group ben loved them, or that he was there. he called him his ghost bitch, he used him as a personal pet, he lacked sympathy or compassion. we saw a glimmer of hope when he allowed ben to possess him, but that’s where ben’s issues start. seriously, possessing your brother past his breaking point, fighting him out of his own bodily autonomy, until he is in a state of complete exhaution? then saying he “regrets nothing”? and then the show playing it off as ~comedy~ bc that’s almost all they cared about this season... no... there was nothing in their relationship this season that compared to last’s. no moments of tough brotherly love, where ben tries to help klaus through his drug/alcohol desires or ptsd flashbacks, no moments of teamwork (besides the brief moments of consenting possession before that was ruined), no tender moments between brothers in general. all just REALLY FUCKING LOUD “comedy”, anger, resentment, bickering, and cruelty, all played for laughs. not about it son

6. “we’re not blood related!” - and, once again, getting played for laughs... for a show that became uncomfortably self-aware with trivial fan desires (but not the deeper stuff...), they sure do lack a lot of common sense of realizing what we don’t want

7. hazel (& agnes) - they went through the trouble of saving hazel and agnes just to have agnes die off-screen before the season started, and for hazel to die five minutes into his only appearance? lame. lame lame lame.

8. plot pace - i don’t really recall any moments in s1 that i thought “this scene doesn’t need to be here”, “this is moving so slowly”, or “this is being really rushed”. there was plenty of all three of those in s2. s1 was constant, everything was either towards the main goal or was filled with private and fascinating character moments. i love just watching characters live and do their thing if it’s done properly... but those scenes this season really weren’t very entertaining (save one or two), didn’t really seem to serve a purpose or hold weight, and didn’t give us any character insight.

9. klaus - the reason he’s listed specifically even after i mentioned him in the first point, was because of how personally saddened i was by his “arc”, if you could call it that. i know, him being my favorite (along with vanya) in s1 isn’t an original thought. but the writers, directors, and robert created a character so entertaining, charming, layered, and multi-faceted that it was hard not to fall in love with him. for all his goofiness, he then got a shit ton of characterization and development in the war, in dave, in his ptsd and discovering his power. his poignant moments were so powerful because of how different it was from his typical outward appearance. and fuck if he didn’t develop! this season, klaus felt... shallow. the cult stuff had no depth, no real reason to be there at all (the show really wouldn’t be much different without it, besides it being how five and allison found klaus), and it was kind of a throwaway point anyway, just another tool to get - shocker - more laughs. those touching, serious klaus scenes were completely absent in s2... he was just the ~quirky~ and/or ~high/drunk~ guy. there was literally no depth to his character at all this season. yeah, he crawled from behind the desk in e9.... and what else? nothing. robert did all he could this season, but something tells me even he was probably disappointed by just how one-dimensional klaus was. he was really no different at the end than he was at the beginning of the season, which is a no-no. 

10. klave - this is kind of an expansion of #9, but i was so disappointed by it that it needed its own spot. the only stuff that was supposed to be serious in klaus’ story - the klaus/dave stuff - was really not good. the moment the shopkeeper said “david?” in the store, i literally gasped bc i was so excited... but that was the last of any excitement i felt for the two, which, if you know me, is BONKERS considering how much i adore s1 klave. but this new young actor had ZERO chemistry with robert (fuck if rob wasn’t trying, though. it looked painful for him, but this guy really was just not well casted) (cody and rob were phenomenal together and had a fraction of the screentime this new actor had), and klaus being 30 and this actor/character being a kid was just... weird to watch. plus... so many white actors look the same, they really couldn’t find someone who looked like cody ray thompson? c’mon now ...... also, was there any point to it? at all? dave just wound up going anyway and there was literally no differences made in that situation. i think the writers thought they were catering to the audience by adding dave, but you need actors with chemistry (cody! cody!!!) and a good plot to do so.

11. s1 fallout - there really was none. that’s it. you’d think there’d be more after the explosions in the relationships of these siblings, but everything was just kind of glossed over.

12. sparrow academy - mostly here because... does this mean 7 more characters? meaning MORE time taken away from our og siblings, who already (mostly) didn’t develop well this season? i’m not gonna lie, i’m worried/

WHAT I LIKED

1. the chestnuts - i absolutely loved ray, loved allison, and loved their and their group’s work this season. the issue of race is so important all the time, but in the 60′s the tensions were so high and it would’ve been a joke if the show hadn’t addressed it or just kind of went with little racist remarks. these two had some of the most touching scenes of the season, and the sit-in scenes/every police scene had me incredibly anxious. that was well done, imo. which is proof that they still know how to do a good storyline, which makes me even more upset that the show was overall lacking that this season. i’m also so glad they didn’t go the “oh sry ray i still love luther’ route bc i literally don’t know if i would’ve kept watching. ANYWAYS im gonna miss ray sm :(

2. vanya & sissy - lesbian!vanya is all i want and more. vanya/sissy was all i want and more. these two, much like the chestnuts, breathed so much life into an often-dull season. so in love!!! vanya connecting with harlan even in just the most human ways!!! sissy finally standing up to carl (and carl d*ing god bless).... little found family oh my GOD!!! super devastated that sissy didn’t come back to the future with vanya, but because of harlan’s ending, something tells me we haven’t seen the last of them. oh and i am so conflicted about vanya’s amnesia, bc while i think so much more development could’ve happened without it, i also don’t think a lot of what happened with her and sissy could have happened, at least as quickly, if vanya was bogged down by guilt, anger, and lingering feelings of self-hatred and anxiety.

3. sibling dynamics - okay, this one is a contradiction, kinda sorta. i know i said the ben/klaus relationship was horrid. and i didn’t dig absolutely everything with all the siblings.... but they had some REALLY strong stuff this season. i know i’ve already mentioned it multiple times, but vanya/allison/klaus was everything to me this season. i knew i wanted klaus/vanya stuff happening, but adding allison to the mix gave it a whole new layer and they all just worked SO. DAMN. WELL. i just kind of wish it was vanya with her memories getting that bonding time, because i feel like the trio really could’ve gone in with how they all related to each other, their struggles, etc. but still, just some Happy Time was much appreciated. in addition to them, i really did dig a lot of almost every sibling dynamic this season. not every relationship got the attention it deserved, but it wasn’t too bad, it would be really hard to get all of that into 10 eps. plus, the fact that almost all of them grew so much closer was everyyyything. it’s odd, because good dynamics usually come with good development but uh..... nvm im keepin this section positive

4. the humor - another kind of contradiction, maybe. for some of the humor, i thought it went too long, was extremely heavy-handed, often took away from the plot, and some of it even degraded certain characters and situations (see examples throughout my points above). however, the stuff that didn’t fall into these categories was so, so good. some favorites: olga foroga, “think of batman, then aim lower”, “you look like antonio banderas with that hair” “thanks man”, i’m t h e  d a d d y  h e r e, “not everyone here likes you” “sounds ridiculous but go on”, klaus’ little pop culture quips to his cult, “being smart doesn’t make you interesting” “neither does that beard”, klaus calling ben to manifest and ben being like ”...nah”... there are plenty more, but these were the first i could think of in 60 seconds off the top of my head. some of it really was laugh out loud funny, which can be hard to do, especially consistently. if only they didn’t lean into it so damn hard, and put in WAY too much heavy-handed humor that it dampened the experience

5. old five - although i don’t love all of the stuff in the five/old five scenes, old five’s actor was fantastic! he got aidan’s mannerisms down really, really well. it’s always cool to see actors do that kind of thing when they play a character at a different age, or a character’s sibling, etc.

6. time period bigotry - i’m really, really glad they didn’t gloss over the intense racism and homophobia of the era. it was mostly brought up with allison, vanya, and klaus, and all three actors did a great job in their respective roles when expressing their reactions to the hatred. the scenes were really hard to watch, but well done.

7. pogo/grace/reggie - don’t get me wrong, i still hate reggie with a burning passion. but i actually found his scenes with these two really interesting, and it gave us great insight as to why pogo was always so loyal to reggie, and how grace was more than just a face on a robot to hargreeves. (which actually makes lack of development in our mains even more infuriating... they clearly knew to put some in there, where is it for the rest of the sibs who got nothing this season!!!)

alright, i’m gonna stop here. i’m sure i can think of more for each section, but i’ve been thinking this out and typing for an hour (holy shit) and it’s 2am and i need sleep xoxo

#anon #ask #tua2 #this is the most i've really sat and analyzed the season since it came out #feels good