#idk how to explain it to u guys but

[isjasz]

☀️⭐🌙👁️👑

This is the way you are supposed to play this game.

#dddaily4sherin #day 172!! #grian #smajor1995 #pearlescentmoon #itlwart #goodtimeswithscar #trafficblr #traffic smp #secret life #secret life smp #secret life spoilers #life series #my art #cw blood #i had so many thoughts about this but itll be too complicated to explain it #so ill let u guys analyze it and take it how u want💥💥💥💥 #(maybe ill change my mind and ramble about it later maybeeeeee idk BHASDAHW) #explodes. cant believe we can draw scar with all the winners now it still feels like a fucking hallucination

[mintypsii]

DO. U GUYS SEE THE VISION

#idk how to explain myself #guys im actually rly normal did u know #new colourspread is SO SO PRETTYYYYYY #op #one piece #min watches one piece #sanuso #usosan #zosopp #zouso #sanji #zoro #usopp #nico robin #roronoa zoro #black leg sanji

[clambuoyance]

I’m sure it’s because not many people know but kon actually has a lot of different sources for angst potential! He’s engineered to be a copy of earths greatest hero yet constantly struggling to find out who he is outside of a given purpose. He galavants around with the idea that he’s independent enough to be his own boss, but from the moment of his creation he’s been told who to be or exploited by the people he meets. He’s both treated like an adult yet punished for acting like a kid. He makes mistakes and often feels like a screw up but he gets up and tries again every time! He’s acts like the S symbol is both something he already deserves (because that’s what he was made for) yet acts as if he constantly has to prove he’s worthy. He didn’t have a name for the first years of his publication history, and for a long time he didn’t know how to be anything other than Superboy (and maybe he’s still figuring that out). He cried tears of joy when Superman finally gave him his very own Kryptonian name and verbally accepted him into the family, a testament to how important that journey of identity and belonging is to him. At the same time, why did it have to take so long?

His life is constantly being uprooted, and he can never settle in one place long enough to call it home. He deserves agency and stability, yet his life is often slipping out of his own control. He yearns for a mother or father, and maybe if he had one, he wouldn’t feel so lost. For a while, he thought he would never grow up and be who he needs to be, which is ironic given how many people are quick to call him immature. He cares so much for his friends and family, and he is pained when people leave and feels immensely guilty when he hurts the people he cares about. Regardless of what he may think, those people are happy to remind him that they think of him as family too and they’ll travel across time and space and to the ends of the earth for him.

Despite being created in a lab to be a copy of someone else, ironically he is brimming with a unique personality that is sometimes sought to be stifled. But he’s tied so much worth into who he’s supposed to be that shaking that foundation shakes his very core and is a source of insecurity. He acts so differently from Clark, yet so similarly as well. He wants to be Superman, but both emulates him and fights to be Different from him. He believes in seeing the good in people, even if it lands him into trouble, and though he may doubt it or question it he really is a hero at heart. He’s like Clark where it matters, but everything else—his personality and style, his connections to his friends and family, his struggles and triumphs—all of that is completely his own.

He may not have figured out everything it meant to be human, but he’s loved enough to die for it. To die would indeed be an awfully great adventure, but like J.M. Barrie said, “To live would be an awfully big adventure.” And Kon has certainly experienced it all, good and bad.

<3

#Not directed at anyone in particular but #Kon el is too busy being tormented by the Horrors to be sad about Tim drake having a diff love interest than him okay💀💀💀 #there is so much diff angst potential in him #however I do think he has trouble w change #and would be sad about the fact his bond with a person doesn’t feel as strong as before #ugh idk how to explain it #I could go on about kon for hours #spurred to make this post bc everytime I see ppl say that kon is sad bc Tim doesn’t love him I’m like #there is sooo much more here u guys #kon el #Conner kent #superboy

[kenmaiii]

after two years i finally draw the favorite

#my art #still learning honestly. idk how to explain it but some medias youre so fixated on and obsessed with u instantly want to draw everyone #for me dunmeshi has always been the opposite. series and characters i enjoy sm i cannot bring myself to pick up a pencil #for some reason. it got a lot worse once the anime started airing idk. simply forcing myself to get some of my energy out. in a way #dunmeshi #dungeon meshi #thistle #dunmeshi thistle #thistle dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #>_< series i was into since late 2021. yet u wouldnt know that unless u follow my side twitter account. sowwy ig #i do this with a lot of franchises honestly. cannot bring myself to draw even if i think abt the characters constantly. ie skip to loafer #u will nvr catch me calling this guy sissel sorry. save that name for Mr. Ghost Trick. another thing i. also. dnt talk abt. which i adore #i need to get better at talking abt and expressing myself for the things that i enjoy. ive been wanting to draw laios for a good #while too but im scared. for some reason. u-u should nvr let a white man do that to me honestly. #for now i'll thistle tho. maybe we will get kabru namari or mithrun next from me >_< i have to talk myself into it #i think the closest way i can explain why i cannot bring myself to draw for some series is that i dnt want to mess up somehow #like 'ilu so much [character] what if i cnt draw u the way u deserve even tho i love u sm what if its not enough.' <- leaves it to sm1 else #tbh [scratches head] i prefer the version with less coloring ^-^ but i realize the one thats more colored would get more eyes on it... hm

[oceanwithouthermoon]

people who dislike saiki kusuo i need to pick and prod at ur brain. whats going on in there?

#this is half joking but not really #i think you just cant read and thats okay<3 #'hes a dick to everyone' LITERALLY TELL ME HOW #cuz the entire manga is about him pushing everyone away because he doesnt think hes supposed to have friends #which he thinks because of past experiences that have literally only proved him right #and they show him kindness and make him realize its fucking okay and he deserves to have friends #so please explain why him self sabotaging and pushing people away by being like at most mildly rude (ONLY WHEN PROVOKED MIGHT I ADD)- #makes him an asshole ??? #anyone who thinks like this i feel like youre those people on twitter who r like 'u should never vent to ur friends or be there for them' #LIKE THATS U RN😭😭 #idk how to explain it but i think its exactly the same #depressed guy has a tough time showing affection and u go 'well he doesnt deserve his friends actually' #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #saiki kusuo #meows post

[howdareyouassumeimstraight]

i genuinely dont know what it is about him, but jeremy allen white intrigues me in a way no one ever has

#its like #whered u come from buddy #idkkkkk #idk how to explain it well #but it's just really different and i wanna figure it out so badly #like who IS he #DO YOU GUYS UNDERSTAND #jeremy allen white #the bear #carmen berzatto #shameless #lip gallagher

[crushedsweets]

Yk actually I think we as a fandom need to stop separating things by “canon” vs “fanon” and instead describe it more like … dark . Vs not dark. Or smth of similar nature. Cuz some of the “canon” stuff is cool, made for horror purposes, super interesting and I enjoy it a lot, but it is simply not canon and that’s ok !!!!!! (I don’t actually think anyone needs to stop doing anything it’s not that deep)

#example being like.. some people interpret Toby chewing his hands as him being a cannibal which is a super cool interpretation and I like i #but I see someone people take it as ‘oh this is a DEEPER analysis of his character therefore CANON’ #but that’s only because it’s an even darker take on something #and darker in this fandom is automatically associated with canon and ‘more realistic’ #but Toby used to be a canonically goofy ass teenager with a girlfriend he loved very deeply #yk what I mean ? #regardless I love all the work in this fandom dark or not !!!!!!! I just get bothered by ppl having like a complex abt canon vs not canon #chatterbox #love u guys #sory I keep harping on about this it just like LMFAO IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN #IT DEEPLY IRKS ME WHEN PPL HAVE SUPERIORITY COMPLEXES AND BELITTLE OTHERS OVER SILLY ENJOYMENT #reminds me of cringe culture at its peak LOL #also let me further clarify that fanon stuff like twink Masky is bad . like objectively #not everything fanon is sunshine and rainbows #and there are many weird and gross aspects of fanon too

[mysicklove]

the amount of ppl who have lied to me about their age and then used my kindness to their advantage truly makes me want to delete this account

#🔪 - mello talks too much #cw vent #i wish i could explain to u guys how many times minors have contacted me without me knowing they are one #it makes me just not want to make mutuals/trust any ppl on this app #and im just so #fuck #bc whenever i see the tell tale signs of behaviors of children i just brush it off bc i trust ppl too easy and think im overreacting #its happened multiple times #and im just #for the love of god if u are lying about your age (which honestly i assume a lot are) pls dont try and contact me or have a relationship #with me #and its just so hard bc the first thing i think when i find out is “they are just a kid. they dont know any better” but idk.. #makes me sick to my stomach

[princekirijo]

POINTS ‼️‼️NEW RIKU ICON‼️ REAL‼️ GRAHHHHH HE LOOKS AWESOME 🔥🔥🔥

Ahh thank you Misty :3c

Here is the uh full icon for those who want to see it properly 👉👈

He's my silly little goose :3 my funny boy

Also uhm a bonus and a little lore drop I'd planning to make for a while undercut ehe

Tada this is Riku's actual eye colour! Much similar to Mitsuru's :3 He wears eye contacts throughout a lot of Captain AU's story and if you ask him why he will give you a different answer every time ehe

#asks #misty-wisp #riku kirijo #oc tag #i cant believe im doing this lmao #but if im gonna do it ill do it scared #but tada riku's official look!! #well aside from teh outfit i'll explain that in a bit #but i can safely say i am 100% happy with this design now :3c #his outfit is kinda what im thinking he'd wear in the catt au! he refuses to wear the actual gekkoukan uniform so hes gonna wear the varsit #jacket instead! <- 100% my personal bias for the jacket i own it and its the most comfortable thing i own #and the ring has lore but eh i wont go into it now #i was gonna post the full doodle page but u know what baby steps #and yeah lmaooo riku actually has brown eyes surprise #the actual reason for the contacts thing is because i couldn't pick between the two eye colours i really like both #but brown eyes is more realistic so its his true look ehe #and uhm yeah idk what i was doing with the expression but nico pointed out it looks like one of yukari's sprites LMAO #unintentional on my part but he is a mama's boy #depnding on how this goes ill post the rest of the doodles #but wow can u guys believe the last time i posted proper art was 2021 #not including the lil character bio sheet i did in 2022 that was a lil doodle #but ehm nico said my arts improved and my gf is always praising my art so im uhm gonna share #i need a new art tag tbfh

[fleshdyke]

#csa warning for tags #ughhh ik i was just talking abt this but man. Man. constantly bullied as a child + raped as a child is a brutal combo huh #completely irreversibly fucked up sense of intimacy. i dont want to have sex with anyone i dont care what ppl think of me looks wise but i #also care more than anything and want people to want me so bad #like when ur only experience with anyone at all finding you desirable is being raped at 6ish. fucks u up man #was constantly told by everyone i knew that i was undesirable from day fucking one. i was always the one ppl would dare their friends to #'ask out' bc everyone thought i was that bad. i never had those rumours of 'some boy likes you' without people laughing in the background #all of my friends. even the ones that were also weird kids and bullied etc etc always have stories of other kids having crushes on them or #whatever. and i just never had that. it feels like i missed out on something important #i want to be pursued by a guy i hate i want them to not leave me alone. i want to feel like im in danger. and i know how fucking disgusting #that is but i cant help it. like i feel like thats the only way im going to feel normal and wanted like theres not something inherently #wrong with me. and i know how dangerous that is but its not like it matters anyways bc still no one likes me at all. #and i know how stupid of a thing it is to obsess over like what am i 9 years old? but i just cant get it out of my head #like idk i feel like the only way im going to actually feel desirable at all is if someone tries to rape me again. or if i feel like i have #to worry about someone raping me again. i know i wouldnt feel that way if someone was like. nice about it. #bc if someone genuinely liked me and was a decent human being about it i wouldnt be able to see it as anything other than faking it for pit #i wouldnt be able to believe it. even if i wasnt waiting for them to drop the joke and start laughing at me i would always think it was jus #an act bc they feel bad for me. the only way i could ever think it's genuine and that i'm desirable at all is if someone sexually #harassed me. like idk how to explain it but thats the only way i could feel desirable at all #bc it's the only way i've ever been desirable. when i was a kid. #and it terrifies me so bad bc i know how fucking disgusting that is and how self destructive it is #but i still feel like i dont even have to really worry about being assaulted. bc i still believe im completely undesirable at my core. #i dont believe i could be desired so i dont believe i have to worry about being raped. bc no one would want to anyways #rambles #vent

[bangcakes]

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#god i was so giddy today (or well i guess yesterday. its almost 2am JDJFJFJF) #i was waitin all day for him to finish work so i could message him n he messaged me in seconds... triple texted NDNDJDJDNDNDMDMDN #god hes so cute. im so !@@@@@ i like him so much. like ..... !!!!!!!!!!!! #he makes me so happy idk how to explain. i just !!!!!!@@ like him so !!!!@@ much !!!! #why do i deprive myself of him 😭😭😭😭😭 #but i mean we did talk for 2 hours straight in person a few weeks ago. not much you can like. converse about after that JDJDJDJDJDJDJ #:'))))))))) #maybe i'll let myself be a lil hopeful.... 🥺🥺🥺 #personal #also omg i think i figured out why he was so combative??? when i saw him last #i think it was bc of our mutual friend........... #n e way HDNDNDNDNDN #so maybe thats why he was like that. bc with me.... sure we tease each other but hes not like....... out for the kill idk JDJDJDNDNNDNDND #hes so sweet.... like not in an obvious way but like NDNNDMDDMD IDK. #we'll put it this way.... #when ppl ask him for help... he tells them to google it #meanwhile hes explaining stuff to me in detail; going up to the teacher n asking questions for me; getting up out of his seat n #looking for a plug for me JFJDJDJDD LIKE ????? #hes also so polite... thanks ppl... holds the door for ppl. god hes so...... #if he's like....... the guy im gonna be with for the rest of my life... o i'll be so happy BDJZNZNNZNZNZNZNZ #THIS IS SO SAPPY GOD. #if u saw the messages you'd be like literally what are you giddy over HFJDJDJJDJDJDJD AND THATS OKAY #hes just some guy.... love that about him the most.....

[dhmis-autism]

did another quick dhmis rewatch my thoughts are thusly:

duck and yellow friendship FOREVER I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

duck best character ever created ever invented

red guy still scares me and i had to skip the end of transport bc he made me so uncomfortable.

like somehow this rewatch made me like him LESS and he was already my least fave of the main 3

baker terry i love you goodnite

#LIKE. I STOPPED IT EVRY 5 MINUTES TO EXPLAIN TO MY BABY SISTER HOW THIS EP IS DUCK CENTRIC AND HOW THIS AND THAT #and at one point she was like yeah RG kinda got the shaft this series huh? #and i was like oh shut upp he has so many episodes. like uh. transport. and uh. idk but he HAS them ur gonna have to ask someone who #has him as a favorite #bc to ME transport ep is and always is duck and yellow have a fun cute time in the foreground while red guy loses his shit in the bg #HES JUST SO DISTURBING TO ME IN THAT EPPP #STOP SINGING DISSTRESSEDLY YOURE SCARING ME!! #STOP BEING SO DESPERATE AND RESTLESS AND AGITATED!!! #we are IN THE KITCHEN having a fun time COUNTING THINGS on the CLIPBOARD and you literally sound like ur gonna kill someone #stop !!!!!!!!! ffs!!!!!!!!!!!!! #STOP GRABBING STUFF STOP HITTING THINGS UR NOT DOING IT IN A COMEDIC WAY!!!! #scawy................ #anyways dont ever watch dhmis with me im so fucking annoying about it #as a joke my sister said one of ducks lines along with him and then i just quoted him like .5 seconds before his actual lines for the rest #of jobs. #WHO CAN QUOTE DUCK THE FASTEST IS NEVER A GAME I /WANT/ TO PLAY BUT IT IS A GAME I PLAY AND WIN EVERY TIME #>:U STOP FORMING A BOND WITH THEM!!! #anyways. red guy maybe try not being so tall and big and scary and maybe ill like you better next time #my postings

[simelune]

💭 hmmm venting in tags.

but im very curious what you guys think about the phrase/idea "you can't love someone else until you love yourself"???

#this guy i was in a vc with earlier tonight said he ended a “relationship” with someone bc it seemed like they didnt care abt themself #theres obviously a lot i dont know about the situation so i cant comment on it too much #but there was one thing he said that i have always hated #'you cant love someone else until you love yourself' #i ended up having a whole journal session abt this phrase lmao #it's strange bc i dont believe that idea at all #i have loved people with my whole being who have in turn made me love myself more/want to take care of myself #i also feel like it's like......... it furthers this idea that u are undeserving of love? #im not sure how to properly explain it LMAO #like. there are things about myself i dislike... but i see them in other people and i think oh #maybe i will like these things abt myself #and maybe the idea applies differently in terms of when wanting to enter a relationship w someone #but hes also studying to be a therapist so. idk #no further comments on that #ANYWAY!! #personal #if anyone reads all this im curious to know what you think abt the phrase

[seongclb]

brb going to cry

#no cos he’s so patient idk how #so #we were doing these math questions and i couldn’t do them #so i made him call me and explain them #and when i tell u guys #my brain was blank like i couldn’t think of anything when he was asking me stuff like “ok so what do we do next #and i was like URM idk.. #and then i was like “OKAY JS GIVE ME THE ANSWERS STOO ASKING ME WHAT TO DO NET #and he was like okay and he did it #but i was like omf he’s so Sweet im crying #now i’m so embarrassed cos like i looked so dumb

[m-kyunie]

Left waiting, left wanting; why can't you see me

just imagine Sins Fate or Prayer [Banana Fish] playing & the text boxes flickering. Alma's symbolism goes so hard.

I'm on my hands & knees begging you to read the Alma Arc instead.

#dgm #d.gray-man #alma karma #eyestrain #i wanted to try smtg completely different bc its how I see Alma n I wanted to interpret that thru other uh. effects I guess! #n share some of the songs i think suit Alma's scorn n fire #this was inspired by Dress [BUCK-TICK] thats Buns introduced me to god the lyrics n visuals! watch the MV #just the anger that Alma possess is very female but like. queer gendered thirst way idk how to explain myself I hope u guys can understand #like Alma is violence born from female energy but his grace/charm is masculine. does that make any sense at all....... #anger takes many forms right but that brand of anger in the manga is distinctly feminine. 'Hell Hath no fury like a woman scorned' #Mitski & Atushi get it. they understand me. #anyway the songs i cut from vaguely in order from top down left right: #I Hate You [SZA]. Dress [BUCK-TICK]. Less Than Zero [The Weeknd]. #Me & My Husband [Mitski] First Love/Late Spring[Mitski] #actually can i recommend another MV that fits what I'm talking about: No Party For Cao Dong - Wayfarer #im sorry this ended up so long I just. i like to explain my thought process since I lack comic making skills lol

[satoruhour]

also amidst uncertainty and feeling less than themselves, to all my fellow moots and writers: i hope u know how amazingly all of you write, whether it’s smut or angst or fluff. even if interactions are lacking (some of it can be blamed on t*mblr’s shitty ui/ux and programming) or the writing just feels off for some reason, it’s perfectly normal. it’s part of growth and improvement and it’s like yadda yadda yadda we’ve all heard this before and don’t really implement it because the brain has funny ways of making us feel like shit and it absolutely sucks but it will pass soon. i won’t have a set time on how long this will last and i cannot tell you how long of a break you should take but at the end of the day you should be prioritising yourself first and when you feel refreshed, you can come back to your wips and requests and first drafts. sending all my love to u guys cause we do this shit for free. give yourself more credit and take care of yourself fr <3

#to whoever who sees this I LOVE YOUUUU !!!!!!!!!! #muah muah #i love the community here cause we are bonded by writing about fictional ppl but also it’s just so close-knit in some way #idk how to explain it but my time on tumblr (altho some interactions are on the bad side) has always been good #and a lot of it is thru getting to know and interacting with writers because all of you are so so so so cool #i love writers so much. i love the way we like to tell stories about FICTIONAL CHARACTERS like . #it’s so endearing to see and i hope u guys know how lovely each one of you are #ok bye enough rambling i need to read shit for lecture LMAOAOAO #satoruhour's rambles