#idk i don't pay attention to him like i do with jensen & misha

[sunglassesmish]

hey, i'm not trying to be confrontational and i really don't have much of an issue with people shipping cockles, but like, i don't know, i think even entertaining anons about jensen being worried about misha bc of him being in kyiv feels really gross and disrespectful to people actually living there and affected daily to me. idk it feels like. maybe do that with any other post not that one

i know you’re trying to be nice and i understand your point completely. but if you think i’m trying to be disrespectful by answering one anon message about that whilst mentioning in the tags that my main issue is the people who lost their lives and people who are in constant danger and terror going through that. then you haven’t been paying attention to my blog’s posts this past week at all. all my worry and attention has been going to the people of ukraine and attempting to share any shred of platform i have to bring awareness to this terrible issue. now i won’t bring it up again, because like i said. i understand your point and i was in no way trying to be disrespectful.

#anon #ask

[deaneverafter]

Winc*st/Sam stans: look at Jensen being forced to do awkward photo ops with Misha, he clearly hates it. But the fact that he doesn't say no to our awful poses (uhm, the barn) is evidence that he loves those

Hellers: look at Jensen being forced to do the bibros' awful poses, he clearly hates it. But the fact that he doesn't say no to the completely inappropriate and creepy poses we ask him to do with Misha, is evidence that he loves doing them, and destiel. The fact that when we show up with poses to insult him and demean him (y'all, those "his wife is the only good thing about him", "we couldn't get photo ops with the wives, so we settled for them" are really not funny at all, they're extremely disrespectful, not to mention, embarrassing af. You're not cool, you're not impressing him, you'd see that if you'd actually pay attention to reality), that he doesn't cause a scene is evidence that he likes being treated like trash

Um? Perhaps, if you cared about him, you'd see that the stuff brought to him by both "sides" probably isn't that pleasant an experience, and not just acknowledge that the "opposition" is being inconsiderate

Here's a thought: the fact that he agrees to do these poses is evidence of nothing other than that he's nice enough to do those poses because he doesn't want to upset people, evidenced by the fact that, wait for it........ he's actually said that people bring him poses he doesn't want to do, but he doesn't say no anyway. The poses that happen in the photo ops say nothing about his own personal opinions, and everything about the opinions and lack of respect and boundaries and consideration of the people who are asking for them. (Using these photo ops as indicative of his inner feelings would imply that every photo op that takes place has his personal endorsement and that he enjoyed it. You guys think he enjoys having his creepy stalker or the rest of her heller crew all over him every other con? I think the eff not.)

Of course, what he's actually said about that dumb ship (that it doesn't exist) and the barn (that while he was proud of the work they'd done, it was a difficult event, that he barely was able to make it through a couple of takes) and the gross poses certain groups bring him (that he regrets them instantaneously), those things might be saying something about his actual opinions, and how he really feels about those events/ships/poses (that he doesn't like them? Idk, it's one thing to be like, we're not going to speculate about his opinions on these poses, but if we are going to speculate, I have to say, the evidence is not in favour of him loving any of these categories of poses), but admitting that would involve actually listening to what he says, and not twisting his words or actions to fit an agenda.

P.S. forreals, destiel fans asking him to "recreate" a goodbye with Castiel in the barn or "recreate" a heaven scene......... just say y'all hate Dean as much as the other side does and move on. Seriously, none of you care about how absolutely terrible the finale was for Dean, how it wronged him, no, your problem is that pervy angel wasn't there. You don't mind the barn scene, you mind that it wasn't Castiel there instead of Sam, so don't act like you're any better than those people asking for the barn reenactment, smh, you're all the same, no care for Dean (or Jensen) himself, and the only concern being how to use him to validate your ship/fave/opinion

#dean winchester deserves better #jensen ackles deserves better #this is why i don't believe shippers when they call themselves 'dean girls' #me: i'm going to stop salt posting #the barn photos that have been attacking me all week #and then the latest post claiming ACTUALLY let's do deathstiel in the barn that'll make it all better #: #salt post #anti destiel #anti wincest #but more like........ #anti shippers #anti hellers

[wigglebox]

thank you for your answer to that anon acknowledging a lot of people in the fandom only knew about the movie because of the connection to jensen and it's only natural that they would immediately wonder and think of him in this situation too. it's a tragedy and something very traumatic for everyone who was on that set and witnessed it but i saw so many posts acting like you're a bad person for hoping that he's okay too. someone was even critical of misha for mentioning jensen on his tweet when sources say jensen was actually on that set too.

aw no problem nonny.

yeah i don't agree with those posts or those tweets. grief and trauma are complex and it's unfair to yell at folks who are focusing more on their own emotional link to this movie.

i don't even — i can't imagine the lengths someonee has to go to to criticize mollins. he'd know before any of us if jackles was on set, and now it seems like he was but even if he wasn't it's still sad — and like, j is his friend,??? of course he'd want to make sure he's doing okay.

i find this notion of ignoring our own emotional interest in this movie and one of the cast members bizzarre. if anything it's allowing us to feel more. i'll be honest, with this happening, if i didn't care about anyone involved, i would have thought about it generally as a tragic accident and Yes Something Must Be Done but it wouldn't bt put in the forefront of my mind. There's a lot of tragedy in the world, a lot of things happening in our day-to-day activities, there's only so much we can care about on a daily basis. so to me, having an emotional link to this movie actually helps me mourn more about what happened and pay more attention to it.

so idk. those being criticical — i'm avoiding them. and they can leave mollins alone too because that's his actual close friend, closer than we are obviously, so it makes even more sense to focus on his FRIEND and making sure his friend, and his friends coworkers are doing okay following his horrific accident.

#rust bl #death tw

[verobatto]

The Answer is in Dean

Time to run on the Empty

Destiel meta. 15x19 meta. Meta spec.

How are you my friends??

Some of you might be very mad, but I can tell, don't lose hopes because CAS WILL BE RESCUED BY DEAN IN NEXT EPISODE.

So now relax, and read my rants, you'll feel better after this. I promise.

Mourning!Dean

Dean's voice shaking while explaining how Cas saved him, and then saying 'I'm sorry' to Jack, was one of the most saddest scenes I've seen. Because I know how Dean was feeling, he was feeling he failed to the kid by losing Castiel, and because they lost him for saving him.

Gif credit @dreamnovak

We already know this fellow each time he lose Cas. But this time, it hurst even more.

The Guilt, again, this time mixed with the huge pain and regrets in his soul.

There was a fallen Bicycle in the ground, color blue, as a representation of indirect Castiel.

As we saw, Dean was thinking about Castiel the whole time. When they gave up to Chuck, the first thing he asked for was to bring Cas back. Is like going into that whirlwind of loosing the love of his life all over again.

But Chuck won't let him, why? Because he wanted to watch them suffer, feeling the despair and loneliness and sadness for the eternity, and i will explain in the next meta how this represents Chuck himself.

Another hard scene was watching Dean on the floor, passed out because of alcohol. The only way our poor boy can conciliate sleeping, was through alcohol. And he wasn't even in his room. He was somewhere in the bunker, depressed and passed out.

Castiel, the Miracle

As I pointed so many times, Cas is a miracle. Dean said it when he made Donnie coming back to life in the hospital in season 14 and then a woman called him that when he healed his son in the woods in 15x06.

In season 12 Castiel was called roughly as the Winchester's dog, but Dean reworded that in season 13, when Scooby Doo was a cute mirror of Cas for Dean. He adores that dog.

So, Dean decides to call that dog MIRACLE, because it represented HOPES, just what Cas means to him. He even said to this dog: MAYBE YOU CAN SLEEP IN HIS ROOM. Which was like a consolation. Dean is so sad....

But the dog disappears and then, thanks to Jack, comes back. Miracle comes back. Is a foreshadow of Castiel coming back.

Lucifer Call was the last mocking to Destiel

The fake call from Castiel, was a mocking game from Lucifer, again, the devil making jokes about Destiel, but mostly, about Dean mourning Castiel.

Dean's face when he thought it was really Cas the one calling him, broke me. He was this slightly moment of hopes in his face, i wanted to die. Damn...

The answer is in Dean

Okay, i know everyone was screaming because Jack didn't bring Cas back, BUT BUT. What Jack said, it has a lot of Destiel sense, because it will complete Dean's arc.

If Jack would brought Cas back with one snap, would be easy, and Dean wouldn't be able to say the words he has to say to him.

But, taking what Jack said THE ANSWERS ARE IN EACH ONE. IS JUST PERFECT.

Why? Because if Dean wants his angel back, he will have to find the answer inside of him. Which answer do you say? The I LOVE YOU BACK answer to Castiel. Using his words to express the amount of years loving him in silence, or secretly, or repressing it, because he just thought he couldn't have him as a lover.

Is perfectly poetic and philosophical, and it will close the Healing!Dean's arc.

Because when Dean faced Chuck and said HE WASN'T WHAT CHUCK WROTE, which means HE IS KOT A KILLER, is because Castiel's words are still resonating in his head. Because CASTIEL CHANGED HIM, FOREVER.

Keep you love alive

Now, pay attention to this... Because this is the song that was playing at the end of the episode...

Looking out at the road rushing under my wheels

Looking back at the years gone by like so many summer fields

In sixty-five I was seventeen and running up one-oh-one

I don't know where I'm running now, I'm just running on

Despite of the smiles on their faces, this lyrics here is very angsty, 'I'm just running.' Dean is just running without knowing where to go.

Running on, running on empty

Running on, running blind

Running on, running into the sun

But I'm running behind

Okay people, if this is not talking about Dean getting inside the Empty to rescue Castiel, idk what else. It says RUNNING ON EMPTY. The Empty!!!! RUNNING BLIND because is dark, and he can't see Cas. RUNNING INTO THE SUN!!!!! @weird-dorky-little-deana CASTIEL IS THE SUN!!!! BUT I'M RUNNING BEHIND, it speaks about how hard will be fine him, maybe. I'm screaming.

Gotta do what you can just to keep your love alive

Trying not to confuse it with what you do to survive

In sixty-nine I was twenty-one and I called the road my own

I don't know when that road turned, into the road I'm on

To keep your love alive!!!!!!!!! OMG, i can't. To keep Cas, his love, alive!

Everyone I know, everywhere I go

People need some reason to believe

I don't know about anyone but me

If it takes all night, that'll be all right

If I can get you to smile before I leave

Dean feels it doesn't matter how long it would take him to bring Cas back, but he will!

Honey you really tempt me

You know the way you look so kind

OMG this is Castiel's love confession, Dean is tempted by him hdjxdjfkfkfj. Sorry.

I'd love to stick around but I'm running behind

You know I don't even know what I'm hoping to find

Running into the sun but I'm running behind

People, have faith, Cas is coming back because this hunter won't let him go so easily.

The answer is inside of Dean, he has those words to say to Cas, he has to say I Love You to him. And that's the very ending of this show. The perfect closing arc for Dean. If Cas saved him once from Hell, is time for him to save him from the Empty. So, to bring him back, Dean will have to say tht answer that was inside of him this whole time.

Miscellaneous spec: i heard Jack saying: Amara was inside of him and they were in harmony, and I'm sorry, but i took that as another clue for my vessel sharing Destiel endgame spec. Just saying.

To Conclude

Why do I stick to Destiel happy ending? Because if this was the ending of season 15 as Jensen said, the ending for the whole show is waiting for us. I hope we will be able to see our angel again, for sure, and not just him, but more of our lovely characters. Even Eileen.

There was a lot of clues in this episode that foreshadowed Castiel's return. So wait for it.

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Buenos Aires, November 12 2020, 11:57 PM

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