#idk i just feel really bad sometimes bc these are usually my friends or mutuals i really respect and look up to and i want to make something

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CaitVi headcanons for paths cross, tangle into each other

Caitlyn:

Before Caitlyn meets Vi, she's very lonely. She has friends, but none are very close except Jayce. Meeting Vi and bonding with a bunch of misfits helps her become a fuller, more real person

She definitely knows she's gay, but doesn't date much during college claiming that she's “just too busy” (and yet you find time to hang out every weekend with Vi huh)

She knows that her and Vi have something in the back of her head- an us or a we, she just doesn’t think much about it until this fic

More specifically, she doesn't think about it until after Vi asks to lay in her lap at her apartment and she experiences something very LGBT

More under the cut (including Vi):

Her parents are very loving and supportive of her and Vi, but it was hard to get them to stop making distasteful comments about Vi for a bit when they were first introduced

Cait moves into a studio apartment like ASAP when starting college to get away from her parents and it helps their relationship

Jayce is her closest friend until Vi (as he is in the show), but sometimes Jayce invites Cait to do shit with him, Mel, and Viktor because he's trying to get Caitlyn to be more social haha. They all eventually grow closer, especially with Vi is added to the mix

Cait gets along with Powder but Powder still scares her/confuses her sometimes lmfao

The first time she tried her favorite tea was the first day she and Vi met. And yes that's why it's her favorite tea, even if she won't admit it

Cait is very touchy; she cuddles with her parents sometimes even as an adult and is very touchy with Vi, even in the stages of their relationship that were purely platonic. She introduces Vi to the idea of mutual touch between friends and that it can be a safe and nice thing. In retrospect this was kind of fruity of her tho bc how would she know? Its not like she bothers with Jayce lol

Caitlyn really likes taking care of Vi. Hence making her dinner constantly lol. She likes that Vi trusts her and tries often to show Vi that she is trustworthy

I'm autistic and I ended up making Caitlyn kind of autistic in this fic too? I asked my sister if that was bad and she told me that Cait is a little autistic in the show, so what's the harm, really.

Vi:

Vi acts like a fuckboy a lot of the time but she really isn't. She feels very vulnerable much of the time and occasionally expresses it, though mostly to Caitlyn

Vi is kind of a hustler in this fic; she works hard during her bachelor’s and works at the pub with Vander. She's probably just as busy as Cait but doesn't make it a part of her personality the way Cait does lmfao

Vi is a caretaker at home, the same way she is in the show, and takes that role pretty seriously. But because Cait is so self-sufficient, she lets herself have a little more fun around Caitlyn, and encourages Caitlyn to have more fun around her as well. Which is why she's so fucking annoying to her (rip Cait)

Vi has a few casual relationships/hook ups here and there during college but they don't last very long and a few girls back away as soon as they notice Cait’s presence in Vi’s life lol. They caught a vibe

Vi is usually the giver sexually but idk. Cait does something to her that makes her SO babygirl so Vi ends up being a switch when she and Cait start dating

I didn't really get into it during the fic but Vi and Powder were orphaned, adopted by Silco (who eventually gets arrested on drug charges) and then adopted by Vander

Vi was probably incarcerated for punching someone who was being a dick to Powder near the time Vander adopted them, but it was only for a few months or something. 

Vi fucking hated high school and school in general, but she appreciates the shit out of Vander and decided to work hard in night classes for him. She finds out she is smart if she tries and goes to uni on scholarship.

This is how I justify her being at uni with Caitlyn lmao, in any other situation I would have had her just do cars like she originally wanted. But I thought it'd be nice for her to prove to herself that she was smart!!!! Do something selfish 

Vi tried therapy around the same time Powder did and did really bad at it lol. She Did Not like opening up to a stranger. Therapy was much more successful for Powder. At some point she and Caitlyn meet though and Vi never ends up seeing a therapist ever again because she can talk to cait about anything and feel secure in their relationship, which accounts for a lot

Caitlyn is the first like, reciprocal friendship Vi has in a very long time. She's very used to being in relationships where she cares for another person but doesn't open up much outside of that or let herself be taken care of

Vi lives with Vander and Powder still and helps out at The Last Drop

#arcane #caitvi #my fic #i have a ten page google doc of ALL my caitvi headcanons #these are just the ones for this fic #it's so hard having hyperfixations #i am very close to writing a fic from vi's pov because she's important to me #headcannons

[coyotevallie]

what do you think jedidiah and yvonne’s friendship would have been like during college, particularly when sydney was comatose?

!!!!!! okay so this one im gonna do less evidence baded more interpretation bc like i think this is something that will be explored more Later so like obviously idk for sure . but from what i understand of how they talk about it it seems like yvonne and jedidiah first came to be friends probably through a good deal of effort on yvonnes part since jeddie obviously was scared of them in the beginning i doubt he was the one initiating the friendship . and i think it seems like they spent a lot of time together since yvonne references trying to bring jedidiah to parties a lot, and i also think it was usually just the two of them since joshua asks if he knows this story (implying theres at least Some yvonne and jeddie stories he doesnt know), yvonne doesnt seem at all as close to sydney as they do to jedidiah, and they dont really seem to have other mutual friends thatr referenced . i think they used to just hang out and play video games and joke around a lot - they strike me as the kind of friends who spend tons of time together and consider each other best friends but dont really emotionally open up to each other that often, just bc both of them seem to struggle with talking about their feelings at times (except w joshua on yvonnes end) and yvonne doesnt seem to know abt how jeddies relationship to sydney reallt works. but i do think jedidiah opens up to yvonne more than most ppl!! theres a bit of evidence for this (yvonne refers to jeddie as not having been Openly stressed out in ages which implies hes been stressed out before in private) and i also just think it makes sense given how willing jeddie is to open up to yvonne. and even if they dont open up as much they still get along well and enjoy each others company!! i think yvonne also helped jedidiah open up somewhat - definitely not Fully obviously but i think they were a large part of jedidiah growing less sheltered, trying new things and generally becoming less of the EXTREMELY sheltered college jeddie thats scared of dyed hair. i think yvonne was a good influence on him, yk? pushed him out of his comfort zone in a way that sydney isnt always able to do necessarily due to the weirdness of their dynamic, sydneys pushes of jeddie to get out of his comfort zone tend to go too far and make jeddie uncomfortable whereas yvonnes seem to do more to be helpful - say what u will abt the skyrim dance scene but he definitely did loosen up and have fun lol

when sydney was comatose is trickier so thisll be more fuzzy since that whole timeline confuses me but based off of what yvonnes said about jedidiahs last year of college . my basic interpretation of yvonne and jedidiahs friendship at that time is that i think jedidiah began to start falling apart at the seams a little bit and began pushing people away and avoiding people and yvonne just sort of backed off a little because they werent totally sure what to do or say . yvonne references wanting to do a better job of helping jedidiah sooner than they did back then and yvonne seems to struggle with communicating with people sometimes - i think they didnt know what to say to jedidiah or how to help, and eventually things got so bad that there was nothing To do to help at all bc things just wouldnt get through to him even if you tried your best to help . i think yvonne and jedidiah largely get along due to their difficulty with emotional expression but i also think that became a major Flaw in their relationship as things went bad becaus i think jeddie couldnt ask for help an dyvonne couldnt bridge the gap

#jedidiah martin #yvonne marley

[mathcs]

POSITIVES & NEGATIVES.

fill out & repost ♥ This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OCs still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm.

MUSE.

MY MUSE IS: canon / oc / au / slightly canon-divergent / fandomless / complicated.

IS YOUR CHARACTER POPULAR IN THE FANDOM? YES / NO / IDK  / KINDA.

IS YOUR CHARACTER CONSIDERED HOT™ IN THE FANDOM? YES / NO / IDK / KINDA.

IS YOUR CHARACTER CONSIDERED STRONG IN THE FANDOM? YES / NO / IDK / KINDA.

ARE THEY UNDERRATED? YES / NO / IDK / KINDA.

WERE THEY RELEVANT FOR THE MAIN STORY? YES  / NO. 

WERE THEY RELEVANT FOR THE MAIN CHARACTER? YES / NO / THEY’RE THE PROTAG.

ARE THEY WIDELY KNOWN IN THEIR WORLD? YES (later) / NO.

HOW’S THEIR REPUTATION? GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL

HOW STRICTLY DO YOU FOLLOW CANON? 

characterization wise, i try my best to follow what canon's established for jude- but i take both the localized and original japanese versions into account because there's things i love about him in jp and eng. and even though these versions can differ significantly, i'm usually trying to find a middle ground between them or going with makes sense for jude on a situational basis. aka remembering the creators' original intent for him while trying to execute that in a way that feels natural. one goal inside my head is to make his dialogue believable to the point where we can go "yep that sounds just like him" in both eng and jp, whichever version of jude you're more familiar with (or both)!

verse wise, oh boy HAHA i have tons of AUs by now (as it should be), that's where most of the canon divergence part comes in for this blog. to sum things up here, x1 is canon compliant, x2 diverts from canon sometimes (e.g. certain plot points where i feel like it's needed, bad!end verse for jude), and all my other AUs are of course hella canon divergent. and in the meantime, during all of this, i'm trying to keep jude ic everywhere so he feels like jude, no matter where he gets yeeted goes.

SELL YOUR MUSE! Aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutuals.

thank you @ my mutuals for the already existing jude support! i'm grateful and just [lies down] predictably, we love him, but also ok, meme selling time:

there's both round haired and spiky haired jude to choose from, or even both bc this is peak character design

his entire character development from x1 is one of my favs

guy's not only extremely kind, but also really smart, ready to support, devoted, cooks, knows martial arts, is too hardworking, humble to a fault, and becomes inspiring

the above is true even when multiple angst plots happen, because he always picks himself up afterwards (his inner strength is unreal)

he's almost normal expect when... he isn't regularly fed coffee/gets too cold/thinks about gels/not knowing the implications of tethering/being dense in general/and rip in pieces if you hurt his friends

speaking of the last point, the duality of his kindness vs his rare, scary rage ("beware the anger of a gentle man") which I sometimes explore, unsurprisingly

if you need a doctor or someone that would probably die for you!! [will smith poses at him]

Now the OPPOSITE, list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?).

prepare yourselves, jude h8ters [sound of bug spray] jk LMAOO

he's the opposite of special/wild/powerful characters AKA just boring at face value in comparison because being normal is a part of his character. and he's pretty reserved even though he's friendly and fairly easy to get along with (jude, the discord night theme to milla's discord light theme, the latter stands out and terrifies ppl while the former is standard LMAOO)

said boring-ness of jude is noted in canon too (e.g. other characters hardly being able to get a ruse out of him, his unexciting colosseum answers/interviews, his conventional taste in food). he also has common character traits like: trusts easily, nice by default, often unsure of himself. basically, he's weird sometimes and while he does have less common traits and a unique identity (e.g. being a med student who punches ppl when he needs to/scientist that still punches ppl when he needs to), that can still be 'too normal' in the sea of so many other characters and their varied tropes, even though it comes down to personal preference in the end. to summarize: one person's "this guy is so boring" is another person's "oh my god it's JUDE I'M DLFKJLDKJF" 💀😂

whenever the plot makes him angst/sad, i've seen (old) comments online that said they didn't enjoy that either [vs me completely winning in the bg when the plot does that while i cry :ratdance:]

WHAT INSPIRED YOU TO RP YOUR MUSE?

i played a few tales games before finally trying out x1 and x2- which, as a lot of you already know by now, i would've gotten to earlier if they'd been more available because i'm ps3-less :''') i remember seeing x1 and then x2 come out years ago, thinking they looked cool (aka going "oh the mc is a doctor? they sure are making characters older now, just like that blonde woman" LMFAOO) but feeling overwhelmed by the amount of tales stuff i missed back then, i never checked it out (but at least i've played it now, i probably only could've watched a playthrough back then and it just wouldn't be the same).

until january-ish of this year, where for some reason, i realized "ok i've tried a bunch of the newer tales games but i'm stuck and not feeling them rn- what else haven't i tried? oh yea x1" and then, to my complete unironic shock, proceeded to enjoy it immediately like i hadn't enjoyed in a game since forever. x1 is now one of my favs for sure, and so is x2- mainly because i love the characters in them. and on the other hand, i have few ultimate fav charas, and i realized jude was one of them as i played. that, coupled with the themes of the games, everything hit different so the inspo happened! for example, i'm still crying in jumilla to this day

and around the time of my x1 playthrough was also when i was thinking of returning to tumblr rp somehow, but even if i hadn't planned on doing that in advance, the writing inspo i felt from jude would've made me come back anyway. there was so much and i had to do something about it!

WHAT KEEPS YOUR INSPIRATION GOING?

so many things: chatting/plotting with mutuals, slowly replaying x1 and x2, getting caps/making icons and edits, rereading threads, taking a break to play other games/do other things (and coming back with more ideas/inspiration)

it also helps that jude is my only rp blog rn, but i've always been bad at managing multiple rp blogs because i naturally gravitate to one character and just pour everything i can into them HAHA pure concentrated effort moment

making AUs and getting to expand on jude's character has been so great too. it's the perfect thing since this blog is mainly continuity and plot driven. i love going beyond canon and yet tying things back to canon at the same time- so jude's development and stories continue. i'm discovering new things all the time, especially when things "just write themselves" because of the pre-existing context/plot that's already been established, and yet it's surprising in the best way (shai knows this especially KDJFDLK)

MUN.

DO YOU THINK YOU GIVE YOUR CHARACTER JUSTICE? YES / NO / KINDA.

DO YOU FREQUENTLY WRITE HEADCANONS? YES / NO (but i should) / KINDA.

DO YOU SOMETIMES WRITE DRABBLES? YES / NO.

DO YOU THINK A LOT ABOUT YOUR MUSE DURING THE DAY? YES / NO / KINDA.

ARE YOU CONFIDENT IN YOUR PORTRAYAL? YES / NO / KINDA.

ARE YOU CONFIDENT IN YOUR WRITING? YES / NO / KINDA.

ARE YOU A SENSITIVE PERSON? YES / NO / KINDA.

DO YOU ACCEPT CRITICISM WELL ABOUT YOUR PORTRAYAL? 

YES like constructive criticism in one of those rp memes (that i haven't seen in a while) for example

DO YOU LIKE QUESTIONS, WHICH HELP YOU TO EXPLORE YOUR CHARACTER? 

all of the yes

IF SOMEONE DISAGREES TO A HEADCANON OF YOURS, DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY? 

if it somehow totally contradicted something i missed in canon, then that'd likely be a good explanation why LMAOO with politeness, of course

IF SOMEONE DISAGREES WITH YOUR PORTRAYAL, HOW WOULD YOU TAKE IT? 

it'd be a natural thing because we all write/see characters differently, and again, it comes down to politeness. with that, discussion is possible, or not- but it's important to comfortably agree to disagree!

IF SOMEONE REALLY HATES YOUR CHARACTER, HOW DO YOU TAKE IT?

this seems to be a natural jude h8ter free zone and for that, i'm grateful 🤣 outside of that, i'd be like "omg ppl actually remember who jude is? it's not the 2010s anymore" and in that case, dr. jude warns that it would be unnecessary masochism to be near this blog if you do actually know who he is and hate him ooc 🔥🔥🔥

ARE YOU OKAY WITH PEOPLE POINTING OUT YOUR GRAMMATICAL ERRORS? 

yep, especially if the sentence or something else no longer makes sense because of a typo/error i made! and again, with politeness

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE EASY GOING AS A MUN? n o [angry bad!end jude with gun] jk and thank you if you've read this far LMAOO

tagged by: suggested by shai (@ervaurem), reading yours was like a cool time capsule!! thank you again for this ✨ tagging: if you see it and wanna yeet it! this is a big one!

#meme . #long post #made an icon just for this bc [two of him.png] #and made some minor edits for more complete multiple choice answers

[koheletgirl]

i was tagged by @planteria​ ty!! <3

S: fav tropes, actively seek out, will almost always read unless done too horribly (bad writing/characterization)

A: love it but won't always read/look for. really just side stuff thrown into what i usually love. if it's not written that well, i probably won't read either

B: generally enjoy if thrown in but not important, don't look for and don't read too often, but if i see it i might check it out if it sounds good enough

C: not a fan, but if it's in a fic that looks good, it won't turn me away too fast

D: if this is in a fic, i guarantee i'm not reading it. even if it has some S tier tropes of mine

id and explanations under the cut!

tagging @quenchiestzukka @zukkaoru @zukkas @that-was-anticlimactic and @dykevirgo

[image id: S tier tropes: angst, canon divergence, enemies to lovers, friends to lovers, humor, in vino veritas (drunken confession), first kiss, mis-communication, mutual pining, slow burn / A tier tropes: sharing a bed, coffee shop au, fake relationship, fluff, hurt comfort, huddle for warmth, pwp, time loop, crack fic, amnesia fic / B tier tropes: established relationship, fix it fic, gen fic, high school au, magic au, missing scenes, college au / C tier tropes: unrequited love, unhappy ending, arranged marriage, soulmate au, baby fic, body swap, major character death, historical au, love triangle, fairytale au, pregnancy fic, royalty au / D tier tropes: ABO, bang or die, dark fic, cross-over, sex pollen. / end id]

alright so the thing is. i’m a sucker for getting together fics. which is why i dont love established relationships, i just need to see all the action as it happens. i have both angst and humor listed under S tier because when either of them is done right i literally cant get enough. but also bc i need fics for different moods. crack fics are very hard to get right, but when they are good they are Great imo. and like sometimes i just need to see my silly blorbos in silly situations. coffee shop au is A tier and ngl that’s probably because i read A Lot of zukka. and tbh i havent read a time loop fic but if you know one pls tell me! the concept is just so appealing. pwp is there bc i like it better when there’s a plot but yk. sometimes you gotta. amnesia fic is listed there bc im a dramatic bitch and also like. well. theres this one amnesia fic that changed my life idk if youve heard of it

so i dont love high school aus bc i guess im just not that interested in high schooler’s lives anymore lmao. college aus are fine but theyre not my favorite, also they stress me out bc they remind me of. college. missing scenes and fix its are not listed higher bc i feel like you need to be Really Good to get them right and most of the times there are no missing scenes and the thing doesnt need to be fixed.

my c tiers include tropes that i highly highly dislike, but they don’t make me cringe or actively repulse me lol. either that or i just dont read them because theyre sad and im weak.

ty jen this has been so much fun!! <3

#tag game #jen tag

[desudog-gone]

Grrrbv ;'_';

Just saw a mutual who randomly blocked me (old blogs, i only saw them bc i moved sense then. Not purposfilly block evading) some months ago after we were really close (like, shared stuff personal with and gave free stuff on flight rising type of close) and it just. I can't feel fulfilled about it. Why. Like why did they do that. They didn't even like vague about me so I could tell what it was about. It just feels terrible. Usually I don't really feel this way about when people find it time to go, but it literally happened 100% randomly. Sometimes I consider asking them (of course, very consciously will make it sure I'm okay with any answer) because it really confuses me but I also just think that seems... childish? I don't know. I won't call it ableism but it kinda felt that way, just randomly blocking a very int disabled mutual and then doubling down on being buddy with the person who said I had the skills of a child among other statements that are just nasty over something that was nothing. It's just weird. It makes me feel really sad and sick inside and I just don't get it. I can let other stuff go idk why this one's so hard. Well I do, because I cared about them but was apparently overnight disposable? But it's happened before.

Idk. Hard to fight my fear of abandonment and issues trusting others when everyone I confide in either lashes out at me or wordlessly blocks me on every platform and every blog I've ever owned. I have a really hard time talking to people and trusting them these days. I kinda only talk in depth to ppl anymore 1 on 1 like on discord if I'm convinced I'm not the "weirder" one of us.. even mutuals I had and didn't block me just kinda faded away from me lately and it's just very uncomfortable and sad. Idk.

I really try not to feel like this or think like it but it keeps happening and i feel unsafe and upset. It makes me feel really sad. I just feel confused and sad. It makes me scared after I get vulnerable to others. I feel like I get retraumatized every few months. And I'm just too stupid to be allowed to be okay. I "have the conversational skills of a 5 year old." Its okay to not tell me why or when you leave, right? Insulting me for daring to sleep is okay because I'm too dumb to understand words right? Idk. I won't call it ableism. But I feel unsteady.

I really appreciate the freidns I have. The only problem always have. But I feel like I've been taught that no matter what I'm not worth appreciated. I just existed to make my mutuals laugh or to listen to their vents (but not mine) or to engage in their special interest (NEVER mine.) And when they get another friend I'm worthless idiot who can be thrown away. I don't belive that but it feels like people mean that...

I just wish I knew. I always wish I knew, I'm happier when people are meaner to me because I can process mean and angry to me. I can process that I know what it means and I can get over it but the quiet unannounced disappearance is bad and so scary and I think its worse because my disability. I'm sorry I can't tell. I can't tell when you started to hate me. But I'm never sorry that I was kind.

So many times I am worried now because I opened up. I regret it every time now. It's so scary. I regret ever opening my heart to people in dms about my joys or things that upset me it's so so scary when they hate me.

Sometimes it feels like everyone hates me. It's not true but I feel bad inside about people a lot.

I try not to look scared and I try to be brave for myself. Whenever it happens I get scared. Because I let people inside and it means they can hurt me once they decide I'm no longer valuable or human enough to be kind to.

And it like... everyone does.. ! It's not "I wont" it's "not for now".

I know they're talking about me. I know they want to hurt me if they haven't already.

I feel like talking is wading through MUD.

I want to love people stronger. I want to love people happy and confident.

Sometimes I forget not many people want this for me

[scuopsie]

hello! so continuing my comment… i just don’t get the lack of interaction sometimes. sure there are people i message on a daily basis who are dear friends i can freak out with, but sometimes a girl wants to reblog some hot pictures with an all caps freak out and get some replies. sometimes i do get replies and im like cheers im glad you agree with me… but idk?? does this even make sense? bc you can’t force it either. however, at the same time i know people who are into the same artists i am see my posts/are following me…so maybe it’s just me lol. perhaps i need to start a kpop club and host weekly meetings so i can reach my ‘daily kpop freak out with likeminded people’ needs

i also don’t want to sounds ungrateful because people interact with my writing and that is so 🥰🥰

(hopefully i don’t regret sending this. i’m sending this quite quickly and not really thinking about it too hard)

no no i get it!!! you don't need to feel bad or regret this or anything. in gerenal i totally agree that interacting with others (particularly in kpop bc thats the only fandom ive ever been active on tumblr in) isn't the same as it used to be.

it's also no secret to anyone that people just aren't rbbing and sharing content (especially original content; art/gifs/fics etc) as much. i think at least to some degree it comes down to the fact that there aren't as many active tumblr users around. everyday on twitter I see new accs who are looking for moots who say aren't new to kpop and only new to twt. there's a good chance that a lot of them are migrating from tumblr. another thing. in ur ask u talk about rbbing in all caps and expecting replies/interactions. im not 100% sure if im assuming this right (bc i can't think of any instance of u doing that with my posts) but if you mean rbbing and adding comment under the post and not in the tags, i gotta say that's a pet peeve for a lot of ppl. I did check ur archive and noticed that you're not new to tumblr and I only have been active in kpop tumblr so that might be exclusive to kpop tumblr but yeah. i know a lot of CCs especially don't like it if u add onto their posts. in extreme cases i've seen ppl get blocked for this or get vague posted about lsijdfjsd. for me personally that's not something I'd get too mad about even though I understand where CCs are coming from. it can be a bit annoying especially if its something that could've been said in the tags. so if that's what you meant by not getting interactions, this might explain it.

but even going back a couple of years when kpop tumblr was at its peak, i remember how weird the interactions between big accs and smaller ones were. i was so confused by it all for so long i couldn't understand why there are so many rules like only sending anons unless ur mutuals, only tagging and dmming ur mutuals, not adding to posts, etc etc. there was a time when big accs on here were treated like GODS(whether that was a good thing or not is another can of worms entirely). they'd get thousands of notes on their posts and get hundreds upon hundreds of asks and usually they were funny so the interactions (I mean asks and replies) were so fun! u could send anons or just read the ones posted and it was hella fun and some of them would turn into memes.

#i feel like no one else remembers any of this bc most ppl from those times have left tumblr #but sending asks was the primary way of interacting with other kpop stans #ppl would send memes on anon. ask weird questions that the reciever could answer in a clever way. anons would ask you to rank random things #and discourses #oh my god discourses #they were a gift and curse #it would start with one acc or one anon and then everyone would start talking and discussing #moots would have public discourses through rbbing each other's post abt the subject and adding onto them. whether to agree or disagree #and these would get heated up!!!! #anons would join and sometimes it would take days until ppl forget about it and the subject died down #and as annoying and dumb some of these discourses were they were a huge part of fandom experience #and they were fun a lot of times #idk maybe all the funny ppl have left tumblr #bc it wasn't just the acc receiving the ask who had to be funny. the anons sending had to be too skiflsdj #like i remember thinking at some point some of these accs must be sending the anons themselves bc how well thought of and funny the ask- #-and the answers were! they were too perfect and almost choreographed. but 99.9% were real and genuine #and its really sad that we don't have that anyore #even these dumb ask games that I myself role my eyes at when i see them on my dash used to be fun #anyway!!! thank you for humoring me and sending this!! #I LOVE INTERACTING WITH YALL SKHDFKSDH #and i love ranting as u can see #and my askbox is always open if u ever wanna scream in capslock at me!!!! #ask #anon

[omanu]

hey, i just wanted to pop in and say that if i remember correctly you posted a selfie a while ago and i was thinking oh my god that's such a pretty person i need to draw him, and i tried going back to find it again but i think you deleted it since? which is perfectly ok, even if i didn't get a chance to draw you im glad i got to see you!! we've been mutuals for a few years now atp i think and im pretty horrible at talking to people, but when i came back to tumblr after a year or so and i saw you in my notifs it really felt like omg that's my friend! like yknow coming back into a barren wasteland and then someone pops up like hey bud im still here 😭 idk as i said im pretty bad at talking to people, but i do enjoy seeing you in my notifs, and as someone who's halfway to 30 and still in college with one single friend i feel you, but i also think it'll get better and no one is destined to be alone and miserable, even if it's really hard to not feel like it, and i think even if happiness takes a while to get to it's still gonna be worth it, everyone, and i truly mean Everyone!!! deserves to know they have a place in this world, we deserve to take up space and be ourselves and find people who want us the way we are, and ive been there where your brain tells you to just die already but honestly. im glad im still here and im glad you're still here, even if all it means is that i get to smile when i see you in my notifs <3 im one of those people who think if someone likes and reblogs my posts then we're friends already, so even if im just a silent little thing in your phone, im still here!! and so are you!!! and i think that's pretty neat

so yeah, anyway, that got a little long winded, but i hope, even if slowly and sometimes a little painfully, you'll find something and someone who makes you happy, you deserve to stick around and find little things (and big ones, too!) that bring you joy <3

- a beloved mutual

aah just know that i think i read these messages like a day after you sent them! im really touched, like, fjdkkf first of all, there is someone here?? second of all, thank you so much? for everything you said.

usually, rarely (?) when i get on here it's bc i feel so bad in my head that i dont think ppl on my twitter (where I live) deserve seeing any of my whining... and to be honest that place is not safe for that cuz strangers are always jumping on people for anything and everything, so thats why i come here to cry. im sorry for that cuz it makes it look like im always miserable, which is kinda true, but when it gets unbearable i need to write shit down. so, im here now, meaning: i was gonna do what i always do here :D but then i remembered i had to reply this message dkdkd

it's so cool that youre almost 30 thats amazing, and thanks for sharing that you Get Me cuz you probably do, this makes it feel more normal. Usually i dont really mind being so alone but it always gets to me at some point. and it's kinda like,, i totally believe i could be okay living like this, i wouldn't mind. but some days when everything seems shitty and ugly it feels so bad, yknow? im sorry i cant really be that positive rn, after all i came here to cry, but this is a nice way to try and stir away from my usual single pity-party.

and i cant believ u saw my selfie cuz the day after i felt really weird, like why did i say all of that, i am a loser! i dont even know why i complain about having no one cuz on my normal days i just know i dont mind it. so weird.

anyways! thanks again im glad youre here!!!

#kgksk crying post postponed #i guess later im just gonna cry in bed like a normal person

[neptunebeetle]

Gxjidjdh

#i hate getting reminded of my past friend yes their art is sexy no i dont fucking want to see it ❤️ #hdjxbjdbdjh!!!!!!!!! lol.... #like im glad we’re not friends anymore but what was once inspiration has turned into envy #i shoukdnt look at their art or account but sometimes my mutuals share their stuff n im just noooo pleese #hdjhjdhdjdh idk 😔 #this is about instagram btw they dont have a tumblr thank god... #(actually its usually not mutuals its popular artists i follow bc theyre also popular or whatever.... lol) #idk usually now if i ever look at their acc i just have to be like ‘remember what they were like when u were friends. find things u dont- #-like about their art’ and then i can feel a lottle bit sane but it still hurts hjdhdmnd #idk... i dont know where the hurt comes from i really do think i benefit from not being their friend anymore #idk. idk its complicated there was just so much trust and closeness #but there was also a lot of. rage and drama and at one point like.. they made me feel rlly bad IDK its just. idk lol

[redxblueihateloveyou]

Am I the only one who doesn’t get why some (tw) are shitting on Haru and Rin separately just for the fact that they reciprocate each others feelings? Because it’s not the feelings they wanted them to reciprocate? Just curious because I'm new and recently entered the fandom. And since when miscommunication in between means that they don't deserve to be happy at the end? Because you're an idiot when it comes to love, doesn't mean you're a bad person. I came from chinese bl and it's weird to me.

Hehe welcome to the madness, perfect time to join! Yeah, tbh that's the thing in the fandom that always bugged me the most. The fact that some act like if you don't reciprocate someone's feelings, it makes you a bad person. I always found it incredibly cringy when ppl in real life for example make ppl feel guilty for not feeling the same way and make you feel like shit bc of it. I don't get why you have to apologize for that or feel bad, if you never ever gave him any hope or anything in the first place.

Nowdays it's thankfully a rare sight already in this fandom, bc most already grown and see perfectly what's truly healthy and unhealthy, it's just tbh only the same 3 accounts ppl keep sending me that are still on that, who also think that Haru is literally possessed in the last movie so I don't see the point of like arguing with ppl like this. It's just they're always getting extremely angry when Haru wants Rin as if it's his fault that he feels this way and always go about it like he is inconsiderate of Makoto's feelings. Implying that they're mad that he doesn't feel that way about Makoto, while Makoto does. I'm same as @tododeku-or-bust for example said here (idk what fandom brought this on, but just in general) also do not get what's appealing about this kind of relationships in the first place.

If they shipped it in terms of like it's mutual I'd get it, but they go on about how Rin or Haru are bad friends bc they're not in love with their best friends... like ?????? I didn't know you owe it to your friends to have romantic feelings for them.

In real life if you found out that your bestie feels that way for you while you don't reciprocate, it's a burden, that'll make you feel uncomfortable and at times guilty when you shouldn't technically feel that way. So putting on someone a burden of "I was pining for you all along", when you know they don't feel the same is giving me this feeling of cringe. So I personally do not get what's enjoyable at seeing it like that in Free. But to each their own kink lmao.

It's like... is Haru at fault for the fact that he was Ikuya's first love too? I do not get it really. Like he doesn't have to take responsibility for everyone who falls for him and he doesn't owe anyone to reciprocate their feelings. Even to Rin. Like if he didn't feel the same way for Rin, it wouldn't be his fault either. But since he does feel the same way for him, it's like... good, great, happy for them.

Like once again if someone believes that Makoto and Sousuke are unrequitedly in love with Rin and Haru, that's not rinharu fault. Haru literally never ever lead Makoto on EVER. He never ever did anything that would make Makoto believe that they're more than friends. He was always honest about everything. Like when Makoto thought that he went out to see him, but Haru just wanted to see the sunrise, he told him just that. He never encoraged anything, he refused to live with him and never wanted. I do not get why it's supposed to be his fault that he doesn't like his friend in that way. If Makoto has some unrequited feelings for him and decided to hang up on this, it's his own life choice in my opinion.

It's like saying that Onodera and Takano for example don't deserve to be together just because they unintentionally hurt each other and got separated for 10 years bc of misunderstanding. This argument is like typical Yokozawa life position aka "but I was there when he left you heartbroken for several years, that means you MUST pick me". As I've said before, that's just not how it fucking works. And just bc they couldn't explain things to each other normally, doesn't mean that they don't deserve be happy now. Being idiots is not a crime.

Or if you came from chinese bl, lets go "Guardian" for example. Zhu Hong also was on about how "why you love Shen Wei, not me, I always did everything for you and I was always there, I even wore heels bc you once said you liked those etc". Like he never asked her to do this, he never gave her any hope, he was beyond rude and open about the fact that he's not interested, he never did anything to make her think she had a chance since the beginning. Just bc she decided to dedicate her life to false hope that maybe one day something might change is not his fault. It was her choice. Why Yunlan should feel like shit bc of that I do not get personally.

I'm just buffled bc like Haru for example is the most caring about other ppl's pain person, but they call him selfish and rude bc of the way he is with Makoto at times, not even realising that it IS in fact what means being kind sometimes.. to not give someone a chance when you know you don't feel it. I was always saying this like since forever, being kind doesn't mean for example giving everyone second chances, loving everyone, wanting to be friends with anyone etc. In some situations it's not being kind, it's being stupid or even not being a good person. Once again... offering someone friendship after he openly dissed your friend and you see that he's not in any position to talk back is not kind. Or if someone cheats on you constantly, but you always forgive them it's also not you being kind. It's you being stupid. Sometimes you have to be harsh. It's for the greater good.

And like I saw several times stuff like someone under scenes where Rin has his eyes for Haru only, commenting like "oh great, look at Rin being inconsiderate of Sousuke's feelings again. Can't believe you guys find this romantic." I mean, if in their opinion Sousuke is in pain from being Rin's friend, he can end it, it's his choice. It's not Rin's fault that he thinks of him as just his friend. So thinking that Rin is an asshole bc each time he simply hangs out with Sousuke he's a selfish bitch is fucking insane. I'd feel extremely bad if my best friend was seeing it this way for example. It's like hella ugly.

This annoys me also bc of the fact that Rin, the person who at the age of 12 single-handedly saved his family from falling apart after his father's death, who's an amazing friend to Sousuke and did everything to make his happy after he found out about his trauma and always checks on him first and cries about his shoulder, who in the late evenings taught Rei to swim, when everyone else gave up already xD, who was looking after Nitori during his training, who pretends to walk the same road, just because he's scared to let Gou return alone in the evenings, the most amazing son and brother, is suddenly an asshole just because Haru is in love with him, but not with Makoto. I mean, thats just... huh? Like I dont mind you ship what you want to ship, it's like to each their own crayons for real. But like dissing them and call them selfish just bc they only see their friends as friends and don't want anything more is weird to me.

As for the fact that bc of the misunderstanding they don't deserve to be happy, that's just idiotic. I mean, lets punish Wei Wuxian and Lan Zhan too just bc Lan Zhan couldn't voice his real feelings back then and bc WWX misunderstood him. Lets ship WWX with Wen Ning instead. Nezumi is cancelled, he doesn't deserve to be with Shion. He left him. Takano should stay with Yokozawa, Onodera is trash. Wu Xie is trash for wanting to be with Zhang Qiling too. It doesn't matter why he leaves, it only matters that he always does. I can't believe he doesn't see that Pangzi is there with him all along xD. What an ungrateful trash of a human being I can't even.

And anyways btw both Rin and Haru are not ideal human beings in any way (otherwise I wouldn't love them this much tbh xD). But their flaws are definitely not what for example mh shippers usually blame them for. You can argue about their other imperfections easily. Like being stupidly stubborn for example. I won't point fingers here, Haru lolz. Or literally anything else.

My point is you can find what to trash them for logically, if you wanna. Do it smartly tho. Otherwise you make your ship look bad.

And I once again say what wise person said about his relationships and about the fact that not being able with someone he loves hurt him and 'why is he doing this to himself' he answered: "it's not on him. my happiness and my pain is for me to handle". Everyone decides for themselves. This is why for example Haru was so broken about voicing this to Rin and didn't have any intentions to tell him that in the first place. Bc it's not right, if you're not sure that it's requited. Technically he has no right to blame Rin for making him fall in love with him and then leaving in the first place. It's not Rin's fault really, that he made him feel what he feels for him, it's ultimately Haru's problem. That's why he feels has no right to blame him in the first place. I mean, he doesn't know that Rin feels the same, that means saying to him "you break my heart each time you leave" and making him feel bad about it is technically wrong. That's why Haru to himself said "no, please, don't say such things to him". Everyone for himself decides who deserves your 5, 7, 800 or 10000 years of your pain. It's your decision. It's your life. If Haru feels like Rin is worth it, then you have no say in that matter really. The only reason we call Rin an idiot or Haru an idiot is because we know they feel the same, so we can. But blame someone else for not feeling what you're feeling is not right.

So like even if you feel like Makoto and Sousuke have feelings for their friends, blaming Haru and Rin for having feelings for each other and not for them is beyond weird. And there's nothing wrong with putting someone you love first, every bro/sis gets it. You can say bros before hoes all you want, but like Lan Zhan might just drop his bro for his hoe, if he was given a choice. Would it make him a bad person? The fact that Wu Xie chose to save Xiaoge before Pangzi makes his a bad person? My point is it's not all that easy.

I just feel like many ppl in this fandom are very weird about many things. Either because they do not get what it's like to go through some things or maybe they just do not get that no matter how cheesy this sounds love is not that simple. I mean, for example not all selfish is bad, sometimes like in Haru's case for example not being selfish is also bad. Bc if he finally asks for what he wants, he will make both himself AND Rin happy.

To be angry at Rin bc of the aftermath of his father's death and s1 I never had it in me, after knowing everything and how adults handled it. If some of Sousuke's fans bc of Yakusoku and the fact that Rin found his salvation in Haru bc he helped him to move forward after getting his family out of this hell alone and that Haru was the safe haven that made him happy in this moment of his life, want to trash Rin for the fact that he "neglected" Sousuke, its like your opinion. I personally do not get it. Rin doesn't owe Sousuke anything. It's not his fault again that Haru's existence helped him to feel better.

Just like not everyone will get why Haru in 1x12 was so happy about the fact that he could help Rin. To be that special somebody for someone who can "save" you in moments of your life like this, especially if you love them is an incredible feeling. And no, your bestie isn't always the person for this job, no. I don't see why people do not get that I guess, that's all. But we all have our own opinion on everything, so...

We same as you do not get it since forever, but its like it is what it is in this fandom. I personally just have another life position on stuff, so I'm very far from that point of view they have.

#answered #anonymous #rinharu #harurin #free! #nanase haruka #rin matsuoka

[oreo-bixch]

I need to air out my brain so have some of my

Timkon headcanons

Kon developed a crush first. He really tried not to, but just couldn't stop himself. It was out of his control, completely smitten before he could register it

Tim just thought of them as close friends. Ironic how he's so smart and yet so oblivious to his own feelings. It wasn't until Kon came out as bi that he took a step back and realized that it was strange just how happy he was to know Kon wasn't straight.

If it were Bart coming out he'd be like "hey, nice bro" but when Kon did it he found himself thinking "omg omg omg he likes guys?? He likes guys??? Omg I'm a guy, that means he could like me. Omg wow that's so wild wow...now wait a damn minute-"

It was about 3 months of mutual pining until they finally confessed

Altho they definitely told Cassie

Poor Cassie was itching to just tell them already but she swore she wouldn't, and she's a very reliable person, would literally take a secret to the grave. She spent 3 months sitting back watching Tim and Kon pine after each other while knowing how they felt. It was torture

Meanwhile Bart was oblivious lmao

Bart's a great friend but he's not so good with secrets. He's got a little problem where he speaks before he thinks

Finally Kon made the first move...well kinda

He was sooo ready to just tell Tim in person, and then he settled on maybe a phone call, actually no, a text might work better...or maybe he'll just wait another week

And so he decided to have Cassie do it for him, what can I say, our boy Kon is afraid of rejection

It's bad enough Clark didn't wanna be his dad, what if Tim didn't wanna be his bf? That'd be harsh

And so Cassie called Tim up one evening and spilled the beans, which was a huge relief for her, and Tim was pleasantly surprised

He was also freaking out

He didn't know what to do, he wanted to call Kon immediately and tell him that he felt the same way, that he wanted to be more than friends, to be boyfriends. But then he collected himself, decided he wanted to tell him in person. Someone's gotta put on the brave face

So he texted Kon, asked if he was free to hang out at the Manor, talk abt a little something that Cassie brought up.

Kon was so nervous but he agreed and the next day he went over to the Manor.

Usually Conner was really chill with the Batfam, the Manor was practically a second home, but this time he was hella awkward. Mans was nervous

But they sat down in Tim's bed and talked. They talked abt everything, how long they've felt that way, how much they've been wanting to tell each other, when they first knew, I mean everything.

Kon asked what this meant, what this made them? And Tim said whatever he wanted

Kon had come out just 3 months prior to this and in a way, this was Tim's coming out. It was all so new for them, and it was nerve-wracking and exciting and crazy. But they were ready, and so they decided they would be boyfriends

Idk I guess that's how it works but anyway

Cassie was sooo happy for them and could finally spill all the beans

"omg FINALLY!! I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS YOU GUYS HAVE NO IDEA HOW HARD IT WAS TO KEEP QUIET ABT IT ALL"

And then Bart's just there like

"wait, Cassie knew? You told Cassie but not me??" >:/

Either way their friends were super happy for them

Tim told the Batfam abt a week later and everyone was super supportive and sweet about it. The Batfam actually likes Conner so they were excited for them

Alfred saw it coming a mile away, but he's happy for Tim since Conner's a good kid. A little obnoxious but they're a good fit

Dick was so happy for them, he likes all of Tim's friends and he knew for a while that they were a little closer than most. He accepted Conner into the family with open arms bc he's the best, like what do you expect

Jason was like "damn, didn't know u were bi. Cool tho, have fun dating ur annoying ass friend"

That's the extent of Jason's brotherly love

Damian was similar in that sense, he blatantly told Tim to his face that "Kent could do better but I suppose that's great news for you"

Bruce was happy asf for his son, being bi himself he was really supportive and proud of him. Plus Conner wasn't all that bad, yea he knocked over that expensive vase that one time and he's always yelling during sleepovers and he nearly ran over their cat that other time but hey, he's a good kid.

Babs and Cass and Duke were all happy for Tim too, Steph found out a few months later just bc her and Tim are exes. Not that there's bad blood between them, things just get a little awkward sometimes.

Kon didn't tell his family until about 2 months into their relationship. Except for Jon, he found out the same week but was sworn to secrecy.

Kon was really nervous to come out and tell his family bc he didn't know how Clark or Lex would react. He wasn't too worried abt Lois, he knew she would be supportive. But Clark and him were constantly at each other's throats and Lex wasn't all that good at listening or connecting to Kon.

Despite his daddy issues tho, both dads were really accepting of Kon and we're happy for him and Tim. Clark gave Kon the biggest hug and assured him that no matter how much they fought, he'd always be there for him. Lex also, surprisingly, hugged Conner and told him that who he loved didn't matter to him.

Kon and Tim's favorite date spot is this humble little coffee shop on a corner in Metropolis. Tim can feed his caffeine addiction and Kon can stuff his face on their freshly baked pastries

Altho Lex really wanted some of those WayneTech secrets

And yea those are my hcs on how it all started :)

I'll make another post for my other hcs since this one is long enough

#mine #my hcs #hc #headcanon #dc #dcu #dc hc #young justice #young justice 2019 #timkon #tim drake #conner kent #kon el kent #kon el #ship headcanons #timkon hc #superboy #red robin

[heshoes]

Twin Telepathy

❝And I never thought it would be true that one day I'd have to live without you.❞ In which a connection started at birth remains strong until the bitter end.

Warnings (BC THIS ONE IS TRIGGERING): ⚠️ angst, main character death.

Idk the word count but this one is short

Main Characters: Harry Styles, Edward Styles

There is no smut in this one my loves. I wrote this like 5 years ago and I’m posting it here now. I hope you enjoy and reblog let’s talk about it after you read.xx

5

Age five is when Harry and Edward noticed that they were identical. Age five was the time of development for secret languages, tricks, and pranks pulled on parents, grandparents, and even the teachers at primary school because they could get away with it.

They would even switch classes sometimes.

Harry was always good at maths. He progressed at counting blocks and telling time where Edward was a bit more fuzzy in the subject. However,  Edward could always read and excelled in primary school literature despite the fact that he would throw a tantrum anytime his mum would pull him away from the television in order to for him to read her a bedtime story.

“What time is it Harry?” Their mum would ask knowing full well what the time was herself,  as she took her seat behind the two curly headed boys on the floor who sat helplessly too close to the television. One because he really couldn’t see all that well, the other because he wanted to be close to his brother.

“I’m not Harry! I’m Ed.” Harry laughed cheekily as he told a lie while his brother squinted to look at the cartoon characters on the telly screen.

“Well, Ed,” His mother spoke playing along with his game, “What time is it?”

“Eight o’clock! Time for bed?”

“Thats right!” Their mother laughed, “When did you get so much better at telling time Edward?”

“Uh-oh”

“That’s right, Harry. Uh-oh.” The boy laughed in his mothers arms as she began to tickle and he began to squirm. Edward found it amusing, and because his brother laughed so did he, feeling the same exact joy that his brother did from the top of his head down to his tiny toes. Rushing for his mother in order to save his brother from the tickle monster, Edward pulled Harry from her arms, and for once he didn’t put up a fight when his mother asked him to read to her after he and Harry were dressed in their pajamas.

•••••

10

Ten was the age of growing into your face and the ever present awkward phase that everyone has to go through. By age ten, Harry had to wear braces and Edward wore a pair of glasses thicker than should be allowed. Their pranks didn’t work as well as they used to when they were younger due to the physical tell all’s that adorned their faces, but it didn’t make the boys any less close together. If anything it made them stick together more. Age ten was also the age in which they were constantly bullied.

As the boys walked down the hallways books would be ripped from their hands or feet would be purposely stuck out in order for one to trip. When Edward fell and broke his glasses, Harry had decided that he had, had enough. Edward was angry, furious even, but because he could barely see he couldn’t do much about it. Harry, however, could and the anger that Edward felt radiated off of his twin in hot streams.

“Apologize!” Harry shouted at the much bigger boy, standing his ground though he was much shorter.

“For what?” The boy challenged in a much more condescending tone. He knew what he had done and he was proud of himself for it.

“Apologize to my brother or I’ll– I’ll...”

“You’ll what brace face?!”

“I’ll kick your ass!”

The crowd in the hallway ‘oohed’ and ‘ahhed’ at the use of Harry’s language as he stood in between Edward and the boy who was much taller. Edward had since put his broken glasses in his pocket as he squinted, tugging at Harry’s arm to get him to walk away from the situation, but Harry wouldn’t budge.

Harry wasn’t prepared for what was to come. As the boy lifted his fist to connect it with Harry’s jaw he was cut short. Before any contact could be made, the boy who was much taller was seated forcefully on the ground holding his bloody nose in his hand, looking up at Edward.  Edward looked down on the bully while flexing his hand open and closed hoping that if he shook it hard enough the pain of breaking someone’s nose would go away.

Harry looked at his twin with shock in his eyes and a smile on his face as Ed continued to shake his hand while all three of the boys were escorted to the principal’s office.

“I thought you couldn’t see?” Harry whispered to his twin  in hopes of a quick explanation.

“I can’t see things that are far away, but that fucker, he was pretty close.”

Harry and Edward both began to laugh as they sat patiently in the principals office for their parents to collect them for their suspension from school.

•••••

15

Fifteen was the age of rebellion, girls, and more argument’s between the boys than usual. They had since grown into their faces and their own personalities and though they were still close, they didn’t see eye to eye on a lot of things. Harry had gotten into sports and school, while Edward had gotten into bands and trouble. The one thing that they did both agree on at the moment however was going to Tash Fraser's birthday party. Although she was two years their senior she had still sent the boys a personal invite. She was turning 17 and this of course would help boost their popularity for the year.

They were already high on the food chain at school for boys of only fifteen years old, and since they had grown into their faces and out of their braces and glasses, they had become rather attractive aside from the baby fat that they still had here and there.

“You ask.” Harry spoke, shoving Edward towards their parents room and grabbing the newspaper out of his hands, disturbing him from his place at the table as he read while flicking his brand new tongue ring against his teeth. Harry didn't care if Ed was angered by his rude interuption. He was older after all even if it was only by two minutes. Edward should do as he said.

“Why would I ask?! I just got off of punishment. I’ll be lucky if I can go anywhere. If I ask, dad will take one look at me and say no. No doubt I'll go anyway, but I'd rather do it without having to sneak. Leave me alone and give me my shit back! If you wanna go so bad you ask asshole!” Edward pushed his twin back, both of them equally aggravated by the other.

“We won’t be able to go anywhere if mum and dad hear you cussing! Fat chance on sneaking out with your big mouth!” Harry spoke aggressively above a whisper to his brother, making himself be heard.

Edward pulled his tongue ring between his teeth, playing with it and making Harry cringe before he nodded his head up and down in agreement.

“So what are we going to do?” Harry asked as if he were fresh out of ideas though he really didn’t bother to think of any.

“We’ll make them breakfast.” Edward spoke quickly, thinking on his toes much to Harry’s approval. And so they did, buttering their parents up with toast, pancakes, tomatoes, sausage, and bacon in order to get a simple, “alright” from their mother and father.

“You have to be home no later than one thirty!” Their mom reminded them as they headed out the door, riding with a mutual friend in order to make their way to the party.

“We’ll be home by twelve.” Harry yelled back jokingly earning a slap to the back of the head from his brother.

As the night went on, the music grew louder and the illegal activity had gotten more out of hand. Drinks of the alcoholic kind had been passed around, and though both Harry and Edward had one or two, neither of them dared to get drunk, knowing full well that their mother would be up waiting for them to get back.

“It’s one fifteen.” Harry spoke looking at his silver wrist watch that Edward had gotten him as a gift on their thirteenth birthday. “We should get ready to leave soon.”

Edward nodded his head in agreement as he looked around the crowded room for their friend. Hoping that he was sober enough to take them home. When he spotted him and told him that he was ready to go, their friend agreed to drive them even though Harry had notice the stumble in his step.

“Nuh uh, Edward. He’s drunk out of his mind.” Harry spoke to his twin, but was ignored as soon as the words left his lips.

“I can’t get in trouble again Harry. He’s fine we just live right up the street. It won’t take us long to get home. It’s fine.” Edward began to walk towards the car, but as soon as he took a step Harry pulled him back.

“Ed no! Why don’t you ever listen?!”

“Harry! If you want to stay here and get in trouble with dad because you’re not home in time then fine! Stay! I’ve just been freed and I’m not gonna be grounded again over something as stupid as this! I’ll see you when you get home.”

Harry let his brother go tired of arguing back and forth. There was no arguing with Ed and no point in trying to get him to think clearly when he had gotten an idea of his own.

Twenty more minutes passed before Harry had found a sober soul in the party who was willing to take him home. He hadn’t been drinking again, but he had the worst headache that he’d ever had in his life and it felt like it would split him clean in two if he didn’t get home and lie down. As they got in the car they traveled down the road only to see that it was blocked, a sudden panic started to set in. Harry’s head pounded worse and his mouth went dry and before the police got the chance to turn them in the opposite direction, Harry saw the car that Edward was in wrapped around a tree as if it were a flimsy piece of  aluminum foil.

•••••

20

Today Harry was twenty and though this was considered to be an age of a milestone in life, he didn’t celebrate it in the traditional way. Harry hadn’t celebrated any birthday since fifteen because he saw no point in it. Instead of throwing a party or hanging out with friends, every year since after his fifteenth birthday, Harry would go to the cemetery in Cheshire so that he could be close to his brother.

Today was a day of remembrance.

As Harry sat against the cold granite headstone that represented Edward, he thought of the time that they spent together while he was living. Harry was thankful that he was in a fairly secluded area because he would talk to Ed and tell him about the things that went on in his day and as he thought about his brother, he would laugh out loud when he would remember a prank that they pulled when they were younger, like when Harry dressed up as Edward for an hour at school just so that he could take his maths test for him. Their mum was so proud of Edward for passing with flying colors.

Or when Edward would run into Harry’s room and pretend to be him when they were supposed to be sleeping. Harry had a girlfriend at the time and would sneak out of his room at night to go see her, where they would make out under a tree. Harry realised that he had never thanked Ed for that so he did it now. A simple “thank you” left his lips before he fell silent and his eyes began to water. Because this was a day of remembrance, Harry would also remember the day that he lost his best friend.

Harry remembered the waiting.

Waiting in the oddly cold  room at the hospital with his mum and dad as doctors rushed about doing everything they could in order to save his brother.

Harry remembered the tears.

Tears that rolled down the faces of his family and himself as he rocked back and forth in his chair with with his hands clasped together tightly, saying a silent prayer that Ed would somehow walk out of the emergency room with maybe only a couple of stitches here and there.

Harry remembered the screams.

The deafening screams that came from his mother, his father, and himself when the doctor came out of the operating room and said that Edwards heart had given up and that his poor body was too weak to put up a fight.

Most of all, Harry remembered how he already knew that Edward was gone before the doctor came to announce it. His head had stopped hurting and his stomach was in knots, but he could no longer feel that strange connection that he and Edward shared since before he could remember and since age five, the age that he and Edward realized that they were identical.

Harry sat against Edward’s tombstone and allowed his tears to fall uninhibitedly, ridding himself of the pain that he felt everytime he thought about that fateful day. And though it hurt that he no longer had Edward around physically, he wasn’t sad anymore because he knew that he was there in spirit. The feeling that Harry felt was more overwhelming  because everytime he thought about it, he could barely believe it.

He never thought it would be true that he would have to live a day without his best friend, his brother, his twin.

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[souryogurt64]

This is out of the loop of current conversations but my guy friend just started dating this girl and I was genuinely happy for him but then he made a point to tell me “I told her I wouldn’t do anything she didn’t want to do” and I was like “wow that’s so nice” at first until I realized that the bar for men is literally in hell. Like did he want an award for that? SHOULD we give men awards for that Bc they don’t usually seem to want to take that for general human decency. Like idk the only guy I was with I was like “listen idk if I’m ready for sex” and he would kiss me and get hard and then be like “let me just show you my dick, let me just touch you here, let me just see you naked” and he kept asking until I gave in despite me being obviously uncomfortable. Idk. I hate men. I mean yes my friend is a good guy and I’m glad he takes consent seriously and he’s not a douche but wow that pissed me off lol

yeah, i know thats a really common experience and it really sucks. in my experience the guys i was with were extremely selfish in bed but were also constantly checking in and seemed anxious about catching a case lmao.

honestly ive been sort of intimate with a small handful of girls and they were pretty bad about consent. sorry to use you as a jumping off point but the girl ive been briefly seeing is really good about it so its just been on my mind.

i wasnt really freaked out by most these experiences or feel negatively about these people, because sometimes we had only been like 15. but it was a … pattern? i experienced. one time the girl was 21, i was 19, and i was really up front with her that i had never had sex before and wanted to go slow and she said she was okay with that.

the SECOND time we kissed she said we had to stop and i said okay and she was so mad she was shaking and i asked if she was alright and she said that because she knew i wouldnt get her off, she was “worried she might hurt me.” i hadnt really been intimate with anyone since early high school so i just apologized and then we went to a party and she was being super possessive over me despite us not actually dating, having only hung out like that twice, and her being open with her fiancee (who was 3/4 years younger than her and she started dating when the fiancee was only 15).

that was the last straw and we got in a fight at the party and everyone acted like i was being dramatic. after that i didnt want to hook up with her and she started constantly calling me a straight girl and talking about how manipulative straight girls who wanted to experiment were in front of me

i tried to talk to mutual friends (one of which was an RA/counselor) about it and they both wouldnt listen and acted like i was straight, and let her do that in front of them and even participated sometimes. in retrospect it was really messed up and it was so constant, it happened every time i hung out with them. my family was pretty bi/homophobic too so it made me feel like i really was lying about being interested in women for attention so i didnt really date or talk about women for a couple of years. until now when i moved. they also were the “kill all abusers” type but somehow refused to believe her convincted pedophile roommate was a convicted pedophile, probably because they couldnt wrap their tiny little brains around it

i dont really feel like i was sexually assaulted at all but it was just a stupid way to treat someone and the aftermath involving the friend group really messed with my sense of identity and self worth. bi women experience higher rates of partner violence and i think its because theres an attitude that were so confused about our sexuality we cant be trusted to know if we want to stop or not.

[narumi-gens]

hi!! so i just started writing fanfics, and i was just wondering -- how do you deal w/ numbers and the whole posting online thing? while i know that i should be writing for fun and stuff (bc it is!) and that im literally JUST starting out, BUT i just.. im someone who really heavily relies on validation, and when people don't really respond to my works well (or at all), i kinda just.. feel bad ): idk.. do u have any tips?

🥺 You came to me for advice on this, anon? 🥺 Thank you so much! I’m more than happy to pass on what I’ve learned and help out a new writer. I’ve been reading/writing fanfics on-and-off in some form or another for like ten years, but especially over the last four and am happy to share some tips. There are five main things that I think can help grow your follower count and the amount of feedback you get:

Don’t feel bad about wanting validation.

Consider the platforms where you post.

Write for active fandoms and popular characters.

Post frequently.

Interact with other authors.

This got rather long so I have more info under the cut about each of these. 

1. Don’t feel bad about wanting validation.

There’s this dumb trap that we all fall into as writers that tells us that validation isn’t important and that what matters most is our love of writing. While I enjoy writing, if my stuff got no notes and no feedback then I would definitely have gotten discouraged and quit writing awhile ago. Why would I put all that effort into something if no one seems to appreciate it? There’s nothing bad about wanting people to let you know they like your writing! I get so happy when I see someone left a comment on one of my fics or went crazy in the tags or sent me an ask. And when something doesn’t get any feedback, I get depressed about it and second guess whether I should have bothered writing it. So, definitely try not to get caught up feeling bad because you want people to tell you that they liked your work. 💕

2. Consider the platforms where you post.

I only use AO3 and Tumblr, so I can’t speak to any other platforms, but posting my writing on both of these are widely different experiences. Part of the culture of AO3 is giving kudos and leaving comments, so you’re more likely to get feedback there than anywhere else. I slowly built a following on Tumblr because of my AO3, even when I wasn’t posting anything on Tumblr itself. I would really recommend checking out AO3 if you’re not already on there! You do need to request an invitation, but it only took me a couple of days to receive one. I also have 8 invitations that I haven’t sent out, so DM me if you want one and I can give you one! 

I’m sure you’ve already seen posts about this, but the unfortunate thing about writing on Tumblr is that the feedback is absolutely minuscule and I’m not sure why. There’s this awful culture on this platform of people only liking content and not reblogging it to make sure it gets shared with other users. So, you end up really reliant on your own followers and the tagging system for your works to reach people. And the tagging system is a mixed bag. Sometimes your posts don’t show up in the tags or they will but only after a couple of days. If your post gets enough notes then it might go to the top of the search feed but then only for a few days at most. 

As a sidenote to readers, this is why reblogging is so important! Even if you only have five followers or don’t leave a comment, just reblogging it means a lot to content creators!

Here are some of the tips I have for the mechanics of Tumblr:

Use the tagging system, as imperfect as it is. I think Tumblr now reads the first 20 tags in your post, so use that to your benefit. I usually always tag at least: [character name]; [character name x reader]; [fandom]; [fandom x reader]. You can always also try things like: [character name genre], [fandom genre], [fandom fanfic], [character fanfic] as well.

Make sure your blog is easy to navigate and have a masterlist that’s easy to find. If a reader sees your content on their dash and decides to check out your other works, if they can’t find them on your blog then they’ll probably just leave.

Self-reblog as much as you feel you need to for your followers who may have missed your post. I self-reblog a lot for new content over the first couple of days and then even will do a few icymi self-reblogs later as well. It also helps to have a list in your profile somewhere of your recent updates so people can easily see if they’ve missed something. 

3. Write for active fandoms and for popular characters.

This might seem like common sense, but I think it’s something to keep in mind if you want to grow your follower count and your chances of getting feedback. And there’s nothing wrong with prioritizing a fic over another just because you want more feedback. I actually really want to write something for Chainsaw Man but the fandom is so small compared to the other fandoms I write for that I’m putting it on hold until the anime comes out. 

That’s not to discourage you from writing for characters or fandoms that are less popular -- I have a bad habit of writing for niche characters and fandoms. But I always see my activity spike when I write for more popular characters. Another tip is to try and figure out which characters people are thirsting over but where there’s a lack of fics for them. You’ll also find that some characters or fandoms just have louder fans than others. The stuff I’ve written for Gojo has gotten a lot of likes and notes, but not so many comments or much feedback. But the amount of asks and thirsts I’ve gotten for Naoya is wild. This is something you’ll learn over time as you keep writing!

4. Post frequently. 

This one is annoying because writers have lives and real-world responsibilities and we can’t just write 24/7. But when you’re trying to build a following, even if you can do a couple of short drabbles a week, you’ll really start to see your follower count and feedback grow. I’m not sure if people tend to like longer or shorter fics more, but overall people are just hungry for content and if you can give it to them on a frequent or at least regular basis then they’re more likely to interact, especially if you’re taking requests. 

But don’t prioritize writing and posting content at the cost of your own well-being. As authors we’re all guilty of this at one time or another, but your followers will understand if you have writer’s block or you need to take a step back! Taking care of yourself is more important than getting feedback or interaction. ❤️

5. Interact with other authors. 

Building relationships with other authors is a big one, but it’s also probably the hardest because a lot of us (me included!) are just so shy about reaching out! It’s like asking someone on a date or trying to be friends with someone you really admire. I know it’s scary to come off of anon (I still sometimes send asks on anon!), but authors recognize the names we see often in our notes and in our inboxes and we’re all really nice, I promise! 🥰 And I’m much more likely to read the fics of my mutuals and the people I follow than I am to be searching through the tags.

And I think there’s nothing wrong with reaching out to an author you love and politely asking if they’ll read your work. I think it’s totally okay to send something like, “I really love your writing and wanted to know if it’s alright if I share this fic I just posted with you? I’ve seen you thirsting over [character] and think you might like it if you have the time to read it!” The worst they can do is turn you down. I would never be upset over getting an ask like that as long as it was polite and the person was understanding that I might not have time to read their fic. But, I know that this is really scary to ask of someone. I’ve only done it once or twice, so maybe I don’t have any ground to stand on here, but I really think you should try it even if you need to send the ask on anon first.

Please just be mindful of an author’s rules before reaching out.

Another added bonus is that authors are more likely to reblog and give you feedback on the stuff you write because we’re in the exact same boat as you! We’re the perfect audience. 

And don’t forget...

Growing your follower count and reaching the level of feedback you want takes time. If you’re just starting out, don’t get discouraged. The more you write, the better you get so even if you’re not getting the feedback you want now, that doesn’t meant that you never will! 

And of course, pay it back in kind. Just how you want people to interact with your fics, we want the same. I always try to leave comments on the fics I read on AO3 and always reblog the fics I like on Tumblr and try to go wild in the tags so that the author knows that I loved their works. 

I hope you found all of this useful, anon! Best of luck with your writing! 💕

#Anonymous #writing advice #fanfiction #writing tips #fanfic tips #useful stuff

[stardustanddaffodils]

Analogical Book Club AU

hello i have a vague idea and no motivation to do anything substantial so here have this... incoherent plot outline? bullet fic? we’ll see what it turns into-

okay. its analogical. of course it is, im me. basically, logan and virgil join a book club together. idk if it’s like... a high school/college thing, maybe they’re adults, i have no clue... but they join a book club together somehow! and maybe that’s through a mutual friend (patton? i wanna say patton) or maybe they just like somehow find it on their own orrrrrrr something, idk. but they join a book club.

and at first they are, like. strangers. maybe they’ve seen each other once or twice, or know of each other, or we can bring back the mutual acquaintance idea, but they don’t really know each other. and then they read a book and have a really awesome discussion or logan picks a book that virgil loves or virgil picks a book that logan loves or something and from there maybe they get really carried away talking about it that by the time the book club meeting is over logan’s like “okay i am free for the rest of the night, wanna continue this over coffee?” and virgil is all “oh yeah uh sure” and so they go get coffee/a drink or something together and keep discussing and afterwards logan is all “i find your company quite.... satisfactory. perhaps we can make plans to meet again sometime?” “uh, sure, yeah, um. i’d like that.” “excellent. here is my phone number.” “cool. uh, see you soon?” “see you soon. have a nice evening, virgil.” as logan/virgil/pick a pov walked away, an inexplicable smile spread across his face.

and they just. become really good friends. actually yeah i kinda wanna say this is in college... idk maybe logan helps virgil with his homework and virgil helps logan when he’s catastrophizing about a test and the other way around too, and they just. become friends outside of the book club too.

and eventually that turns into like. a very deep, talk-about-life-and-problems-and-existential-stuff relationship, because i cannot write anything without at least a liiiittle angst. and maybe logan tells virgil that for just how put together he seems, he has no idea what he’s doing with his life or if the path he’s currently on is the one that he really wants to be on. and virgil talks about, like. i actually have no idea. im usually very good at coming up with virgil angst but i am blanking. OH OKAY NEVERMIND (tw being disowned, homophobia) virgil confesses that he feels bad sometimes bc his parents kinda kicked him out when he came out and he sometimes misses them and he feels bad for that anddddd that’s a whole mess, you get the idea. so yeah, they talk about life and their dreams and their doubts and their worries and their regrets and everything and it’s nice.

and they’ll meet up a lot, too, have i established that yet? like. at first its just to talk about books. then its to talk about school. then its to talk about life. and suddenly logan is taking virgil to the park at night (and that’s his alone time, his safe place, but he finds that he doesn’t mind the company so long as it’s virgil) to stargaze and virgil falls asleep on his shoulder while listening to logan ramble about the constellations, and logan wraps the blankets he’d brought (warmth and comfort are incredibly logical) around virgil because it is spring/summer/just generally warm because i miss warmth and want it to be spring already but it’s night so it is a little chilly, and virgil just looks so peaceful and....

oh. how nice. the boy who has become one of logan’s best friends has now managed to capture his heart in a way that is no longer platonic. he’s surprised but also knows that really, he should’ve seen this coming.

(putting the rest under a cut cause this got out of control)

hmm, okay. maybe i should actually think about the other relationships in this a bit more. so uhh... actually scrap the mutual acquaintances idea? yeah. um. okay so logan and... roman yeah we’ll go with roman... are roomates? yeah, they’re roomates. and they became pretty great friends even though logan and roman have very different views on most things. which is fine, they work, they’re wonderful friends. but also roman has several other friends because roman is a Theater Kid and an Extrovert and like its almost impossible to be an extroverted theater kid without having like. an entire Fellow Theater Kid family. so when logan meets virgil its a whole new thing because Fellow Introverted Friend!! and roman’s really happy (and a lil smug) that logan’s finally making some friends other than him. so we have a lovely platonic logince thing, yay.

meanwhile, virgil and patton are friends after patton sorta took virgil under his wing when virgil was stressed and overwhelmed and starting college. so they’re friends. but patton is also a year or two older, maybe? and, again, he is an Extrovert and he has friends and he wants virgil to make friends too! ooh so patton... pushes virgil to go to the book club? how about that? like, yknow, “cmon kiddo! you love reading, and i know its gotta be a little hard having no one to talk about your books with” (because patton Does Not Read he doesnt like it it just doesnt work for him) and so virgil acquiesces and that’s how he meets logan and the two just... click and patton is happy cause his kiddo (patton is Official Mom Figure if he adopts you into his friend group then there’s no escaping the Mother Hen Patton treatment) is making friends wouldja look at that! *proud dad noises*

m o v i n g o n, uhh... let’s summarize because i really confused myself here tbh! so uhh... patton, virgil’s friend, convinces him to go to a book club. he meets logan (who is friends/roomates with roman. neither of our left brain boys really have any other friends except ro/pat, though logan is decently chummy with his teachers. how sad for them). and so logan and virgil meet at this book club and they really enjoy and have an epic discussion together so when the meeting ends they go out for coffee/something together (like... maybe not exactly coffee but like, to a coffeeshop or cafe or something?) and talk more and greatly enjoy each other’s company so logan’s like “here’s my number” and virgil is like *smiles awkwardly because being a person is Hard* and then from there they become super close friends over the months/years/pick an amount of time, and again that stargazing scene that i mentioned earlier because someday i will write an analogical thing where they dont go stargazing together, but that day is not today (or any time in the near future, lets be realistic).

aaaaand so this is great. logan is crushing on (one of) his best friend(s) (right? is it possible to have multiple best friends? because “best” indicates superiority so shouldnt there only be one best thing? but logan loves roman and virgil both so much for different reasons, and even patton has grown on him although the man infuriates him... yeah this is probably something like what logan’s internal monologue in the scene looks like). wonderful. except he doesn’t do anything about it? he and virgil are perfectly contented with their current relationship and logan has no desire to ruin or strain that, and he doesn’t want to spring that on virgil or risk hurting him or making him feel bad for not reciprocating the feelings (logan. buddy. there is no way that the feelings arent reciprocated). so logan realizes he has a crush... yeah no it’s way more than that, logan is in loOoOoOve.... and he just puts the thought to the back of his mind and life goes on.

and uhh.... *insert some angsty situation* O H maybe we could do that old “ominous person from My Backstory makes an appearance” oooh okay you know what, let’s give logan crappy parents too. yeah okay, so his parents arent necessarily that bad, per se, but they have Very High expectations for him and a life in mind for him and logan doesnt know what he wants to do with his life and then that kinda comes boiling over where his parents are all “dont be ridiculous, youre gonna do x y and z with your life” and logan is all “but is that what i want, did you ever ask that?” “well, what do you want?” “i dont KNOW”, cue family tension plus logan having a premature midlife crisis that virgil helps him through.

(oh bonus cause im not sure where to fit this in: virgil lives with his cousin janus since his parents kicked him out and it’s pretty chill. they bicker a lot but like what did you expect)

and then also just insert the normal stuff: nightmares, cant sleep so they call each other and fall asleep to the sound of each others breathing on the other hand (because i am a sap), freaking out over school and helping each other, stargazing and stargazing like it becomes their Thing and it used to be logan’s alone thing that he’d do whenever people were too much and he just needed to breathe, but now it’s his alone with virgil thing and somehow that’s even better.

and somewhere along the way roman has caught onto logan’s crush and is pressing him about that “cmon lo whaddaya mean youre not gonna tell him you gotta tell him then you can kiss and i can say i told you so.... what do you mean you dont wanna ruin anything logan are you kidding me he likes you back he so likes you back cmon logan you cant just take this to your grave-” “watch me.” *frustrated princey noises* yeah uh you get the gist of it

(bonus, if you want- at some point patton meets janus and Oh God Help, He Is So Incredibly Gay. and that happens in the background)

i literally have no clue what im doing from here ive run out of steam but uh eventually stuff gets resolved and maybe logan figures out what he wants to do with his life or maybe he just figures out that he still doesnt quite know but that’s okay, and whatever angst that i come up with for virgil gets figured out too. and they’re just having one of their nights with the stars and logan is doing that adorable Thing he does where he rambles about the stars and his whole face just lights up because he’s happy and because Virgil Look At This Thing That I Love And Am Telling You About and virgil just kinda murmurs “oh god im in love with you” or something like that. cue extreme gay panic, both of them being Useless Gays (tm), overly sappy lines like “wait did you mean that?” “....yeah” “ive loved you for years/insert timespan *sappy smile*” and that’s lovely and we end there, with the two of them and warmth and love and the stars and some symbolism or whatever... oh and maybe we can tie it back to that whole book club meeting thing that started it all, like.... “they started off reading together, and now logan was gonna write his own story with virgil. he couldnt wait” except like. better written and phrased better because with or without the romance they wouldve written stories together because they’re friends and- ....you get the idea :)

probably never gonna do anything with this but i loved the idea and had to get it out, so here ye are! if anyone like... wants to see snippets of this written out or elaborated on, let me know because chances are i might be willing to oblige! or if you have any thoughts or whatever! (also like- feel free to write anything from this or use anything from this if you want? just please tag me :D) ummmm... that’s that! yeah :)

#sanders sides #analogical #ts logan #ts virgil #ts patton #ts roman #ts janus #moceit #stardusts snippets #tw homophobia mention #tw disownment #tw being disowned #gjkdjdsa how do i tag that- #lmk if anything else needs to be tagged #this isnt really proofread so if there are mistakes or inconsistencies now you know why :') #thought puddles

[sukirichi]

Here’s the Part 2 of my long ass chat—hehehe

Okay but I saw ideas for spinoffs of Reckless Universe—Ever since reading the manga I stan Aniki Choso, a brother like him please 🥺, Bratty Heiress Reader x Bodyguard Toji (very excited for this one, it’s not everyday someone makes reader to be bad and annoying) AND Supermodel Chose x Rival Model Reader, has piqued my interest.

Imagine Bratty Heiress Reader was actually arranged for Gojo of Reckless but they both denied each other and just decided to mischief together, making Toji jealous—Im sorry Im such a sucker for jealous and comfort fics—ehe—also fluff I suppose—

OKAY BUT THIS IS BC I BARELY SEE FLUFF WITH THE DILF GUYS, except for Ms. Vi’s (violettelueur) blog, but I guess they’re called DILFs for a reason hahaha BUT Celebrity Sukuna x Fan Reader, I have a feeling there’ll be angst like usual

BUT I ALR Imagine, Sukuna finding Fan Reader as a pain, but since more annoying female celebrities keep throwing themselves, I bet he uses reader as an excuse, but I can also imagine Sukuna having side chicks with more refined and sexier female celebrities prolly dating them Idk if he’d do it tho, since Sukuna can be so unpredictable—like u and ur fics

I have been debating whether I rewrite my old stories tho, my old stories were very cringey tbh, they were solely based on my feelings and imagination yet it had a lot of reads in wattpad, I was thinking of revamping it with better logic since Im older but idk if I’ll be able to keep up with updates, since I usually write based on my mood, I honestly don’t know how u update so consistently and it’s very commendable

or If I write more fluffs for the guys I love HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, or do both, if I’ll be able to keep up with doing both, I honestly do not know

That’s all for me, Im rlly sorry for my long ass chat/response/ask

- 🎧

i love choso-nii 🥺💕 omg yes yes!! i am also super excited for the bratty heiress x bodyguard toji series because uhm 👀 toji is a good brat tamer TELL ME I’M WRONG ASDHDLAL. his patience as a bodyguard is immense too, especially bcos bratty heiress reader likes to make it their job to make his job a lot harder. cue lots of sexual tension and mutual pining and i am GONE. and omg i like that; jealous bodyguard toji will have a dose of angst in him bcos he thinks to himself why would you like him when you could have anyone else? he doesn’t really enjoy your lavishness or likes partying with you and your friends; bodyguard toji prefers the moments he’s alone with you and you’re just bickering, but then he reminds himself you don’t really like him, that you’re just flirty and teasing by nature, that you just like messing around with him, calling him reliable and strong and handsome and he finds it funny because for such a strong and intimidating bodyguard, he sure struggles to protect his heart from your mischievous smile.

omggggg now you got me on a brainrot for celebrity sukuna and fan reader 😫 thats true, he would fin fan reader a pain with the heart eyes and excited giggles. lowkey uses fan reader as a way to ward off other people flocking over to him but keeps sa safe distance from you anyway because you look you’re going to eat him, which, by the way, the flattering attention secretly strokes his already impossibly huge ego, not that he’d ever tell you that. celebrity sukuna wonders to himself just when he started to realize your presence is tolerable and you’re actually genuinely sweet, appreciating him as his true self and not just his appeal as an actor. mayhaps . . . celebrity sukuna slowly declining party invities, stops seeing others and becomes more private with his life, his appearances on parties and scandals decreasing, all because he can’t wait to come home to sweet fan reader who is patiently waiting for him with warm hugs and netflix on play where you binge his movies just bcos he likes seeing himself and goes all soft and mushy when you don’t get tired of complimenting how impressive he is.

hmm as for your stories, its really up to you! sometimes i also take old ideas from my cringe writing phase where i hadn’t honed my writing skills yet because now i have the confidence and ability to turn it into something great. and no worries about that, the foundation of storytelling are emotions and imagination 💕 and aww thanks so much, i update consistently bcos writing just feels natural to me and i really do love it! what i love becomes a habit so cough cough loving naoya cough cough

you can do both!! there’s no need for you to ‘keep up’ bcos you should go at a pace you’re comfortable with! assuming that this is also writing as a hobby, don’t pressure yourself with anything bcos what’s most important is you enjoy it! you can work your way into it so you can see what works for you, but really, don’t fret too much becos its all about finding joy in what you do and doing what you enjoy! sometimes thinking too much about it takes the joy away do i prefer being no thoughts head empty just writing about naoya’s tiddies only 🤤 and hahahaha no worries, i’m okay with long asks and i’m glad you’re feeling better now! don’t get sick anymore, okay? or i will bonk you !!

#asks with naoya's trophy wife #anon:🎧 #series: reckless #suki: ideas

[hearttoshu]

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why did you choose your url?

“heart to you” but it’s a cheesy pun and it’s “heart to shu(a)” LOL 

do you have any sideblogs?

@haknew for the boyz ! i use it the most often so it’s kinda more like my main blog than here haha :p i make gifs and rb stuff ^^ 

@getawaymp3 for verivery / personal ! i make gifs and dump multi group rbs and personal posts there loool it’s super messy tho :’))) (i’m so sorry to anyone who follows me there hhh </3) 

@sunnhoon​ for enhypen ! more gifs and rbs :] 

how long have you been on Tumblr?

on the kp0p side ... about 4 ? or 5 years :o ! 

do you have a queue tag?

yep ! here’s it’s “i adore queue🌷” after adore u ! and on getawaymp3 it’s “invitation just for queue” after gyehyeon’s line in get away ^^ 

why did you start the blog in the first place?

i had no carat friends at the time so i really made it to get to know other carats ! and then later on i eventually learned how to make gifs and i turned this blog into only svt and made getawaymp3 for multi group stuff (that wasn’t the original url lol it’s gone through a few changes ^^)

why did you choose this pfp?

i think shua and dongheon are neat ... my 95z loves <3 so yea :o ! shua cute selca icon for here and heoni sprout icon for getawaymp3 

why did you choose your header?

i made this one a long time ago :o ! and i just really wanted a retro-y windows / vaporwave pastel pink header with shua ^^ for getawaymp3 it’s a group shot from the get away mv but with sparkles :’)) bc i have no personality outside of being a get away enthusiast  

what’s your post with most notes?

for this blog i have no idea it’s probably that random oty in la recoloring i did HAHA i think ?? it has 3k notes or smth for some reason and on getawaymp3 it’s this jaehyun poetic beauty set i posted randomly for fun and somehow got 1.6k notes bc ... jaehyun pretty 

how many mutuals do you have?

a lot on here but a good portion of them are probably inactive ..? and only a handful on getawaymp3 i have a lot of moots on haknew but i don’t really keep track :’)) if i rb from you regularly i consider us moots LMAO 

how many followers do you have ?

like two...

following?

285 ? yea ... 

do you make shit post?

if tag rants count then yes on all my blogs </3 i’m pretty annoying :D, but yea i will on getawaymp3 but only bc the least amount of people follow me there (excluding my enha blog bc it’s like a week old) and i brain dump my sadness there sometimes LOL 

how long do you use Tumblr each day?

an unheathy amount </3 

did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

hmm i don’t really indulge in drama usually so no >.< there was that one time deobiblr boolied me into admitting i bias kevin moon if that counts u.u (and i lost obviously) 

how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts?

they’re my blogs, my safe spaces ;;;; so i ask people understand i rb what i want to... (even tho i feel guilt every time i rb anything that’s not content content... lmaooooo) 

do you like tag games?

i do bc i really love hearing from moots / friends ! but i always feel bad about them bc a.) i get tagged in a lot and sometimes i just forget and leave them in my drafts, b.) don’t want to spam too many personal posts (bc people follow me for content ?? i think so spamming personal posts makes me feel bad T-T) and c.) idk which mutuals to tag bc i don’t want to be annoying (and i’m too scaredkjfgdkj) so i sometimes don’t do tags bc of that 

do you like ask games?

yes ! but same logic as above point b.) LOL tho i really like rambling / talking and interacting with people i think a good portion of my followers just don’t care for that so i keep it to a minimum where i can ;;;; s*dly 

which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

a lot of them actually fdkjgkdfg i always consider myself a small blog or outsider in the communities i claim to be a part of ;;; but i get really lucky and people like my gifs ! like on my enha blog even tho it’s like 9 days old there are some what i would consider “big enha blogs” that follow me ^^ (and then of course tumblr users @ shuaway and hongminchy are so famous i’m honored to be moots with them :p) 

do you have a crush on a mutual?

did you mean all of them :p ? no but i do have ... like ;;;; cc or friend crushes ... people i really like content / tags from and want to be friends with but i’m just too s0cially anxi0us to initiate conversations so i end up just admiring from afar <3

tags?

i’ll tag @minatual @bloomblooms and @baejoonyoung ! (only if you want to do this tho no obligations feel free to ignore !) (OH ALSO pls no one feel obligated to follow any of my other side blogs ;-; i am not joking when i say i am a bit of a nuisance u.u HAHA) 

#not svt #tag games #tagged #the tulip is my emoji on here :D but the sprout is my emoji on getawaymp3 #tysm for the tag lee ! #and to bom too !! <3 #bom i am so sorry you have to deal with me on getawaymp3 i always feel like i'm super annoying there haha #but yea ! #my enha blog is tinie :p but it's fun i'm having fun #when some of my engene moots call me by name in the tags hhhh <3 #hand in marriage @ moots U.U <3 #this is long ;;;; hhh sorry :')))))))) #THANK YOU AGAIN FRENS <3