#idk i wanna just snip memories of him and other experiences/people from my brain at least for a little bit

[autisticpika]

u know in the futurama episode Fun on a Bun when everyone thinks fry died all up in benders sausage maker and leela gets her memories of fry like...not erased but temporarily disconnected from her thoughts? anyways God i wish that were me!

#pikaposting #like nit to be dramatic but i wanna forget some stuff. so bad #like ive been having dreams with my abuser popping in it even though i dont have to be afraid of him right now!!! #like im on vacation in a different state! far away from him! #even then he doesnt intreract with me when im in the same building withj him! so why does itr matter! #he doesnt even do anything to me in my dreams hes just. there like at schopl #ive had dreams where he did bad stuff to me but?? this is irrelevant and just discomforting #idk i wanna just snip memories of him and other experiences/people from my brain at least for a little bit #i know in futurama her memories were regained when she saw fry again but i just want idk at least a break #im tired of being scared of this nasty! i dont need to be anymore! #and idk maybe i need to keep these memories because i learned from them how to recognizs when im being taken advantage of #but do i rlly need to remember it This much? #and fcking ppl that have a 0.001% chance of interacting with me? im still afraid of them too #okay rlly just the One Guy from a looong time ago but like.. im afraid hell try talking to me again #or thatr hes been secretly stalking me idk #anyways uhhh Bungus! im gonna watch youtube then try to sleep this off