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findafight · 9 months

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you're so right. i will never understand the hold rockstar eddie has on ppl. his character immediately becomes insufferable if he's super famous and successful, esp in no upside down aus where he never experiences some form of ego death/being forced to reassess his own bullshit. not to mention he is just not someone who would become uber famous like he does not have the personality to either pull it off or handle it well if he miraculously did imo. steve really screams child star to me tho in an au. plus his entire character arc kind of speaks to him being able to handle fame (ie the fact that steve is a v reflective, adaptive character that was capable of actually changing and improving his behavior even w/o knowing about the upside down originally) and knowing/learning who he should be surrounding himself w. like i firmly believe steve could actually handle being famous in a way eddie could not.

I do enjoy rockstar eddie to a point? it depends I think. Rockstar/musician aus are popular in fandoms of all sorts an I like them sorta...hit or miss? haha.

But you're right that it's become...idk over saturated? And yeah absolutely Eddie's ego death and the shattering of the Munson Docterine is kind of pivotal for his character growth. Like I know the duffers don't think Eddie's problem is that he's stuck in highschool clique mode (They seem to think his flaw is that he's a coward...which is a different meta but his reactions are reasonable to the situations he's thrown in), because they only think "jocks" are the problem there, but he is. Him realizing that actually Steve is pretty cool is the stepping stone to him not hating jocks on principal, and broadening and nuancing his view of people outside his assumptions on who are "Proper" nerds. No- upside down aus, regardless of any other trope in them, often fall flat for me in that aspect, yet always make sure to remind us Steve was a bit of a stuck up dick in highschool (until the beginning of grade 11) and it's tiring to nt see Eddie allowed to be wrong and have that moment of self-betterment.

And yeah, I can maybe see eddie becoming semi-famous session musician (not a musician that is a session musician AND recording/performing artist by themself like Glen Campbell or Marvin Gaye) through a series of events like. Playing one of his hyper specific songs at a small gig, someone in desperate need of a guitarist is there and sees he is incredibly talented as a guitarist, asks him to help as a session musician in like two days, he plays, someone at the studio is like hey. wanna be on-call for us? and eddies like sure. ok. So sometimes he's on hit records but they aren't his. royalties are decent from the amount of work he's done. He's a pinch hitter guitarist, and he's good, so he gets a rep in the industry for that. He doesn't seem like the kind of person that could thrive in the high pressure, has major deadlines, environment that being a famous musician woudl be. I mean a lot of rockstars aren't either and it's not healthy for them? I can see Eddie crashing and burning, which I know a lot of fics cover but I also find it super depressing haha. He would probably be too standoffish and anti-authority and possibly refuse outside input for stuff, so he'd be off putting in the industry. not that musicians are always pleasant to work with but i think you get it.

Child star Steve would be so neat tbh. Look I love famous athlete Steve. but also the allure of him being famous young... Maybe as a little piano prodigy? (I love piano prodigy steve hehe) or an actor? like canon era he could have been a Mousketeer! Maybe he did a couple movies (what if he was in a few cult-classic scifi movies...that the party just so happen to love....but don't pay attention to the name of the child actor in...or maybe he used a stage name?) And then him fading away and living his life a little bit, before he decides to come back into the limelight?

I think that often we forget that Steve's "come-to-jesus" moment happened without the upside down. He talked shit, got hit, and then decided that he owed Jonathan (and Nancy) an apology. No one made him help clean up the grafitti! He had no idea there were monsters he just had a shit 48 hours where he went off the handle and then decided he had been an ass and to fix himself. When he was 16! He'd have made these changes to himself without the Upsidedown. Somehow the party knew his full name, and I love the hc that he won a major game/championship for Hawkins as a junior/sophomore so was a minor town celebrity. These lend to Steve being able to handle the pressure without too major a fallout or a long-term downward spiral of self destruction.

Except (okay operating as like a post-canon thing, because I love canon-divergent aus more than no-upside down aus but could still work?) now he's battle scarred and obviously not the rosy-cheeked boy he was when he was a tween. I'm thinking maybe he goes back in '89? give some time to heal from the upside down and Robin is moving for Uni, he's obviously going with her, so he figures acting would beat dead-end minimum wage jobs. Or at least spice things up in between shifts. Maybe he starts with theatre, and decides to see if there's some screen auditions he could do. Maybe he still has people in the industry who remember working with him (he's a good team player and a natural leader) and they help in slip back in. He does some bit parts, a few semi-recurring characters. Maybe he's even on an episode of Law and Order, and people go hey! That guy who's crying over his dead girlfriend (he's a red herring) is the kid from that 70's scifi movie!

Eventually someone actually offers him a role without him auditioning, and it's a bigger part, a side character but one with lines and even a semi decent arc in a b-list movie. he's a good fit. Charming and handsome, plus there are some intense scenes and on set Steve's proved himself capable of handling most things and supportive of coworkers (actors and crew alike.) Except there's a shirtless scene. While his scarring isn't extensive, it's definitely noticeable and not as easy to cover up as the faint discolouration around his neck. it's hard to explain, and usually movies want flawless skin. He tells them this. They still want him.

So he takes the role. And he has a blast on set. He loves working as a team, and even though days are long, he feels everything sort of...coming together. A feeling that this is what he wants to do. that he was right to get back into acting even though he started so young because of his parents.

He makes lasting friendships with nearly everyone he meets on the set. There's a few child actors, and he tries to give them tips and pointers, and be a role model or support for them. he knows what it's like to be little and surrounded by adults a lot of the time, and feeling pressure to be perfect. (They think he's actually the coolest, even if he's also kinda a doofus.) (there's probably a scene where he picks up on of the kids, and then the rest of them on set want piggy back rides too...)

It's considered his comeback role, despite being a few years after he actually came back. The pressures of fame come back again, but he's older now, and he's killed monsters. He has Robin beside him. A few paps don't scare him. Everything he has to hide (besides his bisexuality...and maybe his shitty relationship with his parents) is covered up by the government anyways. He gets bigger parts, and gets an even bigger rep for being a delightful (if viciously sarcastic) and supportive co-worker, especially if there's kids on set. (child stars of the nineties will look back on working with steve and think he was one of the few adults to get it. to understand how big your emotions are as a kid and how most grown ups [often even/especially their parents] didn't let them actually feel what the were feeling, instead wanting them to be acting all the time, instead of only in front of the camera. How he told them to never let anyone do anything they weren't comfortable with, no matter who it was. How he'd stick up for them, no matter what, and would ask how they were doing throughout shooting. They'll look back on being on set with Steve and remember how even if he called them little shits when they tried to prank him or were goofing off, he said it with a wink and a smile.)

I'd say, (please forgive me) he sort of becomes a (90's era) Tom Cruise kind of actor (before he went on oprah and went viral for jumping on the couch and then only did action movies after that) (also steve doesn't become the face of a cult) Like he does action flicks, but can definitely pull his weight as a dramatic actor. (I realize that I already have a movie star steve au but thats a different era I can have overlapping headcanons for the aus!!) His cute heart-shaped smile and amazing hair entrances audiences. He can make emphatic speeches about justice and also carry at least two children out of a burning building. He has range.

idk steve going from child actor to highschool athlete to monster killer to broke thespian to movie star again entices me!!!

#findaanswers #anonasaurus #steve harrington #famous steve harrington #stranger things #steddie #listen. target audience or something #stranger things au #anon...you got me monologuing #finda's rambles #child star steve #eddie munson #forgot i did talk about him at the beginning

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moonshine-nightlight · 5 months

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Being sick for the past week meant that I had nothing better to do today than lay in bed and refresh tumblr waiting for chapter 34, and seeing it at the very top of my dash was the highlight of my day! The wait was definitely worth it, my health for the duration notwithstanding lol

SPOILER WARNING FOR PAST CHAPTERS IDK HOW TO PUT READ MORES IN ASKS I'M SO SORRY

You made the right call taking the extra time to edit this doozy of a chapter—figuring out how to share Dale's exposition in a way that made sense and fit into the events of the story while maintaining tonal consistency must have been quite the process, between the restrictions of Sana's POV, regency genre conventions, and the story's (heh) natural climax being Dale's identity "reveal" followed by the wedding. I'm very curious if you currently have any ideas for how you're going to tackle this exposition in the novelization, or if you're inclined to handle it differently at all!

@weasellyferret

i hope you're feeling better! i'm so glad you enjoyed the new chapter!

i hav no idea if u can even put a read more in an ask anymore and i can't hide it now but my answer will be under the read more

thanks! i think some people really underestimate how helpful even self editing is to make things coherent, especially for a long chapter like this one that covered so much but also was literally just two ppl talking to each other (ppl lov to say they'll take any update, but lik, thats cuz they dont knooow lol and i dont just want it to b passable, i want it to b good).

with lore/backstory like this i also have to make sure it makes sense to readers who havent read any of it before nor know any of the even more info that I know because there's even more worldbuilding and dale backstory that wont end up in the story.

i'm glad u think i pulled it off to any degree because i was still pretty nervous when i was posting it that it did make sense, fit in the world, was followable, interesting but not just exposition monologue, etc

yeah, chapter 30 where they have the reveal convo is the primary climax of the story and that's also 'just talking' in a sense so its interesting to write this story in that sense lol

while i had the broad outline of the world and dale's backstory from the beginning (i did a little exercise where i sketched out a sort of Dale POV of chapter 6 to get into his mindset which was super helpful) as I wrote the story a lot more of that info became fully fleshed out/defined. so for the novelization, i'll probably try to work more of the info in earlier or have better allusions to it, which will make some of the info in chapter 34 more of a quick confirmation than the exposition itself

ie i might add a chapter with more detail on Sana researching with Dale's books that Bilmont smuggles and plant suspicions of what went wrong with the summoning; i might adjust the chapter after the attack to be more of a convo about the assassination that the grandparents interrupt where Sana can suspect more of Dale's past etc and generally spread out what i can so its more foreshadowed/natural - things like that

other aspects sort of have to be told to Sana because its POV limited, evn when it is updated to 3rd POV. i'll probably do a straight POV swap and minor edit ; then take a look at it as a whole, reassess things on my own, run those ideas by some writer friends/betas and get their thoughts, and finally my editors (who i used for DSM) are also very good with making sure worldbuilding fits in right and so their advice will be helpful - especially since they will only get the draft i giv them without knowing how it was and what changed etc

once chapter 35 is out (which i'm still writing because smut is a challenge to right and i write it more slowly than other things) i'll start slowly editing and passing along to betas the rest of the story (i've got thru chap 11 done and betas who only read those and who are chomping at the bit - u think u've had a long wait? lol) but it will be spring by the time i do any big edits/revisions and then i'll giv it to the editors, who i already lik, semi-lined up for that time period and idk how long they will take because its a long book and then i'll need to process their edits too so it'll be a lengthy process, but i hope everyone knows it will 100% b a novel and i hope they enjoy it!

now back to stabbing away at the smut writing ;)

#asks #writing asks #story asks #nothing's wrong with dale #worldbuilding #exposition #backstory #lore dump #editing #my process?#lol idk - i think i went on for too long #hope someone finds this interesting #especially u #weasellyferret

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greatpawtender · 7 months

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can you imagine post case 4 laurent calling up makoto and being like "Hey Do You Want To Do A Con Again" only for makoto to turn him down so completely that it kind of forces him to reassess his own goals and priorities and what he wants out of life now that his grudges have been settled.

because he just kind of Assumed that his way of living would work for makoto and that working with team confidence would set him down that same path for life (see: the parallels between the way he and makoto are treated by team confidence when they first join), because why Wouldn't it? and he probably thought makoto's genuine desire to be a good person and make an honest living was a result of conformity more than anything. (and it's not even like an honest life is Inherently Better, more that laurent, as someone who was never really able to lead that sort of existence, can't really understand its value beyond it being Safer)

the difference is that makoto doesn't enjoy hurting people, even if it's for a good cause, while laurent (imo) has a very "the end justifies the means" approach and is, I would argue, a lot more childish and petty.

with hindsight and the context of his own treatment, the way makoto is treated by team confidence starts feeling like projection on laurent's behalf. "I saw people fake die in front of me, so it's fine" "I wasn't told anything, so it's fine" "I suffered, but because it's all fake it's fine". tbh it feels like laurent never allowed himself to properly process any of his trauma besides the stuff that was "real" (and even in that case, he only really processed dororthy's death after the score had been settled), so he just expects that makoto will do the same thing and be fine, which is. not how it should go

I just think laurent should be given the chance to kind of. Think about team confidence more critically upon witnessing makoto's post case 4 depression that's all. I think he should go bug makoto at his new job and when makoto doesn't react at all and makes it very clear that he wants laurent Gone, laurent has to confront the fact that this sort of stuff really can fuck people up, and maybe he's a little less okay than he thought. and then he goes and whines to oz about it and then they make out idk

hi op. hi. hey . can i make out with you? no? okay sorry

AOUFUGHHF YOURE SO RIGHT YOURE SO RIGHT OG MY GOD this has been my EXACT thoughts regarding makoto and laurent too god they are so insane

i swear to god its like generational trauma between them 😭 its like the children dealing with what the parents dealt with when they were younger LMAOOO

god i am a sucker for post-case 4 cause there is no way everyone, at least makoto, will be okay after that. i agree so hard with makoto just not reacting At All instead of the comical GRAHHH NOOO YOU CAN'T ROPE ME INTO THIS AGAIN!!! but only in my hc i feel like makoto would just comply because hes so Tired

anyway id love to talk more aboit this but i am stupid but thank u op youre so smart and correct and hot

#great pretender #grepre #chair rambles #ask #anon ask #also laurent/oz is so correct thank you #i fully support this more than edaurent #NOT LIKE THERES ANYTHING WRONG WITH EDAURENT #i am just not an edaurent guy unfortunately #anyway

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bubblegump-1-nk · 11 months

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As She Walks By pt. 3

-summary: Theodore and you are just best friends (or not), but when he finally hooks up with the Hufflepuff girl who’s had a crush on him for years, things may start to change

based off of the song Heather by Conan Gray (a little bit), set in three perspectives: yours, Theos, and the Hufflepuff girl (an OC I named Althenea Circ). I made you a Gryffindor but if you want to change your house just imagine whatever house you want.

- warnings: insecurity, angst, not really cheating but idk, typos probably, cussing, toxic relationships (these warnings apply to the upcoming parts so you might not see some of them in some of the parts, if that makes sense) I think that’s all but tell me if you find anything else pls!

sorry this took me so long, I had exams and the got caught up in other stuff but I hope you enjoy this!

-Your POV-

I walked out of the library with the intention of heading to the Slytherin common room. I had to talk to Theo, I mean what was even going on? He had this new girlfriend - if I could even call her that - and she’s all up in my business. And on top of that, I have this new found jealousy thing. I have to sort this out with you.

As I turn the corner to head to the stairs that lead down to the dungeon, I stop. What the hell was I doing? I couldn’t go in to your dorm and tell you I’m in love with you for Merlin’s sake. Not with you having a “girlfriend”, not with me having figured out if I even did love you romantically, and especially not with the change that you reject me and then our friendship is ruined forever. After a quick reassessment of my thoughts, I decided against going to your room and instead began walking to the Gryffindor tower and calling it a night.

“Sogweed Jumpets” I said to the Fat Lady, and in return she allowed me to enter the common room.

It was fairly empty since it was getting late, and I made my way up to my bedroom quickly. I opened the door quietly not wanting to wake anyone inside just in case, and I was lucky I did because Parvati, Lavender, and Hermione were all in deep sleep. I changed into my pajamas and put on a robe and a pair of slippers to go brush my teeth and get unready. After I finished my nighttime routine, I slipped off my robe and took of my comfy slippers, and dipped under the covers.

I laid still for a few minutes, trying to fall asleep but after no success I began tossing around. All I could think about was Theodore Nott and what he meant to me. Were we just friends? Was I in love with him? Maybe I was in love with one of his friends and was getting it mixed up? Mattheo maybe? Definitely not Mattheo. And what was up with his “girlfriend” anyway? I know him better than anyone, and I know he doesn’t like her. Plus, he used to make fun of her! And she… my thoughts eventually turned into dreams, and I fell fast asleep.

The next morning (Theo’s POV)

“Yo, mates, guess what?” Blaise says to the table as he sits down.

We all look up at him expectingly and wait for his response.

“Tyler Minx just told me Ravenclaw’s hosting a party tomorrow night, said something about a theme but I didn’t quite catch it.” He said, finally settling down in his seat and reaching for a piece of apple pie.

“Oh, yeah I heard about that. I think the theme is just to wear a costume.” Draco pipes in, finishing off his goblet filled with pumpkin juice.

“Hm, what’s something I could dress up as that doesn’t involve a shirt?” Asks Mattheo, to which I respond with by knocking him on the head.

“Oi mate! Just jokes. Eh, not really.” He says, the last part added after careful consideration.

“Are you and what’s-her-face going to match?” Blaise asks me in a mocking tone.

“It’s Althenea. And you wouldn’t catch me dead matching with her.” I say, stealing a piece of bacon from Mattheo’s plate.

“Watch it you git!” He says, smacking me.

I hit him back and we begin a playful fight when Blaise interrupts us.

“Ha! Looks like you two are already matching. I didn’t know it was that serious.”

I look at Blaise confused, and then grab onto Mattheo’s fist to stop his punch before turning around to follow Blaise’s eyes.

Althenea Circ.

Wearing my quidditch sweater?

“Looks like someone’s whipped.” Says Draco smugly.

“What? I never even gave that to her.” I say, astonished at how she got it.

“Oh yeah, I bet she walked into our dorm while we were sleeping and took it.” Mattheo said, sarcasm heavily evident on his words.

“I wouldn’t put it past her.” I grumbled, looking down at my plate. I hated seeing her with my last name spread across her back.

We were all silent for a little, me because I was trying to figure out how she got my sweater, and the others to give me space.

“Merlin! Y/n!” I suddenly said, looking up.

“What?” Said Draco, the others sharing confused looks

“I gave that sweater to y/n the last time we hung out on the astronomy tower. She must’ve given it to her.” I say, finally understanding the situation.

“You gave it to y/n, eh?” Said Mattheo, suggestively.

“Not like that.” I quipped, not like that I think.

“I’ll be back.” I said quickly, getting up from the table and heading towards the Gryffindor one.

I payed no attention to anyone or anything else, other than the back of your head as you laughed loudly with your friends.

Once I reached you, I cleared my throat loudly to get you attention.

You turned around and.. Merlin you were beautiful.

“Oh hey Theo!” You said, giving me your full attention.

“Can we talk? It’ll be quick.” I said.

A flash of worry appeared on your face, but it left as quickly as it came.

“Yeah, of course. I’ll be right back guys.” You said to your friends and you got up to start walking with me.

“What is it?” You asked as we began walking.

“Wait until we get outside.” I said, looking down at my shoes. I didn’t see your expression so I had no idea what you were feeling, but I hoped I wasn’t scaring you.

We finally got out of the Great Hall, and walked into an empty hallway.

“Um,” I said, scratching the back of my neck not knowing were to start.

“Yes?” You asked, I could sense your worry and it pained me to know I was the reason for it.

“Did you give Althenea my sweater?” I finally got out.

It was silent for a minute, and then you laughed. A light, airy, beautiful laugh.

“What? What is it?” I asked, quietly chuckling confused at the joke I missed.

“No, nothing. I just- yes, I did give your girlfriend your sweater. It seems more appropriate than your friend having it.” You said, smiling still.

“Best friend. And I don’t see how that’s weird.” I said.

“Oh Teddy. You have much to learn about relationships.” You say giggling, my breath hitched at the nickname, though I don’t know why.

“Well, firstly she’s not my girlfriend and secondly we share clothes all the time, and it’s never been weird.” I say, still mildly confused.

“Well, regardless if you’re dating or not, you’re still seeing each other. So it’s sort of weird showing all this affection to your friend, who’s a girl. It would be different if it was Mattheo you were sharing with.” You explain, putting your hand on my shoulder, a movement that makes my heart skip a beat. My hearts never done that before in the 12 years I’ve known you. Why is it doing it now?

“I would never share clothes with Mattheo, he’s a pig.” I say, which makes you laugh. I smile proudly.

“And I guess I understand? But next time just, tell me before giving my clothes to someone.” I say.

“You’re right. I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have done that.” You say, breaking eye contact.

“It’s alright, it’s not your fault.” I say. And after a few moments of quiet, I pull you into a tight embrace.

My chin rests on the top of your head and the hug is warm and comfortable. Your embrace is one I would stay in forever if I could.

Suddenly I hear a gasp coming from our right, which caused us to break apart to search for the culprit.

Quincy.

-Althenea’s POV-

I was sitting in the back of Transfiguration trying to focus on the lesson when something nipped at my shirt. I looked for the culprit and found a paper bird quietly buzzing around me. I quickly grabbed it and opened it up, revealing a note.

Meet me in the bathroom on the second corridor. Now. -Q

I read it quickly, confused at the urgency but went anyway. Mcgonagall allowed me to make a trip to the bathroom and I quickly made my way to the assigned lavatory.

“Quincy?” I asked as I stepped inside, looking around.

“Alth, you won’t believe it!” She said, popping out of a corner.

“What? What is it?” I asked urgently, growing more worried by the second. Oh how I hoped it wasn’t about my Theo.

“Well, first I should ask if you want to hear some bad news.” She said, suddenly feeling shy.

“Yes, I don’t care just tell me what’s so important.”

“This morning I.. well I saw Theo and…” She trailed off, not knowing whether to finish her sentence.

“With y/n.” I said, already having figured out who this would be about.

“Yeah. I’m sorry A, I really am.” She said, putting her hand on my shoulder.

“Well, what were they doing?” I asked expectantly

“Hugging. But they were pressed so closely together. It just looked really intimate.” She explained.

Suddenly my eyes began to well up with tears and my heart began to race. Why was it getting so hard to breath.

“Thanks for telling me. Bye.” I said, quickly leaving the bathroom.

I heard Quincy call out to me but I didn’t want to answer her, I just needed to leave.

-Your POV-

I walked towards the bathroom after leaving DADA. I opened the door and was met face to face with Quincy, who was trying to leave.

I jumped back a little but then smiled softly and quietly said “Merlin you scared me.” With a soft giggle.

Her face hardened and she looked at me intently.

“You disgust me.” She said, stepping back to let me enter.

“Excuse me?” I said, confused at her sudden rudeness.

“You’re a fucking bitch do you know that? I mean you could have anyone at this school and you pick one with a girlfriend?”

“I’m sorry, I’m not following.” I said confused.

“Oh Merlin don’t act stupid! I’m talking about Theodore Nott of course.” She said, walking closer to me.

Suddenly I started laughing, I couldn’t help myself even though I tried. Quincy just looked at me in disgust and confusion

“For the last time, Theo and I are just friends! When will you people understand that? And plus, Theo isn’t even dating Althenea.” I said, turning around to go look in the mirror.

“God you’re so shallow. You know they’re a thing, whether they’re dating or not. You need to butt out of their lives.”

“Funny you’re saying this to me seeing as I’ve known Theo for longer. And he actually tends to acknowledge me more than his “girlfriend”.” I said, angry at how she was treating me.

“Althenea has done nothing to you! Absolutely nothing! So why are you trying to ruin her life?!” She said angrily.

I turned around quickly to face her, and I stepped up close to her.

“First of all, Theo and I have been friends way longer than Theo has even known her name, so technically she needs to butt out of my life. Secondly, Althenea is not a fucking angel and you know that. She called Dean Thomas the m-slur at the beginning of the term and she goes around making fun of every girl at Hogwarts. If Althenea is going to date Theo she needs to understand that I’m going to be there just as much as Mattheo, Blaise, and Draco. And lastly, I will hex you to Beauxbatons if you speak like that to me again, understood?” I said sternly.

She looked at me with a blank expression, her mouth slightly agape. I took this as my time to leave and I stepped aside and left the bathroom.

Friday night (Theo’s POV)

I stood in a corner of the Ravenclaw common room, drinking some mystery drink out of a plastic cup. The lights were flashing harshly and the music was blasting through the speakers.

“So, why’d you choose that costume?” Althenea asked from beside me.

It took me a moment to register what she said but then I responded with, “I don’t know. I like the movie I guess.” I say, looking down at my vampire costume inspired by Lost Boys

“Oh that’s cool. I don’t really know why I chose my costume.” She said, and I quickly looked at her costume, registering for the first time that she was dressed as a mermaid.

I gave her a tight smile and then turned my attention to my friends.

“No way we win that game.” Blaise said, he was dressed as a mummy.

“We could easily take the Gryffindor team even without McCabe and Reis.” Draco said, offended that Blaise thought they were worse than the Gryffindor’s. He was dressed as Jack Frost.

I was trying to focus on the conversation, but all I could think about was were you could be. I didn’t see you anywhere, and you promised you were coming to the party. I started to become anxious.

“What’s up with you?” Mattheo asked me, he was dressed as a cowboy who had forgotten to wear a shirt.

“Nothing. Just tired of entertaining you-know-who.” I said quietly not wanting Circ to hear me.

“Makes sense. Wish I could help with that but that’s completely a you problem.” Mattheo said.

“Thanks mate.” I said sarcastically, rolling my eyes.

Suddenly I hear your laughter echoing throughout the common room and I look around to where it’s coming from. After a few seconds of scanning, I found you.

“I’ll be right back.” I said to the group and quickly left.

I walked quickly towards you and when I finally reached you I decided to put my hand on your shoulder and scare you. You jumped back and let out a quiet scream before laughing after having seen my face.

“Very funny Theodore.” You said smiling.

I chuckled and then asked, “Where’s your costume?”

You looked at me with a confused face and then looked down at yourself, “I’m an angel? Isn’t it obvious?” You said, turning around to show me your wings.

“A costume is when you dress up as something you’re not, obviously.” I say, probably because of the alcohol coursing through me.

You giggle at the comment and say “You are so cheesy you know that? I mean why am I even friends with you.”

“You know you love me.” I say, engulfing you in a hug and swinging you side to side.

“I think you need to slow down on the drinks.” You say laughing, the words coming out muffled since your face is pressed against my chest.

“I think you need to speed up on the drinks.”

“Well what do we have here?” Mattheo says, coming up to us with Hermione.

We leave the embrace and focus on the two people in front of us.

“Nice costume Mattheo.” You say.

“Wore it just for you.” He says, putting an arm around your shoulder.

My chest tightens with what I think is jealousy and I look at the two of you blankly.

“And you look great Hermione.” I say.

“Thank you.” She says giggling, she was dressed up as a cat.

“Well Matty, I don’t know any cowboys who don’t need shirts but I guess there’s a first for everything?” You say, poking his side.

He laughs before saying, “Well I for sure don’t know any angels that were shirts.” He says, which causes you to laugh and lightly slap him on the shoulder.

“It’s not like that corset is leaving any room for imagination.” Said Draco, who had walked up to the group.

“Thanks Draco.” You say sarcastically.

Suddenly I feel an arm around my waist, I look down confused because you’re currently wrapped around Mattheo.

I don’t recognize the arm and I look down at the mystery persons face. Althenea.

“What are we talking about?” She says.

The group goes quiet.

Mattheo breaks the silence by saying, “We are just talking about how much Theo enjoys y/n’s costume.”

“What? No we weren’t.” You say quickly, leaving Mattheo’s grasp to look him in the eye. Althenea’s arm leaves my side at the comment.

“What? We didn’t directly say it but it’s fairly obvious.” He says, which causes me to fully break out of my trance of staring at you.

You give Mattheo a look before saying “Hermione do you want to go grab a drink.”

The party continues, you left me a couple minutes ago to go dance with Hermione, and Althenea is talking about something stupid.

“And that’s why I think butter beer is better than pumpkin juice.”

“Uh-huh.” I say, my eyes on you.

“Teddy, I’m over here.” She says nervously.

“Don’t call me that.” I snap. “Sorry.” I quickly add to make up for my harshness.

“Sorry.” She says quietly.

The conversation continues after a few quiet moments, my eyes following you wherever you went.

“Um, I think I’m going to go the bathroom.” She says, quickly leaving me.

“Uh-huh.” I say moments after she’s left, still looking at you.

[Sorry this took me so long to write, I had exams and the got caught up in other stuff! I didn’t want to make this a series let alone more than 3 parts but here we are, sorry. I hope you guys enjoy this anyway, and part 4 (hopefully the last one) should come out soon-ish!]

#jealousyfic #theodore nott x you #theodore nott #theodore nott x y/n #harry potter #hogwarts oc #hogwarts school of witchcraft and wizardry #theodore nott angst #theodore nott fluff #slytherin boys #gryffindor #hufflepuff

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border-collie · 6 months

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Not dead, but have some shit to sort through. My knee has been flaring up and overall have been dragging through the mud mentally.

I'm on track for my goal of a house in the next year, it will likely still be in Texas unless I have to move for work.

Both girls have their yearly scheduled for the beginning of November and OFA prelims at the end of November.

Ever has started agility and Moxie is back in classes, I'm super excited to see where I go with both of them as a team.

I'm actually enjoying my break from the hell site and idk if I have plans to come back full time. If someone wants my discord feel free to DM me here and expect a slow reply.

Hiking season is finally back! Both girls have been going on both leashed and unleashed hikes with me and I hope for many more while the weather is perfect.

Overall, I've got a lot going for me but mentally I'm just not feeling it. Work is very, very slow and I don't feel especially challenged right now and I think that is part of it. My knee pain makes it hard for me to fully enjoy hiking, I actually made the decision to buy a hiking cane this weekend to see if that helps, I can't bring myself to get my knee reassessed since the last time (10 years ago) I was told it wasn't a real and I was making it up. Same thing for reaching out about mental health. Also I've just kinda become disillusioned about online dog world and find myself getting frustrated with a lot of what I am seeing which was a big reason I decided to take a break.

#bark bark bark

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sopebubbles · 10 months

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I'm so glad I saved the last two chapters of LW to read together, otherwise I would've definitely had some very colorful language directed towards Jin 😒 I really thought yoongi was going to challenge him for pack alpha for a minute!

The pack dynamic is definitely different than what I thought it was but seeing it play out like this is more realistic and very very intriguing. I'm already on edge just picturing the drama that's going to happen during this adjustment period, but I'm so really excited to see them just hash it out and get to bond.

also, ALPHA YOONGI IS KILLING ME 😫 he is so sweet, he just wants to have his own little omega and dote on her, why does everyone make it so difficult for him?? huh? give the baby alpha his pup already!

(side note: I was extremely nervous going in to these chapters because I seen a little bit of the drama from them through asks and now I'm just like??? with so many people in a story there are bound to be some chapters that focus on certain characters more. the story is flowing just fine as is and I'm loving every bit of it 😊 and I really like that there's texture to their pack, like idk why but I loved the tidbit about yoongi and namjoon not being able to navigate sex with each other. like there's love all over but it's different types of bonds and love)

Lol tbh i almost did have him challenge Jin. The main reason that he didn't was because it would take his focus off yn and he doesn't want it that badly. He just wants Jin to do better.

I think it's good for them to go through some growing pains. Hopefully their bonds justgey stronger! Sometimes when you're with someone(s) for a long time it's hard notice how you change and it's good to take time to reassess that.

And yes give him the pup. They need each other. They deserve each other!

I'm really glad you're enjoying the nuances of the pack life. I try to make it interesting and treat them as individuals!

Thanks so much for reading sharing your thoughts 🥰

#lone wolf thoughts #lone wolf asks #purplelo

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izacore · 1 year

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Harry making money off his tour- while an insane amount for one person to earn- bothers me less. I was more talking about the Azoffs and how they have insane wealth and they still are aggressively booking more shows and directly profiting. At least Harry is performing and writing. Idk. He is not faultless by any stretch but I am willing to be more gentle with him because he is still young and maybe he hasn’t really thought about how to handle such enormous wealth. I don’t begrudge him some fancy cars and nice trips and clothes and stuff, I think it’s ok for people to have those things if they can afford them. But what is old man Azoff’s excuse? He’s like 70, he doesn’t even have enough life left to spend the money he already has but he’s aggressively going after more. I don’t know how else to describe it beyond greedy and amoral. And he doesn’t have the excuse of being super busy always touring and being young that I’m willing to give Harry, he has had plenty of time to do good things with his money. Also I’m more forgiving towards Harry because I like him better oh well.

And just in case- I saw some people saying that calling the Azoffs greedy or overly focused on money is antisemitism and that is not at all what I mean. I think anyone with enormous wealth is suspect and often greedy and lacking in morals that are personally important to me. At best it’s a character flaw but I want to be crystal clear it has nothing to do with antisemitism. Just felt like I needed to say that

The antisemitism argument makes no sense to me, because many people who criticize them don't even know they are jewish lmao so if those Azoff-defenders are making this correlation then maybe they should stop and reassess themselves actually, if pulling this card is their only solution in those discussion. Listen, Polish people are seen as thieves abroad, does this mean it's Polish-phobic if a polish person commits this crime and is judged for it? lol

Yeah, for me Irving is also fueled by greed and I don't have any good words to say about him but that doesn't mean that Harry couldn't do better. Like I said, Ed Sheeran is much richer than him and similar age and he can come to the right conclusions and realizations and take control over his prices and sales. They keep saying how in control he is - where is it then? Either he is in control and people should admit that he is greedy as well, or... I don't even know what. Much smaller acts are trying to do better in terms of show-accessibility (Only the Poets off the top of my mind), so the fact Harry is not even trying (as far as we know), at some point starts making you think. And yeah, people choose to spend that money but on the other hand they kinda have no choice - why should poorer people not be allowed to enjoy live music?

#ask #anonymous #i just think harry should rethink some stuff #I would personally be embarrassed to sell people his merch for so much money

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carnal-lnstinct · 1 year

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Hi! I have a question but feel no pressure to answer, after you finish the last vday request, what are you planning to do? Are you gonna update some of your previous fics or something new? I'm curious, you're one of my favorite writers and I can't wait to see what you do next 🥺

Thanks for asking and thanks for enjoying my fics! ♥♥♥

It's going to be a mix of both updates and new fics. I don't have any events in mind right now or really know of any monthly occurrences at the moment that I will be doing until July. There's three big wips for certain I wanna wrap up, and as far as new stuff...honestly I'm probably expecting more from myself than I should with my schedule but we'll see what sticks! I try to keep my current wips updated on my pinned post to show what I'm working on but after thinking about it, I really need to reassess what I'm actually writing and update it again.

Here's a more updated version of current wips following vday in no particular order

virgin!vegeta fic - this one I am working on alongside final vday fic

right of passage update

ss4!Vegeta cuddle sex

dark red: goku black

Captured!Goku x bounty hunter fic

secret 6th thing that is totally not for cumber you read nothing

Idk if I missed something but it seems to be kind of a gap for writing events between March and July, but Z Broly and Goku's birthday is in April, plenty of time to plan something for the occasion ♥ I'll probably just take general writing requests after I get my wips down enough.

#♚ ;; [ asks ]#i really can't believe there's no mating/heat cycle or like sex pollen or something event for spring!#you know how bad I wanna bring back the elysia fruit?! B A D

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here2bbtstrash · 1 year

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You have outdone yourself, M! Chapter 8 had me slack jawed. 🚨🚨🚨🚨🚨 Houston, we have feelings!!! Soft moments, touches on the back, coffee and pastries, reassuring glances, meaningful conversations -

“God,” Yoongi hisses against your skin. “You drive me fuckin’ crazy”

Are you kidding me?! The whole scene of them at his apartment was just so unlike any of their previous antics (outside of both of them running their mouth) and i’m here for it. Not to mention the shower scene?! All of it, every detail is just 🤌💋 (is anyone else not above buying a fear of god shirt to further their delusions that yoongi laid it out for you? Thanks for that, M. Like I need any help being psychotic)

Poor baby goth. He definitely didn’t deserve the treatment he got. The reader needs to reassess the way she navigates the relationships in her life, even Jimin, poor babe was left at a shitty dive in the middle of nowhere so she could go fuck yoongi. I’m not saying we all haven’t ditched a friend for dick appointment, i’m just simply saying 👀

In conclusion (what is this a highschool essay?) the direction you’ve taken this story has me giddy and hopeful that these two idiots could put their pride and derangement aside and perhaps come to the realization that they could work it out!! The reader was having full on visions in his kitchen of their life together and that MEANS SOMETHING!! STOP BEING A STUBBORN BITCH!!

Ok but for real. Love this, love you M. Thank you for taking us on this journey with you! I can’t wait to see what these two dumplings get into at the Grammys. 💕

AHHHH MALLORY 🥰 THE FEELINGS ARE HERE.... NO ONE WAS READY (least of all me 😩)

the apartment sceeeeene 🥺 it lived in my brain for so long, it was sooooo enjoyable to finally write out in full. such a pivotal moment for these two where those hard exteriors are starting to peel back 💜

listen i am not going to fess up to buying a fear of god baseball shirt but if i did i would tell you that i got it when it was on sale so it was only $89 and it does feed my delulu fantasies every time i wear it so thank you love you and goodnight!!!

the relationship navigation comment is SO real and i appreciate you mentioning jimin in it as well.... he's definitely the best at handling reader and dealing with her impulse control issues/not taking them personally but even still 🫠 homegirl needs to take a fat look in the mirror!!!! maybe book a therapist idk!!!

ahhhhh the visions in his kitchen 😭 if these two idiots could just GET OUT OF THEIR OWN WAY..... we must keep the faith 🙏 so much can happen at the grammys!!!! we'll have to wait and seeeeee 👀

i am sooo glad you're enjoying the ride, and i so appreciate you taking the time to share your thoughts!!! thank you for reading love!!! 💜

#drankomalfoy #mbox 📮#fic review #look down on me like that #LDOMLT spoilers #queue what you want ㄱ -ㅅ-ㄱ

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jerzwriter · 2 years

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Idk if you're tired of discussing DTI, but I just have to ask. Why is Casey so possesive? if that's the right word, of T the first time they go to Donahue's? I get she needed her friends, but to ask him to sit next to her, and then the awkwardness of seeing other girl next to T, to wear his clothes. It felt like she's having some sort of PTSD? and clinging to T, which let him to believe she has feelings for him or she already had feelings for him before the breakup. Idk that's just my perception

Oh, Nonny, the day that I am tired of discussing DTI is the day aliens have taken over my mind. lol Clearly, I love discussing all things OH, and DTI is forever my baby, so always happy to discuss.

I think the word you're looking for would be more "dependent on" than "possessive". If I'm wrong, let me know and I'll reassess. :)

She was rather dependent on him after Ethan broke up with her, and I think it's for a few different reasons.

See below...

They were very close and relied on one another before the split, so it's not odd that she'd turn to him after. He had already proven that he was a reliable and trustworthy friend (i.e., the pregnancy scare). Sometimes Ethan even asked him to be there for her (when he went away on business and when she returned from Providence without Ethan), so Tobias was already a "go-to" for Casey.

The fact that he found her on the night of the break-up factors in. She was at her lowest and was not sure she could get through. Tobias's words, actions, and support kept her afloat. So in some ways, he became her life preserver when anxiety hit. So if she was insecure, she'd say, "sit next to me, please," because it simply calmed her.

Was she too dependent on him?

Perhaps. I'm not sure if you've completed reading the story yet, so I don't want to elaborate and give things away, but this does factor in later on.

Did Casey have feelings for Tobias before Ethan broke up with her?

Consciously or unconsciously?

She loved Tobias with all her heart... as a friend. He was one of the most important people in her life, and she felt an affinity with him. Whenever they were out together, people would assume they were a couple. Not because she was doing anything inappropriate, but because that bond was just there.

Tobias was the friend she would want to fix up with another friend because she thought he was wonderful. She'd tell them, "If I were single..." but she was not. She was very much in love with Ethan and never looked at Tobias in a romantic light. But if she had met Tobias, and there was no Ethan, would she have developed those feelings? Probably.

But with all that said, if you noticed anytime the word "Tobias" and "date" were mentioned in the same sentence, Casey's hair stood up a little. She was always happy and supportive, but there was that split second that preceded it where her discomfort was palpable. What did that mean? I've always left that to the reader to discern.

As to her wearing his clothes - it was just on one occasion, and it was out of necessity. It wasn't meant to lead Tobias on in any way. Did he like seeing her in his sweatshirt? Yes and no. He was so in love with her, and seeing her in his old Hopkin's shirt made his mind go to what he wished could be. But it also hurt like hell because, at that time, he truly felt being more than her friend was an impossibility. So he didn't enjoy torturing himself.

If I didn't answer your question, I'm happy to follow up. Send ALL the DTI questions. lol Thank you!

#delaying the inevitable #delaying the inevitable asks #delaying the inevitable asks answered

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Thoughts on 4x01 - 4x12 again I wrote a novel. This is probably my least favorite rewatch half since S1 and it's because the stuff I liked I really liked and the stuff I didn't like I really didn't like. It kind of ebbed and flowed for me, I didn't like the first two episodes (they felt weird I don't know how to describe it) but then I liked Connor and the hunters mythology. I liked the Klefan team-up and the hybrid sire bond breaking with Tyler (I liked his plot the most of anyone) and obviously I liked that the show remembered Steroline existed and all the friendship and sober sponsor goodness. But I didn't like when the hunters mark turned to the cure and Silas because I honestly lost the plot on the convolution of that. I loathe LOATHE the sire bond stuff and DE in general and while 4x09 was a highlight the next three brought it back to not enjoying myself as much (I blame the lack of Caroline).

4x01

“I made a choice that I will regret for the rest of my life” see even Stefan knows that was a stupid ass decision!

Not to defend Matt but can the Salvatore brothers leave him alone like damn it’s not his fault. Especially Stefan like projecting much? Damon wanting to kill Matt so badly is tiring like what is even the point?

God the DRAMA over Elena deciding to transition or not became downright annoying.

Bonnie you need to listen to Grams and stop saving these damn people!

RIP the Council you were useful for one day and then you got blown up.

4x02

I don’t really see how the animal diet wouldn’t cause more duress since you have to kill an animal, as opposed to just drinking from a blood bag? IDK Stefan you need to maybe reassess your vampire training manual because this doesn’t seem to be a diet anyone chooses unless they have drinking problem. Plus the dramatics over Elena feeding and possibly killing someone come on man, there’s like six people watching her I think you can all manage if you do it in shifts.

Damn I forgot how hot Conner is *bites fist* and I love that he shots first questions later! Someone who gets shit done and actually shook the table around here!

Tyler is the only one around here actually willing to put himself in danger to cause the least amount of casualties. A motherfucking G!

I’m sorry but Elena told April to remember it was a beautiful service but like it wasn’t! Tyler got shot! I would have included that information.

Why did Damon start kinda breaking the fourth wall suddenly?

Between Stefan starting it off by listing people Damon killed and Elena mourning HERSELF this is the most in sync’ Stelena has been since S2 LMFAO!

4x03

These past few episodes have been so overly emotional and dramatic it’s a bit much for me. I think it’s because the show is making us “feel” Elena’s transition like we’re doing it along with her, but please show I don’t ever want to be forced to relate to Elena.

Klaus getting so excited to try and breakup a high school couple is both sad and hilarious. Like he is glowing at the thought!

Man Rebekah is RUTHLESS!

The motorcycle scene is so bad!

I know I get more of a buzz from this than most but the Steroline scene is really just a nice scene. There is so much self righteousness and postering going around in these episodes and finally someone is like “I need help will you help me” “of course” and it is so nice! Stefan gives her these heart eyes when she says she's good at it because of him that just make me melt. I don't even think it's about the boost to his ego, I think he just really needed to hear that he did something right. This is also such a huge moment in relation to Stefan because it's the first time he ASKED for help with his blood addiction. With Lexi, Damon even Elena they told him they'd help him and they all did a bit but Caroline was the first person he sought out help from. And he trusted her when she said he could come to her whenever he wanted and she wouldn't let him lose control. Because Caroline is a genius at self-control. I always liked how we got the line "you don't have to pretend with me" from Stefan to Caroline in 2x13 and now you see how Stefan starts to learn he doesn't have to pretend with Caroline either.

4x04

Even the voiceover recap is dramatic!!

Stefan’s “we’re not in a fight this is our resting phase get over yourself” comment was hilarious.

How does Caroline not know how hard it is Elena hmm not like she woke up all alone having no idea what was happening to her since NO ONE told her about the supernatural world before that! The only possible information she had was visions of Damon abusing her, raping her and feeding on her! Not like she didn't have to work her ass off to prove to EVERYONE she could do it (only Stefan had some faith in). Then after that she was tortured by her own father despite being "too good at it". Yep no idea how hard it is.

Klaus sitting at the bar with a glass of wine smirking at Rebekah’s failures should not be as funny as it is but I am DYING!

Klaus’ smile when Stefan figured out his motive, what a sap! At least he's using new methods to get his (boy)friend back now. Instead of ruining his life he's like "wanna manipulate people and be shady" the best way to Stefan's heart.

While I do enjoy the Bonnie/Shane storyline (mostly) I am immensely tired at how often Bonnie loses her powers. This never seemed to happened to the witches on TO... and of course we all know why (racism).

Everything about Damon in this episode disgusts me. When he basically described S1!Caroline as the perfect "feeding victim" I wanted to reach through the screen and stake him. Can't even enjoy Bamon crumbs during this time period.

Stefan manipulated Rebekah into giving up all the information after one conversation… I just cannot. If Rebekah wasn’t mostly indestructible there’s no way she’d have lived this long, she will give all her secrets away to the first person who shows her a modicum of warmth.

4x05

Elena is so out of the loop and I love it (because I am a HATER)

I'm glad Bonnie got to just vibe with Shane instead of being forced to help this hostage situation, good for her.

The Hunter plot is good, I do like how they have their own symbols and the tattoo only other hunters can see. It gets a bit too complicated when Silas and the cure get introduced but it was good while it was just about the hunters.

Matt and Jeremey getting April a vervain bracelet THANK YOU!

Farewell Connor you should have been Too-Hot-to-Die!

The cracks in Forwood are starting :( because Tyler is right, Chris was his friend and more importantly Tyler wants to keep everyone safe and values everyone's life not just those he believes are important. But Caroline doesn't believe that, she'll try to save everyone and she'll at least feel bad but she will always save her friends first. There's also the fact that she's already started picking Stefan's side over Tyler's which will come to a head soon...

4x06

Caroline’s grin at tricking Klaus LMFAO

They would make Elena be haunted by her first kill after telling me how SHE JUST CARES TOO MUCH and her compassion is her greatest weakness the last five episodes. I hate it here.

Jeremy being so eager to stake Damon LMFAO!! I mean can you blame him? You know how many problems would have been fixed if they killed his ass.

They make it the Stelena break-up all about Elena's feelings for Damon which... is not the full problem here. If anything the problem is Elena's feelings for Damon mean her and Stefan aren't in sync like they were in S2. Because when SE works it's when Stefan can be the ideal boyfriend who respects Elena's choices and always protects her (at the expense of others if needed) and Elena can uplift that. She'll even remind people of it, like Elijah in 2x19 or when she would remind Damon, like when she invited Stefan into the boarding house first and embarrassed Damon on the condition he follow her rules (and Stefan smiles smugly). I mentioned it in my 2x12-22 recap thoughts how Elena wants to have a relationship with both brothers, but it only works if Elena isn't in love with Damon. Because then the roles don't work anymore, and Stefan has more self respect than Damon and quite frankly has zero interest being a side piece. Because we KNOW Damon will be in love with Elena no matter what like he was in love with Katherine for 145 years (until he transferred that over to Elena) but Stefan can move on (and does fight me).

4x07

When Caroline is talking to Stefan about her disgust at Delena and goes “and you’re you” the way Candice says it and her body language is PERFECTION! You see that small part that feels a tingle for Stefan pop out for a second after she buried it when they became friends in S2 (it stays there until S5 IMO).

Klaus is such a dick lol, he knows exactly what’s going on (that Elena is sired to Damon) and he just gives Caroline another riddle.

Everything with Damon and Elena this episode (most episodes lbr) makes me ill so I'm just going to ignore it :)

The Klaus and Caroline scenes at Miss Mystic Falls are kinda cute, I liked when he was teasing her with the application lol. The hummingbird analogy was kind of like "what TF is he talking about" though. Also why didn't we get Caroline saying if she'd take the cure or not, feels like they purposely wanted to keep that lingering.

I do like how much shadiness is going on this season, like not really knowing Hayley's motives and now we know she's working with Shane. Stefan and Klaus' team-up and how that brought a lot of hostility to the trio and also makes Caroline a more primetime player.

Another precious moment! When Caroline is going on her pro-Stelena rant and she’s like “her and Damon” *shakes in disgust like her whole body icks over the idea* (samsies). Then Stefan does this d’aw look and shy smile trying not to laugh because Caroline is Caroline and just BEING HER makes him forget how crappy his life is.

Now one of my favorite eras begins aka "Stefan and Caroline figure everything out by the fireplace (and fall in love)" era.

4x08

Stefan is being more sanctimonious than usual and if it were any other character than Damon I’d be like "let's not throw stones from glass houses..." But since he’s Damon and he still doesn’t do the right thing after all this, I'll allow it.

The show tried to push the side bond as feelings but like that’s not why the sire bond is bad. It’s the lack of consent because you are forced to act based on what you’re told by one person and it prohibits free will. THAT'S THE PROBLEM! No one thinks Elena didn't have feelings for Damon before she turned we fucking know this.

The scene with Caroline, Elena and Bonnie drinking and partying in the Salvatore living room is very cute and funny and I love it and it sucks that every other interaction between them this episodes fills me with hate. The part where Caroline says "It's not your fault, Elena. Damon took advantage of you!" you really hear the fear in her voice.

Elena is a bit too intrigued watching the hybrids bow to Tyler...

I thought Stefan was going to say "because he's my brother" when Caroline asked how he could trust Damon and how utterly annoyed it was going to make me, his excuse was a least a little better than that. He was wrong of course, because Stefan never learns when it comes to Damon.

4x09

The first scene of this episode is… why? They just established the lack of consent with the sire bond and Damon and Elena are laying on top of a bed together.

Caroline looks ETHERAL (and yes the very petty part of me loves that she gets to look stunning while Elena looks dull and miserable even her hair doesn't pop like it used to *evil grin*)

The way Tyler says "you told HIM" AJSHBCFJSFHJ god I love this scene, and the way Stefan moves in front of Caroline to protect her from HER BOYFRIEND, god I love it. I love when two characters just straight-up do not like each other based on personalities and not plot contrivance. Because Tyler and Stefan have never gotten along and they would never speak to each other if they could help it but they have to, because they both care about Caroline. That's how you do a triangle. Love how Tyler threw in Stefan's face that he already got one of the hybrids killed so he doesn't owe him anything. Sterowood you deserved more.

The Klefaroline stuff is also so great, the little art critic remarks and Klaus saying "you've been dodgy and Caroline's been lovely which I've come to recognize as a tool of distraction" (took him long enough lol). I do really enjoy the Klefan conversation about loneliness (which was what Caroline said about the snowflake) and memorializing their dead. Then the remorse that Stefan and Caroline feel at leading Klaus to slaughter and then cutting to... Klaus brutally murdering 12 hybrids to a Christmas carol. This show!

Watching Tyler find all the dead hybrids... damn I just feel so awful for Tyler. He was just trying to help them and never really wanted to be the alpha and now he has to feel immense guilt over them trusting him.

4x10

I’m sorry Becks but getting mad at Stefan for his dirty tricks girl... maybe stop letting yourself get manipulated ALL THE TIME!

I do appreciate Damon shooting Klaus for Carol.

Man Shane can resist compulsion too why are these idiots still not learning that! Morons all of them.

The prospect of Rebekah ramming the cure down Klaus throat does give me a perverse amount of joy! Really would have loved to see him deal with that predicament MWAHAHAHAAAA!

Stefan is such a drama queen this episode. Look the sire bond is gross and the way Damon is using it to his advantage is gross but like... Stefan is mad at Elena having feelings for Damon because of the sire bond but HE KNEW SHE DID BEFORE HE LET HER DROWN! And again maybe you shouldn't have been so comfortable with your brother being in love with your girlfriend Stefan because it "proved their was a part of him that was human" or whatever bullshit he used to say.

4x11

I do love how sassy Stefan got once he detached from Elena, he’s so much more fun this way!

Even Matt is questioning Elena’s choices about Damon oh how the mighty have fallen!

Sorry not sorry but I’m ready for the Original family to leave for their spin-off. I don’t care enough to even understand their issues now it’s so zzzzzzz, Klaus is the only one who mildly entertains me and that’s only when he’s around Stefan, Caroline or Tyler.

I know he's just trying to aggravate Damon but Klaus saying "Stefan would never dream of hurting Elena" um sir we all know that is not true. You were on the phone with him when he threatened to turn her into a vampire and drive her off a bridge! So much so that you actually stood down!

For someone who wants to be human so bad Rebekah is obsessed with Ripper Stefan and I don't get it! Do you know what Ripper Stefan does to humans? He eats them! And not in the sexy way! I'm also forever over these vampires say they want to be human so badly when they clearly love their vampire powers.

Elena like “wanna commit genocide real quick” girl...

4x12

CTFU at Stefan looking so guilty when Klaus opens the door like he’s been caught cheating!

Two episodes in a row with no Caroline WTF I don’t deserve this!

I know Bonnie’s Dad literally appeared out of nowhere but he’s not wrong in basically everything he’s been saying. She can’t really protect the town like she says when she’s working in vampires' interest. And thank god someone put vervain in the water supply!

It’s kind of sad to watch Bonnie’s parents finally give a shit about her and started telling her to stop putting herself in danger for Elena. Because they are completely right with everything they’re saying and Bonnie just won’t listen now.

The Stebekah 80s “date” does a good job of showing the duality of Stefan. I think he’s being completely genuine in having fun with Rebekah and that it reminded him of his time with Lexi who always made him happy. But he’s also doing this to distract her while Elena and Jeremy try to kill her brother. And I like that he doesn’t have Matt dagger her because she was honest with him and he didn’t want to betray her after she did. But then he manipulates her into being back on his side to get the cure and to not be mad Jeremy and Elena killed Kol. Oh when he’s good he's good.

There’s so many mentions of burning Elena’s house down lol. They couldn’t wait to torch this sucker.

The Klonnie scene where Klaus is like "witch" and she gives him a death glare... they could have been a fire hateship man!

Bonnie’s face was like oooooo watching the triangle drama lol (samsies).

Lines that made me laugh:

Klaus: For future reference, one voicemail is just as effective as nine (this was an ongoing theme with Klefan and it was hilarious)

Stefan: *snaps Damon’s neck* You’re welcome (LMFAO all in the delivery sassy Stefan never leave me!)

#tvd rewatch #tvd spoilers #S4 rewatch #4x01 - 4x12 #anti-delena for ts #anti-stelena for ts #steroline for ts #forwood for ts #stebekah for ts #I think I got it all #who knows will find out if someone yells at me in my inbox I guess #oh right!#klaroline for ts #k rewatches tvd

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the-most-adorkable-smile · 1 year

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I'm coming to terms with the fact that I don't really have a concrete self-identity, and one of the things that's kinda shaken me is: I'm not as into RPGs as I thought I was.

I know a lot of rules for D&D, but that's come of running it a lot. And I'm highly critical of it as a system because it by necessity defaults to combat as the only granular mechanic. But I've really used RPGs as a medium for trying to tell my stories, and I don't think I realised that until recently.

All my RPG stuff goes to a sideblog because I wanted to build up a brand for it. But I'm realising nowadays that it's going there because I don't really care. I enjoy RPGs as gameplay and group storytelling, but I find them a chore to run or make or write.

Idk. It's something I'd built some of myself around. I'm feeling like the foundation of my involvement in it is a little rocky.

Is this just burnout from being a forever-GM? Idk. Maybe I need time to reassess what I want to get out of RPGs.

#personal #rambling #it's late and I just had this thought

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queerbrujas · 3 years

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#honestly I'm feeling so Done with fandom lately #even aside from Drama and Discourse and bullshit I just feel... tired #I have limited amount of energy to spend on things that upset me and all of that goes to things I HAVE to deal with irl #lately I just come on tumblr for five minutes at a time to queue posts and that's it #it's not sparking joy—I think I finally reached that point #(it's been a long time coming)#I still want to write and I will keep writing and posting because that does bring me joy #and reading and commenting on ao3 #but on here? even talking about the characters wears me out #I guess it's a combination of being burnt out on the material (I've been in this fandom since fucking June last year)#and just... *vaguely gestures at the general state of the fandom*#idk idk I have to reassess what I enjoy #and I have been #I'm just gonna stick to writing for now #(I will say this feeling has definitely helped me find other sources of motivation for my writing #rather than relying on getting validation via notes)#(I write for me or for my friends or for a person who left me an extremely sweet comment on a months old fic)#idk there are many of you I appreciate I'm just feeling very tired #if you read this whole thing I'm sorry lmao #early morning rambles with silvia #silvia.txt

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beomglocks · 3 years

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Mtl likely to date outside of their race?

i might’ve done this before but let’s reassess

yeonjun

i feel like he’s the most open minded when it comes to dating. maybe the people around him are skeptical of his dating choices but does he mind? hell no. he likes what he likes! plus he’s fluent in english so he can communicate with practically anyone he would potentially like “i don’t got no type, bad bitches is the only thing that i like 😌”

taehyun

2nd most open minded. if you can speak korean that’s a plus but honestly i don’t think he minds too much abt who he dates. likes to learn so i feel like him dating outside of Korea would give him the chance to study more English so it’s a bonus for him

beomgyu

would have fun dating other races. i think he would enjoy it a lot. even tho i don’t 100% think he would date outside his race i feel like he would try it once or twice and have good experiences so it’s not like he’s opposed to it<

hueningkai

would prefer his own race but like beomgyu, isnt opposed to other races. if he does have a good experience w someone who isnt korean i could see him venturing out more but mainly sticks to his race

soobin

idk why he’s last. im not saying he’s close minded but (and i think i said this before) he could be intimidated by other cultures. maybe not intimidated but i feel like a lot of things would be a major culture shock for him. he would probably just prefer to stick to what he knows.

#gyu’s corner #txt imagines #txt scenarios #txt reactions #drabble #yeonjun imagines #fluff #soobin imagines #beomgyu imagines #hueningkai imagines #taehyun imagines #yeonjun headcanons #txt headcanons #soobin headcanons #beomgyu headcanons #hueningkai headcanons #taehyun headcanons #mtl txt

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feliix · 3 years

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like this ↠ han jisung (18+)

↠ Jisung x Reader ↠ genre: smut, fluff, established relationship!au ↠ rating: m ↠ word count: 2.6k ↠ summary: being stuck in quarrantine with your boyfriend seems all fun and games until you’re in need of an attitude adjustment, and Jisung is sure to it give you. ↠ warnings: explicit sexual content, dom!jisung, sub!reader, dirty talk, thigh riding, praise kink, nipple play (like a lot of it too idk?), teasing, overstimulation, aftercare ↠ a/n: I don’t even know how this happened it was supposed to be a drabble but I got carried away, enjoy!

After a long day of doing absolutely nothing, it's finally bedtime. Normally it would be nice to snuggle up next to your significant other before blissfully drifting off to sleep – but this time is different. Today was absolutely exhausting. Maybe exhausting is a bit too harsh to describe it – but Jisung was in one of those moods today that entailed him being excessively bothersome, and that’s enough to deal with on its own.

Being cooped up in your tiny shared apartment is nothing short of tiring. You love Jisung, yes, but spending every waking second with someone constantly for weeks on end is finally getting to you. This routine where you wake up together, go to virtual work next to each other, eat together, and then go to bed together is getting old real fast.

Today in particular drove you over the edge. The longer the day went on, the worse his antics became. His teasing ways only grew more and more irritating; it was to the point where Jisung kept doing things for the mere sake of pissing you off. It’s become his only source of entertainment in your tiny space. He kept saying or doing things that bothered you just enough to warrant a dirty look from you, but nothing was ever enough for you to stay angry over. But that only lasted so long. Jisung is nothing light of an instigator; being cooped up in your apartment together for days on end only makes it worse.

And once you crawled into bed tonight you were sure that these instigating antics of his would fade away, but there must’ve been something in the air tonight.

Now he’s cuddled up against your back, which would have been nice on any normal occasion. Except for this time his slender fingers are terrorizing your sides by jabbing you between the ribs every now and again.

“Knock it off,” you huff, swatting your hand back at him to stop. Yet, he remains pressed up against your back, squeezing you tighter his arms. Because of your positioning, you’re unable to see the amused look that's currently spreading across his face. Your annoyance only entices him to do it again, seeing how far he could get before you snap.

“Knock what off?”

You can practically hear the smile in his voice, which only annoyed you further that he’s finding amusement in your misery.

“Stop poking me,” you sigh as you do your best to wiggle out of his grip. Sleeping on the opposite side of the bed from Jisung is never as comfortable, but at this point you were desperate. Thank god you have a king-sized mattress.

“Y/N,” he whines as a pout forms on his face at the loss of contact, “I just wanna cuddle.”

But soon his arms are stretching back out and his top leg is wrapping over your body, pulling you back into him. An annoyed sigh leaves your lips as you surrender.

Trapped between all four of his limbs, you let out a forced sigh, biting your tongue to stop yourself from lashing out. You’d already gone through the entire day without an argument – there’s no use in starting one now. After living together this long he can tell the intentions behind the sounds of your breath, and now he was feeling kind of bad for bothering you. This sigh in particular was filled with annoyance, so much so that you weren’t able to respond to him with a coherent thought.

He does his best to make it up to you, kissing the nape of your neck sweetly before nuzzling into your back again. You notice the grip of his legs loosening around you, slowly allowing yourself to get comfortable again.

“I just miss you, Y/N.”

“We’re together all the time, Jisung.”

“That’s not what I mean,” he says matter-of-factly. Without a spare breath, his lips begin trailing up your neck, leading to your cheek and then landing on your ear before whispering, “I miss you.”

The low, gravelly tone in his voice makes a knot tighten in your stomach. Your mouth waters as your core begins to ache, understanding the intentions behind his words. “Y-you do?” You swallow thickly, eyes opening to stare at the wall in front of you as you wait for his next move.

“Mmhm,” He asks while his fingers begin to graze against the bottom of your shirt, tracing small circles on the material before pushing it aside and sliding his hand underneath. Goosebumps quickly cover your skin at the cold sensation of his fingertips meeting your stomach. His small ministrations against your smooth skin have you chasing after your own breath; more and more arousal begins to flood between your thighs by the second, “Do you miss me?”

“Y-yes,” you gulp back harshly, voice hanging on for dear life when his fingers make their way up to your torso, landing on one of your nipples. A satisfied hum leaves his lips as he squeezes the hardened bud between his fingers. You keen at his touch, your body quickly spasming as the pool of arousal between your thighs grows.

“I don’t like the attitude you’ve been giving me lately,” he whispers in your ear causing a shiver to travel your spine at the feeling of his hot breath fanning onto your cheek.

“I-I haven’t.”

You’re being honest, or so you believe in your own perspective. But Jisung has noticed how short your fuse has been ever since you’d started working from home. So, in Jisung nature, he retaliates in the only way he knows how; to be as big of an instigator as humanly possible. Anything he could do to push your buttons, he will do. That’s always been his way of getting back at you for your bad attitude. Unfortunately, you just kept on like normal, thinking it’s nothing but all the time you’ve spent together. Man, are you dead wrong.

“I don’t think so,” he pinches your nipple harder this time. Instinctively, your back arches in pleasure in reaction to his tough, flinching, and then relaxing as he soothes the area afterward.

“You don’t?”

“Nope,” he confirms, quickly grabbing you by the waist to flip you over. It catches you off guard, losing your breath in the heat of the moment as your back meets the mattress. Your eyes meet his as he hovers above you, and it doesn’t take very long for you to notice the dark and lustful look that’s taken over.

In an instant your lips chase after his, begging for more contact as desire fills your veins. His lips meet yours in a heated kiss; his tongue quickly darts out to tease the entrance of your mouth. But just this isn't enough for you, you want more – need more. It's hard to ignore the arousal soaking through your underwear, all you want is to satisfy your needs. No matter what you have to do to make things up to him.

Swiftly, his hands loop under the sides of your panties, ripping them off of your body by tearing them straight down the middle and tossing them across the bedroom. Your immediate reaction is to scold him for ruining a completely good pair of underwear – but once you see the dark look in his eyes you know that's no longer a good idea.

When his fingers reach for your cunt a smug smile spreads across his face. He’s pleased with how aroused you are already, just from him teasing your nipples for a few short minutes. “You wanna make it up to me?” His eyebrow quirks pompously following his question.

“H-how?”

Slowly, Jisung shifts up on the bed, propping himself up against the headboard to sit upright. You give him a confused look before he responds by patting his thigh, telling you to hop on.

Eyes widening in response to his action you instinctively shuffle towards him on the bed, bringing yourself up to your knees before staring directly at his hand over his thigh. You glace up at him once more, reassessing the situation to get another non-verbal confirmation of what exactly he wants.

With an encouraging nod of his head and lift to his brow, he’s motioning to his thigh again – except this time is different. His slender fingers grip around the fabric of his shorts, dragging them slowly upwards to expose the muscle underneath. Jisung’s hand remains on his leg, squeezing his muscular thigh to entice you as your mouth waters in amazement.

“I’m getting impatient,” his stern tone breaks you out of the trance you’re in. Shaking your head you return back to your current state, realizing how tight you’re squeezing your legs together right now.

Without making Jisung wait any longer, you scoot closer to him, slowly moving onto him by enclosing each of your legs on either side of his thigh. You sink down onto him gently, the feeling of his bare skin under you already sending another rush of arousal to your core.

Your eyes lock with his before you make any more movements, waiting for him to give you the cue to go, even though you have such a strong urge to start going. His pupils are blown out and dark, filled with desire as he admires your vulnerable state before him.

With one swift movement, his hands grip the sides of your waist, looking up into your eyes to watch your every reaction. You let him take control of you as he begins to guide your actions, shifting you forward ever so slightly on his muscular thigh. Instantly you shudder at the feeling; the sensation is foreign, unlike anything you’d done before. But you’re focused on obeying him – now that your head is buzzing with lust you’re too

“Like this,” he coaxes you as he sways your body back and forth a few times, hands still tight on your hips. The arousal pooling from your core makes it easy for you to glide back and forth on him. Your breath catches as your clit drifts over his muscular thigh, quickly stammering to hold yourself up by placing your hands on his shoulders.

“Feels good?”

An amused look is prevalent on Jisung’s face, eyes narrowed while a cocky grin lines his lips. You’re quick to respond with a nod, not trusting your voice as you’re still out of breath and shaky. Jisung takes this as an opportunity to ease up on the grip his hands have on you; he’s signaling for you to do it on your own now. For more support you move your hands to his chest, flattening your palms against him to give yourself an easier way to move.

Your legs buckle the second you begin grinding yourself on his thigh. A moan escapes your lips as your arousal coats his thigh, clenching tighter to get more friction to satisfy you. “Like this?” You’re able to choke out while your pace picks up. You’ve begun rocking forward slightly to give extra stimulation to your clit, pushing yourself closer to his chest each time. But with you shoving your chest so close to his face, he can’t help but reach out and knead them over your t-shirt.

Jisung’s hands quickly scramble to the bottom of the shirt, lifting it off your body in one swift motion. He’s careful not to disrupt you in the process. Once the garment is removed and flung somewhere to the side he reaches back out for you, his palms finding your bare breasts. He cups them gently, swirling his fingers so that his thumbs circles your nipples with every stroke.

Your head rolls back with the added pleasure, orgasm building faster with each rock of your hips. Goosebumps trail close behind as his hands travel down your body, finally settling on your hips. Your eyes screw shut in bliss as he flexes his thigh, the ridges formed by his muscles adding the needed friction under you.

The surface of his thigh becomes even more slippery as you continue to ride him – it’s your essence that's covering every inch. The slick surface makes it easier for you to move against him; pleasure overtaking your senses as you grind harder into his tensed muscles.

“Doing so well for me Angel,” his voice is raspy, yet comforting. His praise has you keening into him, only wanting to move faster to hear him compliment you more. As you open your mouth to speak a desperate whine escapes. It’s not what you intended to do but Jisung is still satisfied, smirking at your needy squeal as you get yourself off on his leg.

Your eyes slam shut as you try to focus on your movements. The growing ache in your knees is slowly beginning to tire you out, but you can’t stop now. You’re so close.

“I’m so tired,” you whine, frustration laced through each word you exhale deeply. Your movements begin to slow in fatigue; It feels like you’ve been at this forever. Whatever you’re doing just isn’t enough to reach your peak.

Hot tears prick in the corners of your eyes as you feel your high starting to slip away. You’ve already worked hard enough, building up a sweat and painful throb in your core begging for release. But Jisung can see the agony written all over your face, and he knows you well enough by now to leave you to suffer alone.

“Hey it’s okay, just a little longer baby,” he comforts you as grip on your waist tightens once again, “you’re doing so good.” Following his praise he begins to guide your movements once again, rocking you back and forth on his leg with the strength of his arms. Relief sets in as Jisung takes control, finally easing up your stress and allowing yourself to focus on your high.

He coerces your body over his toned muscles, your clit catching on every crease with each glide of your hips. And if his help wasn't enough, his body soon begins to lean forwards, pulling you towards him as his lips catch you in a heated kiss.

A steep groan leaves your lips as his teeth catch your bottom lip between them. Soon his lips are leaving yours, trailing kisses across your cheek and down your neck. You know where he’s heading – the extra sensitive spot just above your collarbone he knows all too well.

Jisung’s lips attach to your skin, sucking harshly on the area before stroking his tongue over the sensitive skin. The familiar band in your stomach is tightening once again, begging to snap with just a little more stimulation. It’s hard to catch your breath now; the overstimulation from the rock of your hips and his mouth sucking dark marks onto your neck is enough to send you over the edge.

Your body collapses as a sharp moan leaves your throat. Bliss overtakes you as your body falls into Jisung, his arms wrapping around you to hold you close. Your orgasm overtakes all of your senses as you impulsively shake with each spasm of your wall. Luckily Jisung is there to aid you through your high. His toned arms hold your tired body while you recover, peppering gentle kisses along your cheek while whispering praises in your ear.

As your shaking begins to subside Jisung helps you maneuver off of his leg. He’s gentle to lay you down beside him – moving the pillow so it supports your head just right. You’re in bliss as his arms cradle your exhausted body, feeling like you could fall asleep right here. The subtle sounds of his breath comfort you, closing your eyes as you relax back into his arms.

Maybe you’ll think twice before giving him an attitude again.

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