#idk idk idk but i need to change smth LOL

[stupidrant]

i think the most we will get is PC release (if that) this year but that means we gotta deal with those trolls bc changing angrb0da’s skin color is such a big deal to these mfs and i still dont understand that sweet baby inc shit bcuz all the information im seeing is just bundled bullshit LMFAOOO i feel like her actual character gets overshadowed by the made up problems and no one actually talks abt HER as a character or even analyses her fr (outside of here ofc) lol sms abt to make a banger with her and atreus istg

#Truth be told i dont even wanna talk abt this anymore but this topic gets brought up pretty much every week atp #How weird is it that u would only accept her if she were white #Thats literally you admitting you like her character but her being black is a deal breaker #I feel like no matter how much they want her to be a white girl changing her skin wouldnt change their opinion abt her #Theres this one (big) acct in particular thats constantly shitting on rag and its like bro u need to just leave if ur not happy #or take a long ass break and come back at times and then leave again cuz hes just miserable as fuck and yall know exactly who im talking ab #I do see more people getting annoyed with this topic and i dont blame them #its getting super out of hand and dragged out atp #Once again i do not want ppl to like her out of PITY. she deserves a very honest group of fans and if those fans are ppl #That disliked her at first but started to like her later on thats fine as long as its out of being genuine #I cannot wait for her to gain more fans fr but i have to be careful what i wish for bcuz i dont want ppl to become too crazy lol #I might just post smth on that god forsaken reddit as an appreciation post of her or smth idk yet LMFAOOO #I for sure will have to be more brave and visible with my love for her one of these days #also very grateful for that one ragnarok vp. he loves angie for sure #Anyways #Love angie for life #Gow #god of war ragnarok #rant

[reinabeestudio]

Tfw the wind blows your hat away AGAIN and you gotta go find it in the middle of a blizzard atop a mountain by yourself

#pokepasta #snow on mt silver #fnf #friday night funkin #hypno's lullaby #fan art #my art #frozen red #sorry for the dumbass text AHAHAHJSBDFHJ i had to do it #chachalaco ramble incoming. you've been warned -> #trying to figure out this Red so he doesn't look like Glitchy lol #And I wondered. maybe hair looks a bit more disheveled?? #since i already apply the hc of longer hair to Glitchy (but perhaps shorter ends idk) #so maybe frozen Red also has longer hair but not as much. maybe he needs a comb /j #im still giving that jacket to him btw why tf is he wearing no warm clothes up THERE!!!! #i was just thinkin about this guy for a bit... like. 3 years on a freezing mountain?? by yourself?? #ik this is the pokepasta one so he just. Dies AJKNFDJKS #but idk man that utter isolation must had affected him in some way. Isn't he tired? Physically I mean. But i guess mentally too #as someone that went thru smth similar (isolation not. climbing a mountain and being there for 3 years(???). Such an experience changes you #For a very long time. sometimes even forever. it takes time to be social again and get used to people #(although in my case was 4 years not 3. not relevant tho AHAHAHJDS) #isn't that crazy too. you climb this mountain in johto and some 20 year old is already there--oh shit what the fuck the kanto champion #these thoughts can be applied to canon Red too i guess🤔 (excluding the uh. dying in mt silver part AHAHAHJDSBFHJ) #it's JUST!!! -shakes this man- for heaven's sake stop isolating yourself holy shit it's worrying #Also add the fact he's probably famous in some way right?? or at least Known. guy became Champion at a rather young age #I mean no wonder he barely talks when he's present in other games. I know its for the ''haha silent protagonist'' joke but. HMMMMMM #maybe I can self-project /lh. a silent guy that mostly communicates thru short sounds or gestures (like a nod or shaking his head) #and only actually talks when he's more comfortable with whoever is talking to him. mostly short sentence but he opens up a bit more #Oh god I went fucking. Thesis Mode on Red i'm so sorry AHAHJDSFHJDS

[selkiecoded]

to meee :3 akechi and sumire arent exactly friends throughout january, (they only get really close several years later) but as a side effect of neither having anything better to do and the two constantly haunting kichijoji i think they inevitably fall together more often than not. ren takes sumire out for darts and shes weirdly better than she was last time (sidebar but the fact that sumire and akechi both mimic your throws but sumire sucks shit at darts too much for it to do any good is so cute) and shes like oh yeah akechi-san has been teaching me. oh wow i got a forty! unaware of the way she just blew rens mind.

#the clock chimes at midnight #its not all about you ren!!!!! #sidebar to the sidebar. of course sumire imitates your dart throws. of course. #again theyre too busy fighting for their respective lives in the time loop to actually become friends in january #but i do think in the years before meeting again they think of the time with fond bittersweetness of what couldve been. #theyre not really going out together but more mutually keeping each other company lol. its generally a pretty quiet affair. #sumire doesnt really ask him for advice as she puts herself back together (he tends to get acerbic if she tries) #but he can be a pretty decent sounding board for either really simple (red or blue glasses) #or really philosophical (do you think my time as kasumi irrevocably changed who i am and if so am i still sumire) questions. #he does not tell her anything concrete about why the other thieves are so tense with him and she doesnt ask outright #but she able to glean a bit more about him through these discussions. and sadly for both of them they both actually sort of like each other #they get food. play darts. practice mementos on their own a few times (THEY GET A SHOWTIME STOP LYING TO ME!!). #and i sort of think akechi smokes either hes always done it or very recently picked it up now that he no longer needs to be personable #and sumires like well. im going to remain myself but i still want to do smth self-destructive. smoke me up man. #(also all her clothes smell like kasumi and its freaking her out. she doesnt mind smelling bad if itll distinguish her.) #idk. akesumi smiles gently.

[plinkcat-gif]

when i voice my discomfort brought on by something related to my neurodivergency (overstimulation, headache brought on by specific thing) or my allergies i need everyone to understand that it’s either relatable or funny

#i’m so sick of one of my friends being like ‘oooh i’m so sorry man :(‘ like idk me too. but i live with it every day idc anymore #like i am very self aware. i know what’s happening to me and why and i don’t need pity for it i need to make light of it #it’s just like ok. how do i even respond to that #i think i would appreciate more like ’ouch dude. smth similar happens to me when’ or like #‘damn that sucks. that’s so fucking funny that your body does that tho lol’ #this person is also like a huge people pleaser tho lol. a lot of their behaviors irk me #like we’re still besties it won’t change that and i have voiced my frustrations with them but they’re not bad enough to impact our rship at #all lol #OK. that’s all

[vampfucker666]

i was thinking feb was maybe a weird mood fluke cause i felt p good this weekend. Unfortunately i am back on my #grindset (laying down the entire day doing fuck all not even engaging in hobbies and either mindlessly eating or eating as little as i can stand) man i got seashells i have to clean.

#idk if i need to take more or less pills lol #im waffling on changing my sertraline out for smth else cause i do like the umm #anger regulation? lol. truly did not realise how much i needed that #unfortunately without my little brain explosion moments the only other thing i have going in is staring off into soace so #<- it was like this pre ssris i just had The Rage on top of it

[seagullcharmer]

gosh. drawing my botw lorule au again. i love my versions of these characters so much

#libra.txt #is it just because i gave pre-calamity ravio a ponytail? maybe #also need to draw reference images of ghirahim's sword form....... #also also need to like. actually write it. lol </3 #I HAVE IDEAS. I'M JUST BAD AT COMMUNICATING THEM. #also reference images for the divine beasts.... those'll be fun...? #like idk how in-depth i'll go for exploring the divine beasts #but it could be some interesting concepts #since like. one is a terrapin. one is a snake. #i haven't fully decided on the other two yet #i need to figure out what would fit thematically #'libra how does a terrain correlate at all' #Well You See. turtle rock or whatever. from albw + alttp #it was swampy or smth right #well instead of gerudo desert this lorule has a swamp. #look i've connected the dots (i haven't connected anything) #also the snake is subject to change #i'm trying to think of what would work for tunnels #moles would be both too obvious (it's in mogma territory) and too clumsy #but snakes.... could be fun. #think of the segmented body the divine beast could have! #need to think abt the zora in lorule..... think it might go back toward river zora designs like in albw #instead of the more sharklike ones in botw #hmmmm much to think about!! #i love rotating world building concepts around #it's just going to be hard designing major npcs #having thief girl become a major character is difficult enough #still don't actually have a name for her.

[sylphwing]

it's kinda like this 🤔

#txt #scribbles #this is related to the poll btw but also a lil off-topic lol #idk i literally feel like. my consciousness is floating above me smtimes #and when ppl r talking to me they're not talking to me they're talking to my body. which isn't me it's just the vessel #which i think obviously impacts my perception of my own gender as smth that's seperate to me #like u can't choose ur body but that's the only part of u that ppl can see. u can't typically change how ppl will view that #which can b upsetting #but i don't fault anyone for viewing me as a woman either #i don't rlly make personal posts but i figured it's my blog so i'll just do wht i want lol #ideally i would have lil alien antenna that i would put on ppls head and communicate that way sksk #like a weird alien bug #there's two versions bc the first imp is how i draw myself and the second version is closer to how it is. it's just air kdjfkd #ANYWAY to conclude: i think i just need to buy one of those hats that says “my eyes r up here” w an arrow pointing upwards

[fox-guardian]

whata up with the time travel fic?

that's a very good question! *walks off stage*

#fg's answers #asks #listen. listen. things have happened in the nebulous outline i have in my brain void for this fic #in short it needs to be rewritten. not that much was written. idk maybe ill leave it #but ultimately. Ultimately. i am not primarily a writer. idk if y'all noticed. #i dont wanna put out a few chapters and then leave people hanging when i have a long fic planned #however. i also dont write very often. perhaps you see my dilemma #if i ever post the fic. YAY! but also if i don't. apologies for having hyped it up so much alsjaksjsk #also if this comes off as annoyed or smth thats my bad. im not upset im just Very Sleepy and am about to go to sleep lol so i might be Off #might change my blog header about it idk what id make it tho #edit: realizing this person may not actually know What The Fic Is. hm. #in that case: BASICALLY i had a fic idea back in 2020 made a couple comics about it said id write it #and then Never Finished It. or posted any chapters anywhere. #its at like 30k words now and it's barely started. idk if thats good or not. #anyway thats proof of how sleeby i am gn

[chaoticgremlinbrainspace]

was going insane at a friend last night now I need to research transness in the 70s and all that fun stuff so I can be fully unhinged and maybe actually write smth for once instead of being haunted by visions

#grem screams #I love history #I love reading and learning about the past and the people #I love seeing the way things have changed the way things reflect and parallel and diverge #I also just really like queer history #I love learning about the ways people existed and shit #idk theres just smth so cool about people in spaces that aren't really talked about in regular history classes and like learning about them #I might be a lil cringe boy art student who cant help but romanticize shit because hes full of feelings but idk it got me feeling #sometime of way #idk lately ive been feeling like I cant quite find the words to describe what I am I just know I am what I am #and that often people just get it or they dont lol #ngl this all started off as me vague posting about wanting to write a trans genda scout from tf2 fic and getting wya too invested in how #that would work logically bc it needs to be accurate #it needs to be a journey!!! #and I want it to be in charater #but im also a lil bitch for angst lmao #im also a nerd lmaooo that and its hard for me to write things dow n with out it sounding wrong or just not right you know? #it feels wholly too earnest and cheesy to my own ears and it makes me shrivel up like a popcorn left in the oven #uh anyway I think trans scout is neat actually and I would love to see more explorations into it guess im gonna attempt to be the change I #wanna see in the world lmao #idk hes just so easy to grab and dunk into the #world is fuck being different is hard give 200 dollars sauce you know? #veeerrrry easy to project onto the trans angst is he is like sponge and I am a vicious liquid #and he has daddy issues lmao apparently arcording to my very small sampling size that tends to happen side by side #and idk I think it would make sense for scout to just straight up not know a lot of shit he gives #me when I was in middle school and I thought it was funny to trick people into thinking I was a guy even tho I was totally a girl /sarcasm #he gives deep in the denial sauce but also totally extremely uncomfy when people find out and getting unreasonably happy when hes called si #but ahahaha nooo im totally a girl haha and just feeling more awkward now #lmao #sorry for the rambling lmao idk if this is accurate for his charater I do think him being trans could be a fun thing to just explore and sh

[devilishdelights]

ok I need to know everyone’s headcanons on the characters heights please 🙆🏼

u can put it in comments, tags or my ask box

#obey me #I need to know so I feel justified in my own headcanons. I’ll put mine here but they r subject to change #Lucifer - 6’1 or 6’0 #mammon - 5’10 or 5’11 #Levi - 6’0 with the worst slouch and posture ever. but maybe 5’11 and mams can be 5’10. Levi is taller than Mams (real and canon) #don’t fact check that I’m right just trust me btw #satan is like um m. see they all feel like they’re five feet. 5’11 or 6’0 #asmo 5’10 #beel 6’4 (the only one I’m confident on) #belphie 5’8 or 5’6. subverting the youngest sibling is the tallest sibling stereotype #dia can be 6’2. simeon 5’10. solomon 5’10 ???? idk. 5’11? #see I’m just giving them all the same height. I just can’t imagine them any taller except for beel dia and lu #thirteen 5’7 #idfk abt Luke man idk kid heights like. 3 ft or smth. lol #meph…… can be.. 6’1……. idk. No. he’s 6’0. he’s six ft tho for sure. #Raphael idk. 5’9.

[astrxealis]

do any of u wna add me on steam :] just ask for my yeah there <3

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #i can't friend ppl yet i need to spent like 3 more dollars LOL #the only reason why i got that bundle + the soundtrack is bcs SALE !! and bcs i asked my mom #but i uh apparently don't really have to. kinda. oops. sorry idk how to handle money!! #but now i wna shop more. not rn i wna do hw or smth but !!!!! #EDITED THIS POST bcs i forgor i changed my custom url

[piplupod]

the urge to change my name and make a new account to have a fresh clean slate is so big off and on lately djfjkl idk why

i would miss friends and mutuals though and followers i see in my activity feed so i won't do that but like. i kind of wish i could like. not be held down so much by how i feel ppl perceive me, i want to say things or do things that would be considered "out of character" bc i have a lot of shifts going on in brain rn (like things are shuffling around and being re-organized almost?) and i just want to be able to let myself exist without feeling like i need to be consistent fdsfjkl

idk if that makes sense. i probably won't be posting anything to do with that here until its more concrete and i can slowly shift towards that instead of the current state of being, but also i really wish i could share the cool things i'm realizing or piecing together or thinking about, but i just feel like it would be weird or cringe or whatever. but god i feel like this might be really healthy finally and i might be able to like,,, not be literally constantly running shame and suicide in the background of my brain, those might be able to shut down for a bit which would be so nice

#idk fhsdgjkl this doesnt make sense probably but im just #things are changing in brain finally i think and im able to explore it a bit better and learn to work with it #this brain is definitely not anywhere near normal or average which. makes sense. traumatized child setting things up for life and- #-then add dissociative disorder on top of that and all the egostates or whatever not coming together like theyre supposed to and now #you've got scattered pieces all across the board #also i think there IS an inner world more than what i've realized but i've been unable to see it properly or access it bc of my- #frankly insane amounts of shame. like it would've been extremely distressing for me to realize i had that before now #it is still a little scary and distressing which is why i can't like. access it still but i have been feeling glimpses of it #maybe im making this all up idk but... it doesnt feel like when i make things up fdsjkl it feels like when theres smth true that- #-i dont want to acknowledge is true. like im trying to shove it away and pretend it doesnt exist bc im ashamed and feel cringe #but it isn't going away so. i would like to try to work with it #and just let myself be curious instead of ashamed #maybe i'll post on our system sideblog about things idk fsgjkl it feels too public here but i DO want to share bc its interesting- #-and god knows i can't journal for the life of me (there is... trauma around that) so dsgjkl maybe that would work best #okay cool i'll stop rambling about DID and brain stuff bc ppl will think im being weird probably fshdfjkl thats why i never talk about it- #-here bc i know its seen as ''cringe'' to have this disorder and its weird and strange and not normal #which yknow. it isn't normal. it is a bit strange. but thats trauma babeyyy lmao #but i just . dont want ppl to think badly of me. unfortunately the others in system dont think that way and dont care so they post here LOL #SO much more than i post about things which is totally fair and i'm not going to get upset at them bc i DO need to work thru this shame #its unhealthy for me and also it can be harmful for OTHER pwDID/systems if im being embarrassed about having this disorder #okay im done now for real HDHGJKL sorry abt the ramble #pippen needs 2nd breakfast #delete later probably

[onepiexe]

what dah hell

#logbook #dn was kind of rude while gci is being very nice to me. . .actually terrified LOL #im going to sit in my car for another 5 min and then walk back inside. just decided to eat lunch out here. #i redid all the front tables and spruced up some of the display and found more signage to store andddd consolidated one table under canopy #debating if i go thru trees today or tmrw. so its shrubs today or tmrw. #ORRRR i mess with the display some more. add more mums change up how it looks etc. #md never got back with me on what 'boss of his boss' said. ik who that boss is tho ive never met him. #if he said sure get rid of it i'll do it tmrw. if not idk what im going to do. . .need to go thru smth. i'm going to explode. #i may get so bored i start asking every person who comes thru if they want plants LOL #in other news im wesring my drink water frogs shirt with my dead insidr but still screaming possum shirt.

[orcelito]

I'm almost 60 hours into tales of arise and I'm realizing that endgame is. Not that far away, honestly

How am I supposed to go through with this 😭😭😭😭😭 I don't want it to end

#speculation nation #i use fandom to cope with my fav things being over #but i cant do that if there's barely any fandom 😭😭😭😭 #& yea i can always make things myself #and believe me im fuckin thinking about it #it's just like. i met Dohalim a *week* ago and it's been a blissful week #but it has to end at some point. and Soon if i keep up the pace ive had #60 hours in a week and a half god Damn #my brain chemistry has been permanently changed by this game and more specifically this character #i wanna explore many more maps of wildlands and jump off waterfalls to make my friends scream #genuinely. i might end up just doing a NG+ or smth bc there is still so much more i want to do #im level 44 now. those temple things are level 60 ish. past that... idk. #i wish there was more story through all the different areas. so i wouldnt just go through a place then be done with it. #i know it's a story of liberation. we're on a war path & we're taking it right to the heart. #but. but i want to see more of them all 😭 i miss them already and im not even done with them. #i need to not drop the game completely (as ive done b4 when not wanting a game to end...) but hfkshfjd #i still have a lot left to do for the training grounds too..... hfbjdhdkdbfkd #i want them to plop another 15 giant enemies down in front of me. PLEASE #ive already killed like 15 lol and i love how much stronger it makes me. #i looooooove big enemy hunting for Real #from what i know there are only 4 ish left. just bc they were too strong for me at the time. #& yea i was contemplating continuing my replay of xillia and xillia 2 but FUCK the environment of arise is just so so good #it's so BEAUTIFUL like everywhere you go. none of the other tales games compare tbh #and of course. dohalim. none of the other games have dohalim in them. #oh the grief of blazing through something way too fast 😭😭😭😭😭😭 i shouldve stopped to smell the roses... #i think im going to do that with my next game tho. which yea im like very much gonna play another game i think. #i cant just leave it at this. no way. not after only a WEEK #tho i'll chill it some on my replay lol. no need to blaze thru it the 2nd time. which hopefully will free my brain for other things #namely. writing lol. we'll see...

[chisatowo]

How does Hagumi manage to have so much transmasc swag and transfem swag at the same time. I mean it's the various layers of gender issues but yknow

#rat rambles #band posting #I personally am a transfem hagumi believer but transmasc hagumis are also so pog #I do see some ppl misenterpret her relationship with presenting femininly though which is unfortunate but eh #anyways I am simply thinking abt hagumi very hard she is the world's most specialist little guy #and abt bandori in general mostly abt the 6th anniversary update #I am so SO excited for it still but also nervous but also excited #bndori is generally pretty good abt resolving character stuff and sticking with arcs so Im hopeful they wont just completely fuck shit up #despite what some may believe bndori is in fact well written usually lol #I mostly care abt what they do with pasupare though since it feels like theyve been building up to smth with them for a while now #as Ive said before I rly rly want them to go independant but idk if that would be too big a change or not #tbf though most of them graduating is itself a big change and itd make a lot of sense with their 3rd band story so Im holding onto hope #also I just need it for chisato's sake gkgndkrg #anyways I wonder how hagumi will handle kaoru and kanon graduating #I doubt itll be too badly but I could see it potentially rubbinh against her anxiety depending on how much it effects tgeir timr together #tbh Im just a lil curious abt how much theyll bring up how the bandmates of the graduating ppl feel #jusr more fun stuff they can cover in future events ig vkgnfh

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

actually. changing my answer to that last post so it's JUST the record player song. that song is so fucking. oughghghghhh you wanna understand me as a person listen to the record player son g by daisy the great

#dyed my hair blue it came out a seasick sort of green << points @ early 2021 mav #mac* #i pretend i scraped em climbing in the trees << when ppl r like lol what happened to ur hands #and im like lol it was smth at work/playing w my dog dw abt it #sometimes i think that all im ever doing is trying to convince myself im alive #uhm #im just crying for attention <33 #wish id been a teenage rebel/never even got detention #i dont really love you i just said that for a change of pace LMAO #sometimes i dont recognize my face << its called Being Trans and Not Knowing It For Years #im just like. listin g literally all of the lyrics but. man #its literally just. hhhhhhhhhh #good fucking song #i need a dictionary someone look me up and define me #please remind me who im supposed to be around you << cough cough controlling abusive friendships be like #IM ALWAYS WINNING THE WRONG GAME << HAS THE WORST LUCK IN THE WORLD #BUT ITS NEVER ENOUGH TO CAUSE SERIOUS CONSEQUENCES SO THAT ILL GET A BREAK. SO TECHNICALLY IM '''WINNING'' BUT I DONT WANNA BEBE #AUGHGHHH shaking this song #delete later #pronablyyyyy idk