#idk if anyone can relate or not but

[wyrmswears]

bit of a ninjago art dump! happy 13th birthday ninjago :D

jayyyy (and cole)

source dragons designs for a small au

#ninjago dragons rising #ninjago dragons rising spoilers #ninjago #cole ninjago #jay ninjago #i love when people make lightning and wind related elements.. sorry idc if its not canon its for an au anyway B] #honestly idk if anyone cares about source dragon designs but ninjagos dragon designs r never diverse enough for me #so i made my own👍 #dragons rising spoilers #wyrm draws #ninjago jay #ninjago cole #jay walker #cole brookstone #btw the bruise here is meant to be queerplatonic but u can think of it however u want idc #source dragons #suit jay #cw blood #blood cw

[cherrysnax]

hi so our last post died, and things have gotten kinda worse with the arrival of our other cat, my elder brothers homelessness, and the racial abuse getting hurled my way

we’re two disabled black lesbians trying to navigate employment discrimination and the American healthcare system, and tbh we’re losing. we originally had to split everything between 6 people, but due to my brothers getting evicted, everything we have (and everything we don’t) also goes to them

like last time, I’m still waiting for a doctor but recently they told me to call back in November. I’ve been calling since April. I believe the stress of everything is causing a flare up of something and I have no idea how to manage it, on top of my new seemingly random food sensitivities that keep popping up. I’m exhausted all the time and sometimes can’t even get out of bed.

on a brighter note, my girlfriend applied to five jobs, but their phone was shut off this morning so it’s urgent that they pay their bill.

we were able to get some necessities early last month due to peoples help, but we can’t make it stretch with 8 people. it’s a shitty situation all around and I wish we didn’t have to ask but until my gf can get a job and I can find out exactly what’s wrong with me, this is literally all we have.

I’m not gonna link my PayPal anymore because people are harassing me with my deadname

my cashapp is $silvertheestallion and my gfs is $Peachjammn

my Venmo is cherryadventure2

thank you so much for reading

#this ask isn’t money related but if anyone has fibro or just burning chronic pain can I ask how did you know? I’m trying not to just say #oooh I have this but idk when I look at the symptoms it relates to me. I’ve found help in the fibromyalgia subreddit but I don’t know if it #is it not and I really don’t know if I can get to my doctor #I’ve been in pain for months. and nothing helps long term #and ik I should try and find a differnt doctor but I am trying #and it’s the same radio silence for months only to be told oh try again next month and I feel like going insane #I should prolly make this it’s own post

[theragamuffininitiative]

I don't need a vacation, I need a sabbatical, where I go live in an abbey in switzerland for six months where I read and garden and study and stare at the sky and learn about birds and make some art and write a lot and help feed the nearby village with the garden crops and there are no ads or algorithms or tv shows or fastfood restaurants and I walk into town once a week for phone and internet to check on friends and family and then I go away again and preferably there are cats and goats and those soft brown cows and one shaggy dog and I learn I have a new favorite constellation and type of flower and shade of green.

#ragamusings #anyone else? #had to drive v carefully around a phone-distracted driver on my way home and i wanted to shake him by the shoulders #had someone want a refund from their show bc they didnt like it (we didn't have enough cast members apparently???) #and i watched horrific news unfold #and i'm so angry and tired and frustrated #i took a week-long staycation and only began to feel like myself again on the fifth day #anyways you can reblog this if you relate it's not just a private ramble #but idk if it is relatable or not i just want it deep in my soul #but alas i have no money and sabbaticals cost money ironically #and who would take care of my cats

[nametakensff]

Cannot stop sneezing today and it feels sooo good. Mostly rapid-fire triples that tickle intensely when they build. It's a welcome change from the stubborn stuck sneezes that left me taking matters into my own hands yesterday 😮‍💨

#by that i mean fucking snarling and shoving a hair pin up my nose and getting the tickle out myself #idk if anyone else can relate but if I overheat at night i'm extra sneezy the next day #it either has something to do with dry air or dehydration increasing histamine production #nttalks

[basofy]

god this was so cringey shut up all you've ever seen regarding women has been a smelly rat in the mirror and distorted photoshopped images of women with big boobees you know nothing

#first of all #spoilers #lisa spoilers #sorry for bullying buddy in this fine afternoon i know it's not her fault but i was thinking about this in the kitchen and laughing #but it feels so out of place cuz buddy's relationship with her gender is nowhere near positive she doesnt even know what gender is #she has the same concept of gender and sex as a cat where it's merely reproductive #all she knows is she is different from everyone cuz of her body #she has never talked to another woman in her life she doesnt know history of feminism #and i doubt so much that anyone told her about it when most people were just thinking about her womb #i think the concept of buddy familiarizing with her gender is AWESOME but we never see this happen we dont see the process #imagine if she said this before saying any opinion #as a woman...i can tell you milk goes before the cereal #god feminism is crumbling #why dont you say something you actually know about like #as an abuse victim. or anything that sounds more casual #which is another thing you can relate to lisa with if you care #(idk if she actually knew lisa's lore or was just messing with buzzo lmaoo) #lisa rpg #also as an additional i like nonbinary buddy...she is just buddy #put buddy in a conversation with queen roger and maybe i'll take this line seriously #lisa ramblings

[spacedlexi]

Hi Lexi

What do you think of partially blinded Vi? You never seem to draw her that way, and I kind of just wanted to know what do you think of it as a certified Vi lover.

I personally think that while something like this can be "cool" (as in, being beneficial to the character design), it's handled quite poor for Vi and it just looks a bit... ungrateful. Simply doesn't look good, doesn't fit her personality or character (am I missing something?) and it doesn't seem to fit or suit her...unlike Kenny's iconic eyepatch. To me, it has become a pivotal thing in his design to a degree in which Kenny with both eyes seems a bit odd looking. I see it as a symbol which stands for Ken being a martyr and all he's lost and sacrificed. He is all about family and helping those he loved, his loved ones truly were the "apple of his eye". It all makes sense, doesn't it?

But for Vi, it's excatly the opposite. I'm just so sorry to see her like this. 😭😭😭 I don't think it makes sense in any way. Louis losing his tongue because he's so talkative and "won't shut up" does kind of make sense, but I cant help but see Violet losing sight as kind of lazy writing. "We need something bad happening to her!!! suffer the children!!!'- the writers exclaimed.

i think vi losing her eyesight is incredibly impactful on her character and i honestly dont understand why some people say its lazy writing. especially since it was foreshadowed multiple times. vi losing her eyesight i think is even more impactful on her character than louis losing his tongue because at least louis still has his music to express himself and uplift spirits through (and its not like he cant communicate At All. his note still makes clem laugh). the reason i dont draw blind vi very often is because of how sad it is to me. for multiple reasons

violets whole thing is wanting to be able to protect the people she cares about, and feels immense grief and guilt about the times she feels shes failed them (thinks if she had been there with the twins that day that she couldve done something to save them. feels she failed everyone taken by the raiders. is scared of failing clem too "if something happened to you because of me? i cant lose you too. i wont". its why she cant leave minnie after shooting her. and a kidnapped vi attacks clem because she doesnt want anyone else to get hurt. hell it even ties back to her grandma and feeling guilty about not doing anything for her)

so for her to lose her eyesight? she took pride in her ability to fight and now she cant do that anymore. cant protect the people she loves. and as someone who started the season as an isolated loner, it forces her to rely on those around her for help, stripping her of her independence (and her independence is what allowed her to stand up against the group for clem when it came to the marlon situation in ep2). a blinded vi is forced into accepting community, whereas a saved violet accepts it on her own. her and clem turn ericsons into the home violet could never see it as

the other reason blind vi makes me so sad is that it is Directly a result of clems actions. kidnapped vi had nothing and wanted nothing to do with the bomb, and yet shes the ONLY ONE who gets hurt by it. clem choosing to let vi be taken means clem both breaks her heart, and then burns out her eyes. louis and his tongue is between him and lilly and was a choice THEY each made outside of clems direct influence (even if it was clem who inspired him to speak up, it is ultimately his choice to keep talking, and lilly hurts him for it. its sad he gets punished for a character moment, but clem had no direct hand in him losing his tongue. its why hes not angry to see her in the cell. he doesnt blame clem for what happened), but the way vi is feeling in that cell is DIRECTLY due to clems actions. vi feels like clem abandoned her after she had put herself on the line for her multiple times. she always had clems back but clem didnt have hers. clem is the one who planted the bomb and vi gets caught in the blast. clem hurts her emotionally And physically. and vi apologizes for getting upset (she tries to apologize on the beach too before theyre forced out in the cart, so she felt wrong for those actions immediately even tho they were understandable. lilly and minnie used her moment of weakness to get in her head. she just wanted everyone to be safe)

kidnapped blinded vi is just so incredibly sad to me, especially when you compare her to a fully realized violet. a violet who has come into herself, has confidence, has opened up, has stopped pushing people away out of fear and lets herself love again. shes a leader. a fighter. a protector. and those are all things a blinded violet loses

neither vi losing her eyes or louis losing his tongue is supposed to add anything to their characters. its about what theyve lost. both of them have important parts of their identity stripped away from them after being taken by the delta. its supposed to be sad. heartbreaking. regrettable. unfortunate. they have not gained anything by their time at the delta, only lost important parts of themselves to it

#twdg #like idk to me kennys eyepatch symbolizes his descent into madness. its the impact carver had on him #hes 'lost his sight' hes losing his way. becoming a danger to the people he says he cares about #kenny gets waaaay too much forgiveness in the fandom and i cant take it honestly. his motivations dont justify his actions #i dont hate him but god do i hate the way the fandom talks about him #esp when certain kenny stans ignore all the protagonists and hate all the women/anyone who opposes a protagonists views/actions #EXCEPT for kenny for some reason???? like when he opposes lee its fine but no one else can do it #you cannot deny hes a scary man by the end of s2 regardless of his motivations and people loooooove to handwave it away #i hate that 'family is family' crap #have none of you ever had a family member do something so horrible that you cut them out of your life completely? #HES NOT EVEN BLOOD FAMILY like that idea doesnt even apply here!! #the whole point of that phrase is that you cant choose who youre related to. twdg is LITERALLY about choosing your family #s3 is the one that makes a point to address blood relations and what worth they have #ok unexpected kenny rant over sorry but boy does the overwhelming kenny love get to me sometimes. there are other characters #sorry i hope this doesnt sound directed at you personally its just the overwhelming fan opinion i see and it drives me mad #where is the NUANCE?? #replies with lexi #plamglam

[lord-squiggletits]

Speaking of Tyrest. A lot of people forget that he treated Pharma with absolute disdain, not only using him as a test subject for a clearly painful mass murder machine, but talking to Pharma like he saw him as nothing but some henchman to order around that was nothing more than a 'diseased cripple' if Tyrest hadn't come to rescue him.

Like it really is an interesting background dynamic with some curious implications, but when you look at fandom posts from around that issue/the years after, for some reason people just saw "Pharma worked with Tyrest" and concluded Pharma is a card carrying bigot ksjfnskxkd. Like yeah Pharma didn't do anything to stop Tyrest but it seems his main beef with the Autobots was with Ratchet in particular and maybe a general disdain for his ex-comrades. As well as continuing to hate Decepticons which like, not even the "good Autobots" are immune to (even in Pharma's introduction, First Aid says in his journal something like "yeah we all hate Decepticons, but Pharma REALLY hates them"). And despite what fandom likes to construe there's really no evidence in IDW1 that Autobots and Decepticons are different "races" or "types" of Cybertronians, so Pharma hating Decepticons really isn't a bigotry/robot racism thing. And instead probably has something to do with, idk, the 4 million year long galaxy-spanning blood feud war, or maybe being blackmailed and tortured into insanity by the Biggest and Most Decepticon-y of Decepticons.

Tyrest treated Pharma like trash, the other Decepticons working for Tyrest (how come no one ever brings that up btw) also hated him, so if anything it seems that Pharma was more of a rogue element only staying with Tyrest bc he was his best option and probably had no way to even escape.

I'm glad that at least in recent years the fandom has acquired a keen reading eye and good taste to finally recognize Pharma as the (accidentally) complex character he is instead of making him some posh, racist Starscream clone SHSJDGSGDH

#squiggposting #pharma apologism #yeah i'm apologisting again i guess my mental health is somewhat okay again dkdkkxckkddkd #(my followers seeing me post about pharma) nature is healing #there's also that line where pharma says 'maybe i can help' and skids is like #'fuck off and hope we don't beat you to death after this is over' #they didnt know that pharma was a test subject of the killswitch but wow #that's prolly one of the most out of pocket moments of the story that ive never seen anyone mention #honestly that moment is why i think JRO didnt intend pharma to be That Deep #i feel like that sort of 'not even other autobots like him' treatment is something #that comes up a lot in JRO's villain writing. or like asshole behavior towards some characters #is just plot events proceeding as usual. nothing to see just villains getting their due #tho tbh pharma's character in general suffers from the problem that he's so closely related to a main/major characyer #that it wouldve made way more sense for him to be written in earlier #so all his connections w/ ratchet and the plot had to be established retroactively #also speaking of 'asshole behavior excused bc it's towards a villain' #all those times when people are like (fucking amazing piece of medical research by pharma) #'then he started murdering his patients. what a piece of shit' #like idk it could have been intentional but imo all my readings of pharma were not really intended by JRO #and i'm fully just headcanoning and constructing theories on my own #like pharma was simply not important enough or a major enough character to get fleshed ojt #so basically we get enough pieces of him to establish continuity and a general timeline of his life and thats all

[quorras]

every time i see someone call tron 'cyberpunk', i lose ten years off my lifespan

#note to self literally never read letterboxd reviews of movies i like i cant do it anymore kdjfgkdssd #say you saw the movie and the plot and visuals went right over your head without saying it #like. in what world is tron dystopic?? cyberpunk in itself is an offshoot of dystopian fiction. tron is not about an imagined future #tron is about an imagined PRESENT. thinking about our PRESENT relationship with technology in relation to the times each film was released #tron is in equal measures hopeful and critical about technology. that is NOT cyberpunk #the only CyberPunk that matters in tron is the Tron2.0 character of the same name #i will admit that tron's plot is cyberpunk derived but its. idk man its not the same thing #thematically its different. visually i think tron shares developmental artists with blade runner where the cyberpunk visual stereotype was #- established #but blade runner is more pure cyberpunk thematically than tron is. does that make any sense #and. and. listen to me. i am number one retrofuture fan. i love syd mead. i love moebius. but listen. just because they worked on tron - #- does NOT mean tron is thematically OR visually retrofuturistic either!! the visuals match the time it was made!! thats not retrofuturism! #thats normal scifi based on the every day!!! #tron is a sandbox and at the end of the day anyone can do whatever they want its all just for fun #at the same time. the entire story of tron is being severely misrepresented when labelled as cyberpunk. and it makes me sad #these are very shallow thoughts i just miss literary thematic analysis sometimes. my film studies classes cannot come soon enough #rex speaks

[clambuoyance]

I’ve never been so obsessed with a character so bad that I literally can’t do anything else I’m like the squidward meme watching SpongeBob frolic outside the window stretching a hand out to all the pretty paintings and animations and comics I see in my head but being unable to feel any motivation for it . If only i could use the energy spent to create 20 kon doodles to sit down and concentrate on a single finished full piece I used to be able to make like 5 page comics what happened to me

#sighs yes before anyone says anything IK it’s probably adhd related 😭 #BUT ITS GOTTEN SO BAD I CAN FEEL THE DIFFERENCE IN MY BRAIN HOW DID IT GET WORSE #it’s probably a mix of burnout too but I don’t get tired of drawing ? #it feels like when u get dizzy or change glasses or so #and it’s either everything is wayyy too in focus and you can see literally everything clearly that it hurts ur brain #which doesn’t help given how saturated w information the world is always #and simultaneously somehow everything is blurry or out of focus and I physically have to strain myself to hone in on one thing #I JUST WANNA READ COMICS AND FINISH A DRAWING AND HANDLE WORK AND SCHOOL AND TALK TO MY FRIENDS #ALL IN OME DAY #BUT MY BRAIN IS LIKE. TODAY IS ONLY FOR COMICS. YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ESLE #😫🫶 I’m deleting this later I’m just ranting LMAO #I’m highschool it’s crazy bc I did okay and then honestly i just think my ability to concentrate has deteriorated as the years have gone by #free me!!! #either way I want to lessen my social media and just pick One bc girl I have an Instagram a tumblr and a twitter this is horrible for me . #honestly I’ll probably pick instagram and just post on tumblr when I have art #I already do that #I mean when I have Good art. #IM RAMBLING IDK

[dutybcrne]

Love the idea of Kae painstakingly learning Hilichurian, at first bc he figured it was another skill under his belt then bc talking with them made him curious abt them and their origin

#hc; kaeya #//And then learning they used to be Khaenri’ahn from Dain or the Traveller; or even some other source heckin CEMENTED it to him #//Talks to them in Hilichurl; tries to see if they can understand him in Khaenri’ahn #//If they could; he would actually end up crying—and anyone who knows him; knows THAT is genuinely Serious #//Would try to figure out alternate ways to handle hilichurls around Mond if he could; but it’s tough when everyone’s so set in their ways #//Tries to relocate and tend to as many Hilichurl related commissions as he can to minimize any harm btw human and Hilichurl #//Is prolly another contributing factor why he’d fall in the Abyss verse #//Despairing over their situation then realizing there IS a way to help them; he would latch onto it in a heartbeat #//Perhaps still doubt and be wary; but make him for sure more open to working with the Abyss if only for a Solution #//Only to get Got and mildly mindbroken if he talks to the Sinner/keeps such frequent exposure to Abyss energy #//The latter esp; dude just damn near being driven mad like Clothar the more he harnesses and is entrenched in it #//idk thinking bc i thinks it’s so funny he went as far as to write Venti a threat in Hilichurl that one event lololol

[bittcnneck]

You know how some people have "if we become mutuals and spend so long without interacting, I will soft block you" in their rules? That's so damn stupid. Sorry but if we're mutuals and we don't RP that can have two reasons: 1. I didn't reach out, 2. you didn't reach out. If you see me and look at my blog and go "I haven't interacted with this person, I'll soft block them." instead of trying to start a conversation, that just makes it look like you weren't even willing to RP with me to begin with. Am I guilty for not reaching out, sure. But people can forget. You are guilty as well, but you can forget too. What I'm saying is if you can enter my blog and press the block then unblock button, you can press the message button as well, it's right there!!

#sorry its a lil annoying #idk if this is relatable but anyone can share #{ ooc }

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

so hard and lonely to be one of like five people in the entire world to see the truth (iron man 2 is a better movie than infinity war)

#why have i been thinking about this? #idk. consuming marvel content gets me through Many Tasks. but i do that a lot often so idk why this has been on my mind #but it has been. and it's true. i'm right. #i also feel like i maybe (unbelievably) am growing to appreciate iron man 2 even more #because it's a movie about a guy coping with stress by going apeshit on the self destruct button for his own life #which is awesome and relatable and more interesting than they will ever let anyone not named tony stark be... #anyway. i also just can't believe how pro infinity war people are #like even people who can talk normally about other movies and who don't think every mcu product is great before even seeing it #talk about infinity war like it not only was good but was a movie. like a real movie the way movies are movies #like people who i KNOW have seen other movies act like this #like we have to believe it to be an achievement because they put all the guys in it #no!!!!! no A's for effort!!!!!

[spn-lesbian]

can’t help crying

#idk if anyone can relate #spn #destiel #deancas #twist and shout

[chibishortdeath]

Wow no way me living up to my username and drawing in a chibi style whoah—

#castlevania #castlevania games #simon belmont #art post #my art #simon’s quest #yippie still going through art to repost here aaaa #Idk what to say uh #he cute 👍 #some of these were doodled as responses to story questions and responses on Instagram lol #the two with the bleeding eyes was based on this post of ‘peace signs ‘n—nya…’ (dies cutely)’ or however it goes idk I didn’t screenshot it #the last two are older than the rest but I still like them :3 #some of these I feel like the proportions are off but I was drawing them really quick lol #ugh hopefully I can start not just reposting things soon #the last oc drawing I posted was new but yeah I know that that’s not what anyone follows me for oof #I have a lot of Castlevania related drawings tho and will probably inevitably make more #if only the Simon cosplay worked out this Halloween :( #I didn’t finish it in time :(

[roktavor]

...I know it's contrary to that meme I rb'd the other day, but does anyone else have a bad relationship with actually posting fic?

Idk. I happily write, but when it comes to sharing what I've wrote, sometimes it just....takes all the fun out of it. Fills me with dread, zaps motivation, regardless of how kind any comments are - like it's not an issue with reader response at all, it's just smth that's broken in my head.

Like. I haven't heard any other writer feel similarly. But I just rarely want to share anything these days, bc it doesn't feel good or worth it or satisfying anymore...

#I'd like to leave my works somewhere others could possibly take some enjoyment from them #but lately I am like......actually others looking at these feels so so shitty. and idk why or what happened to change me. #notfic #riley rambles #can't even put it into words right and I'm sorry if this is hurtful or unrelatable #I promise it is NOT a problem with the lovely thoughtful readers. it is an issue with ME Idk how to fix #anyway thanks for listening and I apologize in advance bc I will likely chicken out of expressing myself and delete this post later #but I am tired and frustrated and wondering if I'm alone in this or if anyone can relate at all.....

[officiallygoblin]

I think what often misses the mark for me when consuming art and writing or just conceptualizing g/t media is the base experience/feelings evoked by g/t are very often overlooked/not captured by certain things for me. Like, for example, simply seeing my favorite character but big isn’t always going to hit the mark as would a scenario/scene/concept that captures this certain personal, inner sensory experience almost. Like g/t art that is very evocative is something that I really appreciate and enjoy, like, oh you get it, whether intentional/conscious or not.

I also have autism LOL

#idk if anyone else gets this #this also isn’t meant to be hating or feeling superior to any art that isn’t evocative cuz I can enjoy that as well!! #it’s just this certain experience… or feelings evoked by certain g/t media/art/writing that I feel is soo specific #and often times not captured or hard to capture in a way #or maybe it’s just me thinking too hard about liking something or something resonating with me or not idk!! #I just have autism and introspect a lot #gt #g/t #giant/tiny #g/t talk #g/t community #sfw g/t #g/t fluff #g/t related