#idk if anyone else made this connection

[celestialrealms]

And from Lesson 15:

the dots............... they are connecting

#i fully mean it people who don't want barbatos to be nightbringer hate foreshadowing and don't want obm to have even decent writing #also it would be sexy of him to be the ''father of demons'' im just saying <3 #PLEASE let grandma slay just a LITTLE solmare #obey me nightbringer #obey me nightbringer spoilers #obey me #obey me barbatos #idk i also just think the whole ''the prologue is a red herring!!' thing is so silly #especially since they could have accomplished that WITHOUT using masayuki harada's voice in it #and they've already made like 345734589 connections to barbatos #it would just be bad writing at this point if it were anyone else and nothing can change my mind

[chilledchaoticcoffee]

Decided to rewatch Dead Apple and...

Has anyone else made the connection now of why Fyodor's ability didn't attack him?

(Chapter 114 spoilers)

It's because it probably wouldn't have worked. His power is based on his death. So how would his power kill him if all it would do is transfer his consciousness elsewhere??

#idk if anyone else has made this connection #but now that ch 114 has come out i feel like it makes so much more sense #bsd #bsd spoilers #bsd ch 114 #bsd fyodor #bsd dead apple #bungo stray dogs

[guthrie-odonto]

Like poetry a bangin’ diss track, it rhymes

#idk if anyone else has made this connection #toh spoilers #the owl house #toh #elsewhere and elsewhen #watching and dreaming #philip wittebane #Philip ‘getting his ass handed to him by a Clawthorne’ wittebane #boi set out to make witches the source of all problems and his refusal to change and he literally died on that hill

[bkanvas-fairy]

remember guys. if its bad, we can just give it the s18 treatment!

#not art #rvb #please dear lord im so fucking worried about s19 #the music is so iconic to rvb #im not fucking joking #ive never connected a series to its music so fucking much from rvb #the fact that theyre not even bringing them back? the artists that made rvbs music so iconic? #im geniunely terrified for what it could bring #god i hope they bring the artists back #anyone else could never recreate the music of rvb #nothing. #what the fuck are they going to do this season. i want it over and done with #i want it good. i want them do it. machinma the artists everything #idk im just worried. when will it start so it can finally end.

[musical-chick-13]

Regarding the previous post, I think the way I approach trying to evaluate a piece of art is asking "Do I think the positive things I get out of it outweigh the parts of it that I don't like?" And when I call something a "guilty pleasure" song/show/book/piece of media/etc. it's really more in the sense of, "Given who I am as a person, the flaws I've found in this should be complete dealbreakers for me, but somehow they aren't, and it makes me feel like I'm having an identity crisis."

#like. I think something like...idk shiki or cxgf excels on multiple levels. I understand why I like them. given the things I look for in art #it makes sense that these shows would speak to me because they make the effort to showcase those things I look for. because the people #in charge of those works clearly valued the same kinds of things and cared about seriously exploring them. #but with something like. uh. ctrlz. that is NOT the case and I frequently found myself going 'why would anyone make this writing #decision?' but I still sat through all 3 seasons of it! I still really enjoyed it! those flaws SHOULD have made me give up according to #personal history but they never did. and I very very much genuinely question why. I have NO IDEA why I still care about this #silly convoluted teen drama show so much. but I do. I wrote SO MANY FUCKING POSTS ABOUT IT. #I really love wicked the musical. I've heard many people call it 'hokey' or 'cheesy' or 'objectively bad' but here's the thing! I DON'T #think it's bad!!! like literally at all!!!!!! and it does do some genuinely cool things in regard to the music and the way the characters #develop and what the show says about the nature of prejudice and human connection. is it like. idk Serious™ the way that something like #Parade is? no. but it doesn't have to be. it does what it sets out to do and it does it well and this is why the whole '''objective #evaluation''' thing doesn't actually mean anything. I value thoughtfully-constructed music and dynamic female characters #(which this musical has). I value stories that deal with the complex and messy feelings that come with being a human (which this musical #has). I value stories about 'other'ness and romantic subplots that aren't just built on 'This Girl Is Pretty' (which this musical has). #and I value professional displays of technical vocal ability because I know how fucking DIFFICULT that is (which this musical...if you cast #it well...has). #if you value something else in a musical then yeah you will probably think THIS one is '''objectively bad''' #if you don't see the point of musicals as an art form you will probably think wicked is '''objectively bad''' #do you see where the problem with categorizing analysis like this is??

[galadae]

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#sometimes i don't know whether i want to improve a skill for myself or so people will like what i make #bc half the reason i make things is to connect w people! and if they don't like it they're not going to engage #idk this isn't about anything in particular #i just think about it a lot #like idk what to do with wanting attention/feedback for something i made. bc i don't want anyone to ever feel pressured to engage w my stuff #but i want to yell about it #and i feel like I'm not going to know if it's actually good or bad unless i share it w someone #but i don't want to bother people #like yes i do things for fun but what's the point of sharing them if it's not going to make someone else feel something. i guess #anyways I should go eat dinner instead of overthinking ajdhdk #to delete later probably #hannah.txt

[perenlop]

hoopa is so unfortunate because despite being connected to oras and masters, there isnt a ton of content where it’s actually there and relevant besides the hoopa movie, which is considered the worst pokemon movie and kinda does hoopa dirty anyways by giving it a bad storyline and making it a frustrating character

#like. ive seen people make it the celebi to palkia sometimes #which i feel like really shows the difference between the old mythicals and new ones #despite basically having the same amount of potential celebi has been a consistent part of the anime for a while #got a chronicles ep and a hoenn special and roles in two other movies besides its own (kinda) #while hoopa hasnt shown up in anything besides the movie and in psmd where hes optional #and i mean yeah part of that is just that hoopa is newer while celebis been around since basically the beginning #but like... youd think hoopa would have gotten SOMETHING else by now #something a bit more memorable #echoed voice #idk i feel like the gens 1-4 and kinda 5 mythicals mean something. they feel like mythicals they feel distinct #you cannot deny the vibes that the lunar duo or lake trio have or deoxys or jirachi #but somethings just. off about the ones after gen 5 #and this is coming from someone who loves diancie and does kinda like magearna btw #i dont hate any of these pokemon and i get why a couple of them are mythicals but it also feels unearned and strange #like... what exactly makes zeraora a mythical? endangerment? does that make lapras and farfetch'd mythicals too? #even in the anime theyre just like ''idk its kinda rare'' #same with zarude. how is zarude a mythical. even in its movie its just a general species really #with marshadow they try and force a connection to ho oh but it just doesnt really make sense or work and its kinda odd in hindsight #bc i dont think anyone actually considered it a ho oh related pokemon especially since ho oh already has the dogs #really feels like most of the mythicals now are just made to fill that movie quota #which is just odd to me even now bc shiny celebi was only in the zarude movie for two seconds and it still got merch and distributions #so really just. reuse the legendaries lol #better yet start teasing the next gen again with normal pokemon like lucario and zoroark #those are classics and fan favorites to this day and i cannot figure out why they stopped besides the crunch now

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#thats me in the corner. thats me in thr spotlight. rocking from side to side and not contributing to the conversation #which is to say. i made it to thr lab get together with an old lab mate. i really truely did not think i would #i was like 20min late bc of the crying and hyperventilating over a 6min drive down the road #i sorta freaked out while driving too. and almost turned around. its just that i kno i havent been sleeping enough and got overwhelmed #but i made it there. and i dont think i looked like id been crying but i probably looked a bit blank faced and miserable #as i rocked from side to side for like 2hrs listening to ppl talk. i enjoyed it exactly as much as i expected. it was good to see the guy #again but i just dont connect in group gatherings idk. im glad its done. also fucking we were sitting there and a group comes in and whos #in that group?? someone i have avoided seeing for like a loooong time. the guy who tried to be in a relationship with me back when i 1st #started as a grad student. i say relationship. i was explaining to him why i couldnt do any sort of romantic e tanglement and he was very #firm abt not wanting a relationship. and im like bro im explaining u why no romanticly adjacent thing is gonna work. u literally asked me #to physically hold ur hand thru this. u r somehow more emotionally invested in this than me and also are telling me that u just wanna fuck #me. so like u r not slick. whatever. it was so fucking stressful at the time. which i feel bad abt bc it wasn't really his fault #i was just less self aware so i didnt kno i have bad awareness in the moment. like i dont kno a lines been crossed until a week later when #im laying on thr floor falling apart. so like i wish him the best. didnt kno he was still around. hopefully this doesnt trigger stress #dreams. all this to say i was very fucking tense. and when i got back in my car i was like shaky and panting lol #idk looking back its just such a weird situation with that dude. if i was anyone else it woudlnt have been a big deal but #my brain just doesn't process physical touch right. so now ive got these horrible touch memories that like on paper r literally nothing #but for me they were so unfathomablly awful when i 1st aquired them. i literally could not deal with any romantic stuff for like a month #bc it would like trigger me. now thst its been like 3 years its not bad tho. just like gives me thr ick but i dont get #stuck in the memories too much. its so dumb. whatever. point is im all sore now from sitting all tense haha #unrelated

[kindnessoverperfection]

wild how the more i'm working on recovery. the more i realize how fucking bad i miss her.

#which still feels kind of insane and embarrassing since i didn't technically know her myself #(my alter did. i however barely interacted with her.) #but she knew me. she fucking knew me and saw me. i've talked about this in earlier posts but that's still the main thing that hits me. #i feel like nobody else has ever ever known me like she has. i've never felt that seen. and she loved me. she cared about me. she knew what #was underlying my outwards appearance and behaviors. she saw it and loved and cared for it. and because she knew it so well she didn't take #anything personally. (again. not douchey behaviors. just like... bragging for example. or being guarded. idk) #also there's so many things we relate on? felt like i could connect with her better. i think she and i would have been friends. #i dont know it's just #with everyone else it feels like a fucking obligatory social game i need to navigate #say the right things. act in the right ways. present yourself in ways they'll understand and interpret well. blah blah #i'm not even going anywhere with this i just miss her so bad and i'm fucking lonely and want to be seen like that again but i don't think #it can ever happen. because i got to be 100% myself but it was in a safe way and that's how she grew to know and love me #but it wasn't ME who made that decision to be vulnerable. and it was through a specific way that can't be done again because i'm here now a #an alter so it's guarded. and i can't be selfish and demanding and fully myself here because system morals are too strong for that. #even if the aforementioned thing COULD happen again. i haven't seen anyone who cares and understands and sees so deeply like she does. #it's just #i don't know #i just want to be myself and loved and seen for who i am. #but instead it always just feels like i'm having to navigate and manage social expectations and That's It. #maybe i just need to be friends with another narcissist. so i dont have to fucking mask anymore. only concern is if i'm actually being #myself - i have a high pitched voice and talk fast and talk a lot and am kinda obnoxious and high energy and #attention-seeking and dislike being alone and. yeah. that's annoying to the majority of people. which is why i am Not myself around anyone

[haemosexuality]

these past few days i have been uncharacteristically. emotionally open. w my friend and it has me thinking about how truly for all of my life i just did not expect anything from anyone

#like since i was a kid i just accepted in my head that all the ''friends'' id have were ppl who either were just putting up w me (probably #bc they had no one else and i was like. what was available) or ppl who cared ab me yeah but i was still their second or third choice #and i was just like. yeah ok. i can survive w that. like consciously i made the choice to hang out w people i knew didnt really like me #bc it was better than not having anyone to talk to #did it hurt any less when those ppl eventually stopped talking to me or i learned theyve been talking about how annoying i am to others? #no it didnt. bc i still cared about Them and had Them as my first choice. but i just thought. thats just how it is. im jist not really #likeable. so ill take what i can get #when i was like 7 or 8. i had one friend at school. and she had like some issues at home or smth idk but sometimes she would just start. #treating me badly or just ignoring me for months at a time. and its not like it deeply traumatized me or anything i honestly didmt remember #this fact until like last year but the thing is that i just. accepted it. i was just like yeah ok for half of the year or so my only friend #will act like she hates me and ill have no one to talk to. thats fine. ill just wait until next year when she likes me again. at age 7. and #now im just like what the fuck man why did i just accept that as my life. through all my childhood and then with other friends in my teen #years why did i never not once try to do better for myself. yknow? #when i was 11 and in another school my best friend suddenly started not talking to me. after a month or so of this i decided to invite her #to my house to play like we had done so several times before and she just looked at me like she was confused i was talking to her at all #and said ''why?''. and i was just like. ok. thats that i guess. genuinely why did i just accept these things #and like yeah i have friends that i feel Get me now and one i love just so much and i can tell loves me back but theyre online. i dont talk #to anyone irl. i dont know how. and im happy im so happy but im also scared that im just doomed to be extremely lonely forever irl #because i am legit just not likeable. not to be a weird a weirdo but yeah im just too different from ur average person my age i cant #connect with them in any way. and i also dont know how to talk to people or make friends or to find people that are like me. ill just #not have anyone forever #i guess #especially bc now i dont hate myself enough to hang out with people i dont like so like. i dont even have that as an option skdbskdjks #Every friend i ever made happened bc the other person reached out to me first and insisted on it. all the friendships that stuck were the #gay autistic/adhd weirdonerds who can relate to my hyperfixations and dont expect me to act Normal™. idk how to find the former group irl #and have never once iniciated a friendship. my fate is to be someone who has online friends only and exclusively #and dont even get me STARTED on the topic of having a girlfriend someday- #anyways. certified magnus archives moment

[spring-lxcked]

it's so so so important to me that william's motivation for his initial killings is just like. because he wants to. he's a serial killer, he doesn't have some deep emotional motivation. the discovery of remnant is just like. additional motivation beyond Enjoying Murder.

#—— ✧ ooc » #i fully understand people wanting him to have like. 'the thing that made him start killing' or whatever #but my will is just a serial killer like straight up he prob committed his first murder before his first business was even off the ground #and it was probably an adult who just. pissed him off enough when he'd already been Considering Trying Murder. #(because he's been considering it for many many years prior to killing) #i mentioned on his bio page that he might've not kept killing if not for discovering remnant and like #i mean do i think he'd NEVER kill again? prob not #but i think he seeks out thrills and grows bored if nothing special is coming of it #the murder might've been far and few between if he hadn't discovered remnant and possession and agony #and decided to Become A God #idk william fucks me up because he had potential to be like. idk has anyone else read da.n salva.to's short story? #the one that was sort of connected to DD.LC where the woman murders another woman for NO REASON except to just like #experience it? know what it's like to kill someone? #will's first kill vibes #i do imagine that post his 'death' his shit gets discovered and it just. keeps growing. #like. oh yeah he's The Killer surrounding the restaurants. but also if you go back death has followed him for awhile. #i'm shaking him around in a jar

[weizhiyuan]

FUCK. another utsukare scoy parallel. Toh keeping every little thing related to Nuea & Hira treasuring the coins from when he got ginger ale for Kiyoi as well as wanting to immortalize the chocolates he gave him. BOTH TOH AND HIRA BEING PHOTOGRAPHERS TAKING PICTURES OF THEIR LOVED ONE…

#LADIES AND GENTLEMEN IT SEEMS I HAVE A TYPE FOR RELATABLE CHARACTERS!!! #anyone else hoard a little too much . hahaha… #FUUUUUCK I FEEL CRAZY RN #WORSHIPPING TBEM FROM A DISTANCE BC U DONT FEEL LIKE U COULD BE WORTHY OF BEING WITBT HEM!!!!!! *EXPLODES* #secret crush on you #utsukushii kare #b.txt #if anyone else made this connection before let’s kiss idk #i need to start making gifs or something #why did I not make this connection before #LOVE IS OBSESSION! if you’re not obsessed you’re not doing it right.

[glitchinginhyperfixis]

they/them pronouns are really my bbg rn

#7am haven’t slept yet thoughts #cas castrates #can someone send me an ask with those or smth #i still haven’t actually been able to try them out and like #i want to #but i can’t irl sooo #that would be cool #god i need sleep #i’m calling everything i like bbg from now on #so be prepared #also i made three whole ass vent posts in my drafts 💀 #i’m never posting them i just felt like saying that #does anyone else think the ‘connection’ to their pronouns is actually just the familiarity bc it’s all you’ve ever known #i’m starting to think it’s more me recognizing them than actually preferring them #idk #also i think i might lowkey hate my name #like i love it and hate it #it’s not cas btw #that’s my tumblr name #but i actually kind of like it as a real name #like i was referring to myself as cas in my head earlier and i like it #anyways i’m v tired i need to stop #i love that i can ramble in tags the way i can’t ramble in sentences #fuck sentences let me live

[domorebemore]

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#might pussy out on this event i bought a ticket for bc the friend i made at the bar texted me about it #bc like even though i paid for it idk it's far it's an hour away by bus i wont know anyone else there it seems like something that people #will put a lot of effort into and i don't have anything to wear really #and god forbid i ask anyone around me for help!!!!!!!!! #even though it's like a Queer event and i'm trying to meet and connect w more Queer people in general. idk. whateverrrrr

[35gofbeansprouts]

💭.

#feelin . idk shitty ! about my memory issues #not like anyone sees it but its a lil humiliating having to take notes on absolutely everything #sticky notes for future me that are worded loke its someone else asking me to do something #it feels shitty . not being able to rely on my own brain #my memory used to be so good it made ppl uncomfortable #now i can genuinely entirely forget about things like someone dying #until i get a sudden reminder like someone else mentioning it #im so worried that one day my forgetting will destroy relationships or any other connections 🥴

[krockat]

i've been wanting to commission someone to make a pfp for here, that uses the hat in my current one

cause rn it's fkn boring and beige and not very visually intrestin - and u can't even read the fkn text that makes it worth! (it's a pic of a yellow beige cap (the hat) w the text "ask me about my lobotomy" on it)

idea's to like make it pretty and faggy and me, and Also makes the text any at all readable lol.

but commissioning is hard! you gotta have like a fkn good proposal and have references, and know what you want and able to word that shit - and most often i just struggle w that.

but this time i have a concept (more than what i wrote) but like,,, i don't wanna be roughin it on an artist. i want to be a GOOD commissioner and until i got d girl't balls to do that i am gonna pass.

#i gotta stop my ussy up w my blog honestly. it ain't presenting me so well #like my url also like - i follow so many w excellent urls that it gets more blatant day by day that my urls ain't doing me right. #but its a funny and queer-looking little word! krockat #it's a swedish word. n so i bet a lot of the charm w it is lost on most #it means crashed. basically #but its also just so fun in d mouth nd even mind mouth to say. it also has strong connections w me to queer nd punky nd theatrical things #like inspos me of one of my og fave chaotic n queer coded n dramatic villains - olyckan. #he's from an old swedish kids tv show from like the 70s called trazan och banarne - #which starred two hairy middle aged men wearing animal print - who lived in a jungle tree-house together - #and who made super sweet n funny surrealistic jazzy music together. #and olyckan (meaning 'the accident') was a creepy (💜) human(?)ification of accidents who sang his great villain song about loving accidents #and that if you didn't watch out for him - some STUFF would happen!!! and then he would giggle creepily in his great theatre voice #anyway. so they had an impact. right. #also krockat just invokes things about crashing+ failing and physical and etc pain. so vibes w my multi-disabled self. #it just yea!! but yea it's uhhhhhhhhhh #urgh idk. I guess if it got such strong meaning to me - it dodnt gotta have meaning to anyone else #krockat #the meaning behind krockat #krockat krockar