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caelumsnuff · 7 months

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ah you changed your user and i could not find you! how could you lol! glad you're still here <3 i'm gonna add to the filler spree convo we're mostly in rn and idk idk i don't know if it's mostly fandom. i feel like it's money?? why would a dude who makes six figures on patreon alone care about youtube's adsense?? idk idk greed?? but since it takes more effort to routinely make a cohesive and engaging plot and the views for lore drop videos (which i wish erik would stop those even tho i like lore and incorporate the info into videos with relevant plot lines like how in books and movies they don't recommend those writers info dump) and plot-heavy works that aren't inversion don't get views.

the only 100k view videos the past 3/4 months are sleep audios cause of those casual listeners (and not even the gavin one which at least had some v v v slight character development in it). if all you had to do was stick a mic near your chest for your heartbeat and breathe to get 140k+ views lmao and your (albeit poorly done) final episode of a villain's plot doesn't crack 50k then you'll prob heed to those casual listeners. he used to make celebratory discord posts when characters got their first 100k views on a video, he made a big deal when that now-moved lasko in the movie theater audio reached a million views, and he had a patreon livestream around when he made the mario tournament audio where he lightly mentioned it being a bummer when videos didn't do well (he made light of it but still).

he mentioned in an old q&a about doing this to tell stories the way he wanted, but i feel like the views and money are what's steering him away from it??

HELLO!!! Yes im still here! Not leaving now and dont plan on it anytime soon lol. Im happy you found me again 😊

I feel like money is literally the only other option aside from the possibility that hes simply lost interest in the stories he was telling. Maybe he still cares about telling good stories deep down, but i think even if thats true the views and money is winning out. Which is just sad, this started out as a hobby and it should stay as such. Especially with him having so many patrons on top of his IRL job. Patrons don’t just…. Leave easily. He might lose casual viewership, but patrons and dedicated fans would stick around if he started valuing quality>quantity again. Do you know how happy i would be if he started uploading less often in favor of releasing better written, plot-centric videos??? You would Not believe it. And youtubers who do that literally garner a dedicated fanbase, there are artists out there who have a trove of patrons supporting them through several months without releasing art because they love it and its of high quality. Erik is more than capable of doing that.

I really do just think the man has so much potential, and i feel its not being executed to its peak right now. If he sat down and gave himself even like…. Idk one upload a week or one every two weeks, he could be writing better thought out videos.

Anyways, i definitely agree with you that its the money and views steering him away. Which is a damn shame, bc once again… 6 figures on patreon + a day job. He does not need to kneel for The Algorithm™️.

Views/hits/likes dont determine the value or quality of your art. Ignore the views, write a good story because its something you wish to make FUCK what other people think! Create from your heart knowing its the best you could put out in that moment, not just something you think will garner views. You know how amazing some videos with 1k views are on youtube??? Fics with 100 hits??? Art with 6 likes???? Just Create with all you are, others will find your passion and feel blessed to have been able to do so.

#ask #anon

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freakurodani · 10 months

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I hope you got some good sleep!

There is a cartoon called Over the garden wall. Sort of a masterpiece of a cartoon in my opinion (I'm a animator so i go hard for that stuff) anyways! There is a kid Gregory, super adorable, and he has a Rock with a painted face and he says "Rock Fact" as a joke and idk I kinda played on that because trees are alive vs rock. The more I type this the more I realize this is probably more of an inside joke and it may be dumb to others 😂

If you like a little creepy in your cartoons then you should watch it though 🧡

I am going to tell you one of his rock facts though because I can't help myself.

- If you soak a raisin in grape juice, it turns into a grape.

Soup 🍜 is 💯 synonymous with romance and Mx. Earnest (partner giving you the bowl and shirt) makes the best Ramen EVVVVERR like broth from scratch. I do a good chicken noodle and also thai curry soup also scratch.

Shyguy is too far to eat it 😔

I think shyguy may have sent that msg about getting good sleep. I'm surprised, but that is for sure his fav emoticon, I'll have to ask. 🧡

One day bored teenagers will read our tale in English class! 😂🧡🍜

omg!!! u know i was just talking w a friend about how i should watch that and my bff (who im in a qpr with so u gotta be chill w that if we continue lmao :P) is gonna sit me down and force me to watch it sometime soon (bc im forgetful on my own)!! but thank you very much for explaining, one day purrrhaps ill be able to laugh along 💕

i did not know that about grapes!! next time i get stuck with raisins ill just get some grape juice <333 (<=raisin hater)

omg im getting names... soup anon, mx. earnest (whom i will have to start wooing too, since i like their taste in fashion and i am a sucker for soup (as u know)) and shyguy.... i feel like the belle of the ball

ough, ur making me want soup so bad, it won't be the same as HOMEMADE FROM SCRATCH (wowzaa! not only are u wooing me, but u are an impeccable wingman (gender neutral) soup anon) hehehe

if it was indeed shyguy, he is allowed back in my inbox anytime 🥰 i appreciate the sentiment hehe

oh yeah, its gonna be epic theres gonna be so many sparks notes essays about us 💚

#conspiracy lvl: ask #soup anon #heheheheheh :3c

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transgender2dd7 · 1 month

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thinking about that one allegedly real story about somenyan yelling at their sleep paralysis demon that it owes them money and soon after somenyan who owed them money returning it and also sleep paralysis becoming less of a problem

havent expurrienced sleep paralysis in a while and idk if im gonna expurrience it anytime soon. also i don't think anynyan owes me money so its unlikely that the operator would b able to do a lil debt collector gig fur me, even if he did exist. however i think it would be funny if it somehow worked

[authors note. the operator is my sleep paralysis demon due to im deranged and consumed a lot of horror media as a kitten)

#crawlie.pdf

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mapleshmaple · 5 years

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thank you guys for being so patient with me when im not patient with myself

#ghjgkmh todays been kinda weird?? like one of those days where im restless but i know i have things to do #but i just cant get started and so i jsut sit around with all this pent up energy and pththtbhtbthbt #also im soryr for not replying to you if i havent im having trouble reeling it in today?? and just gathering all my thoughts up in one place #if that makes sense!! and i know i say 'if that makes sense' a lot adn ghjgkmh i dunno #maybe its cuz i woke up around fuckign noon or so and had my meds kinda later than i normally do??#idk im tryna fix my sleep schedule nshit and get back on track and ive jsut been mentally all over the place lately?#like ive been thinkin about htis dog at this petstore i volunteer at and i really wanna try adopting him for christmas or sometime after?#and hes this sweet shepard mix and hes so fuckign soft. like so goddamn soft youve got no idea.#and our appartments still a fuckign shitstorm so the idea that we might- keyword being might- be able to just #adopt another animal or somethgin at some point soon is motivating me to clean?? kinda???#even though i mega super doubt that we'll actually fuckign get around to it...cuz its basically we just.....#we wake up and go to work and come home and eat and then maybe run an errand or two and then go to sleep. rinse and repeat.#and with the holidays coming up too im worried we're just gonna be stuck here/working at the toystore for another year or more #like mom says that she could jsut go out and look for another job anytime she wants to #but i dont think shes either going to remember to or have the energy to get/find one? i dunno gjkmg #but im jsut. having a lotta trouble focusing today and lately too and jhkgm i dunno but thank you guys again for being patient with me #im tryna get better with talkign to everybody and with starting conversations and with replying and the whole shebang yknow???#and trying to shut myself up whenever i tyr to put myself down- which happens a lot and i gues s thats part of why im having troible focusin

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tinyorangepotato · 4 years

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haha..why can't I sleep. of course it would be the night when I have shit to do tomorrow.

#tiny talking #I have to go to my grandparents ts tomorrow #but first I have to be up by 9 and the do a zoom #and then go to work and shower afterwards #and the get picked up to my grandparents a d go on a long walk at like 8 at night #and I CANT FUCKING GO TI SLEEP #OF COURSE #I realzed I won't be able to sleep in un own tonight anytime soon #so I may have had an edible (sorry bugs. idk ehy I'm sorry but I feel like I should apologize)#and hopefully that kicks I in the next hour and I can finally go ti sleep #fuck and Im not gonna be back time #until the afternoon Saturday #I have too much shit to do

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someone1348 · 2 years

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HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY TUBBO!

And a Happy Holidays friends! I hope you enjoy this amazing Tubbo special!

I know there are still a lot of fics to do but! I am on break finally for a month so they will be posted as soon as I can get them out :]

For now enjoy this wholesome Birthday special for our favorite bee boy!

Also THANK YOU FOR 200 OMG! this is amazing I hope all of you are doing good because you truly deserve it! Treat yourselves, take care of yourselves and remember that you are so loved and appreciated no matter what! /p /gen /pos

People in this: Lee!Tubbo, Ler!Tommy and Ler!Ranboo

((PLATONIC ONLYYYYY!!))

Tw: It talks about slipping into a lee mind space Idk if that makes anyone uncomfortable so I'm adding a warning just in case, other than that none this is very wholesome!

this is an Irl Fic! Im so excited! Hehe enjoy everyone!!

___________~☆°♡°☆°♡°☆~______________

A Birthday Surprise

"THANK YOU UNIVERSE!!" Tubbo beamed screaming to the outside world from his window. While Ranboo was out of the house he texted Tubbo saying that something went wrong with his passport so he will be staying in the UK for a bit longer than originally planned.

Tubbo was ecstatic! Not only was Ranboo staying longer he would still be here for his birthday and new years!

They were gonna spend His birthday together!! And New Yearss!! He jumped around happily giggling after replying back in a cool way.

"HE'S STAYINGG!!!!!" As much as he would deny it on stream as a joke he really enjoyed Ranboo's company and honestly didn't want him to go.

'Dude just move here already!'

(2:15 pm)

Tubbo texted back as well before laying down with a smile placing the phone on his chest, Things were truly looking up Tubbo!

'Pfft! I wish! I'll be home soon, Prepare a feast for my arrival! Your platonic husband has returned!'

(2:20 pm)

"Dork"

*A Few day's later right before Tubbo's big day!*

"I have a surprise for your birthday tomorrow" there was a slight teasy tone in his voice but it was barely heard by the sleepy state the other was in

"Dude it's almost midnight let me sleep" Tubbo joking in his sleepy state as Ranboo evily laughed

Tubbo knew that laugh anywhere and his body responded fast 'oh no come on no! Not before my birthday!' Tubbo manged to stop it before falling asleep, but wether he felt it or not this small interaction was gonna cause a lee mood to break any second Tommrow,

Just as Ranboo planned.

Ranboo had stayed up a bit later than normal decorating the house for the big day today. He had been cooking breakfast for the birthday boy when he woke from his slumber.

Running his hands through his hair Tubbo smiled, he was officially 18! This was so cool! But also crazy, oh well!

He was stretching before the sound of Ranboo's laugh repeated in his head. The stretch cutting short as the butterflies erupted in his stomach he covered his stomach out of natrual reaction.

"Well this was just perfect" he mumbled to himself trying to contain some giggles that wanted to come out of his mouth

It's been a while since he's had a lee mood especially one this bad but of course of all days! He wasn’t really complaining but it was definitely going to make it hard to focus.

Getting ready to face the day and Ranboo, he took a deep breath before peeking his head out of the doorway

The smell of food walked him over to the kitchen, "Smells great bossman! Thank you!"

"Anytime Birthday boy! Do you like the decorations?" Ranboo pointed with his spatula as Tubbo spun around to see all of the amazing work his friend had done for him.

"You're so kind, they are amazing! Thank you Ranboo!" His voiced softened, it was genuine. He couldn't be more happy that Ranboo was able to stay and for everything and everyone he had met along the way.

"How does it feel to be an adult now" The taller joked as Tubbo rolled his eyes smiling "It doesn't feel that different yet"

"I see, here breakfast is ready, grab a plate"

"You're not gonna surve the birthday boy Ranboo, poor host men ship my friend" Tubbo joked as Ranboo turned off the stove chasing him around the house

"AH!" Ranboo swiftly picked him up with ease placing him in one of the seats by the counter getting him a plate the said birthday boy smiled thanking him for the food and everything else.

"You're welcome buddy, eat up!"

Tubbo almost forgot about his lee mood before he got chased, he ate but gave Ranboo confused stares every now and again while he wasn’t looking

'Why didn't he tickle me? When he caught me, he always does that, why am I thinking these things, gah lee moods are so confusing!' He giggled in his mind as it raced with tickly thoughts, he was snapped back to reality when Ranboo asked him a question.

"Are you excited for your party today?! Wellll it's just me and Tommy but still a party non the less"

"Hmm yeah! I'm excited, honestly that's all I really want, not to many people, it works nicely for me"

"Exactly" Ranboo smiled at him

"W-what?"

Ranboo continued to smile at him

"What, quit looking at me like that!" He held the giggles in but man was it hard, this was going to be a long day

Ranboo "went to the bathroom" to text Tommy

'Step one complete, man I can't wait!'

(10:30 am)

'LETS GOOO!! we gotta wait a bit but damm will the reward be so worth it!'

(10:32 am)

'See you soon!'

(10:33 am)

'See ya!'

(10:33 am)

A couple days ago when Ranboo was out with Tommy for a vlog, the day he texted Tubbo the news, he and the blonde had made a plan to put Tubbo in the biggest lee mood ever for his birthday.

For two reasons, one because he hasn't had one in a while and two because its his birthday! He deserves to feel all the happiness in the world and what's better then giving their favorite bee boy some well deserved happiness through some tickles!

It made sense to the Alluim Duo! So that's exactly what they did!

It was around 6ish when Tommy came over to celebrate, The rest of the day was taken up by Ranboo and Tubbo playing games and having fun adventures and calling some of Tubbo's friends and Family before Tommy arrived, it was turning out to be the best birthday ever, except for this dang lee mood that wouldn't go away!

Through some of the adventures Ranboo would use the voice then act like nothing happened, or use similar words or actions, he patted the smallers knee for example like it was just another day, it was driving him insane but in a way that he didn't truly mind all that much he just really wanted to be tickled it was so hard to focus on anything else!

"AYEEE THERE HE IS BIG T!" Tommy hugged his best friend with a smile as Tubbo returned the hug Tommy gently and quickly squeezed his shoulder the boy wanted to squeak but kept it in, oh no

"How's our favorite bee boy doing on his birthday!?"

Leave it to Tommy to be the hype man

"Im good! It's been great!, I'm so glad you could make it!"

Tommy hugged Ranboo after shutting the door and taking off his coat

"How are you my friend?!"

"Good good"

"Excellent!"

It was nice, everything Tubbo wanted, his two best friends, no streams or cameras in their faces, just the three of them and a very special day!

"Come on big man let's party!"

They ate pizza, drank soda and played games for hours!

"COME ON THAT'S SO CHEATING! HACKS I SAY!" Tommy complained throwing his controller down lightly

"look who's at the top of the rotation~" Ranboo said with sass as Tubbo put his hands in the middle of them

"Boys please!" Tubbo laughed

"YOU THINK THAT'S FUNNY TUBS?" Tommy Joked

"Well I-" He nervously giggled before being tackled to the couch then let back as if nothing happened

Everyone heading back to the game to start a new round Tubbo bounced his leg in his seat, he couldn't take this for much longer

Ranboo was laughing because his character fell in game

"Why did that Tickle you so hard mate!"

Ranboo shrugged "It was funny"

'I can't do this, Tommy whyyy' His leg bounced faster as Tommy smirked at him

"Something wrong big man?"

"Yeah whats up Tubbo?"

"No, Nothing! Everything is fine!"

"You sure you don't wanna get Tickled?"

"What?!"

"I said are you sure you don't want another round?" Ranboo patted his shoulder gently "we can stop playing if you want?"

"No no it's fine"

'What is happening!?!'

"I know a better game we could play!"

"What is it Boo?"

Now Ranboo's calm and gentle smile turned into a sly and evil smirk

"Don't get caught by the tickle monsters~" With wiggling fingers aimed at him Tommy smirked evilly laughed as well "Better run bee boy, Unless you want to be captured right away" he joined Ranboo's wiggling fingers as Tubbo made a dash for it.

His face bright red from embarrassment and having to hold it all back all day he giggled to his hearts content as the two chased after him around the house

"Oh Tubboo~"

"EE!"

"Come here Tubs!"

"LEheHeheave Me Alohohone!"

"Giggling already big man"

"We're gonna getcha'!~"

His giggles continued as he desperately tried to open a locked door

"No no come on! Please- AH!" He was cut off by Ranboo lifting him by his middle

"I GOT HIM TOMMY!"

"GREAT WORK!"

"Lehehet me gohoho!"

Tommy's smirk grew as he wiggled his fingers at him once more causing the smaller to squeak before Tommy grabbed his legs

"To the couch!"

The two moved their best friend to the couch Ranboo kept hold of him from behind keeping the boys arms up while Tommy straddled his waist.

"You ready Tubbo?"

"3,,,2,,,-"

"Just do it! Please!!"

"As you wish, Tickletickletickletickle!" Tommy giggled immediately digging into his sides as Ranboo soon after joined to tickle under his arms dragging his nails down his arms in the process which left the birthday boy kicking his legs out behind the two.

"AHAHAHA! RAHaAhAnBOo! ToHOHomMY! PLEHEHEeaSe!!"

"Aww what's wrong big man? Is it Tickle Tickle Ticklish! Hmmm? Tickle tickle tickleee Tubbo~" The blonde wiggled his tickly fingers up to his ribs making sure to count the spaces in between each bone

"THOhOMmY! EE! RahAHanbOO!" Ranboo had moved to tickle all over his neck and around the back of his ears

"Does it tickle Tubbo?~" He blew air into his ear after asking as Tubbo scrunched his head more into his shoulder nodding frantically

"IhIhIhit Tihihickles!"

"Good I'm so glad it does Tubs" Tommy smiled

"Do you want me to tickle that one spot Tubs? Or not today?"

There was a certain spot on Tubbo's back that if he was tickled there for a bit he would fully slip into a joyful tickle lee headspace to say the least, Tommy always asked before going there because at most times he was scared to go fully lee mode but he wanted to more than anything today.

"Doho it!"

Tommy smiled brightly, "Here we go Tubbo" Tommy brought his nails underneath Tubbo's sleeping shirt tickling his back

"ToHOhoMmY!!"

"You're safe Tubbo, embrace the giggles my friend"

"We've got you Tubbo" Ranboo added as Tubbo giggled and giggled until his mind was nothing but the thought of how ticklish it felt

"HEHEHE!"

"There we go! Tickle tickle Tubbo~"

The two lers smiled brightly at him as Tommy moved his hands around to tickle and scribble all over his stomach

"TOHOHOMMY!"

Tommy giggled before taking a breath in blowing a huge raspberry in the center of his stomach

"EEE! NAHAHAHAAHA!! PLEHEHEEASE!"

Tommy laughed along with him, stopping and rubbing away the ghost tickles as Ranboo ran his fingers through his hair to relax him.

"Happy Birthday Tubbo!"

"Did you like the surprise?"

"Yohohou plahahaned thihis?"

"Yep!" The two said in sync as Tubbo relaxed his head on Ranboo's chest

"Ehevill" He joked smiling brightly

As Tubbo regained strength and energy he opened the rest of his gifts thanking and hugging the two before him

"Get in here big man!" Tommy took a selfie of the three of them

"Send that to the group chat!"

"On it!"

"Happy Birthday Tubbo" They pulled him into a group hug smiling brightly at each other as a Disney movie played softly in the background.

'Best Birthday ever'

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I hope you all enjoyedd! Thank you again for 200! I hope everyone has a happy holidays whatever you may celebrate I hope you enjoy it! Treat yourselves, take care of yourselves and have a great day today you amazing human being!

-K <3

#k writes tk things #lee!tubbo #ler!tommy #ler!tommyinnit #ler!ranboo #bench trio tickle fic #mcyt tickle #dream smp tickle #dream smp tickle fic

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finaledenialist · 3 years

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so in one of your asks you said you dont think cas was in love with dean since the beginning and idk its interesting to me because everyone seem to think he was from the start so what is your take on that? idk im just curious haha

ohhh I wanted to make a post about this so thanks for asking!

disclaimer: I don’t want to rain on anyone’s parade I just have a different take on this whole thing!!!

So. I see people are like: OMG he was in love ALL THIS TIME SINCE 4x01 and I am like: no.

Was he lost since he laid his hand on Dean in hell? Yes. Was he instantly in love? Nah.

See, Cas in season 4 and 5 is starting to feel. He is conflicted, he is questioning, he doesn’t have ‘people skills’, he is confused by what he feels, he knows there is a ‘profound bond’ between him and Dean and he is rebelling for Dean, because Dean has a point and Cas feels Dean is right and apocalypse and destruction are wrong, and this human is so human and he never had that connection before. Add the sexual innuendos, the eye fucking and the tension between those two and this is what i call ‘classic destiel’. I do have a strong feeling this is partly Jensen’s and Misha’s fault though haha but I am also convinced that the jokes like ‘Cas, get out of my ass!’/’Blow me Cas’ are purely for ‘comedic purposes’ because haha gay so funny (keep in mind it’s still 2008/2009 and things were so different then BUT we still got Endverse which had not only sexual stuff implied but romantic as well - ‘all we have left, Dean and I, is each other, if Dean says it’s time to go in a blaze of glory, so be it’ (I am writing this from memory so these might not have been exact lines but you know what I am talking about).

And then in season 6 and 7 is where things start to get romantic. ‘I watched you rake leaves’, Dean’s blind faith that no, Cas can’t be working with Crowley behind their backs because come on it’s Cas and the whole 6x20 episode is *chief’s kiss* and then season 7 and Cas dies to make things right and Dean keeps his trenchcoat and moves it from every car they have been using that season to always have it with him because part of me always believed you’d come back. OK, but I was meant to be talking mostly about Cas’ point of view. Which takes me back to 7x23 and I’d rather have you, cursed or not. I think these words had a major impact on Cas. Something just clicked. Because he realized that he could say these exact same words to Dean and they still would be true.

And then we got season 8 which was a major shift and it really moved stuff from ‘sexual tension’ to ‘romantic tension’ and it’s still called ‘season fanfiction’ because I wanted to keep them away from you in purgatory and Cas generally not feeling worthy of anything but I think this is when he started to realize that what he feels is not like ‘brotherly friendship’ but something much deeper but he had his issues (I don’t deserve to be saved from purgatory thing) so he kind of kept it buried. But this was when the Real Love really started. But did he admit it to himself? Well I am not in Cas’ head but something must have been on his mind - Naomi had access too his mind and she immediately recognized that there is a certain Feeling that is dangerous and Cas needs to be fucking lobotomized (I still have shivers thinking about it). Did Naomi knew it was love? Idk, but she felt something was going on - that is why she tried to mess things up between Dean and Cas (I only wish he felt the same way ouch my heart....) and Metatron also recognized it, quicker and better (maybe because he spent much more time on earth and was generally a little more powerful and knowing as the scribe of God) and he immediately used Cas’ grace to banish angels from heaven because Cas was feeling love for a human. But did he, himself recognized it as love? Did he admit it to himself? I still have a feeling that no. I still think that his ‘I don’t know’ after Dean’s ‘What broke the connection?’ was honest.

Now let me fast forward to season 12, because this post is getting too long already and while seasons 9-11 had some good episodes and even good destiel scenes I feel this was the time many people - rightly so - were starting to lose faith in canon destiel, starting with Dean not letting Cas stay in the bunker in season 9 and bros acting like they only call Cas when they need him. I repeat - there were still some good episodes, even great ones. And we were shown Cas worried about Dean and being there for him anytime Dean called, there was so much pining but once again let me raise The Question: did Cas know what he was feeling was love? Or was he still confused, not letting himself believe, not being able to name his own feelings and emotions? And this is merely my opinion but this is also time where many people started to be bitter and negative by how writers treated Cas (and other characters in general but I am not gonna dive into that dumpster now, especially the Cas-having-sex-with-a-reaper thing which was awful, but in retrospect is even more awful because if it was Chuck’s writing this seems like some kind of sick attempt to do a conversion therapy and I want to throw up; plus he thought? he was into his boss at gas’n’sip and he thought she was into him and what even was it if not a. bad writing; b. Cas being confused; c. Cas being confused about this bad writing).

So season 12. First of all 12x12, when Cas thought he is gonna die and the infamous line ‘I love you. I love all of you’ happened. I am 100% sure this is when Cas realized. This must have prompted questions for him. Why did I say what I said? He blurted those words out but why like that? Aaaand after some thinking I think he realized why. He must’ve been like ‘oooops’. But then Jack was about to be born and he had to protect Kelly and then he died.

And then he is in the Empty who says - I know who you love, I know what you fear, there is nothing for you out there. She doesn’t know shit, she just has access to Cas’ mind and apparently those were his thoughts, already at that time, he thought there was nothing for him out there (again, his depression issues) BUT THEN CAS, MY SWEET CAS, THIS BAD ASS MOTHERFUCKER says fuck you Empty in one of his best monologues (before 15x18 I’d say it was his best but here we are) and she yeets him out, because HE decided HE is already saved and he doesn’t need a permission and you can preen and you can scream and yell and remind me of my failings but somehow, I'm awake. And I will stay awake and I will keep you awake until we both go insane. I will fight you. Fight you and fight you for... ever. For eternity.

And then Jack dies and he takes the humiliating deal. And now we’re at 15x18 and he says: ‘I have always wondered.... ever since I took that burden.... What my true happiness can even look like... Because the one thing I want is the one thing I can’t have’. SEE THESE WORDS HERE ARE WHY I CAN’T SLEEP AT NIGHT. BECAUSE THEY IMPLY at least to me THAT:

1. He was aware of his feelings, he knew what he felt was love at the time he took the deal. and after that he was like ‘I guess I am immortal now’ because the one thing I want is the one thing I can’t have so nothing else is going to make him truly happy; this also implies that there is only one thing he truly wants and the rest is just not that important, whatever else happens won’t make him happy which is heartbreaking;

2. He knew what he wanted, so this means that at some point he wondered, he imagined, he took his time to picture the ‘thing’ he wanted. Which is life with Dean. Because he is in love. LIKE HE THOUGHT ABOUT THIS, HE REALLY DID AND HE CONCLUDED THAT THIS IS OUT OF HIS REACH (now people argue if that is because he thinks it’s unrequited or because he thinks that something something hunter life-fighting all the time-no attachments lifestyle won’t allow them to have this sort of life - and frankly, knowing that he learned everything, or almost everything about emotions from Dean, who isn’t really good at them, I am not surprised if he is sure that this feeling is one-sided, because maybe he conquered his fears in the Empty the first time around but taking the deal must have made him anxious and Chuck still calls him self-hating so he probably thinks this is one-sided and he is unworthy of love anyway);

3. He tried to imagine different scenarios that would make him happy but eventually it all came down to That One True Scenario, out of his reach, that couldn’t compare with anything else, and he tells Jack - you know about that deal, it’s ok, I don’t see myself becoming happy anytime soon AND IT HURTSSS

so to conclude and tl;dr - I think Cas realized that what he was feeling was love after 12x12 although he felt it before but might have been confused by it. I do not think he was ~in love~ since 4x01. There was tension and there was pining but no. This feeling evolved, it didn’t *just* happen in the barn.

also i am so sorry this took so long but i have thoughts and feelings and can’t form a coherent sentence since november 5th anyway thanks for asking nonny, ily!!!!

#ask #asks #anon #long post #destiel is endgame #cas is in love #everything is beautiful but it hurts #spn 15x18 #spn spec #spn speculation #Anonymous

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settersloveletters · 4 years

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NO. 1 FAN

• part sixteen; just endurance training

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⤷ y/n will always go out of her way for her family, especially for her 7 year old niece, who happens to be kageyama tobio’s number one fan. what happens when the charming sweetheart, y/n, meets the emotionally null, kageyama tobio? and what happens when those two fall in love at first sight?

a/n: its here.. ENDING is ambiguous. ill leave it up to those big imaginations yall have 🧠 hahaha. IDK IF THIS IS TOO OOC. whatever ill justify it by saying “adult kags is mature and horny and knows what hes dooing hahsjej. also likes to dirty talk im sure of it 🤗🤩😋

[!] under is written smut which is not important to the story, sorta, kinda [!]

➳ word count: 1.5k

➳ warnings: smut, but nothing too crazy; hand job, praise kink (kageyama recieving), cum eating?! is there a proper word for that lool

Wow, he’s really hot. Not that that’s new news, but here he is, in your small living room, freshly showered with damp hair in the comfiest loungewear. After all the commotion -- trying to fix the car only to decide on letting him sleepover, setting up a comfortable sleeping place for him, and of course, not trying to embarrass yourself on countless occasions -- you two now rest.

“Hey, wanna watch something?” you suggest as the two of you sit on the couch, a TV perched on the cabinet across from you. Even though you two sit at least three feet apart, you feel his body heat emanating and he hears your heart beating a mile a minute. It’s weird, you two are usually so normal and casual, able to converse and talk, but why is it so different right now.

“Sure, you can choose.”

“Romcom? Oh, or maybe this documentary. Wait no, I actually like this movie,” indecisively you scroll through the library of movies. “That one,” Kageyama says in such an alluring tone that has your finger slipping, the chosen movie is now beginning.

Minutes in, it might be your mind playing games, but the distance between you has become smaller and smaller, and before you know it your hips are touching. You feel every rise of his chest when he breathes and he feels every time you jump or squirm against him. And to be honest, the movie is getting deathly boring when your eyes would much rather feast upon the man beside you, his toned arms and big hands. You’re almost so tempted to touch them, compare them to your own, interlock both your fingers.

“Are you even watching the movie?” Kageyama scoffs, and when you get a better look at his face, you see the small rosy tinge that covers his cheeks. “Yes, I am. Are you?” leaning into him even further, your body acts before your mind can think. You give him a peck on his cheek. It’s not like you two have never kissed before, but this feels new, fresh, exhilarating.

“I am, for your information. Unlike you, staring at me like you’re the predator and I’m the prey,” he looks you dead in the eyes, deep blue engulfing you. He’s letting you know the nature of the relationship; he is no prey.

Gently grabbing the back of your neck, Kageyama pulls you into a kiss, lips touching and sending pleasurable jolts across your body. The distant movie playing has drowned out in the background as your heavy breathing and heartbeats fill the room. You even let out the tiniest of whimpers that shoot straight down to his cock. His other hand begins to wander, until it settles around the small of your waist, pulling you up onto his lap.

You two spend an eternity, his touch constantly rubbing along your body, your fingers twirling around his hair, and your lips and tongues dancing with each other. With your legs straddling his, you don’t shy away from giving an experimental grind against his clothed erection.

“Hm,” his moan is muffled in your interlocked lips. You pull off, looking him in his eyes, all clouded and gasping for air. There’s something tantalizing about the thought of being the one to seduce Japan’s top young athlete. Seeing the young star in front of you, lips red and swollen from all the kissing and almost begging to be touched. It has you quivering at the knees. This is Kageyama Tobio..

“Ha, I didn’t think you’d.. Baby, let’s take it slow, yeah?” you tell him, slipping the cute pet name in which has him pulling you in closer to him.

“Of course. To be honest, I don’t know how much of you I can handle at once,” he looks down at you, jabbing at your usual boldness and forwardness. You can tell he’s nervous. “I should be saying that to you,” you sigh, hands grabbing onto the formed tent in his sweatpants that has you too excited. He’s big.

“So, why don’t we just touch today,” you give him a reassuring smile, giving his cock another squeeze that has him moaning aloud again. Kageyama just simply looks at you and gives a nod in response. He’s embarrassed at his own voice, but to you, it sounds like heaven. You don’t hesitate in lowering the waistband of his pants and boxers, letting the heat of his cock expose itself. Looking at it has you biting your lower lip and shifting in his lap. You wrap your hands around his girth, feeling heavy in your hands as the thick veins tickle the pads of your fingers. You stroke his shaft, listening to the way he audibly gasps and groans under your ministrations. Your fingertip rubs along the head, picking up the drop of precum, allowing you to give him a more satisfying jerk.

“Do that, that felt good,” he breaths out. You pick up the repetitive motions as you feel the surface of his cock heating up, and the unsuppressed sounds spilling from his mouth. The sweet clicks of your strokes has you desperate for more, desperate to pleasure him more. Boldly, you spit onto the head of cock, slicking him up and quickening the pace. Kageyama lets out a needy noise that has your insides trembling and panties uncomfortably wet.

He likes the attention, you know it. He loves being able to openly receive this love from you, no matter how foreign or new it is to him. This thrill Kageyama feels has him aching for more. His hands grasp onto the legs that sit on his lap, squeezing the soft exposed flesh of your skin. His mind goes wild imagining what lies beneath those tight shorts you purposely wore to seduce him, what you’d look like all exposed just for him. He’s not usually this dirty minded, but you’ve always managed to pull out the craziest things from him.

“What are you thinking about, baby?” you ask with your innocent and calming voice, totally contrasting the lewd hands that continue to rub at his cock.

“I’m thinking about a lot of things..”

“Like what my panties look like?”

You will be the death of him, he swears. Before he can even respond or react, you’re already removing your shorts, showing him the delicate black fabric underneath that leaves oh so little to the imagination. Kageyama is brazen and confident on the court, but in the intimacy of right now, you have to be in control of the game. Straddling him again, you continue where you left off, bringing him closer to his release with your hand, kissing along his jaw and neck. “I won’t leave marks, don’t worry.”

“I don’t mind,” he manages to say through his pants. Without hesitation, you leave the tiniest mark on the side of his neck. The thought of tainting his perfect skin has you moaning against him, only egging him further to completion. His cock twitches in your hands, which has you stroking him faster.

“C’mon baby, you can cum anytime. You’ve been so good to me,” praising him, Kageyama looks directly into your eyes, face gone red, eyes hooded with uncontrollable lust as he groans aloud at your words. He likes it. “You’re so hot, baby. Cock’s so hard just for me,” his breathing gets heavier. “Gonna cum soon? Do it. Be good and cum all o-” He suddenly grabs both your wrists in his hand, stopping you from doing or saying anything else.

“Get on your fucking knees.”

You weren’t expecting that at all, which has you smirking and doing exactly what he says. Getting off his lap, you settle on the ground in front of him. You watch Kageyama intently as he stands right in front of you, cock in his dominant hand. He rubs himself, shallow jerks near the head of his big cock, with his other hand resting itself at the back of your head.

“I’m about to.. Can I?” his gasps get louder as he reaches the brink of climax. You stick your tongue out, a nice distance away from him, willing to accept all the love he has to offer. You admire the way his cock stills, and with a moan that has you throbbing, spurts of his cum land in your mouth. White ropes paint your tongue and face as Kageyama looks down at you, gasping for breath. You swallow his seed, all while never breaking your eye contact.

The movie has been long done, leaving you two alone in the now quiet room. Your thighs rub together, still in need for his touch even though he looks utterly exhausted. “You wanna sleep now, baby?” you simply say as he pulls his pants up, adjusting his now softening cock. Kageyama grabs a small cloth from his bag and begins wiping your face clean.

“No,” he discards the cloth and picks you up bridal style, walking you two to your bedroom. “It’s not that late. And, I still think I have a lot to learn..”

“Don’t you have practice tomorrow morning?”

“This is just endurance training.”

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(taglist continues in the replies!!)

#haikyuu #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu smau #kageyama smau #kageyama x reader #kageyama tobio #kageyama smut #no.1 fan #bad hours #admin kae

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circushorns · 3 years

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hello tumblr ive never shared any headcanons here before so im kinda nervous and if this messes up i will be sad :'] so uhhh here u go !! just kinda me rambling abt wave 2 bc i cant sleep

i feel like when wave 2 met each other adeleine and ribbon got along with daroach really well. they all wanted to get along with dark too and know more about him but he refused to open up around them and hardly showed any emotion. and sometimes if he showed emotion it would only be annoyance. adeleine thought there was no point in trying to get to know this guy because he clearly wasnt going to talk anytime soon but ribbon and daroach thought dark had some potential. i like to think that one night, daroach is like "wtf is with this guy is something wrong??" and eventually has a "man to man talk" with dark and basically just asks why he wont have any fun and loosen up. dark just replies with something like "theres no point in making friends or having any kind of relationship because we'll just die in the end." bc thats kinda what youre taught in the mirror world since everyone is so fragile and leaves the world so quickly. plus dark would also think that if theyre gonna defeat void (did they even know about void at the time?? idk im too tired lol) theyd need to be on guard at all times, rather than "playing dumb games and fucking around." daroach is kinda sad after the talk because he thought he'd be able to break through darks tough barrier, and he really wanted to see dark be happy and just have fun. their adventure continues on as normal and dark really cant help but envy seeing the others having fun and laughing. hes never had much of a friendship in his life, and the other person hes ever been close to was shadow kirby, who isnt even there. he also thinks about how daroach basically offered to be friends and how he missed the opportunity to befriend everyone and is more or less pissed at himself for that. and also pissed at himself for wanting friends at all. plus the feeling of homesickness was bothering him and he kinda just. stares longingly at the ground with this glazed look in his eyes and adeleine is like "um oh shit is he ok??" and everyone goes and checks up on him and keep asking him questions and stuff and he gets overwhelmed and snaps at them. then after that he just sighs and says he misses his home. and everyone gasps and theyre like "what the fuck he just opened up about his feelings omg" and they were realizing that they were finally getting somewhere. and ribbon instinctively goes up and hugs dark and he remembers how shadow kirby had hugged him and even tho dark would never admit it, the hug was really secure and made him feel more at home in a way, and he was happy. and without realizing it he started purring and the others were like "AAAAAH HE PURRS??? AND HES HAPPY??" and it kinda turns into a big ol group hug and dark gets super flustered but accepts it. after that dark very slowly starts actually interacting with the others and forms special little bonds with the 3 of them. he even at one point quietly laughs at one of their dumb jokes. when they all get to the end of the game dark starts feeling sad and he doesnt know why? daroach probably calls them over for a pep talk before the final battle and they all realize that they *might* not survive this. they say goodbye and thank each other for everything, yknow, just in case. anyways they win the battles over and they all realize, "wow, we're all alive??" and while daroach adeleine and ribbon are laughing and stuff, dark has a lot of emotions bottling up. hes happy hes alive, hes happy his new "friends" are alive. and he thought he'd be happier to know hes going home soon. but hes not, he wants to stay with these guys because for once in his life he feels happy and safe. it took him a long time to realize it but he finally found friends that he loves and cares about :) after a while he says goodbye and goes home with a heavy heart, but feels better when he sees shadow kirby again, and tells the kid about everything that happened, while making himself sound as cool as possible ofc. i like to think that he often goes back to dreamland to see daroach adeleine and ribbon, and even lets s kirby come along sometimes :)

#kirby #dark meta knight #daroach #adeleine #ribbon #i guess?#this is older than balls and im too embarrassed to read thru it nowadays Ignore This. big smile

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sp00kyapricotz · 3 years

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Runaway

(Kit Walker x Female Reader)

Description: You run away from your parents house and your bf kit,helps and goes along with you.

Word count:1240

a/n: idk if where he works at is really a gas station or an auto shop so im going with auto shop sorry for any confusion. Huge amount of grammar and punctuation errors (sorry).Also this ones somewhat fluffy? im not sure, hope you enjoy!!

You had just ran away from your parents, they were extremely unsupportive of your relationship with kit. They thought that he was unfit for you as he didn’t have much money and he worked at an auto shop.

Your plan was to get as far away from town as possible because you knew that your parents would go after you and would accuse kit of being the one who made you leave. Though you did leave mainly because of kit, he never told you to run away or even brought up the idea so you didn’t want kit to get in any trouble.

You were driving with no particular destination in mind. You passed by the auto shop Kit worked at and you knew it was closed but you also knew he would still be in there somewhere because it was still only around 8:30 after all.

You drove your car into the shop and almost immediately you hear Kit’s voice yell out “sign says closed!”

You get out of your car and proceed to walk towards the area where you knew kit would be

Kit heard your footsteps, though he didn’t know it was you

He gets up when he hears the foot steps getting closer

“Didn’t you read the si-“ Kit said alarmed at the sight of you with rosy cheeks and eye bags so prominent that your undeeyes were at least 3 shades darker than your skin

“Y/N, my god what’s wrong”

“Kit. I ran away”

“What do you mean you ran away”

“I mean I ran away, I can’t take being there anymore. I couldn’t stand hearing how they talked about you and how they would constantly torment me everyday 24/7 nonstop. I needed to leave.”

Kit put his hands on your cheeks while his thumb wiped away a tear that slipped away from your eye

“Hey,hey,hey everything’s gonna be okay, alright?”

“Yeah, yeah I know” you said sniffling

After a while you decided you needed to get going as you knew your parents would be after you soon

“Kit, I’ve gotta go my parents will be here any minute looking for me”

“Alright doll do you know where you’re gonna go? I don’t want you getting lost- I should come with you”

“I don’t know Kit, it just doesn’t seem like a good idea”

“what do you mean, you’ll be safer if i go with you. cant have a girl as beautiful as you all alone at night. besides, won’t your parents be here lookin for me? they’ll be threatening me to tell them where you’re at”

“Okay yeah i suppose that does make sense.”

“alright then, where are we headed”

“well... i haven’t exactly planned that part out yet unfortunately. do you got anywhere we could go to”

“I do kinda have a really small house i own about an hour away from here. it’s mainly for holidays and getaways but i guess we could go there”

“kit, that’s more than fine. anything’s better than being here”

“alright but we better get goin before your parents show up here.”

“yeah probably”

kit could see the worry in your eyes,he brought you closer to him and reassured you

“(y/n) look, your parents aren’t gonna be able to find us i promise you, we’ll be safe there for at least a year if not more. you don’t got anything to worry about”

“yes, i know ” you said staring up into kits eyes

“kit we need to go now”

“Okay let me lock up everything start the car Im driving”

kit got in the car and started driving to the location of the house

“kit wait”

“what’s wrong doll”

“you don’t have any of your stuff, if we’re supposed to be staying there for a year, you need at least a few of your things we can’t risk coming back into town”

“will it make you feel better?”

“yes, a lot actually”

“fine i’ll go but i’m only gonna get a few things”

“okay good get whatever you can”

kit quickly got out of the car and went into his house and he ran in and got things like money,clothing,bills,paperwork,and the keys to the house of course

kit immediately started driving the second he got back in the car, he was not going to waste any time

“kit i don’t think you brought enough things, did you turn off everything and made sure it didn’t look like anybody was just in the house?”

“yes i did everything, and don’t worry i have enough things to last me at least 10 years”

You were on the road for about an hour and a half. You both talked (and laughed) a lot during the trip. You noticed it had begun to snow around the middle of the ride. It wasn’t much but it was enough for it to visibly start accumulating on the ground and on the windshield.

Once you arrived, you’re made sure to quickly get all of your things in the house and began to worry about if your parents could somehow find you through your license plate

“Kit what if they put out a search for me and they put the license plate and the car out on posters. They’re gonna find me and make me go back. I can’t go back there- I- I wont.”

“And you’re not gonna have to. I’ll put the car in the garage and I could remove the license plate,nobody’s gonna suspect anything, alright?”

“yeah, i guess i’m just overthinking it. thanks kit. for everything for all the helps with this, heck i’d probably be back in my house crying myself to sleep if it weren’t for you.”

“of course, i’ll do anything for my girl. And (y/n) you weren’t overthinking anything. i’d be thinking the same as you if i had parents like that”

you smiled; kit following with a wide smile revealing his dimples

“Now lets go inside before the other houses hear us and think somethings goin on”

“Alright, so you’re sure my parents wont be showing up here anytime soon?”

“I’m more than sure of it doll”

You went inside, made sure all the entrances (including the windows) were locked. You and kit watched tv and ate the small snack you brought with you and some of the things he had in a pantry.

“We should get some food tomorrow half of this stuffs beyond expired” Kit said as he read off the expiration dates of cans and packages.

“ I know I know, but we’d better cover up so if any of my moms friends are in the area, they won’t be able to make out our faces”

“well that works out perfectly considering the the snowstorm out there” kit said making you laugh

“it’s almost 2:30 am we oughta go to bed”

“fine i guess so” kit whined, reminding you of how he was when you were little

You both got ready for bed. You put on one of kits shirts and some long pajama bottoms and put on a (clean) white tshirt and flannel print pants.

You both hopped in bed and layer close to each other to keep warm as the insulation wasn’t all that good and it was extremely cold out. However, Kit didn’t get all that cold usually so it was mainly just for you.

You fell asleep in each other’s arms and it felt so good to know that you would be seeing Kit every morning instead of having to see him in secret.

#kit walker x reader #ahs asylum #ahs fanfiction #kit walker

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styleiconoscarthegrouch · 4 years

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Episode Speculation for 10x05 and 10x06

Based on the summaries, spoilers and what I’ve come to expect from John Wells

10x05 Ian leaves prison and we start the parole officer subplot.

Based on the preview that was just released I don’t think we’ll get Mickey in this episode. I wouldn’t be terribly surprised if this ends up being the first scene of the episode, it will almost certainly be the first time we see Ian in the episode. As far as Ian and Mickey know Mickey is going to be stuck in prison for the next several years. While I would love to see a conversation where they actually talked about what that means now that Ian is actually getting out I don’t think we’re gonna get it. I think that it was as resolved as JW would let it be at the end of 10x03.

Because of this I don’t think that Ian will talk to his siblings about Mickey right away or in any detail. Ian has always been fairly private and even if we’re supposed to interpret 10x03 as them agreeing to stay faithful to eachother while Ian is out, I just don’t see him having a meaningful conversation with Lip or Debbie about his feelings wrt Mickey still being locked up. We will probably get some sort of quippy semi-offensive joke at Mickey’s expense because ~sHaMeLeSs~ I think we will get some sort of scene of Ian feeling weird/alone back in the real world and missing Mickey. If we are very lucky we might even get a phone call but I’m not 100% on that (see my last theory on why I think Ian and Mickey are going to get married initially) this scene could show up in 10x06 depending on how quickly Mickey actually gets paroled.

Now how will Mickey get paroled. Given that he escaped from prison once and that his original sentence was 15 years for attempted murder he shouldn’t be getting out anytime soon I don’t care how much info he gave on the cartel. Honestly he probably shouldn’t even be eligible for parole at all. But whatever. My guess is this is where the corrupt parole officer comes into play. She has whatever scheme she’s running which Ian is intially very against/going to turn her in for but she for some reason has the ability to get Mickey out, which forces Ian to agree to cooperate.

10x06 Something about Ian and the parole officer

Im very torn as to whether or not Mickey gets out at the beginning of this episode or in like the last two minutes. I’m leaning toward the last two minutes given that he isn’t listed in the episode summary and JW and co are sticking his name in whenever they reasonably can.

Given the episode description we do have I think the dramatic tension of this episode will hinge on if Ian is actually going to be able to get Mickey out. If he’s really fucked up with his P.O. than she could threaten to not give him whatever favor she promised to get Mickey out, which will probably force Ian to do something ~cRaZy~. I wouldn’t be shocked if Ian had to sleep with her but idk if JW will go that far.

I think Mickey actually getting out will be somewhat of a suprise to Ian and he won’t be there to pick him up from prison. Instead we will get a mirror of one of their other many suprise reunions (I’m sort of hoping it’s the one from 5x08). I think Ian will be feeling super shitty like he fucked up and prevented Mickey from getting a chance at parole and then Mickey will show up all Mickey like and make a joke and it will be very cute and romantic.

The other option is Mickey doesn’t actually get out until the beginning of 10x07 in which case Ian will pick him up from prison but we might not actually see the reunion.

Anyway I love talking about this so please message me if you have thoughts!

#mickey milkovich #gallavich #ian gallagher #shameless

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kittywolves · 5 years

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1-200 if you want lmao If not then just your favourites

200: My crush’s name is: don’t have one tbh, not romantically anyway

199: I was born in: west virginia, 2000

198: I am really: dumb

197: My cellphone company is: idk man

196: My eye color is: blue w/yellow bursts but they just appear green if you’re not super close

195: My shoe size is: 7+1/2-8

194: My ring size is: 7+1/2-8

193: My height is: 5′5″

192: I am allergic to: sesame :T

191: My 1st car was: N/A

190: My 1st job was: N/A

189: Last book you read: uh, Percy Jackson? i think

188: My bed is: warm, cozy, full of plushies & cat fur

187: My pet: CALCIFER!!!

186: My best friend: uh,, i don’t have one?

185: My favorite shampoo is: idk fruity scents that aren’t watermelon

184: Xbox or ps3: PS3

183: Piggy banks are: cute or terrifying, no in-between

182: In my pockets: my phone

181: On my calendar: birthdays

180: Marriage is: cute

179: Spongebob can: CAN SPONGEBOB FINALLY END PLEASE

178: My mom: can go die

177: The last three songs I bought were? uhh, i haven’t bought any songs,,

176: Last YouTube video watched: DrawingWiffWaffles newest video

175: How many cousins do you have? 1

174: Do you have any siblings? yes, 2 alive 1 dead

173: Are your parents divorced? no,,

172: Are you taller than your mom? around the same height

171: Do you play an instrument? no, but i wish i could play the harp tbh

170: What did you do yesterday? uh, i went shopping with my mother and then watched Futurama

[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: ? i dunno anymore

168: Luck: i guess so, yea

167: Fate: yea

166: Yourself: no

165: Aliens: YES

164: Heaven: yea

163: Hell: yea

162: God: ? yea?

161: Horoscopes: not really

160: Soul mates: YESSSSS

159: Ghosts: yep!!

158: Gay Marriage: %100

157: War: no >:(

156: Orbs: what

155: Magic: yep!!

[ This or That ]154: Hugs or Kisses: hugs pls

153: Drunk or High: never been either, both sound fun

152: Phone or Online: usually use my phone tbh

151: Red heads or Black haired: all are adorable!!

150: Blondes or Brunettes: a d o r a b l e ! !

149: Hot or cold: uhm, comfortable warm,,

148: Summer or winter: SUMMER

147: Autumn or Spring: HALLOWEEN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

146: Chocolate or vanilla: CHOCOLATE

145: Night or Day: NIGHTTIME

144: Oranges or Apples: apples

143: Curly or Straight hair: both are great!! i have slightly wavy hair uwu

142: McDonalds or Burger King: neither >:(

141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: MILK PLS

140: Mac or PC: um, idc

139: Flip flops or high heels: F L I P F L O P S

138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: SWEET AND POOR PLS GIVE ME A KIND BAB TO LOVE @ UNIVERSE

137: Coke or Pepsi: coke !!

136: Hillary or Obama: obama!!

135: Buried or cremated: cremated so i can’t come back :’)

134: Singing or Dancing: i can’t do either :(

133: Coach or Chanel: ugh, coach ig

132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: who or who

131: Small town or Big city: i live in a city, but a town sounds nice tbh

130: Wal-Mart or Target: TARGET

129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: what

128: Manicure or Pedicure: PEDICURE PEDICURE PEDICURE

127: East Coast or West Coast: i live on the west, so west

126: Your Birthday or Christmas: MY BIRTHDAY BC I GET TO PICK THE THEME !!!

125: Chocolate or Flowers: flowers die and give off the aesthetic but chocolates are delicious so both

124: Disney or Six Flags: i love disneyland it’s just SO EXPENSIVE and six flags is gr8 for the thrills, plus i currently have a pass so

123: Yankees or Red Sox: who? which sport is this[ Here’s What I Think About ]122: War: blehhhh no

121: George Bush: idk american presidents lmao

120: Gay Marriage: YES YES YES YES YES YES

119: The presidential election: ew

118: Abortion: i’ll allow it lmao, i don’t think it’s great, but ik people will still get it whether it’s legal or not so might as well legalize it. also some cases actually need it so like,, yea!! let it happen!! pro-choice!!

117: MySpace: never used it lmao

116: Reality TV: ew ew ew ew EXCEPT FOR COOKING SHOWS

115: Parents: mine or just in general? bc eh

114: Back stabbers: M U R D E R T H E M 113: Ebay: lmao shipping expenses

112: Facebook: haven’t used it in years, do use messenger tho

111: Work: i like wedding coordinating with my aunt!! that’s about all the work i’ve done, oh and i’ve babysat

110: My Neighbors: don’t know em, they probably think we’re crazy tho, always yelling

109: Gas Prices: too!! high!!

108: Designer Clothes: eh, clothes are clothes, and some clothes are ugly (a lot of times it’s designer clothes blehh)

107: College: i mean i guess

106: Sports: go team! hit the ball! score the points! woo

105: My family: dysfunctional,,

104: The future: nooooooooooooooooooo

[ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone: uhhhhh....

102: Last time you ate: uhm, around 4?? maybe?? it’s 7 now

101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: uh?? i never see anyone OH i guess on wednesday last week,,

100: Cried in front of someone: ???? idk??? i cry while everyone’s asleep usually

99: Went to a movie theater: last week !! um, thursday?

98: Took a vacation: uhh, february, early march? i went to ohio

97: Swam in a pool: uh, last monday

96: Changed a diaper: um, not this year lmao, maybe last year tho idk

95: Got my nails done: ???? i dunno

94: Went to a wedding: last november?? or wait no,, uhm i dunno sometime recently lmao

93: Broke a bone: never! did drop one in water tho :/

92: Got a piercing: december!

91: Broke the law: ?? i don’t wear seatbelts when i sit in the back seat lmao

90: Texted: around two hours ago[ MISC ]89: Who makes you laugh the most: um,, my friends

88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: MY KITTY BABY

87: The last movie I saw: missing link! the stop motion- i’m a wh*re for animation lmao

86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: changing my name, moving out, getting married & having a stable life :’)

85: The thing im not looking forward to: being stuck here forever and eventually kmsing due to stress and depression :’)

84: People call me: Kitty!! Kiki!! (birth name) karebear!!

83: The most difficult thing to do is: exist within the same room as my mother without bursting into tears or storming off

82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: nope

81: My zodiac sign is: Virgo! Viriborn for all you homestucks! and dragon in the animal one!

80: The first person i talked to today was: my dad :’) and then i messaged @deanilise even tho she was asleep

79: First time you had a crush: uh, as far back as i can remember i had a “crush” on Daphne Blake :D but i was like a small child and didn’t know what love was so anytime i saw anyone who i thought was cool or pretty or i wanted to befriend i had a supposed “crush” on them :/

78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: i try to be pretty open, but sometimes i just wanna close off

77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: yikes idk

76: Right now I am talking to: like talking to or talking to? for the first, just some group chats for the second, no one

75: What are you going to do when you grow up: i wanna be an artist! i would love to be a youtube artist, but i fear i’m not creative enough for such things.. i would also like to be able to tell my stories!

74: I have/will get a job: i dunno,,

73: Tomorrow: church

72: Today: overslept, did some chores, been online

71: Next Summer: hopefully i can go back to colorado to visit my brother !

70: Next Weekend: ugh, church activities & then actual church, as well as other easter festivities

69: I have these pets: baby kitty, and some dogs....

68: The worst sound in the world: FORK SCRAPING ON BOWL, ERASER SCRAPING ON PAPER, DOG’S SNORING, MY MOTHER’S VOICE WHEN I’M HAVING SENSORY OVERLOAD

67: The person that makes me cry the most is: my mother, she’s like the only person that makes me cry unless someone says they’re attempting and i can’t get through to them

66: People that make you happy: @onedirtysock @aliaitee @deku-is-tired @deanilise @awkward-scarfy-boi @fourth-best-jeanist @bnhaworld @bnhya @helloiliketits @trashyfxndoms

65: Last time I cried: last night oops

64: My friends are: (see 66) they’re all very nice & supportive which is amazing & i love them all dearly

63: My computer is: a MacBook air with a galaxy cover

62: My School: not in one but the one i’m gonna go to in the fall is just a community college

61: My Car: N/A

60: I lose all respect for people who: hate on anyone, racists, homophobes, transphobes, pedos, terfs, ableists, etc

59: The movie I cried at was: uh, i dunno, but i was crying abt futurama the other night

58: Your hair color is: orange-y with dark brown roots, supposed to be dyeing it soon :)

57: TV shows you watch: BNHA, HIMYM, Bob’s Burgers, TUA w/ @deanilise Futurama, The Simpsons, Fairytail, Runaway’s, Adventure Time, SVTFOE, etc

56: Favorite web site: Tumblr!

55: Your dream vacation: Ireland,, ofc i always dreamed of going to paris when i was younger, and Britain sounds cool too, & i’ve heard belgium is pretty && japan sounds fun && new york city sounds super cool as well so idk any of those places ig

54: The worst pain I was ever in was: uh, probably when i broke my arm, although i can’t remember it, i did used to get growing pains in my legs when i was younger & could hardly sleep so there’s that option as well

53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium or medium-well

52: My room is: messy, but it’s home & also warm

51: My favorite celebrity is: uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i dunno

50: Where would you like to be: idk, in my bed ig

49: Do you want children: yea! i wanna adopt!

48: Ever been in love: uh, i thought i was, but it was just an intense crush on this girl lmao

47: Who’s your best friend: already answered this lmao

46: More guy friends or girl friends: girls,,

45: One thing that makes you feel great is: laughing, music, & seeing my friends

44: One person that you wish you could see right now: any of y’all would be great tbh

43: Do you have a 5 year plan: survive

42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: lmao no,

41: Have you pre-named your children: uh, i have names picked out that i like, but idk depends how young my kid is when i adopt them, and even then idk if i could bring myself to change their name uwu

40: Last person I got mad at: my mother,,

39: I would like to move to: IRELAND OR SOMETHING I DUNNO I WANT OUT OF THIS GODFORSAKEN COUNTRY

38: I wish I was a professional: artist!! youtube maybe!![ My Favorites ]37: Candy: hmm, i like smarties, m&ms, gummy bears, & sweetarts

36: Vehicle: uhh, vw beetles? WAIT NO JEEP WRANGLERS I THINK

35: President: uh idk

34: State visited: the one i live in lmao, California :)

33: Cellphone provider: idk a lot about them

32: Athlete: N/A

31: Actor: eeeeeeee

30: Actress: eeeeeeee

29: Singer: Case! Patrick Stump!

28: Band: FALL OUT BOYYYYYYYYYYY

27: Clothing store: Hottopic

26: Grocery store: N/A

25: TV show: Arrow! Adventure Time! (ripip) i haven’t seen Arrow in a long time tho so idk if it’s still any good...

24: Movie: Heathers!!

23: Website: Tumblr,,

22: Animal: CATS

21: Theme park: DisneyLand! it’s just sooooooooo expensive ;-;

20: Holiday: HALLOWEEN

19: Sport to watch: Soccer!!

18: Sport to play: none

17: Magazine: i don’t read them

16: Book: The Hunger Games

15: Day of the week: probably friday or saturday

14: Beach: uh, maybe seal? or hermosa?

13: Concert attended: i’ve been to exactly one (1) and i didn’t enjoy it bc it was for Ariana Grande

12: Thing to cook: well you don’t cook them but, COOKIES!!

11: Food: Ice Cream!! Burgers!! Mashed Potatoes !!

10: Restaurant: In-N-Out probably

9: Radio station: 98.7 alt radio

8: Yankee candle scent: uh i dunno

7: Perfume: Vanilla Bean Noelle from bbw

6: Flower: daffodils

5: Color: pink! purple! green!

4: Talk show host: no

3: Comedian: Bo Burnham or John Mulaney

2: Dog breed: Retrievers !

1: Did you answer all these truthfully? yes!

here’s my baby for reference & for putting up with all that

#kitty answers #200 asks #deku-is-tired #calcifer

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soft bias tag ~

i was tagged by @curledlife thank you angel!!

Who is your bias?

i don’t really have a bias in kard, so i guess i’ll just answer for all of them?

What made you notice them?

b.m - his height first of all, the dude is a skyscraper. also his deeeeeeep voice got me!

somin - her elegance in performance and in the mvs. she just look so put together.

jiwoo - her voice! there’s something about her singing voice that is really pleasing to my ear. tbh i thought she was kinda scary at first, but she is also such a sweetheart.

j.seph - i thought he was really pretty when i fist saw him. then, when i first heard him rap, I really liked his flow.

What is your favorite thing about them?

b.m - his heart. he is one of the softest people, and he has so much love. i love that he is so happy to share that love with his members, his friends, and with us. he really is such a beautiful soul.

somin - her laughter. it’s so bright and bubbly just like her. it’s that kind of laughter thats infectious. when she laughs its like the room lights up even more.

jiwoo - her ability to maintain chill at basically all times haha. she is just the coolest kid on the block, and her responses to things are always the best.

j.seph - his sense of humor is my absolute favorite!! he is funny, silly, and he’s not afraid to show that side of himself.

Who would initiate skinship more?

b.m - he would? he’s very affectionate with people he’s friends with, so even if its just his arm around the shoulder or a touch every so often, he would be the one initiating that.

somin - again, i think she would probably be the one to initiate it. it would probably be mostly arm linking though.

jiwoo - we would be even. jiwoo isn’t too into skinship from what i’ve noticed, and neither am i.

j.seph - he would. hands down. he seems to be the most keen on initiating some soft of physical contact with people. so yeah it would be him.

Who would hog the blankets more?

b.m - he seems like he would take the blanket, but then, he would wake up in the night and cover me up because he saw that he took it all, but idk his sleep habits so idk haha

somin - i think she would have them. not that i mind tbh, but to me she seems friolenta, so i would let her have the blankets.

jiwoo - i think we’d be even on this one too?

j.seph - i can see this kid rolling himself into a burrito with the blankets, so im gonna have to say he would take them all.

Who would be more clingy?

b.m - him. he’s got that vibe.

somin - i think maybe me? it’s probably me.

jiwoo - definitely me. she doesn’t come off as clingy in any sense of the word.

j.seph - him. like b.m, he just gives off that vibe. and i don’t mean in the overly obsessive clingy way. both of the boys would just check in with you, make sure you’re doing alright more frequently than the girls. i think it’s because theyre older and they really just wanna look out for and protect the people they care about. the girls would be much more chill.

Who would be more easily flustered?

ME.

What cuddling position would you two have?

b.m - I. WANNA. BE. THE. LITTLE. SPOON. can you imagine being enveloped by by matthew??? that would be the best thing in the world?? because he always looks so warm and cozy!!! i would feel so safe like that...wow im gonna go cry now haha

somin - her head would be on my lap as i run my fingers through her hair. is that a cuddling position? probably not. but i’m gonna make it one. why? because i can, and because this would be the way we would spend lazy sundays.

jiwoo - again, not really cuddling, PERO we’d lay down with our backs touching. there’s not a lot of physical contact, but just enough to know that the other person is there. it’s comforting and comfortable.

j.seph - id love to just relax and lay my head on his chest. listen to his heartbeat. one of his arms wrapped around me too. it would be so nice. seriously folks just thinking about this is... a lot.

What colors remind you of them and why?

b.m - red. he’s so full of passion and drive for all the things that he does. he’s also got this type of personality that has such a powerful impact. also he looks super good in red.

somin - pink. there’s always such a softness to somin. i know that she’s fierce and powerful, but she is always such a soft soul. she has a lightness to her that the color pink reflects.

jiwoo - indigo. a cool tone for a cool person. the color fits the mysterious, chic vibe that she has, but it’s also a calm color. much like jiwoo, the color indigo is a soothing color.

j.seph - yellow. j.seph is such a bright person. he can be serious, but he always a bright aura around him. he takes things with stride, and just continues to smile. the color yellow suits that joyful and playful personality of his!

Which season would you like to spend with them?

i’d want to spend winter with all of them because it’s my favorite season, but I feel like B.M is more a summer dude, Somin is more like spring as is J.seph, and Jiwoo is an autumn/winter gal to me. but i wanna spend winter with them!

Who would bake the cookies and who would steal the batter?

b.m- we would probably both bake the cookies, but he would steal the batter. i don’t like eating the batter like that tbh baking would probably be so fun with b.m though because he follows the instructions, but would probably toss in some interesting ingredients.

somin - we’d probably both end up making each other cookies. we make them at the same time, but individually, so we’d probably be so focused in making them that the batter would remain intact!

jiwoo - mmmm i would bake the cookies while she sat at the counter and watched? she’d probably dip her finger in the batter to try it a couple of times, and give her opinion on the taste though!

j.seph - no cookies would be made. he wouldn’t be tasting the batter, but playing with it? like smearing it on my cheek or nose, and then i would have to retaliate, and then minutes later there would be no batter left haha

Which one would make bad puns and how would the other react?

b.m- he would make all the puns (good and bad), i’d just laugh because he never really has any truly bad puns

somin- i’d definitely make all the bad puns. i think she would just do what she does with the boys and cringe and smack my arm lol

jiwoo- it would still be me making all the bad jokes. jiwoo would probably just stare at me or walk away (but would crack a smile... she loves bad puns i know it)

j.seph- he is the king of all jokes and silliness, so it would definitely be this boy cracking all the puns. i wouldn’t be able to help myself, and i can 100% guarantee that i’d be crying of laughter.

Who would want to adopt 50 dogs and cats?

all of us.

Which one of you would nearly burn down the kitchen to try to microwave a poptart and who would come to the rescue?

...i don’t microwave pop tarts so, if any of them do, it would be them lol. i’d come and help them out though!!

Who likes to lean over tall railings and who pulls them back?

(I have a fear of heights so...I am not leaning over any tall railings anytime soon.)

b.m- you know as free spirited and wild as he seems, matthew is very careful so perhaps neither of us would lean over the railings. if he did though, i’d grip onto his shirt so tight to pull him back.

somin- for sure neither of us would be leaning over any railings. we’d be so far from the edge appreciating having only solid ground beneath us.

jiwoo- jiwoo would probably get kicks out of looking over the railing. she’d probably tease me by leaning over it a couple of times, and just looking back to see my reaction (she’s a bit of a daredevil lol) so it would be me taking her away from the railing.

j.seph- he would lean over the railing out of sheer curiosity, but he would lean too far, so i would definitely be pulling this kid back.

What would watching a horror film with them be like?

b.m- he’d probably be calm for the majority of it, but he seems like the kind of person whose body would jolt when they get scared, but he wouldn’t scream. he would try to laugh off the scary moments, and crack jokes to make it all seem less terrifying. he’d also cover your eyes and keep you tucked in his arms to make you feel less scared too.

somin- screaming our head off together. possibly in tears. why did we start watching this horror film? who knows! but now we’re too scared to move, and the remote seems to be nowhere in reach sooo... we are stuck. probably clinging to each other for dear life. someone would have to come turn off the tv for us, but then we’d probably scream if we saw them just because we’re already terrified.

jiwoo- depending on the film, she’d probably be laughing at some parts, but she’d definitely get scared as well. she’d probably grip your arm real tight when she got scared, but i think she would try to brave through the film. she’d focus more on the logical things in the film. if it has a storyline, she’ll focus on the details of the story to distract her mind from what might be coming up.

j.seph- so he apparently doesn’t get scared easily, so he would probably be chill throughout the film. he’d probably tease you about the scary parts, but not in a mean way. it would be more in a ways that downplays the horror, so you feel better. although, if there’s a really scary part, he’d probably give a little jump, and ,if you called him out on it, he’d try to play it off or just bluntly be like ‘oh that was surprising.’ (im thinking of that tour avatar video haha)

Who would be the chessy flirt and who would be the smooth flirt?

(i can’t flirt)

b.m- HE WOULD BE THE CHEESIEST BOY ON THE PLANET. HE ALREADY IS. I think he would like to think that he’s a smooth flirt, but he’s so cheesy. He’d be so gushy and what not, but it’s so fitting of who he is because he’s so full of love and energy. he has to shower the person he likes with that love. he has to. it definitely works for him. though, i think he’d also be the person to say very deep and serious things and end up flustering the person.

somin- the shy flirt (im adding my own categories here) she exudes confidence on stage, but just seeing her gush about hyuna I can already see that shes a shy and giggly flirt. she showers the person she likes with compliments and positivity, and she’s so soft around them. also if she really likes them she’s gonna be super giggly around them and a blush will always be on her face.

jiwoo- she’d be smooth, but with a little hint of awkwardness? she’d probably give an awkward first liner, but then she’d save herself by saying something incredibly smooth. from that moment, she be the smooth talking queen. she’s really witty, so you’re most certainly gonna be charmed by her sweet talking skills.

j.seph- he’d be like an awkward/shy flirt. he’d really try to impress, but it wouldn’t come out the way he wanted it to. there’s the good chance that he would just start giggling instead of actually saying anything. he’d probably try to crack jokes as well ( this would be his strongest point when it comes to flirting haha), but everything would work for him because, even if he thinks everything came out in an embarrassing way, its actually super endearing.

Who is more competitive?

they’re all competitive, and im competitive. so all of us. i think b.m would probably be the only one to “lose.” the others would really want to win (especially j,seph)

Who would have to be given reminders (remember to eat, don’t forget your keys, etc)

they’re all so busy with tours and stuff that i think i would have to remind them to eat, and to take their wallets/phones/etc. but on days when they’re not as busy:

b.m- if he’s working on producing something I would probably have to remind him to eat, and to sleep ( get off ig too). he seems like he falls into his own world when he’s focused on something, so we need to keep him healthy

somin- i think she would be pretty good keeping herself on track in terms of meals, but she would definitely need reminders on what to take during a trip or when going out for the day.

jiwoo- idk why i feel like she’s just on top of everything. i think it’s because has a very independent vibe to her, but i think she would be reminding me about things, if she isn’t busy.

j.seph- he’d probably need reminding about where certain things are, idk why i get the vibe that he misplaces things, but in the most obvious places. also just regular reminders about what’s happening (my poor bub seems lost sometimes)

Who sends memes and who sends cute things like “i miss you” texts at 3 am?

b.m- we’re both sending memes, but he would definitely send cute messages. or post cute messages through ig or something like he does for the members. he’s a good morning/ good night text person. also he’d send a lot of photos of him making cute/silly faces i think. also gym photos showing you his progress, and what his next goal is.

somin- i’d send her some memes, but the cute messages are all her! they’d be full of emojis ( hearts, bows, animals, everything) she’d also probably send photos of things that she’s seen that remind her of you. also get ready for photos of se ah!

jiwoo- both of us would be sending each other memes. she’s got a funky sense of humor! she would also send videos/photos of the other members messing around with some a+ caption. also aside from memes, she’d send pictures of tani.

j.seph- he’d send you some cheesy messages. probably wouldn’t send memes, but he would tell you jokes he came up with or he’s heard that he hasn’t told you yet. i’d probably send him memes only to see his reactions because i bet you they would be funny! i think if he were drunk or tipsy he’d send some long loving message at three am (it would be him rambling about how much he loves you and misses you and what not, but it would be cute).

so yeah that’s that! this was so long, and if you read all of this you are a superstar!

im gonna tag: @somin @sominbiased @oliviahei @allofmylovelove @fensi @jsephology @jeonjiwwoo @jiwoojisoo @sujiwoo @hiddenkard4 @babykard and anyone else who wants to do it!

#this took me like three weeks to do im sorry #thank you for the tag though!#tag game #tagged #if i tagged you you dont have to do it!

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