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skitskatdacat63 · 7 months

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Boy King AU | Vettonso + Martian | 1.3k

There's something about putting the future emperor of the Holy Realm on his knees like this. About how easily he goes, how willingly, how obediently. What would his adoring public think if they could see him now. If they saw their beloved king pressed down like this, in the cramped space between Fernando's legs. When they realized their little boy king took it like he was a little concubine instead.

Fernando's bitterness is lifted away in moments like these, like taking off a heavy cloak on a winter's day. It was hard to feel humiliated about his own situation when watching Sebastian debase himself like this.

He always gives himself up so easily. When Fernando threaded his fingers through his thick curls. When he pulled them, and then when he pressed his face down further down into the vee of his legs. Sebastian rubbed his cheek into the coarse fabric of Fernando's breeches and blinked up at him. Fernando had to smother an embarrassing sound; he was just like a little cat!

Sebastian quirked his lips up into an odd little smile and slightly rose up on his knees, "What's funny?" Fernando swallowed lightly and schooled his face back into being impassive, "Nothing. As you were." Sebastian simply smirked at him and let himself be pushed back down by the fist clenched in his hair.

Fernando scoffed internally, there was only so much pleasure in putting the other man in his place when he instead acted like this, this degrading action, was his birthright. He took to ruling and indulging in carnal pleasures as if they were of equal gravity. To be privileged to hold such high station and also let himself be taken apart like this…Fernando felt embarrassed for him.

He is dragged away from his musings when Sebastian moved to settle his hands in Fernando's lap, clutching his hips over the fabric and slightly squeezing; Fernando fought against the urge to shiver. Sebastian pushed up the skirt of Fernando's waistcoat and smoothed his hands over the opening flap of his breeches.

His eyes darted up at Fernando again, a daft smile on his face. Fernando scowled at him, "What?" Seb's grin sharpened, "You could stand to be a little more gracious. This is your future emperor, and future husband might I add, kneeling for you on this dirty, depraved, derelict- ah–" Fernando tugged on his hair again and hissed, "Well then, why don't you show me how eager you are to perform your marital duties?"

Seb licked his lips, completely unconcerned by Fernando's annoyance, and unbuttoned one side of the closure to Fernando's breeches and moved to open the other–

The door to the carriage flew open, arrival announcement dying on a wheezing breath as the servant took in the image the two kings made. One splayed across the seat, exuding power, the other kneeled, debauched, between the former's legs.

One would be hard pressed to determine which was higher on the totem of power and titles.

There was something gratifying about this to Fernando, about being caught. He had been humiliated enough throughout the entire courtship, what was one more thing? And, certainly, what was one more thing if he could drag Sebastian down into the dirt with him.

"Oh Mark, don't act so abashed! It's nothing you haven't seen before, in fact, we have been in this very position not even a fortnight ago!"

Oh. Yes. That.

It was hard to be completely pleased when he remembered how Sebastian had already spent years prior to their engagement sampling the palace's ample selection of fellow high-born men. And how all those men seemed to be completely and utterly wrapped around his little finger.

Fernando released his hand from Sebastian's hair as if it had burned him. He did not understand why he felt ashamed with Mark looking in on them like this. Fernando was the one marrying Sebastian, not Mark; Mark was just a lowly courtier who had the esteemed duty of spending practically every waking hour with the brat…something he himself was decidedly not looking forward to.

Sebastian stayed kneeling, staring impassively up at Mark, still fiddling with the clasp on Fernando's breeches. Fernando gritted his teeth and looked up from where he was watching Sebastian's clever little hands; Mark stared back at him placidly.

Mark's indifference made the entire situation worse. Fernando now felt as if he was not doing anything unique, not doing anything particularly new. How many other men had Mark caught Seb with in this exact position? Fernando felt like he was just another plaything of the boy king, soon to be boy emperor, except his position was forever, permanent. He was the "Kept King", the king who only kept his throne due to the whims of a boy who doesn't even understand what power is.

Mark coughed, "Well," he says, "Your Majesty, I do believe you have a meeting to attend." Seb pouted at him and whined, "We were just getting to the main course," but still braced himself on Fernando's thighs and got up off the carriage floor.

Seb pranced down the steps Mark had placed next to the carriage, miming tripping sown the stairs, snickering when his action made Mark reflexively reach out to grab him, and then playfully skipped off the final step.

Fernando couldn't help but stare as Mark made the weirdest grimace in response, and he inexplicably felt all his mortification seep away from him. Huh. Maybe Mark is-

Seb then turned around and frowned at him, seemingly disappointed, but his eyes are deceivingly sharp, "Fernando, I regret to inform you that I have other duties I must attend to, you will simply have to wait." He then grinned up at Mark next to him and giggled as the other man stiffened when Sebastian looped both of his arms through Mark's.

He leaned all his weight on the other man, Mark not so much as shifting his weight, "Oh Mark, won't you carry me back to the palace? I'm so very tired after all the horse riding," Seb looked up at him imploringly.

Fernando observed as Mark rolled his eyes and shrugged off the man, though notably not pulling his arm from Seb's grasp, and he got the distinct feeling that this exact scene had been played out countless times before.

Fernando clenched his jaw as he watched Seb turn and saunter off, Mark trotting alongside him like a loyal dog. Fernando was supposed to be the unaffected one in this partnership, the unflustered one, the unconcerned one. And yet here he stood, in broad daylight, in a foreign kingdom, on the steps of a carriage with his breeches half unbuttoned and his cravat in disarray.

He heard a cough from beside him, jolted and looked to the side. Sebastian's loyal Horse Master stood there, lounging against the side of the carriage. Fernando had forgotten who had even been driving the carriage in the first place. After Seb has let himself be pushed down, his hair still windswept from their ride together, everything else seemed to fade away. His thoughts were reduced only to how he could mess up the younger man's hair further.

Jenson grinned at him wolfishly, and casually crossed his legs, "First time?" he inquired. Fernando glared at him. The other man laughed openly at him, "What? He's a busy man with big prospects. You're not his majesty's only conquest, you know. Now your throne on the other hand…"

Fernando seethed, it was one thing to be humiliated by the future emperor, but to be patronized by the king's horse boy? No. It would simply not do. He closed his eyes in annoyance, pinched the bridge of his nose, exhaled, and prepared a speech about how he was not about to be talked down to by a man who didn't even have a throne to speak of!

But when he opened his eyes again and opened his mouth to begin his tirade, Jenson was already wandering away to tend to the horses. Dios mío, Fernando was not mentally prepared to spend the rest of his life with all of these impertinent morons.

#i love how i kept saying to people: no no i shant write any fic for this. only art.#me like two weeks later: hey guys :)#this is just: i was sitting in class and had a drawing idea but then im obv not drawing *this* in class so my brain went into narrative mod #not exactly 'baby's first ficlet!!!' but moreso ive not written in a while so i hope its alright???#but aaahhh this was actually pretty fun!! idk i think it was bcs i was also being brainrotted by the image of seb kneeling....#maybe ill draw it. but it felt like something that needed the context of narrative and not just oo here is a drawing!#anyways you can always ask me for a directors cut-(PLEASE PLEAE BEGGING PLEASE)#see this is why im not cut out for writing fic #its not like i dont think it can speak for itself. more that im just an overly reflective person who wants to explain all my thoughts #if i wrote fic itd really be just: chapter 1. chapter 1.5 chapter 2. chapter 2.5 #anyways i think its pretty obvious but this is before their wedding and just like peak bitterness.#well not peak. peak would be the first year- first few months of their marriage #but this is fernando who is only just realizing how naive all his expectations of seb were and getting a glimpse of his future #but mostly: mindgames and power play and: whos actually really winning?#also my god jense is literally the best chara in this au. he is vibing and basically just witnessing ye olde reality tv #mark and fernando are always in a weird powerplay with seb(even if seb isnt even consiously doing so) and jense is just free from it all #hmm now how does one go about tagging fic #vettonso #f1 fanfic #formula 1 fanfic #f1 #formula 1 #martian #sebmark #also idk why im always so concerned abt tagging when im basically just writing this for my little boy king following i have somehow formed #hahaha! it is art to me!:#catie.art.#boy king au

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1eos · 19 days

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as the First and Only Daughter in a black family unit can i just say the way sons are allowed to be subpar and dependent to the point of tar pit levels truly has me agog every time i see it

#like idk how to describe it but u see the way a mother treats her dependent son and just knowwwww it would not fly if that were u #and im (mostly) not bitter im truly happy kids on average get more permissive parents #bc ik its at the cost of any kind of privacy :/ but sometimes i see stuff and its like #:/ uh oh sister ik thats not good for his development #i really should be a child counselor but i hate parents so no

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six-of-ravens · 6 months

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think I've figured out what bugs me so much about Natasha Pulley's work - every female character who could potentially interfere with the ~gay couple~ is portrayed in a negative light

#there's something else about it that bugs me too. like. something about her depiction of history...#i started the kingdoms and im trying to puzzle out why it's not really working for me #also i swear this author KEEPS GIVING HER GAY CHARACTERS WIVES for NO REASON #she literally just wants to portray the wives as bitches #but like. WHY ADD THEM?? WHY MAKE ALICE JOE'S WIFE???#she did that and then immediately went 'well alice is a rapist and a bad mother then!!' like girl. you could have just made them like #co-inhabitants of this house. and not married. and Lily could be related to Joe in some other way if you NEED a kid...#idk. im still bitter about pepperharrow lol where the eofe finally started being treated like a human and not a fucking chess piece #and then killed herself for her husband basically. SHE DIDN'T HAVE TO DIE. THERE WERE A TON OF SOLUTIONS!!#but no. we can't have sweet baby Mori having a wife after he ran away to England to live with his gay lover nooooooo #WHY EVEN MAKE HIM MARRIED JUST SO YOU CAN KILL HIS WIFE OFF. SHE COULD'VE BEEN HIS HOUSEKEEPER OR SMTH #this has gotten away from me. I just don't like it tho.#if there were any female characters that were portrayed positively though and not treated like a Threat to the Gay I'd feel better #but there aren't so far #unless you count the absentee Madeline #the only female character treated well so far is Joe's daughter Lily and she's two

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imaginaryfriendwithbenefits · 25 days

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the reactions to that Quiet On Set Nickelodeon documentary have genuinely been one of the most depressing things I've seen on the Internet in a while.

Like wow, I love seeing everyone's true crime brain hot takes about literal abused children. It's so cool how people are being harassed into outing themselves as CSA survivors. if I stumble across one more shitty depressing tiktok edit of Drake Bell and Amanda Bynes set to Put Me In A Movie by Lana Del Rey I am going to hit someone with my car. their trauma shouldn't be your entertainment and the was the whole fucking point!!!

Anyway. Survivors can't fucking win. If you don't say anything you're complicit and took the hush money and if you do you're using it as a PR stunt bc why are you only speaking up now and either way it's probably your own damn fault bc the only perfect victim is a dead one.

I want to be angry but at this point I'm just tired and sad.

#excuse the bitterness i know this isn't very funny goth manic pixie dream boyfriend of me #quiet on set #csa tw #victim blaming tw #ask to tag i guess #idk im just venting #the ptsd is really ptsding rn lmao

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jojotier · 1 year

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how do you write a story where the protagonist dies?

not one where the protagonist is fighting you every step of the way- not one where she is begging you to spare her life. I feel like that's easier, because you just set fate in motion, and hey, for the story you want, you can't interfere. it was always going to end like this. like yes I'm mourning you, but the laws of this world I've built dictate that your death is inevitable. Sorry. It will be over soon. Then we can rest.

but what do you do when your protagonist wants to die?

not because of suicidal ideation, because that, too, would be easier to deal with. you show her that life is still worth living. you show her kindness, and love, and even if she still constantly wants to die at least she can see that she might need to work on that, and you can at least promise her that things will be okay. it got better for me, so it's really just common decency to make sure it gets better for you.

but what if your protagonist has lived too long? What if there isn't any getting better because this is better, this is as good as it's going to get, and to live is to repeat a thousand years of illness and stasis?

The win state's long since been reached. She's loved and lost and longs only to go home to the place her mother and her mother's mother and her grandmother's mother has died.

how cruel am I, then, that my first instinct is to deny her?

#suicide mention #death mention #writing #my writing #original writing #or really just woes of writeblr i guess jbhkjnl #backburner projects #idk how to describe it its like #there's a hidden violence to even a true utopia #and like i don't mean a fake 'utopia' trying to hide a dystopia i mean a true blue Utopia #where humans have reached the apex of kindness and compassion and civilization and strive to tell stories #and because of how perfect everything is #people must therefore shy away from when struggles become Imperfect #when the sick and dying snap and snarl and push you away #when the illness makes them see shadows in the corner. when they stop being so easily ''''pitiable'''' bc they no longer are #the picture perfect Good Patient #because to be human is to be angry and bitter and vindictive too just as much as it is to be good #and im tired of pretending that morally good characters arent allowed to snap and be irrational #but also god i wish i could help

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obihoe · 7 months

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madara really just got the fucking shit beaten out of him immediately after he was reborn huh. welcome to nowadays ninja world, here's ur complimentary beating the fuck out of u

#im just looking at all these panels and its like .. he is SO bloody and fucked up lmao #punched in the face as his welcoming gift #madara #posts #i mean good for him i guess #but it also underlines somewhat the whole vibe of it all ... mdr seems very bitter and emotional i think here #like at first he is joyful. but that joy is very fleeting and disappears quickly #afterwards he just looks so incredibly beat up and he looks sad and like bitter somehow .. idk #the looking bloody and all just fits the emotional vulnerability i think #he also holds his head a bit weird when he's got only the one eye ... and its. aughhh #really painful seeming emotions in there suddenly :(#anyways no coherence in these tags at all #also the panels that i mean havent even come up yet afsgshdhs but im thinking abt them

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sleevebuscemii · 2 months

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tmi

#a friend is coming back from a solo kayaking trip in patagonia today and i feel like such a shitty person for this but i just.#really dont feel like im in the mental space to hear about it.#and partly its because where im at mentally and personally right now just makes it hard for me to be happy for others #or at least for it to not open up doors that bog me down badly and thats on Me like thats totally my own shit #and even if i know hearing about their trip will be hard its an asshole move to approach them with #‘im not in the mental space to hear you share something you’re really excited about with me’#on the other hand.#i know the real reason its gonna suck so bad is that with This particular friend this trip just gonna be another thing they did first.#and in a perfect world it shouldn’t matter who the fuck did the thing first but in this relationship and in this dynamic it always has #and so i Know that yeah im mentally in a place where taking in other people’s good news is hard #but also im just dreading having to hear every detail of how this trip is something i will never measure up to #every detail of things i would have to do bigger and better for it to matter and like. idk i fucking hate thinking about this #because it always makes me feel so small and bitter and they’re such ugly feelings #but also i know this dynamic isn’t like this because of me but i also know nothing i’ve ever done to try to change it has worked #and it’s like. i just have so much anxiety around this conversation that hasn’t even happened yet #and it’s because i know it’s gonna open up all this shit with it #m

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puppyeared · 1 year

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uhh. uhhhhh

#realistically i knw that if i went thru with making animatics for all of these songs I think my hand would fall off BUT. i have brainrot #half of these songs are either here bc of the vibe or because i listened to the lyrics and read analyses and put 2 much effort than i had t #ALSO LISTEN. LISTEN BODYBAG IS EXACTLY EVERYTHING I IMAGINE WHENEVER I THINK OF WUKONG AND MACAQUES RELATIONSHIP OK #two birds and baby hotline is also kind of self explanatory. although most of the jack stauber songs are mostly for vibe #bitter water is a very specific flavor of pining / unhealthy outlook. kind of has like an insatiable vibe to it but idk how to name it #i want soap to be a healing song but maybe im just being optimistic. im here for the vibes although i feel like if swk and macaque were #actually to make up i think they would go into it kicking and screaming. and im frustrated because i cant find a song to match that #except maybe bodybag which AGAIN. THEY ARE SO FUCKING STUPID THATS HOW THEYRE GONNA HEALL FLYING BARK PLS #what if it doesnt end well also feels like a doomed narrative to me. like if you think about it from how their relationship might have st #started (and im probably taking from how everyone romanticizes their relationship as something really innocent or sweet at the start which #i am also not immune to that). but knowing them it is also a very good possibility thats not the case at all. what it is i dont know #primadonna also strikes me as a swk song but like msotly because he serves cunt. on that note I like to imagine rose colored boy as swk to #MK.BECAUSEEE i love how MK brings out the best in people AND AND AND!! 5000 year old immortal who has seen some shit come on people 'and i #have taken my glasses off' COME ON LOOK ATIT. you could also argue that could be macaque to MK and it would make sense #Spotify #Lego Monkie kid #lmk #yapping #playlist #monkie kid

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thechildisgone · 6 hours

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i know ill have a good time when i'm there and its not like i dont like my sister .. we have a strange relationship tbh like we really dont understand each other in some ways but we're actually more similar than we think.. but what bothers me most is she acts like we grew up in entirely different homes and she loves my dad and they talk like every day and i dont get it at all

#and any time i tried to talk to her about my dad being abusive she shuts it down adn gets really defensive #like im rly all alone in the knowledge #my mom doesnt like talking aout it bc well he abused her the most and still does #~at least he did hit us or cheat on her~ is what she says even tho he hit me a few times and i remember him yelling at her #and he prob hit her but i dont know. why would he hit me not her i have memories of trying to protect her and get between them #one time when i told her about how he slapped me she looked rly surprised and sad so idk #WHY WAS I his scapegoat #anyway... :)#sry last time my sister and i were alone on a trip together i tried to broach the topic and she was just like idk why you dont like our dad #he's perfect #so i was like oh you're just delusional djsaglkjasg #like idk maybe he never did anything to her bc she rly was his fav :| idk what to believe!#but it all leaves me feeling gaslit and crazy cause i remember how things were and the yelling and anger and alcoholism #but no one wants to talk about it or admit anything #and then he did worse to me and i cant tell anyone bc they alread dont admit all that #whew. anyway. ugh hes picking me up today #the alcoholism thing is the funniest bc like we're all alcoholics but he was truly the worst #i remember being 12 and just scared all the time bc he was so angry and scary when he was drunk #and i was like im never drinking everrr #and then i ended up being an alcoholic for a bit anyway fun times #oh and my sister has been with her husband since they were in high school and it makes me bitter idk how she got so lucky jakldsg #and hes really not the worst for a man.. my brother in law i mean.. but he is annoying sometimes #we’re only 3 years apart lol and there’s just the two of us

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puzzlekinq · 26 days

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cant sleep because im seething with anger

#been laying here for like 40 minutes fantasizing about finally snapping and telling my mom everything i really think and feel #if i ever came out to her she would end up cutting me off like she did to my aunts and uncles and cousins #basically im alone and my parents and siblings are the only family i can be in contact with right now and its isolating #off topic but yeah #i miss having a big family and people besides my parents that i could rely on. people i felt like i could actually breathe around #idk. whatever #why do i feel responsible for her actions all the time. its been my job to keep her stable and listen to her vent for years #but i never say anything about my own feelings. because she would make me feel stupid and ridicule me. lol #all she does is make me feel like shit most of the time. shes always in a bad mood and shes always whining and always pessimistic #and yeah i get along with her for the most part but lately her attitude has been weighing on me a lot. i cant criticize or disagree with her #because she'll just get mad. shes always been an angry person. thats why i hardly spoke to her from ages 10-15 #maybe i jsut wanted to give her another chance. maybe i felt sympathy for her. shes had it rough her whole life #but when shes still bitter no matter how many times i comfort her and let her vent and cry to me and when she chooses her husband over me #every single time he fucks up (which is like. constantly) and always takes his side when they inevitably make up after a huge fight #it feels like i'll never be able to make her happy. it feels like i should stop trying. if she wants to be full of hatred #and have a shitty husband then fine. i cant fix her like and i cant hold the weight of her mistakes #*life

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wings-of-angels · 2 months

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trying to plan out what pokèmon bruce wayne would have... much to think about

#i am envisioning batman to have: noivern (obviously he must have one bat pokèmon). lucario. and greninja #i chose the last 2 partly because i like those pokèmon but theyre also powerful and stealthy pokèmon #so fitting for batman #and noiverns more of a less-stealthy heavy hitter i guess for when hes gotten civillians out the way #batman would have to have some sort of earplugs or padding in his cowl to deal with the sound noivern creates though.. hmmmmm #im also thinking he should have some sort of electric or tech pokèmon but i cant decide which one..#i gotta balance strategy vs his asthetic #it would be good if he had a fire and/or grass type pokèmon too but none really fit his vibe #also it would make sense he have a fighting type (aside from lucario) but i dislike all the fighting types 😔😔#sorry pretty privellage is REAL and it is stopping me from giving him other fighting types #idk.. much to think about #i think lucario makes a lot of sense tbh like they both have the drive to do good and help people #i can envision bruce finding a riolu during his time training and instantly having that connection #ORRR bruce is so strung up on his anger and bitterness. it takes meeting riolu (who rejects him for not being as virtuous as b would think)#for bruce to kinda enforce his own principles #of becoming batman to HELP amd do GOOD and not just for vengence #meanwhile i chose greninja cos its one of my favs #brucie wayne would also need different pokèmon to batman. otherwise his secret identity is WAYY too obvious #it would depend on what kind of bruce wayne i want tho #the more ditsy playboy brucie would have different pokèmon to... e.g. ben afflecks batman whos more sleazy businessman #so many different options #SORRY FOR THE RAMBLE i am... thinking

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xamaxenta · 1 year

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It’s difficult to not feel discouraged sometimes when your partner is also an artist and happens to be faster than you in every conceivable way

This doesn’t bother me often because everyone is different and comparing production time and skill against each other or anyone is detrimental mostly and its ok to have your own workflow

but it does weigh on me vaguely sometimes sometimes that she can finish 2-3 full coloured pieces within a week and ive been painfully scratching out the same number but theyre only sketches that ill never revisit within a month

None of this actually matters in the long run, it just makes me feel bad on occasion

#like i should be doing more #im very sorry for complaining so much online #i just dont really have any other way to express myself #i know some of you have generously and kindly reached out to me to offer an ear #but my fatal flaw is i cant talk to anyone about my problems i just idk it was beaten into me that none of it matter #matters or my problems arent a big deal and i know ots healthy to think actuallt my problems are worth talking about or a big deal #but its hard to change a behaviour that was kinda literally beaten jnto you that talking about stuff likw this is a waste of time #i guess i just feel bad that i could do more and i dont because i dont want to #but i also want to if that makes any sense at all #i suppose it also doesnt help that alot of the work im doing right now i actually sorta hate like none of it is good to me personally #i want to stop being toxic towards myself #i just wanna stop hating me and who i am and what i do every step of the way #but that mean little voice inside me is like ahh. it wont shut up #I always say i need a break or more time but what am i gonna do with it #doing nothing at all isnt fulfilling #it sounds. sad like what teenager me did and i dont want to be or feel like that ever again but its fuckjng hard #this is so woe is me #im a liar bc i say the main text doesnt bother me but it bothers me alot im very envious of her speed prolificness and drive to create #and i have none like thats so unfair #this makes me sound ultra bitter god fucking damn it #i want to go to sleep and genuinely never fucking wake up again #please im done i just dont want to

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symbiodyke · 1 year

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I hate when I'm ringing up nd chatting a bunch with a cute and/or cool person but then I'm struck by the realization that they're not wearing a mask inside the crowded store and it just :((( sours the whole thing for me.

#idk idk idk maybe im just a paranoid bitter shrew but. sigh #there's also two coworkers ive been really enjoying and were like friends now???#buuuuut neither of them wear masks/do unsafe shit so like. idk if ill ever hang out outside of work #which makes me so fkn sad i just want to connect with people :(#one of em helps manage a women's shelter for their other time nd im like WHY ARENT YOU MASKING 😭😭😭#id bet a bunch of the folks there are disabled!!! come on now!#*other job. fkn typos...

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louismygf · 4 months

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Louis Birthday Tag Game 🎉

thank you @faithinlouisfuture for tagging me 😽😽😽🫶🏼 mwuah!

when did you become a louie?

i don't exactly know when bc i remember for the longest time denying to stan louis (or anyone for that matter) 😭 but late feb (completely missed the defenceless project bc i didn't have twitter then lol) to april of 2021 i think... february being like, oh this guy from one direction is neat i really like his music and april being, wow i have fallen in hell in love with louis tomlinson he is the only man ever

your earliest fandom memory?

WELL, on tumblr, i remember long hair louis with a guitar walking through an airport trended. immediately after he posted the rockstar pic (april 10) of him on instagram 🙏🏽 AND THEN, as a twitter user... this is so cursed but #iheartawards #louies #bestfanarmy 2021 😭 i think i once told myself i'd only keep up with louis on tumblr but not on twitter,, but because i already made a twitter account in april (solely for voting), it just stuck and thus, after iheart voting ended, my stan twitter account was born lol

your favourite song (one off walls, one off fitf)?

i tend to pick two favorites so for walls it's fearless and only the brave and for fitf, all this time and lucky again

your favourite music video?

walls <3 and miss you when im feeling silly hehe

favourite gig?

ltwt manila 2022 😔😔😔😔😔😔🫶🏼 it meant the world to me 😭 louis was so happy and the crowd energy was so good. i don't know if anyone went live for my show but believe me when i say it was loudddd sksks louis was chatty and smiley and interactive and of course so so pretty. vocals were on point i could actually cry recalling the memories of him singing but Ugh it was 😔🫶🏼 those couple of hours were one of the best times of my life for real not even joking

favourite louis hair?

i love when louis' hair is on the longer side, live from london, walls hair or fitf but a bit longer, actual long hair louis Unstyled (now imagine how he'd look if it were styled), afhf hair of course like his hair in the documentary with him sitting and talking wearing his favorite black sabbath shirt And his hair wearing the iconic first ever 28op shirt. basically! long hair OR fluffy and messy <3

favourite louis interview?

the zach sang interviews and his interviews with olivia jones for total access

suit louis or tank top louis?

tank top 😋 but only by a tiny bit difference, he looks good in both!

favourite louis tattoo?

28! and the rogue + spiderweb is sick like the placement is v cool i think... tiny smiley on his thigh and duh the x smiley face too on his arm

favourite louis bodypart? (c'mon we all have one!)

big heart big brain big ass, the holy trinity. and actually also his hands,, and waist.... and. thighs yum...... and. ok im stopping here

thanks again for tagging me <3

#tagged #tag games #tag game #i forgor #sorry a bit late !#i think i almost didnt stan louis bc of him nft posting in march being unmasked in mexico and just generally being put off with celebrities #my first real content of him was full time meals and ot was a charity thing so i was like ok hes cute im sticking around for a bit longer #but by late july i thought i was over it bc.... he'd only been tweeting ab football at that time lmfao 😭😭😭😭#i thought that was my chance to become a normal fan and delete my stan twt or this tumblr or something #but afhf rolled around............ actually life changing #at that time it was the most fun ive ever had in the louie fandom... it's like. oh yeah. this is Really why i love him. it's the music!!!!!#excited for all the projects he has lined up <3 #yk im still so sad and bitter about asia tour. i think i set my expectations too high so ive since recalibrated them. im ok now 👍🏼#he should do better though 😁 hehe ok that's it idk why i said all that

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