#idk man I just felt like making these and dumping them here

[clownd1ck]

trouble, j. miller | chapter two

mob!joel miller x fem!reader

chapter summary: your first shift at apocalypse lives up to the standards that you hoped for, and you work your charm on everyone there. money and validation never hurt anyone, and you definitely didn’t mind it.

chapter warnings: alcohol consumption, food consumption, uh oh curse words, joel miller being a “power to the people, stick it to the man” man (we believe in that over on this blog), reader & dancers shake ass bc they can, google translated spanish 😍, no beta again, AND DID SOMEONE SAY JAVIER PEÑA!?

word count: 2274

also can u guys start asking me to be on this taglist by either bribing me or threatening me idk i think i’d just like to see “add me to your taglist or i’m gonna be under your bed at 9:03pm”

(series masterlist)

when you step outside of the changing room, you head over to the snack drawers. you may have eaten before you arrived, but turning down free food was a sin in your eyes. you settle on a pack of hot cheetos and some trolli candy before sitting in a high chair and allowing lucy to do your makeup.

lucy was a lovely woman. she told you the basics about her, how she’s trying to save money so she can buy her first apartment, the name of her cat, etc. and, jesus christ, lucy was good at make up. her shade match was amazing, the blush and contour sculpted your face well. the eye make up was a smoked out black wing, with purple eye glitter on your eyelids. your lips were glossy, pouty, and fucking sexy, if you did say so yourself.

“lucy, i want you to know that if you ever decide to dump your boyfriend, i will be right here waiting for you.” you take another look at yourself in the mirror. “i look so hot i want to fuck myself.”

lucy giggles, and the two of you join adele, who runs you through everything you need to know. when she gets to the hourly pay and tips, your mouth drops in shock. “damn, didn’t realise joel was such a socialist.”

adele and lucy laugh. “baby, he pays everyone here good.”

lucy nods. “dancers get their money from customers and an hourly pay too. he treats us all good, it’s why we all like working here so much.”

you get to know some of the women whilst you’re there. you dance with them, they teach you some moves that are part of their routines, you sing with them. in all honesty, a lot of time hadn’t passed and you felt like you would defend these women with your life.

a knock sounds on the door, and adele opens it to find joel standing there. he beckons you with his hand outstretched. you give your goodbyes to the girls, dramatic as ever but you would miss this moment between you all, even if they did say you could drop by this room any time you want like the other female waiting staff did.

you join joel’s side, his hand going onto your lower back again as he guides you to another room.

“kitchen. head chef is joey,” he points to an elder man with black hair and a slight stubble. he seems mean…you’ll fix that. “that’s quinn,” he points to a woman with blonde hair, “and that’s tim.” you look at tim. tim looks stoned. you think about joining tim to get high on your next shift.

“hi everyone!” you wave at them giddily.

“some guests like food whilst they’re here, ‘s why we have the kitchen. ask for something for yourself and they’ll whip it up for ya’ too.” joel checks his watch, and you don’t know much about watches, but it looks expensive and you unconsciously gulp. he’s rich, damn.

“i’ll take ya’ back up to my office so we can go over some stuff before we open.”

when you get to his office, joel offers for you to take a seat across from his. his chair, however, spins, and you’re much more fascinated by that instead of the boring sofa. you take a seat on the rotating chair and begin to spin on it. joel sighs, shaking his head like he was surprised by your behaviour thus far.

“need to go over the shifts you can do. now, i don’t want ya’ overworkin’ yourself or being too tired for your damn lectures. so tell me what shifts you can do for now, and we can go over the rest later.”

you stop your spinning and look up at him. “i can do weekend shifts at any time. um…i have a nine am lecture on tuesday and thursday. wednesdays i don’t have a lecture until three, and mondays and friday i can work after five.”

“alright, give me your number so i can arrange your shifts. you get paid in cash every week and you’ll collect it from my office at the end of the night.”

you smirk, lifting your index finger up to your lips and biting down on the tip. “my number? joel miller, you flirt! take me to dinner first, please.”

he says your name sternly, a warning. “give me your damn number and get outta here. damn trouble, you are.”

you giggle, writing down your number on a piece of paper and giving it to him, and taking an ipad that carries the menu on it, sauntering out of his office and heading back to the dancer’s room.

——

at nine pm, the club doors open and you have your first group sat in one of the v.i.p. booths. a woman orders a sex on the beach, and the other orders a martini. you take the order down to the bar to gather the drinks and meet the bartender.

he introduced himself as javier, shaking your hand and kissing it gently, making you giggle. you knew you were going to get along with him very well.

as you wait for the drinks, one of the dancers comes over and talks to you. chelsea, her name is. a real blonde bombshell who you think would’ve been amazing in the barbie movie. she’s got a bubbly personality and a cute laugh. she tells you that she attends the same college as you, studying chemistry and physics.

you’re cut off when javier places your drinks on a tray and passes it to you. you give a little wave to chelsea as she is called to a booth to entertain the men.

“don’t be a stranger, mi amor.” javier calls out to you, and you giggle.

“and miss out on you? never!” you shout over your shoulder.

as you walk through the v.i.p. floor, you spot some of the girls and give your greetings to them, winking and grinning as they walk by. you make it back to the table and place the drinks down in front of the two women, and you gasp at them both.

“i just noticed your make up, holy shit! you girls are stunning.” your customer service skills deserves an award, and you’re forever thankful that you’re a massive extrovert and can get away with half the shit that comes out of your mouth.

the girls give their thanks to you, complimenting you back and you shrug them off. you were getting tipped tonight whether they liked it or not. you were hellbent on winning everyone over.

it’s when you’re putting in an eighth round of drinks that you feel a hand on your lower back yet again. you turn your head to see joel, looking down at you.

“need you in booth five.”

“alright, just gotta get these drinks from javi and some orders from the kitchen and i’ll be with you.” you smile at him, and joel walks away back to the booth.

you take your drinks from javi, and he doesn’t forget to give you some pet names in spanish you’ll be sure to google later, and you head back to one of the private rooms. you see a woman by the name of destiny dancing on a small stage with a pole as you give the men their drinks. she winks at you and you return it.

you place the drinks down in front of the men, taking your tray as you lean down and whisper to the closest one to you. “i’ll be back with your food, sir.”

and you return within five minutes, having won over the entire kitchen staff with your undeniable charm. you arrive with two large plates of nachos that the three men share between themselves. one of them slips you a hundred dollar bill, and you blow a kiss his way as you leave the private room.

men were too easy sometimes.

you enter the soundproof glass door of booth five, stepping in and pulling out your tablet. “any drinks i can get for you guys?”

a bald headed man orders a jack and coke, one with a skin fade orders a budweiser and you had to do a subtle double take on him because men in their thirties have skin fades? huh, you learn something new everyday. you look at joel and he shakes his head. “i’m alright, darlin’.”

you smile at him, placing the orders through on the tablet. “i’ll be back soon. let me know if you need anything else.”

as you walk up to the bar, you smile at javi. “oh, my beautiful husband. how i’ve missed you.”

javi looks at you and smirks. “ah, mi pequeña esposa, you’re back. what drinks do you need?” {my little wife}

“jack and coke and a budweiser.” you respond, resting your arms flat on the bartop and placing your head on it as you watch jack make the drinks, your tablet sat right next to you. “javi, what’s the weirdest drink you’ve had someone order?”

“bloody mary with passion fruit liquor.” he grimaces, as do you. what kind of sick fucks were drinking bloody mary’s anyway? and you can make a bloody mary worse? ew.

“i wanna see a drink named after me on this menu one day.” you take the drinks from him as he chuckles.

walking back to the booth, you balance the tray on one hand whilst the other opens the glass door. you place the drinks down in front of the two men, giving them sultry looks as you do.

you were going home with benjamin franklin tonight. you were determined.

as you stand back up and move closer to joel’s seat, you could feel his eyes on you, and when you looked at him, he seemed to be hiding back a smirk, picking up on your games. and it works, as both men slip you a few hundred dollar bills that you tuck under the strap of your bra to stash away later.

“anything else i can get for you gentleman tonight?” when they respond with a ‘no’, you feel a light tap on your thigh. brown eyes meeting yours, he gestures for you to come closer, and you bend down so his mouth is next to your ear.

“little shit.” he whispers, and you chuckle, standing back up to your full height and leaving the booth.

the only time you return to joel’s booth is to take away cups and refill drinks. you don’t hear much of the conversation that happens because, quite frankly, you don’t care. the bald guy and the one with the skin fade keep slipping you bills and that’s enough to buy your silence and curiosity.

you return to some of the private rooms, getting drinks for guests and dancers, but during the final moments of your shift, you’re sat at the bar talking to javier. you learn that he’s been friends with joel since high school. they’re practically brothers, and although they weren’t related, they do look alike…

“shithead.” joel’s voice calls out, and you can only assume he’s referring to you due to the choice in nickname.

“that better be meant as an endearment or i will be snitching to my pops.” you say as you walk over, blowing javi a kiss as a means of goodbye. “he may be in his sixties but he can still put a crow bar to use.”

joel rolls his eyes and guides you back to the dancer’s room. you open the door halfway before he decides to speak: “wait around here for a bit and i’ll come get you. i’ll be taking you home so make sure you’ve got everything.”

you pout playfully. “well, aren’t you just a sweetheart.” and your words cause him to roll his eyes again.

“get in there, ya’ little shit.” and he gently pushes you in.

for the next two hours, you and the girls spend your time dancing to some 2000’s r&b. you and chelsea end up whining on each other, and you all collapse by the time ‘smack that’ has finished, giggling away among yourselves as adele is highly entertained by your energy.

a knock at the door sounds, and you can tell it’s joel. you grab the clothes you wore before your shift started, and when you open it, joel is stood there carrying your bag.

“ya’ got everything?”

“you sound like a divorced dad who has joint custody over his daughter. yes, i have everything.” joel sighs at your comment, rubbing the space between his eyebrows which causes you to giggle.

“bye guys!” you wave goodbye to everyone as you and joel leave the building. he unlocks his black porsche and you hop in the front, shivering slightly at how cold it was.

joel notices this, turning on the heated seats as he drives you home to your grandparents. when you’re outside your house, joel stops you from getting out. “i’ll text you your shifts. my number is strictly for work.”

“got it, text you whenever i want. bye joel!” you shout, running out of the car and unlocking your front door, heading straight to your bedroom so you can take off your make up and finally be comfortable.

you fail to notice how joel’s car doesn’t drive away until he sees you’ve entered the house, and that you safely got to your room when your bedroom light turns on. you don’t see how he smiled at your little comment, shaking his head as he drives away.

oh, you were trouble, alright.

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a/n: reader tormenting joel and him just tolerating it is my ideal relationship

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[lastoneout]

Okay I'm finally sitting down to properly watch the PJO series so here's an episode-by-episode live blog I guess. (Fair warning, I haven't read the books since I was a teenager, I am a smidge of an apologist for the films, and my favorite adaptation so far has been the musical.)

Episode One:

All of the actors are doing a really good job, I especially like Sally.

The costume design for both the monsters and the humans is pretty killer. I want Percy's sweater.

I also love the little seaside cabin and want to live there!!!

This is such a mild gripe BUT as someone with dyslexia I wish there was a better way to visually depict it without like, doing the swapping letters thing cuz that's just not what it's actually like at all.

Gabe maybe feels a little too funny. Like I'm supposed to hate him and think it's justified that he deserves to be turned into stone at the end, this version of him is really.....toned down, and his banter with Percy and Sally was fun to watch. I should hate him, but really he just came across as unpleasant. Less abusive asshole and more "old married couple who share interests but can't communicate without shouting" you know?

Loved Grover's little "I'm 24 actually" lmao that was great.

Not a fan of Percy immediately recognizing the Minotaur within a millisecond of it appearing before the audience even got a good look at it. Like, I just sat there thinking "how can he even see it?" rather than feeling scared of a big monster barreling at them.

The action is uh....fine? Feels a little lackluster. Or kinda....divorced from the rest of the show weirdly?? Idk it makes me feel like I'm watching a movie of a movie if that makes sense?? But we'll see where they go with it. (I know banter during a fight isn't realistic and people make fun of Marvel for it, but like...it helps to have at least a little talking. We don't wanna be Man of Steel.)

I feel like there's been a few "slightly out of sync ADR" moments but they weren't too distracting.

Pacing into Sally saying goodbye felt a little long, kinda took the shock of her dying out of the scene, but the actress REALLY sold all the emotional beats so I'll forgive it.

I LOVE the credits sequence!!! Reminds me of the designs on that one box set of the books in a really cool way.

Episode Two:

Oh yes the ugly ass neon orange shirts are here bless!

FUCK YES THAT'S DIONYSUS BAYBEEE!! My ONLY note is that he def could have turned up the energy a little, but that's probably just bcs I love how loud and unpleasant he is in the musical and I also know how unhinged this actor can be.

Chiron is such a delight <3

I like the cabins too, way better than how I imagined them as a kid reading the books lol

Oh, I can see why the new fans fell for Luke so hard.

Grover assuming a human being squished would be like an old banana is very funny. Felt very book-humor in a good way.

Clarisse!!

Oh damn actual disabled half-bloods, very cool!

Minor but I can't actually tell what Percy did wrong with the bow? Weird editing I guess.

Aside from that I actually love a good "fuck up" montage, I honestly wish it were a little longer.

Probably doesn't matter but I don't get having them burn the food after they've started eating? I thought that was a before you sit down type thing.

Percy burning the blue candy to try to talk to his mom was sweet tho T_T

"real friends" hahahaha.....yeah.......about Luke.......

yay! hazing!

Oh I love Annabeth already >:D

Thalia.....is pronounced differently than I thought....?

(I'm sorry I'm too much of a fan of 'Tree on the Hill' for this exposition dump. That shit hits harder when coming from Grover.)

Percy giving Annabeth the "actually I suck and my self esteem is riding on this so like pls don't ask me to do anything hard T_T" talk is just, so good lmao

ofc he doesn't know what's going on Annabeth you didn't tell him anything

Okay the action is a lot better when it's between the actual characters and doesn't involve a 3D monster, though I still had trouble following all the hits Percy was taking.

Oooh I can see why people did so much art of Percy being claimed that was a good shot.

FUCK YEAH TELL HIM YOU'RE SALLY JACKSON'S SON

(I hope they kept the Oracle in the attic...)

Okay I have to go do some things and then I'll be back for more!

#long post #loo watches pjo #pjo spoilers

[enamoredwithbella]

PJO TV CRIT RANT COMING !!

If you don’t want to hear or don’t like it just don’t read it. Everyone’s entitled to their own opinion

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I’ve been on the pjo tv crit tag and I gotta say I agree with most of what’s on there 😭😭

All my praise for the show goes to the actors alone. I’m not stupid I didn’t expect the show to be an exact replica of the books cause that would’ve been boring as well but I feel like say “faithful adaptation” is a bit overzealous.

1. The changes

Some of the changes I love. Like them stopping for candy and Annabeth going in was so cute. Grover using psychological warfare on the God of war ate.

But a lot of the changes were just like ???? What was the point? And all the stuff that they revealed like 4-5 seasons too early. Stuff that was hinted at through the books that built suspense and intrigue just dumped on the table was a bit 😕

I remember finding out about Luke’s mom and why Luke REALLY hated his father. It literally had me gagged it was like finding out something I didn’t even know I was waiting for. The build up to them finding out Kronos involved was always a favorite cause it felt so raw. It was pure fear encapsulated by words, you could feel it, it was palpable and we just didn’t get that in the show. It was so “here you go. Kronos it was him *but said intensely*”

2. Them knowing everything

I do understand how it does make sense that they would know a lot of things from the jump as they all literally grew up with this information but a lot of the times where they didn’t realize exactly what was happening right away in the books have a slight reminder of how young and innocent they are. These neurodivergent 12 year olds who have been tasked with a Gods job and have been trekking across the states for days; yeah I wouldn’t expect them to be at the top of their game ALL THE TIME no matter how smart they are. The slip ups show that even though they’re these tiny warriors they aren’t immune to being a little naive.

3. Setting

I’m not gonna criticize the settings cause if that’s how Rick imagined it then that’s how he imagined it but I can’t blame the ppl who are a bit miffed at how the sets were portrayed. The underworld did truly throw me off.

4. Info dumping ?? Or not enough info idk

I also saw a post about how they would just throw random names out there pertaining to Greek mythology and then just not explain 😭😭 and all the stuff that they left out too (fields of punishment, isle blest, etc) which sets up for things in later seasons. And I understand the time crunch; 8 episodes 40 mins give or take and a dream is what they had. That being said this shit was a mess 🤷🏽‍♀️😭😭 like badly set up, script was not doing them any justice, and it felt so boring most of the time.

5. Whimsy and fun erasure

There were gems I will keep saying that. There were fun times but the fun times also felt very strategically placed whereas in the books it was sorta woven into the chaos. Charon being a lil silly, Grover playing the shooting game in the lotus casino and killing humans (I love him so much 😭😭), annabeth geeking over the architecture of the arch and going on a tangent about how it was made while Grover and Percy trade candy in the back. Talking to the animals and Percy finding out he can speak horse, the car wash where annabeth scares off a grown man in a Lincoln, “shows over! Thank you and goodnight!”, Percy and Grover clowning annabeth for watching the discovery channel unironically. I’m not saying I expected them to put all this shit in there cause again I’m not an imbecile but the type of wit and humor that made everyone fall in love with the books was cut out for the more serious stuff. And what’s so frustrating about that is I KNOW the actors would’ve ate it up. Walker especially that boy IS Percy.

I could keep finding stuff but I’m trying to be grateful cause even after all of this Rick did take the time to try and think of us and maybe it’s not his fault but idk it’s just a bit disappointing after the way it was marketed towards long time fans

Much love to Walker, Leah, and Aryan and hope for future seasons 😊

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[bogginswritings]

Sleepless Nights for the Damned || Percival de Rolo x fem!reader

I'm sorry for my absence. I didn't write anything here in the last like 9 months. Writers block and school were killing me. I hope this can make up for it a little bit, but don't expect too much. I practically forced this out. (I love Percy smsm)

Pairing: Percy de Rolo x fem!reader/oc

Summary: The nights were the hardest for Percy. When his mind could wander because his hands aren't preoccupied with anything. He was lucky now, though. He had her.

Warning(s): Mentions of past trauma, Percy's backstory, angst and comfort, panic attacks (Percy)

(idk who posted the GIF, I'm sorry)

Percy wasn’t entirely sure what he looked like anymore. 

He had mirrors, of course, but the reflection didn't always look familiar. He didn’t really know what he was supposed to look like, anymore. Would he have looked like this if his childhood would keep going as it did; happy and joyful? Would the dark circles not be under his eyes? Would he not have the white hair, but rather the brown locks he always had?

He didn't know. But it seemed common, to no longer recognize himself. Wandering alone for years in the need of vengeance, a routine of eating rotten bread from trash cans and stealing apples on the market just so his stomach wouldn't complain; one could say this changes a man.

Percy met a group, and he came up with the name Vox Machina. While this was somewhat stable, he was far from happy. He wasn't even entirely sure why, because he had great and caring friends now. His stomach was always full with food that hadn't already gone bad for at least two days. Sure, the jobs they did to earn some coin wasn't always 'ethical’, per se; but it kept them going just fine. Percy wasn't happy, but he was content. As content as he could get, anyway, for the desire of revenge still lingered and nightmares took over his sleep.

Sometimes he’d kill the Briarwoods in said nightmares,  though maybe those should be considered dreams, he didn't know where they came from. Even during the day he thought about it, a gnawing feeling of pure anger taking over his entire being. He had episodes like this, they’ve become more frequent, though Percy was not entirely sure where they came from. Sure, he was so pissed no word in the English language was enough to describe it, but he didn’t think that a feeling of rage would consume his entire being.

No friend could make this better. No one was there at night to comfort him. They didn't understand. He couldn't blame them, he never told them. It wasn't fair to put a weight like that on their shoulders, to trauma dump when they all have so much to deal with already.

Percy felt hopeless, to be quite honest. Especially when he woke up in a cold sweat and had no one to go to. When he had a bad dream as a kid he would just slide in with his parents, now he waited in bed hoping to fall asleep again or at least have his body get the rest. Sometimes he was just extremely mad when he woke up in the middle of the night, and he’d get to his workshop to tinker.

It was always the same, and it felt like a routine. Just like it was routine for Vex to check Trinket’s teeth and Grog to clean his weapons. However, this was a routine he didn’t participate in voluntarily and he couldn’t get out of.

Once again his eyes snapped open, his breathing heavy. It felt like he had to lift up a brick from his chest with every breath in. Percy shot up, sitting upright to try and shake off that horrible feeling. The feeling he was going to pass out from a lack of air. The feeling he was dying. He tried to stay quiet, but a whimper slipped past his lips. He did his best to muffle it, to be silent. Usually he wouldn’t have to worry about it too much, but usually he was alone in his bed. He didn’t share it with someone.

His body got a shock from another stifled sob. Percy could feel this was going to be a bad ride, one he had to let wash over him. Wave after wave until the storm calmed and it passed. They seemed to be more frequent and during the day it fueled his being more and more with wrath and a desire to kill the Briarwoods. Percy didn’t just want to kill them, he wanted to hurt them. He needed them to feel all the sadness and anger he has felt and-

He tried to take a deep breath, to not spiral into there. Right now he just had an intense feeling of fear and panic he didn’t know how to control.

A gentle touch on his shoulder, the weight on the bed next to him dipping. “Darling?” her gentle voice rang through his ears. He couldn't register everything quickly, but she'd sat up too; one hand resting on his thigh whilst the one his shoulder started rubbing circles.

This was the first time Percy had woken her up with it. Though, to be fair, they had only started sleeping in one bed for a week or so. He knew he probably should have warned her beforehand that this could happen- would happen, but everytime he tried an itch in his throat stopped him. God, he felt like such an asshole waking her up, and that only added up to the bad feeling of guilt he had.

“I-” he swallowed, his eyes darted around the room to find something to focus on, “I’m sorry.”

“Look at me, Percy,” Her voice was soothing, “Focus on me.” He did. It took a while, her words still getting processed in his brain, but he did. Her heart broke when she saw his wobbling lips,  “Good, take a deep breath with me.”

Percy tried, he really did, but it just wouldn't. It caused him to fall into more of a panic, his breathing turning rigid. She asked him for something so simple and he couldn't do it. “I-I can’t- I can't-” Her hand moved away from his thigh, but before Percy could start crying because ‘she was definitely leaving’, it came back on his chest. “I’m here. Can you lift my hand?” She asked, and she took deep, loud drags of air to demonstrate. It took a while, but he managed to lift it slightly. And then some more. “Good job,” Her hand moved lower, resting on his abdomen, “And now? I need you to breathe through your stomach.” Percy remembered she did it with herself sometimes too, a hand on her belly before they went into battle. He understood why now, because once he managed to lift her hand it actually felt like air was going inside his lungs for the first time in the last- what, five minutes? It took a little while before it became a rhythm to breathe like that, but it helped.

The hand on his shoulder had moved to hold his face, he didn’t know when that happened, but he only noticed it just now. The feeling was nice. “Better?” She asked, and he nodded, “Good.” She gave him a kind smile, and Percy just didn’t know what he did to deserve her. She knew exactly what to do, and she didn’t even know what this was about. If the woman was honest, though, she expected it to be about the dragon at first. An intense experience they went through. But they’ve been through worse, and it didn’t seem to have bothered the man before. Nonetheless, she caressed his cheek and held him. Percy never had someone comfort him like this, but he knew he liked it. “We can get out of bed for a bit, get that busy mind of yours on something else for a while?”

“I’d like that.”

And so here they were, at the table of the shared household of Vox Machina. Two mugs of tea stood in between them, still steaming and too hot to drink. They didn’t say anything, Percy was too lost in thought and she waited for him to figure it out. “I’m sorry.” It broke the silence after a while. The woman gave him a look, not one that ridiculed him; rather one that asked why he would say that, “You shouldn’t be.”

“But I am, I’ve woken you up. I should at least have had the decency to warn you about it.”

“Does it happen often?” She asked, worry etched into her voice. She always assumed the dark circles under his eyes were from late nights in his workshop, like the others. He was a workaholic after all. She didn't think there was more behind it. She felt horrible for not asking him, to make sure. “It does,” Percy said, “I should’ve said something, I’m sorry this is pushed onto you.”

“Stop apologizing,” she dipped her finger into the tea, deciding it was cooled down enough to drink, “That’s what partners are for, if you don’t get that comfort then what kinda relationship do you have. Would you have gotten mad at me?” He shook his head, even though he knew it was rhetorical, “Exactly.” She took a sip, Percy following soon after, “If you ever need to talk about it, I’m here for you. And if you don’t that is okay, too. I’ll still be right by your side.”

“I want to talk about it- I do, I tried.”

“Take your time, Percy,” she reassured, “We aren’t in a hurry. When you’re ready I’ll be here.”

He nodded, sending her an appreciative smile, “I promise I will be. Later.”

“Later,” she affirmed, and they drank the rest of their mugs in silence.

…

“I just remembered we have that dinner at Uriel’s,” They were back in bed, the woman playing with Percy’s hair as his head was tucked under her chin. They didn’t cuddle often, but this felt nice, “You excited?” She felt him nod, “Though I’d be more excited if Grog remembered his manners.” She snorted at his response, but she couldn’t find it in her to disagree.

“I can’t wait to have a change of scenery. Fancy foods,” she gushed, “and fancy drinks.”

“It’ll be good for us, to get some respect as Vox Machina,” Percy said, “It could get us better jobs.” She hummed in acknowledgement. That would be nice. She kissed the top of his head, “We should probably sleep then, to look presentable and all.”

“I always look presentable.”

The woman snorted, “You sure do, goodnight.”

“Goodnight.”

That night was the first in a while where Percy felt safe.

Alrightie, hope you enjoyed!

#percy de rolo x reader #percival de rolo #percy de rolo #Percival Fredrickstein Von Musel Klossowski de Rolo III #critical role #vox machina #the legend of vox machina #percy x reader #percy de rolo x oc #tlovm #angst #comfort #angst and hurt/comfort #fluff #if you squint #i'm depraved of content for this man #ilovehimsm

[gemmasgraveyard]

Hi! My name is gemma, im 22 (mdi)

◇300lbs sw active in 2024◇

My account has gotten deleted so many times and it makes me so sad. Backup @riotgrrrlgemma

Sw: 305

Cw:??? Idk I don't have a scale

Gw:240

Gw2:222

Gw3:199

Gw4: 175

150 is the goal ♡

Or less

Read for stupid rambles, update frequently

If you scolled this far thx!

I'm gonna put some stuff here about me, like my favorite music and sh!t like that

I'm 22, a Gemini. Although I don't believe in astrology, I do think a little of it is true. Like,, my moon and rising are so accurate.

Scorpio moon, sag rising

Anyways, I'm a size 22, isn't that crazy?

I remember when I was size 18 and actually to into actually how my teen body changed from size 12 to 18. This was the lowest in my life, I basically just shoved down the way I felt with food. My parent kicked me out because I told them I was as by their partner.

Long story short they don't believe me and never will... so I kept shoving how I felt with food

Now I live alone, I'm happier

Or. Am I. Because like I don't feel anything but guilt and anxiety. I try not shove my face with food but unfortunately I'm not better than I was before.

I'm still so fucking massive and I've been doing this since November. I fucking hate my self.

Sorry to like trauma dumping

Anyway, I always found my outlit to be creativity. I love knitting, painting, crafting, and making diy clothes. Music is another thing I'm trying to dabble in, I love all music and all genres. How can anyone make a horrible song? At least, that's what I think. So much goes into it. It's just such a beautiful thing. Even in the songs that others find bad or corny, I love.

I love smoking w33d and gaming.

I know that sounds corny asf, but honestly, I could spend all day being a gremlin and not binge. I used to play Cold War so much, and because I have anxiety, I would clench my jaw. The way that felt was enough to make me not want to eat.

I want to start going out, but every time I do I feel so ugly and gross. I start to feel guilty just being there. I guess I'm guilty other people have to see me? I don't know. Anyways sorry for dumping this here. But yeah I might just dump my rambling I have in my head.

April 5

Sometimes I think God isn't real then I pray for strength in order to fast and it works.

April 12

I went out a few days ago. No one worried about how ugly I was because I did my makeup. I am starting a 44h fast. I love the number 4 soooo much. Anyways, I'm almost out of weed and cigs, which is very annoying... just like how my partner wanted to sit down with me and have dinner before he went to work. I tried to just serve him, but he was like almost lecturing me, and I ate. It's okay. Like I said, I'm starting a 44h fast now. I just hope this isn't a problem in the future. Update at 2 pm so my partner made me make breakfast, I'm not upset. I just had eggs, but I was able to make him some eggs and sausage. He went to go pick up his check, and he got me cigs and weed. But he came back with a pizza and was like "oh this is for dinner and maybe tomorrow's breakfast" so glad to have this man in my life but why pizza !

[theatrevelyan]

Ok, I’ve binged the new ATLA live action and I have feelings about it so here are my incoherent thoughts! (SPOILERS btw!!)

I’m a fan of the original show and I approached this show with low expectations (namely the only expectation I had was “this can’t be worse than the movie, right??”) but I have to say I was pleasantly surprised!!

I mean sure some details have been changed to flow better in this rendition of the story but I’m fine with that so long as the heart that made the original special is still there and I know some people didn’t felt like it did but I had the feeling that it was.

Do I love absolutely everything about the show?

Nope.

I have some issues with the first episode being too stiff and some shots were outright weird?? Like the tilted camera when Grangran was speaking was a really odd choice??? Was it to signal that the world changed when the fire nation attacked? If so it missed the mark, it just felt weird… to be honest Grangran in general felt weird. Idk man, she felt like an exposition dump made flesh. Also I did like it better when it was Katara’s unchecked emotions that led them to Aang.

In general, the dialogues were… uhm, how to put it…? Too rigid? Not the acting mind you, but the actual script felt a bit stilted, I felt it more in the first few episodes but to me, the first episode is by far the weakest of the season in this regard which is odd since it’s your hook and most of the time you want to make sure the hook is if not the best at least a really solid opening.

I did not like Bumi, like at all. He was never a favorite of mine even in the original but still I found him annoying in this version and the fight in that episode was not the best to say the least but the rest of Omashu was good even if they changed it to include both Sai’s and Jet’s storylines. Too bad they didn’t include the loss of culture subplot for Aang but I get there was no time/place for it in this version of events and the rest was handled well… except for Bumi lol

On the more serious complaints… they butchered my boi HeiBai!!! That episode was all over the place in sense of scripting. I didn’t mind putting Koh and the owl there but we just forgot about the HeiBai plot along the way and we never got a resolution about it???? Like just two lines about healing the forest would have been enough, not good mind you, but enough.

Also I did not get why they changed the motivation for going to the North Pole from going there to train to go there bc of Kyoshi weird premonition thing or why Roku didn’t tell Aang about the comet????

Like ok the Kyoshi thing I can just wave it away like a minor change to flow better with the new structure of the episodes but I can’t ignore the fucking comet!!! That’s like a really important timeframe for the gaang to follow and maybe they will get to it next season since it was addressed on Ozai’s side of things but it felt still like a weird change.

Oh and why didn’t Aang learn water bending??? I mean I guess they probably wanted to elevate Katara’s skill level and have her be recognized as a master before she started teaching him besides him having still to come to terms with having to accept that he is the avatar and that he has to fight sometimes something that he doesn’t really do until the season finale and I can get behind that, I really can… but man… let him water bend just a little. Maybe in just one scene to show that he is picking up something from Katara even if she’s not his teacher yet. To show that despite all the doubts he’s actually trying to do what he’s supposed to. I guess this is a “wait and see” kind of change though so I’ll let it go… for now.

All that said, do I think the show is a good adaptation of the original?

Fucking yes.

It has its flaws for sure but there is also a lot of good things in it.

Sokka was the highlight for me. I really liked him in the original but i feel like he’s been elevated in this version of the story and the actor did a really remarkable job with him, despite my worry with the changes in his initial story arch they managed to give him another layer that I liked.

Actually all the actors did a very good job! Aang was spot on and Zuko had a lot more humanity in him from the start without losing his rough edges. And while I stand by that Sokka’s actor is the one that surprised me the most, Zuko’s was the one I had more fun watching. A really great performance in my opinion.

Iroh was a fucking delight and an emotional gut punch as always and while he was a bit more somber I really liked this version of the character.

They did Azula and Ozai justice showing how cunningly terrifying and utterly toxic they can be and I really liked that we got to see more of them in season 1.

Hell, even Zhao felt the right balance of unhinged cartoony villain and actual threat for the pov characters.

Katara was more of mixed bag for me. She’s my favorite character in the original (with Zuko being a close second) so I have higher standards for her and overall all she still feels like the Katara that I know and love but idk sometimes she felt too poised?? It’s more evident in the first few episodes to be fair and I don’t think it was the acting, the actress was great! Maybe it was the direction or the writing?? Idk man I still loved her, mind you, but in the original, Katara, while being kind and loving, was still a force of nature that you do not want to anger exactly like a raging river that can both be a source of life or a force of destruction. In this it felt like they softened her edges a bit too much. That might be a me problem though, as I said she’s my favorite so I have higher standards for her.

Ti be honest though, it seems that they softened everyone’s less palatable traits. Zuko isn’t as ruthless, Sokka isn’t sexist at the start of the season, Aang isn’t as goofy and so on. I didn’t mind it actually and most of the time it works really well in showing us new sides of these characters without losing who the are but idk man… while I still loved Katara it felt like she was missing something. And same with Suki! She looked fantastic and she was fierce as I expected her to be but she also felt more naive and love struck that she should have. Nothing terrible but enough to notice.

The bending was fantastic and it really felt… well real. Especially air bending! Appa and Momo were really well animated too! Big win for the VFX team!

The music too! It just felt right. And I’m still not over those scenes when you faintly hear leaves from the vines play in the background. Curse you and your great choices that made me actually cry my eyes out like a baby!

In the end I’d give it a solid 7/10. It was a nice watch and it brought me back to my childhood and I can see it’s potential to be something special on its own.

Mind you, this could still turn into a dumpster fire along the way. It wouldn’t be the first time it happened to a really promising Netflix show (I’m looking at you Voltron and the Witcher) but I have to say, I’m gladly surprised and mildly optimistic about this show!

#atla #avatar the last airbender #avatar #atla netflix #I’m optimistic about this guys #never been more happy to be pleasantly surprised tbh

[chryblossomjjk]

bts fic recommendations | 01.10.23

→ hi friends! this is a little segment i do every tuesday (reviewsday get it, aren't i funny, pls tell me how funny i am) where i read and review two-three fics. as a content creator, i know how big of a role other creators play in your growth, therefore, i want to do my part in making sure everyone gets the recognition they deserve! so with that being said, please check out the amazing fics listed below. make sure to like, reblog, and leave feedback! ♡ #reviewsday #kikirecs

pina coladas (pt 1 + pt 2) - @han-nah-banana (jjk x reader | established relationship, smut, angst, fluff)

ok so um... the attention to detail is off the charts! like when the little things you mention about jungkook and oc, like them eating healthy foods, only having sex in the missionary position, etc. tells us so much about them and the status of their relationship. like you showed us that they were stuck in a boring, mundane relationship through little hints and i really love that. ALSO POV SHIFT IN PART ONE WAS SO GOOD! like the way their thoughts mirrored one another was such good storytelling ugh!!! also think you picked a great setting for this type of story, the 80s. it makes everything feel so real, like the sexual repression oof! so glad they got to bang it out in the sexiest way in pt 2! really really good for your first fanfic like WOW! loved it!

i can do better - @here4btsfics (pjm x reader | fwb, smut)

summary: your boyfriend of two years just dumped you and you’re angry and sad. so get hammered with your coworker at his place and eat bad food and watch trash tv which leads to some interesting conversations.

bro all you did is enforce my delusions that irl men cannot compete bc they are not park jimin. men should apologize for not being park jimin at this point. even kim taehyung... anywho lmao. DUDE and then oc listing all the things perfect about jimin. she is just like me fr!!! also like this is kind of how i picture jimin in real life ngl. THAT MAN IS A COCKY CONFIDENT DOM I WILL ARGUE THIS SHIT UNTIL IM BLUE IN THE FACE GTFO! and miss oc... no strings attached girl??? A WHOLE BLUFF. honestly, this entire fic is one of my daydreams when im in a lecture and i fucking loved every second of it bby! so so good. so glad you decided to start writing again, extremely proud of you.

darksided - @eoieopda (myg x reader | established relationship, smut)

summary: min yoongi adored you. he'd simply never hurt you.

i saw someone post about smut where the characters are so grossly in love is their fav genre. this is exactly that. this fic encompasses everything i love in fanfic. i felt like a fly on the wall, being dropped into the middle of the situation where i figure out who the characters are through their actions, words, etc. you do that so perfectly here. like the way i know everything i need to know about min yoongi through the FUCKING setting?? naur this is s tier writing right here. also there's just something you do with words thats v magical. can't put my finger on exactly what it is but here is an example:

"a quick survey of the landscape before you indicated that this was a criminal oversimplification."

LIKE IDK JUST SOMETHING ABOUT HOW YOU STRUCTURE SENTENCES IS GENIUS! like cannot even begin to describe how good this was. would die for this couple honestly. the smut had me clenching too OOF. so cool to see what you've accomplished on this platform in such a short period of time! it's so so deserved and i can't wait to see where you go from here. don't know how you can even get better than this like ur already at the moon um!!! but god it's only going to get better from here. like next thing u know u'll be a famous writer fr. wishing you nothing but the fucking best!!!!

#reviewsday #kikirecs #bts #min yoongi #park jimin #jeon jungkook #bts fic #bts fanfic #bts smut #bts scenarios #bts recs #jungkook smut #jimin smut #yoongi smut #bts fluff #bts jungkook #bts jimin #bts yoongi #bts imagines #bangtan #kpop #bts au #bts fic recs

[jakecockley]

- our forsakened love - (prologue)

✧ pairing: santiago “pope” garcia x f!reader

✧ summary: santi recruits you for a mission in south america, but thing is: it’s been years since you’ve last seen each other. the tension is thick, especially when you two have… a past.

✧ genre: angst/fluff and smut in future chapters

✧ warnings: cursing, mentions of a break-up

✧ author's note: yeaahh, um idk, i was thinking of making this a series ?? this was originally just a fic but no longer ig LMAO tagging @marc-spectorr n @slenderclaw

You were bitter.

What fucking audacity Pope had when he simply showed up out of nowhere in front of your door. You didn't know what to think, what to feel, seeing his face just feet away from yours. You didn't know whether to pull him by the collar and kiss the hell out of him or slam the door and go on with your life, but a part of you said no, let's see what he has to say after all these years. That was the curious side of you talking.

You were also shocked.

When you heard the doorbell ring, opened the door, and saw who was there standing, you felt as if a bucket of ice was dumped on you. You were frozen, unable to move. Your hands felt clammy. You felt your heart beating faster. You certainly didn't expect your ex-boyfriend, the one who left you, to appear at your doormat. It wasn't like him, to randomly pop up like this and you sure as hell weren't going to entertain the thought that he might apologize for what he'd done.

Pope breathed out your name softly, but it did no difference to the cold look on your face, yet your heart cracked a little at the sound of his voice. You haven't heard it in a long time. Oh, how you missed it, the smoothness of it yet as well as the slight roughness.

He was wearing a simple black shirt with grey linen pants, laced with a belt. The colors brought out the silver strands through his dark hair and those piercing raven eyes. You noticed the thin chain necklace hanging on his neck, hidden underneath the fabric.

To be honest with yourself, you never really got over him.

You looked to the side, glancing down for a second before leveling your gaze on him again.

"What do you want, Pope?" You asked with as much steadiness you could muster, not wanting to show any vulnerability. You noticed how sort of uneasy the man was, but he regained his posture and cleared his throat. Seems you weren't the only one affected by this.

"Can we talk about this inside? If that's alright with you."

"...Fine."

▬

"You want me to what?" You chuckled coldly, leaning back against the chair you sat in, arms crossed. "To South America? You can't be serious, we- I almost died there, Pope. I won't be going back."

Did he suddenly lose his mind over the years or something? Well, you shouldn't be surprised, if you think about it. He was known for taking risks, going for them despite the consequences. But going after a dangerous drug lord was something else entirely.

Pope almost winced at the slight crack in your voice. His dark eyes gazed over the thin scar that streaked across your neck and collarbone, then back to your face. He didn't forget that night either.

Eyes following up on his own, you didn’t know what else to say. Your fingers fidgeted with each other, a habit you always did when you were anxious. The awkward silence was deafening to both of you, mostly to Pope.

Maybe he should leave and find someone else, but maybe he could convince you. After all, you were the best sharpshooter he knew. He had to take this chance, despite his history with you.

His voice cut through the tension.

"That last mission it was just us, Y/N. This time, we'll have the guys, just like before. Benny, Will, Frankie, and... Tom. I haven't spoken with him yet but I'm sure he'll be with us,” he told you with a soft tone, trying to ease your mind.

It didn’t really work, though.

"I have family here and for once, I'm finally taking care of them. If this job goes wrong, who will?" You argued sternly. "I'm not sure about the Miller brothers, but Frankie has a wife... a kid, Pope. Why drag him into this?"

"If we do this right, which I’m sure we will, the money we get out of this will support your family without you having to lift a finger anymore. It will be worth it, trust me,” Pope urged. "Frankie knows what he's doing, and he agreed to it."

“Once we’re done and safe, we go our separate ways.” He gestured with his hands.

“…How much?” You hesitated.

Alright, he had you there.

“Hundred million, more than that. We can discuss everything with the guys, the plan especially. I can... give you a day to think about it, though," Pope speculated caringly. Standing up from the chair and looking down at you, you brought your head up to look at him. His heart ached to see you smile again, noticing the way your expression had softened, but your eyes still held their hardened gaze.

He wanted to apologize. He wanted to get on his knees and tell you just how sorry he was, how much he missed you, how he thought about you every day, never ceasing away from his thoughts. He wanted to tell you why he left.

He shrugged off the unrelenting urge. Now wasn't the time, he knew it and he had to remind himself that. He came here to recruit you, not open up an old wound, although he believes he already did that to himself just by looking at you when you opened the door. He ignored the feeling.

His voice was smoky, "Come to this address when you're done thinking about it. Tomorrow." His hand pulled out a card from his back pocket, handing it down over to you.

You didn't answer him immediately, simply nodded and took the white, written piece of paper from his hand.

"Alright," you say, fingers playing around with it. Pope was surprised to hear that harsh tone gone, instead replaced by a soft one. You watched him begin walking to the door.

You got up to walk him out and once you closed the door, you sighed, eyes shut before you opened them. Maybe you should accept, your family would thrive with the money. You gently shook your head.

Goddamnit. This was such a bad fucking idea.

main masterlist | moon knight masterlist

#santiago garcia fanfic #santiago garcia x you #santiago garcia x reader #santiago garcia imagine #santiago garcia fanfiction #santiago pope garcia imagine #santiago pope garcia x reader #santiago pope garcia #santiago garcia #santiago garcia angst #triple frontier #triple frontier fanfiction #triple frontier fic #oscar isaac #oscar isaac x reader

[v1olentdelights]

TW: more gaslighting, stabbing, yelling, death :)

Summary: It’s a funny thing to know someone for so long, then realize you didn’t actually know them at all.

a/n: idk what this is... there will be an epilogue?? Thank you, @magic-is-beauty , for proofreading most of this series as well as giving me inspiration:) and thank you, @sheraayasher , for also giving inspiration!

Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5

You thought you knew Sirius Black. He was the love of your life. In his fifth year at Hogwarts, you accidentally bumped into someone. It didn’t take you long to recover, but it took even less time for someone to come help you up. A handsome man with round glasses held out his hand. You took it without hesitation.

Later, you would find out that the boy, James Potter, had actually had his mind set on asking you out for a while. But you wanted someone else. James and you had met one evening out on the astronomy tower. He confessed his feelings, but you knew that he was only trying to get over Lily’s rejection. There was a long, heartfelt conversation that evening, which led to a new friendship.

You were introduced to the group James called family. You felt the burn of a crush grow when you realized Sirius Black was a part of this group. The handsome man you had seen in some of your classes and in the halls. You would never admit it aloud. But that didn’t stop Marlene or Alice from pushing you two together, quite literally.

It happened one late evening when the group was cleaning up from a party. You and Sirius were cleaning up the drink table when Sirius stumbled rather harshly into you, successfully dumping a glass of possibly spiked red punch all over your shirt. He became a blushing mess and grabbed some napkins to try and dry off your shirt. The rest was history. You spent more time together, you kept Sirius in line and helped him keep up with school work, and he helped you loosen up.

You stayed together during the war and comforted one another. When it was revealed that Regulus had sacrificed himself, you held Sirius for hours. Then, some short months later, when Regulus came back to the order and said he had to go into hiding after destroying a horcrux, you held Sirius again. He held you tightly throughout the funeral of your close friend and her family. Sirius supported you when you came home from a hard day of listening to the disaster and trauma the war had left people with.

But was it all for nothing? You had lived in a perfect place for the past couple months and hadn’t questioned it. There was something in you that begged you to realize this was all wrong, but you didn’t listen. You kept living as if there wasn’t a war, as if there weren’t people left in ruins. And Sirius knew. He knew it all, the hours you put in to help people move forward, the work you put in with others to rebuild schools and stores, all the food you made to bring to shelters. He knew how much you loved helping others, and how much they needed it and yet kept you here.

—

You awoke to the familiar sound of Sirius humming Unchained Melody in the kitchen. As if you didn’t know anything else, you got up and walked out to find him.

“Oh, Y/N, darling. How lovely to see you, I was just making some breakfast. Would you like to help me cut up some tomatoes?” His smile was sweet. Too sweet. Yet you still went over to the counter, pulled out a knife, and started cutting the tomatoes slowly. “Did you sleep well?”

“What happened, Sirius?” Flashes of a war, bright lights and buildings falling passed in your brain.

“I don’t know what you mean. Nothing happened. Are you almost done with those?” He hadn’t turned to face you yet. “I thought we could sit outside on the patio for breakfast, I heard it was supposed to be sunny.” Your cutting stopped. It was always sunny, it never rained, never snowed, it rarely got cloudy.

“Tell me what happened.” You turned with the knife still in your hand, pointed directly at him. He raised his hands as he turned around. “And don’t lie to me.”

“Darling, I truly have no idea what you are talking about. Nothing happened. Are you feeling alright?” Are you feeling alright? Of course not, things were flashing through your brain, your heart was beating fast, and you were feeling a million different emotions, and you didn’t know why.

You waved the knife around as an exasperated sigh left you.

“Stop that. Your stupid mind games, I know things aren’t right.” Taking a step forward, Sirius took a step back.

“Y/N, stop, please.” He sounded nervous, and his breathing was ragged.

“STOP!” And in an instant, the knife found its way into his gut. You let out a shock yelp, and Sirius stood there, slowly looking down at the knife. “Oh my- Sirius, I don’t- what have I done?” You went to pull the knife out. But Sirius reached up and wrapped his hands around your throat.

“I did this all for you. I spent every last penny I had to keep you safe. How could you do this? You kept pushing and pushing against it. The ministry assured me you wouldn’t know it wasn’t real. Yet you kept on looking and questioning.” His grip tightened, and you felt yourself getting lightheaded and the tears slipping down your face. “I love you. I care about you, just like James cares for Lily. That's why we did this.” You tried to pry his hands away, but they wouldn’t budge, so you reached down for the handle of the knife.

It all was coming back to you now. The night Sirius greeted you with a nice dinner and wine. The record, and the dancing, the pleading. And though you loved Sirius deeply, you couldn’t see past this. He took away your life. You twisted the knife in his stomach, causing him to let go of you and howl in pain. He quickly grabbed onto the edge of the table.

“You’re psychotic. I had a life… you took my life.” You let the tears trickle down your face. It didn’t matter how much you wanted this life. You already had one where people need you.

“I saved your life!” Sirius kept a hand over the wound trying to keep pressure on it even with the knife still hanging out of him.

“That's not true.” It came out soft but filled with anger.

“Listen to me. You were working all the time!”

“NO! I loved working.”

“You were miserable! You were so unhappy.” He took a sharp breath and winced at the pain. “YOU HATED YOUR LIFE!” Sirius yelled.

“It was MY LIFE!” Sobs were taking over, but you stayed strong. “MY LIFE! You don’t get to take that from me!”

“I GAVE THIS TO YOU! I GAVE YOU ALL OF THIS!” He tried to stumble closer. You caught him by the shoulders.

“Then I don’t want it. And I sure as hell don’t want you.” Quickly, you moved to jab the knife further into his stomach before yanking it out. Watching him fall to the ground, you saw the blood on your white nightgown.

“I did this for you because I love you.” His voice was weak and filled with sadness.

“I thought I loved you. But I don’t even know you, I never really did. Did I?”

@magic-is-beauty @sheraayasher

#golden slumbers #grace writes #sirius x reader #sirius black angst #sirius black x you #sirius black x reader #marauders fic #marauders #sirius black imagine #sirius black fanfiction #sirius black #sirius x you #marauders x reader #marauders x y/n #the marauders #sirius orion black

[winter-parrot]

went and saw the les mis nat tour. thought i maybe wouldn't cry so much this time, was wrong. having lots of thoughts and feelings. i'm gonna dump them here in whatever tangle they come out in because i want to document some of it while it is still Fresh.

act 1

did not expect the prologue (esp on parole) to hit me that hard. i almost cried and that was when i knew i was in for it tonight.

there were!! little brick moments esp in the prologue!!! that i really loved!!!

valjean stealing a coin from a kid. this has to be a petit gervais reference even it it came early during on parole instead of the brick-accurate what have i done

baptistine and mme. magloire were there with myriel!

fauchelevent got his leg wrecked by the cart and specifically had to be carried off, which doesn't feel like a detail i've seen often

the entire town coming out with pitchforks to see valjean arrested was A Lot.

they didn't do the parole slip rip-to-the-beat thing!! they just did one (1) at the end i miss it.

they gave?? most of the factory girls solo over to the foreman??? that was a weird choice

they made fantine's firing more personal for valjean, mainly by having her try to talk to him and be brushed aside during the factory fight. valjean also paused to look back before he walked offstage. i dislike this.

lovely ladies was so brutal. oh my god. i felt her degradation and despair in the lovely ladies descent a lot more viscerally than i usually do. and but god i wanted to punch bamatabois so bad. good work to the actor, but fuck that guy

tiny tiny nit but they kept saying monsieur mayor which was driving me nuts. pick a langaug dammit!

runaway cart continues to feel choppy bc of all the lines they cut out of it.

it's not by the face, it's not by the voice, no, it's by the lifting that you recognize a man. this will always be funny to me.

there was!! a french flag!!! flying over the courtroom scene!!! it had words on them but i couldn't see all of it. the middle looked like egalite as you'd expect, but the far right was justice?? fraternite seems like a weird one to replace with justice, so maybe the whole thing was different? I couldn't even see the left where liberte would go bc of the stage lights.

little cosette was so good. oh sweet child you desrve all the hugs.

surprisingly managed to mostly enjoy master of the house. hated the opening more than i ever have before, specifically watching the audience laugh at mme thenardier abusing cosette. i realize it's not entirely the audience's fault, the show is absolutely playing it for laughs, but the ick was high today.

i will never not find show me where you live funny

look down broke in while jvj and cosette were stil having their sweet moment. idk if it was intentional but it felt very ominous and it worked

oh god gavroche was so tiny. i've never seen a gavroche feel so viscerally young, with all the invincible courage and rashness and childness bravado. i almost cried when he first appeared just because he was so small and so young and i knew what was coming.

i did a lot of crying in not-technically-sad scenes because i knew what was coming. oh god.

gavroche seemed to have a bit of hero-worship of enjolras, a la his relationship to bahorel in the book. this did become relevant in the most painful way that i feared.

i love enjolras's red waistcoat in look down

on the topic of enjo's costuming, i make fun of him for being half naked a lot. but i realized today that all the students are fully dressed (buttoned up, waistcoat + cravat, jacket) in act 1 but end up at more-or-less enjo level of (un)dress on the barricade.

is?? state of (un)dress being used as a visual shorthand for revolutionary fervour???

i think??? enjo almost got arrested after the look down scene. i missed the actual onset but i looked back towards him to find an officer waving a truncheon menacingly in his face, so.

in my life felt very ick!! which is not what was expecting. mostly it's the staging where cosette is trapped inside the courtyard pushing out at the bars, valjean comes in, unlocks the door for himself, and then locks the two of them back in. it brought back beeblemis trauma honestly.

(obligatory???) acknowledgment that vlajean does kind of become cosette's jailor in the brick, but the musical doesn't really have the room for that kind of nuance. not when we see so little of them.

courf just?? randomly grabbed a gun at the from nowhere?? at the end of red and black???

enjolras then shouted to the streets! raising said gun right before do you hear the people sing. this isn't the baricades yet!! this is a demonstrably bad choice like one (musical) day before your planned rebellion. especially if he's already been almost arrested. boy, what are you thinking???

i miss the revolve. they had to do some weird snaky maneuvers to keep marching without walking off stage. it looked stupid honestly.

garoche & enjolras's deaths area also elevated by the revolve imho

also the barricade revolve is just cool

oh god how am i not at the end of act 1 yet.

the one day more overlapping medley at the end felt werid disjointed and i'm not sure why?

one day more also made me cry not bc the song itself is particualrly sad but i couldn't stop thinking in one day more most of you will be dead which was. heartbreaking.

okay now i'm done act 1

act 2

i have less to say about act 2 i mostly just cried a lot

the tragedy of on my own really struck me, i think bc eponine felt more defiant?? like more angry about her fate, less lovestruck.

i cried at now we pledge ourselves to hold this barricade. more anticipatory grief knowing what was coming.

enj felt like a very good leader which i always appreciate. i love him, my boy.

javert's uncovering felt so violent in a way that i'm not used to seeing on stage. they fought. several times. it was very physical and tense.

also gavroche was so fucking proud and i was so fucking proud of him too and so fucking sad.

the audience laughed at now hat i know that you love... me as well which was. weird??? is that normally a laugh spot???

a little fall of rain wrecked me, partly for eponine's death, but partly for gavroche showing up just in time to see her die. musical gave no indication of their relation but i know and i was sad.

the progression from they will see the people rise to the people too must rise to the people have not stirred. god!!! this is not new but it did strike me anew today!!

courfeyrac??? told valjean well done, sir and like banged his gun against the barricade as a gesture of respect/praise??? that was weird on so many levels. idk where that came from.

i started crying near the end of bring him home and basically did not stop for the rest of act 2. only lessened in intensity at times.

grantaire's verse in drink with me was very belligerent and enjo was not putting up with it. i'm used to seeing this as a moment for enjo to comfort/soothe r (at least in the last ~10 years of productions) but this enjo was not fucking having it. it was more hostile than comforting. gavroche ran off to comfort r after.

oh my god gavroche's death. sans revolve they obviously couldn't show him on the other side of the barricade. so we just hear some shots, and then he throws the ammo over, and then he gets to the top of the barricade -- and then he gets shot down, right into enjo's arms. he then gets passed to grantaire, who stands there holding him for the entire lead up to the final battle.

enjolras was?? the first to die??? he ran up to the top of the barricade not to shoot but to wave the red flag, and then was the first to get shot down. then the rest of the amis in the standard cross-beam of spotlights thing. and then, last of all, grantaire puts down gavroche, runs up to the peak where enjo died, and is shot.

i'm not exactly upset about grantaire getting that moment, but him getting it alone -- esp after enjolras was the first to die -- felt like a weird choice.

the oboe solo pause after the final battle continues to be my downfall

thenardier says [God's] as dead as the stiffs at my feet while standing over marius. i have yet to decide if this is an intentional staging choice as commentary on "God may look dead but he's alive, i promise" or just a coincidence

they dropped valjean's there is a life to save line, no idea why

javert was so unhinged during his suicide. he was waving a pistol around for the first half and i briefly but genuinely feared they were going to restage his suicide to be by gun. thankfully it was an unfounded fear.

the candles are still my undoing!!!! i knew exactly what was coming when they brought them out during turning and yet. and yet. the simultaneous blowing out made me bawl.

side note, ghost!grantaire and enjolras appeared flanking gavroche and my first thought was are they his parents now??

dear god please do not let them parent anybody. they're bad enough individually but as a pair??? unthinkable.

i almost laughed during valjean's confession bc all i could think was ahh yiss story time with papa. i was still crying but it did not stop me from snorting.

can we cut that weird opening to beggar at the feast. you know the one.

this one's a jew is more ick than usual given current events

tacking on i might try it too after this one's a queer does not, in fact, make it gay liberation!!! it just makes it gross!!!

you've already cut so many lines from this show, why is this bit still here

take it away and give me back the i remember eponine lines in the same damn song!!!!

i think that's all for act 2??? even if it it's itls fucking late and this post has exceeded 2k words so fuck it.

general notes

i can trace the 2012 movie influences in places, that was unexpected

splashing waves as the opening imagery of work song

were the msurm factory uniforms always that blue?

did fantine's death always have that white curtain?

fantine spitting on valjean was a hathaway thing, wasn't it?

gavroche gets to keep his this is the land that fought for liberty line! i'm torn about this bc i love those lines but also this is my school, my high society bit was good too

the harmony at the end of red and black!!!! it was like my favourite music change for the move i love that they kept it

entire master of the house scene staging felt very movie-ish, just in the ~vibes~ of it

nose boops!! valjean boops cosette like four times i'm p sure that's a movie popularization

actor / character interpretation thoughts

valjean was good! i liked him better in the first act 24601/madeleine side than on the act 2 fauchlevent side, but still good

fantine was angry and i liked that.

thenardiers were mostly good. weird that they made mme obviously lust over other people??

marius was fun! good balance of earnest lovable genuine and idiot himbo booby.

did not like cosette. this is the first time i've actively disliked a portrayal of cosette and it was a big pity. the musical does enough infantalizing of adult!cosette already, i really did not need the actress to play that up.

mixed opinions about javert. honestly i think he's a fine musical javert i just like my book javert too much. obsessed with jvj, openly defiant to madeleine, very Godly, that kind of thing. but his voice was good and his suicide was extremely unhinged in a good way.

i fucking adored enjolras. he felt older?? which is not exactly the right vibe but it came with the right vibe of authority and calm that i super super appreciated. also he sounded beautiful and his hair was a glorious mane of curls.

grantaire is a delightful garbage bastard man.

i've already talked about gavroche but god gavroche!!!

courfeyrac kept catching my eye in both good ways and bad. kind of felt like he became ami #3? (after enjo and marius, per the musical). very often on enjolras's left, the first to seize a gun, the first to praise jvj on "killing" valjean (that was weird, what was that), etc etc.

song list in playbill was not incorrect but kind of weird. notable mentions:

the entirety of prologue was just listed as prologue

both what have i done and javert's suicide were just listed as soliloquy (not even x's soliloquy)

confrontation wasn't listed at all?? i'd think it was folded into come to me, odd as that seems, except that just has fantine and valjean listed.

drink with me became drink with me to days gone by???

all the little bits and pieces of song missing was expected, but seeing none of the battles listed at all felt a little weird. not even the final battle.

the spotlights on stage were mostly yellow/warm white, except for when someone died/was near death, where they got bright cold white spotlights. except javert -- he got the cold white spotlight in stars, too, and in one day more.

was this an intentional choice to make a statement about javert??

was this just an accidental coincidence??

did other non-dying people get the white spotlight too and i just didn't notice??

#les mis #natter #oh god this got so long #2100 words.. help... #i had to go back and update several times bc the wordcount is making tumblr editor unusable on my browser rn #and i was afraid of losing 2k words #so i had to write and save in chunks #did you know there's a 4096 character-per-block limit??? #i sure didn't until today #if anyone wants to Talk To Me about this PLEASE DO

[atwistinthetail]

I’m which @opalsiren speaks to my soul once more

I’ve started and then deleted this post a bunch before

bc it’s like… 𝓅𝑒𝓇𝓈𝑜𝓃𝒶𝓁 lmao

but ok so a lot about me under the cut and tw for 𝒷𝑜𝒹𝓎 𝒾𝓈𝓈𝓊𝑒𝓈 🩵

a reason I’ve always gravitated to Charlotte is absolutely bc I am a tall and curvier girlie and we don’t see that physical type much as anything besides like

frumpy.

like you can be short and midsized and it’s cute

or tall and thin obv

but being tall and midsized, I don’t want to say “normal sized” (bc what is normal size, but I am fighting the language that has always existed in my brain here)

but I guess I will call it a more common size for actual women and girls than it’s portrayed

being that size has not traditionally fit any archetypes.

lil side note but I went to school for acting, my class was all cis women and our professor was a middle aged man bc you know, school. and he did this exercise where each of us would stand on stage and the rest of the group would typecast the person. on paper yeah could be useful but really it was just about judging each others’ bodies right.

so I was always a “character” type (not like a lead ingenue or love interest) and sometimes it could be a sexy character or a desirable character, but usually it was a Mother or a Queen or some other older and/or authoritative role bc being tall and not having a willowy build meant I couldn’t be a love interest objectively. and if it was a sexy character it was also a comedic character or a “bimbo”

(side side note my best friend then and still a good friend now was the classic ingenue type, and we were always lowkey being pitted against each other and only realized it in the past few years being out of that environment. and she would get comments, again from faculty, that she was too thin so ya know. we love womanhood.)

okay but anyway I promise I’m getting back to Charlotte here

seeing a tall girl with even a slightly bigger build than the usual main girl aesthetic was is huge, bc for all the ways the writing failed her, Charlotte is still a love interest. we know she won’t get the guy, but Lewis and Cleo and the audience at least see her as a potential romantic partner and it’s not a joke that she likes Lewis bc she’s frumpy and unattractive and taller than him.

she’s very powerful. she’s a mermaid. she’s intellectual and she’s a theatre kid, and it’s just a facet of her character, not in service of making her dorky.

I don’t mind that she’s a villain. what really bothers me the most, personally, about what was done to Charlotte is that she wants to be accepted by this group of very traditionally hot, skinny 2000s girlies and is bullied and excluded by them at every turn. that is my supervillain origin story lol.

so if they just went all the way and made her a bitch (affectionate) from the very beginning and she was a true supervillain, I would take that in stride. it also makes sense that the trio would have some resistance or insecurity about letting a new person into their group and that’s a pretty sincere conflict.

but instead of exploring that they just created a very grounded in reality lady that I really felt for bc she was meeee, gave her all these great traits that characters like that never got, and then made her othered in a way that was way too true to life without commenting on it at all.

uhh idk what my thesis here is really, just a lil thought dump on a Tuesday morning 🩵

#tw body insecurity #tw body dysphoria #tw eating issues #just getting a lil vulnerable on my mermaid blog #we’re all having fun here

[saturns7ringsinspace]

Hello all, I thought I would share my au because I have wanted to for a while. It’s been in development for 5-6 years now. This took me an 1hr 30minutes and it shows so bare with me please 🫶🏽

Alright this is my AU, FIVE YEARS AND I DONT HAVE A NAME FOR IT 😃

 This is just a brain dump it’s insanely unorganized and possibly confusing.

Alright it focuses around the JR because I love them and I probably love them more bc of this au that I’ve grown attached to.

So I kinda tried to stay canon but also definitely strayed away from it a lot

Everyone got a power boost bc it’s more fun when they’re all powerful and have to go through character arcs, I have a lot of OCs in this which are super dear to me 🫶🏽

Alright I’m going to start with the basis. 

Basically the JR is the most powerful organization in their set multiverse. We knew this ofc. Dream runs it and sometimes leans on his close employees for advice, help, etc but he obviously has a problem so he usually does it all himself by this I mean paper work and his daily duties which is usually just paper work.

There are a lot of divisions including justice division, cooking/chefs, security division, orphanage staff, hired mercenaries, medical divisions, office workers, receptionists, maids/janitors, and I’m sure a lot more. 

The JR runs a lot of things and it’s hard to keep track of everything even for dream.

The plot is based on them chasing criminals specifically meme squad, then outcome B happens, but a shadow organization rises with growing power, dream and the jr wondering how they stayed off their radar and these guys are total bad news. Every bad thing, every big criminal has had an association with these guys ( I don’t have a name for them yet, I’ve just been referring to them as AJR, anti-justice reigns, weak name I know) they have a deep hatred for the jr and do everything in their power to take them down. Majority of the story is the JR against AJR the rest is meme squad and inner demon battles 😃

I guess I’ll move on to respective characters unless I forgot something 

Dream- CEO of JR, runs it like a business is basically a politician, businessman, warrior(??),  paperwork man, father (??🧐🧐)

Same backstory as OG, ate 50000 apples, grew light wings, villainized nightmare.

His powers- as I mentioned I gave people power boosts, so he has all his og powers and more. His sword lights up yellow when he uses his powers and a lot of magic comes out of it when used (think raiden shogun) honestly in powers he can shoot light, and if he needed to he probably could incinerate someone/thing. He can shoot a lot of it but if overused he’d need probably couple hours of rest. I wanted to paint him in a way to be a like god but not there completely (again think raiden but a bit more inferior) 

Personality- same old same old

Polite, respectful, serious with his job and with life in general

 lighthearted

Has morals even though they are a bit twisted in a way

He honestly is supposed to be the MC but he’s not really there it’s funny to me he’s just so busy he becomes overshadowed by the other side MCs I didn’t account for that at first but then it felt purposeful.

Ink- Dreams right hand, but moreover assassin/mercenary, here for the money (but that’s where character development come in) 

His backstory is kinda the same but I added some stuff to fix plot holes or just Wtv didn’t make sense, I don’t feel like expanding right now

(I’ll do separate posts with more details on characters maybe lmao probably not)

Powers- alrighty this is gonna be hard to explain. So he has his og powers ink blah blah, but he can use it to morph it into stuff like idk if he wanted to prank someone he could make his ink into food and they would eat it and they just ate his powers not actually food (idk another example😭), I created this as a joke but then added it because I liked it. He can use the ink on/in his body to morph himself, so like change his body this shouldn’t be confused with changing his complete appearance like skin tone eye color etc but he can change like the shape of his body or gender kinda like if he wanted to appear as a girl he could. But he would still look  like same eye color, same skin tone, same hair color etc. but he could shape of his nose, mouth, he usually uses it for fun/to scare people and not on missions unless he has to. 

Personality- rude ahole, absolutely gives no fks, nice is a one in a lifetime occurrence 

his rudeness is from trauma and his lack of knowing how to interact with others 

Sassy 100%

When the character development pops in he becomes better still a ahole tho. 

He cares I promise he just needs a shove in the right direction

(GENDERFLUID INK GENDERFLUID INK, using “he” here bc it’s easier and I have a headache)

Finch- (my favorite and you can tell by all the trauma and pain I gave him 💝🫶🏽🥰)

JD Captain, Inks respective rival, way too loyal to dream until he’s not

This is where I’m scared to post about my AU. Because this guy is the one who probably got the biggest boost. 

His backstory- it’s still based on the 1930-40s in WW2 in America specifically Odessa, Texas.

this was how his downhill of a life started (until he met dream)

Lives with mother and father and 6 siblings because in that time people had way too many kids. And I like the idea of youngest sibling finch. Father gets drafted for war, dies. (This was fav parent btw) mother sad and traumatized, takes it out on kids ⁉️ finch got the worst of it bc MC plot , she wanted him to be perfect which messed with self esteem and just imagine her lovely reaction when he came out to her. Runs away bc it’s too much mental and emotional abuse. This is the shaky part. Comes into contact with a spirit , specifically spirit of anger,revenge , and all things karma. This come into the story later. Okay so I quite haven’t figured this part out but upon coming in contact with this spirit bro gets possessed 😱 and his au shows a rift which he gets sucked into and spit out into dreamswaps au where ever I haven’t done that world building yet. The part where he gets his freaking eye stabbed out is still in the works but I have a basis that I’m not sharing yet but after that dream finds him with a couple guards , and he’s sent to the JR hospital gets new eye and and soon after 3-4 years of insane hard work becomes promoted to captain this is important because it establishes just how hardworking he is. Most wouldn’t get such a promotion until at least 6-7 years? For him to get it so young, so early, is envying and insane. For others they’re jealous and believe he’s undeserving until he really proves himself worthy of such a position and gains the respect (I so graciously believe he deserves)

As you can there is a lot for him and that’s because originally there’s so little so I had a lot of room to implement what would usually be hcs into his character.

Alrighty powers- 

This is hard to explain the spirit gives him these established powers but it makes him lose control if used excessively leaving the spirit to take over and a pain for whoever's around

These powers run on emotions and if he is careless with his expression then the above may happen.

He can like use the magic to float stuff sometimes himself but that takes a lot. 

He can make daggers (similar to an idea that I believe @fresh-trans-fish had)

Still has that scrappy spear of his. 

He has very scared to use these powers but after time bonding with said spirit he became more comfortable in it.

THE CRYSTALS- part of keeping the spirit in control. 

They need each other , spirit (doesn’t have a name yet I’m working on it) and finch need each other to live cause spirit needs a host and will fade out without one and finch is stabilized by said spirit 

Personality- silent man probably the equivalent of the quiet kid maybe a little more mental unstable 

A leader at heart 

Cares about doing the right thing 

Crazy in the way where he talks to himself constantly 

internally hyper, externally calm

Anxiety definitely 

I gave him borderline bc that’s my own hc in og (makes dealing with his powers harder)

Kind but people don’t see it

Tough willpower 

Claims to never cry, probably has a mental breakdown after very shift

He has learned over the years to be less wound up off the job. 

Also he has a bsf (she will be introduced later but she is important to his character development she’s an OC ofc )

Okay, that’s not everything obviously there’s still the OCS but I’m so lazy and I hate writing on my phone. So here’s a quick basis of the MC OCs 

Ash- lead doctor in the medical department, close with dream been in the JR for a LONG time, like a mother to certain people (cough cough finch and katja) 

Katja- co captain to finch and bsf to him also, hates ink in a weird sibling way, 24

Eliza- weird relationship to dream, people don’t know why she’s always in the JR also oddly close with ink and finch, late 20s

Amayah- lead detective, cool uncle vibes, early 30s

Brianna- dreams adopted daughter (that’s all I’ll say about that 😃)

UGH THIS WAS A PAIN TO WRITE ESPECIALLY ON MY PHONE I WISH THOUGHTS COULD JUST TRANSFER ON THE PAGE. 

Tbh there’s probably so much I’m forgetting but it’ll come to me and I’ll write it down.

Autocorrect made this 10x more painful. 

Okay that’s definitely not everything (I’ve said for the fifth time) but if any questions then please comment 

I hope this has a good reach but lmk your thoughts! 

#dreamswap #ds finch #dreamswap finch #dreamswap dream #ds ink #dreamswap ink #ds dream #saturnheadcanons #saturnposts #writing #alternate universe #ARGHHHHHH #please interact #in pain #my fingies hurt #oc #orginal character #it’ll all make sense I promise #probably not though

[boilingheart]

i know its not quite the same scenario as navy seal, but ive highkey avoided ever talking about or publicly enjoying poly pirates content for the same kind of reason, but instead bc it involves shipping jay and chip.

like. yes, i know many people (including the jerboys) interpret them as having a more sibling-esque bond. I fully acknowledge it and I can even agree w it!* but i hate how it has been made that any other interpretation is not only wrong but also bad.

idk man like. i just hate how it feels like enjoying any dynamic of poly-pirates outside of fnc is wrong-- bc at that point, what is the point?

*i personally tend to see the two as very close, but the specifics of whether that closeness is platonic/familial or romantic depends on interpretation (whether of the individual, author, etc). they're two people who've found connection and safety in each other and also enjoy ribbing the other for jokes- what specific type of connection that is can vary for me, yknow? the type isnt the Core of their dynamic to me

(sorry the asterisk part got so long i just want to properly explain myself and dump a bit fjkdsjf)

Oh yeah, I'm 1000% with you on this. I mentioned navyseal cause that's my personal guilty pleasure that I am highkey obsessed with but had to keep it on the downlow after twitter decided it was just as bad as inc*st apparently (as someone who is very very deeply uncomfortable and revolted by that type of stuff in genuine, that shit pissed me off!!!), but this absolutely applies to Chip and Jay and polypirates as a whole. Hell, when I first started the show and didn't really have much fandom influence in my first 30 something episodes I was actually way more of a poly enjoyer

Anyways, as a whole I do sincerely think Chip and Jay work better as a platonic bond, I like this interpretation of their relationship better than romantic, but that doesn't necessarily make the ship bad or wrong you know? Literally ditto to everything you said in your asterisk I couldn't word it better myself.

Like bruh it really felt like these characters are stuck being bitchless fr LOL that whole twitter debacle made it feel like the only CORRECT ships were fnc and pistolwhip (as if fnc doesn't Also have some of the same dynamics listed in navyseal and chip/jay!! (although im certainly keeping my mouth shut further on that since people have started gunning to convince people fnc is a Bad Boring Ship, Actually, and it's better platonic (unrelated to the wlw vs mlm take that just happened there, big disclaimer (I spend too much time on twitter can u tell... there's so many shipwars there for no reason...))) anyways yeah there was just too many people trying to police these ships and instead of just being NORMAL and saying "oh X isn't my cup of tea I enjoy a familial/platonic bond between them instead" they start bending over backwards to prove that ACTUALLY it's PROBLEMATIC, SEE? And sourcing the boys' opinions on it doesn't Wholly matter to ships (unless it's in regards to boundaries, in which it Absolutely Matters) cause Bizly regularly dunks on fnc and that hasn't changed anything

This got very long winded sorry LOL I've been holding onto this irritation for a while now, it's one of the reasons why I'm trying to move away from twitter and come back to tumblr tbh. It is simply fandom culture to ship, and while I love fnc to absolute death as my main ship here, it's nice to explore some variety yk? navyseal has CRAZY potential cause of their parallels and their journey of self discovery and how much they deeply care for each other, polypirates is just a lot of fun altogether cause of all their personalities and that shared strong bond, then you have swordfish, fish² and chips, caspian/chip, marshall john/gillion, like, multishipping is FUN dude. Unless it's GENUINELY problematic or Actual Proshipping like twitter Claimed, I don't see the big idea. There is such thing as "Don't like, don't read". There is such thing as muting/blocking words and curating your own experience. You don't have to put down others because their enjoyment of something clashes with your personal interpretation of it. It's fandom bro!!!

#bheart talks #answered #shit man even typing this out i get nervous hitting post but man i KNOW im not wrong

[crookedthrone]

hi okay I've been dead and gone and buried (haha anyone catch that reference?) but I just finished chain of thorns (the last hours #3 by cassandra clare) and I HAVE THOUGHTS (major CHOT spoilers, here's your only warning)

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first of all, I think we can all agree that the love triangle was so unnecessary?? why bother having matthew be in love with cordelia when you could've made them the ultimate pair of bffs, it was so frustrating when cordelia essentially cheated on james? and created so much unneeded conflict between james and matthew when the time could have been used to build up more relationships (KITGRACE ARE ADORABLE EXCUSE ME)

2, kit's death - admittedly I was spoiled when it came to this (damn you, twitter user who didn't tag chot spoilers!) so I wasn't really emotionally affected, but kit's character was going so well and him and grace? idk I'll die with this ship, plus I'm a grace apologist and she deserved one good thing after all that happened 😭 lowkey wished matthew or even james died instead bc it would've been something completely different since cc doesn't tend to kill of MCs, and it'd be like if will or jem died, much more painful

3, james surviving cortana?? why did it feel so cliche - it felt like city of lost souls when clary stabbed jace with glorious the sword and HOW does this trope feel so reused.. the whole thing where a paladin can heal the blows they make just didn't really cut it for me, I mean I understand it but I don't really see the logic in it hahaha

4, i almost feel like the book is spreading itself too thin, in the sense that we didn't get time to explore anything much, instead just getting brief glimpses of each character before proceeding to another. this has been a bit of a recurring problem for me with tlh, but it felt worse this book since we at 10 (TEN) povs jumping around 💀

overall this book feels like ant man quantamania - had a solid concept and has potential, but wasn't executed the best. maybe a 7ish out of 10? it wasn't BAD per se, some character moments I cherished a lot - like thomstairs, ghostwriter and herondaisy and even anna/ariadne, whom cc lowkey messed up in CHOI, I liked the jokes and how we finally sort of know why belial owes jem a favour, it's been bothering me. the plot was resolved okay, but again, meh execution. okay the dump is complete goodbye

#chain of thorns #james herondale #matthew fairchild #cassandra clare #shadowhunters #the shadowhunter chronicles #the last hours #will herondale #tessa herondale #cordelia carstairs #lucie herondale #chain of iron #chain of gold #the mortal instruments #the dark artifices

[goosimp]

ok long ago in the dark ages few months back, back when I had no one who'll listen to my joongoo rambles, and I was newly in love, I would seek out fanart of him everywhere

I think the first time I saw kitsune joongoo was somewhere on pinterest and I was like "cuteee" But nothing much more but then that adorbs tart acc posted that fucking beautiful kitsune goo and I had DIED

THAT ONE IMAGE GRIPPED MY NECK AND I COULDN'T BREATHE SINCE

I had,,, SOOOOOOOO MANY THOUGHTS. The possiblities. The scenerios. The imagination.KITSUNE GOO!!!!!

So naturally I drew him allot but I also had a very vivid imagination series kinda in my head---

Soooo

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Not really fic more like idea dumping(Kitsune goo x fem!oc you can say? Except I never decided her name)

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There's this lady, in traditional attire and she's really nice but unsocial with society and spends most her times studying mythical beings, which makes everyone in town thinks she's a witch.

For that she lives deep somewhere in a forest in her home or what she calls her temple, in the privacy and nature where she studies the supernatural.

Something something happens she stumbles upon something something back to her temple-

She sets up the items she found in her ritual stand and begins reading the things written on the item peace and gasp

Suddenly everything glows and a hot man groans, standing on top of the ritual set up, well not a man… A KITSUNE!!

He's confused, he looks at her like "how am I here?" And she explains she, taken aback but also having done rituals to summon mythical creatures before, explains that she found him through something plot convenience something and he chuckles.

"Wow you talk really formally.. Huh, so I was incased to eternal sleep after…" and before he could reveal more plot he cuts himself off and grins at the lady.

"Your eyes are fixated on my tails, do you want to touch them?" He says and his 9 fluffy tails wag, inching closer to the lady's hand.

The lady being polite first tries decline but she's human she can't resist, TOUCH TOUCH TOUCH- Soft tail pats… Joon goo let's out cute fox noises (BAAAH M DEAD)

he chuckled and held her hand to stop her from totally getting engrossed only in his tail, and she retreats, embarrased, "ah, apologies, it's that I've studied your kind through only tales before, finally having met a kitsune.. I'm just in awe."

The lady explains, goo cuts her off and says "Goo. I have a name, call me goo.." He smiles, perhaps had gotten a bit annoyed by the lady continuously referring to him as a kitsune but he wasn't offended.

more conversation happens, goo acts flirty cause yes, one scene in particular I imagined

"May I study you? I'm very fascinated by your stature..." she asks innocently, but goo being the mischievous fox leans very close and whispers in her ears "You want to know how kitsunes show their love to people that respect them?"

She shivered and pulled back, "ah thatll be too much of an honour!" she exclaims naively,and goo melts cause she's so innocent and sweet

Some more stuff happens (actually its already getting so long so I'm cutting off small small imaginations I had Inbetween, my mind continued with this one story for A MONTH so it has lots of moments-)

Somewhere inbetween goo knows he has to go and take his revenge and get answers for how he was encased, so after staying with the lady in her temple until he regained his normal strength, he decided he'll have to leave.

The lady doesn't want to be left alone again, she has so much to learn about him too, goo feels he doesn't want to part ways either.. He hasn't felt this peace with someone since...forever. He would miss the gentle tail pats and getting his ear scartched too...

"Come with me, lady" He offered softly, smiling. "You have more to learn about the mythical world anyways.. And... I said I'll show you a kitsunes love too right?"

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Idk why dafuq I felt the need to aesthetify the imagination,, god there's so much I skipped over too but it's so longgggg and so out of character

anyways yeah so basically I love kitsune goo.

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THAT ART OF TART'S HAD ME SEEING HEAVEN FOR A SECOND. MY JAW DROPPED WHEN I SAW IT!!! IT WAS FUCKING FUCKING BEAUTIFUL!!! I HAVE THAT DOWNLOADED ON MY FOLDERS AND IT'S EHEHEHEH- IT'S SO FUCKING PRETTY LIKE NONE WILL UNDERSTAND ME!!! I WOULD KILL TO SEE THAT IRL. THAT'S LIKE ONE OF MY FAV GOO FANARTS AND THE OTHER BEING OF iwasneverthere true to their name, garden1a and del-png klshaegvbkuo like those arts are so fucking goooodddddd AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH makes me tear up evertime i see their goo art, the true rulers of goo fandom

I am so happy i saw this before I went outside and start chasing someone with a bat. This is so cute and adorable💝💝💝💝💝💝💥💥💥

why is kitsune goo not real. It's fucking sad that the earth will never see the true beauty😞😞😞

THE TAILS. THE TAILLSSSSS!!!gv!KUFVSACFYLIGYIFYF I NEED RTO TOUCH RHEM OII WANT TO QGVABBUscuuiqguhieefschiecfhniqfhqefhi;,jb klugbkuoawgefkUIW2GFIUGwfgugefbkudsgbvukgskdgu kzxb vhzvczhch ugca ug caugc uagc scg asogcacgaus couag df ugcui avgsfoiugfgqwqbkl hi oq 3yt 021yr hfe tc avc v c8agu ogo hchcoys

#~🍞 toast #lookism #i am talking short becaus e i am really tired rn sorry toast

[mothwingwritings]

🤜Tokyo Fist (Bouncer) Relationship Headcanons/Scenarios🤛

F! Reader X Tokyo Fist (Bouncer) Relationship & Dating Scenarios

Here is a little something I wrote just for the heck of it in between working on various fics. I don’t really know how big of a presence Bouncer (by Mizuta Makoto) has but it is SO GOOD and I HIGHLY RECOMMEND it if you haven’t read it. I love these boys and have a few actual fic ideas for them but I wanted to create something smaller because again, IDK if anyone is even gonna know what this is. ^^;

Regardless I hope you enjoy!

Warnings: SLIGHT SPOILERS up to chapter 73, some mentions of NSFW elements so 18+ please, some language, in a few scenarios you are being watched w/o your knowledge but it’s for protection purposes, and maybe a tinge of possessiveness?

Shishidou Jouichirou

·         You have been on Jou’s mind for a very long time. Starting out as friends, you grew closer the more you got to know each other. There is something about you that instantly sparks his interest. In you he found a sincere and caring personality, and with every interaction he is left wanting more time with you.

·         He loves to talk to you and hear your opinion on any number of things, seeing you as a valuable beacon of reason and understanding in his life. He trusts you more than anyone, taking every word of wisdom you bestow upon him to heart.

·         He admires so many things about you and honestly has not met a kinder, smarter, or more understanding person than you. He knows he can go to you for help with anything (but doesn’t end up doing that too often, as he would never want to burden you with his more intense issues) and is extremely grateful for your presence in his life.

·         He realizes early on that his affections go deeper than normal friendship. His mind begins to slip to you whenever he gets time to himself, his brain filled with day dreams of you ranging from domestic and sweet to downright salacious  

·         Is honestly super nervous to even breach the subject of being an official couple. His love for you is undeniable, but he’s concerned if you feel the same. You were already such close friends, and his job was so dangerous, did he even have the right to ask for something more?

·         When you reciprocated his affections, he was ecstatic. He was glowing for a solid week, goofy grin not once leaving his face (and you can guarantee the rest of Tokyo Fist gave him hell for it).

·         He still had his reservations about a lot of things early on, and because of this was particularly hard on himself in the relationship. He was a high school dropout and a delinquent who was constantly surrounded by violence and danger. You deserved so much more than that, and he felt guilty for what he believed was ‘dragging you down to his level.’

·         Despite this, he did have to admit the attention and love you dumped on him in waves was the best feeling he had ever experienced in his life.

·         You made him feel special, loved, and completed his life. So he was going to make damn sure he did the same for you.

·         Expect a lot of small shows of affection. He’ll start and end each day with either a kiss or cutesy ‘I love you’ text. Every moment of free time you share, he’s spending it with you. He’ll take mental notes of places and things you say you like, surprising you with them later on as date spots/gifts.

·         High-key he is SUPER protective of you. He checks in on you any moment he can spare to make sure you are doing OK (also does a lot of bts checks on your house/apt to make sure no one is lurking around that shouldn’t be).

·         He has matured a lot since joining Tokyo Fist, but if anyone were to step up and try and start shit/put you in danger, Jou instantly reverts back to his more feral nature. He will not hesitate to put himself in harm’s way to protect you.

·         Also, this man lives for cuddles. Expect to be smothered at night in his embrace (He’s also just naturally very warm, which makes him perfect to saddle up to on cold days <3).

Hachino Shinya

·         Hachino knows he can be a prickly person, giving nearly everyone in his life either the cold shoulder or a fake pleasant persona to trick them into letting their guard down and become more pliable to work with. Most people were generally just not worth putting forth an effort for, and he views most other people as a hassle more than anything else.

·         That’s why it was so incredible that you were so easily able to break through his icy exterior.

·         He had no intention becoming as close to you as he did, keeping you at an arm’s length just like everyone else. You weren’t special… at least, that’s what he thought at first.

·         He found himself becoming more and more ensnared by your charms the longer he spent time with you, getting to the point where he couldn’t deny that he had formed a solid crush on you.

·         You were patient, kind, understanding. You were a great listener, and overall very thoughtful when dealing with others. You looked at the big picture, and had the ability to come to quick and conclusive decisions that benefitted everyone involved.

·         He admired you, your eye for detail and attentiveness to any issues that arose was second only to him. He could depend on you (which was more than he could say for a lot of people in his life), and he wanted you to realize you could depend on him too.

·         Even when he threw you a flippant comment or brushed you off, you kept coming back to check in on him, taking time out of your day to help him out and make sure he was doing OK.

·         It was this sincere kindness that won his heart, and once he was smitten, he fell HARD.

·         This posed problems. Not only did he not want to drag you into the mess that was his life and career, he wasn’t even entirely sure if you truly liked him or if you were just being polite.  He wouldn’t be surprised at all if he found out you thought he was the biggest asshole on planet earth, and the thought of your rejection distressed him.

·         After some beating around the bush (and some drunken encouragement from his coworkers after a recent bar hopping excursion), he asked you to be his.

·         He was pleasantly surprised at how quickly you agreed.

·         It took him some time to get used to ‘dating’. He had never really been interested in anyone previously, and most stuff couples partook in either made him cringe of feel uncomfortable.

·         But he found out fast that when the romantic endeavors involved you, he was much more inclined to warm up to lovey-dovey activities. Dates to the park or the movies, going out to eat, even mundane things like grocery shopping; every activity with you was a blessing and treat for him.

·         He wants to be by your side as much as possible. He’ll devote all his off days to you, and is the first to recommend moving in together so he can keep you close and make sure you are safe.

·         Though he is definitely not a PDA person, anyone in the presence of the two of you can tell how smitten he is with you. He’ll steal glances of you anytime he can, and he always gazes at you as if you hung the moon. If you catch him staring he won’t look away, instead smiling a coy smile that he knows will make you flustered.

·         When he tells you he loves you, he means it with his entirety. You are the only one he will ever want to be with, and he will honor and treasure you for the rest of his days on this earth.

·         (He hasn’t completely lost his mean streak though, he’s apt to make you participate in pet play with him the privacy of your own home >:) )

Seijuurou Torai

·         From the get go, you and Torai are the definition of ‘old bickering married couple’. He has gotten on your nerves in one way or another since your first interaction, but you also couldn’t deny the blatant, damning attraction you have for him.

·         He is cocky, abrasive, a brute, crude, a pervert, and violent. NOT someone you wanted to necessarily catch feelings for.

·         But he was also protective and strong, and could exhibit incredible moments of kindness and selflessness. Even though he was obnoxious, from the moment he met you he was always looking out for you with your best interests at heart.

·         As time passed your friendship continued to blossom. Through drunken late night outings (one of which had to be cut short when he ended up breaking a man’s nose in a fist fight because they were ‘eying you up like a piece of meat’) to silly lunch conversations that turned deep and insightful, the two of you grew exceptionally close.

·         Your attraction had become undeniable, and it was obvious he reciprocated.

·         But even though he had fallen just as much for you, he knew it was not anything he had the right to pursue. You shouldn’t be getting tied up with someone like him, and he cursed himself for even letting you get so close to begin with.

·         He loved you deeper than he loved anyone previously, and that made him kick himself as he knew the danger this relationship brought into your life.

·         He wouldn’t be able to live with himself if you got hurt (or worse) on his accord, and he was well aware if you associated with him too closely you would become a prime target that any number of bastards would use to exploit him.

·         But damned if you didn’t make it hard. Every time he’d try and create distance you would kill him with the hurt expression you’d make, a stab right through the heart every time you’d ask if the reason he was being so cold was over something you did.

·         It also didn’t help that he hated seeing literally any other man with you. He knew the natural procession of trying to shove you away would include you looking to seek companionship elsewhere, but the moment some schmuck got a little too friendly his jealousy would flair up and it would take all he had to restrain himself from beating the guy’s ass.

·         Eventually he gives in, unable to take it anymore. Rather abruptly he storms your house, firmly makes it clear that he wants you as HIS and ONLY his. He didn’t care if he had to personally keep watch over you 24/7. He’d do what he had to to keep you protected and in his arms.

·         When you reciprocated, he was on you instantly, unwilling to wait even a minute longer to seal the deal. You had never been ravaged so intensely in your life.

·         Torai loves to tease and fluster you, taking immense pleasure in just how red he can turn your face in public. Nowhere is safe from his groping hands and lewd comments. It only eggs him on to do it more if you slap/punch him in these situations.

·         LOVES showing off for you. He lives for it. Anytime he can get a genuine look of awe from you (which are becoming increasingly rare with how obnoxiously often he attempts this) he counts it as a major success, riding off that high for the rest of the day.

·         Your laugh is his favorite sound in the world. Seeing you smile and genuinely enjoy yourself makes his heart feel full and puts him at ease. He would stop at nothing to keep you happy and carefree.

·         This man is insatiable when it comes to making love. He will not stop until you are a drooling, sobbing, over stimulated mess beneath him (and even then, he’s ready for the next round alarming fast). Be prepared for a lot of sleepless nights.

·         You are his treasure and the love of his life, and though he has a tough exterior, when you are home alone and cradled in his arms he becomes a big romantic sap, showering you with feather light kisses and praise.

Wanibuchi Tsuyoshi

·         Tsuyoshi is by nature a very private person, so for most people (even those close to him), not many people actually know that he is in a committed relationship.

·         This isn’t because he is ashamed or because he wants to hide you away (if he had his way, he would proudly keep you by his side at all times), but because you are far too precious to him to put in any potential harm’s way.

·         Being with you at all is a huge risk in general, but he also realized from the moment the two of you started talking that you were essentially already a target. All he can do now is work tirelessly to keep you safe (besides, he is too in love with you to push you away anyway).

·         Chances are you really don’t know much about his job for the same reason. Other than being the boss at a security company, you are kept in the dark about just how much danger he is surrounded by on a daily basis and he wants to keep it that way.

·         With the chaos that surrounds him at work, he always takes great delight in knowing you are waiting for him back home. A more traditional man, his heart feels full when he comes home to a fresh cooked meal and your warm embrace.

·         Not to say that he doesn’t do the same for you, he loves to cook for you and is quite skilled at it. If you have been craving something, no matter how easy or intense, it will be waiting for you when you come home that night.

·         He respects your independence but is more than willing to take care of you in anyway needed. He’d never force you to do anything you didn’t want to or instruct you on how to live your life, but he definitely makes it known that if you are ever struggling with anything, say the word and it will disappear.

·         He really loves it when you dress up for him, and he’ll frequently buy clothing and jewelry for you he thinks suits you. When he sees you in things he bought for you, he’ll keep his cool but his stomach will be doing somersaults.

·         (And as much as he loves you in what he purchased you, he is going to love it so much more when he gets to take it off of you.)

·         He often feels guilty over how much time he has to devote to work, so to make up for it he treats you like absolute royalty whenever he gets vacation time. Any place you want to go or thing you want to see? Skies the limit for his babydoll. <3

·         He’s fiercely protective and monitors you closely, but would never get in the way of your life or your fun. He’s prone to have an eye or two on you when you go out with friends, just in case someone tries to make a move. But this is never anything you’d figure out on your own, all protective service taking place in the shadows. He wants to keep you carefree and happy, and would never do something that risks that being jeopardized in your life.

·         He’s not big on texting, but loves conversing with you. Expect multiple calls throughout the day to check up on you.

·         This man only has two modes in the bedroom: slow and sensual or rough and unforgiving. He’s either treating you like the angel you are to him, or pounding away his frustrations while moaning filth into your ear. Either option never leaves you wanting.

Takashima Ryouichi

·         Much like his boss, he prefers to keep his colleagues in the dark about his relationship with you. Ryouchi is already an enigma figure to most everyone he works with, so he uses that to his advantage to keep you his own little secret.

·         He revels in the fact that no one else knows of your existence. To him it’s not only the logical way to not only keep you safe, but hoard you all to himself.

·         Normally a very calm and collected person, he gets surprisingly jealous when an outsider gets just a little too familiar with you. And knowing his coworkers, if they so much as caught wind that he had you waiting for him at home, they would be relentless in figuring out who you were and all the spicy details of your relationship with him (and from then on your life would never know peace lol). The last thing he needed was this bunch of fools trying to encroach on his territory.

·         However, outside of work was a completely different story. He was eager to introduce you to his friends and family, wanting to add you into the fold as soon as possible.

·         He wasn’t one to mess around, if he couldn’t picture someone in his life long term they simply weren’t worth his effort. Needless to say, that was not the case with you.

·         It took an embarrassingly short amount of time after meeting you for him to decide that you were the one he wanted to spend the rest of his life with, and with that revelation came something he didn’t face often: fear. What if you didn’t return his affections? What if someone else had already snatched you up? As the worries plagued his mind, you successfully turned one of Tokyo Fist’s most collected men into a total mess.

·         When he finally worked up the courage to ask you out, it was the most awkward experience of his life. He had never been so overwrought, his disheveled state making even YOU nervous.

·         When you reciprocated, he wanted to jump for joy, scream to the heavens, and do a dance… But he remained stoic. After all, it was only logical that you would say yes to him.

·         You were worth all his effort and more, and though it was completely illogical for him to plan so far in the future, he couldn’t help but spend a vast amount of free time daydreaming about your future life together and the family that you would build.

·         His days were spent putting in long hours at the office, but his nights and weekends were fully devoted to you. He had a bad habit of spoiling you, taking pride in being able to supply you with all you wanted and more.

·         When the two of you are alone, his tough, serious demeanor fades. No one can make him laugh like you can. No one can make him feel loved like you can. And he reciprocates all that back tenfold. <3

Baba Chisato

·         Will literally not shut up about you in. He’s always been obsessed, but once you become completely his, his gushing is incessant.

·         He’s commenting on all your social media pics, your picture is the wallpaper on every electronic device he owns, physical photos of the two of you are lining the halls of his home and he always has several stuffed into his wallet as well.

·         He is your biggest cheerleader, gassing you up every opportunity he gets. Wear your hair slightly different than normal? Trying on a new outfit you are a little unsure of? He’s on it. You are the most beautiful person he has ever seen in his life, and he wants to make sure you know that. Even if you are just lounging at home in sweats, he’ll be staring in reverence. You are nothing short of a goddess to him.

·         He’s a huge supporter of any dream or aspiration you may have. It doesn’t matter if someone else finds it ridiculous or unobtainable; you are the smartest and most capable person he knows and he earnestly believes you can achieve anything you set your mind too. He’s got your back and is rooting for you every step of the way.

·         This boy is HANDSY af, especially in public. You’re HIS girl, and he wants everyone to know that. Anyone so much as looks at you a moment too long and this man is ready to throw down with them.

·         Also, much like Torai, he loves showing off for you. He lives for your praise, melting whenever you call him strong or handsome. He’s started the habit of wearing mostly sleeveless shirts, just in the hopes that you will feel on his muscles.

·         He also loves showing YOU off. He scored a total hottie and he wants the whole world to know that, dammit! No matter where you are, his hand is either in yours or wrapped snuggly around your waist or shoulders, no exceptions.

·         May have an honest to God heart attack if you ever wear his clothing. Seeing you draped in something that he owns just further reiterates that you are his and nothing fans his flames more than that incredibly pleasant reminder.

·         Is completely enamored whenever you do anything domestic for him, like cooking or cleaning. He likes to fantasize that the two of you are already married and loves to see his sweet little spouse being such a wonderful homemaker. <3 However when you get pissed off over doing a majority of the chores he’s quick to rush in and help (though you have to admit you are much better at it than he will ever be, but at least he tries).

·         Words cannot express how physically attracted to you this man is. His tongue practically lulls to the floor when you walk in the room. Any chance he has to make love to you, he will. Baba is a big guy in every regard and gets off on how easy it is to overwhelm you.

·         That being said, he’s a big fan of when you take charge as well. Nothing gets him hotter than when he’s tied up and at your mercy, loving it when you ride him till you’ve had your fill.

Tsurumi Takuya

·         Tsurumi simply adores you. From the moment he laid eyes on you, he was bewitched.

·         You met (as cliché as it sounds) at a local coffee shop. You ordered before him, managing to snag the last pastry he had his eye on.

·         Though it was no big deal, after you heard the disappointment in his voice, you couldn’t let it slide. You tried to give him the entire thing, but after a few polite refusals, you came to the agreement you would share it.

·         He had no idea one split pastry would change his life forever.

·         You ended up talking for hours, finding that you had quite a few similar interests and things in common. He took great pleasure in watching you gush about your hobbies, a small blush on his cheeks as he took you in your animated movements and inviting smile.

·         You were by far one of, if not THE most gorgeous person he had ever seen, and the passion in which you spoke with him kept drawing him in more and more.

·         By the end of your shared snack, he decided he hadn’t had enough time with you. In a bold move, he asked for your number. The rest is history.

·         Your relationship is the epitome of sweet and cozy. The two of you never really seem to make it past the honeymoon phase, and there’s always this giddy, puppy-love feeling that bubbles in his chest when he sees you.

·         He’s a huge cuddle bug, and is more than happy being either the big or small spoon. As long as you are close, he takes equal pleasure in holding you as he does being held by you.

·         That being said, PDA makes him quite flustered. Anything more than holding hands or a quick peck on the check would instantly turn this man into tomato.

·         His biggest joy is beginning new adventures with you. Even if it’s something as little as starting a new show the both of you are looking forward to watching, he is filled with so much happiness just to be spending time with you his excitement is palpable.

·         Def the type of guy who leaves you little gifts/notes each morning. Rarely a day goes by without a sticky note wishing you a good day, or a favorite treat of yours waiting when you wake up.

·         You are his first in many ways, and though that was exciting, it also makes him feel a bit inadequate and nervous. He does overkill the first time you are intimate, working himself into a tizzy trying to make your first time together completely ideal and romantic. It takes time and gentle reassurance to calm him down and make him understand this isn’t a competition, that you love him and want this just as bad as he does, but it’s ok to take your time.

·         When he does mellow out he melts under your praise.  Hearing your gentle commendations and pleased coos drive him over the edge, your admiration and the flattery it makes him feel is the most euphoric feeling he has ever felt (through you, he realizes that he definitely has a praise kink).

·         As his first in many things, he also plans on making you his last. He’s been jokingly chided on more than one occasion for daydreaming on the job, his coworkers and friend’s having an absolute field day when the stumble upon the wedding plan sketches and notes he’s been doodling while bored.

Yuki Ariga

·         Honestly Ariga has been calling you ‘his girl’ from the get go, so when you guys make it official everyone either already thought you were an item or they think Ariga is bullshitting them when he tells them.

·         The relationship honestly would take some time off the ground. The typical tricks and pick up lines he played on other girls didn’t seem to work on you, so he was forced to come up with alternate methods.

·         Turns out, being sincere was all it took to win your heart. Whereas you shrugged him off as a nuisance when he tried to be flashy and go above and beyond to catch your attention, you were much more open to chatting him up in calmer environments where the atmosphere was more intimate.

·         Time always seemed to slow for him when you were around. You brought serenity to his life that he had not experienced with anyone else. And in his line of work, peace was a very sought after commodity.

·         And damn, were you beautiful. You were definitely the hottest person he had ever seen, regardless of what you wore or how you presented yourself. This man’s jaw would hit the floor whenever you enter his line of sight, praise flooding from his lips over how stunning you are. If Yuki went a day without seeing you physically, he’d be hitting you up nonstop for selfies (hoping that you’d add a few spicy ones in as well).

·         He can definitely be overbearing. If you aren’t by his side he wants to know what you are up to, who you are with, where you are going, etc. You have been known to block his number temporarily just to get a break from it, a move that was sure to bring on incessant whining the next time he saw you.

·         He knew he had a reputation for being a skeevy scumbag, and for a good reason. If anyone was aware of his own flaws and shortcomings, it was Ariga himself. Because of this, he doesn’t necessarily feel like he deserves you. He knows you could do much better than him, but can’t bear the thought of some other douchebag stealing you away from him.

·         So he earnestly works to better himself. He knows the change won’t be overnight, and hell, maybe he won’t even be able to become that great of a man period. But for you, he will never stop trying. If he can’t be a great person, he can at least be a great boyfriend.

·         This man is huge in the PDA. He loves to show you off, but he also doesn’t want anyone getting any funny ideas. His hands or lips are almost always on you somewhere when the two of you were out in public.

·         His recent employment at Tokyo Fist has helped him build muscle, and generally just grow more confident in who he is as a person. He works extra hard to hear your praise of him, knowing that every trial he faces just prepares him that much more for protecting you. <3

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