#idk man seems impossible

[ninootny]

so hum. im not normal about old fine event…..

#tsumugi is star and blue rose coded…… #IDK I FEEL SO EDGY WHEN I THINK ABOUT THE OUTFIT #like… some dreams that seem impossible to reach #uhm #or something mysterious #idk this man is soggy af #tsumugi aoba #ensemble stars #enstars #ninoo art #ninoodles #eueueueue

[evilkitten3]

i have a lot of thoughts on fandoms and treatment of female characters but i do not seem to have the words to put said thoughts into. frustrating.

#personal #vent post? #idk #fandom crit #like when you're scrolling through an art blog and the only time the girl characters show up is in group images #or when people are willing to bend over backwards to talk about male character but dismiss the female characters altogether #like on the one hand there's plenty of examples of male authors failing miserably to write female characters #but so so often i see fans act like badly-written female characters aren't like. symptomatic of a bigger issue #it's hard for me to explain but i think people have like. a difficult time admitting that misogyny exists in media #at least when it concerns female characters they don't like #bc it's fine to not like badly written characters imo #but it does seem sometimes that people would rather tell themselves that the author intended the character to be unlikable #ofc it's pretty much impossible to give a solid ''this is what the author was thinking'' without the author's commentary #or without being a mind reader i guess #so it's all speculation #but i do feel as though people have an easier time with ''she just sucks'' than ''this man can't write women and it shows'' #idk i don't really have the words for it #to be clear i'm not innocent of this either #it's just. idk something i've been thinking about lately

[m-kyunie]

elegance.

#dgm #D.Gray-Man #Alma Karma #cw blood #my head is filled w thoughts of Alma as a bride in a huge kitsch 80s dress #okay maybe not 80s more 60s/70s. thinking of my moms dress actually so #lots of lace long gloves puffy sleeves swooping neckline muah smtg guady #UGH or Princess Diana's oh exactly like that #just think about how past!Alma wldve thought abt potentially getting married and starting a family 'after the war' #Her covering Her face as an Akuma saying 'don't look at me' lives in my head forever. her excorcist uni #is quite tradtional and seems unpractical for battle but its def feminine to the MAX #so just. idk how to explain it but the body dysphoria i guess #Alma wanting tofit that echo of pretty but being all wrong for it. hair too dark to unruly adams apple sharp angular broad all wrong #wanting to be soft and slim and pretty pretty pretty.hiding it under layers of clothes and lace and accessories... #or being basicly the same height as Kanda and lamenting over it like nonono this is all wrong #tearing at their hair and picking the skin and scratching and ripping the dress and breathing awful #'not pretty not a woman will never be Her for //Him// never be enough' mentality #evevn tho Kanda literally does not fucking care about any of that like it doesnt even cross his mind hello hes trans duh they all r #idk i interpret them both as slightly diff like Alma seems much more in-tune w Her on an unconscious level its very emotional = turmulious/ #VS Kanda who is very mentally inflicted its very physical and obsessive/conious thought near impossible to ignore ie the lotus n Her vision #so they act diff bc the influence of their Other is different. idk what im trying to say anymore actually. lmk if that makes sense T-T #ALL THAT JUST TO SAY I WANTED TO DRAW ALMA IN A WEDDING DRESS LMFAO IM SORRY IM CRAZY

[literallysatanofficial]

I gotta say, like. I haven't seen the ep 9 and 10 leaks, nor do I want to (I watched pine barrens early and I wish I hadn't) but I swear, at this point I'm convinced everyone's overreacting for no reason; like there is NOTHING that the show could possibly do that would disappoint me on such a level that ppl are saying they don't want to continue watching the show. Unless they kill off the entire cast, pull an X-files and replace everyone, I just can't see it being as dire as people are making it out to be. Like... let's all calm down. You're getting (at best) a choppy machine translation, and at worst what is essentially a silent episode with 0 actual context for what you're seeing. From my experience watching pine barrens in Russian, I can tell y'all that things were interpreted incorrectly (both in summaries AND by me while I was watching) and watching the actual english episode was an entirely different experience.

Maybe it's just because I haven't gotten my hopes up about nandermo getting together this season there have been PLENTY of clear signs that it's not happening but I legit can't even imagine a worst case scenario that could prevent me from enjoying the show at this point. It feels like so many fans have gotten swept up in fandom hype (which is totally fine and completely understandable, I'm not immune to this either) but it's almost like... there's a terrifyingly big divide between fanon and canon this season. It's just a silly dumb little show. If you wanted it to go one way and it didn't, bummer, I guess, but to write off an entire show because the conclusions you've drawn up with friends weren't the way it panned out is so odd to me. It's understandable when theories like there being something in the walls that colin is trying to get to or whatever spread, but at the same time it could just be a running joke about him being a little shit of a kid. If this isn't addressed, I wouldn't be surprised. I don't think it's really ever been pushed like that, it's just that it gained traction in the fandom and a lot of fans started clinging to it (as well as some other common theories like it) but is it REALLY being teased? Or was it not meant to be anything more than a surface level joke.

I don't think it's right to be disappointed when stuff like this has been hyped up by the fandom rather than like... official marketing material or something, and I think that can be applied to every prediction that seemingly didn't come true.

I just see a lot of hostility and accusations thrown around, and some truly bizarre takes, and it's just... it's a show. it's a show, guys. it's just a show.

#wwdits #what we do in the shadows #ive been rewatching to recap the season for the wiki and like. #idk. ive thought some of the nandermo theories this season have been pushing it but MAN #idk how much clearer guillermo could be about not being into nandor anymore #i have no fucking idea if this is the source of all the vague complaining but it really seems like this is the root of the issue #the anger at last season's finale for 'queerbaiting' and now i guess anger about them not getting some contrived jealousy arc #ill be honest like. if it was some wack ass shit like nandor killing guillermo i still would not give a shit. #cause as we saw with last seasons cliffhanger and this seasons premiere ep. it doesnt matter #ITS JUST A DUMB LITTLE SHOW!!!! #i feel like everyones taking it SO seriously like its.... expectations are so high #its a tv show these characters arent real and they are all terrible stupid people #ada speaks #not to be all like 'calm down son its just a drawing' but can we maybe not hold this show to impossible standards #like its not some revolutionary all important work of art its a shit and fart comedy show with some plot to it #IDK MAN. IDK

[pirefyrelight]

you know I've been seeing a lot of "the Muppets would be the only way to do a princess bride remake properly" and I understand where you're coming from, truly.

But I raise you: Phineas and Ferb crossover.

#Pire.txt #the princess bride #phineas and ferb #And I honestly can't decide who the main pairing should be #Obvious is Phineas and Isabella #But Candace and Jeremy are also there #And Vanessa literally already wears black and it would be really cute to see her going off to save a damseled Ferb #Actually I don't want Candace as buttercup she would make a wonderful man with six fingers #The redhead with an impossibly long and skinny neck #'Inigo' would still ask 'Westley' etc to prove they are not the murderer they seek and they always go #'Dude how could you not tell. That seems hard to hide.' #The trio would be Buford Baljeet and idk #Phineas as inigo? I'm starting to really like Vanessa as Westley so Phineas can be the other swordsman #Doofenshmirtz is either the priest or the guy that revives Westley #Though it could be a really good gag to have Rodger as the ordained one and he's speaking normally until the actual ceremony #In which he decides to do in traditional fashion #Which leads to the 'mawwige it's wat bwings us togeter todai' #Which leads doof to be the 'he's not dead dead just mostly dead' and Charlene can be there too :) #Fuck I forgot about perry #Uuuhh #Actually the bit I had invisioned for Candace would work better for perry #I'm sure there's also a way to work in 'a platypus? *puts on fedora* the platypus that killed my father?!' #Idk I just have vibes do you see it too

[jessiesjaded]

...

#I'll put depresso talk in the tags to spare innocent bystanders #I just cannot figure out if the little cat is done for or not #like sometimes she seems better and is meowing super loud bc she wants to go out #and then other times she just seems... idk i look at her and im like is this it? #are you going to go to sleep and not wake up? #the most frustrating thing is that she was always skinny since she first wandered up to the door #and one day she'll love food and then the next she does not go near it #like treats that she would decimate one week the next she wont even look at and then the week later she will #she ate some chicken breat i cut up small today so shes not totally empty but shes def not interested #is this the normal thing she always did or is it like the same thing with my old dog #like its impossible to tell if shes just being her weird self + recovering from last week #or if its like something more serious #i looked at the paperwork the vet gave me and turns out they never did a blood test so ??????? wouldnt that be the first thing you'd do #idk man its just worse than not knowing for sure #if i knew there was no hope id be sad but its an answer #as of right now its just an unknown quantity and i dont know what to do for her #whatever shes going back to the vet tomorrow hopefully they'll at least give her some fluids since shes not drinking enough #and check her teeth and just see whats happening #Honestly after watching my Nana horrifically die in march I really dont want another death this year #especially since this cat kinda showed up not long after my nana and was a bright spot #like i wish she could just be healthy and happy

[ratherembarrassing]

today i bought a new iphone so i could watch the wsl.

let me explain.

so we all know finding somewhere to watch women's soccer is an absolute palava. except it's actually not in australia, it's just on a service that costs $24 a month - optus sport. that is an outrageous amount of money to pay for a single use streaming service.

except if you're an optus customer, it's $6. i abandoned optus years ago, but me vs telstra has continued unabated ever since.

on friday when my pre-ordered iphone didn't show up, a thing i only purchased for fun but once committed had to have immediately as promised, i lost my shit, took myself to the nice local optus store this morning, and now i have a new iphone plan for $10 less than i was paying on telstra and access optus sport for only $6.

instead of paying $24, i'm $4 in front :)

#of course the market where people are going to want to wake up and watch things that just finished has worked out how to have matches #on demand immediately after they finish #how fuckign hard is it? idk but everyone else seems to find it damn impossible #optus also has a proper apple tv app so none of this airstream from phone crap it's so civilized #i can say hey siri play the man u reading match on lounge room tv and there it is :)

[helloidkwhatimdoing-0]

HERA ISN'T ANSWERING PLEASE WHAT HAPPENED WITH THE DSMP LORE WHAT ARE YALL TALKING ABOUT

IDK WHEN U SENT THIS BUT OKAY

I haven't watched it but from what ive seen

C!tommy apologised to Dream, despite literally doing nothing wrong except, being a child?

Uhhh im not too sure what happened next

But then after all that, the nuke went off, and killed everyone, and everyone woke up in a new server with amnesia, and c!Dream asked to be friends with c!Tommy

#asks #dunia my beloved #ending it with amnesia just so they can start a new server feels lazy to me tbh #also starting a new server in general is just like— #idk man a lot of the people on that server have clearly shown they cant work together properly #not scheduling properly. sometimes stuff seems poorly planned. idk its just— #dont get me qrong some of the ccs put a lot of effort in to the server #wrong* #but it felt like too many ccs got added and it was impossible to keep up with everything happening because of that #and big server wide stories sort of— stopped happening like they did. and stopped being interesting #and also a lot of the story just turned into angst upon angst upon angst with no lighthearted stuff inbetween really

[spectrearia]

aaAAAAAAAAA IT HAPPENED!!! A PERFECT!!!

i was. literally shaking by the time I got to the end of this song haha i didn't think i'd ever actually get a perfect run omg i'm so happy 😭

#SORROY this is the final thing i'll ever share of this game i swear #it's just. #idk man #only a little over a month or so ago i genuinely thought this song was impossible to clear at all #and like. here i am with an actual Perfect score like what the heck #very proud of this even tho it's just a silly video game haha #it's also kinda hard to like? express how insanely challenging this game is #even if i shared a video of this chart it'd be VERY confusing to anyone unfamiliar with what's going on #(ask me how i know lol) #so it probably doesn't seem like a big accomplishment in terms of skill to just show an image of a clear screen haha #but it's def a big deal To Me xD #spectre says #hatsune miku: project diva mega mix

[welcometogrouchland]

I love dipping my toes back into comics, remembering all the C and D list characters I love and getting that sense of intrigue again, sliding into headcanon territory like "MAN if they just made a series about this they'd totally have me hooked again!". Then I continue reading about the state of current comics (i.e where those C and D list characters are rn and what the state of canon is) and think about the amount of complexity and set up you'd need to even get halfway close to the perfect vision in your head and how impenetrable current comics are so you wouldn't even know where to start with catching up...

And then I'm once again relieved that I'm not caught up with comics anymore and am simply backreading now irrelevant comics at a glacial pace

#ramblings of a lunatic #posts inspired by me catching up (via osmosis) the current state of flash comics #s/o to irey west #you could have such a good turn as impulse if DC would let you your brother and bart progress (according to the vision in my head!) #same thing w/ the current superman run that's apparently on going #i am Very intrigued by the premise of lex apparently a) leaving his company to clark and b) wanting to team up w/ superman #as well as whatever Marilyn Moonlights deal is (SHE SEEMS SO COOL FROM HER INITIAL TEASER APPEARANCE) #but i simply cannot look past the convoluted state of the superfam rn with how present they seem to be in current comics #again there's 17 yr old jon (im glad you're bisexual but sorry that (age up) happened to you) #but also there's. twins now??? huh???? #they're revamping power girl???? huh #it's just. too much. it intimidates me #maybe my current goal will just be to keep reading gww ms marvel til the romance bores me (bc i think it gets romance heavy after a while?) #and then try and finally finish sandman (i like the anthology stand alone issues more than the story ones tho tbh...) #but also idk man. comics have so many things i love and they've been on my brain recently but trying to enjoy them at this moment #nigh impossible. i do not know where to start

[cescalr]

the brainrot is continuing. im making sims now. nobody would like to seem them though i’ll probably showcase them at some point anyway. when i like them. when they pass the vibe check 

#i have made a few. wil q sap karl tommy tubbo nikki and puffy. im in the process of making techno #bc he's the next easiest on the remaining list (ive got all the cc i need) #(and yes somehow with a hold on #187 - jesus fucking christ - GB mods folder i don't have everything i need. next will be... ranboo... probably. and i'll finish manifold #once i get a pair of white 3D red blue paper glasses which are really really hard to find #jsyk. and that's annoying but whatever. after that i guess its a dartboard. not dream. he's so specific how am i going to make that skin. he #doesn't even have a face. wil was hard enough with his blank stare and no mouth but dream??? he's just GREEN #anyway. ive also made hannah #antfrost literal cat man kind of impossible. way down the line that one #badboyhalo probs not too difficult. maybe him after ranboo. #eret soon. eret asap #also yes i keep spelling niki wrong im sorry. #oh ive also done schlatt. hm. purpled and punz don't seem too difficult #finding a mask (ski mask? balaclava?) for ponk will be like impossible that's a very specific pattern #skeppy is gonna. need a lot of fanart references. yeah. #slimecicle the beloved will be when i feel up to the daunting task of making my blorbo #sam is. horrendous. how do i make a creeperman in the sims #phill is just that guy from bleach his sim probably already exists lbr #michael hbomb eryn boomer idk who you are so they'll be later on when i do know who they are #same for tina. #connor's full legal name is ConnorEatsPants so im. not. making him. sorry. get a better surname i don't have to see in the sims Mr. EP #as for dream xd md and drista... probs only drista #if i feel like it #idk them either though. so. when i know them. maybe then. #md wouldn't be difficult. i've already made quackity lalksdjf;alsdf #i forgot to close a bracket somewhere in there. oh well. better late than never) #dsmp #for my own later finding. hopefully that tag is buried enough not to end up maintagged oh god

[rosicheeks]

😔

#hi #I hate doing this so much #and if no one is able to I understand #I feel like everyone is hurting financially #but my breaks are going out #and I have no clue how much it’s going to be to fix them #all I can hear is the loud screeeeeech every time I break and man it’s scaring me #also I’m out of weed and my mental health is at an all time low #so if anyone is willing to chip in for either my breaks or maybe for me to pick up weed I would appreciate it #i know I need to prioritize my tires #but when it’s almost impossible to get out of bed in the morning cause my depression is so bad #idk #weed also seems like a priority #which is sad cause I should be able to function without weed #but idk it’s hard to explain #it’s the only thing that has been helping me lately #ok my sob story is over #I’m going to shower #and I guess keep looking at jobs #if anyone tips and is interested in some lewds/nudes lmk 💖💖💖 #shut up rosie

[tariah23]

i do apologise for the tone of my last ask but there was a time you were warned politely by another anon about a user like roach-patrol you accidentally reblogged. but after you acknowledged it you reblogged them again literally the next day. so plz understand it starts to look like you just don’t care that much even when alerted nicely

Anon, that was the first time that I was ever told about that person, (the first time that anyone had even warned me about a terf that I reblogged from actually) I don’t keep up with these people, I’m sorry but I really don’t. I block and move on. I don’t keep up with the urls of terfs/ radfems after I block them. If I do remember their urls, I just reblog the post of interest to me from another source and not them (tumblr should really make it so that after you block someone, you can’t see their post’s at all anymore, including whatever they add onto other user’s posts so that you don’t end up sharing anything from them period.) If I reblog from a terf or whoever, just send a heads up because mistakes do happen, right? And I’ll delete it and that’s be all. I usually do try to check if a source looks suspect but yeah.

#I just don’t like the lowkey accusation of being aligned with terfs like idk who you are or how long you’ve been following me for or #or if you even follow me at all I have no clue #whatever but this is insulting to me sorry I’d never align with trash like that and I’ve never been a terf when have I ever spoken like one #on this annoying ass blog of mine all I do is rambling about whatever talk about politics at times and my interest have you seen how #annoying I’ve been about naruto- #like I don’t want to be rude or mean or whatever but it’s impossible to track every little thing that someone post’s on their blogs I don’t #keep up with these people like that I really don’t #I see mutuals share stuff from terfs and weirdos from time to time and I just send them anons telling them and that’s it but I know that #they aren’t terfs either #and them accidentally sharing sources from those scrubs don’t make them terfs all of a sudden #all trash doesn’t get filtered out the way that they should unfortunately #sorry for my tone as well but making it seem like I don’t care just really upset me because I’ve never aligned with any terf shit ever #like man #of course I care I’ll always will #anonymous #tkf replies

[canine-heart]

Think I just need to come to terms with the fact that I will probably be alone until the day I die

#can't love someone else until you love yourself #finding someone that understands this fucked up mess of a person that i am.... #idk man seems damn near impossible #whats that bullshit line #well what happens when your never going to be okay with yourself #i don't think me and these illnesses are ever going to be on the same page #guess that renders me unloveable #im talking out to the void ignore me #i have a lot going on and its becoming hard to bare