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iamumbra195 · 9 months

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So I just came across a post about Pavitr in the comics having an existential crisis about not being white like all the other different variations of Peter Parker (I’m definitely reading his comics at some point).

But now I’m remembering something from when I was a kid and I was wondering if this was like a universal POC experience from before you actually understood the concept of race and discrimination or if it was a just a weird fucked up thing my mind came up with.

See when I was younger, I was in an arab predominated school, there were like two other black girls but one of them was lightskin (I didn’t even know she was black until like second grade XD) and I hated the other for... various reasons (she was my bully for like six years but we ain’t gonna talk about that) so like I had no sense of kinship with like anyone in my class or school

Because of that environment and the fact that I didn’t know why the racist secratary always got me in trouble while letting the other girls get away with not wearing the proper uniform until like fifth grade, I had so much fucked up self esteem like when I tell you all my memories of looking in the mirror as a little kid were so messed up-- I straight up hated my appreance and would see like this warped monster thing, I’m being completely honest. When I look back at pictures of five/six year old me I’m like ‘I was cute, why the hell do my memories look so different?’

Not to mention all the colourism and older people who looked like me telling me not to stand in the sun too much so I wouldn’t get any darker. I wanted straight hair for soooo long-- like all the way until I was thirteen and relaxed my hair for the first time and ended up ruining it for like five years after that.

Here comes the fucked up part.

I never actually met a lot of my extended family when I was younger, so when I would imagine them, I would imagine them looking nothing like me because my mom always told me they looked pretty-- I would imagine them as ARAB, like with dark wavy/straight hair and all their predominate features.

Anyways, I was a little tiny bit surprised when I met them and they looked nothing like my imagination. But the worse part was perhaps the fact that literally every single one of them had naturally straight/wavy hair or they relaxed it every few months so it would stay that way. I was still obsessed with straight hair at that point so when they offered to get the lady who does their hair to relax my hair I was super happy and excited about it but guess what???

She ruined my hair. I lost so much of it, it became dry and tangly because she didn’t bother doing it properly because I was catching a flight in like three days and I needed to leave the thing in for like two days so by the time I got the results it would be too late for me to ask her to fix it or give us our money back.

For the next like three years I kept cutting my hair until all the damage grew out completely and now I don’t have a lot of hair and it’s doesn’t grow as much as it used to.

So yeah.

I wasn’t around white ppl a lot as a kid, no public school or anything so I think experience was different and my ‘beauty standards’ were more arab beauty standards but Idk tell me if you guys had a similar experience.

Circling back to the thing I said about Pavitr, I felt like that period of my life was the time where I really related to Pavitr’s existential crisis because I constantly felt ugly or that I wasn’t good enough because I didn’t look like the girls around me. I was also kinda (?) bullied for being chubby so that did nothing to help.

So yeah, I have a lot of feelings about this. UGH.

I really hope they explore that part of Pavitr’s life a little bit in BTSV

P.S.: does anyone else feel really disconnected from their ethnicity and culture and feels really awkward at barbeques with distant cousins and their extended family because you feel like you don’t belong or that they’re judging you because you can’t speak your native language and have grown up mostly around judgy, racist old arab people as your teachers so you adopted a lot of arab mannerisms and.... yeah, I’m gonna talk about this another day

#racism #pavitr prabhakar #internalized racism #colourism #fucked up childhood memories #rant #beyond the spiderverse

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trashbinbackyard · 4 years

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basics and environment for gilly and ipes

gals... one wholesome, one not so much

Basics:

1. What is their gender?

Female

2. What is their sexuality?

Panromantic demisexual

Bisexual demiromantic

3. What is the meaning behind their name? Do they have any nicknames?

Gesiye Ikande, goes by Gilly a lot. Gesiye means genuine in Ijaw (ethnic group in Nigeria)

Her real name is Nayla Hahn Nayla being Arabic origin and Hahn Korean (her moms’ backgrounds) Though at this point no one knows her real name as she goes by Ipes which is a different spelling for a demon Ipos

4. Do they have any siblings? How many? Are they older or younger? Which sibling are they the closest with?

She has two younger sisters. She’s pretty close with both of them, but they live on earth so she sees them rarely

No siblings

5. What’s their relationship with their parents like? What about other relatives?

She loves them but being the oldest sister she also kinda fell into that third parent role. She has a pretty big family as her parents also have multiple siblings, they spend holidays all together

She got emancipated at the age of 15 due to her parents not being able to care for her and she refused to enter any kind of foster system. She hasn’t talked to them since, assumes they’re dead

6. What would they give their life for?

Her family for sure

Honestly, nothing. No one comes even near being worth dying for. Neither is her business. If it ever came to it, she’d rather rot in prison than die for it

7. Are they in a romantic relationship? With who? How did they meet?

Mallory, met her at work. She wanted to wait to become more than just an investigator intern before starting anything but she’s smart and now she’s a fully fledged investigator

No, she has a strict no dating or banging your employees policy and since all the people she has respect for so far are her employees, there’s no one available. Also, she thinks pretty highly of herself so it’s gonna take work for someone be on the level she sees appropriate. (i myself am kinda curious where tf she and kenjiro are gonna end up)

8. What do they believe will happen to them after they die? Does this belief scare them?

She’s not religious, but does believe in some sort of good/bad place, she doesn’t really let it control her life and she tries to be good for the sake of being good (also, being mean is not nice)

No. And since she doesn’t fear life after death she feels free to do whatever the hell she likes

9. What is their favorite color? Favorite animal?

Purple. Any type of antelope, she thinks they’re neat

Black, surprise, but also really likes neon lights (you can guess what type of lights there are in her club). She likes snakes, especially black mambas

10. What are some of their talents/skills?

She’s very resourceful, quick thinking and good writer (of reports at least)

She knows how to read and push people, very conniving, and a great actor

11. If they could make a mark on history, what would they like it to be?

Idk, she’s just happy to be here

Woman has a drug empire right under law enforcement’s noses

12. How old are they? When is their birthday?

24-29 depending if time is pre-mallory vs relationship

35 (and both for them i really hate coming up with specific dates)

13. What do they do for fun?

Read, swim, enjoy coffee, cuddle with Mallory, watch animal videos

Gamble (she’s cheating), drink, have long ass baths, patrolling her club is work but she enjoys that part of her work a lot

14. What is their favorite food? How often do they get to eat it?

Something very spicy, veggies, she’s not a huge meat-eater

Due to her past drug abuse, most foods make her nauseous, so her fave is something light like fish

15. What was something their parents taught them?

Be kind and respectful, know your worth and do the dishes

Everyone is own their own

16. Are they religious?

No, spiritual, kinda

17. Where were they born?

Nigeria

Outer rim

18. What languages can they speak? Where did they learn these languages?

English and trade

Trade, whatever is the second biggest language on outer rim

19. What is their occupation?

Private investigator

Night club owner (that’s the side hustle to her drug business)

20. Do they have any titles? How did they earn them?

P.I, lots of school and getting a good internship

Word on the street is that she runs the biggest drug ring this side of rim, not officially though. Hard work and lots of blackmailing

Environment:

61. Which season is their favorite season?

Spring, lots of green, but not yet unbearably hot

Whenever her money comes in

62. Have they ever been betrayed? How did it affect their ability to trust others?

No, doubt she ever will, the bounty hunter (at least the citadel ones) are good people

Since birth honestly, whatever trust she had for her parents wilted away and now she won’t trust anyone unless they’ve proven themselves time and time again

63. What is always guaranteed to make them smile?

Animals, friends, the outdoors, she’s simple, just living the good life

Money, getting what she wants

64. Do they get cold easily? Do they get overheated easily?

She get cold more easily than too hot

Thanks to her metal leg all drastic changes in temperature are felt almost immediately

65. What’s their immune system like? Do they get sick often? How do they react to getting sick?

She’s got a pretty strong immune system. Doesn’t get sick that much

It’s pretty weak. She often gets flu when it’s the season

66. Where do they live? Do they like it there?

She lives in the citadel, has nice apartment there, she likes it lot

She has carved herself a place on the outer rim, it wasn’t exactly her dream but at this point there’s no place she’d rather be, has multiple apartments scattered around but her main one is on the top floor of her nightclub

67. Is their bedroom messy? What about their bathroom? Kitchen? Living room?

It’s somewhat messy, coffee cups and plates here and there, papers and journals scattered about, the whole house is like that

It’s super neat, she looks after herself. Her suite doesn’t even have a kitchen because she gets her food from the club kitchen

68. How did their environment growing up affect their personality?

Her parents influenced her a lot, she turned out good

Coming from two addicts, becoming one herself and generally being distrustful...

69. How did the people in their environment growing up affect their personality?

Wait i thought the previous one was the same question abbgöreghaeh

70. How do they feel about animals? Do they have any pets?

Love them! No time for one tho, if she had it’s be a cat

On that note.. I think she has a pet snake in her suite, its got a huge terrarium for it

71. How are they with children? Do they have any? Do they want any?

Love them, she’s good with them, she’s definitely the fun big cousin for her small relatives. Doesn’t have any but might want one? She feels she’s too young still

She doesn’t hate them but would rather no kids see her, ever. Doesn’t have any, doesn’t want any

72. Would they rather have stability or comfort?

i mean.... with stability comes comfort. But she’d choose comfort

Stability, life is already one big uncomfort for her to begin with

73. Do they prefer the indoors or outdoors?

Outdoors

Indoors

74. What weather is their favorite? Do they like storms?

Sunny for sure, storms are nice when you’re inside and in a secure place

Loves rain and storms, they also make ppl gather inside more

75. If given a blank piece of paper, a pencil, and nothing to do, what would happen?

She’d doodle, they’re not great but i’m Mallory would love whatever she’d draw

If something, she’d draw a middle finger for investigators to find

76. How organized are they?

She keeps her work very neat and packed, everything else, not so much

Very much so, everything is neat and organized and hidden away, that’s key to getting away with doing what she does

77. What is their most prized possession?

Her badge, or a stuffed animal from her home

A single memory card contains mountains of excel sheets, it’s either always on the move and hidden or locked away, never in the same place for longer than a week

78. Who do they consider to be their best friend?

Mallory, she’s sappy like that

Juicebox comes the closest

79. What is their economic situation?

She’s comfortable, not super rich but not going from paycheck to paycheck either

Oh she’s loaded

80. Are they a morning person or a night owl?

Night owl

All the best stuff happens at night in her opinion

#my mom called in the middle of writing this and that took extra 20 mins safohghaeuhb #ipes has a pet snake and it's only slightly disturbing when she feeds it live mice #though from what i know snakes dont need to eat that much they can go for long without a big meal #it's a spoiled little noodle for sure

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throne-of-no · 6 years

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Rin Reads & Rants about: Catwoman: Soulstealer - Chapter 2

We finally get to the butchering of other comic book characters! Yay! I’m not ready, but here we go!

So, if you remember last chapter, it ended with the cops banging on their door. So, this one starts with the two sisters panicking about what to do. It is finally decided that Selina should hide in the closest because she’s covered with bruises and that would only make the cops raise their eyebrows and stuff. So, Selina does.

Turns out that there is also a social worker with the cops that Selina didn’t see when she had hobbled over to the door. The social worker manages to force Maggie to let her into the apartment, just as Selina is attempting to free herself from the closest. She finally stumbles into the main area.

“They all looked at her, the cop’s eyes narrowing as they beheld the bruises, the woman’s face tightening in disapproval”

Disapproval of her awkward entrance or of the bruises?

It is revealed that their mom is down at the precident and is in bad shape. In bad shape from what? Well, I’m unsure. Did she have an overdoes or is she just hella drunk? Idk the lady doesn’t tell us.

“ ‘You’re not in good shape, either,’ the woman added.

‘I’m fine. Just fell down the stairs yesterday.’ (Selina said).”

Oh, Selina, if you knew anything you would know in a situation like this, a social worker would take your lame lie as a grain of salt because abused kids lie all the time about what’s really happening. My cousins were abused by their father for YEARS and we didn’t even know until years later because they would cover it up in fear of what he would do to them. But, alas, okay. You keep using the lame “I fell down the stairs” Excuse for your beat up state.

So then Selina debates about going to get the one grand of money she had stashed under the kitchen sink to pay the cops off…but I thought they didn’t have five hundred dollars to pay for the medical bills for Maggie? I mean, what is logic though in this book? Idk her.

It’s too late though because the cop finds the money and pockets it for himself.

Also, one of the cops calls the two of them “Little girls” Which, uh Selina is three weeks away from being eighteen. Maggie is fourteen, but looks frailer in her condition so that one is correct but Selina? She isn’t…little. But, keep going I guess.

The social worker then states that Selina has a record with two strikes. Of what you might ask? Well, I sure as hell don’t know because no one says anything, and Selina defends herself by saying that is was from three years ago. Was it prostitution like the original catwoman did? Who even fucking knows. Which, fun Rin Nerd fact: The reason Maggie hates her in the comics is because of the prostitution, which in the comics she’s a nun and goes literally insane as I stated earlier. But, alas, this is nothing like the comics so, moving on!

The social worker attempts to get Maggie to go with them and Maggie is like “No!” And she attempts to flee out of the apartment. Which…she’s got cystic fibrosis, and from all indication it’s bad. This was not the smartest move. There would be no way she would make it out the door and anywhere without collapsing or something.

She doesn’t make it far before the one cop grabs Maggie and we get a sentence I burst out laughing out at:

“Selina exploded.”

That’s it. Just. Selina exploded. Like, @ sj/m, if you’re going to be dramatic, at least be realistically dramatic. Don’t use the word exploded and think it will sound good and 100% not stupid. “Selina saw red” or something, but not EXPLODED. Good grief on a stick.

“The dark-haired cop went down first. Uppercut to get his head up, then elbow to the nose put him on the ground. He was unconscious before he hit the carpet.”

She is able to do all of this while still super injured from her cage fight. Which, yes adrenaline does something to a person, but…it seems pretty out there she’s able to take down a guy a) injured and b) so quickly with just an uppercut and an elbow to the head. Also, is she as tall as this guy? How was she able to jump up and knock him when she could barely stumble to the door to see who was outside like 5 minutes ago? The cop literally called her a little girl so that means she’s much smaller than him.

So then Selina fights the other cop and he nearly calls her a bitch but Selina stops him by punching him in the face.

“Her body sang in agony, wounds ripping open, bruises bleating.”

Lol @ the bleating bruises. Also, that’s about as much info we get on her injured state while fighting these douches. Adrenalin is a cool thing I guess. Which, you can argue it can, but it never states in the book that like. “Adrenaline shot through her.” Just that the sound of her sister crying out in pain made her explode. So, it made her explode and turn her into a literal superhuman for 2.5 seconds with the ability to knock out one guy who was described as “Thickly built.” So, cool beans.

So then Selina shoves the woman:

“Selina shoved the woman. Hard.

Hard enough that the social worker went careening into the table, chairs scattering.”

Again, this could have been one sentence. But, whatever. Dramatic and all that.

In the end the mustache cop ends up tasering her and she blacks out.

Selina wakes up in a precinct room. Then, a woman comes in and Selina describes her as the following:

“A tall, slim woman with night-black hair and skin like golden honey entered the room.”

Which, reading slightly ahead we find out she is Talia al Ghul. I mean, we only are told her first name, but I know who Talia is—she’s an al Ghul. She’s an important character in the Batman series—she’s the mother of Batman’s kid Damian which, like is a whole thing in itself, but I’ll stop there. Her father is Ra al Ghul who is “The Demon’s head” and her mother was part Chinese and Arab. But yes, SJ/M you describe her only with “golden honey skin and nidnight-black hair.” This book is in fucking modern times, you’ve already described THREE girls solely by their ethnicity. But ya can’t describe Talia a little bit better? Really? Reaaalllyyy? Whatever.

Talia puts down a large file and starts going through it. It’s Selina’s file. She starts flipping through it and the papers “hiss” for some reason. I’m going to start doing a count on how many unnecessary animalistic words are used in this book.

Oh my fucking goooood Talia’s accent is described as a “some rolling purr.” And I just…I can’t. WE GET IS SARAH YOU ARE WRITING ABOUT FUCKING CATWOMAN.

Selina doesn’t answer any of the questions Talia keeps asking, and instead, keeps asking her own question of “Where. Is. Maggie.” Which. Lol. Where dat question mark be?

Selina threatens Talia and Talia questions how she will follow with through the threats being handcuffed and all, and Selia nonchalantly has the cuffs fall off. Turns out she nabbed a paperclip and used it to free herself. How Talia wouldn’t hear this or see Selina doing it boggles my mind but ok.

Talia just beams and tells her she’s clever and then tells her to put them back on. It was a very weird interaction. Like why wasn’t Selina more surprised that Talia didn’t care that she’d freed herself? Why are you not confused girl???

Talia then tells her that she has an offer for her:

“I’ve got chart after chart of your grades. Your exam scores. Do your little kitty-cat friends know you’re top of your class and that you aced all statewide exams?”

Of fucking course Selina is book smart. She couldn’t just be good at fighting and gymnastics, she also has to be super-duper smart! Also, I thought Selina kept skipping out of school? How is she this smart without going to school and learning? Unless she’s not actually smart and is, in fact, just good at guessing answers.

Anyway, Talia offers her a place in her super-duper School for Gifted Youngsters....Ah, crap wrong comic book series! Sorry!!! with the offer that Selina’s crime records will vanish. Selina decides that if she would go, then her sister would have to be put into a good home and be looked after and that their mother will never be able to see Maggie again. Turns out Talia wants her so bad, she agrees to this, but says that she will have to leave tonight and not say goodbye to Maggie. Selina takes like 5 seconds of contemplating never seeing saying goodbye to her sister, then agrees which kinda destroys the close relationship Sarah was trying to make between the two sisters. I could have gone for a paragraph of confliction, but whatever.

So then we fast forward to Selina going onto the plane. We are told her body aches for having to leave, but there isn’t really much of Selina regretting leaving her sister without saying goodbye.

The chapter ends with Selina asking Talia if she’s Wayne because “Waynes did plenty of charity work”. In which Talia answers with:

“No. My family name is al Ghul.”

DUN DUN DUUUUUNNN. Also, Catwoman like never ever was a part of the al Ghul league of Assassins sooooooo…… yeah. The next page says we skip 2 years so I guess we don’t get to watch Salina train or anything.

I totally forgot to put dash and ellipse count in chapter 1 so this is chapter 1 and 2 put together. Also a count on the use of animalistic words for no good reason.

Interruptions count: 70

Animalistic words used for no reason: 6

#anti catwoman: soulstealer #Anti sjm #Rin reads Catwoman: Soulstealer

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