BLUE & LIBBY - text thread 001
texts from 3:55pm to 7:01pm
blue
hey lib. (: havent talked today. just wanted to drop in and see if u were doin alright
i have memes if u need them
libby
i mean, technically we did talk. i reminded you of the moment the world stood still: when valentine and you made contact (1) time.
are you okay though? you seem a little, weird
blue
i maintain that valentine was an alien in a spider suit that wanted to destroy me
but u know what I mean djdjdjd just chats between us. the gc has been a june holden fest lately lmao
hope it works out for them tho
anyways
i am always weird in ur eyes djdjhd. but im fine. shit was crazy that night and we never really got to talk about what happenedand if u wanted to talk i just want u to kno im here
ABOUT NADIA
bc
yeah
kdjdjjd
libby
don't talk to me or my son ever again
yeah, wow, okay so holden stayed over the night. i only know that because i saw his stuff in her room? i think she mentioned that like, it was a one time thing but i feel like... he might be coming over again which.. is Interesting
oh. yeah, no i think i'm okay. i guess just in shock. june is very broken up over it, so i'm doing my best to be a good pal, and bring loads of ice cream and kisses. /:
do you wanna talk? about nadia? i know that she like, meant something to you
blue
ok good luck getting me to stop talkin to u but as for valentine? bye Felecia!
is that right. hmm well he doesn’t seem like much is goin on so maybe they were just,, hanging out. bringing a bag over is pretty damning tho.
and if he does come over and u see him tell that bih he owes me $ bc he ate my fucking chorizo salad ):
r u proud lib?? I ate a salad by choice
well I would have if Holden wasn’t a lil birch
bitch
DONT CENSOR ME
fuck. im sorry. ): i actually wanted to see june today tbh. but if u need anyone pls let me know alright? id skip practice if u needed me, lib
WELL. i mean ok i was sorta close with her in middle school and she’s always been a friend and I just. I’m just fucking numb tbh. I really can’t believe it
libby
i'll have you know that valentine died shortly after my 18th birthday so ):
idk idk, why would they hang out in her room if they were "hanging out"? like they have history. i feel like thats, a little too ... suspicious given the context. in a good way though. like i hope it works out theyre both so miserable without each other.
oh my god!! look at you go! so proud of you, dude!
( even if you never got to it lmao )
no, no, it's okay. june needs all the support she can get, and i don't wanna impede. i'm really fine, i just sort of need to accept it and i guess reflect on how terrible it is. she was a really sweet person and fuck i really cant believe any of it i guess
blue
fuck
what
kdjdjdnd I thought valentine just
yeeted
shit that’s not a good way to put it fuck but. im sorry lib ):
ok I take it back Valentine was alright.
still scared the fuck out of me tho
all i know is that if i loved someone as much as holden loves june, i wouldn’t let you go
**THEM fuck
Damn phone
Typos
Djdjhdi
can’t believe u make me eat green stuff
its truly CRUEL
whomst? I only know
nadia just didn’t fucking deserve any of this. shit even daisey didn’t. i just want to protect everyone and i don’t know HOW
it goes without saying that im happy to be ur uber driver for the indefinite future
libby
no omg, i took good care of my boy. idk what happened, they can live up to like 15 years so i was pretty bummed tbh. i was a bad mom
he appreciates your support from the grave though
i mean, i guess. but not everyone you love is going to love you back, i think that's where holden's at. not everyone wants to be clung to, and june seems reluctant
besides, you know all about that. holden, the love of your life, loves june. how sad
it's good for you!!!
i'm helping
i ... feel so badly for both of them. i can't imagine how their families must be feeling, fuck. i hate this. i'm moving to spain
ah, dude you don't have to do all that. you probably are busy with practice, and holden, and work. thank you tho
blue
im sure ur a great mother. ): but still valentine was lucky to have u. and im sure he misses u in his weird spider heaven web of flies and whatever it is spiders like idk ill dm peter parker and find out
i mean... guess that’s true. I suppose I dont get to see how june feels most of the time. i just wish they’d talk about it and sort it out at least. they both deserve to be happy
holden is the loml that is true aksjjsjd. holden has enough room for both me and june in his heart. so i mean technically i can love someone else too?? but enough about that lmfao
you definitely are helping. even coach has noticed dkdjd. making me better without even trying
u can’t move without me who’s gonna get me free popcorn ):
you’re just as important as practise and holden to me, lib.
libby
god, i miss him. you think the girls would be mad if i bought another one? like, to keep in my room.
i know! they're both obviously still in love, you can tell. i can't wait for them to overcome this and get to be together. also, im grateful for the amount of sleep i'm able to get now that... the room next to mine is less loud
welp, i hope you find someone who is willing to share you with holden lol
oMG, REALLY? IDK WHY THAT MADE ME IRRATIONALLY HAPPY LOL. WE CAN GET SALAD LATER
let's go, we'll go to spain and take on a new identity. we can live along the coast and work in a bakery or something. get a puppy
don't show holden that text he might cry.
but dsjflk thank you, you're very important to me too. kinda my best pal
blue
u would have to ask. but if you did get another what would u call it? thanksgiving?
funnily enough valentine is only a few weeks away. a sign??
i mean fuck ive known holden for years and can confirm he is happiest when he’s with june. when she’s not roasting him at least lmfao. and if my MasterPlan works im afraid things will get bad again djdjdj. I can take one for the team and try to get them to come over here tho - u don’t need to deal with that shit
i hope i do too tbh. and who would I want it to be u ask? that’s right. danny devito.
LETS NOT GET TOO CRAZY IVE ALREADY HAD THREE VEGETABLES THIS WERK AND ITS ONLY TUESDAY. I think it’s popcorn time 8)
bold of u to assume i know where Spain is dkdjdjdjdj
well he’s gonna catch on soon enough we spend every day together at this point lol
libby
i was gonna name this one patrick, after st patricks day actually lol.
yes you know what's also approaching that is more important? your birthday!
i know, it doesnt take a rocket scientist to figure that out. he's v much a relationship kinda dude, actually bc he's also kinda slutty lol. but even june is sad and its just, SO HARD. i hate when people are clearly, happiest together are like, nO IM GOING TO PROLONG THE MISERY. i feel like we're in a rom-com. how do we get them back together?
i'll let him know. my v-day gift from me to you
oooo, should i get the skittles ready too then? popcorn is kinda of a veggie if you think abt it
omg, okay well now you can't come with me. offer rescinded. im going with the hot cop
lslsfkjdjkldfs i mean its not like we're doing anything weird, so its okay, right?
blue
ur so cute wtf. although if u did do this i hope u know im calling him patrick star. also how the fuck do u tell if its a female or a male spider theyre so small and gross. fuck it is too lol.
i dont have any money so im gonna let ppl down on the party front lmao. ud still come tho, right?
how can he be both slutty and relationshippy. like not to be weird bc i know hes ur cousin and all dkfjgg but he doesnt.. have people over anymore. unless hes someone learned not to stomp around the house WHICH I DONT BELIEVE. and ha hA im already on plan 384 to get them back together get on my level lmao. we just gotta force them to spend time together tbh.
does that mean i have to give u the hot cop for valentines bc i mean. i would if that's what u wanted but im sure u can do much better than him
OH FUCK UR RIGHT OUR WHOLE RELATIONSHIP HAS BEEN A LIE TO CONVERT ME TO VEGGIES HASNT IT
r u breaking up with me? well fine, ill take the dog ):
it's... it's not weird unless we make it weird. and we haven't. have we?
libby
fdsjfjdsl shhhhh, back at you. Patrick Star will be his full name, i promise you this much. as for gender idfk, i am honestly assuming its pronouns lol. i'd be sued by the LGBT community if they knew.
also dude, of course. i'll make you cupcakes. plus i know what i wanna buy you!
i can't wait
dude what? really?? i thought he was seeing people this whole time, holy shit. dude he's really messed up over this huh? wow, okay, we need to kick this into high gear and have them get back together. tell me your plans.
omg, no you clown. i don't even like him that much, he's just pretty. i do like... some personality and he has 0
GOD MY PLAN HAS BEEN FOILED. I CANT BELIEVE IT
like i'd ever let you take the dog. she's mine
sdfjlkdsfjlk iDK DUDE. I MAY HAVE MADE IT WEIRD BUT WE'RE BAD AT TALKING ABT STUFF, SO WE DONT HAVE TO LOL.
blue
do spiders even have gender i thought they were just the minions of evil lmfao
lib u rly dont have to get me anything, really. altho now im curious tbh. but get ready for me to get a lit gift in june >:) ill even wrap it myself which says a lot bc i cant wrap for shit but i want it to be personal lmao
not many that im aware of atm. will give u info is this changes. huh we r spies lib. >:) but i dont have any current plans except trying to force them to go in a photo booth together or something when we eventually go to the arcade djsjdh
omg how did u know. but idk everyone speaks about him like hes gOD he’s just a dude. eyebrows on fleek tho
I will say that IM SO HURT UD USE ME LIKE THIS LIB. ALL THIS TIME WE WERE GETTING CLOSE AND U WERE ONLY HERE FOR THE VEGGIES
so u get Spain AND the dog. what do I get, sadness ????
you haven’t made it weird lib, i promise. not to me, anyway. maybe we both wanted the same thing. maybe. oR MAYBE NOT LMFAO but yeah we can talk about whatever lol
libby
don't talk about nate like that omg!
i want to, plus its a surprise so no asking what it is. also wow i cant believe you remember my birthday, lol. you dont have to get me anything. you can buy me an ice cream though
oh my gOD THAT'S BRILLIANT! aw, what if they take one of those cute kiss pictures in the photobooth like in the movies? i can't wait for them to love each other again, they're so cute.
are you jealous that no one is talking about your eyebrows? you have nice eyebrows and nothing to be jealous abt
GOD, IM SO SORRY. ROY HIRED ME. HE WAS WORRIED ABT YOUR HEALTH. IM SORRY YOU HAD TO FIND OUT THIS WAY. I THOUGHT YOU NEVER WOULD /:
you get the memory of what we were to keep you warm
right, cool. noted
blue
why do u talk about the string bean all the time i know u grew up with him but seriously he's like a pale pipe cleaner that i dont need in my life
ofc i remeber ur birthday lib. dont u remember ur 10th?? probably the best day of my life lmao. and if u get me something i get u something thats how this works
as long as june doesnt say anything mean and holden say anything stupid, its a pretty solid plan tbh.
im not jealous
HOW DARE ROY PLAY ME LIKE THIS. cant believe u betrayed me lib, after all we've been through ;-;
but what if i want something to sell off now that u took the house
oh fuck lib i didn't mean it like that. just... pretend i said nothing ok and. yeah talk about something else
libby
hey sorry, i gotta go. talk tomorrow.
blue
oh
is everything ok?
but alright
talk tomorrow then i guess
bye lib
libby
night
blue
its 6pm lib
but okay
night
blue
lib if i did something u dont have to tell me but pls know i didnt mean it, whatever it was. i hope youre okay. but i wont bother u again i promise. just. yeah
libby
it's okay, dude. i'm fine. it's honestly my own fault, it's not you. you're always great. i'm sorry. it's fine
blue
i dont understand what ur talking about but i can tell u dont want to so ill just... leave this. but you're always great too lib. the greatest, in fact. just let me know if ur still coming to the arcade later or not
yeah
libby
i guess i'll go. i like pacman.
blue
if u... if u change ur mind i understand. but i really hope u can make it.
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Annual Writing Self-Evaluation
*All answers should be about works published in 2017.
I was tagged by @confidentalec and i’m having an emotion about it, thank you <3
1. LIST OF WORKS PUBLISHED THIS YEAR
different day, different me
peace talks
blood on my hands
book club
(you are) rarer than diamonds
you’re a modern masterpiece
someday
there’s a clearing in the forest
like gold through trees
the surprise
2. WORK YOU ARE MOST PROUD OF (AND WHY):
probably like gold through trees or different day, different me! idk i like the feeling both of those have
3. WORK YOU ARE LEAST PROUD OF (AND WHY):
i don’t think i’m not particularly proud of anything i’ve actually published? like there are things i’d change, and i feel like rarer than diamonds was a bit rushed as i was trying to get it out in time for malec week. still enjoy it though!
4. A FAVORITE EXCERPT OF YOUR WRITING:
uhhhh im bisexual do u expect me to choose or
“ He loved how straightforward Alec was sometimes, and he still loved it now, but Alec had a way of seeing through every façade he put up with his bluntness and it unnerved him a little how easily Alec had taken up residence, not in his heart, but surrounding, enveloping, protecting it.” - blood on my hands
““I told him about my mother and father today, and he still hasn’t decided I’m too much. Can Raziel himself be summoned somehow, so I can thank him for Alexander? I’m pouring out the worst parts of me to this wonderful man and he still thinks I deserve his love.““ - like gold through trees
and p much the whole of there’s a clearing actually
5. SHARE OR DESCRIBE A FAVORITE COMMENT YOU RECEIVED:
i really liked this one on book club, it made me super happy “ DIJSJFJSJFJJS SHADOWHUNTER AND DOWNWORLD RELATIONS STOP BEING CLEVER “
someone once told me i write flirting really well, which i loved bc i like writing dialogue. and like every comment when i post stuff in the uh. fruity group chat makes my heart swell
6. A TIME WHEN WRITING WAS REALLY, REALLY HARD:
most of the time tbh? i can only really write when i’m in the mood, rather than force it, but the mood is happening more and more and i made myself write the surprise in a couple hours for christmas so!
7. A SCENE OR CHARACTER YOU WROTE THAT SURPRISED YOU:
i wasn’t expecting to write there’s a clearing at all. i kinda was thinking about how paul would experience his whole situation, and was gonna throw up some headcanons in a tumblr post, but then that happened
8. HOW DID YOU GROW AS A WRITER THIS YEAR:
i actually started writing after about 8 years, and publishing it for the first time too! i’m forever grateful to malec for giving me muse to create; shadowhunters has meant more to me this year than i ever thought it could.
9. HOW DO YOU HOPE TO GROW NEXT YEAR:
i hope to write more often, post more and longer works! i do have a few multichapters planned as well as oneshots so
10. WHO WAS YOUR GREATEST POSITIVE INFLUENCE THIS YEAR AS A WRITER (COULD BE ANOTHER WRITER OR BETA OR CHEERLEADER OR MUSE ETC ETC):
i know we’ve only been talking for just under a month but the magnus bane isn’t smol squad have really helped! none of my irl friends are into sh (which is totally fair) so it’s nice to be able to talk about ideas with other fans, and to support each other bc theyre all so talented
11. ANYTHING FROM YOUR REAL LIFE SHOW UP IN YOUR WRITING THIS YEAR:
yeah! i was a bit stuck for an au for malec week but that week i was covering the jewellery counter at work due to holidays, so i wrote what i knew lmao
12. ANY NEW WISDOM YOU CAN SHARE WITH OTHER WRITERS:
one thing i’ve learnt, particularly with regards to oneshots in fanfic, is you don’t need to tell everything. so many times i’ve been daunted bc i feel i have to set something up completely, or write everything that happens, but it’s completely viable to jump straight in sometimes, write timeskips or speed up the action if it’s dragging.
13. ANY PROJECTS YOU’RE LOOKING FORWARD TO STARTING (OR FINISHING) IN THE NEW YEAR:
i’ve been tossing ideas into a document for an edom multichap for months now, so i want to at least get started on that! i have a bunch of wips from the 2a/2b hiatus that i might see if i can recycle, as well as a bunch of other wips. i also am kinda thinking about taking prompts? idk, we’ll see
14. TAG FIVE WRITERS/ARTISTS WHOSE ANSWERS YOU’D LIKE TO READ.
probably already been tagged but i tag @simonsprettyface, @gayndsoft, @magnusandalexander, @harryshvm and @imawriteriwrite!
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we are bulletproof: if you could be any superhero, who would you be and why?
spiderman! walking on walls seems cool
no more dream: if you woke up tomorrow to be incredibly famous, how would you react?
“yeah this is how it’s meant to be” (do I 100% expect to be famous in the future? yes)
i like it: if you could reverse any moment in your life, what would that moment be?
throwback to middle school when my best friend confessed to me and I told her I’d date her if i were a boy
n.o: biggest pet peeve?
i don’t really have any big pet peeves but I hate the sound of nails draggin on the weird ceiling material in cars
we on: how do you deal with people who don’t like you?
avoid them like the plague bc i have Anxiety
if i ruled the world: what would you do if you found out that you were an heir to a wealthy kingdom?
possibly have a panic attack but like money
coffee: what’s your coffee order?
green tea frappe with a shot of espresso bc i’m living that college student life of no sleep and only caffeine
cypher pt. 1: if you had to be part of a kpop group, what position would you want to be (i.e. leader, visual, lead vocal, dancer, rapper, maknae, etc.)
i’d WANT to be dancer, but realistically id probably be a singer
rise of bangtan: when and how did you get into the king and legends, also known as bangtan sonyeondan?
uh i remember i listened to fire a while ago and it wasn’t exactly my style and i thought bts was kind of overhyped so i didn’t really listen to them much until like a month are blood sweat and tears came out and i finally decided to watch and mv bank with them and i thought they were funny and it was really just a downward spiral from there
satoori rap: what does home mean to you?
home has no meaning to me bc it’s always been riddled with fear
boy in luv: when you are interested in someone (romantically, sexually, etc.), does your behavior change?
i mean i flirt more but that’s just cause im a libra :/
just one day: who would you want to spend the last day of your life with?
i think i’d want time alone
tomorrow: goal that you would like to achieve within the next year?
finish learning korean
cypher pt. 2: one thing about yourself you wish people would appreciate more?
there’s nothing to appreciate about me lol
spine breaker: what is your weakness when it comes to spending money?
i love stationary
jump: favorite childhood memory?
once in kindergarten we were painting pots for mother’s day. I was the kind of kid that liked to work ahead so i just started painting, but the pot was upside down so when i turned it over it just said “wow” instead of “mom”
miss right: what is your ideal ‘type’?
kim taehyung, park jimin, or xu minghao
i like it pt. 2: dream date?
I love amusement park dates
danger: have you ever had a near-death experience?
i nearly died of alcohol poisoning once. that’s a story.
war of hormone: most embarrassing moment?
when i was like in 8th grade i thought weed and pot were two different things and I’ve never lived that down
hip hop lover: three songs that are meaningful to you?
Should i just do BTS songs?
Move, Love is Not Over, Hold Me Tight
let me know: are you good at keeping secrets?
i like to think i am
rain: most spontaneous thing you’ve ever done?
i took a day trip to Houston without telling my dad while my mom was in China
cypher pt. 3: favorite outfit to wear?
i got a new Fila hoodie in japan that’s bomb af and i look great in it plus my white hat with the long tail and my adidas samoas
blanket kick: longest time you’ve spent lying in bed (sleeping or not)?
idk how long i spent in bed but once i had a depressive episode so bad that my phone only marked 19 steps on that day
24/7 = heaven: what are you most looking forward to?
SEVENTEEN CONCERT AND MEETING SEVENTEEN
look here: do you have any hidden talents?
I can hum and beatbox at the same time
second grade: proudest accomplishment?
I finished 12 years of music theory, got put in the TMEA pamphlet and got some money from it too
i need u: are you in love?
i need u girl
hold me tight: does physical contact comfort you?
no
love is not over: ever had your heart broken?
:)
dead leaves: how loyal are you?
very
move: last time you cried?
I nearly cried at the airport leaving Japan because my best friend is staying there for college and I won’t be able to drive a street down to see her anymore, but I don’t cry much so I didn’t actually shed a tear.
I did however shed a single tear because of some gifs of jimin this morning
butterfly: most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen?
answered
run: do you like traveling? if so, where? what’s your dream vacation?
i love travelling and i actually just experienced my dream vacation in japan. I guess my next one would be korea
ma city: if you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?
seoul. I want to be an MV producer for idols
baepsae: do you vote and/or keep up with politics?
not especially, but I should bc i used to be a journalist
dope: what did you want to be when you were younger? how does it compare to what you want to be now?
i wanted to be a vet and now i’m going into film so there’s a pretty big gap
fire: are you a spontaneous person?
I’m an istp so yes
save me: your favorite place on earth?
im bad at choosing favorites, i’d like to think that i’m not tied down
young forever: what is one movie from your childhood that you will always treasure?
mulan
boys with fun: you’re going on a roadtrip with seven other people– dead, alive, fictional, real, famous, or not. who are they, and why?
sam, sarah, sara, kim taehyung, park jimin, xu minghao, and mark tuan
converse high: how many pairs of shoes do you own?
jesus wait lemme count
at least 14
whalien 52: weirdest thing that has ever happened to you? alternatively, weirdest dream you’ve ever had?
once after a 4th of july fireworks show my friend and i stopped at a gas station for drinks and this very obviously high dude in the car next to me said to me from his seat “yo dude u okay? u like… saw the paranoia i felt” and i had to reassure him that i was fine and i was going home soon
and i don’t like to think about my dreams bc theyre usually nightmares
house of cards: when was the last time you felt sexy?
like 2 years ago when i took the best selfies of my life
boy meets evil: have you ever committed a crime? if so, what was it? alternatively, what is the worst thing you have ever done?
i mean ive smoked weed
i snorted xanax once but after that night i decided to never do that again
blood, sweat, & tears: kinkiest kink you have?
i…. am not sure yall are ready for this information
begin: who are you most grateful for in your life?
i dont think i have an answer for this
lie: biggest fear?
abandonment. which lead to my fear of commitment and attachment
stigma: would you rather know the date of your death or the cause of your death?
cause
first love: do you believe in soulmates?
i’d like to
reflection: if you could tell your past self one thing, what would it be?
don’t go to the counselor
mama: are you good at giving advice?
not even a little bit
awake: if you had to be a flower, which flower would you be?
i’m not sure which I’d actually be but i love peonies
lost: how good are you with directions? do you get lost easily?
i’m pretty god with directions. I don’t usually get lost
cypher pt. 4: what do you do to treat yourself or relax?
i clean the shit out of my face
am i wrong: you wake up one morning in the hospital, knowing only your name and a single memory from your life. what is that memory?
damn well i wish i just lost all my memories
21st century girls: do you prefer texting, calling, or video chatting?
texting
2!3!: your favorite thing about bangtan?
how fucking weird and unapologetic they are
spring day: who do you miss right now?
my bed
not today: what are your procrastinating right now?
i need to pay rent and my class fees but i’m not
wings: on airplanes, do you prefer the window seat, the middle seat, or the aisle seat?
i like aisle seats for long flights and window seats for short flights
you never walk alone: how many people do you trust with your life?
maybe 2 ?
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