#idk what this is i made it a while ago and never posted because ehh

[storyofmychoices]

#playchoices #choices #choices game #levi schuler #mother of the year #the unexpected heiress #gemma montjoy #lily spencer #bloodbound #damien nazario #perfect match #hana lee #the royal romance #rafael aviero #open heart #robin tora #rising tides #kenna rys #the crown and the flame #idk what this is i made it a while ago and never posted because ehh #cleaning out some things in drafts

[maggyoutthere]

Quick listing of other stuff I used to work on and that I NEED to get back to working on otherwise I'll be drawing sth stuff only until the year ends

Think you saw someone else post these on Amino? Well yeah that was me. I was in the IZ and AHIT Aminos for a while but ended up not lasting long there XD

(This will be a longer post than what I usually do but it will have some art and au concepts for multiple fandoms so eh take a shot if u want

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👏DRAW👏MORE👏HOLLOW KNIGHT👏STUFF

I really wanna draw more Hollow Knight stuff. I absolutely fell in love with literally everything about the game. The art style is so gloomy but enchanting at the same time, the soundtrack is just phenomenal, fluid animations and a intricate story.

I've only drawn sealed vessel yet because they are my daddy issues and trauma and I get to project them onto what character I want and I legit just like his design a lot.

Invader Zim au I never properly fleshed out ❤💙💛

I remember having this IZ au where for shit's and giggles but also aesthetic reasons, our normal Dib, Pilot!Dib and Zib were triplets while still having Gaz as a younger sister. Again it was more for the aesthetic of it than anything else XD I did have a plan to said au but I left it back on the IZ Amino and I'd have to download the app just to go get it hhhhhh-

I did make some art for it. It's a bit old by now but it still holds up a bit XD

Another au I have for A Hat In Time but ehh? 💜💙💛

I've been kinda falling out of the AHIT fandom. I think the whole reason I was there was a 5 month hyperfixation on Snatcher XD still I was on that Amino as well and made an au as well. I always go for aus whenever I enter a fandom; I'm not comfortable enough to make an oc yet so I start of by doing that first.

The au was about how after Hat Kid finishes the level in Vanessa's Manor, the queen actually chases after her all the way back to Subcon Forest. Snatcher tries to fight off Vanessa, but she actually proves to be much stronger than him. In a moment of panic and desperation that he can't simply get her out of there, guy's sass completely falls apart and he just angrily vents out at her. However, this time, Vanessa actually listens to him. It's been so long since she had last seen her prince, might as well try.

They somewhat patch things up, reuniting the kingdom under the condition that Snatcher will be the one in control now and Vanessa will just stand on the sidelines. She agrees cuz she's just happy to have her prince back. The au kicked off with this premise, a few years after Hat Kid leaves the planet when she mysteriously crashes right back on Subcon Forest.

This one actually had like two small stories to it I had fully written, which is unusual because I don't usually write that much. I might finish it just for the heck of it but that'll be it.

Ocs & Other fandoms cuz wow🤍🖤

I would just love to have the chance to develop ocs here, but tumblr is a little bitch to original stuff. The "algorithm" because idfk what else to call it favors fanart above anything else, so getting other stuff out there is kinda hard. Maybe I'll start doing that as well just hhh remember that not a lot of people might see it XD

I'm also missing out on a bunch of other fandoms I don't really pay much attention to anymore XD I'm a casual fan of a lot of stuff, so eh expect some random things here once in a while

JUST WRITE SOMETHING DAMMIT

Hi again I do really really love writing. Reignited that passion a while ago when I started to rp again (thanks @cyro-starfire XD) so I wanna get back to actually writing stuff. Problem is: idk what to write about. I did pick up a book my mom told me I might like so I'm trying to do that now-

Idk this is a vague one but it's just to remind myself that yeah I mainly draw but I also like to do other stuff XD

Get back to FNAF and BATIM cuz new games are coming out this year 💜🖤

I cannot STRESS enough how much of a BATIM fan I was back in the day XD I left the Amino due to some drama but I'm still planning on returning if the new game catches my attention. Also keeping an eye out for FNAF cuz I'll definitely come back to that due to the game and movie that are in the works.

I'm not exactly planning to return to the Amino itself but just start posting about said games. I don't really like that place anymore -0-'

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Oof I think that was it. Tagging this will be a pain in the ass XD

#multi fandom #multifandom #hk #hollow knight #sealed vessel #iz #invader zim #iz au #invader zim au #dib membrane #pilot dib #zib #ahit #a hat in time #ahit au #a hat in time au #hat kid #snatcher #vanessa #moonjumper #batim #bendy and the ink machine #ocs #original chatacter #maggy moment #apparently you can only have 30 tags? #the more you know #art #doodle

[sweet-sixteen-kraang-birthday]

2, 4, 10, 20 and 25?

Thank you so much for sending this in! ♥️♥️

You send the ones that I secretly wanting to answer, lol.

2. Tell us about what you’re most looking forward to writing – in your current project, or a future project

I’m looking to writing a lot of things but—one thing that I’m really really looking forward to is writing that Time Travel fic.

I freaking love that trope so much. It’s my first thing that I think about in EVERY fandom I enter.

I’m actually writing one for TO!!! TWO. Vibaranting with excitement for it. It’s in the....works. I just want so badly to get the good parts and put it down but I’m so exited that I can’t seem to get the words down.

So far, one of them is going along VERY nicely. I’m so proud of it. The other one—I’m not sure the direction I’m heading in. There’s a lot of ways it could go down and I want all of them.

There’s also ANOTHER time travel fic I want to desperately write, but eh. It’s on TVD and I’m not so familiar with the characters and the plot so this one is at the back of my mind, constantly thinking of how it could go down...

I have this Scene in mind that I want to write so badly. Thinking about it just is making me WANT TO SCREAM

okay so I realised I have been rambling and didn’t even mention what the fics are on

First one: Hope going back in time, post season 5 to get glimpse of her parents. Act like she’s someone else to meet her parents but ehh the magic goes wrong and she’s stuck there. Or something. I haven’t quite worked it out.

Second one: Hope and Hayley in s4 going back in time to season 2 to find the last wolf for the spell. This is the one I’m proud of and liking the way it’s going so far. It’s a surprise at how easy it’s flowing. It was actually inspired after I read your Hayley&Cami s4 fic. Kind of. After I read it I got a sentence in my head and put it down... the rest just came afterwards. I was never expecting to write a time travel fix but I LOVE THE DIRECTION ITS HEADING.

third one: Hope going back in time for reasons and going to the school. It’s an outside POVs. one that I have in mind and I’m so excited for that because I freaking loooveee outside POVs.

There’s also other time travel fics that I have in mind. Another one that I am writing as well but ahhh I don’t want to spill any details.

4. Share a sentence or paragraph from your writing that you’re really proud of (explain why, if you like)

ehhhhh ANOTHER HARD ONE

okay, so. This is my first time writing Klaus’ POV. I never could get his voice. And this came to as a surprise?? I don’t even know how it happened, but it did. 

It’s the moment in s2 where Klaus meets Kol. AND THAT MOMENT WHEN HE REALISES THAT CAMI IS TAKEN AWAY. 

“Cami!” Klaus calls out, not breaking eye contact with his brother.”I changed my mind, I’m going to kill him after all.”

There’s a moment of silence, no reply. Worry and panic starts to rise and Klaus turns, says her name. And again, no response. 

Mikael, he’s thinking as he [WORDS HERE]

---blood. Cami’s blood. It takes effort to not let panic get the better of him and he walks around the car and sees the trunk empty. 

Father. Father has Cami.

Before this part, It was all fun and banter between Kol and Klaus and then THIS PART. Oh i loove how i did the tension here. I found it interesting that Klaus walks and doesn’t run or use his vamp speed. I was going to make him run but when watching the scene again... I realised he didn’t so while i was trying I was trying to get into his mindset.

It was really fun to write. It’s reason why I started writing this part. Wanted to capture the HORROR that klaus must’ve felt. The guilt the panic the anger. 

And oh how Klaus switches between “Father” and “Mikael” it wasn’t a concious choice but I love it. 

that bracket part is because I haven’t of how to get that transisation yet... I do have some ideas but anyways I really love how i got this part down. 

Also from the same WIP:

He was joking anyways. Partly. He’s not going to kill him, of course. Despite his behaviour, Kol is his brother. His blood.

Punishment, however, is entirely another thing.

IT’S SUCH A KLAUS THOUGHT. And im so proud because I think I got his voice down here really well. And because it was so fun to write. Gosh, I love him. 

The first part is a throwback to the scene where he shouts to kol “Im not going to kill you, you idiot” I love that moment so much. 

AND THAT LAST PART WHERE ITS LIKE “ Punishment, however, is entirely another thing.” i was crackling as i read it. 

10. How would you describe your writing process?

Oh! This is an interesting one. Erm. So I have a thought or scene in mind and it’s will be CONSTANTLY chewing up inside my head and I’ll end it up eventually writing it down. Or sometimes it’s more like. A sentence randomly pops up?

And then I start writing and let the words flow. It’s all over the place, the scenes and stuff. Not chronological. I gave up on that long ago. And is a PAIN to edit. The Worst.

At most I can write up to 300 to 400 words before I stop. It’s not that I can’t continue anyways I CAN just. My brain is working to fast for me to continue and I need to just daydream about the scenes. Sometimes I get more words down which is a surprise for me, but it happens.

I write first, get the words down. Anything, even if I don’t like it. Like for today, I wanted to write something on Gia but had NO CLUE where to start. So I just anything down and...

Apparently now, I am writing a fic where Gia and Kaleb meet??? Before she gets swept off to Marcel and his speech and him to Kol.

Idk. I don’t make the rules.

20. Tell us the meta about your writing that you really want to ramble to people about (symbolism you’ve included, character or relationship development that you love, hidden references, callbacks or clues for future scenes?)

Ehhh, WHERE TO START. There’s so much!!

I’ll go with  despite the gentle hands that keep your head underwater 

this line:

Jack denied it, kept whispering no no no no no and they wouldn’t, they wouldn’t but knew, dread and horror curling cold—just like Mary—against his bones as the Devil laughed, laughed and laughed and said, Son— 

—Jack takes a sharp, deep breath, grips the sink tighter, hands ghost white, refusing to fall—

Sam and Dean never met to get him out, were never going to try and save him, but—Jack did, Jack got himself out of that box and darkness—

and will save himself

—“that’s right, son,” the Devil whispers in his ear—

even if Sam and Dean think he doesn’t deserve to be.

I REALLY love the choices i made here. 14.19 was the most painful arc for Jack. And i hate and love it?? 

Jack’s slow realisation to Sam and Dean’s betrayal HURTS and i wanted to show what it actually meant for Jack. He was denying it, trying to reasure himself that from the truth.  I love writing lucifer here as the “Devil” it makes him sound more... darker?? horriying?? And like Jack has been struggling with being his son, the actual devil’s son---so it would seem fitting that he thinks “lucifer” as the “devil” in his mind. 

And oh mary. How Jack tries to desparately bring her back but can’t. Cold. She’s gone, she’s not coming back, she’s dead. She’s here right now in his arms, but--shes not at the same time. Her body is here but she, Mary is gone. It’s that same feeling, of Sam and Dean promsing him soon and that this was a good choice for him and stuff - but Jack realising that they didn’t care. They did but they lied but Jack doesn’t see that *caring* part just. The actions, the lies. The betrayal.

AND THEN HOW DEVIL CALLS HIM SON. While LAUGHING.

FAVE IMAGERY. i use it...A LOT. I noticed. 

“Son” going back to what I said before of Jack struggling with not being evil and wanting to not be and what this means. He killed mary, for no other reason that he was angry. He *lost* control. He did evil. And so he’s now the Devil’s son. Everything that he didnt want to be. 

(everything that his mom didn’t want to be)

AND OH i really love how i use the dashes here. Cutting back to the present. Jack still gripping on. Refusing to fall. 

(Fall. Oh i never noticed that... intresting, interesting choice of words!!)

NNGH this HURTS and I LOVE IT. them planning to keep him in there and jack getting himself “out of that darkness” but is he really? did he just fall deeper in?

“will save himself” OH JACK. 

ehhh words are failing me now but i love how i went back to the “devil whispering in ear” and “son” 

it sets up to the next scene of Jack losing it at the lies people tell and he goes like NO MORE LIES

and then how he goes down for Dean and doesn’t fight back.... because there’s a part of him, of jack that believes... he’s doing wrong. 

AND AHHH i just love that ending. It sets for dark!jack SO NICELY. 

and that little angst “even if Sam and Dean think he doesn’t deserve to be. “ OOF.

25. What part of writing is the most fun?

Most fun? This is a hard questions. There’s a lot of things!! I can’t just seem to put it into words.

I think.... ahhh this is really hard

sometimes it’s writing dialogue, sometimes it’s the actions, or the thought process....

OH actually thinking of “sometimes” it’s when the characters’ emotions and personalities SHINE out. Like when I can get to write to the fun stuff of this characters that I love.

Like. An example: Rebekah and Kol bantering? Or ELIJAH AND REBEKAH BEING THE SOFTED. And and Rowena flirting. She’s so fun to write. OR Hinny and their fun energy.

And really when I get to use purple prose. I’m a sucker for poetry and beautiful descriptive stuff and it’s ALWAYS so fun to write them down.

#sorry if i dont make sense #im just rambling here #and when i do. i tend to not make sense at all XD #aeruthien #THANK YOU SO MUCH AGAIN #i had fun with this <33 #asks

[dramarising-replacement]

so a sort of long post with no salt, just a rant... i was thinking about this right before reading the post about feeling lonely in flight, so i decided i'd let off some 'steam'. ahem. 

i've been on flight rising for quite some time, about to crawl up on 5 years. I will FOREVER be mad at myself for not knowing about and getting involved in the kickstarter asdjkasd but that's not what this is about -- though i haven't actually played for that long, as i'm pretty sure one of my many hiatuses was well into a year or longer than that. each time i came back from hiatus i'm pretty sure i changed flights and usernames, so no one could possibly know who the heck i am in the first place in the forums now, so in the first place i'm pretty unrecognizable. i started in plague, (and the order of these flights is very foggy because its been a while) then i think i went to fire... then shadow, maybe, and this was the only flight i got involved in the discord. very nice people, i'm just so socially anxious that i can hardly be involved in group messaging without wanting to die inside. ok ok, i think i went to shadow THEN fire? whatever, i left shadow (didn't make any lasting friends) and ended up in earth. mind you, every time i changed flights, usernames, 'aesthetic' i literally changed the entirety of my lore every!!! single!!!  time!!! i have been through so many plots, so many dragons, i've wasted so much dragon cash. now i'm back in plague, debating going back to earth...

so i've been on this great site for several years, i've had contact with several amazing people and i've made an astounding total of 0 friends. i had a falling out with the only friend i had that played FR, so i have no one to yell about dragons with, and i guess it's really taking a toll on me? I don't have all that much interest in FR anymore, i've recently started several projects to keep me going but the loneliness is really starting to seep through. i know i'm not doing myself any favors by not joining discords, but i just have a really hard time with that. i'm slowly becoming more active in the forums (near 5 years and JUST got my shiny forum star like a month ago if that tells you anything) and seeing how many people are recognized for one thing or another, good lairs, generous personality, art they do, etc... well, idk, im happy for those people, but i love FR and idk i just wanna be recognized for something. but how can i when i change literally everything about my account like every few months? ehh???  before this goes on any longer and i get carried away, i guess i'm just frustrated. i have no friends on site, my lore is nonexistent currently, and i'm truly upset that my lair never has a theme. i'd love to be cohesive, but my damn brain just doesn't do cohesive. no one knows who i am, then again, i dont do anything special. my art skill is meh, my dragons are meh, my lore has always been meh because it has never been completed and if it has, i totally wiped it to start over. i cant say this site is perfect in any way but its kept me here for years despite everything so idk. i love FR to bits, but i sure as hell wish i was better at playing it. sorry this is so jumbled, im bad at clear communication, oop.

#Rant #Flight Rising #Long post #No salt #submission

[kwanisms]

Never Mine - wky

⤑ genre: angst, light smut?? ⤑ pairing: Jinyoung x Reader ⤑ warning: ehh, eavesdropping?? Idk lmao ⤑ summary: Jackson falls in love with you, only there's a problem. Jinyoung is your boyfriend. ⤑ word count: 2.3k

a/n: I've had this set on the back burner for a while lol I'm still working on part 6 of Crossing the Threshold, but I'm close to being done. I'm also waiting until after I hit 300 followers to post the next piece of Give it to You which is Hyungwon's part, Ivory.

It wasn't like Jackson had planned to fall in love with you. It just happened. He met you outside the JYP Entertainment building the first time. You were leaving as he was coming in and you accidentally bumped into him, almost falling down the stairs but he caught you.

“You should be more careful,” he joked and you smiled sheepishly. “Sorry, I'm in a hurry. Thank you for catching me!” you called as you rushed down the steps and down the sidewalk as you carried on with your day. Jackson was awestruck. You were gorgeous.

The second time was in the hallway outside the practice room. Jackson was on his way to the vending machines when he spotted you, instantly recognizing you from before. He stopped to say hello. You were just as radiant as before, smiling in a way that had his heart fluttering.

This time around, he got your name. “I'm (Y/N),” you said in a voice as sweet as honey. “Jackson, it's nice to meet you, (Y/N),” he replied, extending a hand to shake yours. You took his hand without hesitation and the moment your skin made contact with his, he felt an electric shock.

You seemed unphased by what he was feeling, offering a polite smile. Your hand dropped and Jackson was left feeling empty. He wanted to know more. He wanted to know everything there was to know about you.

The third meeting was backstage at M Countdown. He saw you wandering backstage and couldn't believe his good fortune. He raised a hand to wave you over, to introduce you to his members but someone beat him to it.

“Jagiya!” Jinyoung called to you, waving. You waved back excitedly, making your way over until Jinyoung pulled you into his arms, wrapping your own arms around his waist and hiding your face in his chest. Jagiya?

Jackson felt his heart sink. Of course you were Jinyoung's girlfriend. Seeing you next to him, it made sense. You were exactly his type. You were extremely cute, not only in your appearance but also in how you acted. You pulled back, giving Jinyoung a big cheeky smile, one he returned.

Jackson swallowed his feelings, pushing his attraction for you to the back of his mind but it still hurt him. You had captivated him instantly and he wanted to be the one for you, but that wasn't possible now. Jinyoung was your man and his friend.

Jackson tried to get over his unresolved and unrequited feelings for you, he really did, but it was difficult. Especially when you showed up almost everywhere. Practice, in the halls, even at their dorm for movie night one time.

It was Jinyoung's turn to choose a movie and he chose a horror film for whatever reason. Jackson busied himself with making the popcorn and upon returning with two huge bowls, he found the only open seat was next to you on the couch. He mentally cursed the heavens for tormenting him.

You and Jinyoung were cuddled up next to each other, both of you wrapped in a blanket as you watched the story unfold on the screen. Jackson positioned himself as far away as possible from you sitting on the opposite end of the couch. He wanted no physical contact.

As the movie went on, Jackson could not focus on it. He could only watch you out of the corner of his eye. You had passed out some time ago, your head resting against Jinyoung's chest, his arms wrapped around you, pressing kisses to your forehead. Jackson felt a pang of jealousy.

He wanted that. He wanted that with you. He couldn't describe his jealousy toward Jinyoung. If only Jackson had met you first. Would that be him instead? Would he be the one cradling you while you slept in his arms?

Time flew by and his feelings for you only grew, no matter how hard he tried to move on. No matter how hard he tried to get over you, all he could do was think about you. He got better at hiding it, almost to the point where he could carry on a full conversation with you without slipping up.

It was now fall in Korea. The temperatures dipped and the need for jackets and scarves rising. One day, you were on your way to the dorm to meet up with Jinyoung when you ran into Jackson. You had forgotten your scarf at home and the wind was particularly chilly that day.

“(Y/N)!” Jackson called running to catch up with you. “Hey, Jackson,” you smiled, not knowing how it made Jackson's heart skip a beat when you smiled at him like that. “Hey,” he said breathlessly as the two of you continued down the sidewalk. Jackson noticed that you were missing a scarf and a hat. “Aren't you cold?” he asked when the two of you reached the crosswalk, waiting to cross. You nodded.

“Yeah, unfortunately, I forgot my scarf at home,” you chuckled, the tip of your nose turning red. Jackson made a split second decision. If Jinyoung got mad at him, he would deal with it. Jackson unraveled his scarf from around his neck, turning toward you and wrapping it around your neck before tucking the ends into your jacket.

“What are you doing?” you asked, half laughing. Jackson took his beanie off and put it on your head. “It's really cold. I don't think Jinyoung would want you to get sick,” Jackson mused, stuffing his hands in his pockets. You smiled, your cheeks turning pink. Whether it was from blushing or the cold, Jackson didn't know and he didn't want to ask.

“Thank you,” you said softly as the crosswalk sign changed and you followed Jackson across the street. He was trying to keep his composure. He didn't want you getting the wrong idea, even though it would be correct.

He wanted you to think he was doing it for his friend, and not because he was in love with you. He would never be able to face Jinyoung if you knew Jackson loved you more than a friend. So he kept his mouth shut and continued to lead the way to the dorms, you following behind.

Back at the dorms, Jinyoung greeted the two of you, eyes falling on the scarf and hat which he knew did not belong to you. He looked up at Jackson, and eyebrow raised. “Did you dress my girlfriend?” he asked in an amused tone. You blushed softly, unwrapping the scarf and pulling the beanie off to hand them back to Jackson.

“It was pretty cold out there and she forgot hers,” Jackson chuckled nervously and Jinyoung waved a hand before turning to you. “How could you forget your scarf, dummy?” he asked, gently tapping your forehead. You blushed a deep scarlet and hid your face in his chest.

“Aigoo, you're too cute, jagi,” Jinyoung said hugging you tightly. Jackson cleared his throat. “I'll just give you two some privacy, he murmured and headed for the room he shared with Mark. He shut the door and then decided to drown out any noise by listening to some music on his headphones. He just wanted to distract himself.

Jackson had fallen asleep at some point listening to his music. He woke up to darkness and felt around for his phone. It was 10:30 PM and he wondered if anyone else was back. He removed his headphones and immediately wished he hadn't upon hearing a moan from behind the wall.

He laid in his bed, not wanting to listen but he couldn't bring himself to stop after hearing you whimper on the other side of the wall. He never wanted to know what you sounded like, especially since he would never get that out of his mind. The thought of you on your back, moaning.

Jackson put his headphones back on and blared his music, trying to drown out your voice in his own head. He was unsuccessful but he feared removing his headphones because it would just allow him to hear more of you as Jinyoung did what Jackson so desperately wanted to do.

Even so, he reluctantly removed them, your whines instantly meeting his ears and he regretted this decision immediately. Your voice was breathy as you softly cried out, clearly in pleasure. Jackson tried not to think of exactly what Jinyoung was doing to you.

All he could see was you, lying on your back while your boyfriend thrusted into you, slow deep thrusts and he shut his eyes covering his face with his arm. He should not be thinking about that. It was none of his business.

He tried to shut you and your moans out. He never heard Jinyoung's voice and suddenly, he knew exactly what his friend was doing to you as Jackson tried to push it from his mind. He had to, otherwise he could never face you again.

Subconsciously, you must love torturing him, because before long, you were crying out Jinyoung's name before you let out a loud high pitched moan and fell silent. Jackson heard Jinyoung chuckle through the wall.

“You're so loud, baby,” he heard Jinyoung say. All he heard in response from you was a soft whimper before you cried out again. If the thumping against the wall didn't give it away, Jinyoung's gruff voice saying “god you're so tight, princess,” told Jackson all he needed to know.

This torture continued for what felt like forever. Jackson tried to drown it out, but ultimately unable to do so. He laid in silence, using everything in his power not to get aroused by the onslaught happening next door. Your moaning mixed with Jinyoung's groans grew in frequency and intensity until you cried out and Jinyoung uttered a final “fuck!” before all became silent again.

Jackson felt a whirlwind of emotions. He was furious that the two of you dared to do that while he was home. He was frustrated. He was jealous. He felt totally ashamed because he had just eavesdropped on his friend having sex with you, the girl he secretly loved.

Jackson was determined to avoid you every chance he could, partly to try to move on by eliminating contact with you and partly because he couldn't look you in the face. Not after that night he heard you with Jinyoung.

His efforts were in vain as he always seemed to run into you either at the JYP building or at the dorms. He always gave you a very short greeting before hurrying away. He hoped you assumed that he was just very busy and wouldn't press the matter further. Unfortunately, things never went the way Jackson wanted them to.

You had managed to corner him in the practice room alone one day, and you demanded answers. The two of you had become such good friends about now he was avoiding you. “What did I do?” you asked, arms crossed over your chest.

Jackson avoided your gaze. “Jackson, I'm talking to you!” you shouted, voice echoing off the walls. “I've just been busy, (Y/N). That's all,” he lied and you knew it. You knew when he was lying. “Don't lie to me, Jackson Wang. Just tell me what I did wrong. I know you're avoiding me.”

“I don't want to see you around. I'm avoiding you because I don't want to be around you.” Jackson did his best to stay calm. Your eyes widened and mouth opened. You were hurt, that much he could tell. “Why? What did I do?” you asked softly. Jackson shook his head. “Just leave it (Y/N),” he said turning away from you.

“I'm not gonna leave it! What did I do to make you feel this way?!” you asked grabbing his arm. Jackson ripped his arm from your grip. “Don't touch me,” he hissed and you recoiled, confused and scared by his hostility. “What the hell is wrong with you?” you yelled.

He tried to hold it in, he really did. His heart couldn't take it anymore. It wouldn't take it. All the emotions and feelings he'd been hiding inside finally coming forward at once. Jackson finally snapped, unloading all of his feelings.

“I'm in love with you, (Y/N)! That's why I want to avoid you. I've tried to stop feeling this way but I can't! Not when you're you.” His voice bounced off the walls and you took a step back, your eyes widening in horror as you glanced from Jackson to something behind him. The door.

Jackson turned around. Oh no. Jinyoung was standing in the doorway, a drink carrier in one hand, his other on the door knob. His eyes flickered between you and Jackson a few times before settling on his friend. “You what?” he asked in a low voice. Jackson shook his head.

“I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said anything,” Jackson said. Jinyoung set the drink carrier down, taking a few steps forward. “You what, Jackson?” he repeated louder. You crossed to Jinyoung, gently grabbing his arm. He pushed you behind him. “You're in love with my girlfriend?”

Jackson couldn't bring himself to look at his friend. He was too ashamed. “Excuse me? Are you listening to me?” Jinyoung snapped. Jackson finally looked up, but instead of looking at his friend, he caught sight of you hiding behind him. “Don't you dare look at her in front of me.”

Jackson's eyes locked with Jinyoung's and he could see the anger in them. He had wanted to avoid this at all costs but here they were. “Jinyoung,” Jackson started but Jinyoung cut him off. “What the hell is wrong with you?!” he asked angrily. Jackson tried to explain. “I'm sorry,” here started. “I didn't mean for this to happen, it just did.”

“How dare you,” Jinyoung hissed. Jackson took a step back. “I really am sorry, Jinyoung!” he said. Jinyoung held his hand up to silence him. “Don't talk. I don't want to hear it. Don't ever talk to (Y/N) again, you hear me?” he asked.

Jackson nodded, looking down at the floor. Jinyoung grabbed your hand and pulled you along to the door. You glanced back, locking eyes with Jackson one last time before you turned away from him forever.

#here have some feels #here's some angst #got7 #jackson got7 #got7 jackson #got7 jackson wang #jackson wang #got7 imagines #got7 scenarios #got7 fanfiction #got7 fanfic #got7 reactions #jackson angst #jackson imagines #jackson drabble #jackson oneshot #got7 jinyoung #jinyoung got7 #got7 park jinyoung #park jinyoung #got7 junior #got7 jr #kwanisms

[chelsorz07]

I posted these as asks four years ago and never got to answer any so

THOUGHT YOU WERE DONE SEEING THESE FROM ME, DIDN’T YA? Me too, I’m so sorry

1. First thing you wash in the shower? Hair.

2. Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker? I have like two cups of coffee a month but have only drank booze twice in the past year so coffee I guess.

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Many times.

4. Do you plan outfits? Sometimes I’ll want to wear a specific shirt but it’s rarely ever clean and I never pick out clothes sooner than right before my shower.

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now? Tired but I still have to put the garbage out before I can go to bed and my neck and knees are killing me so I can’t get off the couch. But I’m in an okay mood.

6. Whats the closest thing to you thats red? Throw pillow.

7. What would you do if you opened your door and saw a dead body? Idk I’d like to say I’d be a badass about it but honestly I’d probs scream.

8. Tell me about the last dream you remember having? I legit don’t remember. I dream every night but they usually fly right out of my head when I wake up.

9. Three of your current feelings? Tired, hungry, in pain. 

10. What are you craving right now? Cheeseburger and onion rings.

11. Turn ons? Um...intelligence, wit, shoulders, eyes, ginger beards.

12. Turn offs? Arrogance, chauvinism, people who don’t like cats.

13. What comes to mind when I say cabbage? Coleslaw.

14. When was the last time you cried? Why? I was doing a concert in my living room last night, as I often do, and some of the songs got me a little emosh.

15. If you could be a superhero, who would you want to be? Black Widow or Loki.

16. Did the one person who hurt you most in your life apologize? No but she did change the way she treated me so I’m taking that for what it is.

17. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it? I don’t eat ice cream because it hurts my teeth no matter which method of eating I use.

18. Favorite movie ever? Bring it On.

19. Do you like yourself? Depends on the day. Actually it changes even more frequently than that.

20. Have you ever met a celebrity? Many. None will top Jensen Ackles though. Well. Except Misha. Note the double entendre lol

21. Could you handle being in the military? I definitely could not. I’m also too old to enlist even if I wanted to.

22. What are you listening to right now? Walking Dead, season 1 episode 2. Because every time I start the series over, I pick up from episode 3 since I don’t really care about anyone but Daryl until Jesus happens. But today I felt like a refresher from the beginning.

23. How many countries have you visited? I went to Canada once.

24. Are your parents strict? They were while I was being raised. Then my little sister had like no rules.

25. Would you go sky diving? No way.

26. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush? Hell yeah.

27. Whats on your mind right now? I’m really just trying to gather the motivation to get up and pee, then take the garbage out so I can go to sleep.

28. Is there anything you want to say to someone? Ehh not really.

29. Have you ever been in a castle? No but I would tour the shit out of some if I had the opportunity.

30. Do you rent movies often? Almost never because who does that anymore? But we did just rent Mile 22 from the Redbox a few weeks ago. It was pretty meh for Wahlberg.

31. Whats your zodiac sign? Leo.

32. When was the last time you had sex? A month ago. Purely by circumstance. My husband is currently on week four of a five week work rotation in Texas.

33. Name five facts about yourself. Lord. I have rapidly deteriorating joints and it fucking hurts everywhere all the time. I’ve spent the past 48 hours going back through my entire tumblr, over 300 pages. I only make homemade mac n cheese, not boxed. I’m almost finished rereading every Desus fic on AO3 for the second time (some more than two but I mean going through literally every page). One of my cats is sitting above my head and purring really loudly and another is sitting to my left snoring.

34. Ever had a near death experience? If so, what happened? Got caught driving in a blizzard. Spun off the road several times, including once off of an on-ramp. Like do not enter, wrong direction. If I hadn’t made it to the hotel right next to the on-ramp I really would’ve been fucked.

35. Do you believe in karma or predestiny? Not really.

36. Brown or white eggs? White.

37. Do you own something from Hot Topic? Most of my material possessions are from the hot topical, yes. Clothes, jewelry, funkos, makeup, miscellaneous other merch. It’s like a lot.

38. Ever been on a train? I have not.

39. Ever been in love? I am.

40. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you do it? I hate this question. Of course I want a million dollars. But I’ve always wanted to stay in a haunted house anyway.

41. If you could trade places with any person living or dead, who would you trade places with? JJ Ackles. Except that I wouldn’t wish my life on her. Can we just be siblings instead?

42. If you could shorten your life expectancy by 10 years to become more attractive, would you do it? I’m already attractive. And my life expectancy isn’t that high as it is.

43. Whom do you admire and why? My husband because he does crazy shit like work 35 days in a row when he’s only supposed to work 14 just to make sure all our bills are paid and we have savings because I’m too crippled to work at all right now.

44. What was your favorite bedtime story as a child? I didn’t get bedtime stories.

45. You’re walking down the street, you come across a burning building. A woman says her baby is trapped inside, what would you do? I am literally capable of doing nothing, except maybe let her use my phone to call 911 if she hasn’t already.

46. If you could choose the future profession of your son or daughter, would you? No. I can’t even choose my own profession.

47. What was your best experience on drugs or alcohol? Idk about best but my most recent one was pretty good. I hadn’t had alcohol in over a year but a few weeks ago my sister turned 21 and we had family game night at my parents’ house so I got a little buzzed on some grapefruit White Claws and for about four hours I wasn’t in physical pain. Plus we all had a really good time just hanging out and playing games and everybody got along. That has 100% never happened in my family before. Also the last time I smoked weed, which was MANY years ago, like 6 or 7, it had the same effect and reduced my joint pain.

48. What was your worst experience on drugs or alcohol? Worst with drugs was the night I smoked an entire joint just in my living room alone and it must have been strong shit because I threw up immediately. Worst experience drinking was probably all of 2010.

50. As you’re walking down the street you find a suitcase full of money sitting next to a parked car, would you take it? Probs I’m desperate and not that great of a person.

51. If you found that a close friend has AIDS, would you still hang out with them? Yes? WTF kind of question is that? It’s 2019, AIDS isn’t cooties.

52. In front of you are 10 pistols, 5 of which are loaded. If you survive you’d receive 100 million dollars. Would you be willing to place 1 to your head and pull the trigger? Depends what kind of pistol. If it’s a revolver you can see the rounds in the barrel. 

53. How old were you when you lost your virginity? 20.

54. Do you believe in ghosts, werewolves or vampires? Nope. Well I still haven’t ruled out ghosts but I also know how to dispatch them so.

55. If you could live forever, would you want to? HELL naw.

56. Which fictional movie character most resembles who you are? Janice Ian.

57. If you could go back in time, which time period would you visit? We love a renaissance.

58. If they were to televise a live execution, would you watch it? Probably.

59. If you could be the president of the USA, would you be willing to do it? Not even for like a day.

60. If you could choose the sex of your unborn child, would you want to? Yes. I want a girl. Come for me.

61. Would you rather live longer or be wealthy? I want that money beech.

#not spn #personal #about me #bring back myspace surveys 2k19 #i probably won't do any more though

[catwlw-archive]

I was tagged by the wonderful @chapstick-in-my-pocket

Rules: answer 80ish questions and tag 20 people (lol we’ll see)

Last:

Drink: diet coke

Phone Call: um. the last phone call i’ve had? personally? according to my phone it was with my aunt on the eighth

Text Message: to my friend, we’re discussing a url and I just sent “That’s very true” and “It’s really cute” in separate messages but whatever

Time You Cried: really, really cried last night, watching the season finale of a show and watching certain characters face near death experiences and then being cliff-hangered until this fall :’) but i teared up earlier watching a youtube video

Kissed Someone and Regretted It: i don’t really regret kissing anyone. i mean. i only have one ex at the moment, and. if you asked me a few months ago, i would’ve been hellbent on how much i regretted that entire relationship, but i’m at some sort of peace with it now.

Been Cheated On: nah.

Lost Someone Special: um, i guess i’ve lost friends in the last few years? my ex broke up with me almost a year ago? my great-aunt passed away a year and some ago.

Been Depressed: a few years ago.

Gotten Drunk and Thrown Up: never, i’m underage and ain’t about that life tbh

Favourite Colours:

1. green

2. grey

3. black

In the Last Year Have You…:

Made New Friends: yes

Fallen Out of Love: yes

Laughed Until You Cried: of course

Found Out Someone Was Talking Behind Your Back: no? i don’t think so.

Met Someone Who Changed Your life: yeah

Found Out Who Your True Friends Are: yep

General Things and Stuff:

How Many Facebook Friends Do You Have: n/a, i don’t have a fb

Pets: 2

Ever Wanted to Change Your Name: nah, it’s pretty

What Did You Do For Your Last Birthday: um. nothing fancy. went to school as normal. got a few gifts and some money. had cake. that was it, really.

Time You Woke Up Today: 7AM

What Were You Doing at Midnight Last Night: sleeping for once

What You Can’t Wait For: next week so i can finish exams and be done with high school (and then i can’t wait for the beginning of june to get everything officially completed in my college prep, and then july for orientation and my student starter kit, and then august first for my start date!!)

What Are You Listening to: currently the typing of my keys, whirring of my laptop, and ticking of three clocks in the room i’m in. music wise, i’m about to be playing my music on shuffle.

Ever Talked to a Person Named Tom: yeah

Something That Gets on Your Nerves: people watching you/knowing you’re about to do something and “”””joking”””” that you should be doing it

Most Visited Site: i’m not counting tumblr/gmail/youtube because i usually rely on the apps, but website wise would be my hs login page/my courses

Hair Colour: dirty/dishwater blonde that’s gotten darker (but isn’t quite light brown)

Long or Short Hair: it’s short right now

Crush: yes, i think. i’ve mentioned her a few times

What Do You Like About Yourself: my sincerity

Any Piercings: single piercings in my ears

Blood Type: tbh, no clue

Nicknames: i mean sadie’s technically a nickname but i claimed it myself and literally no one calls me it

Relationship Status: single

Sign: virgo (i’m on the borderline of virgo and libra)

Pronouns: she/her

Favourite Show on the Telly: i’ve suddenly realized this is british. uhhh, i really, really enjoy this is us

Tattoos: no. i was promised when i was like six or seven that my sixteenth birthday gift would be one, but we got poor lol. haven’t gotten it yet bc we’re still poor.

Left or Right Handed: right

Have You Ever Had Surgery: if you count removing tonsils, then yes

Do You Want Piercings: mm a second set of holes in my ears would be nice, or up on the cartilage edge (idk the names of piercings sorry)

Sports: lol no

Favourite Holiday: umm, don’t really have one. christmas and thanksgiving are nice because of the food, though,,

Trainers: british speak for trainers is like sneakers/tennis shoes, so uh?? yes i love sneakers and i wear regular tennis shoes sometimes??

Favourtie Dish: one of my favorite meals is pasta chicken salad so that

Favourite Drink: besides water (bc gotta stay hydrated even tho i suck at it), diet coke

About to Watch: a youtube video

What I’m Waiting For: a reply to an email i sent to a teacher

What I Want: besides sleep, to be happy and content

Do You Want to Get Married: possibly, idk

Career: i’m going to be going to school to be a teacher so!!

Which is Better:

Hugs or Kisses: hmm, i think i was asked this a lil while ago and i think i answered with both

Lips or Eyes: eyes

Shorter or Taller: personally taller but i wouldn’t mind shorter idk

Older or Younger: um i think older bc i’ve always been the younger but i wouldn’t mind either way as long as it’s not a big gap?

Arms or Stomach: arms

Troublemaker or Hesitant: i guess troublemaker because i’m generally hesitant and gotta have some variation yknow?

Have You Ever: no jk

Kissed a Stranger: nah

Drank Hard Liquor: nope

Turned Someone Down: yes?

Sex on a First Date: no

Broken Someone’s Heart: yeah

Had Your Heart Broken: yep

Experienced Love at First Sight: ehh, attraction, not love

Believed in Santa Clause: yes

Believe in Angels: yes

Miscellaneous:

Eye Colour: blue

Best Friend’s Name: gabby

Favourite Movie: the first movie that came to my mind was tangled because i remembered reblogging a post and tagging it with something like “if i ever don’t call tangled one of my favorite if not my favorite disney movie then something is wrong”

Favourite Actor/Actress: i don’t? really have one? i don’t think?

Favourite Cartoon: the last time i watched a cartoon was years ago and it was multiple and it was basically cartoon network every so often playing the amazing world of gumball, regular show, we bare bears and adventure time and i enjoyed all of them?? but i don’t think anything can really beat the classics tom and jerry and looney toons

Favourite Teacher’s Name: in the last four years (my hs), i’ve had really three favorite teachers - a spieker, vermaire, and a grondin. they have all been and will continue to be lovely teachers - and i also had a college instructor for a class earlier this year, and her name is elyse, and she was the absolute best. i miss her.

also tagging anyone who wants to do this lol!!

#tag game #sorry for clogging up your dash

[mystic-messenger-scenarios]

If you have time could I request the RFA (maybe Saeran if you can) coming home and MC is crying because of anger like she is super mad that she broke something or she can't fix something? I cry very easily from anger and I was wondering their reaction. (Sorry for bad English)

(sorry late answer)You’re fine don’tworry, although I didn’t write Saeran because I couldn’t think ofanything his s/o could break that would mean anything to him, I justfelt like he wouldn’t really care u_uAnd Zen’s is prettyshort because ehh I don’t know what he could own that would meansomething important to him idkAaand I haven’t written in a while, so it’s probably not great + I wrote the first two a while ago compared to the rest so they have a different format and length hh it’s a mess :I

Yoosung :

would be just asmuch of an emotional mess as his s/o when he comes through the doorand sees them cry

he would rush to hiss/o’s side and asks them what’s wrong as he gently rubs theirshoulders and tries his best not to cry

when s/o points atthe keyboard on the desk – his expensive keyboard specificallydesigned to play video games – and explains they accidentallyknocked their coffee all over it and ended up breaking it, Yoosungfeels an immense wave of relief taking over him; he was alreadyexpecting the worst; for them to be in pain or dying, but thankfullya broken keyboard was a far less important problem

after a sigh, he’dgive them a slight smile and hold them in his arms, reassuring themthat it was okay, that Seven could always repair it, that he wasn’tangry at them and they shouldn’t be angry either

if they were stillupset, he’d try to comfort them by telling them of all the times hedropped soda on his keyboard or went to take a shower with hisheadphones on because he forgot to remove them; he wanted them tounderstand it happened a lot of times to him too and it was okay

Zen :

his first instinctas he sees his s/o cry is to hold their chin to look into their eyesand wipe their tears away because he hates seeing them cry, but as hedoes so, they avoid his gaze and persistently look at the floor

he’s a little sad attheir actions and immediately thinks he’s done something wrong, likehe forgot a date or came home from work too late and he startsapologizing as he begs them to stop crying

but then, his s/oshakes their head and shows him the soggy pile of fan mail wrapped ina towel

At this, he can onlylook surprised, seeing as he wasn’t expecting this to be the reasonof their tears, meanwhile, they apologize through their sobs and Zentries to calm them down. His hand rubbing their back and promisingthem that it’s okay and it’s nothing to worry about, that he knows itwas an accident and they tried their best to fix everything; afterhearing all this, they stop crying and he gives them the warmest hughe can.

He’s honestly notvery upset about this, of course his fans are important to him andhe’s always so touched by the letters they send him, but he alsoknows that nothing is more important to him than his s/o and theirwell being; and he would never want them to think he could get upsetat them – no matter what they did.

Jaehee :

her s/o knew howrare this dvd of Zen was, and how much Jaehee cherished it; andthat’s why they were even more upset and wary of Jaehee’s reaction

when Jaehee woke upafter hearing a strange sound, she noticed her s/o wasn’t in bed andgot up. As she walked in the living room, she was surprised to seethe scene in front of her; the pastel colored sky could be seenthrough the windows, there was a beautiful bouquet of yellow roses onthe table as well as a tray of pastries, fruits and pancakes, thefamiliar smell of coffee and freshly baked goods wafted around theapartment and sitting on the couch was her s/o.

Before she couldsmile at the sweet attention, she noticed her s/o’s shoulders weretrembling and Jaehee was immediately alarmed at this sight as sheremembered the noise that had startled her; she circled the couch andsaw tears streaming down her s/o’s cheeks as they held broken piecesof a disk in their hands

Seeing this, shedidn’t pay attention to the broken shards and instead worriedlychecked her s/o’s hands for any deep cut or any wound caused from theaccident. After making sure they were unharmed, she gently asked whythey were crying if they weren’t hurt. They guiltily showed Jaeheethe box of the dvd and started apologizing endlessly.

Jaehee was sad asshe looked at the broken pieces of her most prized possession, butshe didn’t think it was bad enough to cry over it and ruin such asweet morning; she gathered the shards and set them aside beforesitting next to her s/o and holding their waist, reassuring them itwas nothing important and that she had made 3 copies of the dvdanyway; she was much more interested in enjoying a deliciousbreakfast with her s/o than watching a dvd she already knew by heart.

Jumin :

Jumin wasn’t one tocare about material things as they could always be replaced; but ifthey had a sentimental value, then it was a different matter and hiss/o could only angrily blame themselves as they stared at the brokenpicture frame on the ground. 

They had accidentally bumped into thesmall table of the living room while they were playing with Elizabethand the frame had fallen to the ground, the glass shattering inpieces and the picture, a photo of V, Rika and Jumin in happiertimes;  had been scratched by the shards and was left with a fewwhite lines over their smiling faces.

Despite their angerand their tears blurring their vision, they cleaned up the glass onthe floor to make sure Elizabeth wouldn’t walk on it but theycouldn’t clean the scratches on the picture and as they thought ofhow irreplaceable this item was, because of how old the picture wasand how precious the memory it held must be to Jumin, they felt evenmore upset with themselves and how powerless they were to fix theirmistake.

Jumin came home fromwork to a crying s/o, holding their head in their hands whileElizabeth looked at them, rubbing her face against their arm as anattempt to comfort them. 

He quickly approached his s/o and before hecould ask why they were crying, he noticed the photo on the table andrecognized it as the one who was always on the small table in thecorner of the room. As he saw the glassless frame on the table andthe scratches on the picture, he could guess what had happenedwithout asking.

With an almost fondsmile, he sat by his s/o and kissed their forehead, laughing a littleat how upset they were for something that didn’t mean much to himanymore. He took their hands in his and told them he had beenthinking of removing the picture, seeing as it brought a bitter tastein his mouth to look at it now, but had never had the courage to doso; that he didn’t want to think of those times any longer and thatif anything, he was happy at the opportunity this gave him to finallyhave a picture of him, his s/o and V on that table, as it would meanmore to him than the older picture ever did.

707 : (post 707’sgood ending I guess? Kinda?)

If they had brokenanything else; one of his figure, or a computer, or his headphones,or even one of his toys; it would have been fine and replaceable andSeven wouldn’t have even cared but no.. They had to break the floppydisk which held the only pictures he had of Saeran. 

They knew hewouldn’t have made a copy on his computer, in fear that someone couldfind them and put Saeran in danger. They couldn’t even blame anyonebut themselves for stepping on it, even though Seven’s house was amess and he had left the floppy disk lying around on the floor, theystill thought they should have been more careful and none of thiswould have happened.

And now they had tosit there, waiting for him to come back because they had no idea howto fix this – if it could even be fixed – and google wasn’treally helping since no one had really tried fixing a floppy disksince the early 2000. This left them even more upset as they startedto doubt that anything could be done about this.

Seven came back halfan hour later, and his s/o – upon hearing the door speak in Arabic– started crying again as their frustration and fear rose again,knowing they had to tell him now what had happened. He walked in andlooked at his s/o, whose eyes were red and puffy, and made anover-dramatic gasp, dropping the box he had in his hands and sprintedto his s/o before letting himself fall on top of them, the couplefalling backwards on the sofa. 

He asked why they were crying and asthey quietly admitted breaking the floppy disk, he answered with asimple ‘I know’ and told them he had seen it on the camera feed onhis phone. He looked to the side and his s/o felt even worse thanthey did before until he smirked and started tickling them, assertingthat their punishment would be to endure the tickle-torture for anindefinite amount of time.

His s/o tried tomake him stop to understand why he wasn’t that affected by the lossof those pictures of Saeran, and he looked mischievously at the boxhe had dropped earlier; running to pick it up, he held with atriumphant smile a dozen of pictures he had just taken with hisbrother, most of them in goofy photobooths where you can add stickersand texts on the pictures, and most of them with a sulking Saeranglaring at a laughing Saeyoung. 

He explained that, after seeing thebroken floppy disk, he had a good excuse to drag his brother with himto take pictures together and that these pictures felt more real thanthe ones of Saeran as a child, because this time, they were together.

#Anonymous #sarah writes #mystic messenger #yoosung kim #zen #jaehee kang #jumin han #707

[pearsonstickseason]

get to know me

okay, so I was tagged by @sowhatshawn to answer these 85 questions and i don't have 20 people to tag so.... also, i did this a couple of days ago, but i'm just now posting it, so.... the last 1. drink: Gatorade
2. phone call: my sister
3. text message: a gc of my friends
4. song you listened to: Halo by Beyoncé
5. time you cried: um I'm pretty sure I cried last night after I got home from the concert
6. dated someone twice: yes....
7. kissed someone and regretted it: I would've had to kiss someone first...
8. been cheated on: nope
9. lost someone special: sadly
10. been depressed: oh boy
11. gotten drunk and thrown up: never been drunk 3 favourite colours 12. blue
13. olive green
14. red, like maroon red in the last year have you
15. made new friends: yeah
16. fallen out of love: i’ve never been in love...
17. laughed until you cried: so many times
18. found out someone was talking about you: I don't think so 
19. met someone who changed you: for the better yes
20. found out who your friends are: yup
21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: um no general
22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: idk most of them
23. do you have any pets: yes! two cats and two dogs!
24. do you want to change your name: nah I quite like my name
25. what did you do for your last birthday: uhhh hang out in a tent on the porch with my sisters while they ignored me and my parents worked and then ended up crying because it was just a bad day
26. what time did you wake up: 11:45
27. what were you doing at midnight last night: I was either on the way home from Shawn's show at the amway center or at Walmart talking to this employee who was lowkey flirting with me and talking to me about the concert when I was half asleep just trying to get some macaroni that's made for children
28. name something you can’t wait for: Shawn's new album shxjsj or the day I finally get to meet Shawn which is not yet known
29. when was the last time you saw your mom: idk like 20 minutes ago
31. what are you listening to right now: the tv (ghost adventures) 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: i have an uncle named Tom but idk if we've ever had an actual conversation before 
33. something that is getting on your nerves: idk you'd have to do it in order for me to realize it
34. most visited website: either tumblr or twitter yikes
35. hair colour: dark brown
36. long or short hair: It's a few inches below my shoulders so idk
37. do you have a crush on someone: yes and he's very very cute, sweet, and funny
38. what do you like about yourself: my personality 
39. piercings: ears
40. blood type: i have no clue
41. nickname: k.k. 42. relationship status: single
43. zodiac: leo
44. pronouns: she/her
45. favourite tv show: the walking dead
46. tattoos: none, but I have ideas
47. right or left handed: right handed
50. sport: softball
51. vacation: *sigh*
52. pair of trainers: idk MORE GENERAL 53. eating: nothing 
54. drinking: nothing
55. I’m about to: bring boxes downstairs and cry because moving sucks
56. waiting for: Shawn's third album
57. I want: Shawn's third album
58. get married: doesn't someone have to love you first 
59. career: writer and psychology are my main plans 
WHICH IS BETTER 60. hugs or kisses: kisses. hugs. kisses. hugs. I DONT KNOW I REALLY LIKE HUGS BUT CHEEK AND FOREHEAD KISSES MAKE MY STOMACH FLUTTER
61. lips or eyes: eyes
62. shorter or taller: taller
63. older or younger: older
64. nice arms or nice stomach: both idk
65. hookup or relationship: relationship
66. troublemaker or hesitant: I'm not good at making decisions fast enough to be a troublemaker so hesitant 
HAVE YOU EVER:
67. kissed a stranger: nope
68. drank hard liquor: nope
69. lost glasses/contact lenses: surprisingly no
70. turned someone down: in like 5th grade yeah
71. sex on the first date: never had a first date, so no
73. had your heart broken: not truly
74. been arrested: nope
75. cried when someone died: of course
76. fallen for a friend: not a close friend, but my current crush is an acquaintance 
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
77. yourself: yup 
78. miracles: ehhhh
79. love at first sight: kind of
80. santa claus: no my parents crushed all my hopes and dreams at the age of 7
81. kiss on the first date: if it feels right and that's where it leads
82. angels: ehh 
OTHER:
84. eye colour: brown
85. favourite movie: dirty dancing or the outsiders

#get to know me #handwrittenmendess

[btsxlami]

📢LISTEN 📢 UP📢 ARMYS📢 HERE ARE 23 UNDERRATED ¿!MORE!¿ RAP MONSTER TRACKS THAT YOU SHOULD ABSOLUTELY TOTALLY POSITIVELY SHOULD CHECK OUT by @btsxlami

Hey guys its your favourite Namjoon promoter here again a.k.a LAMI! My last post got a lot of notes so whoop whoop and included my personal favourite 23 Namjoon tracks which you can find here

Part 2 of my underrated Namjoon series.

Here are 23 more bc damn Namjoon has a lot of fcking songs!

Disclaimers: (HOLD UP IF THIS IS YOUR FIRST TIME SEEING THIS I SUGGEST YOU SEE PART ONE)

1. i will include tracks that Namjoon covered

2. I will include tracks that Namjoon featured in

3. I will include tracks that I personally feel the need to be well known *so no I won’t put expensive girl even tho thats my shit*

4. This list will be a bit more laid back since I covered a lot of the most important songs in the last list sooo

5. since i covered his best and most “important” tracks in the last list theres not many left but ill probably include his REALLY early like pre debut fetus tracks with his underground rapper friends, tbh I personally don’t think they are the best but you can definitely see how he grew and where he started from

6. enjoY! and reblog kekeke

7. THIS IS A LONG ASS LIST AND I FUCKING ANALYZED EACH SONG SO I EXPECT YALL TO READ AND APPRECIATE NAMJOON GODDAMIT

8. you can always go to BTS’s official soundcloud for unofficial official tracks yeet

9. titles with stars are ones i recommend ( i should of done this for part one yikes)

1. Voices by Rap Monster ⭐

from his first 2015 mixtape RM > Check out the full album here >>  X  *you can refer to more mixtape songs in my previous list

I feel as if this song is the closest a fan can get with Kim Namjoon. Just listening to it you feel a bit relaxed and almost a bit sad when you start listening to the first half of the song. This song reflects a person’s tender emotions and voices that run inside of someone’s head when they are confused. I remember listening to this 2 years ago and towards the end Namjoon starts screaming out all his pain and I started crying. C R Y I N G

Namjoon had a really smooth life up until he started pursuing hip hop. He was a beyond smart student and had a happy family so why the hell would he be depressed? He had his whole life ahead of him right?

But this lyrics totally breaks that facade down

 “ I didn’t have any dreams just like my lyrics, every day in that way the functions and equations that couldn’t give me an answer in the end those things became uncountable injuries “

Despite having such amazing grades Namjoon did not know what the hell he wanted to do with his life, he didnt want to go into something academic despite being good at it, he was lost in life and his academics could not make him happy but instead hurt him even more.

“ thought I could catch the mirage known as happiness but the me in front of my desk wasn’t happy even for a moment without my mom knowing, I put a sheet of white paper between the pages of my workbook “

This verse totally broke me apart. He wanted to be happy while being in school but school sure as hell did not make him happy. His parents looked up to him as some smartass freak but without them knowing he started writing his own lyrics to cope with his hardships.

“my identity that I wrote down matched to the drum and bass a different, relaxed feeling compared to when I got my report card even when I was #1 my heart couldn’t relax”

The music brought out his true inner feelings, music brought out his true personality rather than when he was almost robot like studying with no self-identity. Despite being number one in class he still felt an emptiness that only music could fill.

“even as 7 years passed... still making my mixtape by myself in one corner of my room some say I’m fake, okay, I admit it, my dark past I can justify it, but I won’t, so that kind of problem won’t happen again the pedal that I stepped on for 7 years has finally been oiled “

Namjoon has been writing music and tried to get recognition for 7 years, despite Bangtan getting fame he is still lonely writing his own mixtape in a dark corner, kind of pathetic ehh idk, in his mixtape interview his dark past was his problematic sayings and actions. He felt the need to appropriate culture in order to rap. He then figured out that music and culture had nothing to do with eachother, music is for everyone. *I’m fake*

And finally after all the hardships after 7 years he is finally started to receive praise and attention!

2. WE ARE BULLETPROOF PT.1 by: Rap Monster, Supreme Boi, and Iron ⭐

Composed 6-7 years ago when Namjoonie was about 15 or 16 THIS SONG IS FUCKING BOP. 

2 of Bangtans were also first members are featured here: Supreme boi (yall probably familiar with him) and Iron! (i hope iron never affiliates with Bangtan ever again tho we dont need a criminal around them yikes)

3. Hook by Supreme Boi, Iron, and Namjoon (also the track used in Yoongi’s all i do is win)

Extremely old and pre debut, but old is gold

Probably one of Namjoon’s only ‘diss’ song, he usually doesnt diss others while he raps tbvh

4. Seventeen by Rap monster

I FEEL LIKE I SHOULDNT MAKE FUN OF HIM BC 15 YEAR OLD NAMJOON AT THE TIME WAS PROBABLY REALLY PROUD BACK THEN BUT HE LOOKED SO FUCKING FUNNY BC DAMN THAT HAIR AND HIS VOICE SOUNDS LIKE A CHIPMUNK BUTHUSDHUFUFSUD

5. SKOOL OF TEARS By: Rap Monster, Suga, and Jin ⭐

Absoloute MASTERPIECE! FIRST OF ALL THE ORIGINAL TRACK IS FROM SWIMMING POOLS BY KENDRICK LAMAR AND I LOVE KENDRICK! SECOND, THE RAP FLOW SOUNDS AMAZING NAMJOON IS GOING SO HARD AND DAMN YOONGI BACK AT IT AGAIN! ALSO CREDS FOR BABY BOY JIN FOR SOUNDING SO BADASS HERE BUT HERE IS WHY I LOVE THIS SONG!

I think its absolutely amazing how Namjoon especially writes song towards youth suffering in school, it takes a lot of guts to write against a society that has been around for decades. 

“  This is a ring called a classroom This is a stadium with no referee only an audience You know there will never be a victor everyone will lose There will be no victor everyone will lose”

“ That’s right, in the end school is like another mini society A jungle made carelessly by adults They made the weaklings weak, they made the strong powerful Of course since they were strong they made the weak suffer A society built on the teachings that friends are only for pretend The morals of adults made us step on the weak to rise to the top “

Its clear to see that Namjoon has suffered in school but also isnt afraid to address the truth.

6. Expensive girl by Rap Monster 

( I FUCKING DISCOVERED THIS SONG WHEN I WAS LIKE 11-12 AND I NEVER WANTED TO PUT THIS HEAR BUT YALL LIKE FOUGHT ME TO ADD THIS TO THE LIST GODDAMIT I HATE YALL I GOT LIKE HATE MAN OKAY)

“Take it off now girl just take it off (I’m a master, baby with your bra)Take it off now girl just take it off (I can help you slide those panties off)(..I’m a beat that pussy like you never ever felt before)x2″

7. Converse High (original version SUNG by Rap Monster)⭐

Yall probably heard Bangtan’s Converse High but here was the original version written by Namjoon that was rejected bc of the swearing omg damn joonie, BUT HE SINGS SO BEAUTIFUL IN THIS YESS

(funny story in seventh grade when this came out it was the last day of school and i requested my teacher to stay after school late so i could finish listening to the whole thing)

8. Suicide by Rap Monster

Rapmon wrote this mixtape in the point of view of a baby in his mother’s tummy. The baby’s parents are high school kids who are forced to go through abortion.

*this song was deleted bc of copyright and also the source of it is unknown but hey ITS IN ENGLISH AND DAMN NAMJOON RIGHTS DEEP SHIT*

(tf is namjoon doing u good)

9. What am I to you by Rap Monster from the 2014 Dark & wILD ⭐

if you DONT KNOW THIS SONG I SUGGEST YOU RETHINK YOUR LIFE DECISIONS BC LOWKEY HANDS DOWN ONE OF THE BEST INTRO’S TO A OFFICIAL BTS ALBUM (gif is from the live ver of this song and he started crying ok)

So Namjoon used to have a girlfriend who “mistreated” him. Tbvh we really don’t know what happened but on problematic men he said it wasnt anything serious it was just she would neglect him and not spend enough time but also hang out with other men.

(gif aint mine so gif blogs dont come at me)

But clearly the lyrics of this song are very emotional but the real reason why this song is a masterpiece is because of the rise of  emotions.

It starts off slow and cute, Namjoon mentions how he loves the girl and how their love is pure and innocent, throwing cute love phrases and the song sounds so soft, hopeful, and romantic. But in the middle the music starts to get more serious and Namjoon starts to question the relationship. He feels as if the girl thinks of this relationship as more of a task and a job, and slowly as the song comes to an end NAMJOON STARTS FUCKING SCREAMING AND BELTING! ALL THE EMOTIONS BUILD UP AND HE STARTS SCREAMING “WHAT AM I TO YOU GIRL WHAT AM I TO YOU I DO LOVE YOU CRAZY UH DO YOU” LIKE IT WAS SCARY I WAS CRYING IM LIKE NAMJOON WHO TF HURT YOU

10. Always by Rap Monster ⭐

This song is more recent and farely well known but I still felt the need to put this masterpiece here. Namjoon said not to worry about him as the lyrics are really sad and almost ???SUICIDAL??? but he said he wrote this when he was stressed last year. Its kind of a self questioning song about life and your purpose. I cried when it came out. well i always cry when i listen to namjoon is it a surprise.

I'm honestly in tears because this song goes to show how hurt Namjoon still is even after all these years. Even after all these awards, fans, and accomplishments. Depression still hurts after a long time. I can tell that this song was talking about his past. This song literally made me realize Namjoon was questioning his existence and I wanna hold him so badly. Guys...we could of lost Kim Namjoon. My absolute favourite human being in the entire world who saved my life. He is a human being who does not deserve such pain but I am so proud he endured it so well and look how far he came. One of my favourite verses "I live for the sake of understanding this world, but why hasnt the world tried to understand me atleast once" Its a really vague phrase which is why I like it. WORLD could mean destiny, fate, life, even parents.  He tries so hard to accept his life, to understand his parents wishes, sacrificing his own happiness yet fate decides to only give him the worst. "Dad please listen to me" "dead dad, your dead to me," Talking about how his dad wouldn't let him rap. I remember him mentioning that his dad once told him all that education he worked hard for was for nothing and I can’t imagine how sad Namjoon felt in that moment. "I would tell god if I ever meet him, i would hold him by the collar and tell him this life is like a coffee I never ordered" A pretty sad and a bit confusing verse, maybe leading to why Namjoon eventually became an atheist. Namjoon was in so much pain he didnt want to be born. "I wished I was dead...... I wished “Someone would kill me" No Namjoon never utter such words. My joonie mini I hope you are better and hopeful now, look at how far you came, your so successful and loved, and you made your family proud. Dont ever doubt yourself and even think about death, just keep living happily and moving forward. He honestly felt lost in this point of his life and still continues to feel lost. Namjoon you have such in important role and your existence was destined. You were born for a reason. You were born to change lives. 

11.  J-Lim ft. Rap Monster & Iron - Ashes

12. TIPSY BY RAP MONSTER & SUPREME BOI

Namjoon wrote this in the beginning of his rap career when he was still trying to find where he stood as a rapper. He mentions how he isnt doing this for the fame or money and he isnt the next Nas or Tupac he just wants to rap for the love of it.

13.  Rap Monster of 방탄소년단 (BANGTAN),Supreme Boi,i11evn,Marvel.J - You can't do that

*i suggest you skip ahead to 1:30 for namjoon fire verse, shade intended*

14.  RAP MONSTER of 방탄소년단,Suprema,Marvel.J,Kyum2 - Rollin

I also recommend you to skip ahead to 2:40 BC DAMN BOY GOES HARD

But tbvh pre debut namjoon squad (supreme boi , young jeezy, iron are hella problematic and say the n word in this and still do so im like yikes im happy nam left you) “ They pissed, now rape me" bitch whet

yeah im just here for namjoons verse bye

imma mufukin balla on this mufuckin beat spit mufuckin rap on this mufuckin shit got mufuckin skill so im mufuckin phat its mufuckin trick and a mufuckin track i i bet you betta stop stopin da chatter im a rapper man, and i represent BPB im juss so greater than hoes

15. FUCK COCKROACHES BY RAP MONSTER AND ZICO *THIS IS SO FUNNY*

Zico was 15 and RapMon was 13 when they rapped this, Namjoon sounds like a chipmunk BUT ZICO SOUNDS LIKE JIMIN I STG!

16. Rap Monster- Thinking Bout you

Joonie Mini Representing Biggie smalls eyyy!

17. Glory By Rap Monster

"I'm a dick? Yeah, when you disturb me, I grow bigger" SO FUCKING DONE

*there was lowkey lowkey controversy bc he said he tore 4 hymens BUT DETECTIVE LAMI FIXED IT*

 In the beginning Namjoon says that people looked at him pitifully because he joined BTS,  the Underground rappers were disappointed with him which led the Underground rappers to leave him, which has ripped his hymen. Not 4 hymen of random girls. 4 and "I" sound the same in Korean

it's a bit weird but in this case he is talking about himself all the hate people showed has ripped his hymen symbolizing his innocence for music.

18. NAA BY RAP MONSTER

tHE ORIGINAL BEAT WAS DEUCES BY CHRIS BROWN I WAS DYING

19. REGULAR VOICE BY RAP MONSTER ⭐

A really sweet and open-minded song about Namjoon wanting a “regular girl” “Height? I don’t care. Age? I don’t mind it. When you say, “I’ll only look at you” then I’m okay. Whether your skin is light or dark it doesn’t really matter, our love is deeper than that. “

I feel as if idols are pressured to have certain ideal types and say them out in the open, Namjoon had bad influences around him *underground rappers* which also influenced his negative sayings towards certain things but he wrote this song all alone at a young age which shows that his intentions are pure, and ever since he apologized for his wrong doings you go joon.

his voice sounds like sex

20. DREAMING BY RAP MONSTER

FETUS CHUBBY WTF HAIR NAMJOON IS BACK

okay but seriously you can see that despite being young he put a lot of effort and thought into this song!

21.  RAP MONSTER of 방탄소년단 feat.김거덕 - RAP

22.  130305??  THIS TRACK IS UNTITLED BUT IT SOUNDS SO EPIC TF

23. Trouble by Rap Monster 🔞 🔞

OKAY IM BARELY AROUSED BUT THIS SHIT ACTUALLY HAD ME SOAKED IM SORRY GOD LIKE ITS SO SUGGESTIVE I STG 

HIS SEXUAL FANTASIES I STG

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[roses-and-oceans]

So I'm kinda debating writing this out but I decided to anyway. On and off, I've been writing posts about how I'm feeling and then deleting them. Its become sorta cathartic but I just don't seem to do it that often anymore i keep things inside. I wish I can put things under cuts on mobile because gosh darn it I don't want you all to go through a wall of text and it not be a fic. I mean I know every one's going to ignore this and no one cares but hey, I'll give it a go before I fall asleep. Hopefully I feel better after writing this. EDIT:I feel miles better! Honestly I would have never gotten this off my chest if I did not write this. I feel... Undeserving. Undeserving of many things and people. It was an apparent issue, I realized, when I wanted to write fics. I thought I was selfish of me to indulge in something so pleasurable. Just reading fics made me happy but if I also wrote things, then I'd just muck it up and be hunted down like, "hOE DARE YOU. YOU ARE SO SELFISH.WHY" And its not that fic writing is a bad thing!! Its just I'm not allowed. Like everyone can have fun except me because I'm not worth it, I'm not allowed. Why? Goodness knows. I still feel like that sometimes. Like no one will read it, but then there'll be this witch hunt for me, asking for my severed head on a stick. And that's the case for most things. I try to make myself small, quiet. For the sake of not disturbing others, not getting in the way, not ruining things. So that way I don't have anyone hate me. And I guess that's why I'm the way I am. I don't want to be hated. I don't want to be disliked. I mean this modern age its not possible LOL but still I try my best. I make myself moldable and flexible for the sake of others. I try not to breathe around them as much so as to not disturb them. Also another reason why I am the way I am is because I was actually hated when I was younger. I know, "get over it" lmao, and in some cases I am. But being hated by so many people, kids and adults alike... And no one did anything to stop, to see me, to wonder why. Ehh. C'est la vie. I guess the "lessons" forced upon me had stayed. I was taught that I ruin everything, that I was useless, stupid, fat and ugly. And honestly back then I just shrugged and continued reading my books. But I guess I didn't block everything out haha! And so I've always thought I was insignificant. That I was merely here. I've never actually thought about my future, so Ive never gone to college, not really sure what to do career-wise. A lot of friends in high school were like, "yeah everyone had to do this thing for college we went to councilors and and now we're all set! :)" and I was like WAIT WHAT LOL WAS I ABSENT THAT DAY WAS I NOT PAYING ATTENTION WE HAVE THE SAME CLASSES BRUH But I guess I just thought I wasn't worth the extra effort so I really didn't pursue anything I didn't ask questions. Because I thought I wasn't worth it. Thinking about it, its really stupid. Like hello!!! I'm supposed to go out there and get what I want right?? But then I think why? And no answer comes because I don't see myself succeeding. I graduated high school, and right when I left, I had no idea what I wanted to do. I've never thought I'd live a long life. I just don't see it. Like what am I going to be doing??? Not much probs lol. I see myself as a background character, a stepping stone to another ledge. I don't see myself as particularly special. Kinda don't mind it. Like really I'm just here to enjoy food and music and video games until I can't anymore lol. I guess you can say I don't see myself. Also, another reason why I don't think of myself is because I feel I'll get too greedy. I don't want that I am so terrified. I do not want to be entitled and snobby. I'd rather go without so some one else can have things and it's just... Ahhhhhh. I don't want to be greedy. Its a really big fear of mine. I guess I don't talk to anyone about it is because its just so... Frequent. I already have one person who just is sick and tired of hearing it, bless his soul. He has a saint's patience and lord knows its been tested. But I see it getting shorter and shorter and I just revert to making myself seem better, like hi hello yes I am function ing quite well today. I don't think I'm worth the stress. And its not that im talking his ear off and stuff like I'm not like DROP EVERYTHING AND FOCUS ON ME I NEED U TO MAKE ME FEEL BETER. Because I don't think I am he says I don't talk enough. But its whenever I bring up the topic the convo gets shorter and shorter. He's lthe loveliest person he is amazing. He is such a good person!! Just I drive him mad sometimes lol. Im afraid of being manipulative. I don't want that either. I don't want to harm anyone like that but I'm afraid I am. I don't want people or things to cater to me. I think one of the thing that got to me more recently was my birthday. I know, lmao, bitch it was like two months ago get ooovr ittt. Its just. I'm grateful for the good times in between the bad, but it was the most miserable birthday of my life. Things were so chaotic, so heart wrenchingly sad, that I felt I wasn't going to be able to celebrate. Like I felt I was going to be erased. Friends were there, which was really good! Family... Not so much. I guess it comes with being the oldest. Haha I don't think I even had a cake or anything lmao. Honestly I don't care but I had loads of fun with my friends. But i guess its just the fact with everything going on, I was placed in the way way way back. Haha how selfish of me; things come up!!! And its okay!!! Just my birthdays have always been like that and if even the universe is like "nah is just a regular day" then it kinda just sticks to me that my bday isn't really worth it. I also feel like I'm doing everything wrong. Like even though I'm doing everything right, every single thing written down I'm following it to the T, but I'm still failing, still doing things wrong, still not getting any where while everyone is succeeding. And so I will be labeled as an idiot, stupid, useless and hated for it and banished, like I was so long ago. I feel like after reading this, people will actually hate me lol. Like people are like OMG U ARE SO STUPID WTF and just walk away. Like I'll be alone. And I guess?? If that were to happen?? Idk... I have a list of things to remember. Number one is "be kind too myself". HA. I wrote it so I won't feel like this haha, but oh well. Its not working so much anymore. I feel like I'm creating a sob story, like Boohoo bitch you think too much. Eh. Well its getting late and I should sleep. I'm so sorry if anyone has read this mess. Im not looking for pity or anything. Ijust wanted to get this out without disturbing anyone. Well I guess by posting I'll be disturbing... And I promise: I AM OKAY!!!!!!! SRSLY!!!!! if anything its just hormonal, I've been on my period for a few weeks now haha. But if any friends do stubble across this, I'm okay. Just sad and tired. I just need a nap and I'm good. Writnf this was really helpful and I was able to get what I wanted out and if I were to actually talk to someone,I'd probs stop myself and not talk about everything I just did. I wouldn't have gotten this weight lifted off me. If you stuck around haha thank you if not I hope you all have a lovely day. If I don't have a very good day, I hope yours is infinitely better!

#god please don't hate me #about me #hhhhh #I might delete later #idk maybe when I wake up #good night tumblr #not ffxv #I feel like I'm forgetting something but idk what #ahh I'm afraid to post this

[silvurgalaxies]

1-50 ples

Alright due to the length of this, I’m putting it under the cut. I seriously don’t wanna clog people’s dashes! So yeah! Thank you for asking! It was fun to fill out! XD 

Pfft that’s a lot of questions but uhh yeah I’ll do my best for ya! 

1. Your first OC ever? 

My first oc ever was named Hank, he was my sonic fan character I made three years ago. Originally, he was half demon, half dragon. Before I changed him to a half demon half hedgehog. I used him a lot and he’s still going through redesigns now. I still love him, but there’s a lot that needs to be fixed, especially the design and backstory. 

2. Do you have a personal favourite among your OC’s?

Well, that’s like asking to pick between two children. So I love them all equally. There’s certain ones I like using more than others, but as a whole? All of them.

3. Have you ever adopted a character or gotten a character from someone else? 

Yes. A year back I went on an adopting spree. Anchor, Cadmus, Angel, Skyler…all adopted children. But I love them as my own. I don’t adopt characters anymore. Except that one bat Saga designed for me a little while ago which I love. I try to develop them on my own, the design is a stepping stone. Each character has grown since I adopted them. 

4. A character you rarely talk about? 

Andrew is rarely mentioned, as well as Cadmus and Skyler. There’s a lot of characters I have yet to share. Nova as well. Cupid and Cole aren’t mentioned either, I am writing a story with them, but I have yet to post it. 

5. If you could make only one of your OCs popular/known, who would it be? 

Probably Sloth, the human Sloth. I mean, he’s a lazy guy who doesn’t really care about anything, but I feel right now he’s the most developed out of all of the others. 

6. Two OCs of yours that look alike despite not being related? 

Kody and Cupid. Both of them look really similar but they’ve never met ever. Techno and Sloth I’m not including because they were both originally made for AU’s but their human versions are completely different looking. 

7. Are your OCs part of any story or stories? 

Yep. Many of them are running story ideas I’m still working out the kinks for. I want all the characters to be as developed as possible before I move forward. They all live in one universe. And this universe is focused on angels, demons, sins, virtues, and the children of these angels and demons. 

8. Do you RP as any of your OCs? If you do, introduce one of your RP OCs here! 

I’ve used a lot of them! Hank and Kody were the most common until Techno and Sloth replaced them later on. But I use most of them! 

9. Would you ever be willing to give any of your OCs to someone else? 

I would never give them away. They are my children. But if something happened to me, and I wasn’t around to keep them, I only trust two people with them, and that’s Jazz and Saga. 

10. Introduce an OC with a complicated design? 

The most complicated design goes to Techno I hope you’re proud of yourself. Second place goes to anthro Sloth. 

11. Is there any OC of yours you could describe as a “sunshine”? 

Kody. No doubt about it that kid’s always a happy child. 

12. Name an OC that isn’t yours but who you like a lot 

Okay, like there’s a lot. I really, reALLY like Gear. Like, him and Snazz are my favorites. The human versions too. I love their dynamic and they’re both really interesting. I really love Scratch too, he’s great, him and his flames and secret stuffed animal collection, his sister Krystalia too. I’ve always loved the both of them. I also really like Firewall too. Besides that, I just love Cheezedonut’s dutchie, Sunday, he’s adorable. 

I love a lot of people’s characters, especially cause I know they love them too and put a lot of work and love into creating them, which is something I love to see. 

13. Do you have any troublemaker OCs? 

Hank never fails to annoy an entire room. He gets himself into bad situations cause he has a sass problem. He doesn’t know how to shut up. Cadmus is bad too, him and Skyler are bounty hunters, hunting both people and objects for pay. Cupid gets into trouble too, he thinks because he’s a god he can get away with pulling stupid stunts. Angst is the worst, he stirs up trouble wherever he goes. Sloth and his siblings, man those children are all sinners, it’s only natural for all the seven deadly sins to be troublemakers. 

14. Introduce an OC with a tragic backstory 

Hmm. A lot of them do sadly. The universe I put them in is kind of an unhappy place. I think human Sloth or Techno wins for this. 

15. Do you like to talk about your OCs with other people? 

In real life, I typically do not. I have a friend who does and that’s all she talks about sometimes. I tend to keep it low, not a lot of people know about my characters. On the internet or Skype I could go on for days. But I don’t want to annoy anyone with my talk of them. 

16. Which one of your OCs would be the best at biology (school subject)? 

Andrew. Guy’s an alchemist, ehh sorta. He’s the most intelligent out of everyone. He’d do the best in school. I’d say Cole, but Cole doodles all over his notebooks and doesn’t do homework as often. 

17. Any OC OTPs? 

I mean…Nate x Genesis, Techno x Gear, Sloth x Snazzy, Andrew x Angelica, and Cole x Cupid are what I got going right now. Possible Cadmus x Skyler but I don’t know if that’s gonna be a thing. 

18. Any OC crackships? 

Sloth x Techno, by far. It’s the funniest in human form cause they freaking hate each other a lot. Andrew x Hank, the both also hate each other.

19. Introduce an OC that means a lot to you (and explain why) 

Hank is the first character I ever made, and I can never let him go. He meant a lot to me while in middle school, and he’s still here, hanging out. I will never get rid of him. 

20. Do any of your OCs sing? If they sing, care to share more details (headcanon voice, what kind of songs they like etc)? 

Nate can play the guitar, and he writes his own music. When Angst was still sane he could play the bass and sing. Kody plays a mean kazoo him and Sloth have a band they’re going places, they are both masterful kazoo players. 

21. Your most artistic OC 

Cole. Stop drawing in your notebooks. He wins. He’s the most artistic. Techno is as well actually, his form of art is building or tinkering. He doesn’t share it that much cause he can be a little embarrassed of his creations. 

22. Is there any OC of yours people tend to mischaracterize? If yes, how? 

I mean not really right now from what I’ve noticed? Idk. 

23. Introduce OC that has changed from your first idea concerning what the character would be like? 

Techno went from a meme, to a meme with a backstory, to a fandom monitor, to his own AU, to a legitimate human, to a human with a demon parshally possessing him, to a demon hunter. Oh yeah I forgot to mention Techno is a demon hunter as a human, he’s mainly doing it for revenge. It flipped when he got stuck with Sloth. 

24. If you could meet one OC of yours, who would it be and why? 

I feel like Sloth would be the most reasonable. I would love to meet Kody! He’s adorable! But I would want to meet them all. 

25. The OC that resembles you the most (same hobby, height, shared like/dislike for something etc?) 

Ehh personality wise? Nova was designed to be a mascot. I never showed him. Techno is pretty close. We’re both awkward potatoes. 

26. Have you ever had to change your OC’s design or something else about them against your will? 

Techno’s change was a choice for me, cause of a Tumblr!Sans already made. But I’m glad I changed him. It was never against my will. Look at him now! He’s gotten farther than I ever thought he would. 

27. Any OCs that were inspired by a certain song? 

Hank was inspired by the song, “What I’ve Done” by Linkin Park. The rest were just random as heck. 

28. Your most dangerous OC? 

Sloth is the most dangerous, when he actually does something, it’s extremely powerful. 

29. Which one of your OCs would go investigate an abandoned house at night without telling anyone they’re going? 

Hank would do it. You go Hank. And then Kody would follow him. 

30. Which one of your OCs would most likely have a secret stuffed animal collection? 

….Cadmus would. 

31. Pick one OC of yours and explain what their tumblr blog would be like (what they reblog, layout, anything really) 

Sloth runs an asethetic blog where he posts pictures of peanut butter with filters and then he reblogs pictures of feathers. He doesn’t let anyone know this blog exists. Techno’s blog is just all over the place but really organized. He’d reblog pictures of machinery, lots of gear pictures too. 

32. Which one of your OCs would be the most suitable horror game protagonist and why? 

Oh jeez. I’d say Cole for this one. He’s the most ‘normal’ out of everyone. 

33. Your shyest OC? 

Kody or Cole. Probably Cole. If Kody is with Hank he’s really calm and friendly to new people. 

34. Do you have any twin characters? 

Andrew has a twin sister named Victoria. But they don’t see each other very much.

35. Any sibling characters? 

Hank and Angst are half brothers. Andrew and Victoria are twins. Human!Sloth has six “siblings”, and he’s the middle child. Human!Techno has a younger sister. Maple has four siblings, each one representing a season. 

36. Do you have OC pairs where the other part belongs to someone else (siblings, lovers, friends etc)? 

Oh hell yeah! We got Nate and Genesis (belongs to @krystalia-productions), Techno and Gear, and Snazzy and Sloth! (Snazzy and Gear belong to @alternativesaga) and now we got Sin and Flowriel (belongs to @marshiemonarch) 

Pairing characters is so fun!! I love it!! 

37. Introduce an OC who is not quite human 

Literally all of them except for Cole and Nate. I’m planning on converting Nate to a human pretty soon, cause right now he’s a sonic oc still ahah. 

38. Which one of your OCs would be the best dancer? 

Nate is really good at dancing. Anything related to music he’s pretty good at ahah. 

39. Introduce any character you want 

Name: Cupid 

Age: ageless

Gender: Male

Basic Description: He was a god who just awakened one day, his job is to ensure that people do fall in love, without him to do his job, no one would fall in love with each other. But what happens if his arrow misses and hits the wrong person? He’s also a smart alec he thinks he can get away with anything. He loves screwing with people’s love lives. 

40. Any fond memories linked to your characters? Feel free to share! 

All of them have their own memories, to be honest seeing them just makes me happy. Each one has a story about how I created or came up with them, and thinking about that too is cool. 

41. Has anyone drawn fanart of your OCs? If yes, maybe show a picture or two here (remember sources & permissions!) 

OMG YES AND I SCREAM WITH JOY WHENEVER THEY DO. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY WHEN I GET THEM I JUST GET REALLY HAPPY AND EVERYONE IS JUST REALLY TALENTED IN TERMS OF ART AND I JUST HHHH.

42. Which one of your OCs would be the most interested in Greek gods? 

Greek gods? In that case, Cupid. I mean…he technically is one. Or Cole, he likes Greek gods a lot. ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

43. Do you have any certain type when you create your OCs? Do you tend to favour some certain traits or looks? It’s time to confess 

Most of them are male boy teenagers with a very similar haircut and always wear sweatshirts. Okay no I’m sorry. But most of them aRE MALE. ARGH. 

44. Something you like about your OCs in general 

EVERYTHING. I legitimately love them all and everything about them. They aren’t perfect which is something I love about them! 

45. A character you no longer use? 

Shade the Wolf, Nightmarestar, and a fricking ton of warriors OCs (like Leafstone omfg and Fastfoot holy frick xD)) 

46. Has anyone ever told you that you treat your OCs badly? 

No. Not yet. Maybe for backstories but no, no one has ever said that. 

47. Has anyone ever (friendly) claimed any of your OCs as their child? 

If it counts, @krystalia-productions has claimed Sloth. Okay no I’m joking Sloth literally lives with you. 

48. OC who is a perfect cinnamon roll, too good for this world, too pure 

Kody. The purest. 

49. Which one of your OCs would most likely enjoy memes 

Techno dabbed so hard once the universe was created. True story. 

50. Give me the good ol’ OC talk here. Talk about anything you want

They’re all trash bags but I love them all. Yep. I dunno what else to put here. 

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i had to turn on my laptop just to copy/paste this all. im putting it under a cut to spare any innocent followers

also you cheeky fuck lol

1. What’s your darkest kink?

completely being dominated. few get the chance or the honor tho

2. How many people have you had sex with?

one. we were together for a long while so i never got the chance.

i might be changing that before long

3. What the most times you’ve ever orgasmed in one night?

i honestly dont know but this did remind me of an embarrassing story lol

4. What’s your favorite sex position?

it really depends on my mood :3

5. Describe the best sex you’ve ever had.

i was drunk, in a mood all day, and accidentally gave a hickey above the collar. his boss gave him shit for it but he couldn’t get me back cause he cant give them (which is a shame)

6. Have you ever had a one night stand?

never had the chance

7. Describe your most desired fantasy.

see #1

8. Describe your darkest fantasy.

see #7

9. What’s your sexiest feature?

ive been told i have a really nice ass

10. Have you ever been to a strip club?

most the decent ones around here you have to be 21, i hear. they dont really seem like my scene tho

11. Where’s the best place to have sex?

where the mood strikes. just lock the doors

12. Where’s the craziest place you’ve had sex?

the living room. in my defense, there were at least 2 other ppl in the house, and it had a walk-in policy. there was a decent risk of someone showing up

but this did lead to an amusing conversation that went something like “what if your dad walks in?” “then ill sit up and say ‘dad im busy, get out!’”

13. Where would you like to have sex, but haven’t yet?

location isnt a big thing for me

14. If you could have sex with one celebrity, who would it be?

ive never really had celeb crushes. i identified as ace until not long ago (im open to giving chances, but im picky about who ill show interest in first)

15. What sounds do you make during sex?

oh, golly. depends how much fun im having

but its not that breathy-ass shit in porn

16. Are you loud during sex?

see #15

17. Describe the outfit you feel sexiest in.

do partial ones count? i like just not having a shirt. cargo pants, skinny jeans, whatever. just without a top.

18. What’s your favorite punishment?

never been punished. ex was a puss lol

19. What’s your favorite position for spanking?

never really had positions for it. i like being grabbed more

20. Do you like to have/leave marks?

yes

21. What’s your favorite thing to clamp nipples with?

never done that

22. How long have you denied/or been denied an orgasm?

0 seconds

23. Have you ever had sex in a “dungeon”?

nope

24. Are you into bondage?

mmmyeah

25. What is your favorite thing to do for aftercare?

never really been in the scene enough to know much about that

26. What’s your favorite thing to tie up or be tied up with?

ive only used cuffs & ties. i liked the latter better

27. Are you a Dom or a Sub? Would you ever consider being a switch?

im a sub but if im in a really big mood i can switch

its a strong expression of desire not to be taken for granted

28. Do you prefer gags or blindfolds?

never used either but blindfolds might be cool

29. Have you ever had a threesome?

no despite a long ass time with someone who wanted nothing more and wouldnt shut up until i put my foot down that i wasnt comfortable with that unless i had gotten close to the other person one-on-one first

30. How often do you masturbate?

maybe like once a month?? but tat was when sex was readily available. id much prefer the real thing

31. What’s your favorite thing to masturbate to?

just whatever does it that time

32. What’s your favorite kind of porn?

i dont rlly watch enough to have a fave

33. What’s your favorite porn website?

dont have one

34. Who’s your favorite porn star?

same as above

35. Would you ever consider doing porn?

it really depends on specific context

36. At what age did you start masturbating?

lmao 18

37. Have you ever been caught masturbating?

nope 

38. Have you ever masturbated to a ridiculous video or story then thought “what the fuck did I just do?“

…

39. Phone sex or Camming?

never done either but im not big on taking care of myself for someone else

40. Do you believe in aphrodisiacs?

i havent read enough on them. ig if theres food that can help you be less depressed, there could be food that helps ur libido

41. What’s you biggest turn on?

biting around/on my hips/waist

42. What’s your strangest turn on?

probably the same thing, considering im not into oral and otherwise having a head down there bothers me

43. What’s your favorite sex toy?

i have none

44. Do you prefer your sexual partner to be older than you, or younger?

idc if theyre a little older/younger, as long as theyre close to my age

45. Have you ever broken up with someone because the sex was bad?

no but id totally tell an ex that to piss em off cause im a petty fuck

46. Have you ever posted nudes on tumblr?

nope. ive thought about doing the topless tuesday but ehh

47. What’s your favorite sex blog? (I’m sure it’s his-precious-kitten…but on the odd chance that it’s not…)

not really into those things

48. What’s your favorite pet name?

not necessarily a sex thing, but anything that feels strong like “darling,” “my love”

49. Do you prefer vaginal sex or anal?

never tried full-on anal but what i did try hurt too much to feel good

50. Do you prefer pussies all natural, bald, triangle, landing strip…?

whatever shes into and feels confident with mayn

51. What song would you most like to have sex to?

i like those with the feeling i get (not traditional ones) but this reminded me one time we were getting busy, youtube playlist going, next song came on and it was bring me to life and when i looked up, it wasnt like a lyric video or the official one but fucking luigi and i almost died then and there

52. Have you ever had shower sex?

yes. it was difficult  but fun

53. At what time of day are you the horniest?

i dont have a time of day but i accidentally went off my birth control for a bit and in the proceeding week i could barely function. ive been telling myself that was the reason.

54. Girls: What is your bra size?

34b, perfect hand size. sometimes they just make good rests to just hold

55. Girls: Describe your favorite pair of panties.

theyre a teal with a darker blue lace. the back kinda has a sheer part that reminds me of stain glass windows??

56. Girls: Do you ever go out not wearing panties?

nah not into that thing. you could tell me something is meant to be worn without and id be like “nah fuck that”

57. Girls: Can you get off from clit stimulation alone?

ig?? but whats the fun in that??

58. Girls: Can you get off from penetration alone?

who would do that

59. Girls: Do you use birth control or condoms?

i prefer both because i would not be able to handle nine months sober followed by hours of excruciating pain. or getting stds.

60. Girls: What’s the strangest thing that’s ever been inside your pussy?

just a marker. im not lookin to fuck myself up

but my ex is a major whovian with several sonic screwdrivers and at one point he made a joke to which i responded “if you wanted to use that on me you shouldve said something” which made everyone freak out lol

61. Girls: Do you spit or swallow?

never sucked. always had a rise of anxiety prior

62. Subs: Would you rather have a Master, a Dom, or a Daddy Dom?

idk if theres that much a difference between the first two but if i so much as hear an utterance of “daddy” i instantly become dry as the sahara

63. Littles: Describe your favorite stuffie.

n/a

64. Boys: What is your penis size?

n/a

65. Boys: Are you circumcised?

n/a

66. Boys: Do you prefer having sex without a condom?

n/a

67. Boys: Do you prefer oral or vaginal sex?

n/a

68. Doms: Do you believe in aftercare?

n/a

69. Doms: Would you rather own a slave, a sub, or a little?

n/a

lord this took forever i hope ur happy lol

#grown up talk