#idk what to tag this as I just hope ppl see it

[luck-of-the-drawings]

[<==PREV PAGES] [NEXT PAGE==>(not out yet.wait a year.or maybe more.imagine.]

saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS #REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT #NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS #THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS. #ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of #another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY.. #i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her #idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had #when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them. #but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore. #but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think #i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow. #ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that #AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE #I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME #THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE #WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL #in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad #this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks- #-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl- #-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi #gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show #i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!! #anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM

[tourettes-swag-tournament]

tourette's swag tournament

a tournament to decide who has the most tourettic swag <3 definitely based on all the other nd & such swag polls <3

what is tourette's? a neurological tic disorder. tics are sudden twitches, movements, or sounds that people do repeatedly. tics are something people with ts cannot control <3

rules:

this competition is limited to fictional characters! no real people!

the character does not canonically need to have ts because... then we wouldn't actually have much to go off lol

use vibes to nominate! characters that have tourettic traits!

i will not be accepting any s.outh p.ark or m.inecraft-streamer-type characters. s.outh p.ark isn't Great rep and the streamer thing is confusing for me personally lol

ngl to y'all i will be including a few characters that i personally hc with ts and i just. i will be including them. very important to me.

submissions will be open for a week, until march 26th

submit your nominations here!

#hi friends #i caved #everyone see my ts hcs i am proud of them <3 #i was going to just do one on my personal account but i didn't have enough for a bracket:( like i had Enough but the numbers didn't match:( #aNYWAYS HI I HOPE THIS IS FUN AND IT WORKS OUT!!! ik ts isn't like. something a lot of ppl tend to hc but. feelings. #if the world won't give me rep then i'll do it myself thanks <3 #i Think the link worked lol #tourette's syndrome #tourettes #actually tourettic #tournament #idk what else to tag #lol

[eff-plays]

It's rly wild that I can't write fic without first combing through the source material just to make sure I don't get the dialogue wrong, while others just see a character they like, don't play the game, and learn about them through fandom osmosis and then write the fic anyway.

I guess it depends on what sort of fic you're writing. I could be worse and actually try to get things right based on Forgotten Realms lore, I suppose, but I can't even imagine writing fic about a thing I don't know at personally, at least on a somewhat casual level.

#idk what to tag this as lmao #but yeah i've seen multiple fics where the writer goes 'i haven't played the game so i hope i got this right!' #and more power to you but that couldn't be me #but also i see ppl do heavy research and try to get the lore just right and keep notes and stuff and yeah #couldn't be me either #this isn't a diss at anyone or anything #just pondering #sometimes i do wish i gave even less of a shit tbh #i feel like i'd have more fun with it that way #but naur ... i set my own arbitrary standards and won't let myself chill unless i reach them #womp womp #personal

[dandyshucks]

HAIIII DANDY I LOVE SEEING UR ART ON MY DASH SO MUCH UR ART STYLE IS SO COOL AND UR SHIP WITH GUZMA IS ADORABLE WAAA

SOBS THANK YOU NICK WAUHHHH this is so kind ( ╥ω╥ )♡ i really appreciate it WAUGH !!!

also you caught me at a good time :3 I had my sketchbook out when u sent this and was just trying to figure out what to draw, and I remembered you saying how u wish u had more pics of Aiden so ,,, I did a lil doodling of ur guys (۶•̀ᴗ•́)۶—̳͟͞͞♡

here's an Aiden and a Kylar for you !!! i hope these are okay !!! ^^;;

i appreciate u sm and u are always a delight to see on the dash !!

#hopefully this is a nice lil surprise for u in the morning !!! #ALSO I PUT KYLAR IN HIS BATTLE JACKET BC THAT WAS SO COOL TO SEE A FEW MONTHS AGO #AND THEN I REALIZED IDK WHAT THE FRONT LOOKS LIKE SO I JUST SCRATCHED SOME VAGUE PATCHES ON THERE SBDJSKSL HOPEFULLY ITS OKAY LOL #AWAUUHHH i hope i did alright w these fbdkl i get nervous abt drawing other ppls OCs and other beloveds sbdjskl #but i want to start doing it for ppl so here was the perfect timing and opportunity to do so >:3 #ANYWAYS NICK UR SO COOL UR GUYS ARE SO COOL I LOVE UR ART SM !!! YELLS AND FLAILS !!! #asked and answered #dandy.cmd #doodlebug.png #I DUNNO WHAT TO TAG THIS ALL WITH FHDKDL #others self ships #hmmm yes I think that works ! I'll fix it in the morning if i decide to tag it differently djdksl

[dearedwardteach]

twitter and tiktok lgbts seriously need to learn to shut their fucking mouth and get educated on shit before they open it I am dead serious queer theory is not a fucking toy you can pull out as you please everytime something doesn't agree with you personally godddddd

#yes this is about the bury your gay/queerbaiting drama surrounding the ofmd season finale #but its also about what happened to that poor boy who plays in heartbreaker #ppl dont owe you shit #tv shows dont we you shit except for a good storyline and characters staying true to themselves and/or their character arc #just because you dont like something doesn't mean it has to be morally wrong / made into something that's not safe and needs to be cancelle #or whatever other dumbshit idea your social media riddled brains are producing #queer theory is not a toy for you to play with #why do you think we have medias with so many queer characters today huh? not bc u were on twitter 20 years ago cancelling medias that didnt #BUT BECAUSE QUEER AUTHORS THEORISED HOW OPPRESSION TRANSLATED INTO MEDIAS WE HAD ACCESS TO! #BECAUSE THEY PUT FORWARD CONCEPTS THAT ALLOWED US TO SEE QUEERPHOBIC PATTERNS AND BRING THEM TO LIGHT! #EVERYTIME YOU USE THOSE CONCEPTS JUST BC YOUR SORRY ASS WASNT HAPPY WITH THE DIRECTION A SHOW TOOK #TO MAKE IT A MORAL PROBLEM #YOU UNDERMINE THEM! YOU UNDERMINE THE TOOLS WE HAVE TO ACTUALLY BRING TO LIGHT QUEERPHOBIC PATTERNS IN MEDIA! #GOD WHY IS IT SO HARD TO UNDERSTAND YOU DUMB BRAINWASHED MORONS #our flag means death #ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd discourse #izzy hands #idk how to tag this for ppl who dont want to see the drama so i hope this is enough #bury your gays #queerbaiting #queer theory #god i am pissed off. #heartstopper #sorry my bad

[daz4i]

oh my god earlier this week i was talking to my mom abt how i used to constantly feel bad even at elementary school despite having good grades and not having social issues or mental illnesses yet (undiagnosed autism aside). and she really helped me crack the code by saying "yes you always came home angry about (kid in my class) getting better grades than you in math or (friend) being better than you in english even though you knew she is american" and then it clicked. i was simply always a jealous competitive annoying little bitch who has to be the best and most specialest at everything or i may as well die

#this isn't even the result of being raised in a certain way. beyond praising me for being smart my parents really tried their darnest - #- to inspire me to be mediocre and not crash over being less than perfect #i was literally born this way...... god damn #it's a bit annoying. bc it's one of my biggest issues and why i have trouble in almost every field #(as in. socially. creatively. educationally when i was still at school) #how the fuck does one even unlearn that shit if you're born with it... that's like the only constant thing about my personality... #>:( god dammit #vent #kinda???? #is it??? idk!!!!! #i will say it does ig. best way to put it in english. make me despair to think about #bc if it's an inherent part of me and it brought me so much pain for literal decades now. what hope even is there. yknow? #idk how people function like that like i see ppl talk abt this sort of thing but they just keep going?? #i genuinely shut down when i am less than perfect. that's kind of why I'm so stagnant all the time. also why i wanna die constantly #bc like what is even the point of living like this. this is meaningless. i may as well be dead and achieve the same results #well now it IS a vent so it's a good thing i put that tag there. but I'll also add #negative //

[blueish-bird]

sorry if I don’t remember your name or conversations/experiences or basic things about myself, every few weeks my brain gets factory reset and I have to relearn how to be alive

#lighthearted but also serious bc what is going on here buddy #been feeling weird as hell these past few months #like I can remember some stuff… but it doesn’t feel normal to forget the names of anyone I haven’t seen/heard the name of in a few days #or forget about basic interests and personality traits and experiences and feel like a blank slate every day #idk like ultimately life goes on and I’m happy to live in the moment but it would be nice to understand why my brain is doing this #just thinking #meposting #I think my brain just. does this sometimes when I’m stressed. which is annoying #I recall (lmao) feeling similar during earlier parts of life so this isn’t *new* it’s just unexpected and much more disruptive as an adult #I’m feeling better about it than I was. after like. acknowledging it. bc my mind has not always felt like a sieve it isn’t always this bad. #whatever #I’ll tag as dissociation just in case it’s related/reminiscent and ppl don’t want to see that #dissociation #me and her go way back… haven’t seen each other in years though #she wasnt all bad! coping mechanisms can provide relief and a sense of safety #and as far as coping mechanisms go it’s not the most unhealthy. though it ranks high in ‘socially stunting’ #I kind of miss the distance sometimes to be honest everything’s just So Much all the time #I’m so solid now #so stuck in the ruts of capitalism #fuck capitalism #I wish my imagination didn’t feel so dulled #sorry I love talking #and I don’t miss dissociation when I feel mentally present because I feel so Here with the people and things I love but rn? #it’s like a lose-lose bc I am not Here nor am I untethered. I’m heavy yet hold nothing #I enjoy being dramatic/poetic about it — I feel pretty fine. I just hope this isn’t a permanent and/or long-term state of existence. #like it makes me awful at my job I went from remembering a solid amount of the student body’s names (built up over a few years) to. like 5. #overnight it felt like. like Stressful Thing happened and I went to work and I couldn’t remember anyone’s names. #can’t believe I have to start from fucking scratch AGAIN I’d be better off quitting and working at a different school #bc at least then my lack of knowledge/remembering is justified rather than strange and seemingly rude #I’m getting better now but at the beginning of this it was blue screen in my brain all the time

[correct-bangtannies]

I don't even like men and I'm somehow already a military wife, what goes on

PS. Don't open the tags unless you want a big ass wall of text of me rambling on your screen

#hit #im just honestly so glad that I've become a lot more chill with the whole being an army thing #in the sense that i used to be a lot more attached and hyped over everything #i do still get very hyped and i do still have an attachment to them n their work but y'know just more toned down #(i mean i remember the days of staying up all night to watch award shows knowing damn well they'd always perform last) #(mma 2018 was an emotional rollercoaster like i legit cried a little from the tiredness and being overwhelmed with the performance) #so im glad im a lot more calm about the enlistment news than what i would've been say three years ago before they started to #take longer breaks and eventually announce the hiatus this year #it's like they did it in purpose so that the fandom would grow a bit more used to it n im glad to see that a huge majority are very calm #many are sad ofc but its not being treated as some kind of horrific news #if anything ppl are coping with humor including me lmao #so idk im mostly just happy for them that they're taking their VERY well deserved break before doing their service #i just hope everything goes well and is decently peaceful (as peaceful as enlistment can be at least lol) for them once they're there #now why am i rambling in the tags? bc i need to put my thoughts in order but i don't wanna clog my blog with a long ass wall of text 💀 #I'm at least relieved to know that they already have a set plan of when they're going to go and return + BH is sure af gonna keep putting #out a lot of content that they've filmed over all these years #i mean run bts; documentaries; probably even music and ofc not all of them are gonna go at the exact same time #and ofc stuff related to the HYYH and Chakho #them being absent won't as hard for most hopefully #and hey 2 years aint nothing ive waited far longer for stuff to come out than that we'll be fine! #*cries in silksong and the YOI movie

[undervaluedagent]

Man I hate tumblr sometimes

#undervalued files #someone blocked me for reblogging abt transandrophobia again that's pretty stupid no? #honestly convinced that a lot of ppl who are against the usage of transandrophobia just know fuck all about it or anything else #like okay being shitty abt transfems in the name of transmasc advocacy is obviously shitty #that's an arguement i see frequently against transandrophobia #but like just using the word doesn't do anything to transfems and just talking abt our experiences doesn't either #if you're against the term itself because ''androphobia'' means that men can be oppressed #then idk what to tell you aside from stop worrying about words discourse #AND GO THE HELL OUTSIDE #hope this doesn't show up in any random tags on accident #rant

[inkats]

Ahem. Realization that I’m reverting back to sixth grade -> thinking about the state of sixth grade. Hm. I might not be doing too well right now. Or maybe I am doing well and getting better I am just comfortable in the misery?

#My parents were separating (they got back together. Unfortunately.) and I wasn’t. I didn’t feel bad about it I think. I was very okay? Idc #But it was all aphmau mysme anime (fairy tail i love you~) #(side note you see how aphmau caused me to be like this? I got into mysme from that time she introduced katlyn to it in my street. #and fairy tail from the gray stuff she had going on. It was the beginning.) #Which some might say. Not amazing a lot of escapism #and it was like. A lot of change and stuff. And my parents being weird keep it in the family types meaning for a good while I was like this #is illegal to talk about with my friends. So. #I was stressed a bit I would imagine. #and now I’m all holy shit I’m almost done highschool i have to start applying to unis in less than a year I’m going to die. #and guess what? Aggressively back into that escapism. #hm. Hm. Well. #idk I don’t got a thesis. #should I tag this with #vent #? #maybe. just in case #K gn also pls recommend memoirs I really do love them they give hope and love. I need stories about real ppl who made it <3 thank you.

[space-prophet]

Rant in tags do not clown

#boom- gay #ok. ill say it. steddie doesnt have any chemistry at all. i legit can not see it. it feels like the newest mash too hot guys together ship. #if you like it thats cool and i hope you have fun with it but what???? they have like q handful of conversations and none of them seem like #'flirting' like everyone in the tag is saying. stg we have to take the word queer bating away from u people bc youll use it anytime a ship #isnt canon that you like. sherlock? queer bating for sure. stranger things??? u have robin but shes wlw so no one cares much beyond #complesionist shipping ronance. the top ships in this fandom (aside from byler which isnt queer bating its queercoding will jesus christ) #are like steveXbilly and steveXeddie aka the hot guys everyone wants to fck for thier own weird gratification. what if it was murry and hop #huh?? two middle aged traditionally unattractive men who had arcs abt being gay? what if it was lucas who came ojt and realized he loved #like idk some random kid at school it kinda feels like the love for solangelo but worse bc stedi not even together and have satisfying arcs #im just tired of shipping culture and the wierd gaze fans have towards hot white boys who they can put in mlm ships. i want ugly gays. i #want a well crafted story like wills where its obvious he's figuring himself out. i dont want steve and eddie to out of nowhere in a time #and place where theyve never even taken time to think over or adress thier sexuality to like make out in a situation #wherw thier main focus is to look after thier very-young-child-friends. it would not be a well crafted or #compelling narritive for anyone. i hate #i hate straight ppl writing in queer ships for fetishistic gazes. you want well written queer rep in stranger things #we have robin and will- will whos arc this season was abt tackling his feelings for mike through body acting and subtlety- smthng #yall cant handle i guess #and robins queerness is adressed this season as well very very openly multiple times. stranger things is not abt queer life but it tries to #be respectfully inclusive. not every show can faithfully and respectfully be heartstopper or ofmd and st has never had that intention. #in fact it needs more diversity in other areas first i think. #anyways if ypu like stedi fr fun thats fine but some ppl have been so fuckin insane abt it that its made u lose your minds!!! i get it i #ship byler and elmax (potential ellumax) but im not expecting them to beome canon bc the show is truing to explore other things at the mome #nt. that is not queer baiting and the duffers are not evil for having a different plan for thier show #idk i only got q few hours of sleep cut me some slack for being ungraceful. #tldr: have fun shipping but dont be like thatTM when you know that youre blowing things out of proportion #sending the duffer brothers fucking threats for queer baiting will make them not want to be inclusive for fear of the tumblrrnas sherlockin #shit up #personal

[13taylorswifts]

I genuinely liked the Chibnall era. Could it have been gayer imo? Yeah. But I actually like the timeless child arc. But people talk about the chibnall era/timeless child arc like it was the worst thing to happen to doctor who. Like, do you have a short memory? Do you remember the weird cringey shit that Moffat would have 11 do? Or sometimes 12?

#one thing imparticular that comes to mind is that time 11 was apparently naked around clara's family? what even was that #it just bothers me some parts of the moffat era....it was like. creepy. at times #and your biggest complaint is that the doctor was adopted and didnt have a great parent? #like there are worse parts of dw #and jodie's era is my fave tbh #not putting this in the dw tag cause....no. but. idk. wanted to get some thoughts out #like!!! #with rtd back now #he likes the timeless child arc #so im sure he will acknowledge it and then be like ooh nice #and ppl are just not caring about the timeless child arc rn #and idk talking to other people that also like the timeless child arc and the chibnall era would be cool #like were there parts of the chibnall era that were lackluster? sure. but not near as bad as the moffat era wtf is that #and there's parts of the rtd era i am v critical of so i hope his writing has improved #13 is MY doctor im claiming her lol #also seeing more of the renegade doctor would be cool hope we get more backstory on her at some point maybe? time will tell ig #not coming at anyone just my thoughts lol

[nagmaskarangungo]

Oh Don't Mind Me Just Popping Back In Here After Not Being Here For Quite A While Lol

/half joking

Tag Rant Incoming!

#uhhh... hi? i guess? #hope any of you are doing fine since the last time i was here #i kinda just needed to give myself some time away #mostly bc i started developing some kind of dashboard fomo #& also bc i was kinda reflecting abt what i've been doing here #*mostly abt my ethics here (though most of the time it ended up... not being productive in a mental sense)* #& also bc i started to worry abt acting overly familiar to some of the ppl i follow #didn't want to be THAT kind of parasocial #as well as some personal shit i'm not willing to talk abt here (don't worry it's nothing too awful but it's still terrible) #i'm not very good w/ words but this seems adequate for me #Anyways! i'm somewhat fine (though i feel like i still need to deal w/ shit irl sometime) #& i'm slowly getting around to the whole Being On This Website deal again #(though hopefully w/ a more sustainable & healthier way than last time) #(hopefully but we'll see) #that's abt all i wanted to say rn #also to the mutual who checked in on me in my messages. i appreciate you doing that even though we don't really interact much #I know i didn't reply but i really do appreciate it. Thanks! /gen #babble on the tower #i think i might change that tag later (or not idk) #dnrb #just in case ppl out there don't know: dnrb = Do Not ReBlog

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

welcome to a new episode of "crisis", today about researching inattentive adhd and trying to find out whether you're being rational or trying to find excuses-

#like i literally cannot tell if i just desperately try to fit into those symptoms so i can research a lil more #or even talk to my parents about it (i mean my mum already suggested maybe seeing a psychologist or sumn?) #or if im just having problems bc information comes really easily to me so i never had to learn to Learn shit so now idk how to study #and i just need more self discipline. and tryna find excuses #im looking at these Common Symptoms and im simulataneously hoping to find myself in there and also hoping so badly that not #welcome to the new struggle in a bonus episode: do neurotypical ppl think so hard abt this? is it just puberty?? Am I Neurotypical??? #i cannot tell and its currently driving me mad im sorry #i just need to vent somewhere #a biscuit's rambles #and i dont think my irls would get it #like i SAID i dont wanna self diagnose and just look that places for solutions to my problems but. BUT #idfk anymore #or with stimming. i think im doing that? but idk if ive just let my impulses take over bc Tumblr Influence (it rly does affect my mindset) #or if its like. idk. you know what i mean #CANT THERE BE AN EASY WAY TO KNOW IF YOURE ND OR NOT??? #i just. i just wanna know. FUCK now im way too deep into this shit again #these tags are so fucking long lmao #help :') #ANYWAY dyknow how i got back into this crisis? fanfic blorbo with adhd got to me LMAO #anyway. sorry to everyone who had to see this #im just a confused something #also please make puberty illegal i cannot tell what im feeling anymore ever

[thewickerking]

OK SO. EPIC WIN! SOUND HAS CEASED!! its on and off and idk if ill hear it again tonight (please i hope not) but it is GONE i am COMFY in BED. my phone DIED but thats ok shes at 3$ now and plugged in so shes going up :)

#updates on my last posts tags: i dont like actually see spiders i just see movement out of the corner of my eye that isnt there and then my #brain always categorizes it as spiders and its nearly never spiders but it makes me rlly on edge and scared 4 no reason #itll just like be a little black blur out of focus (when theres genuinely nothing there other than like. my white sink or bathtub) and my #brain is like 'ah oh no spider' and my pulse quickens and i get scared and think its gonna kill me cause im sooo normal btw #i joke abt being scared of spiders n stuff but theres genuinely terrifying to me and have given me super bad panic attacls : #anyways. #erm abt the last thing abt Bad Sounds ik its probably a symptom of something but i havent heard of anything that sounds right except maybe #overstimulation but very rarely feel overstimulated im usually very understimulated and its not that theres too many sounds its just theres #one really bad one that sets me off like weird random things like snoring and certain dripping faucets and breathing and like. certain ways #people brush their hands together when they have something on them but they do it for too long and the sound is horrible but subtle #and also certain times people are tapping against fabric like. stuff that ppl overlook and u can barely hear but it drives me off the walls #like idk what common thread they have other than NORMAL EXISTING HUMAN SOUNDS but like. idk if pain is the right word to describe it but #its genuinely something physically pain adjacent like. tension. like when u pull a rubber band super far apart and it cant fucking #stay like that like cmon it hurts it needs to snap please let it out. but letting it out is like. erm. not good and if the sound doesnt end #after u let it out like it didnt do anything it just goes back. ough idk idk idk. i used to not tell anyone this stuff cause i mostly did l #it at night and i think ppl will say im exaggerating and faking cause they dont witness it and my mother doesnt do it i think so its not an #acceptable form of mental illness /s but like genuinely i dont feel like im allowed to mention it but whatever!!! #anyways this is rlly long if u read it. hi. i love u. i hope u have a good day/ #night also hmu if u know what whatever this is called i wanna talk about it in therapy and i think my words dont feel professional enough #ik u shouldnt have to act professional in therapy bur erm. i feel like i need to in some ways its complicated #.ares

[simplaertes]

ok um. if anyone wants to know the specifics of fuckface taking over let's play etc etc lmk and i'll write something abt it but in general my big question is. um. is fuckface, and more specifically geoff, that popular?? I LIKE GEOFF DON'T GET ME WRONG. but the only crossover from post-2016 let's play to that group is gavin.

idk how to phrase this... i was meh on the takeover (i'm not a fuckface fan) but people on reddit are SUPER happy abt geoff specifically and i can't tell if it's like. everyone is so excited to see geoff back or only this very specific small group

also. place your bets on if gavin is a fixture or only shows up in one episode a month.... i know what i'm expecting jfdklsfjdsalfsd

#my work #i'm not gonna tag this incase there are more geoff fans out there than expected #ummmmmm yeah idk. i was astounded that people were like. 'oh this will be better' #actually i'll be more honest in the tags here. i am NAWT interested in seeing geoff on the regular again..... #it just doesn't compel me #and i really liked most of the modern let's play formats that i'm certain he won't be maintaining #actually the thing is being put on by andrew and allegedly there's a lot of two person plays of games #which also doesn't compel me unless it's ppl with great charisma consistently putting together a show #and this doesn't seem like it'll be consistent #i'll admit i have no idea what this will look like #and i HOPE it's good #i'm just. so uninterested. and wanna know why ppl are so excited bat it