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No don't apologize for the Stucky stuff! I only watched Endgame once in the cinema because it pissed me off so much.
And I just did it again expecting to maybe be a little more forgiving. But NO I am still pissed off mainly because of this part...
same for me! watched endgame once and it pissed me off sooo much. im not sure whether i watched it ever again but im sure that in the future i definitely wont! and y'know for me its not even about shipping them (tho i do somewhat in the sense of i love their dynamic and want to see more of it no matter whether platonic, queerplatonic (or romantic)). but in the movies it is shown that there is no one more important to steve than bucky (man didnt want to fight against him although he was brainwashed and ready to kill him) and bucky literally broke 70 years of mind control for steve (and you dont just establish such a beautiful line as 'til the end of the line' in one movie and then betray that sentiment). they literally love each other! but for some reason people cant fathom platonic love (which it is in canon) greater than romantic love so they think if given the choice steve would go back to peggy. which is the direct opposite of what the three captain america movies showed us! he moves on! he learns she had a happy life, he goes to her funeral for fs sake! he kisses her niece (also dumb ass move of the directors guess they thought it would make people stop shipping stucky or whatever, hate that they basically just included sharon for love interest reasons). and in endgame hes been in the present for about 11 years! thats double the time he knew peggy in the 40s. and he. moves. on. (sorry it annoys me that they just ignored the whole character development). also the same goes for peggy. while she still was pretty one-dimensional love interest like in the movies, the series about her finally did something with her besides being the woman captain america likes. and she also. moved. on! and then they just erased all that, booted the series out of canon and just made her a cardboard-cut love interest again! ugh. also someone please tell me how it makes sense that Steve Rogers, the man that searched 2 years for Bucky without knowing whether hed find him and who fought out a civil war (at least partially) for him, would just sit around in the 50s while knowing that bucky was being tortured by hydra right now. he just wouldnt. thats so completely out of character i wanna scream! oh god this is long. anyway once again:
STEVE AND BUCKY'S LOVE FOR EACH OTHER IS CANON! AND JUST BECAUSE STEVE LOVED (yes ill say loved see 'he moved on') PEGGY ROMANTICALLY THAT DOESNT MEAN ITS MORE IMPORTANT OR GREATER THAN HIS LOVE FOR BUCKY. SAME GOES FOR IF HE STILL LOVED HER! THIS IS TRUE IN REAL LIFE TOO! PLATONIC LOVE IS NOT AUTOMATICALLY LESSER THAN ROMANTIC LOVE! THIS ALSO MEANS THAT 'THERES NO OTHER EXPLANATION THAN ROMANCE FOR STUCKY IS ALSO WRONG'. YES YOU CAN HEADCANON THEM AS ROMANTIC BUT IT IS NOT THE ONLY EXPLANATION.
and yes im aware that even with steve staying in the present, steve and bucky's relationship would still have been sidelined in favour of a romantic, straight (its marvel what are we expecting) one. i guess thats what i mean when i say im shipping them. they are made for each other ('its difficult to find someone with shared life experience' -> bucky shows up, god i love this) and their relationship is one of the most important in their lifes (if not the most) and relationships with other people (romantic, platonic, queerplatonic or other) would not change anything about that. but marvel (and lets be real the people watching) dont see this. so i have something to rant about for days :)
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pasta-in-the-pudding · 4 months
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OMG OPEN INBOX I THINK??? SO EXCITED!!!! COULD YOU MAYBE TALK ABOUT THE PUPPETEER OR HELEN,,, MAYBE TOGETHER POSSIBLY X3
RAHHH I NEVER GET TO WRITE FOR THESE STINKERS BUT I LOVE THEM SO MUCH <333
Thank you so much for requesting!!
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General headcanons!
The puppeteer
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He's around 5'10
Im kind of 50/50 on his sexuality, I'd like to say hes bi, but idk i feel like hes straight
We'll go bi with a fem lean
Pronouns are he/him, he's cis
He's american
His aesthetic is a mix of grunge and mall goth
I feel like he'd be a vengeful spirit/ghost
He likes to pretend he's moved on from that first girl, but he really hasn't
He died at age 21, and would be around 26 if he would have continued aging
But due to him not letting go of that "unfinished buisness" he hasn't aged
He smells like general cologne and maybe a tiny bit of laundry detergent
He's kinda lanky and thin
Hes kind of annoying tbh
Soooo whiney and mopey omg
"If i never would have died I might've found someone new 😭 she took everything away from me 😔😔😔"
"Dude stfu im literally just trying to get some soda" -jeff probably
His proxy tattoo is on his right shoulder
He's supringly really clean
Literally everything else about him is fine, he's just a major bummer to be around
and also kind of an incel
His hobbies include listening to midwest emo bands, writing "poetry" and watching south park
Occasionally you'll see him warming up some pizza bagels and he'll try to pretend he's all mysterious and such a bad boy by shimmying away
Im going to be so for real with you, he probably idolizes jeff and tim
Theyre just so manly 😱😱
Also really wants what bella and edward have
Can you guess which one he wants to be in that situation?
Thats right!! Its edward!!
Like i said, incel
The bloody painter
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He's 5'8
He doesn't really take a romantic interest in people, so most of the time I'd say he's aroace
But idk man, theres something in the way he looks at men and constantly draws them thats a little...💅...yk?
Like he'd never want to actually have a relationship with anyone, or engage in any physical intimacy with anyone, he just thinks that the male figure is especially beautiful
Pronouns are they/he, poor dude has had soooo many identity crises
The conclusion he came to was that he doesnt mind being a boy, he DEFINETLY does not wanna be a girl, but he does like expressing his gender with more fluidity
He's 22 years old, and he's french
He has a really heavy french accent, and pnly really speaks english when needed
He has an obsession with circle shaped choclate
Specifically circle shaped
He is kind of skinny, with long fingers
He smells like rose petal deoderant, paint and fresh cotton
His proxy tattoo is on the back of his neck
He also has a little star tattoo on his wrist
I feel like he'd be very in love with the idea of multimedia art pieces
He wants to make a fashion line someday, he just needs to learn how to sew
He has his very own art studio on the first floor of the manor, the walls are completely windowed and there is canvases and unfinished works everywhere
He's generally very quiet and observant, only speaking when spoken to
His few friends include jane, liu, and ej
His relationship with ej is complicated though
He wants to be his friend but also....he is in LOVE with his structure
Ej has such a perfect face shape for and pil painting, combined with his gorgeous skin tones and dreadlocks that frame his face oh so beautifully??
Mwah. Chefs kiss
But will helen ever admit that? Nope
He has a little bird he's named "eros"
Such a silly little dude <333
ALSO HE HAS LOTS OF TRAUMA SURROUNDING BEING FEMININE AND GENDER ILL ONLG ELABORATW IF PEOPLE WANT ME TO TJOUGJ
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blood-bound · 8 months
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fuck it discord rant with no context (feel free to ask for context) about my last session
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ok little context: mark and cassidy driving home from mission where the anarch party they were investigating got raided by camarilla so they have to take the long way home. also, mark juts got a text from sampson that they need to talk. otherwise good luck making sense of this if u havent heard mark rants before.
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Mark learned: -Cassidy turned in 1853 california -loves older western movies, NOT spaghetti westerns except once upon a time in th west -loves detective novels; steven king -has larger goals that he doesnt want to say due to mark's sire having a short leash on him lol -guessed mark was about 5 years dead, mark told him it was less than a year. cassidy was pretty surprised lol -cassidy asked marks goals and what he wanted. mark talked abt goals of stability, and knowing whats going on in the city. talked around it but basically said he also wanted someone he felt he could actually talk to T_T This is what inspired lighter covnersation abtmovies and books -cassidy invited him to WATCH A MOVIE W HIM AT THE CINEMA LOVE WINS (NOT A DATE FOR SURE UNLESS?) -
Now its time to talk to sampson on the next night
due to something julius did mark has to shelter some anarchs in the sewers on his territory. he made it clear the SEWERS only. theyve been moving in.
anyway marks goes to the bar. theres some sketchy ppl outside .oh god. anarchs not listening to directions? THATS CRAZY. Anyway the bar is closed early. it has blinds. many locks. sampson lets mark in and is like. dude. wtf are these people around. ive been seeing htem around and we figured out they were vampires and you said htis place would be safe?? i cant keep doing this???
he's like i know its not all always your fault or things happen in spite of you but what am i supposed to do? i cant live like this again? what am i supposed to do?? And marks just like look anarchs have been moving in city wide ill deal with this and . sampson presses and hes like deal with them how. and marks like IDK kick them out? kill th- and sampsons like YES KILL THEM you killed that one random person cant you kill kindred on your territory?
like OOF that 1 ONE murder lives in his head dsakjfsfdkjds
he's crying, also, ends up saying 'after all this i dont want to talk to you again, i know you bring me stuff to keep me alive' and then be breaks down MORE like REALLY sobbing
so mark gives him a little time to compose himself. then gets all cold and is basically like. so be it. ill still have to see you monthly, but we can try to limit it. but then sampsons like. "I dont know. I just. dont know what to do. i cant sleep with these guys out there all the time" and mark is like "do you want me to deal with them right now?" and smaspons like "yes" so. mark leaves to deal with them!
he grabs piece of shit tony who is supposed to be helping manage this territory. tony says the guys claimed he invited him there, so mark has to explain how they are allowed in the sewers but no where else. and that he wants the three in front of the plaza dealt with Tonight. they work out a deal. tony drives around collecting ghouls and plays this song.
the ghouls are wearing ski masks and have various weapons. he assigns them an order. and turns up the music and they start FUCKING those guys up. first guy modified his glock to be semi automatic? one gets downed immedaitely. 3 other ghouls approach with melee weapons. one gets killed sadly but all the kindred who were loitering by the bar get torpored in short order. Tony is pissed and yells at a corpse about whose gonna pay to replace his ghoul? Ooffff. but yeah mission done. tony says to mark to get out of his car.
He does so. returns to bar. SESSIONEND
SESSION END!
THEY WERE ABOUT TO GET TO TALK! im sure they are shook by the Incredible Violence outside but whatever
DSLKFJDSLFSD
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goremet-chef · 9 months
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guhh im so bothered rnn (vent/rant)
so... i? idk. ive been out as trans in my house since 2020. my mom doesnt call me dom (sometimes she does if my sibling encourages her to, but she defaults back to my deadname anyways) and ive learned to accept it. i dont think she ever will and its sad for me, the reality that once i start my transition, ill need to just.. leave a lot of my family behind. they think its some rebellious choice like i hate all of them but im more worried about them hating me
my mom says shes supportive but is actively right wing, shes having an inner battle with her ideologies, i know that. i can tell by how she talks about homeless people vs how she talks about us being queer
so. whatever. thats my mom i guess. but for a long time, i wasnt out to my moms husband. i despise him and ive never intentionally started a conversation with him, let alone come out. ive started to not care about what he thinks. i know what he thinks, he thinks gays should die, said it straight to my gay siblings face. okay, cool. doesnt concern me, moms bf is absolutely fucking nothing to me.
to remedy this sort of like... we didnt wanna DEAL with what he might say if he heard both my siblings calling me dom, cuz both of them do, so whenever theyre around they would just refer to my deadname, but i saw it made them cringe, so now everyone calls me 'that one child'
that one, other one, etc etc
no one even calls me my name anymore
it makes me feel so hopeless. ive EXPRESSED it makes me upset but my younger sibling doesnt care (the one most guilty of it), because they dont understand why it upsets me, i guess thats enough reason to keep going
its so dehumanizing to be reduced to actually nothing. i ALREADY have heaps and heaps and HEAPS of identity issues. sometimes it gets so bad i start having crazy ass delusions, sometimes im not even present and its a different part of my mind in my body
its hard enough as is!!! now my family wont call me anything at all
it makes me feel less bad about leaving, but i dont think ill ever leave at this rate
need to start T, change my name, get a job, all in that order. starting T seems impossible at this rate. i.. dont know what to do. i cant keep LIVING like this, because im not living at all
i never leave my house because im too ashamed in how i look, i cant BEAR the thought of anyone else perceiving me as female, i cant fucking do it!!! im so tired. my house is like a prison for me, genuinely.
and my family dont get it, obviously. they think its my choice, im some kind of hermit who doesnt care about being outside because i have internet. they are so fucking wrong. i miss going out, i miss being around people, i miss existing like everyone else, but i just cant do it man. not like this
so it becomes a waiting game, when am i gonna bring up starting it? how do i even move forward once i do? what if she says no? id have to do it on my own but i cant.. i cant even order things for myself without freezing like shutting up will get me out of there, i cant fucking do it
she doesnt even know!! we were in the car together and she was like yknow theres people who cant even make a doctors appointment. what losers.
IM losers, would she have said that if she knew? does she know and decided to say it anyways? i dont know, but its just.. everything seems so hopeless at this point. i want to just give up, accept im not gonna be who i truly am, but man i cant stand being any more miserable
it makes me wanna cry, the only time i get to feel myself how i think i should be is either if i draw something fictitious, or if i spend hours in the mirror making sure i look masculine, my mustache is convincing, etc. AND FOR WHAT? literally for fucking WHAT, because i dont leave the house anyways!!!!! dolled up like i have somewhere to be, like my appearance will get me what i want, when im stuck at home! i got nothing to prove to them, they think what they think
its fucking dreadful. im so scared of my life passing me by, and here i am wasting away in my bedroom for the last 3 years. no progress, nothing. at first, i was scared about even starting T because theres a higher risk of heart disease, but. i dont fucking care if it KILLS me. i dont care!!! if it kills me i dont fucking care im not living the life i want to live anyways. the risk of death is worth it at this point, i mean that so seriously
idk. im just tired, is all. i wish everyone could perceive me the way i dream they would. only time that happens is online, or when im not with my family at all and instead with my friends. but we only hang out like. once in a blue moon
and yknow what? im not even safe then. i remember we were at my friends house for halloween last year (we always meet up). i had my full leatherface costume one, my face was touched up to make it look like the mask. and still. dressed that way, when my friends mom asked me what my name was, i said dom and she was immediately like. "oh, dominique?" no. my name is fucking DOMINIC.
i didnt say anything besides correcting her, but it was such a blow, man. the only time ill be happy is if im closely monitoring every single thing i do, to make sure i dont appear feminine at all. no matter how i look, now matter how deep my voice is. miserable. why would anyone think that id choose this
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kenergized · 1 month
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24 25 🙂
arya youre so fucking real for sending LOL
What is an alternative life path your OC might have gone down? How different would their life be if they'd made those decisions?
now i get to answer for all four of them <3 theres more but the four i posted about lol
sav - would be a farmer in india if his village hadnt been decimated. he would have developed an interest in plants regardless but it would be more tame. dunno if hed be trans still but probably? would not have transitioned tho. probably wouldnt have learned to read but its not absolutely impossible
ode - unlike my other three, she lacks a significant life defining incident. she was born into this street circus and stayed in it and eventually moved upwards enough to accrue power in the mob world. its the 'ideal' trajectory i guess. i think she really lucked out finding sav tho. she probably would have otherwise gotten so attached to someone who would have taken advantage of her and abused her :c
ananke - dont really know for sure what would have happened had he not been trafficked since it literally happened as a goddamn embryo. he doesnt know this but he comes from a black family in the equivalent of liverpool so he would have grown up in a tight knit community. he would have a hard time due to being a little autistic but i think he would have found a somewhat honest life (whatever that means in this world). worked in some kind of store im feeling pawn shop for some reason
rosie - so if she had not been kidnapped and chimera’d, she’d been one miserable princess (not sure if that’s still gonna be her title) forced to marry one of the royals of england. she understands the importance of this and would not have complained publicly but she would be soooo sad :/ she’s my little baby butch lesbian.
What is your favorite thing about your OC?
so a lot of these characters are traits i adore cherrypicked from preexisting characters that have disppointed me LOLLLLLL this amuses me so ill answer in terms of this
sav - tgs jekyll's extreme compartmentalization of his emotions even pre-potion. sav can come off as really cold cause of this but hes more just wary of vulnerability and socially awkward. i love this fucking trait so much man
odetta - UMMMM shes my clasic bpd-coded gal . asuka - eva (monster) - pariston - mariko you know the drill. all time favorite trope probably Lol
ananke - so i make a lot of mean characters but thats cause i just find it so fun to figure out why they are so mean. ananke isnt really mean but he can be nastier than youd expect... and i like that. he's resentful of his circumstances but redirects that anger away from the source of his problems. hes honestly such a nice guy tho generally speaking sorry ananke :( also hes inspired a little by izutsumi, al from fmab, but MOSTLY sans + papyrus from the handplate comic .
rosie - straight up marie antoinette and oscar from rose of versailles combined but in a way that doesnt piss me off so much. shes a little like rapunzel + h+c pariston as well <3 sheltered child with an enormous burden that she only later realizes isnt a good cause at all and certainly not worth destroying her life over. also i just love wings and flying and shes got WINGS and flies
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cheezyratz · 9 months
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okok i just got here and my brain started buzzing how do you feel about this: ive been thinking about those typical cartoon episodes where somebody gets deaged through some means, and then it snowballed into a whole concept of Perma-24/7-Babymode Miguelito, like maybe he gets hit with something from a stray villain as theyre sending them off and like everyones trying to figure out what even happened and what to do next
i thought about Pete B being like "i mean look at him i havent seen him this chill since i met him, maybe we could just leave him like that for a week, could do him some good" *cut to mig being babie*
and i was wondering who could pick him up to move him around if hes not too keen on walking where they need him to be, and all i could come up with was that one big ole mecha suit spiderguy lmao cause i mean they do have superstrength i guess but it could get rough if he decides to not cooperate while getting picked up by someone a foot shorter than him and half as w i d e jgdghfgd
and then like. in the comics he had to learn to retract the claws so i thought what if he loses that and just always has them out now and they have to get some mittens on him to neutralize him cause. aint nobody wanna mess with that when he gets cranky gjfsfjfs and with the fangs?? he goes through 4 pacifiers a day probly
AND THEN like what does the squad do about him do they just tell? the whole spidersociety to take a holiday?? i mean the boss is?? out of commission currently??? does jess take over? probly yea
and when does he get back?? to Biguel mode??? (hehe) would they try to figure out how to make it happen or just wait it out? would Lyla just. have his brain stored on a pendrive somewhere??? would it happen gradually bit by bit everyday? or does he just wake up one morning and suddenly the gang has a whole lot to explain and a lot of pics to prove it fjzfgjdgk WHAT ABOUT RAPTURE do they have to give him the injections?? he was taking somethin in the movie what happens if he doesnt take itttt
fjfsfhy theres a whole movie happenin in my brain ok ill leave now
Anona you are so creative I am giving you and your brain big, platonic kisses ❤️❤️❤️/p
after the injections he gets lollipops
pacifier graveyard
when you say de-aged do you mean mentally and physically or just mentally? Because usually in cartoons the character is mentally and physically regressed (or at least in the ones I watched 🤷🏾‍♀️) but in your ask you say something about Miguel being bigger than the other spiders. Sorry I’m just a little confused >-<
i like the idea that one day he just wakes up and is like “why do I have a pacifier???? Why am I in a crib???? And how do I get out????” lol
also ye Jess would def take over
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groupwest · 7 months
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i want help.. but i cant ask for help… i have to be big and do things on my own… but i need help… i need help i need help….. i do wish i had a partner who could help me… my friends.. cant… they are all too dependent like me… i’m the one always offering help to them… sometimes they will help me with big things like moving house but its the little things that i need support in… i have a social worker but he doesnt offer the kind of help that i need… UAAAARGH i want my mother. and i want her to be different and to help me. i wish she’d continued to smother me like when i was little… it hurt so bad when she detached that codependency… its a good thing but i never really learned how to do things on my own…… its not fair. i want my old life back why is it so hard to be here. i feel so alone and it all feels so wrong and it feels like there should be an answer or a solution but i cant see it and everything feels so wrong and i cant move and feel my body like i used to it feels so heavy and wrong and i cant see it i cant feel it it feels so wrong i’m so detached i thought i missed the delusions but i can feel them coming and it feels so wrong… fuck this isnt going to work is it i cant live here. i want to fix this so bad i want to be a real person. nothing comforts me anymore. only maybe my phone. which sucks so bad and is why i cant get anything done. i wanted to puke and cut myself so bad last night for the first time in a long time, i mean sometimes i get those feelings but it was really strong. maybe its a good thing. ive been more impulsive lately and maybe its a good thing. feels like when you start taking meds and finally have the enwrgy to try and kill uourself. i feel so broken though and like i cant move. i wish i had my room again. my soul is fucking disintegrating without four walls to keep it contained. i didn’t realise i was so depressed i guess it caught up with me. i guess this is just one single moment in time and these feelings dont have to be permanent at all i can let them go. i can let them go i can let them go i can let them go. i managedto soothe myself yesterday… but then we had to go out and it was horrible i almost could have had a meltdown in public which NEVER never ever happens. maybe its a good thing too. i think ive been masking less lately. it doesnt feel good though. feels horriblw and embarrassing to be myself. this self. it seems so weak and so tiny and so stupid. i want to live alone. i want help. i hate myself for these contradictions. why have i been the same for so long. why did i let it all go one like i had no power over it. when i always did. it makes me really angry to think how easy it has been to almost give up smoking this past week. its been several years of sameness. will it be this easy when everything else suddenly changes as well ? have i always held the power to do so ? why’d i have to ruin my teenage years like this then ? it feels horrible. it feels cruel. why cant i make better choices for myself why cant i take my life i to my own hands. ?!! its horrible. i wish i was anyone else. i feel so close to understanding everything i need to to make the most of life but i just hold myself back every single step of the way. i hate my family for letting me be like this. they had so much more than me. now they don’t even appreciate it. they just teach me all the wrong things and enable my neurosis. i dont know. thats cruel to say. but its how i feel. i want help but ill never let anyone in becuz i cant make anyone understand me. i know its all my fault. i just don’t know how to fix it. i wish i was anyone else. i want to crawl up into the inside of my own brain and die. like a sick old cat. all alone.
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tv-gh0st · 8 months
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Damnit i made a new au
guess what time it is
time for
✨My own Links meet au!✨
and the zeldas meet up to!
ive got an idea for story but jts a little bit to much like Lu for my liking so i am currently editing it and will be posted hopefully soon!!
zeldas will also get designs to ima be focusing on this whole au to actually cas aprently my hiatus is over ill be working on other aus from time to time but theres alot to do for this and i am bery exited!! ill be making a master post once i post some more stuff im really exited!!
bellow the cut is my current designs for Links(no full body drawings yet cas there are 14 links ad 15 zeldas i need to draw and i am not dealinf with that shit today)
Before the split
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Sky
skyward sword Link
20 years old
first chosen hero
forged the master sword
dating Sun(his zelda)
always looks like hes gonna fall asleep
very expressive
Minish
Minish cap
17 years old
can be small like minish
the smith kf the group
Social anxiety
lets the minish do his hair!
Fallen hero Timeline
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Four
four swords
Four swords adventure
18 years old
the colors sre very separated
others only think hes a little crazy talking to himself
Oracal
Ages
Seasons
Links awakening
"Collector"
17 years old
keeps a flower in memory of Marin
learned how to braid his hair from her to and keeps it like that
has alot of shit
Worlds
A link to the past
a link between worlds
triforce heros
princy
technicly a prince cas of fabel(Zelda and his sister)
bunn boi
his colors blended much easier
Hyrule
the legends of zelda
links adventures
travler
16 years old
also alot of items
gets lost easily especially with the weird geographical part of the merge
very curious
Child timeline
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Twilight
twilight princess
Farmer/Wolfie
19 yo
has a wolf tail and wont explain why or how he got it
can control when he comes wolfie usually but sometimes when they move around he just is wolfie and cant become hylian
big brother energy
Babys litterly any one whos younger then him even if its just by a year(Wild and Time do count cas of there weird ages)
Warriors
Hyrule Warriors
captin
23 years old
did cry over his scarf once
big brother energy aswell but in a funner "you were supposed to watch over the,! But no one was put to watch over me!" Kinda vibe
knew wind and mask before but they didnt know him its weirddddddd
mentioned minda and marin and others lost thrre shit
Age
Age of calamity
champion
17 years old
gravitates twords Warriors
Might have acidently been the start of a new split in the timeline no one actually knows where age sits exept hes on the child timeline
Wild
Breath of the wild
Tears of the kingdom
Archerer
Wonderer
keeps the arm and the sages idc how totk ends
physically hes like 20 ish chronologically hes 121 mentally hes like 17 years old
can cook wonderfully
eats randome shit for fun
is a lik shit
is very loyal but definitely took alot to get that loyal
is extremely weirded out bt Age
Adult timeline
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Wind
Wind waker
Phantome Hourglass
Sailor
14 years old
has tetras bandanna
thinks the green heros tunic is dorky as fuck snd hates the hat
has tried to shoot every link out of a cannon that hes had the opportunity to with wavering success
is gonna fo bat shit crazy/ good way
Spirit
Spirit tracks
Conductor
15 years old
very done with ur shit at all times
i dont think he knows what color is(wears alot of fucking grey)
Likes wind tolerates the others
is gonna go bat shit crazy/ bad way
And ofcourse Time and Mask
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Time
Ocarina of time
18 years old
mentally 9-10 years old
doesnt actually know how to read
from adult timeline
friends with Malon
socially akward mess
Mask
Ocarina of Time
Majoras Mask
11 years old
tired of everyones shit
in denial of all this timeline merging stuff
Thats all the Links!
Master post here!(coming soon) Zeldas prt 1 here! Zeldas prt 2(Coming soon)
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vhckerr · 2 years
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traitor
sypnosis: vinnie breaks up with you but its because he fell out of love with you and fell in love with someone else
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a/n: i hate this bur first piece igg
y/ns pov everything has been off lately. like vinnie can’t even look me in the eye and tell me that he loves me. and when i text him i get dry responses. i try not to show that im irritated by it but its hard when hes smiling at his phone but he cant even pay attention to me. his fucking girlfriend. but my thoughts were cut short when vinnie walks in the room. hera doesnt even budge to moves, instead she just stays on my lap. and meows. vinnie chuckles then looks at me with a soft smile. “y/n can we talk?” oh god. my heart just sunk to my fucking ass rn its not funny. ”yeah sure whats up?” he sighs and then continues “y/n, i dont even know how to start this— okay. i think we need to break up. i think we need time away from eachother. i think we need to learn how to not be dependent on eachother like we are right now.” i just look at him with a blank expression on my face. i have a million thoughts rushing through my head. did he cheat? did he fall out of love? did he fall in love with someone else? i just looked at him and backed away. i grabbed my bag and put everything that was mine inside. i wanted to cry. i wanted to die.
vinnies pov i dont know what to do. i can tell shes thinking but i dont know what she is going to do. instead of talking to me she gets up and grabs her bag. she begins putting all if her belongings in her bag, and taking out mine from the bag. my heart sank. “y/n what are you doing, you dont have to do that you have no where else to stay.” she looks at me, eyes watery and nose runny. “nonono its fine ill figure something out. thank you for the happiest 2 years of my life vin. i hope you treat her good, and give her what she deserves.” she gave me a soft smile. it wasnt genuine. as she slipped off her promise ring and necklace and handed it to me. she walked out and went into mia and thomas’ room, i’m guessing to ask for a room, or something. how did she know i found someone new?
y/n’s pov i walked out and went to thomas and mia to ask for a room to stay in, until i can get an apartment or something.“hey mia, can i talk to you real quick” she got up and gave me a concerned look. “whats up babe?” i broke down in her arms. “ he broke up with me.” her eyes widened and she looked down at me. “ i’m so sorry babe, i’m here for you. we have plenty of guest rooms, you can stay in one of those until your ready okay?” i looked at her and nodded. “thank you so fucking much mia, your the best” and with that i went downstairs to go get water. as i was walking out mia followed behind me. as we were going down the stairs, vinnie was going up. i just looked down at my feet ignoring eye contact. i walked in and saw tabitha jake and thomas filming a bit for the vlog. “oh hey y/n vinnie was just down here” i looked at him and nodded. “i know.” tabitha looked at me and told me to follow her. “when do we need to kill him?” i looked at her confused “tab what are you talking about? we dont need to kill anybody.” she gave me a ’ya right’ look and hugged me “ if it makes you any better, he looks like a wreck right now…”
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saewokhrisz · 2 years
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......amadis/avad.....👀
[head in hands] is this who we are ?! is this what we represent ???
but i guess this is the little boat ill be rowing, thanks @foibles-fables
also just to preface i am engaged with these two on such a surface level but its also SO intruiging as a concept, but also hard to imagine an indepth characterisaqtion for amadis cuz he doesnt have one so we'll make shit up i think suits as we go, mostly basing on the comics cuz he was too wishy washy in "need to know" for me
who is more likely to hurt the other?
girl help amadis will upset the soft hearted king first ill put my money on it
who is emotionally stronger?
neither and i will stand my ground on this, theyre just have lots of bottles to package emotions in, like a liqour store (also amadis has 0 emotional inteligence im sorry)
who is physically stronger?
avad OBVIOUSLY
who is more likely to break a bone?
amadis cuz hes an idiot like that, but also definietly out on the field more
who knows best what to say to upset the other?
amadis, like have yall seen how he talks to talanah in the comics mans is so mean and for what
who is most likely to apologise first after an argument?
avad. its avad. again, 0 emotional inteligence for amadis (but he can try and learn with time)
who treats who’s wounds more often?
the one who is most likely to break his leg is also the one most likely to get treated, and what is love if not learning first aid (when as royalty u literally dont have to) so u can patch up the idiot carja trapper u managed to find as ur boyfriend
who is in constant need of comfort?
amadis hisses as the idea of someone comforting him, and avad is a well adjusted (debatable) man , but yk when ur mean cat will come into ur room to sit inconveniently close to u when ure in a shitty mood? yeah that
who gets more jealous?
amadis, we're talking about THE sun king, cmon, how many possible courters could marad find him is unknown, but he does not handle the idea of that remotely great
who’s most likely to walk out on the other?
amadis LMAO?
who will propose?
avad, as we know, is not shy about doing so at all LMAO
who has the most difficult parents?
can we get an ouja board in here?
who initiates hand-holding when they’re out in public?
avad (much to amadis' dismay)
who comes up for the other all the time?
amadis is so insufferable (derogatory) about nessa/rittaka and WILL also be insufferble (affectionate) about avad, and also i mean, when u live in meridian, with the sunking...hard to avoid hearing abt him in conversation!
who hogs the blankets?
the boyfriend from the caves vs his radiance the sunking? avad obviously
who gets more sad?
constant sad boy hours for these two theyre so annoying (affectionate), but im leaning towards amadis, esp during that adjustment period of moving into the sundom and accepting that rittaka moved on with her life
who is better at cheering the other up?
avad !!
who’s the one that playfully slaps the other all the time after they make silly jokes?
leaning on royal/noble upbringing for both id say neither are likely, but id think amadis would have a broader body language??? esp after time at the carja millitary that noble upbringing gets washed down a bit
who is more streetwise?
Mr. Man of the Woods
who is more wise?
avad! (when he doesnt leave his braincells home, which uh was apparently not the case when aloy returned to meridian, sir why)
who’s the shyest?
...no comment. its amadis.
who boasts about the other more?
sunking "i will hype up my pathetic little boyfriend from the caves" avad, but seriously i think he'd talk quite fondly of him :(?
who sits on who’s lap?
poor avad tries to get his screeching racoon of a bf to sit in his lap at least 3 times before his dumbass realises he actually likes it, after that its just free seat at most occasions, when no ones around
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raethethey · 10 months
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hey its me. rae. im fine. im just having a breakdown rn and uhh idk how to deal with that really. like in a healthier way. whenever i was little and had an overwhelming experience or a day filled with anxiety i would shut down and escape to my room and turn on music and hug my blankie. but like thats not really dealing with the issue yk, its ignoring it until i forget abt it and then it happens again sometime later. i get stressed over the little things and they pile up. but idk when the mountain ever topples bc i pile it up behind me if that makes sense. just throwing it over my shoulder yk.
read at your own risk. i delve deep into traumas.
i grew up in a sheltered house, lower middle class, religion available to me. i didnt show up to school and have teachers pull me aside and ask me questions abt my parents and home life. but i did have issues. i apparently had a mother who occasionally abused alcohol (i guess i blocked this out and thought she was just smiley a lot) i had a father who decided a belt was more efficient than his hand when disciplining us, soap mouth washing was normal, holding his hand over my sisters mouth so the neighbors wouldnt hear her absolute monster of a meltdown screams (she could scream/ i was sitting on my bed watching this and covering my ears as best i could) yes he let her breathe but she was 7(?) she would just take a breath to scream again. i witnessed holes in the wall but never a bruise on my mother or father. (thats when cps was called) (thats when i realised i would become a statistic kid someday). i witnessed so many tears and yelling and walking out the front door (or even getting out of the car on a highway exit in the middle of a state we didnt live in to get away from him) i witnessed my mother connect with the ladies at church who didnt wear big hoop earrings or high heels or gaudy make up bc they grew up with 'bigger' struggles. (divorced parents, trailer homes, smoking, a sister who got pregnant at 14). i witnessed my dad struggle with someone who wasnt a good match for him but he was religious, death should happen before divorce. he would plead and beg and that sound when his voice cracked haunts me to this day. on the 28th of december when they gathered us to tell us they were divorcing i stood up, said, "i knew it." and went to my room until i had to pee or eat or go to school i dont remember. i lived between 2 separate houses until i turned 18 always lugging my sister around after she came back from boarding school for 2 years. i chose to live with my dad bc he was more financially and mentally stable. do i regret that? almost everyday. would i go back and change my choice? no.
im attending college rn with almost nothing in my bank account and no more help from dad. im scared bc im not smart, i believe i have learning issues bc not every teacher teaches the same and its been a constant guessing game as to whether ill pass or not based on them. i can apply myself when i get interested but if you lecture us like youre talking like a middle schooler abt the weather in an awkward convo with your crush, what the hell am i supposed to get excited abt?
how am i supposed to live in a home that expects more than i think i can give just because im an adult? with a man who doesnt understand social anxiety or burn out or depression bc he has the lord and faith and hope and he doesnt need to worry abt whats next. how am i supposed to recover from a night of not sleeping and watching youtube videos to drown out the thoughts (sometimes suicidal) and then be expected to get up at 8am and go apply to 7 jobs and grocery shop for your ass and clean the house and not take a nap that turns into 15hours of dead sleep at noon bc im adult and thats just what adults do.
no thats society. thats society fucking everything up for ill minds and those with disabilities and disorders and chronic sickness. society tells me i need to move out at 18 (when your brain only finishes developing at 27 ish). society tells me i need to figure out my life when im not even a 1/10th thru it. to get a degree at 22 a job at 23 bc youve interned somewhere for 2 years already and have that job for 50ish years, a spouse a house and kids at some point during that time and still be financially okay and be able to pay off student loans and hospital bills and mortgage and whatever else. society says fuck you all the fucking time and i cant fucking stand it.
im not ready to be 23. im not knowledgeable on how life works bc i was sheltered. we were poor we couldnt look stuff up willy nilly, if i did i was terrified i wasnt allowed to bc god is always watching, youll go to hell. i know nothing abt sex ed bc our teacher wasnt even fully certified. i know nothing abt taxes or bills bc we didnt have a finance class available. i know nothing abt dating bc no boys until youre 30. i know nothing.
when my parents split and i lived with my mom every other week, i searched everything under the sky in my room at night bc i was scared. i was scared my dad might find out that i thought [sally] was cuter than [sam]. that i was jealous of [jasons] body and the way it was shaped. that i liked the way [marys] voice sound bc she was cool on tv (she smoked) the way [johns] voice sounded bc it was lower. i read fanfiction as soon as i knew what it was. when i gravitated toward more mlm fics i was scared of those new apps coming out that let a parent see what their kid was doing.
when i graduated high school and didnt know what to do with myself for two years, i drowned myself in fanfiction and fantasies. when i was given an ultimatum of moving out or going to school and/or working i chose school bc by then i had found kpop. i fell in love with something for the first time in a while since fanfiction. i like the new language i hadnt really ever heard before other than psy's song that rocked the world. i realised ive always loved languages why not teach mine? thats popular. so i chose school, i dragged myself through months of mental torture and physical stress torture and im still doing it bc one day ill live a dream that was forced upon me bc i know im not ready for the world. and bc i chose school i met some of the greatest ppl. ppl who accept me for who i truly am bc that summer wasnt just abt kpop it was abt realising i was not a girl. i wasnt a boy either but goddamn idk what i am. so not only did i read abt gay men but i read abt gay anything. researching wtf was going on in my head. what exactly do i feel like, who am i attracted to, what do i want in life in a partner if i ever get one
and through all this in the back of my head im still thinking im not good enough for my dad bc he believes that even just who i am is a sin, im not good enough for mom bc i chose dad, im not good enough for myself bc im lazy and incapable of doing normal things and a wimp and a loser. im not good enough. i dont deserve this. i shouldve been kicked out years ago. thats how you know if youll make it (i wouldntve). theres smth wrong with me and my brain. the doctor said i had depression and gave me pills i didnt want bc pills make it real. there really is smth wrong with me. thats why they dont love me, they dont think im good enough. i havent been to a doctor in 6 years (1 covid hit so i just couldnt 2 i cant make the fucking phone call on my own) i know i have anxiety and worse depression. i think i have other stuff bc like i mentioned when i think theres smth wrong with me i research the fuck out of it.
cant even keep a best friend. the one in elementary moved, elementary-middle i moved schools, middle-high school stopped talking to me out of the blue, my church friend from elementary is still my best friend and has many the same views abt religion aa i do now and accepts me and loves me for who i am, but shes getting married this year. still have my college bestie but its only been 2 years. i hate myself for thinking 'wait until its been 7, he'll hate you then, but hes too nice to drop you to your face he'll just ghost you like the last one did'
cant commit to a partner either. first one was a mess, he had anger issues. second didnt respect the law. third one was 3yrs older and ready for marriage. 4th was going to the navy in a month. 5th (first girl) was in israel. i was the one who ended them all. my current partner is literally amazing and im scared the day they realise i literally cannot commit. we will dance around commitment forever until you get bored and realise i was just there bc i want to try but deep down know i cant and wont succeed. im scared the day they leave bc they think im playing with them and i unintentionally break their heart. im scared bc i know that will never happen, ill leave them before they can bc i dont want to string them along bc i cant commit.
well ive "journaled" for like and hour now and i need to pee. so thanks for reading if you did. im sorry if you were triggered. i dont want responses. i just needed to get this out.
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brunz · 2 years
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i was watching this video on special books by special kids a youtube channel i like very much and this guy chris interviews, mostly children at first, but also some adults, people with different medical disorders or mental disorders that effect their lives significantly, and he talks to them in a really positive but also real way and lets them share their experiences directly which i think is great. anyways i was watching one with this guy Daniel (go figure) and i know these feelings arent unique and i also understand his feelings are a lot more intense than mine, but he struggled a lot with feeling like he was worth anything and social interaction and feeling like he fails people and just not feeling joy. among other things. those other things i did not relate to because i am not a veteran nor do i have ptsd and im not schizophrenic. but i just related to his feelings of suicidality and often feeling like theres this black hole this like permanant thing that you just carry that sucks the joy and complicates everything that you do and everything you think. im better now but having been kinda suicidal in middle school and highschool and intensely suicidal during college (suicidal for me that is. i made no attempts but i did self harm and i did often feel compelled to do something)
idk where im getting at with this. i watched the video and i just wanted to hug him so bad. and there was some hope. but sometimes if i really think about this stuff, that narrative of never getting better, the narrative of owing the world my suicide, the narrative and kind of fantasy of bad things happening to me and me deserving it and me moving on to whatevers next and the narrative of me never significantly improving my life because im a coward that should be put down. that narrative grows stronger and feels truer and truer and truer. the fact that i can call it a narrative i guess is a nice step away from just accepting it as truth which is what i often did as a child, but even with that awareness, it can still feel correct? like oh yeah this is what ive been taught and learned behaviors and whatever whatever but if i cant do anything aobut it and its gonna follow me all my life, than its going to do what its going to do, and there is kind of a logical conclusion. it doesnt matter if the thoughts are irrational or wrong, they manifest in a way that kind of make them true anyways. idk. its all relative i suppose.
in the video he talked aobut being forcibly put into a psychiatric facility for sometime and idk how to say this in a nonentitled way but sometimes i envy that experience. it would be like atleast an acceptance that other people recognize that something is wrong. and i suppose its a bit of punishment. and change. of course i say this , but i know how awful it is and im sure if it happened i wouldnt be saying this. ive already had this experience with my parents as i used to believe that i would deserve it if something really bad happened to me, so much so that i kind of wanted it to happen. one of those things was my mom dying which i used to think about but never thought it would happen. of course it did eventually happen, and in a really awful way. did it satisfy or solve anything? no. did it matter that i got my “punishment”? no. especially not given it wasnt just my pain, its my mom dying. but theres no big story or meaning to this whole thing anyways, i just mean. idk what i mean. im just saying all the stuff i taught myself as a kid that had atleast some weird positive aspect of “this should happen” didnt even work when it did happen.
this is quite rambly because i need to say it and if i try too hard to fix typos and structure i wont actually say it. and i need to say it because ill think it now and forget it later and i need to record this. i often feel like my memory is getting worse as well. idk how true that is but part of me feels like im just losing more and more, even given how unbelievably lucky i am in so many ways. 
getting better and assessing life and trying to unravel and undo so much complicated stupid shit is. i dont wanna say hard but it is. it feels like just undoing this massive gordian knot. suicide being the sword i suppose. 
im not suicidal im fine, its just that i have been before and im very confident it will come back stronger later because it just feels like the right and correct thing to do for me at some point in my life. it used to be almost certain by my turning 30 years old, and given that i have about 5 years until then, that is a little scary. no real reason for that number its just that it felt correct. it feels less correct now, but its only the number, and not the eventual um deed.
there is also a massive guilt because what the fuck do i have to complain about, im a trust fund baby whos never worked a day in their life with wonderful friends who give me more time than they ought to and ive been handed everything over and over and over and yet this cyclical markov chain of just hating myself and guilt and compulsion has followed me all my life and i dont know what to do about it. i guess ive improved it over the last few years but its times like these that feel like its all just a big lie. hopefully its not and you know, there is something there that i will eventually be a “real person”. I am not that person yet and idk if i ever will be. I guess the punishment of institutionalization or self harm or suicide feel like the most real things that i could do. but i know after them, id stil feel guilt anyways. especially given that, no matter how i feel about myself, i cannot stop how others feel about me and they seem to love me and care about me and so im aware that suicide would be very hard on them and i dont want to do that either.
this is way longer than i meant it to be and im kind of thinking as i go along and if you read this far well shit ill just say im surprised lol. or maybe youre just skimming through. thats cool too. this is not private, but it is also not intended for anyone to read. its kind of nothing tbh. it just needs to exist and not in a notebook. hopefully this isnt a narcissistic mess.
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mbat · 3 months
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no im thinking about pregnancy again, as in, how awful i think it is and how people act about it
i guess i have to start with hey! this is just my opinion! if you feel different, hell yeah! im not shit talking you or telling you to feel different! this is literally just me talking about my personal feelings on pregnancy and i dont expect anyone to actually read it and i dont really care if anyone does
anyway i hate how people act like pregnancy is one size fits all. i hate how people act like if you have a vagina and a uterus and whatever that you HAVE to get pregnant one day, that youre going to want to get pregnant eventually even if you very much dont right now. hell, that if youre a "woman" at all, they think youre going to want to be a mother in general.
it really does just go hand in hand with gender role bullshit and how people think that you HAVE to be and do and love whatever youre born with and if you step outside of that that youre the weirdo and youre the one in the wrong, and not that theyre the weird ones for trying to force this stuff on you.
pregnancy, like anything, is for the individual to decide. but god forbid you decide it isnt for you.
pregnancy to me is the worst thing that could ever happen to me. im terrified of it, im disgusted by it, it sounds straight out of a horror movie to me, ive been around it twice irl and it... it just doesnt feel natural to me even though its apparently one of the most natural things we can do as humans. its like looking at the uncanny valley and being told nothing is wrong but theres that pull at the back of your mind telling you to look away, something is wrong, something is so very wrong.
i had a dream many months ago that i got pregnant, and i was near the end of the pregnancy, i had somehow missed the window to get an abortion. i was in a living room surrounded by people, they were all so happy for me. i remember looking down at my stomach and feeling the worst dread. i was too late to stop it, to prevent it, to end it. my options were very few, and all of them were horrible to me.
and of course i havent even mentioned children. i dont want kids! again, its not one size fits all, its the individuals choice! i dont think id be a good father, and i dont want to be one anyway, i want my freedom, my time, my money, my life! why would i want to bring a child into this fucked up world anyway, just to fuck them up more because i really wouldnt be a good parent.
i dont even want to think about the actual birth part. endless hours of pain and disgusting things happening and emotions and... i could never. i could never i could never i NEVER will. i hate disgusting things happening and i hate pain
all of pregnancy is gross though. you are out of control of your own body. its like a parasite to me. something that isnt you is inside of you, and its changing your body and controlling it whether it even means to or not, and you cant just take it out, and its growing and
thats not even mentioning that you can feel it moving around. what. the. fuck.
i hate that people expect this of me. hell, not even just expect, but want this of me. my dad clings to the idea that one day ill give up all my 'i dont want kids' talk and finally be "normal" and want kids and whatever, because hey he wants grandkids :(. you have grandkids!!!! you have 3!!! its not my fault that only one of them is biologically related to you, maybe you should get over your weird attachment to things being biological and just learn to love regardless! i love my nephews and niece, theyre amazing and i love seeing them! i dont hate kids, by the way! i just dont want them for myself!
but honestly the whole reason i even thought about any of this is because, well tmi i guess, i think im starting a period and i just get so distressed about it. i hate that my body does this, i hate that its something i cant control and its disgusting and horrible. i just wish i could take my reproductive system out of me. and so i was like, i wish i could just pay a doctor to get it out of me! but then i remembered that theyd never do that because theyd be like OH BUT WHAT IF YOU MARRY A MAN AND HE WANTS KIDS. YOU NEED TO HAVE AT LEAST 2 KIDS BEFORE WE EVEN CONSIDER IT. and how if someone said that to me i dont think id be able to hold back from telling them that if i ever got pregnant and couldnt get rid of it that i would seriously consider offing myself. if i ever changed my mind about having kids (why would i) i would just adopt anyway.
i hate that my body is expected to belong to someone else, that my choices and my wants dont matter and im just a silly little girl and what i want will change anyway. im a person. im a full on person, and this is my body. i havent even mentioned how being trans factors into this because what more is there to say than 'im a man and that affects how i feel about this thing that people see as feminine'? or my pcos, which i have even less to say about because like, what is there to say ??
i hate that people dont care what i have to say about my own body, and my own future. i hate that my dad wants me to change how i feel about who i am and what i want, i hate that people i dont know that i havent even met expect me to do this thing that changes everything. i hate that people care more about hypothetical people than me. i hate that people think they know better than me about my own body and wants.
i never want to get pregnant. i never want to have kids. that is my choice as an individual, just like its someone elses choice to get pregnant and have kids. theres already enough people doing that in the world, there wont exactly be a shortage because i decide not to. its not my fault that other people see my choice as abnormal and the other as normal, that sounds like a them problem.
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Ah hell my bad i did get. Really busy & really tired the end of year holidays are busy & really draining. I am a sea person but im glad that resonates with non sea people too. People try & talk to you often there? I dont know a whole section of verb conjugation so im not sure how id do there. Fried bread & cinnamon sugar what a peak combination thank you churros. Same i need to pick up more spanish food recipes. Oh? Thats a good start actually. Knowing simple stuff like eggs or grilled cheese or uh. Chicken noodle soup are good baselines. I mean. Yeah same to a degree. I turn them on when im reading or walking/going places. Keeps me focused. Mag is good. Same with nightvale & alice isnt dead. Thats some solid luck kudos to everyone for not getting attacked by gulls. Id wonder about that too australia seems. Nice but very weird. Like their one prime minister who walked into the ocean & disappeared. Kudos to her for finding one she likes & gets along with enough to move there. Ah nothin like light hearted roasting among friends love that for you. Oh jeesh thats like my geometry teacher i had once. Dude would get distracted & then skip stuff he was supposed to help us learn. & still test us on it. Had a different math teacher help me sometimes because he was better at teaching. Hell yeah english teacher for the save. She sounds cool. I dont have time for meta so like. Why bother when if something works it works? Oh is honkai meta that hard? Do i need to focus on that on the way through the story? Oh thats way better like star rail having a pick your own on standard after x amount of pulls. What genshin's fate system could be if it was good. Hmm im not sure where even to start. I guess about himeko. Like her place in the story & what her story in hi3 is. Since i doubt its similar to in hsr. Hell she does have that vibe doesnt she? Chill piracy milf in a way. I hope she becomes playable. A thirty minite backstory? Must be a heck of a joke. Or because of all the polish nuance. Thanks! Ill have to see how she plays of course but personality wise she's good. Fontaine has killed it with interesting characters. Oh? Why the screen limit is it a doctors orders thing? & no worries about that life hit me hard so i understand. Ah thanks im getting to where gear matters a bit so ill need that luck. Need to up talents & such more though. Makes sense then but damn 4 pm as the other option? Both of those aren't super great. I live close to my work which is nice but i still have to wake up 2 hours before for early days because otherwise i wont wake i am not a morning person. 4 am? Hell mad respect for that i could never im barely a person some days at that hour i definitely wouldnt be. Oh nice congrats! On the exam & the history memes. At least your friends are becoming nerds with you. Important group activity. Im caught up on show & manga releases but i do need to read the spin off still when i can find it. Claire has protag rights to one name
AH ITS OK i just. Dont trust tumblr to function properly AJSKFJJH. but ah wishing you some time to chill soon. i understand tho since its the end of the first semester in my school so literally every teacher is trying to squeeze in as many tests as possible. yeah sjdkfkkskdf thats one thing everyone can agree on i suppose!! and it really is like that!! the stereotype about spanish people being seemingly All Extroverted is. much more true than i expected it to be. especially when compared to poland where everyone just more or less minds their own business. and not knowing the language that well proved to be less of an issue than i thought actually!! as in. i do Not speak spanish very well but through a series of trial and error combined with a lot of gesticulation i managed to communicate well enough. AND FOR REAL good lird. they were so right for that. and thanks!! i can more or less follow intermediate recipes so i can Survive more or less. and ahh thats fair, i unfortunately cant really listen to stuff outside my house as i only own headphones and not earphones and i dont like being Completely disconnected from the sound around me when im not at home. but very understandable. ANYWAY YEAH AUSTRALIA IS. A PLACE. i heard about that one prime minister yeah..... wild...... and yeah ajdkfjg me and my friends have been dissing each other for a Long time since i did the same thing in my previous school. always fun. AND AOUGH I FEEL YOU i have. a Lot of teachers like that. but eh im pretty decent at studying on my own [if i find the energy.....] so its managable. with math teachers too actually which is very funny bc last year we had this one teacher [we called her The Brick] who just. did not explain Anything just start doing exercises on the board and then be disappointed when we didnt understand anything. so obviously we were very happy to hear that were gonna have a different one EXCEPT??? SHE DOESNT KNOW HOW TO COUNT???? LIKE GENUINELY SHE DOES SOMETHING ON THE BOARD THREE TIMES AND EACH TIME ITS SOLVED INCORRECTLY. IN A DIFFERENT WAY. ah well. but yes my english teacher is very epic. if nobody got me i know she got me can i get an amen. and exactly i agree with you!! as in. i like when theres a Big Number so i try to more or less build my chars but im not gonna wreck my sanity doing the same domain over and over again. the honkai meta however IS pretty hard so i try to keep up with that. but im much less excited for part 2 so when it drops im probs gonna focus on gearing the chars i already have instead of pulling the new ones since you can do anything with a good support and i have. pretty good supports [HERRSCHER OF TRUTH FOR THE WIN]. id generally recommend Not Completely Ignoring it yeah. tho i did and still managed to pull myself out, but it wasnt a pleasant experience [god. superstring dimension with ungeared teams. Augh.] so. yeah. AND RIGHT???? honkais meta may be painful but the gacha sure is not. I WILL GET INTO HIMEKOS STORY BUT ITS GONNA TAKE A SEC SO ILL JUST PUT IT UNDER A READMORE AND ALSO BEWARE OF VERY VERY VERY HEAVY SPOILERS. since im not exactly sure in what point of the story youre in. AND YEAH shes just. chillen. and the joke is [linguistic rant incoming] actually not That long [i just love hyperboles] although there is one joke that is Actually pretty hard to explain. anyway what i wanted to say is that she has ESSA which. first of all this is slang but its slightly outdated slang [which, of course, doesnt stop me from using it] and it just. well when you say someone has essa it means theyre like. chill in a cool way. cool in a chill way. but also essa itself can be used like. hm. for example if you manage to do sth, say, pass an exam, and you wanna say you did it and also it wasnt very hard?? you can just say NO I ESSA. its not quite translatable into english but needless to say i shall now begin using it. AND YEAH FR rare occurence where genshin made me actually care about male characters. as in. i love furina forever but neuvilette has actually proven to be someone i like as well.
[once again. tumblr forcing me to do a paragraph break] his autistic swag has captivated me. and yeah ajdfkgjsj as it turns out im both farsighted and have astigmatism so i should be limiting my computer usage...... its ok tho im trying to get into traditional art more and also studying is easier. so Its Joekay. ahhhhhh talents are such a pain to level up.... i just never have enough stuff for them seemingly. yeah my history classes have godawful times good lird. and we actually do less material bc of that since our teacher just refuses to do anything on the 6pm classes and just does twice the material in the monday block instead. i love my life. fair enough tbh, i picked up an ADDITIONAL 7am class bc its not mandatory and was close to disbanding but my classbestie really likes it so i joined to make it less likely to fall apart but ah. im regretting my decision. but at least the teacher is nice so. AND FOR REAL i do not understand where they get their energy from. or the dedication. ESPECIALLY for this godforsaken school. and ah thankies!!!! and good luck with catching up!!! i LOVE the manga sm omg...... im also very excited for the anime since the love scale arc is starting today and its my favorite........ big hype. and ah i started playing noita recently!!!! very fun i love games that are engineered to hurt me personally
ANYWAY. ONTO THE HIMEKO LORE
i Should mention that im not an expert on himeko lore BUT ill do my best hehehe. however i will reiterate that heavy spoilers ahead, especially for chapter 9.
SO himekos backstory is revealed in the alien space manga [which, admittedly, i read only because i found out shub niggurath appears by the end and i love niggurath] but it goes more or less like this. i wont go into detail about what Exactly happened because truth be told this is a pretty long manga and i simply do not have the motivation to do an Entire Summary but basically. when she was in university, her father, who was working for schicksal and also the host of an Actual Literal Alien kiiiiiind of went berserk [without her knowledge, of course] and welt had to Kill Him. which is pretty bad because they knew each other and were Kinda friends. anyway since her mother was already dead and she was infected with honkai at the time, this caused her to join schicksal! of course, the entire time kept in the dark about what exactly happened to her father. so when she was in schicksal, she was in the squad let by ragna lothbrok, who also ended up dying in action, and himeko ended up in saint freya. she also made bianka join schicksal! so anyway this is where we get to the main story. i wont go into chapter chiyou bc im gonna be honest i remember Nothing from chronicles. but she was kiana and the others from the main squad mentor, guiding them through their journey as valkyries. when kiana awoke as the herrscher of the void during the void arc, she was also Actively Dying from honkai poisoning [since valkyrie gear uses the honkai in it but she had pretty low natural resistance to it]. fu hua gives her an antidote that Could save her life but, during the final lesson, she uses it to temporarily seal the herrscher of the void so that kiana can live on. and dies in the process. i cry watching it to THIS DAY. but himeko remains as somewhat of an Afterlife Guide to the end of the series, appearing as flashbacks and visions in the chapter 11 ex cg, meteoric salvation, like an entire section of set tomorrow ablaze, everlasting flames, and graduation trip. to summarize, I LOVE HER AND WILL CRY ABOUT HER AGAIN. AOUGGGHH. she actually means so much to me you have no idea you have NO idea
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sanguinaryrot · 9 months
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💢✂️ for marcy & basil both, ❇🚆 for sir daniel denora and gunther vieth both!
💢 ANGER - what are some habits they have that will take some getting used to?
Marcy - Marcy dances and twirls around the house instead of walking, sings and hums under her breath, and talks incessantly.
Basil - Basil gives up really easily. After years of up and moving whenever he feels even marginally uncomfortable, he's gotten into the habit of abandoning things when they challenge him
✂️ SCISSORS - what is the "last straw" for them to cut someone out of their life? how easily do they let go of people?
Marcy - You'd have to like. Cut off her legs. Marcy sticks like glue. she reminds me of this sara bareilles song. Once she likes you, youre kinda done for. but! if you hurt her enough to get on her bad side i think maybe you will just be kilt to death by her magic witch powers
Basil - like i said, basil is kind of a quitter so i think you could just like. message him in a way he perceives as passive aggressive and he would just ghost you. no he does not see this as hypocritical
❇️ SPARKLE - what is their most prized possession? what do they value?
(I think this is what you sent? I ctr+F and this came up but if im wrong ill just die about it. or you can resend it i guess lol)
Sir Daniel DeNora - Daniel has many very nice things, but they bore him. (but he also doesnt realize how much he depends on them lol) What good is china so fine you don't dare touch it without gloves on? He's very sentimental, keeps letters, locks of hair, and scarves that smell of loved ones.
Gunther - I think his prized possession would probably be the book that Daniel gave him. He doesn't know how to read yet, but Daniel promised to teach him someday, and he'd very much like to learn.
🚆 TRAIN - what is their answer to the trolley problem?
Sir Daniel DeNora - he would pull the lever and not consider the moral implications very closely. He wouldn't even really get the moral quandary.
Gunther - He would pull the lever and it would plague him until the day he died
Ask me about my OCs!! :0c
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static-kai · 10 months
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15 by Zild makes me feel kind of old and young at the same time. at the last lyric he said to not rush anything. and its weird, because a few days ago we made an essay in school about our memories and i guess i just dumped some of my problems there. my teacher put something about not rushing too, being calm, and steady. and by then i just kind of realized im rushing things. i still am now. i dont know how to stop it, but now at least i know its there. im still rushing things. thinking about my future, what to do tomorrow, what possibilities, the opportunities and failures ill endure. fucks sake, im even thinking about college which is something i really dont want to think about and i still have years ahead of me before i do but it doesnt stop me from fucking panicking. it sucks, so much. but it makes me realize that its either time being too fast or im rushing time. sometimes id look at the clouds and judge them for how slowly they move when in reality im just really fast because im scared. im rushing things because im scared. i just want to be slow, i want to process things. im not even that old yet, i want to be able to sink my emotions in and to learn from them, not ignore them until it bursts. then again, what can i do?
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