#if i want my parents help to move

[curioscurio]

Got up early (for me), ate a light and healthy breakfast, applied to some jobs, took a long mental health walk with the dogs, gave one of them a bath, and even did some phone calls and messaging regarding my medication and pharmacy problems and managed to sort it out without breaking down!!! And! Showered!! Kicking ASS at mental health today

#im studying myself like a bug. with no judgement or compulsive self hate when i see the results. and then doing something different based on #those results #and its working #ive noticed that im much more productive when i have someone else to help or listen to. its a little uh sad because im not easily able to #to take care of myself and do things for MYSELF. but if its for someone else then its like i gain momentum #going out to clean out MY car? well i dont care how gross it is im not worth the effort. #cleaning out my car for my brother who i drive to therapy every other week? fuck yes its going to be nice and clean because therapy is impo #rtant and i want to help you stick with it and so we make it not a chore but lighthearted sibling time #like do you get it #anyway slow progress is still progress #the number of good days are slowly catching up to the number of bad days #post beginning of the pandemic 2020 was so brutal on me. moving back in with my parents especially #but i have a plan now . a real one. and friends to help me as well ! #oops rambling in the tags haha #long tags

[simgerale]

me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

#hi everyone #I’m going around hugging you all #okay now that we are gathered here today #i will simply acknowledge that i have been gone for a very long time and then also acknowledge that maybe it was for the best #i relied on sims to be my only creative activity even if i tried to write a book at the same time #and also. i prioritized sims over real life responsibilities. that’s just a deadly combination lol #but I recently noticed I just replaced sims with Netflix. with YouTube. with anything that gave me quick dopamine #literally became addicted in a sense. still am but I’ve been cut cold turkey from most everything #I get off work and go. okay I’ve done the dishes and the laundry……..I could read or write or bake…. #I try to write and sometimes i get a good hour #then I read for a few hours and then get tired of it #and I made cookies Tuesday so I’m waiting for those to be gone before baking again #I’m just so pitiful that I feel BORED and don’t know what to do #so I said….. okay what if I do sims for an hour. #I downloaded some new cc Tuesday and tried to play yesterday #y’all ……………….. I can’t find the energy anymore to set up elaborate scenes and pose my sims and plan posts #I said wow… this is boring without my intervention and fake story #I said wow…….. all this for what? for tumblr? yes I created cool things and provided joy. but is that inherintly important compared to my #own joy? my own everyday activities I should be doing? #y’all I do not leave the house unless we got out to eat or shop or travel to our parents #.. I have little desire to. I’m trying to find that desire #but my husband is busy with grad school and work and I don’t want to do anything by myself #I’ve found myself in one heck of a slump #I didn’t want to be human for awhile. just had no desires no interests no ambitions #I was slacking off SO HARD at work. I just had no drive to do well #I’m still working on it. I’m still trying to get caught up. I’m still trying to force myself to move every day. #but I am struggling y’all. and I can tell you that sims… sims isn’t helping rn but I want it to so bad. I want to get back into it #I didn’t mean to disappear on everyone. I got married and then life got busy and then I fell into this hole of nothing #I didn’t even WANT to crawl my way out. but my husband has helped a lot. I feel like such a child!!!! #I reached max tags. 🙃 bye love you all. till next time

[pickled-flowers]

Saw some of the grossest parenting today in the bus

#this dad was on his phone the whole bus ride ok #and his two kids were screaming arguing #at most he would periodically tell them to lower their voice while still on his phone #one time he told them to stop the one sitting next to him hit him 😭 and he went back to look at his phone with no reaction #my guy something is seriously wrong with you #your kids are screaming at each other doesn't even matter all that much that we are in the bus rn #theyre not just being loud kids you need to do smt!!!!!! its too early for this!!! i could hear them even with my noise cancelling headphone #anyways #ive never seen smt like this #and i work in a mall i see lots of parents and kids #idk smt really disgusting about a parent just not even interested in engaging with their kids #dude no wonder they're loud they probably want ur attention #also this one lady once who came in wjth a big stroller #and the store where i work has little moving rooms between the aisle so this woman decided TO LEAVE THE STROLLER WITH A KID INSIDE AT THE #FRONT OF THE STORE #the kids started crying and his hrother (toddler not in the stroller but not following the mom for some reason) started exploring and i #i had to watch them until the mom came back but like the woman just left them there??? #i just stepped in but what if i hadnt??? lady????????? #i see lots of cute interactions of course #like this little girl who came with who i think is her grandpa and he asked me to help her chose her next manga read 😭💖 #i basically work in a book/toy store #theres a lot of candy as well the kids love it #idk i like seeing kids being happy ok it is healing #like all the kids sitting on the floors deep in their books while the parents shop 😭😭😭 makes me smile every time top tier behavior

[thesistersarcheron]

I'm not like... a total bitch for being hurt that my parents moved house a week and a half ago without telling me, right?

#i've been helping them clean out the old house and prepare for the move for months so i knew it was coming #but??? today i got the news that they finally moved. a week and a half ago. when i asked if i could come use their printer in the old house #idk my mom got very upset that i felt like i wasn't allowed to just pop in whenever i wanted just now like i was being the weird one #when they just... forgot to tell me they moved into a house 5 minutes away from me... they told my brothers though! #aita for not feeling welcome in my parents' new house? lmao

[notasapleasure]

I guess some days you're just fated to stand in a field for two hours watching a tractor sink into the mud. Never thought it would be my field, mind.

#i just wanted some sand to line my pond! #instead i lost my afernoon to....tractors. #had to beg the farmer across the way for help again. #at least the bloke who got stuck was from the same tiny village as my parents lololol #and the morning started with the builder being like 'soz my dog's better but i had a wee heart attack so can't come this week' #ok. fine. it's just like that. nothing in this house is simple. #one day i'll move in and i'll never know peace because it won't feel real. #adventures in home ownership take 2

[itspileofgoodthings]

If Jane Austen could write about my family from the outside and I could read it then maybe I would be healed.

#moving out has helped! but is there is not a new social life/core for me yet #maybe ever? idk #but within the actual family unit there is ….. so much going on #so much suffering. so much change. unbelievable levels of stress and anxiety and depression #like I really cannot emphasize enOUGH how much #and my parents are essentially full time caregivers #and I both want to help and be a stabilizing factor and I also want to be honest about how much of a toll it takes on me #because i think it’s A Lot #but also I don’t like modern rhetoric on any of these difficult topics and I reject it even though I use a lot of the language #hence why I need Jane Austen to do it for me #to bring this full circle #anyways if you could say a prayer for us. for my parents especially but also my sister #well all the sisters and my brothers! #anyway reflecting angsting etc. #tbh I would love to know the medium of the average family’s unhappiness and stress #Because I think ours is off the charts #But idk. Would love to know more tbh #I would love to know if a lot of it just the human condition! But sometimes I’m just like this is not normal lol #thanks for listening

[gemsofthegalaxy]

To be honest this "things will not be handed to you" idea that Ewan may have instilled in Greg may have actually worked against Ewan's other and more clearly stated goal of bullying him into being a kind person who cares about his principles (whatever principles Ewan has, not Greg's own)

Because, as I also said here, Greg has become and always has been a person who will take anything he can get, anything he wants, the moment he sees an opening. Things might not always be handed to him, other than the job itself, but he has no misgivings about taking- food from work, protection from Tom, an apartment from Kendall, the ear of the goddamn president if he can just get close enough

I think it makes most sense that Greg was raised with and knows scarcity, of both love and proper support and material things. He absolutely is in his position due to nepotism, but hasn't actually been given everything, a lot of it he takes, and takes before it has a chance to slip through his fingers. again.

#succession #succession spoilers #greg hirsch #ewan roy #I have seen someone say n*c braun thinks Greg was coddled by Marianne but this is why I don't seek or take actor's assertions as.. canon #. Maybe she did baby him #but I can't believe she supported him adequately and I don't think being harsher would help) #i forget and cant corroborate right now didnt she also tell him he couldnt move back home? i know she said she 'had no money for him' #i have a bit of a more personal chip on my shoulder abt that because i just moved home w my parents and im glad i did #this is also something that makes him good for Tom because Tom is king of going after what he wants no matter what

[skoulsons]

im choosing ignorance for right now but will cover it at the end of this (this being a whole essay 💀)

So, it looks like Baylan has a green kyber crystal in his belt. This post and others have pointed it out

Obviously, this begs the question of whom did it belong to? Immediately the thought would be Baylan’s. He was a padawan of the Jedi Order, trained into knighthood, and eventually a general during the Clone Wars. He created his own lightsaber hilt and (maybe, idrk exactly how it works forgive me) chose his own crystal. And, even if he didn’t, it was still a part of who he was for that portion of his early life.

We learned last episode he misses the idea of the Order. With Baylan, there’s a heavy amount of sentimentality associated with the Jedi, especially if we believe (which I do wholeheartedly) that he lost a padawan.

But that’s what begs the other question—is the crystal from his padawan? Did he take it from his padawans lightsaber and keep it for himself to carry on the memory of that kid (who i like to think was a female but that’s the girldad lover in me speaking)? Was it motivated by grief? Has he allowed himself to grieve at all, and if not, was taking the crystal his way of avoiding that emotion?

Or was it motivated by grief? There is no emotion, only peace. Is that when he ditched the code? How could he have any sort of peace after losing his padawan? Or, did he find that peace in keeping the crystal?

But then there’s my other question—what’s the significance of it? Dave Filoni, from what I’ve seen, is intentional. I don’t think adding what looks like a green kyber crystal in Baylan’s belt is just some sort of happenstance that didn’t have any thought behind it.

And, with Baylan’s character, it’s way too significant. When it comes to how he feels about the Jedi, how he seems to actually feel a little bad about having to kill Ahsoka in episode 2. His relationship with Shin. The padawan braid. It all screams significance to me.

So, when it comes to significance, what role is it going to play by the end of the show? I really cannot see it being included and making Baylan’s character so nuanced and intriguing and then not doing anything with it.

Mundi and I were talking about this earlier today. I mentioned these main two points, but also this-

And then Mundi had to drive the stake further through my heart and twist it around by basically saying what if Baylan’s dying act was giving Shin his crystal (still thinking about this mundi THANKS)

I said a stretch at first, but it doesn’t seem too far-fetched anymore (except for her becoming fully good). Now, I don’t want Baylan to die. He’s the last character I want to die and I love him, BUT…

How he dies? I have no idea. Thrawn, Morgan, Enoch? Ahsoka, Sabine, Ezra? Betrayed by Shin? (very doubtful i feel) I think there’s a lot of options of how it could happen, if the cards are played right.

So if we think that’s the case, Shin is around when he dies or mortally wounded. Maybe she sees it happen to him like how he saw it happen to his last padawan. Shin is distraught, the most emotion we see from her because, well, it’s Baylan who’s trained her and borderline raised her, and they have a moment together before he passes. Baylan makes her take the crystal (which would hit a lot harder if it is his original one and did not belong to his padawan) and they have some sappy goodbye that’ll have me crying for six weeks.

We’ve also all talked about how Shin and subtext from some of her lines that indicates some sort of… longing or curiosity regarding the Jedi. If, within the last two episodes, those are confirmed or it’s revealed that Baylan could sense that feeling in Shin, i think (assuming he does die in this way) giving her his crystal makes sense.

Maybe she keeps it as sentimental in her own belt as I don’t see her turning fully to the Light in the show. But, if there’s another season, who knows.

Going back four paragraphs, I believe if it were Thrawn or Morgan who killed him or orchestrated his death, Shin would not follow them back. She’d go with Ahsoka and the Gang TM home in the purrgil mouths. She clearly hates Peridea and, if Ahsoka and the crew are there to witness Baylan’s death (for whatever reason), they could have sympathy on Shin maybe and help her home.

OK. I hope that covered those thoughts in a somewhat coherent fashion. Here’s where that chosen ignorance comes in.

Shin’s braid. An anon actually sent a link to a tweet with both this AND the Baylan one in one post, so thank you nonnie for that!

Anyway. Shin’s braid. Three (four?) green kyber crystals.

Why.

Did they, for some reason, come from Baylan? Did he just have a cluster of them and he gave her a few to include in her braid?

If the braid was her idea, did she want them included in it? Did they still come from Baylan if that’s true? Did she want to feel that connected to the Jedi from the start of her apprenticeship with Baylan to include them in her braid?

If the braid was Baylan’s idea, did he include them? Weave them through the strands? Did he talk to her about including them? Including crystals in a padawan braid wasnt traditional, to my knowledge (not that they are traditional jedi). Was it some sort of selfish choice? Was the ghost of his padawan still lingering in the middle of these two that he felt he had to?

WHAT DOES IT MEAN. WHY ARE THEY THERE. WHAT IS THE SIGNIFICANCE.

I NEED THEIR WHOLE STORY RIGHT NOW

#oh. this got so out of hand. #hopefully it was somewhat coherent and understandable 💀💀 #this is assuming shin doesn’t die!!! #that’s a whole other post to make #the way I casually wrote this whole thing in the kitchen with my parents with my brightness all the way down #gamer moves #also tske anything I say with a grain of salt please im not an expert #im just Emotional and don’t know what to do with all of it #I WANT THEIR WHOLE STORY #PLEASE #I NEED IT LIKE I NEED WATER #ID WATCH A WHOLE SHOW OF THEM JUST WALKING AND TALKING #NEED SO MANY SCENES OF THEM THE LAST TWO EPISODES #PLEEEEEASSE #I live and breathe them someone help me please #this on scratches not even half my brains thoughts about them #the thoughts are being overworked #love how this slowly got more unhinged #ahsoka tv #baylan skoll #shin hati

[hauntedselves]

one of the feelings i hate most is feeling anxious with no clear reason. like, if there is a reason to feel anxious, ok, i can deal with that. but just anxiety for anxiety's sake? ugh, what am i supposed to do with that?

another feeling i hate is the autism "something in my routine is changing and i don't know how to deal with it". the only cure for that is time to get used to the new routine, which sucks when you're feeling the anxious-stressed-Off-SomethingIsWrong mix of Fucking With Autism Routine. i don't want to wait for me to get used to it, i'm feeling Bad and i want to fix it now!

#this post brought to you by: i'm finally moving out of home and i'm excited but also Scared #escpecially since just last night i had another Episode of not-hypoglycemia-but-not-Not-hypoglycemia #and im like... i dont want to deal with that w/o my parent near. i mean i'll be living w/ my sisterr and her partner and their friend so - #- im not gonna be living alone but its still. Scary #personal #dogpost #hs' autism #hs' anxiety #ive also been having a lot of trauma nightmares lately so thats not helping

[shopwitchvamp]

You were born at Landstuhl right? (Sorry if this is weird I was an army medic and your post had strong army family vibes)

You're right about the army family vibes, haha. But that's the wrong part Germany.

I was born in Nürnburg, I think at a German hospital 🤔? My grandma on my mom's side is German & from Nürnburg. My mom was born in 1965, and then ended up at the same hospital having me in 1990. And yeah both of my parents were in the army. My mom got out when I was born, but my dad stayed in for a full career.

We did end up closer to Landstuhl later on though! 2000-2003 we lived in Weisbaden (specifically Mainz-Kastel). All of my middle school years were at Weisbaden American Middle School.

#i haven't been back to Germany since we left in 2003 :[ #one of the hardest moves i ever went through #i did not want to go back to the US haha #we moved to harker heights Texas after that and actually i had a pretty ok time there #the next move was southlake Texas when i was halfway through high school and THAT was the actual nightmare #my parents still live there and i don't go back if i can help it #which since I'm no contact with them since 2020 is much easier these days #anyway yeahhh army child life.. i know no other way of life but i still don't recommend it

[def-not-kaz-brekker]

can parents stop teasing kids for forgetting shit please

#I’m crying because my dad just teased me #it’s not my fault for forgetting something or misunderstanding I don’t do it on purpose you know #stop teasing me about everything #and they fucking tease me about always wanting to go upstairs and wanting to be alone #GEEZ I FUCKING WONDER WHY #I hate them #I fucking hate them so much #I can’t wait to move out and cut contact completely #stop teasing your kids #just fucking stop doing that ok #if you want your kids to love you stop that #parenting #kids #teasing #parents #fuck my dad I hate him #mom isn’t helping but she’s better than him #my sister doesn’t know any better cause she’s young but she’s on a thin fucking line #my brother is lovely and has not done anything wrong ever #family

[ajokeformur-ray]

When is Joker gonna approach me on the streets, tell me he's been keeping an eye on me for years and has had enough of me letting my job take advantage of me and save me??? Asking for a friend.

#at this point my job is more hindrance than help #but the hourly wage is good and the hours are stable and the overtime is plenty #and in this economy i can NOT complain #plus im trying so hard to move out of my parents' house #i want joker to come save me🥺

[sob-dylan]

just got my first rejection in the post-grad job hunt. the first of many.

#i'm determined to move back home bc my parents aren't getting any younger and i want to help care for my dad #but trying to find a job in my field in only one city is vexing to say the least #i graduate in may and if i don't have a job by then i don't know if i can justify moving back home #why did i have to be born in such an expensive city 😭 #also writing a masters thesis while simultaneously trying to find a job is not a reasonable thing for a little dumb dumb like me to underta #personal #casual self pitying hours #i know any job hunt includes a ton of rejection i can handle it but i'm still gonna complain

[seraphim-soulmate]

how much mold is considered a mold problem in your bedroom also can mold make your heart rate fucked up thanks. Aoh also the wall which has the mold literally falls apart if I touch it so. Not really sure how to get rid of it also I assume there's more mold on the other side of the wall??? idk I think every couple of months I discover mold somewhere and panic and then clean it and forget about it.

#personal #these arent genuine i can just use google but theres more mold in my room and im gonna start going apeshit #apartments are incredibly expensive. colivings scare the shit out of me after being targeted by a roommate for years. #some1 pls buy me an apartment ❤️😊 #wish i could just accept that rent and expenses is going to cost over half of what im making but jesus christ. #i still have medical bills to pay and food to eat and help services i need #moving back in with either of my parents is gonna put me in a depressive spiral. #most houses in my country have a mold problem anyways bcs humidity ! so like aaahgh #the options for moving are all unaffordable so i might as well get something unaffordable that is less likely to have a mold problem. #housing is such a Big Scary for me that im having suicidal ideation over finding an apartment #bcs uh obviously being homeless is not good. and no one wants a disabled tenant! #i dont even know what level of support i need either

[anaalnathrakhs]

btw my mom said it. she said it to me looking me in the eyes. i told her about how difficult it was for me to get through those family reunions, and she admitted it was very important to her, important enough that she was just going to do it anyway.

#i know there are compromises out there #and i'm not going to live w them my whole life so i'll be out fairly soon all things considered #and i'm trying to be understanding when people's priorities aren't the same as mine #but i uh. would be lying if i said it doesn't hurt a little wittle bit. #i'm gonna keep handling it because i've been an asshole to my parents for long enough #i largely owe them that. cooperating and spending time with them and engaging in what matters to them. #but then she's says things like ''but whenever you move out you'll still be part of the family and invited if you want uwu'' #it's just ?????? okay thanks ???? perhaps you could also try seeing things from my point of view perhaps???? #it's all circling back to that. they have a very weird way to ''help'' me #throwback to them trying to cure my depression with amusement parks #when i would have liked a little less of that and a little more help and understanding #it feels like they're trying to put bandaids on a cancer #''you don't ask for help'' okay no help is coming. i am not being helped. #the system can't help me cause there's no damn beds no damn professionals no damn time to help everyone #the people around me can't help me because it's not their job or within their wheelhouse to help me #and they've got their own shit to deal with #on that note #i was discussing stuff with my mom #and i mentionned it was indeed pretty difficult to manage your time when you had to deal with school and friends and your parents #and she was like ''deal with your parents???? what do you have to deal with????'' #oh i don't KNOW maybe that i'm officially an associate of my dad and i have to help out w events and some accounting #or maybe i have to pay back the fucking years i spent being an ungrateful child now i do everything you expect me to and it's exhausting #maybe that you constantly remind me i am living in YOUR house by touching my shit instead of letting me deal with shit at my own pace #maybe the fact that despite everything i care about you and i want us to have a good relationship and that takes WORK and i'm exhausted #maybe the fact that you keep giving me advice that is unproductive misguided misunderstanding etc etc #and cold comfort after you did something you knew to be difficult for me #how you keep encouraging shit that i don't want and am unhappy with because it's the ''normal'' way #how you raised me from childhood to be an empty shell in a family of empty shells #broadcasting my misery #vent

[suncaptor]

makes me feel a bit insane that Britta is seen as being insane and selfish for being upset her parents who she's spent her life trying to get away from are using her friends to stalk her just because she's suffering financially and needs help.

#incoherents #community #britta perry #britta #she lists random events that are clearly indictiative of abuse from parents who cant even renember her childhood #and shes tried so hard to avoid them she's moved across the country at least on one occasion #and her friends spend game nights with them!?!?!? #like i do sort of get being willing to borrow money if you want to help her through them but even that is making her financially dependent #she's seen as insane for being willing to pay her parents back and drop her friends and change her while life because of this #but shes been betrayed by them??? theyre treating her as if shes crazy???? #also speaks volumes to the fact her friends are SO cruel to her. she is consistently bullied and treated badly #i dont like. particularly like her all the time or anything but the way everyone including the show treats her is horrendous #regardless of if shes a great person her friends shouldnt be cruel to her all the time????? #tracks that theyd do this 🙄🙄 #just rememberer jeff telling her shes selfish for being too proud to use her own support system and am full of rage again. like. #if you cant afford to help her without borrowing from her parents tell her oh my GOD #also the line about tinder. like she is fr being stalked and monitored against her consent #and it's treated like i guess a good thing since shes been homeless?????????? #ahhh